The Doubt of Pinkie

by crimsonphoenix105

Rating: teen
Tags: Random, Adventure, Dark, Sad, Romance, Tragedy
Length: 4092

pinkie has lost who she is and with clones all over and no one to trust she may be sent to a pool

Pinkie lost her sense of who is the original and driven by fear tries to run to evade her captors… her own friends or the real pinkie's friends at least

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2015-01-10 05:57:29 UTC

Who Am I?

I must get away their rounding us all up testing us to see who gets distracted first. Why don't they know who the real pinkie is, I thought they were my friends or pinkies friends. Maybe they don't know pinkie as well. Oh what's the point I should make a break for it. Huh, it's seems the time it took me thinking it's down to me and another pinkie.

It's time. I ran, ran so far away (not the time? Fine!). They tried to chase me but my tricks if knowing every corner of ponyville helped me so I decided to mess with them. Over here. no over here! you can't catch me! This is so fun it's to bad I have to leave it all behind.

I'm at the outskirts of the town ready to leave but the full weight of what I'm about to do crashes on me and my hair goes straight, my hair and skin start to dull, and tears begin to fall. I can hear shouting, pinkie's friends have found me I gotta run.

The rainbow one caught me though, I don't know how all I know is I have to get out of here. "It's going to be all ok." The yellow one with light pink hair said. "Are you sure that's pinkie, she doesn't look anything like her" the white one with purple hair said. "Rarity that's not nice and fluttershy is correct it's all going to be alright" the purple one with purple hair said. So the yellow one is Fluttershy and the white one is Rarity.

They all lowered their guard except the rainbow one. If I can distract her I can get out of here through the window. "Hey can I have some water?" I asked her. "Fluttershy get her some water." She commanded as she looked at me with untrusting eyes. That plan failed but I'll come up with something, I always do. "Here." fluttershy said cutting my thought off. "Thanks."I responded. She then joined the group that consisted of the friends except the rainbow one. A thought came to my head. "Where's the other pinkie?" They all looked at me and said she's at the bakery helping the cakes. "Why do you want to know?!" Yelled the rainbow one I think her name was dash, whatever. "Because I want to know why I'm still alive!" I yelled back. "We want the know why you ran." the purple one replied. "Ummm, maybe it has to do with the fact that you were killing all of us and I was getting scared on WHY YOU COULDN'T TELL WHO YOUR OWN FRIEND WAS!!! I screamed out.

The purple one seemed taken aback by my outburst and I smiled with pride. All of a sudden I felt a sharp pain and I was knocked back. I shook my head to see dash glaring at me while all her friends stared in shock. She grabbed me by the collar and slammed me against the wall and said "I can tell your not the real pinkie!" I grinned a maniacal grin and said " I can see you care for her a lot" the I slammed my lips into hers, she tasted like skittles, yum. Her hold on me loosened and I kneed her in the gut she fell down Groaning and I knelt down and kissed her forehead and whispered "sorry" . Her friends stood in shock and I bolted out the door. I saw the other pinkie and grabbed her head jumped over her and slammed her face into the ground and did a model pose while someone took pictures.( saints row 3 rules!) I then ran back to the outskirts almost reaching the forest when I heard a boom, I looked behind me and saw dash rushing towards me at high speeds with a rainbow trail behind her. My last thought before impact was "This is going to hurt".

CLIFFHANGER

So my longest update ever with a total of 667 words.

What Am I Feeling?

I groaned waking up, my head hurt like hell and I could hear voices coming clearer. It appears that I'm back in the tree house strapped to a table to a point to where I couldn't move. I tried to wiggle free but that didn't work, I also tried biting the straps but I couldn't reach any. The voices are coming louder, fuck I don't have enough time.

The door swung open to show the 5 friends and the other pinkie. "just great" I thought. I heard twilight, i think, say " was it really necessary to tie her up dash" so dash put me here, I should mess with her Hahahaha. "So dash your the one to tie me up huh, I got to say I didn't know you were into that kind of stuff." Fluttershy hid behind the rest and dash looked ready to kill me, she probably was in her mind, and the others stood there not knowing what to do until twilight spoke up. "What are we going to do with you?" "Let me go." I replied twilight was about to say something until dash but in an said "not a chance in hell" I smirked at this, I don't know why but something about her was so alluring. Maybe it was her carefree attitude or her defiance, her taste or maybe it was all of the above. To bad we're on separate sides or I would not hurt her to get away instead hug and kiss her and live happily ever aft- wait what am I thinking I need to get out of here if I'm going to survive.

I looked for a way out but there wasn't any, so I decided to bide my time. "So dash are you going to get on top of me or what?" Dash probably would of pummeled me if her friends didn't hold her back, that's what confuses me most why do they protect me if they hate me? I must of voiced this out loud because I heard a voice say because we do not know if your a copy or a different side of our friend. I looked around in confusion trying to find the source of the voice until I saw a creature of mixed animals that looked like the fabled discord.

Fluttershy saw me staring and looked and saw discord, she squealed and hugged him. "Wtf they have the fucken ruler of fucken chaos on their side but I thought chaos was always on my side, now I don't have even that." Watch your thoughts young lady he said, I mentally flipped the bird, remember still tied up here. He glared at me and asked where the other was. I glared back and said locked up tight.

He said it would be dangerous to let her out. I replied that I know plus I would never let her out before I tasted the rainbow one and with this I turned to face her and slowly licked my lips. Oh how fun it is to watch her squirm under my gaze, I wish she would live me back- NO, this is not love just special interest!!!! "Do not deny what can easily be proven child" discord sent into my mind and with that he said goodbye and left. I ate diner was questioned some more and stared at rainbow.

A Rose of Blue

I am currently in fluttershy's garden because I heard her talking about all the flowers, animals, and how peaceful it was. Recently she has been clawing out if her cage trying to get out and i thought it would be good to have some sort of peace. Of course they didn't trust me yet so I have to stay near fluttershy and rainbow dash is keeping a close eye on me.

Fluttershy was shy around me at first and her wings would flutter a little when she got scared, hence the name I think, but she is currently telling me things about her animals the plants here and her friends. From what I can gather of her friends, twilight is the element of magic, she is the element of kindness, applejack is the element of honesty, rarity is the element of generosity, pinkie/I am the element of laughter, and dash is the element if honesty.

I wonder how loyal dash would be too me? "STOP THAT, KEEP IT TOGETHER" I mentally berated myself. I must've said this out loud because I could here fluttershy whimpering. "Sorry, "I said "I'm having a dilemma and I didn't know I yelled out loud what I was thinking to myself." "What's your problem?" she asked. "Uhhhhh," I started blushing " I'd rather not talk about it." She didn't seem satisfied but didn't question any further. I feel like I can trust her enough to tell her something and have her not tell the others. " I want to tell you something," I said " but you can't tell the others. something came to mind. " pinkie promise" I said. She recited the promise and I told her that I think I might be in love with rainbow. She gasped at this and asked how can I tell.

I said that every time I see her I want to mess with her and wish we weren't on different sides, I want to know if she can be loyal to me and love me. This seemed good enough for fluttershy and she told me to wait here as she left. So as I waited I laid down and a tear fell, just one, I'll cut myself some slack because this is a emotional pain not a physical one.

Fluttershy came back carrying a blue rose in her mouth, she dropped it on the ground and said give this to her she might not get what it means but at least you know you did something. I thanked her and we walked back to the tree house. Rainbow was already there so I just gave her the rose and walked to my room, on the way I saw twilight staring at me knowing exactly what it meant.

My room consisted of a bed, a bookshelf with books of course, a window, and a lamp. The window was barred and enhanced with magic and so was the door. Twilight walked in with fluttershy walking behind her, fluttershy sat next to me and twilight sat across from us. " I want to know what happened while you guys were in the garden!" Twilight commanded. She looked at fluttershy expectantly, but she hid behind her hair all I said was that she pinkie promised not to tell, twilight a little startled by this said rather bluntly "you love rainbow dash, don't you?" I closed my eyes for a long time before answering yes.

She did something of a happy dance I think because she knew it was true. I said that she couldn't tell rainbow dash. She asked why and I replied because she doesn't feel the same and would use it as a way to hurt me. And with that I buried my face into my pillow as twilight and fluttershy( who was silent the whole time) watched me with pity, little did we know that there was a Certain someone listening to the whole thing.

I'm going to end the chapter here and I want to know who you guys think that someone is.

The Secret Is Out or Is It?

POV ????

As the mysterious person walks away from the door closing it silently, they leave the tree house heading in the direction of the boutique.

POV Pinkie

As I just laid there wondering why this was happening to me, why was life so cruel? Love is what I don't understand but I strive for it. She doesn't love me but maybe I can make her love me. Who am I kidding, she doesn't care about me how could she ever love me.

I heard a nock on the door." Who is it?" I asked. "It's dash, everyone is worried about you your not at dinner." " I'm not hungry" I say trying not to cry. "Is something wrong?" "No, nothing is wrong just go eat." "Ok." After she left I let out a sigh, I lied I'm starving I didn't eat yesterday because I can't stand the fact of eating at the same table as rainbow and have her eat cautious bites staring at me thinking I poisoned her dinner.

I fell asleep at some point with nothing to do. When I woke up I saw a plate with food on it next to the lamp with a note, it read " rainbow told us that you weren't hungry I know it was a lie, you can't go starving yourself to avoid one person. Sincerely, twilight.

So she gave me food well it was thoughtful so I might as well eat it. After I ate it I saw twilight walk in, she just stared at me with sad eyes. "You need to start eating if you want to live."is what she said. "WHAT IF I DONT WANT TO LIVE!!!,"I screamed "sorry, I'm just so confused on what my feelings are." She nodded knowing the situation. Why is love so complicated I thought as I buried my head in the pillow.

The door opened and I looked up from the pillow to see rarity and applejack. Twilight looked confused at to why they were here. "We know you like rainbow dash darling." My eyes widened and my eyes started to water and I buried my head in my pillow. "How did you find out?" Twilight asked. "I was told by someone who doesn't want they're name said, and I told applejack." Rarity explained.

"Does rainbow dash know?" I asked. "No, she doesn't we thought it be best not to tell her." Rarity replied. "Thank you for that." Is what I said before I passed out. I found myself in what appeared to be a dream but was way to real to be a dream. I was traveling through the woods until I came across a pool but why is it here in the middle of the woods but my "dream" self went through it and more of "me" came out of it.

I was confused on why I had this "dream" but the scenery started getting blurry and washed out. I could hear a faint voice but it was getting louder telling out my name. I could feel my body being shaken and I awoke to find rainbow shaking me trying to wake me up yelling pinkie for some reason unbeknownst to me. "Stop calling me that, call me pinkamena."

I looked around me I saw twilight, rarity, rainbow dash, fluttershy, and applejack around me. I look at the area I'm in but I don't recognize it, "where are we?" We're at zecora's , we couldn't wake you up so we decided to check with zecora. Zecora, she sounds familiar, I think she does potions and brews.

"And where is this zecora?" I asked. "I am right here child." I heard. I saw a zebra with big earrings and golden rings on her neck come in through a door. "Guys is it ok if I talk to zecora for a bit?" They all looked at each other and nodded and then looked at zecora "is it alright with you?" twilight asked. "Yes" zecora replied. "Alright but you better not take off again or we will find you." Rainbow dash said/threatend. I nodded.

A/N

Decided to add pov's

If anyone was wondering, pinkamena is suffering from memory loss she can remember some things but depression and being hit in the head with a fist at the speed of a rain boom doesn't help with memory.

Total of 682 words not including author notes.

WHAT?

"D-discord?!" I screamed.

"Yes" luna replied.

"B-but how he's The Lord of chaos not a potion maker" I true to reason. She had to be playing a joke on me it's all for a little laugh.....right?

"Yes he is but he was not always that way, he was once a great wizard and potion maker. Seek him out and he may help you." And with that I left a but shaky and pale. "Hey pinkamena where were you?" I heard twilight ask. "Luna" was all I said. I have a new problem now, how to find discord without the others finding out and can I really trust him?

Forgotten Memories

Pinkamena's POV:

As I wandered I came upon an ashy, decaying land that smelt of death. Never the less I treaded forward and instantaneously fell unconscious. When I woke up a was in a vine grove, filled with memories long forgotten, I walked further into it and found a fallen vine. I picked it up and I saw me and rainbow dash before the incident. "How much do you like me?" Past pinkie asked. "As much as I like the wonderbolts" past rainbow dash replied. "Could I make you like me more?" This never happened it couldn't have I don't ever remember it. "When were older lets be a couple!" Past Rainbow exclaimed. "Pinkie promise?" Past me asked. "Cross my heart, hope to fly, stick a cupcake in my eye." She recited. I can't believe it I just can't, then my vision became blurry and the area darkened. I woke up lying on the side of the rode. I knew what to do and ran back to ponyville with a vine in my hoofs.

The Chase Begins

Rainbow dash's POV:

We just stared at each over for a minute until I took off as fast as I could. I couldn't believe it she likes me, I can't like her.....she's not the real pinkie, but my own mind doubted that. I hide in the sky among the clouds. When I took a peek I saw all if my friends in different parts of ponyville looking for me.

Pinkamena's POV:

Once she took off I fell in a puddle of my own tears. Fluttershy tried to comfort me as discord got the others but I started to turn gray and colorless. I didn't care all I ever wanted was gone. I got up despite fluttershy's protests and mindlessly walked out of the cottage and walked the old beaten path to nowhere.

Discord's POV:

I teleported to Twilight's treehouse and saw her and spike sitting down to eat dinner. "Discord what are yo-" I teleported her to fluttershy's with the food. Next I teleported to applejack's farm. She was bucking apples when I got there, she didn't notice me. When she was in mid-buck I teleported her next to twilight, I teleported the barrels to the barn and I stopped at an ice cream stand. Eating my ice cream I went to rarity's boutique where she and pinkie were watching the cutie mark crusaders. I grabbed both of them and teleported to fluttershy's.

When we got there no pony was looking happy and twilight had a bruise on her side. Fluttershy explained what was going on and they thought that some should look for rainbow and the rest look for pinkie. In the end we decided it be best if we looked for rainbow first. Pinkie wouldn't do anything drastic.

Hunting for the Recipe

"Zecora do you have any potions that tells how a pony feels to another pony?" Pinkamena asked. "In fact I do, but I have forgotten how to make this brew"zecora answered. "There's got to be a way to make it?" Pinkamena pleaded. "You must go to canterlot and talk to luna about an old potion master who knew of how to make such a potion." Zecora explained. "Thank you zecora." She said. Zecora nodded and pinkie left the hut.

"Guys you there?" Pinkie asked. "Over here" twilight said. Pinkie looked and found them a little ways down the rode to the left. "When is the soonest we can go to canterlot?" "We can leave in a few days, why?" Twilight responded. "I need to talk to. The princess of the night." Pinkamena hollared.

A/N

Short but I have to think of stuff for stuff so I can't give away stuff.... I just did

Luna, I Presume?

As they prepared for the next few days to head to canterlot they had worked hard changing shifts to watch pinkamena and pack. When the day came all seven of them were ready to head to canterlot except pinkamena.

"Pinkamena as you ok?" Asked twilight. "Ya I'm fine just nervous" I replied. I looked over at rainbow dash, she was sleeping hmmm. I signaled for everyone's attention and held my hoof to my mouth shushing them as I walked over to her. I used a bit of my hair to tickle her nose a bit, she snorts how cute. I do it again a little faster and she starts turning. I do it one last time but she wakes up.

"Uhh h-hiya dashie" I say scared. "Get off me." she's says uncomfortably and a little scared? "Dashie are you scared of me?" Then a thought comes to mind" or are you scare I'll kiss you again?" She starts blushing beat red. I lower my lips to her ear "don't worry I'll only do that when we're alone" then I get off her.

"We're hear" the conductor says. We get off the train and start heading to a big giant castle. As we're walking I notice all the high rich class ponies everywhere, I guess this is what it's like living near the castle.

We make it to the castle and as we walk through the now open gates a guard hollers at twilight as he runs towards her. "Flash?" Twilight asked. "Ya it's good to see you again twilight." "Y-you t-too flash, see ya!" And twilight rushes us all to celestia's throne room. We all silently agree to never speak of this again.

As we all enter the room a female Pegasus leads me to a side hall away from the others. "My name is crim and this is," she points to a door "Luna's room she's been waiting for you" and she leaves.

I enter the room"h-hello?" I call into the dark. "Please sit" says a voice out of nowhere. I feel for a chair and finally finds one and sits. "I-I'm here fo-"

"I already know why you have come here, I am luna princess of the night and dreams. I thought that you might of came by from zecora."

"You know zecora?"

"A little bit but I have known her tribe she comes from, anyway you've come here to find a potion that will tell you if rainbowdash loves you."

"H-how did you know I never told zecora that?

"Remember I'm the princess of dreams so I know about that dream you had of rainbow dash."

My cheeks start to heat up from embarrassment. "Do you know the brew maker?"

"Yes I do but you know him also"

"How?"

"He is discord lord of chaos."

Discord

Rainbowdash POV:

Pinki- I mean pinkamena has been acting strange lately and so has fluttershy, something is up and I intend to find out. I crept along the building of fluttershy's cottage and looked through the windows. I saw discord, pinkamena, and fluttershy discussing something. I moved to a closer window to hear better, luckily it was open, but what I heard made me gasp and three heads turned to face me.

Pinkamena's POV:

I was at fluttershy's begging her to help me. (Btw I don't know how long this was from discord's reformation so I'm guessing a couple of months) "please fluttershy help me, all I need is for you to call discord." I plead. "I don't like this and I don't feel it's right." She answered firmly. I heard a popping sound and discord appeared in my face, I screamed and jumped and held onto the chandelier. "I heard my name being said many times from this location. Has fluttershy invited you to a tea party?" He asked. "No I was asking her to get you." I replied. "Whatever f-" he was interrupted by fluttershy. "She wants you too make a potion to see if rainbow dash likes her back!" We heard a gasp and standing out the open window was rainbow dash.