Life of Misty Moon Volume One : Colt Meets Filly.

" More Tea Ms.Wuna? " The soft lisp of a little filly giggled as she wore a oversized white garden hat decorated with a pink bow on the rim and a oversized white gown that crummpled slightly at the ground.

The filly had a shimmering white coat with a cascading raven colored mane that never seemed to end, her eyes were so soft and blue they always seemed to calm my nerves as her laugh was like music-sweet and never judging.

I nodded along my own mane in a slightly sloppy side-do though at the time I thought was elegant, a makeshift crown made of paper sat atop my head while a oversized blue gown fell over my body.

" Oh course Ms.Cellie. " I couldn't help but giggle aloud holding out my small cup of tea as my best friend poured the invisible drink into my cup.

Her name was Raven and she was the only pony beside my sister I could trust, she knew my secret from day one though I never had to tell her anything it was as if she knew.

Never did she judge me nor did she make fun of me, instead it was as if she could see the filly inside of my soul.

She and I were friends.

But we each knew in our hearts we were sisters.

" Heehee Ms.Wuna that gown is soo pwetty..." Raven started to speak up as the loud crashing of the door behind us caused us both to jump up in fright.

His shadow was so large, those eyes so dark.

" Who was it Haze? " Twilight spoke in a soft gentle tone as she used her magic to move a small glass tea cup to my hooves as I grasped it softly.

" It was her dad Jericho. " I sighed aloud sitting atop a soft purple pillow, eyes falling down to the floor while Twilight used her powers to pour some warm tea into my cup with ease all the while listening to my story.

I took a deep breath my eyes locked more onto my cup then Twilight herself, my heart was beating wildly in my chest never had I been inside a castle for one but for a Princess to be taking time out of her day to help me?

It all seemed like this was some kind of surreal dream.

Twilight blinked lashes softly waiting for my reply as I suddenly felt myself blushing a light pink across my cheeks, Twilight had to be really busy today and here I was staying silent staring at a cup of tea as if it were going to spring to life or something.

" Ahem...Jericho was Ravens father-He wasn't a bad pony just had his own belifes..." I stummbled over my words trying to regen my composure.

" Once he found out I was dressing up with his daughter and about the games we played, he kinda lost it." I sighed aloud the visions of him grabbing my mane from the back and those wicked words he spoke still haunt me.

" So this Jericho found out- what then? " Twilight flashed a warm smile towards me as I couldn't help but start to feel calm, my body and mind returning to normal.

" Well he threatened me- said if he ever saw me around his daughter poisoning her morals-That he'd out me to not just my mother but also the town." I felt my heart sinking inside my chest slowly remembering the fear I felt that day.

" I agreed and from that day on-just kept to myself of course Raven tried to talk to me still but my fear outweighed my own happiness." I stoped talking staring out the window across from myself watching the rain pour down outside slowly.

" I ingored my only friend for months, each day shattering her heart just a bit more and before I knew it she was gone..." I spoke in a soft whisper a single tear rolling down my cheek slowly and dropping to the floor below.

" Where did she go? " Twilight raised a brow as I simply shrugged.

" Somewhere I think Canterlot-Her father moved them there, believed it was the best place for them to grow up right and pure. " I rolled my eyes slightly hating myself for ever abandoning Raven, she would have done anything for me yet I turned away.

" I see.- And how long have you felt that you were a filly inside? " Twilight smiled swiftly changing the subject as I gently bit down on my lower lip giving it a small bit of thought.

" I guess ever since I was just a little foal-I loved to watch my mother sow and cook or play with the fillies with their games instead with the colts." I ran a hoof slowly down my mane a small chuckle escaping my lips.

" My sister told me once when I was just a little foal- that I'd play with her old toys and tell her when I grew up I was going to be a strong mare just like her." I simply felt myself gaze up locking my eyes with The Princess.

" But as of now I feel like I'm in the wrong body-I see other colts growing up into stallions and those changes scare me." I feel myself start to shiver as my mind begins to race with thoughts of the future.

" I hate looking into the mirror because who I see is not me..." I feel tears slowly start to form in my eyes.

" The way I act-The way I speak and the way I live!-It's all fake none of it is me!! " I suddenly feel the world starting to spin everything around me seems as if it is trying to close in.

" I feel so hollow-The only time I'm happy is in my memories..." I can see your face again sister in the back of my mind, smiling spreading her lies and making me believe in a false hope.

" And at that my memories are nothing but LIES!! " I scream jumping up off my pillow as the cup of tea falls away from my grasp, shattering into many pieces across the stone floors of the castle.

I can just stand there in silence tears rolling down my cheeks, much like the rain falling from the dark sky.

" I'm so sorry." I say taking a deep breath as I calm my nerves sitting back down atop the pillow in silence.

" It's ok Haze you've been holding alot in it seems." Twilight spoke in her soft collected tone slowly walking over to my side and placing a hoof atop my shoulder.

" Thank you, I guess I just have to live with this huh? " I say with a defeated huff eyes slowly looking up to meet her own in silence.

She seemed to be thinking something over as if a secret was revealed to her yet she had no idea if she should share it, I merely watched in awe as the Princess simply scrunched up her muzzle, making a face so out of place I couldn't help but laugh.

" I'll take that as a yes." I chuckled aloud softly wiping a few tears away from my eyes before lifting up and giving Twilight a soft hug.

" Thank you ma'am, it meant alot that I could talk about this with somepony." I broke our hug forcing a small smile to cross my lips, if anything I felt a few hundred pounds lighter after pouring out my soul a bit.

" Hmmm.- If I said there was a way to help you- what would you say? " Twilight spoke her mind set on a path as if the worry she were feeling a few minutes ago had just vanished or at most put at bay.

" Help me?-But how? " I asked my eyes narrowing slightly unsure what Twilight meant by those words.

" Magic spells to change one's gender are out there." Twilight spoke up in a soft tone my body suddenly becoming numb, those words escaping her lips meant for me a chance to live normally at long last.

" There-The-There Is!! " I suddenly almost screamed outloud never had I known such a spell existed, I felt my heart fluttering happily in my chest.

" Yes but..." The Princess opened her mouth to speak only to have me jump around her happily, spazzing out like I just won the bit lottery or something.

" Can you cast it now? " I asked hooves tapping on the floor excitedly.

" Will it hurt? " I stoped in place asking that question as I placed a hoof on my chin in thought.

" Haze!- Settle down please. " The Princess started to speak in a stern tone, yet as soon as my backside hit the floor in silence it trailed off into a softer tone.

" I can't just change your gender here and now.- Spells that alter a ponies life are very powerful and kep't under lock and key in Canterlot." Twilight spoke in a clear tone as I could feel my ears folding back slightly.

" I might be able to get permission from The Princesses to use such a spell, but I'd think ceratin conditions should be met first." Twilight smiled walking over to a large shelf of books taking down a small violet colored one from the top shelf.

" Conditions? " I asked a bit confused as I watched the book float over to me and drop softly onto my hooves.

" Yes Conditions!- One. I'd like you to come visit me at least twice a week for the rest of the year, we can discuss how you feel and get more insight on why you feel this way." Twilight giggled trotting back over to my side eyes sparkling softly in the warm light of the room.

" Two. You will have to tell your family how you feel. " Twilight allowed the words to fall from her lips as I merely cringed at the very thought of telling my mom any of this.

" Three. I want you to live the year as a filly in public.- This means dressing, acting, talking and behaving as a young mare your age would." Twilights voice stabbed at my heart like daggers as I felt my whole body tense up and grow numb.

I thought she wanted to help me but I was wrong, it seemed as if she merely did want to make fun of me.

Though she had to lift me up before pushing me back down.

" Conditions Four and Five will be given out sometime in the future- if you can handle the other Three." She finished up her speech as I just sat there in silence gazing down to the book in my hooves a face of anger present.

" You don't have to mock me, you could have just called me a freak on the streets. " I huffed in anger as Twilight flashed a confused worried look.

" Why in Equestria would you say that? " She asked narrowing eyes in a stern fashion.

" Well the fact you want me to commit social suicide was a hint... " I spoke up my voice quivering as the mare wrapped her hooves around me and gave a firm soft squeeze.

" Haze I gave those conditions because you can't alter your life without seeing first hoof how things will be. " Her voice carried over to my ears slowly as I simply gazed down in silence.

" And I'm not forcing you to do anything- if you truly want to make a change in your life you will have to face that which you fear. " Her hoof slid under my chin lifting up my head to face her.

" If you can show not only The Princesses but Me - you are willing to and can handle the change in lifestyle I promise you a change. " Twilight giggled nudging my head gently with her muzzle as she gazed down to the book in my hooves.

" That book is empty Haze- Yet anything you write in those empty pages will come to me.-Anytime you need guidence I'll be here. " Twilight smiled as I clutched the book firmly in my hooves.

Though I was scared she was right.

If I wanted change in my life.

It would have to start with me.