The Mind of a Child

by TheBlueFox

Rating: teen
Tags: Dark, Human, Sad, Romance
Length: 12918

They all tell me he isn't real, they tell me I'll get over it. Discord isn't here.... So why can I still see him?

"He's a fictional character."

"He's an imaginary monster."

"You know he can't see you….."

That's all they tell me. Discord isn't real, he's just a character from a children's television show…..

My name is Christina, I'm a fourteen year old girl who loves the show My Little Pony, and more importantly, Discord. He's the only one I ever think about. They tell me he's just a fictional character, but I believe all fictional characters are real. Stupid right? So why is it that I can see him? I can really see him! But the problem is, he can't see me. Nobody else can see him except me. One day I find out he can see me, and he knows everything about me. But I have to keep it all a secret and it makes me look more naive then ever. But why do I do it? What makes me keep my mouth shut? Why am I so naive and clueless? Because I have the mind of a child…..

After my first story A Shadow in Chaos. I wanted to try something a bit different, I have always had this idea and wanted to try it and see what happened. I hope this story will be a bit better then my last one. After I finish this I am going to really consider making a sequel to A Shadow in Chaos……

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2015-02-24 04:10:55 UTC

My Mind of Chaos

"Christina, you know he doesn't really exist...."

"Discord is a fake, ugly, monster from a children's show!"

"He can't see you, he doesn't know you're there. He's not real...

It's the same thing every time. Discord is a made up character from a children's television show. But they don't know what I know.....

My name is Christina. I am fourteen years old and live with my parents. I have a huge obsession over the popular television show, My Little Pony Friendship is Magic. But most importantly I have an even bigger obsession with the character Discord. I have long blond hair and hazel eyes with hundreds of freckles on my face and I'm extremely skinny. Truthfully I honestly find myself to be quite ugly looking, and I hate my voice it sounds a bit too low but my family keeps telling me I look normal and that I have a beautiful voice.

  After watching the episode The Return of Harmony it was love at first sight. I don't know how or what caused it to happen; one minute I'm watching another episode of My Little Pony the next thing I know my walls are now full of Discord pictures and posters, little Discord plushies and I am constantly collecting new Discord merchandise every day. My parents believe it to be a big phase, Mom understands it a little more then Daddy does, but even she doesn't know how I truly feel. I believe all fictional characters really exist, I do. Either we can't see them, or they live in their own worlds. Crazy right? That's how everyone probably thinks of me, crazy and naive. I will admit I am a little bit of both.

Make sense, what fun is there in making sense?

After that, I couldn't stop seeing him in my dreams, hearing his voice in my head and even imagining him right next to me to the point where I literally starting talking to myself and acting like someone was in the room with me. I spend most of my time on YouTube watching PMV's and animations of Discord and MLP, or I'm on FIMFiction writing Discord fanfic's all day long. Yeah, I know. It's crazy and stupid obsessing over a fictional character, I'm just to naive too deal with it. But I've joined the darker side of the fandom, I like it when I get to see new villains and see the dark side of the Mane Six. That's why I got so mad after Keep Calm and Flutter On came out. I cried that night, I felt like part of me lost something. And I did, I had lost the part of Discord I loved so much. His evil, chaotic, topsy turvy and fun side. I missed it so much but there was noting I could do. I spent most of the time crying in my room where my parents wouldn't know, even if they did hear me they wouldn't understand why. I act like a child and I'm to stupid to change that.

I'm Discord..... Spirit of Chaos and Disharmony, hello?

Today I think I might be going a bit too crazy. Every once in a while I could have sworn I could see part of Discord's body as I went on with my day. I thought I saw him flying, I saw him running, and I saw him hiding. At home I watched the final episode of Season 4 of My Little Pony. Oh how I hated that season finale! And oh how I despised Lord Tirek! Usually I LOVED every villain, but this one. He shouldn't even be considered a villain, he was so weak! His only motives were to take Equestrian magic and destroy the land. Then what smart guy? At least the other villains had plans, Nightmare Moon wanted to throw Equestria into eternal night, King Sombra was going to rule the Crystal Empire, Queen Chrysalis was going to feed her subjects, and Discord was going to throw Equestria into eternal chaos! But Tirek was no villain in my eyes, which is why Queen Chrysalis is no longer my least favorite main antagonist from the show.

Maybe the Magic of Friendship can help you, now if you'll excuse me I have some chaos to wreak!

That night when I went to my room I realized Discord would never be the same again. He was now truly reformed, he had changed. The Discord I had grown to love....... he wasn't coming back..... I grabbed my baby Discord plushie and looked at all the drawings I had done and all the posters of him on my wall. All of the songs of him like A Glass of Water from the show, and including my favorite fan made song; Daddy Discord. I felt tears burning in my eyes. My parents were going to be gone for the next twenty minutes so I finally let everything out. Tears fell down my face and my face grew red from the anger I had stored inside my mind.

"Discord..." I whispered. "Please don't leave me, your the only one that matters to me."

"He's so hideous!"

"What kind of a creature is that THING!?"

"He's evil and wicked, why would you like someone like him?"

"Why do you like a monster?"

Just before I was going to scream I felt something touch my arm. I pushed a few of my long blond locks away. I couldn't see what was touching me, but I did hear a voice. A very familiar one.

"Oh, don't cry my dear. I know it hurts, but you know I'm always here. Don't you?"

I turned around and when I saw who it was I gasped, through my tear stained eyes I could make the image of.....

"D-discord?"

"Shhhh, don't worry. Discord's here...."

I think my heart missed a beat. I blinked the tears from my eyes and I could now clearly see the Draconequus is front of me. Floating about a foot above my bed with a dark smile on his face and he had an eyebrow raised at me. I looked up at him in awe. Discord took his lion paw and placed it around me.

"Did you really think that I would submit to their little 'friendship' game? You, the one who always believed I was there? The only one I have ever encountered that allowed me to get inside your mind? Well dear, I can tell you this, I do NOT give in to friendship."

Marked

"Discord?" I say.

Instead of answering the Draconequus wraps more of himself around me. For a moment I thought I could hear him chuckle darkly.

"Don't worry," He whispered. "I know everything about you. I know the secret you've been keeping...."

My eyes start to widen and I get a little nervous. Discord responds by covering my mouth with his paw.

"Ah, don't say anything. I can't tell anyone, it's not like they can see me."

Nobody else can see him? I'm the only one who knows he's here. Discord removes his paw away but moves it towards my hair next. He takes my hair and plays with it in a soothing matter. This causes me to sigh, and I stare at my mattress. I feel happiness, but part of me still feels upset and it makes me angry! Why do I still feel sad?

"How do you know who I am?" I ask.

"Oh believe me dear," Discord replies. "I know you better then you think."

He quickly wipes away a tear from my eye. Strangely enough he's being a bit too nice even for when he was still evil. Then I can hear him quietly snap his talons behind his back, he's holding something.

"Do you trust me?" The Draconequus quietly asks.

"Y-yes....." I say weakly.

Discord smiles wickedly. "Good...."

He then immediately grabs my left arm with his lion paw, and holds it tightly. Then he takes his eagle claw and brings it out from behind him. He's holding a small dagger, I begin to grow nervous. He puts the knife on my hand and looks up at me. Then he presses the weapon into my skin, I began to wimper and clench my teeth.

"It's alright, the worst part is almost over." He says soothingly.

He drags the blade across my palm and I try hard not to scream. I watch a small trail of crimson blood forms. After the deed is done he makes the knife vanish, he lets a small stream of blood trickle onto his eagle claw. When he has enough he clenches his lion paw and I can see blood forming. He combines the two types of blood and when he finishes he spreads the red liquid on the arm he was holding. The blood dissolves into my skin and a mark appears on my wrist it looks like the outline of a Draconequus. I have been marked. Finally Discord brings my bloody hand up to his face, he places my hand on his mouth, and when he moves away I see the blood is gone.

After a moment of silence Discord says, "Go to sleep, I'll explain everything later."

Even though I'm still shocked at what has just happened, I lie down on my bed staring at my marked arm. Without warning a wave of dizziness washes over me and my eyes begin to shut.

A weighty choice is yours to make, the right selection or a big mistake, if a wrong choice you choose to pursue the foundations of home will crumble without you.

Oh how I love riddles and ryhmes! That's mostly what I loved about Discord so much in the episode The Return of Harmony. That was a talent I desired to have, even though I can think up a few riddles and ryhmes they usually aren't very good. It's an art to learn something like that. Art.... That is something I enjoy; things like music, drawing, singing, writing, painting, all that kind of stuff is things I like. Most of what Discord created was just a different art style of art. But apparently most people see him using it for tricks instead of using to his full potentional. Trickster instead of a tyrant.

Chaos is a wonderful, wonderful thing.

So far I consider myself the only person who can see what these villains have really done. Nightmare Moon wanted to put the land into eternal darkness, into a cold and starless night. King Sombra was going to rule the Crystal Empire in fear and darkness, he was almost about ready to kill Spike and destroy the Crystal Heart before being killed himself. Queen Chrysalis, while she didn't have quite as much of an evil purpose as the others she still wanted to control the citizens of Equestia and invaded the land, captured hundreds of ponies and was ready to feed off of all their love and ready to let them all rot. Discord, he drove Equestria into pure insanity, chaos was everywhere and he was literally finding everyponys weaknesses and using that against them slowly breaking their hearts and damaging their souls. He watched them all suffer and laughed at it. The show staff  just used pretty colors and sweets to cover up what was truly going on in the disordered spirit's mind. And I loved it... I loved him being evil.....

Awww, poor Pinkie Pie, and here I thought laughter made you happy....

I am totally crazy, weak, and stupid. I just have never met anyone who thinks the way I do, this world is not all abut happily ever afters and dreams coming true. When I was younger little things scared me and I was very sensitive and sweet. By the time I turned ten years old that all changed, all my fears went away and the only thing I could feel now was emptiness. I was no longer sensitive and I wasn't that nice, pretty, girly little child anymore. I was now a cold, dark, ruthless, and empty minded teenager. My friends began to become slightly afraid of me and I liked it that way. I liked being seen as crazy, different, special; it was how I was. Watching people get hurt made me laugh, I liked seeing tears and frowns. I believed that villains had a chance to be loved for who they were. Laughter is a good thing, whether you mean it in a friendly way or not. Discord made me laugh with his cruel and brain washing tricks. I loved it so much and it all made me laugh and smile, he's hilarious. He's amazing, he's evil, he's Discord...

Looks like we might be due for a big old storm of chaos!

By the time I woke up it was still dark outside, it was slightly foggy and it was gently raining. I got up and looked around, my room was very dark but I could still see everything inside. But in the corner of my room I could see his glowing eyes and devious smile. He made me feel good, he made me feel safe.

"Oh good. You're awake...."

In His Chains

Looks like you've been left behind by your so-called friends huh?

I pull the blankets on my bed over me, keeping me warm. Discord smirks at me, his eyes have that twisted and insane look in them.

"Discord, why are you here? Why would bother trying to do this to me?" I ask.

He might as well brainwash me, tie strings to my arms and consider me his own puppet. I'm not the kind of person you would expect to be strong and smart. I'm not even worthy to be talking to him, and yet I dared to open my mouth.

"Come now my dear," Discord says. "Must you always be so negative? After all, chaos is about having fun, isn't it?"

I'm surprised he's trying this. If he wants to manipulate me there's no need. I'm already giving him my undivided attention, I'm letting him be this close and I haven't resisted him once. I'm not miserable or angry, I just always have a deep feeling I can never truly explain. Discord stared out of my window watching the wind bow and raindrops forming on the glass.

Come now Twilight Sparkle, you've got to get into the spirit of things, after all this is your new home!

"Isn't this what you want, to have me here?"

"Well, yes b-" Discord doesn't let me finish.

"Weren't you the one who had always known I had existed? The one who dreamed of finally being able to see me? Admit it, this is what you want....." He says in a seductive manner; whispering into my ear calmly.

He's right.... This IS what I want.

"Yes, I want this...."

Discord hovers over me and I stare at my blankets.

"I thought so, even if you had lied to me I know that this is what you want. Besides you and I both know you could never lie to me." Discord pulls the blankets off me and smiles.

"Your right...." I say sighing.

"Yes, I am. I also know that you also want a little 'play time'."

Before I can say anything something blinds me and I feel dizzy again, all I can hear right now is Discord and my world is turning black.

Oh Applejack don't lie to me, I'M the one who made you a liar! Will you ever learn?

No I won't..... I will never learn...

Slowly I regain consciousness and I can see Discord in front of me. He helps stand me up and I notice a few things in front of us. Chains, keys and what looks like my baby Discord plushie.

"Discord..... What are these?" I ask.

"Oh, just some toys we'll be using." He says smugly.

A smile begins to form on my face, is he finally going to show me what he does to torture someone, or is he going to do something completely unexpected? The ideas go on and on...

"Like a game?" I ask.

"Precisely! Like a game," Discord responds then he gives me a glare that makes my heart stop for a moment.

I begin to realize that the toys are for him to use on me! Feelings begin to mix inside and most of it is excitement and anxiety. The floor and walls are made of grey stone and there is no door or windows, most of the room appears to be slightly dark. Discord walks towards me and I back up slightly but I am stopped by a wall. He grabs one of my arms and drags me towards his toys. He quickly puts the chains on my arm and makes sure they are tight enough for me not to get out. In the way they are positioned I have to kneel on the ground. Ironically enough I'm still filled with an excited feeling, I can feel Discord pull on the chains and watch him stare at me.

"This is going to be fun..."

Welcome to your lucky day Rarity, you've found the one thing in Equestria that could rival my face for sheer beauty.

I'm being chained to the ground against my will, I'm probably going to be tortured to some degree, this is all going to be done by someone whom I've admired and loved for at least three years and all I can do is just stare at him, I'm insane enough to actually want this! But right now all I can think about is his adorable eyes, and his handsome smile.....

"I see you don't look very afraid," Discord says breaking the silence. "Now truthfully I'm not even sure whether you should be or not. But I will say that I will let you out of those chains you are in after our game."

I feel like all I can do is listen to him talk all day,  he could be talking about dust for all I care and I would still be interested. But yet I'm on the ground almost in a begging position, with my hands in chains with the Spirit of Chaos looking down at me. He starts by making a dagger form, I grow nervous but I don't move back, he pricks my finger with the knife but that's all he does, I stared into his eyes the whole process. Then I watch as he grabs the keys and holds them out to me. I grab them with my mouth.

"Show me what you can do...." Discord says.

I figure that the key is probably for the chains, but that makes too much sense, Discord would want me to use them to get out. And Discord is not about making sense, so I take the keys and I toss them aside.

"Now why did you do that?" Discord asks.

"Because you would never do something as practical as locking the chains with a regular key. Besides, maybe I don't want to be let go just yet...."

Discord smiles. I can tell he's pleased, the next thing he does is he takes my arm and touches the mark he left on me, it burns but I also feel another sense that is so amazing that I could never describe it. When he lets go I sigh. Then he shows me his paw with nothing in it, then he clenches it and when I can see his palm inside is water. I stare at the water for a moment then I try to stand up but I can't quite get close enough to Discord. He steps towards me and holds out his paw, I take a deep breath and lean towards his paw. He tips his paw towards my mouth and I begin to drink the liquid, some of it drips to the ground. When I finish he wipes the water on my mouth away. Then he hands me my baby Discord plushie. I grab the toy and clutch it, while Discord unlocks the chains letting me go. Then something very unexpected happens, I can feel Discord's eagle claw around me. I look up to see the Draconequus look down at me and smile.

"Why did you do that?" I asked.

"I wanted to see how much trust you were willing to put in me, and you my dear not only know me extremely well, but you also trust me more then anyone I have ever met......"

I can do whatever I want, whenever I want! I'm Discord the Master of Chaos!

My parents now officially think something's wrong with me, apparently my grades in school are now dropping , I've gone from and A student to a D. Normally I would be extremely angry but I didn't care because Discord was following me. Also I've been told I'm now talking in my sleep and I'm have a very strange diet all of a sudden. I've hardly noticed the changes, all though I have been watching a lot of My Little Pony, more then usual. Almost every night I go to bed with tears in my eyes but I find Discord waiting for me every night, and I always end up feeling much calmer by the time I'm asleep. And as the days go on I find him acting a little strange, he's almost looking out of the window as if watching; waiting for something. Even though he's only been with me for about a week, he's found out a lot of things. Like yesterday I came home from school to find him reading my Fanfictions on FIMFiction after my parents had gone out for a while. He's also found a few sketches of him I've done. Every day he takes me outside and we pull a few 'harmless' pranks on others.

"You're so weird!"

"Discord will never know who you are."

"I hate Discord! He's so useless and dumb!"

"What kind of person would fall in love with a creature as weird as THAT?!"

I can hear more and more insults, and while they hurt I don't pay attention to them enough to let them get to me. I get the feeling Discord is hiding something from me. But all the chaos is covered up with lollipops and colors, after all isn't that what real chaos is supposed to be? It all hurts, and I want to cry. Everything that happened, what they did to him, what they did to me. Isn't friendship....... Magic.......?

Tirek tricked me into believing he offer me offer something more valuable then friendship, but there is nothing worth more.....

Chaotic Discord vs Reformed Discord

You know what else is adorable? You ponies truly believe that you can reform me.....

After Keep Calm and Flutter On at first I was a little happy, that meant more Discord episodes, but then I realized it wouldn't be like how it was before. He was the good guy now, and that did not seem right. I mean you try to take over Equestria twice and even after succeeding both times you end up being turned to stone; and then you just give up!? Really Hasbro? That's all you got? While I know it was supposed to be so that they could tell more stories with his character all their really using him for now is comic relief. And here I go again rambling on and on like an idiot, besides I'm pretty sure no one wants to hear my opinion anyways. Fluttercord and Dislestia will soon be canon, let the tears begin....

Yes, Princess, I'm ready to use my magic for good instead of evil...... Most of the time.....

Today I'm visiting my friend Savannah today and I'm sleeping over at her house. She's one of the only real friends I have after I lost most of mine. (Isn't Friendship Magic?!) I used to have three other friends, Rebekah, Kristina, Elizabeth, and Savannah. Rebekah and her family moved to another part of the world when I was only in Kindergarten. It hurt to see her go because we were such good friends, Elizabeth and I were also very close we were with each other up until Fifth Grade! But after that, Elizabeth didn't like how I was so 'creepy' and 'strange' so we split our friendship and she found another girl to hang out with. While I was left alone. Kristina was by best of best friends, we had known each other since before Kristina started Elementary School. But by the time I went into Middle School, our differences had changed and she became weirded out by the way I acted. We are still friends, but I don't think we are as close as we were. When I went into Middle School I joined a private school, it had less kids and I wasn't bullied or left out as much. That's where I met Savannah, we became quick friends and now we talk to each others as if we've know each other for years!

Gag! Fine go ahead, try and use your little Elements! Friend me, just make it quick!

When Discord found out I was going to see Savannah he decided he was coming along too, the good things is nobody can see or hear him except me, so it's working out so far. Savannah is usually ALWAYS on Pinterest or the Internet, that was like me before Discord found me. So the first thing we do when I get there is we look at funny pictures on Pinterest. I'm laughing harder then I should be! Her family has a late schedule so by the time it's 8:30 usually the time I have to be in bed we're eating dinner, I can hear Discord breaking something in the other room, but apparently it's not something from in the house because nobody else hears the sound. When I'm finished I find out that Discord has been throwing darts at a glass panel causing it to crack in certain areas creating some kind of art. When he sees me he snaps his talons and all the glass goes away. Looking at all the places where the glass had cracked reminded me of the lightning bolts that appeared from the strange clouds in Princess Twilight Sparkle. I loved those two episodes, and I especially LOVED the Plundervines! Even though that was an episode where Discord had been reformed he still showed a need to cause chaos. Even at the end of the episode when the Mane Six revealed that the Elements of Harmony were gone he looked about ready to take over again, until the writers had to give him a heart again a give into Fluttershy's 'friend' trick. I know that most of you probably hate me for my opinion, but if you saw him the way I do; then you'd understand.......

My Plunderseeds should have stolen the magic from the Tree of Harmony and captured Princess Celestia and Princess Luna thousands of moons ago. But alas it seems, the Tree still had enough magic to keep the seeds from growing up big and strong, until now....

After dinner Savannah and I go back upstairs while Discord makes himself at home downstairs. Then Savannah and I get into this huge conversation and we get into some random parts along the way. We stay on the Internet until 11:47 then we're both hungry. We go back downstairs and have a small cake for a midnight snack, I notice Discord almost asleep on top of the refrigerator. I begn to take the frosting and make paint, Savannah does the same. Now we have fifteen different colors! I take the frosting and begin painting my face causing Savannah to laugh and I think Discord noticed too. I love how Savannah always understands me so well, we both have to face similar problems and so we get how one another feels. After trying to lick all the icing off, I wash my face and we prepare to go to sleep. I change into cozy pajamas, and climb into Savannah's bed. Usually Savannah let's me take her bed, or we both share considering she has a double sized bed. This time she decided to sleep on her big, four-foot teddy bear. Just as Savannah turns off the light Discord crawls into the room. He slithers past her and curls up next to me, even though my eyes are shut I can feel him gently touching me, playing with my hair and chuckling quietly. It all slowly begins to lull me to sleep, and the final sound I can hear is the door slowing creaking open....

You think you can boss Discord around? You think I'm going to turn all this back just because you say so? Because if I don't I'll lose the one friend I ever had?

Friendship? Discord? They don't go very well together, at ALL. But you know, some people do and have no idea why. Supposedly it adds character depth, especially from what happened in Twilight's Kingdom. When I first watched the episode I was like; Nice episode, not bad... Then I was like; What happened to this episode?! I'm sorry alright but I have a mind too you know! I didn't like the villain, and I didn't like the story. It turned the one that made Chaos is Magic into a friendship, pony-loving anti-hero. And I don't like it! The way I see it, if they absolutely had to reform a villain it should have reformed King Sombra or Nightmare Moon. Reforming Sombra would have given him more character and more screen time. But he's a Unicorn with a black heart, and besides he's dead. Nightmare Moon was just a twisted version of Princess Luna and does anyone remember Nightmare Rarity? Perfect opportunity! But no... We have to reform the villain almos everyone loved, the villain with the told heart that was as cold as stone! I know I keep talking about this, but does anyone see my point! Probably not... Nobody likes me anyway.

I'll bet you don't like me either.....

My Love, Your Puppet

Please do not cry my dear, your Daddy is still very here. And when I do bust out, we can respread the random fear; Our joy will be their pain, as their world drowns in chocolate rain. 'Cause I am your Daddy Discord and you are a piece of me.

I can hear the song echo in the distance, even though my eyes are closed I can still feel tears form. It's so beautiful and yet so soothing in it's own mysterious way. I know I'm no longer in Savannah's room because I'n lying on something cold and hard. Probably stone....yikes...... Slowly I open my eyes and find myself lying on a stone path. I can see a faint blue light glowing in the distance, so slowly I get up and walk towards it. I can hear the music getting louder, and water splashing. I come to light and see a small pond gently rippling. I stare into the water and see Discord's reflection starting to form.

"Discord.....?"

All he does is simply extend his eagle claw to the point where it sticks out of water. His face has a small smile and his eyes are staring at me in such a way that it feels like I can't refuse to go with him. I give him my hand and he pulls me into the water, I go straight through and appear right next to Discord without anything wet. He pulls me closer and gently strokes my hair in a lovingly way. I want to talk, but I keep my mouth shut like I should have done many times before.

"Why so quiet my dear? I can only imagine you probably have hundreds of questions...." Discord asks, noticing my silence; almost reading my mind.

"Because, I already know what you want."

"Oh, is that so?" Discord replies in a sly tone. "Then tell me, what is it that I want?"

"You want a puppet, someone easy to control. Someone you can abuse and use to get what you want, something to toy with. You create chaos, cause destruction and anarchy between others. You laugh at their pain and toy with the emotions of others. I know I'm naive, you know I favor you more then anyone, and I can be clueless sometimes. You want me, but only because you want to control me, and I understand that. You don't need to weaken me, torture me, or use my weaknesses against me, you can just take me. I won't resist, it's not like I could anyway."

Discord smirks at me. "My my, you certainly know me well. Your right, causing chaos and creating pain for others is what I do, and I'm proud of it. I like toying with the emotions of others and wreaking havoc on the sanity of those who get in my way. But those aren't the things I want from you."

I look up at him in surprise. "What?"

"You appreciate what I do, I don't need to punish you or torture you to any degree because I don't want to, and because you already do that to yourself."

"What?" I say again. "No I do not...."

"Ah, but that is where you are wrong." Discord replies. "I'm the Spirit of Chaos and Disharmony, I very sure I know when there is any kind of negative thinking or emotions in someone. All I want from you is to know that you still appreciate and care about me and what I do."

I feel tears beginning to form. "Discord, I will always love what you do. The foolish ponies couldn't see what I see. It's not the reformed, friendly Draconequus that's now known that I've grown to like. It's the old, evil chaos-bringing, insanity driving, stone hearted one that I love."

Did you miss me Celestia? I missed you. it's really quite lonely being incased in stone but you wouldn't know that would you? Because I don't turn ponies into stone!

"I'm sorry you had to go through almost a thousand years of being turned to stone. If I could, I would have done anything to stop it from happening both times." I say quietly.

"I'm sorry you had to go through KNOWING I trapped in stone for so long." Discord said back.

I can feel his lion paw wrapping around me, capturing me in his embrace. More tears gently fall down from my face onto the ground. Never before had I felt so safe and comfortable. I actually felt like I could now have someone to truly turn to. I felt Discord brush the tears away from my face and look me in the eyes. I felt so enchanted staring into them, slowly his eyes seemed to get bigger and his face was getting closer. Then I realized he was moving towards me, but before I could do anything I felt the kiss. My face burned and my body was flooded with shivers of delight. I had only dreamed of this and now it was truly happening. Finally I felt something I hadn't felt in a long time, freedom. I felt like I could finally be myself again and didn't care who saw or judged me. When Discord pulled away from me I could see his face was a deep red. I put my arms around him, I could finally kiss and love the fictional character I had longed to be with for five years!

Picture it, the Chaos Capitol of the world!

"Are you sure you are willing to do this? I can make you forget all this and you can live a life without the need of friendship. I will make you happy, I am the only one who will ever love you." Discord asks.

"Yes, I'm certain. I never want to leave you again."

"As you wish...."

Discord snaps his fingers and we appear in a different atmosphere. I am now surrounded by all of the antagonist from My Little Pony. Trixie, King Sombra, Sunset Shimmer, Flim and Flam, Nightmare Moon, The Dazzlings, even the Shadowbolts. I can even spot Lord Terek among them all. The are many more of them and they are all staring at me.

Beautiful isn't it? This is the new and improved Ponyville and these are only my first changes!

Discord hovers between King Sombra and Sunset Shimmer. He creates a light beam in his paw and strikes it towards me. At first I feel pain, but then I feel like I'm being fed the strongest kind of power and energy in the world. Then King Sombra aims a beam from his horn towards me. One by one all of the villains who posses magic send their magic auras towards me. When they finish, I've now grown fangs and I can control magic based on all of the villains powers. Next another group of villains gather around me, the villains with wings. Discord, Queen Chrysalis, and Nightmare Moon stay because they all have wings. Lightning Dust, Gilda, Hoops and all the Pegasai villains flare their wings out. They all fly a few feet off the ground and the force of wind they create beats into me and I can feel a slight pain in my back, as their wing power digs inside me I can see two large wings forming on my back. A bright light forms and dark blue feathers grow along the wings. When it is finished slowly I try to flap my new wings and find myself gently hovering above the ground. Discord grins deviously and snaps his fingers sending the Earth Ponies and all the other villains with no wings or magic towards him. Antagonists like Diamond Tiara, Suri Polomare, the Diamond Dogs, Iron Will, and even the Discorded versions of the Mane Six approach. Then they all begin to stomp on the ground, shaking and digging into the earth. The vibrations cause me to stumble and trip, but I manage to stand my ground. Then a cockatrice appears and stares at me, I can feel it's power flowing into me and all the strength of the Earth Ponies flows into me. When the whole transformation is complete, I snap my fingers and transform into a pony. I'm now and Alicorn with a dark blue coat and an ethereal mane that flows with different dark blue colors. When all the villains are finished we appear in Equestria, changelings roam everywhere and dark crystals grow, the Dazzlings are singing and transforming into their Siren forms. Trixie possess the Alicorn Amulet and dark magic roams everywhere. Discord smiles at me and looks out at the twisted, chaotic kingdom.

At last, I'm happy.....

Discord's Secret

Yes, Twilight Sparkle and yours is the most powerful and elusive element; Magic. Fluttershy's is Kindness and Pinkie Pie's is a personal favorite of mine.... Laughter.....

She's scared, tears flowing down her face while she hides behind her pink mane. Her friends are all gone, driven into madness and pain. Discord slithers around her hissing and showing her his fang and sharp teeth.

"Discord, why are you doing this? I though we were... friends...." Fluttershy whimpers.

"We were NEVER friends, you ponies tricked me!" Discord barks. "I thought you understood, but I was being foolish....."

"But I do understand! Why can't you see that?"

"You did......?"

"Yes Discord," Fluttershy said. "All you wanted was a friend, and I gave you my friendship...."

Discord looked upset. "Fluttershy, I....." Fluttershy reached out to Discord, but the Draconequus became angry. " NO! YOU LIED TO ME!"

Discord lashed at her making her scream, her coat turns grey and her kindness fades. Fluttershy then leaps on him and knocks him down, then runs away in fear.

"Discord," I call helping him get up. "What really happened that day? When they tried to reform you?"

"Well.... After Fluttershy told me she wasn't going to be my friend anymore I realized that if I ever wanted to avoid being turned to stone again, I would have to wait until after I had gained their trust......"

"NOT YOUR FRIEND!" Fluttershy screamed throwing the ice skates that Discord had offered her.

"Who cares? I can do whatever I want, whenever I want. I'm Discord the Master of Chaos!" Discord responded with pride in his voice. "You think you can boss Discord around? You think I'm just going to turn all this back just because YOU say so? Because if I don't I'll lose the one friend I ever had?"

At that point Discord realized if he wanted to gain control of Equestria he was going to have to trick everyone, even stooping so low as to cry and share in their 'friendship' game. The Draconequus bit his lip as his eyes began to tear. He stared at the ice skates for a moment and sighed.

"Well played Fluttershy, well played....." He whispered.

He slowly slid across the the ice and rested on the top of an apple tree. A white light spread across the orchard of Sweet Apple Acres and removed the whole chaotic mess. While Fluttershy and her friends cheered and rejoiced. Discord appeared in front of them with a flash.

"I like it better my way, but I guess when you're friends you can't exactly have things your way all the time, eh?"

"I fooled them all, Celestia even fell for my act! Afterwards it was all back to chaos, Twilight and her friends were furious! But Fluttershy believed there was still some good in me, so using a spell book that Twilight kept in a secret part of her library she cast a very strong reforming spell on me.......

Discord waited until every last light in Equestria was turned out, all the ponies were asleep. Now was the time for chaos, when they would least expect it. He snapped his talons and quickly got to work, starting with Ponyville. He made the town even worse then last time! Soap roads, flying pigs, tornadoes, chocolate milk waves and even more madness. No more playtime, this time he meant business. When Ponyville was finished he moved on towards Canterlot, Manehattan, Fillydelphia, Las Pegasus, Baltimare, Appaloosa, and all the other towns in the land of Equestria. When he reached the Everfree Forest the sun was in the sky and ponies would wake up to see his beautiful chaos. But to his surprise he found the six ponies he least wanted to see right now.

"Discord! I knew you couldn't be trusted! Return Equestria to normal!" Twilight Sparkle demanded.

But Discord simply laughed. "Oh you ponies are SO easy to fool! Especially you Fluttershy...."

Rainbow Dash flew in front of the cowering Pegasus. "Leave her alone you monster!"

Discord shrugged. "Well, I've got better things to do. Hope you ponies enjoy your little argument.... In the dark....."

And with that the Draconequus laughed madly and disappeared. Twilight shook her head.

"I knew it was all a trick, there is no way he could ever change."

Twilight turned towards Fluttershy, the poor mare was almost in tears.

"Fluttershy, don't cry darling," Rarity said. "You tried your hardest, but someone like Discord just can't change."

But Fluttershy shook her head. "No, he meant it. I know he did, all he wants is to be accepted for who he is. And none of you gave him a chance!"

"But Fluttershy!" Applejack started. "You saw him with yer own eyes, he tricked us! He said so the last time he was here, he doesn't believe in the Magic of Friendship."

Fluttershy ran up to Twilight. "Please Twilight! Isn't there anything you can do to help him? Help him know we mean well?"

Twilight thought for a moment. "Hmmmm, you know? I think I might have another trick we can use..."

The six ponies rushed into the Golden Oaks Library. Twilight called out for Spike, "Spike! Spike!"

The baby dragon came running knocking down a few books along the way. "Right here Twilight! What do ya need?"

"Spike, Discord's on the loose again! I need you to get.... That book....."

Spike looked nervous. "You don't mean.....?"

"Yes, I need you to get me that book Spike hurry!"

Spike nodded and rushed out of the room with sweat beginning to form. He pushed aside a few old books in one of the back rooms. He pushed a small part of the wall aside and resting was an old book with a grey cover. Inside contained some of the oldest, strongest, strangest, and most dangerous spells known to Ponydom. The baby dragon quickly returned.

"Good work Spike! Now let me see....."

Twilight flipped through the pages of the book until she came across the spell she wanted.

"I didn't want to have to use this, but considering Discord already ate my other reforming spells...."

"What's it gonna do Twilight?" Applejack asked.

"Oh! A guessing game!" Pinkie cheered. "Is it going to freeze him? Will it turn him invisible? Is it going to make a chocote swirl cake? Will it turn everypony into a giant jello pony?! Will it make everyone reading this Fanfiction confused?"

Twilight shook her head. "No Pinkie, it won't do any of those strange things you just said. Wait? What was that last one?"

"Oh, nothing!" Pinkie called back with a smile.

Twilight shook her head and continued. "This is one of the most powerful reformed spells ever created. It should defiantly get Discord to behave, and this way we won't have to use the Elements of Harmony again."

Everypony seemed to agree with the plan, one by one for extra precaution they all wore their Element of Harmony and rushed out the door to confront Discord, leaving Spike alone in the library without a clue to whether Twilight would come back alright. The six ponies found Discord in the middle of all the chaos, it was almost impossible not to get a small scratch or trip over something from all the disorder.

"Discord!" Twilight yelled. "Return Equestria back to it's normal state at once!"

"Or what?" Discord replied smugly. "You'll turn me to stone again?"

He snapped his talons removing Rarity's horn and Rainbow and Fluttershy's wings once again. "Will you ponies ever learn?"

But Twilight was ready, she hit him with a spell causing him to be pushed backwards and onto the ground. Applejack and Rainbow Dash held his lion paw and eagle claw down so he couldn't snap his talons again and move. Besides the spell was already weakening him. Pinkie Pie and Rarity held down his cloven hoof and lizard leg down. Fluttershy kept his tail from moving. Twilight stood over him.

"You were warned Discord, you were given a chance to change, but now I see that you can't change. So if you won't choose to change, we'll make you...."

Her horn began to glow and a magenta aura surrounded her a magic beam came and filled the sky with light. Discord struggled but he was too weak and was outmatched. He knew it was over, there was no way to escape. Twilight sent the spell towards him quickly. With one last breath he closed his eyes and prepared for the spell to hit him. A white light flashed and engulfed everything.....

"You will pay for this Twilight Sparkle, you and your friends. And you will never see the Princesses again."

After that I've tried to resist the spell, and I'll tell you one thing I control magic, magic doesn't control me. Eventually I was able to remove the spell and I fled into this world. And well....... you know the rest........"

I shook my head in disbelief. "I can't believe they did that to you! Forcing you to change like that....."

Tears stung my eyes, but I was trying hard not to cry. I'm fourteen for crying out loud! (Pun not intended if your that smart)

"Don't cry," Discord told me. "The spell is gone, I'm here, isn't that what matters right now?"

He laid his lion paw on me and I felt it. So...this is what is feels like to be brainwashed...... I like it, my mind being twisted to his bidding. Slowly I can feel all my worries go away, I could get used to this.

"Your right, this is all that matters...." I say with his lion paw moving across my chest slowly. I look out into the world of chaos and anarchy I love it. I'm having fun, Discord's here and he will get his revenge. I'll make sure of that.

"That's my girl...." Discord replies in a dark tone.

Everypony has to play or the game is over, and I win.

"Noo!"

I quickly lift myself to find that I fell asleep. When did this happen? I had a nightmare, it broke my heart but I wasn't scared. I wiped the few tears away and found myself lying on grass. I picked myself off the ground but tripped and almost fell before something caught me. It was Discord.

"Careful, you wouldn't want to hurt yourself before your first dance."

My...first.....dance? What! I look up to see Discord turning me around to face him. Then the unexpected happens. Discord puts his lion paw on top of my shoulder, and his eagle claw around my waist. Wait...is he going to DANCE WITH ME?! He can't be serious! There is no way someone like him would do this with someone like me ever!

"Discord no... I can't do this...." I tell him.

"Yes you can," He says back. "It's just like the times before, remember?"

I freeze for a moment and think. When I was a year younger I used to always imagine Discord and me on a grassy hill dancing together, I would never be able to get it out of my head. Discord spinning in circles with me, holding my hand. I loved it; sometimes I even imagine Celestia, Luna, Twilight, and her friends watching us with their mouths open in shock. Remembering makes me smile a bit. Slowly I put my hand around Discord. I take one step and it goes on just the way I remember, the experience is even better and more amazing then I ever could imagine. My heart is ready to burst and my head explode from what I'm doing. You can go ahead and say it's dumb, but right now I don't care.

"You've been practicing, haven't you?" Discord asks me, even though he knows the answer.

Every day I would imagine this, my dancing would get better every time. The scenery behind us would change to familiar childhood memories. Like from when I would watch the Disney Princesses. I was nervous at first, now I don't want to ever want to leave.

"Please don't let go..." I whisper.

"I promise I won't."

I can't believe this has all happened, if this is a dream I never want to wake up.  After all my awkward moments, and through all of my random and stupid acts, he stills stays with me. Just as I feel him pulling me towards him, I finally realized we've stopped dancing. And once again, I'm kissed. I don't care if I'm fourteen I love this!

"Say goodbye to all your pain, all your worries, all your fears, and all your friends....."

"Demon!"

"Monster!"

"Abomination!"

I will defend Discord at all costs, I owe him my life.

Forgive and Forget

"Leave me alone!" I shout.

"What has gotten into you?" Discord asks.

"You! Why? Why, did you do this?"

"I did this because I care about you, I would never admit that to anyone!"

"But you know how clumsy I can be! Why Discord!? Why do you find in your stone heart to care for someone like me? Through all my naïve acts and childish foolishness. People told me that you never existed, you were just meant to be a villain in a children's television show. Why Discord? Why-"

"Christina!" Discord shouts. My eyes grow wide, he's never called me by my name before. He slowly sits down behind me, and puts his arms around me. " I don't care how naïve you are, I don't care how clumsy and childish you act. I don't want to leave you, especially not when your like this."

"But Discord, I want to be nothing more then a toy, the kind you like to play with. I want to be in that nightmare. I like to cry, I want to be a toy...."

"No, you don't." Discord responds pulling me closer. "Trust me dear, I know what you want....."

"You do?"

"Yes, of course I do..... I know everything...."

It must be so upsetting knowing how weak and helpless they think you are...

"But why do stay? Why stay with me if your not going to use me? You know what I want, then tell me why you stay.... I-I love you...."

Discord words from all his past episodes sting and burn inside of me. They whisper and silence me, I want.... I want....

"You want to be loved..." Discord answers to my thoughts.

"Discord I'm sorry. I must sound so dumb and stupid right now."

"No you don't. You can cry me a river, and build a bridge, but I know their are some things you can't get over no matter how hard you try."

He is so good with emotions. That would also show why he is good at manipulating others. He may not show it when it comes to romantic or sad feelings but he's very good at it. All through my thinking I hardly notice Discord slowing moving his eagle claw towards me, with something perched on it.

"I have someone who's dying to meet you." He said. "I know he'll make you feel better."

Him? I turn to find a cockatrice resting on Discord's wagle claw, looking right at me. I gasp and take the cockatrice in my arms. It's Stone! My OC character has a pet cockatrice named Stone, and now he's here in front me! The cockatrice rubs up against my chest and I stroke his feathers.

"Hi Stone," I whisper. "I've missed you."

I can hear him making a purring sound. I turn towards Discord and smile.

"Thank you Discord."

"It's no big deal, besides like I said before; I know more then you think."

Stone rests on my arm and gently flicks his snake tail, I never thought I would see the day when I would finally be able to hold my sweet Stone again.

I look at my newest drawing. It looks pretty well done, now it just needs color. Suddenly I hear whispering and it's saying my name. I turn around and walk around my bedroom trying to find the source of the voice. But I find nothing, I stop at my mirror and sigh. Then to my surprise I see my reflection, but it looks different. My reflection is standing there dressed in dark purple robes with a devious grin and has Stone on my arm staring at me intensely, but not enough to turn me into stone. And behind my reflection is him, his insane eyes and his wicked smile. I'm terrified, and I feel tears forming in my eyes. Why would he do something like that? Discord looks down at my reflection then back at me and licks his lips in anticipation.

"You can't get away from me...."

"Leave me alone!" I cry, "Can't you ever stop your madness and try to be nice?"

But my reflection, Stone and Discord all laugh. My reflection looks up at Discord evily, and he smiles back. I watch as the Draconequus pushes my reflection away and steps through the mirror towards me.

"Go away, leave me be! I don't want you here!" I yell.

"Aww but you do want me here, and even if you don't you will want me when I'm done with you."

Once again my reflection laughs while petting Stone. I can see Discord is now holding a gold band that looks like it's small enough to fit around my finger.

"You see my dear," Discord says. "There is more then one way to hypnotize a person. Normally I would just use a simple touch or manipulation if necessary. But you are a different case, and once I have this ring on your finger not only will I be able to control your every moment, but I will also be able to know wherever you go. So if you ever try feel the need to escape from me I will know where to find you at all times."

"I'm not wearing that!" I say pointing to the ring. "You can't make me!"

"Oh but I can," Discord continues. "Not only will you wear it, but I will make sure it stays with you forever...."

I turn towards my reflection but all I can see her doing is smiling insanely and caressing her cockatrice. Discord gets closer to me and I back up into a wall. He grabs my arm and I try to fight and get out of his grasp. But he's too strong and powerful. He puts the ring around my finger and laughs as he lets go of me. I quickly try to remove the ring but it stays put. My reflection is laughing manicially, I had no idea I could have such an awful laugh. Suddenly I can feel all my thoughts to resist slowly drain, all I can feel is the need to do whatever Discord tells me. I don't like it but I can't stop it! Slowly I stop moving for a moment, and close my eyes for a second. When I open them I can see Discord but he's not in front of me anymore. Instead I'm now the reflection, holding Stone and looking at Discord. I can feel my love for him return and all my memories return. I watch as MY reflection opens her eyes and Discord stands her up.

"Feeling better?" Discord asks.

"Yes..." My reflection replies.

Wait, what is Discord doing? I thought it was me he wanted! Not my reflection! She resisted him, I wouldn't even dream of such a thing! I gently hold on to Stone and watch. Discord gently plays with the ring on my reflection in a way so that she doesn't notice. My reflection wraps her arms around him. Now I'm mad, I try to get past the mirror but the glass is holding me back. I hit the glass as hard as I can but not even a scratch appears. I watch with anger as my reflection smiles and sighs while she's being manipulated by Discord. It should me he's controlling.

"Discord!!!" I scream.

But he doesn't hear me, and is he going to... NO! GET AWAY FROM HER! WHAT!?

"DISCORD!"

I try as hard as I can to break through the glass, but nothing happens. My fists now are red and sore, and I can feel tears burning in my eyes.

"Christina! Wake Up!"

I heard that! It sounded like Discord. Slowly I can feel my world go black, but I can tell I'm being held.

"Wake up, that's it..."

"D-discord?"

I hear Discord calling me, shaking me.

I open my eyes and see Discord in front of me, above me. My breathing is slowly starting to go back to normal but my heart is still beating wildly. I actually had a nightmare where the terror was me, not him.

"Are you alright!?" Discord asks.

I put my arms around him and sigh. "I'm fine, I just had a small nightmare I suppose."

Suddenly Stone jumped into my arms and snuggled against me. Aww, he was trying to help me feel better.

"The nightmare, it wasn't  too bad was it?" Discord asked.

"No! No! Nothing bad, just strange..."

Discord seems to accept my answer and I lay down to finish my nap. Stone cuddles up next to me and gives me a concerned look. I smile at him.

"It's alright Stone I'm fine....." I think...

Slowly I feel him curl up next to me. This time Discord is next to me and I can feel his lion paw holding onto my hand gently. My eyes once again. The last thing I hear is a familiar voice.

"Is Discord Home?"

I'm in a forest now. And I can hear a little girl laughing running through the forest, that voice sounds too familiar for my liking. I quickly follow the sound until I find her, there standing in the middle of a ring of trees is a young girl with wavy blond hair, freckles on her face and hazel eyes. I'm standing in front of myself from when I was younger, four years younger to be exact. When I was in fourth grade, the year I discovered My Little Pony Friendship is Magic. I looked a lot prettier and cuter when I was younger. My ten year old self looks up at me.

"Is Discord coming?" She asks.

"What?"

"Is Discord coming?" She asks again.

"Oh, I'm not sure to be honest." I respond.

"Oh.... Well is he home?"

"Is he what?"

"Is Discord home?" She responds.

I take one look at my younger self and smile. I give her a hug and she has tears of happiness in her eyes.

"Yes, he's home. And he's more chaotic then ever..."

My younger self giggles. "How do I grow up to be you?"

Typical of my younger self to ask. I never thought I would grow up to be such an introvert, so unpopular and dark. And yet here I am, but still me and alive.

"Believe me," I respond with a laugh. "I have no idea. But get used to it."

"I wish Discord was here now...." She says.

Before I can say anything I hear Discord's voice.

"Well, perhaps that can be arranged..."

My ten year old self turns towards the noise, I do as well. And as soon as she sees him she quickly runs up to him and wraps her small arms around his body. I was so adorable when I was younger, but I know I would have done the same thing at that age.

"Well, aren't you adorable?" Discord says.

My ten year old self smiles. "I love you Discord, I wish I could be like you."

"Let's just say you will be when your older...." He says as he points to me.

"How much older?" She asks.

"Oh about four more years older." He replies with a smile.

"Aww, that's not fair!"

Discord laughs. "I know, but who's the King of Chaos here?"

"You are...." Ten year old me says disappointedly.

"Good girl, but before I go I have something for you."

"Oh really! What is it?"

"Stand still for just a moment..." Discord says.

I watch as he takes her left arm and puts and mark on her hand, it looks just like a mark that I have on my hand! I always thought it was a scar! I watch as my ten year old self hugs Discord one more time, if that had been me, and it was I would have tried to hold on much longer.

"Bye Discord!" She says. And quickly she runs into the forest again slowly fading away.

"So that was you who gave me this mark!" I said. "I always thought that was a scar I got from burning myself."

"I can tell you the rest of the story later, but for now I figured you should finish resting so we can go back to more fun. And I mean real fun....."

Real fun. That sounds like my kind of game!

Betrayed

Why so I feel so weak?

Not like normal, I mean in power. I feel less strengthened, my powers don't feel quite as strong or as useful. But it's nothing I should worry about, Discord and Stone are with me. And besides it's not like anything 'bad' can happen from a little magic glitch. Now I feel smarter, stronger, more powerful then I have ever felt, and more accepted. But something's wrong, Discord isn't talking to me much, and he always seems to be looking at the world still be destroyed. Something's wrong...

Discord's laughter echoes throughout the area. I dash through the trees and run freely through the light of the moon. I can hear him getting closer, but he's not too close. I run through and open part of the field and turn to find him front of me. He tackles me to the ground.

"Now I have you!"

"Your.... so fast!" I tell him, still a little shocked.

"Of course I am, and your really slow." He replies.

"Well, thank you for that..." I say sacastically.

"Your welcome!" Discord says getting off me and dusting off his paw and claw.

I remove myself from the ground and sigh. That's the fourth time in a row Discord's gotten me, maybe I am a little slow.... Nope, he's too fast! Besides he can teleport. For some reason I can't do that anymore, but I haven't told Discord that. And also Stone's missing, but Discord told me that he's perfectly fine. I hope that's true.

"Do you want to play again?" Discord asks.

"No, I think I'm done." I tell him as I sit on the soft grass.

"Uh, are you feeling alright, you usually play at least ten rounds a night with me at the least, it's your favorite game!"

"I know, but I don't want to tonight. I guess I might be a little tired." It was true, I was exhausted.

"But you've been napping all day! You can't be THAT tired." He responds.

"I know, your right. I'm sorry Discord."

"Well, I know you wouldn't try to avoid this on purpose, so what's going on?" Discord asks.

"Nothing! Nothing is wrong Discord..."

"Clearly SOMETHING is bothering you, so what is it!? I need you to tell me!" He says raising his voice.

"I FEEL WEAK!" I yell. As soon as I realized what I had done I froze. "Oh, Discord I'm sorry! I didn't mean to raise my voice like that! I'm so sorry!"

But instead of hearing yelling and scolding I feel something soft. It's Discord's fur. He's pulling me towards him.

"Your weak? Why didn't you just tell me?"

"I... I didn't want you to worry about me. It's not your job, and shouldn't have to be."

"But who else besides me is here to help you if something bad happened to you?" Discord asked.

"Nobody..." I say sadly.

"That's right...." Discord says in a dark voice. "There is nobody here to safe you from anyone... Including me."

"What-" But before I finish he covers my mouth and snaps his fingers.

"I just LOVE playtime don't you?" Discord asks. Unfortunately I can't answer. He ignores me and continues. "Since you didn't seem to enjoy our last game maybe we can play one like the very first one you and I ever played. You enjoyed that game SO MUCH..."

His smile is so wicked and big. For once I am actually a little worried about it. Once again I can see chains, but they are attached to a wall, not hanging from the ceiling like last time. Discord pushes me towards them and locks my wrists into them. This time I have to stand.

"This time lets add a few more toys to make the game more interesting..." Discord explained. He snapped his talons and a thin piece of fabric appeared. I figured he was going to blindfold me so I wouldn't be able to see anything but instead he place the cloth in my mouth to gag me. That means this game is going to hurt, possibly a lot.

"Well, lets see. The first thing to have in a game is rules, after all you play one without them! Rule One: Whatever I tell you to do, you will ingnore. In fact you may even have to do the opposite of what I tell you. Rule Two: If you break Rule One, then I will have to punish you. Are we clear?"

Slowly I nodded. Why did I have a feeling this was going to be harder then it sounded?

"Good! Glad we're on the same page." Discord responded happily. "Now..."

One again he snapped his talons and in front of me appeared my Discord plushie.

"Go retrieve it." He told me.

Wait was this starting the game? For a moment I stayed still not sure what to do.

"Get it." He said.

I stayed put looking at the toy. He had only chained one of my hands, I could reach it....

"Are you not listening? Go get it!" He said.

Slowly I reached towards the toy but Discord clawed at my arm. This caused me to scream in pain and move my hand back. My arm had a small cut, but it burned badly.

"Tsk, tsk, tsk..." Discord shook his head. "Breaking the rules already. That isn't nice! Apologize!"

I used my free arm to try and remove the gag. "I'm sorry.."

But Discord hit me on the side of the head. Once again I screamed. Now I had a small headache.

"Must I go over the rules AGAIN?"

I shook my head as the gag slipped back into my mouth. I felt so stupid right now, come on Christina! This shouldn't be too hard.

"You don't look like your having fun, you do like the game don't you?" Discord wondered.

I slipped the gag out of my mouth. "Yes... I l-like the game."

"Really?"

"Yes I like the game." I said.

"I don't believe you, tell me the truth!" He barked.

"I like the game!"

After that I gasped realizing my mistake. But it was too late, Discord clawed at my face scratching me. I screamed and yelled but it didn't stop the pain. I covered my eye, and found blood on my palm when I let go. If I wasn't constantly getting clawed at and hit then my pain would be going away by now, but instead it was growing worse.

"I'll ask you again, are you enjoying the game?"

"No.." I replied almost choking. "I hate it..."

Just then I felt Discord gently kiss me on the forehead which was shocking.

"Good girl." He cooed. "I know your feeling weak and tired.... and I can help you with that."

I sighed. But felt the gag being placed in my mouth again.

"You'll need this, I would really try to bite hard on it if I were you..."

I was a bit confused but bit on it. I felt like Discord's pet; practically begging him for affection, having him talk to me like this, and punishing me if I obeyed the wrong command. I watched as Discord raised his claw, then I felt it. I bit down on the gag so hard I could have torn the fabric. The pain I felt was almost unbearable. I was about ready to fall into unconsiousness. But Discord held me up, I saw what he was holding, it looked like a glowing orb of magic. He had taken away all the magic that he had originally given to me now I truly felt weak.

"There, is that better?" He asked me with cheerfulness in his voice.

"Discord... Whatever I d-did to u-ups-set you I'm s-sorry." I stuttered.

Discord quickly turned around to face me. His grin widened. "Oh, but sweetheart you haven't done ANYTHING to upset me, you don't need to apologize."

Sweetheart? He has never called me that before. And he began to unlock the cuffs. When I was free he took the gag out of my mouth allowing me to breathe.

"You are just incredibly naïve. I never intended on really giving you this power, and I don't intend on having you stay around with me for much longer, unless of course I can find some use for you. But I don't love you, I just needed a pawn to practice my magic on until I could become strong enough to get rid of those meddling ponies. I don't fall for friendship, and I certainly don't fall for LOVE. Though you're loyal to me and trust me I can just control hundreds of innocent ponies to do that." Discord chuckled.

My eyes burned with tears as he held onto me I was in so much pain emotionally and physically. I knew something like this might happen, but I never imagined it to be this much painful. I guess that's what happens when you tuly love someone it hurts that much.

"Don't cry my dear, I know it hurts. But soon you won't have to worry about it anymore...."

I held onto him tight and felt his soft fur brush up against my face. My face was growing red from trying to hold back the tears but it wasn't working. My tear stained face was a mess. Suddenly Discord's red eyes turned black...

"I'm sorry..... Please don't hate me..."

"Ugh! Do you really think she'll still care about you after all this?"

"This is all your fault! If you weren't still here Equestria would have been mine by now."

"But Twilight Sparkle and her friends would turn us into stone, besides isn't it friendship that you've wanted?"

"No! It's what they keep trying to make me think I want! Besides she gave me something better then friendship, love. And now I'm about to banish her and make her think it was an all too real dream. She'll hate me, because of you."

"It's for her own good. She's a young child, she might care about us but you can't have her."

"If you refer to yourself as me one more time, I make sure your banished to Tartarus for eternity!"

"I'm sorry Discord...But it's the way things have to be..."

Discord eyes turned back into their normal red color.

"Discord? Are you alright?" I asked.

"No, I'm not. Your interfering with my plans and I-"

"Stop it! Get out!"

"No, I'm sorry. But she will leave even if I have to break both of your hearts."

"If you touch her one more time, so help me! I'll make sure you never see Celestia again!"

"Must you always be so violent?"

"BE QUIET! LEAVE ME BE!

"No..." Discord said, "Your going to leave, for good." He told me.

For the first time I did something I never thought or wanted to do. I ran. I tried as hard as I could to get away from him. But he simply smiled and laughed.

"Running won't help you, I will find you."

Now my mind was so mixed up, pain, anger, and sadness flooded my head so I began to do things I quickly regretted.

"Stay away from me!" I yelled. No! What did I say?

"You can't escape me..." Discord's voice echoed and it scared the heck out of me.

No matter where I ran there was always a wall to hold me in, I couldn't move. Discord was in front of me, I was trapped. His insane smile for the first time scared me, I was beginning to act insane!

"Don't touch me!" I screamed.

"Aww, are you scared of ME?" Discord's eye was beginning to twitch.

"Leave me alone you....." No I couldn't say it. I promised myself I would never EVER call him that no matter how angry I was. But the word escaped my lips too quickly. "...monster..."

For a split second Discord looked hurt, but that changed and I saw his twisted smile again. I hated myself, I loathed myself. Why! Why had I done all this?

"So I'm a monster? So be it, but you still have nowhere to go...."

I dropped to the ground and hid in between my legs. My clothes were soaked with tears.

"Don't worry sweetheart, you'll NEVER have to deal with me again." He said in a mocking tone. "I love you..."

"No you don't..." I barely managed to whisper under my breath.

Quickly I jumped up and grabbed onto his fur just as he snapped his talons. I'll never see him. The last sound I heard was a deep scream.

I'm back home. I watch My Little Pony, but it's different. The characters seem to be glaring at me in an angry way. Discord doesn't look at me at all. Only once did he look up at the screen and it looked he was trying to say 'I'm sorry.' But I don't know to whom. My life will never be the same, every night will end in tears. But it's better this way, I'm happy.... Even though I never smile.

Fictional characters are real, some love you and some you can never get over I'm not the only who misses the old Discord but it would have been better if Keep Calm and Flutter on hadn't happened. But you decide, I'm not in control anymore. I wish I could be playing with him again, but I still have the mind of a child and Discord isn't real.

I miss you....