Chapters When somethings gotta give.
Spike’s Wanderlust by SpiketheCoolerDash Proof read By pony ninja
Venom seeping into his heart, that's what it felt like. To see the pony of his affections, the mare of his dreams, the very reason for living kissing a stallion. It hurt it felt like the very world around him came crashing down his heart pounding; his mind barley able to comprehend what he was looking at. Spike, the little baby drake, stumbled and fell to the ground; missing the tree he was leaning against. His stomach curled and he fell to the ground. "Rarity" he whispered to himself before blacking out completely. Several hours later Spike woke up, and it was raining. His purple scales had an unhealthy pale color, his eyes were darkened, and the green spikes which lined Spikes back were slumped. Not feeling like going home Spike just stood there in the rain staring at absolutely nothing, his mind replaying the scenario which left him disheveled.
It was 8 hours ago Spike had just come from Sugarcube corner with left over muffins that Mrs. Cake was about to throw away; luckily for Spike he managed to be walking by and persuaded her to part with them. They were so stale not even Derpy cared to take them. (The yellow eyed mare loved muffins almost to the point that her husband, Dr.Whooves, instead of forcing her to eat other foods just made different types of muffins to help her keep a healthy diet.) Having managed to get a day off from Twilight he then decided to go to the park. He had wanted to go visit Rarity, but he knew he didn't have the courage to reveal to her the feelings he felt since the first day he laid eyes on her beautiful face, gorgeous mane, and he dare say her stunning flank. "Not today." he said to himself "Maybe tomorrow.” He headed to the park, only stopping along the way to say hello to any passing pony, “Today is an amazing day.” he said, the sun was shining the sky was clear of clouds and the temperature was perfect, not too hot, but not too cold.
It was almost as if Celestia herself was smiling upon Ponyville with a warm comfortable and satisfied smile of contempt. "Today nothing could keep me down" Spike happily humming the song “Parachutes” by his favorite band Coldhay. Reaching the park Spike saw it was empty "Hmmm strange" he said to himself as a cold breeze blew through him. Oh well Spike thought before walking over to a tree to sit down and enjoy a stale muffin. After a while of munching on the snacks he decided to take a nap, promptly closing his eyes and drifting off. An hour later he lazily regained consciousness I had the perfect dream he thought dreamily, me and rarity were walking through a land of ice cream candy and muffins
"You're so beautiful" the voice of a stallion Spike heard the voice from behind the tree. He would’ve disregarded it if he didn't hear "Oh you're such a handsome and gentle stallion yourself." from a voice he knew all too well "Rarity" the stallion said as a sick sad feeling entered the little drake’s stomach. "Rarity, my love, please become my marefriend. I promise to love and never betray you or your emotions" the stallion grabbed Rarity holding her in a hug. A tear rushed down from Rarity's eye she returned his embrace "Of course I will Autumn Leaf!”
Spike stood up and stuck his head around the tree to see what this stallion of Rarity's affections looked like, his fur coat was orange and his mane was a light red with a tint of yellow he was a bit muscular and well-toned.
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It was raining, and Twilight was pacing back and forth in the library. She was becoming more worried by the second when she gave Spike the day off she told him to be back by eight o clock, and it was nine thirty. "Where could he be?” she wondered “Oh when he gets back I'm going to give him such an earful!". Ten o clock rolled by and Twilight had enough she put on her raincoat and grabbed her umbrella and headed straight out the door to find her baby dragon. Twilight searched all around town asking everypony she saw if they knew Spikes was every time she had been given the same answer "Sorry, but I haven't seen him" (except for big mac of course who with an amazing vocabulary responded with well meant) "Nope".
Twi was seriously worried now Spike was nowhere to be seen she had checked everywhere, "except the park!" She exclaimed as she dashed to the park looking around in desperation. Twilight had almost given up when a small foreign object entered her vision it was next to a tree covered in mud she grabbed a muffin she thought; it was stale just how Spike likes. She noticed somebody was lying on their back in the mud a few feet it "Spike!" Twilight screamed she ran over to the little drake.
Spike noticed Twilight, but he didn't care; he just wanted to lay there till he was no more. He wanted the clouds to open and a great lightning strike to strike him dead, but it never came, so he just laid there wallowing in self-pity. He hated himself for waiting; every moment he had a chance to ask Rarity out or woo her had either failed or he cowered out. "I'm a coward, nothing but a coward" Spike spoke out to himself "and it cost what might have been my ultimate happiness.”
Twilight heard him speak, and she was curious. She heard the bitterness in his voice, and the resentment in his tone. She walked closer to Spike. He had been visibly crying; his usually shiny scales darkened and covered in mud. Spike's eyes were red he looked tired physically and mentally. Her motherly instincts kicked in, and with her anger gone Twilight picked Spike up with her forearms and hugged him tight. He started crying again, and in between his sobs he would say something inaudible pertaining to how he lost her or he was too late. Twilight didn't care what he was talking about she could tell his temperature was cold, and she needed to get him home immediately.
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I decided to take a break from Auxiliary been listening to a lot of Coldplay instead of mastodon and war stories don't go well with soft music so hope you enjoy.
A special thanks to pony ninja for proof reading this story.
Sometimes it's time to realize
Sometimes life isn't subtle its bluntness will have you on your back in seconds wondering what you did to deserve what you were given.
Twilight had run back to the library as quickly she could feel Spike getting colder by the minute he stopped mumbling and his breathing started to slow. While running a thought came to her that made her want to face hoof "I can use teleportation I'm such a scatterbrain" not wasting any more time Twilight focused her magic and disappeared with Spike in a flash reappearing in her and Spike's room on the second floor of the tree/library. Almost as soon as twilight had materialized she used her magic to dry her and Spike off, Twilight laid Spike on the bed and checked his temperature he wasn't improving. She wanted to take him to the hospital but she knew the doctors couldn't do anything and Zecora was in her homeland and Fluttershy knew nothing of dragon biology.
Twilight wrapped spike in two of her biggest blankets "Spike please don't give up you're my best friend and #1 assistant please whatever is wrong just don't give up" tears streamed down her face she hugged him then laid spike on her bed and went to the library to find out spikes ailment. After Spike's quest of self-realization Twilight had ordered all the books that could be found on dragons from every major library in Equestria which amounted to four, two of which were fictional with no fact in them at all (too bad she had learned that the hard way when taking Spikes temperature) apparently dragons do prefer their temperature taken orally. Discarding the two fictions she looked at the last two books one of the books was called The Dragon Mating Ritual quickly opening and looking inside, the first page was a picture of two dragons mating. Twilight's face turned beet red, she slammed the book shut and set it aside to be put in the non-youth section. She then took a look at the last book Dragon Biology the book of all you need to know of the four dragon tribes biology is what the cover said Twilight frantically opened the book and wasted no time in reading it.
As Twilight frantically searched through the index for an answer to Spikes sickness she could hear the poor baby dragon’s weak cries. Twilight practically started skimming the book this was her only chance she couldn't send a letter to Celestia due to her only means of getting there was disabled. Her frustration started to grow her anxiety kicked in the index showed no section on baby dragons.
"Everything you need to know my flank" Twilight screamed as she threw the book as the wall any other time she would have thought twice before throwing any book but now she was panicked, frustrated and scared. Twilight never was good at dealing with the unknown like any other firm believer of the sciences she believed every happening had an explanation, but here she stood her number one assistant sick and she had no explanation on how to treat him. Twilight did the only thing she could do, wait and hope putting faith in the great Faust that Spike would pull through. Tears started to flow from her face she magically lifted Spike wrapped in a blanket and set him close to the libraries furnace and laid next to him she didn't care if he was contagious she needed to give him warmth.
A couple of hours later Spike awoke his muscles ached his head hurt and his feelings torn. He heard soft breathing next to him Spike looked over to see a frazzled looking Twilight. Spike was semi-conscious through most of his scenario earlier but he was unable to bring himself to full awareness he was paralyzed between reality and his nightmares. He slowly and carefully stood up insuring Twi did not awake he felt ashamed he was willing to give up because Rarity found happiness with someone else besides him. He mentally scolded himself but deep down he felt it was justified Rarity was the only of his, no Twilights friends who had actually spoken to him he felt bad for saying it but it was true and that made it feel worse. Ever since he moved to Ponyville with Twi they both had grown apart. When she wasn't with her friends she was busy studying and testing.
When that filly Diamond Tiara had her Cute-Ceanera he was not invited even though everyone got one he didn't mind it as much as when the Princess came for a visit to the Sugarcube corner he spent his time working in the kitchen the princess visits rarely and he didn't even get speak to her she raised him before he went to live with Twi. When the young fliers competition came around Twi left him behind to watch the library not even bothering to ask whether he wanted to go or not. He was left out of Gummy's birthday party he was invited to Pinkies though. But the one that hurt him the most was Twilights birthday party he had spent the day before scouring the shops for a present to find out the next day that they were going to Canterlot and they had left him behind Twi had left him a hastily scribbled note on the fridge. He spent the rest of that day in tears but had quickly cleaned himself up when she before came back and acted as if he was okay.
And then there was Owlicious at first it sort of bothered him that she had accepted a second assistant but then it managed to gain more respect and attention in one day than he did in his time in Ponyville. He overreacted sure but he really felt hurt. Spike seriously felt out of place he went to find friends of his own but the only colts who hung out with him were Snips and Snails and even then he felt like a third wheel. The Cutie Mark Crusaders just used him to try to get their cutie marks he still avoided them for their attempts to get a cutie marks in dragon slaying. He finally had found a friend in Peewee in his quest of self-discovery.
He told himself that they were his family after that but he also made a depressing realization on that day that he had the mentality of a pony, but he was physically a dragon he would always be different no matter what and no magic was going to change that Spike didn't know how long he would live it could be a hundred to thousands of years. Spike didn't know what size he would grow to his greed grew him to the size of a small skyscraper thinking about it now he also had to fight to control his greed and Spike was worried it would only get worse as he grew older. These realizations only made him worry they only brought dread with no chance of comfort it hurt as the truth hit him he had only known Canterlot and Ponyville that was it Spike had no idea what the world around him was like and he could only whisper to himself. "I dont belong here"
Sory it took so long hopefully this rewrite is better than the original please comment.
The Last letter
Someday we all must go, and leave the home we've always known.
The rays of Celestia's sun shined upon Twilight, sleeping soundly on the rug she used as a substitute for her bed. She slowly opened her eyes, groaning and lifting her head from the floor. Wiping away the sleep dust from her eyes, she found the main room empty. "Spike?" she called out to her assistant, yet no answer no groans either. Slowly standing up and feeling a slight spasm course through her legs, she figured Spike was eating breakfast she headed to the kitchen. Upon entering the kitchen, Twilight did not see Spike anywhere. Instead, she saw a letter scrolled up on top of the table. Encasing the letter with a lavender aura, she levitated it to her and unrolled it. What she saw in that letter had broken her heart in a million pieces. Then it hit her like Rainbow Dash's Sonic Rainboom, Spike was still sick and in serious need of care.
His head ached at first when writing the letter he spilled his emotions, his feelings and his thoughts into. Soon Spike knew it would be time to leave soon. Once he finished it, he hoped his message would be understood by Twilight. His message of his ongoing pain, the pain in his heart. He got up from the table and walked over to Twilight, who he gazed upon for maybe the last time. Spike smiled tenderly at Twilight, but also felt a rising sadness build up in him as tears started to flow freely from his eyes. He stroked Twilight’s mane gently and planted a kiss on her forehead. He slowly walked towards the door, looking back at what was his home.
Though it was not really his in the beginning, since he did not belong. Once he was outside, he could hear Owlicious calling from inside the library though he dismissed it and walked on towards his destination. The only sounds that were heard on that night was the creaking of the crickets, the wind blowing against the trees and the tiny footsteps of Spike. Outside the town, he looked back at Ponyville and gave a silent farewell, and wondered if he would truly be missed by its occupants.
He looked to his side to see Sweet Apple Acres and wondered if Applejack really did consider him a friend. He turned his gaze to a cloud that had a house on top and wondered if Rainbow would even remember him. His eyes fell upon the Sugarcube Corner, and could not remember the last time he was invited to one of Pinkie’s parties. He saw a cottage near the Everfree Forest and thought of how Fluttershy and how scared she is of dragons. He could see the Carousel and thought of how he had worked so hard to gain Rarity’s affection, though in reality he was just a servant to her as she had her eyes upon other stallions and he finally realized she would never be with Spike. Finally he looked at the library and more tears started to flow from his eyes. He suddenly remember all the times he was left behind and forced to do work whilst Twilight was galavanting with her new friends. Though he remembered the good times too, the few good times he had with them. He shook his head, wiping off the tears and looked down upon the village one last time.
“Goodbye, everypony.” he whispered to himself and walked to the train station.
The sound of a mare crying her eyes out could be heard inside the house she resided in. Twilight Sparkle head lay on top of her forelegs, which rested on the kitchen table she was sitting at. Her hooves clutched the letter tightly to her muzzle, the words becoming smudged by the tears she was shedding. She lifted her head up to face the letter again, and read it through with even more tears escaping from her eyes.
Dear Twilight
If you are reading this, I am no longer here. Though, to be honest with you, it felt like I was never there at all.
Every time you went off adventuring, I was left behind to tend to this empty library. Do you remember the last time Pinkie invited me to a party? Almost never... but when I was, I was always made to work at those parties.Example would be when Celestia visited Sugarcube Corner, instead of talking to the mare who took care of me before I was handed to you, I spent that whole time cooking and working non stop to please the other attendants.
When you went to the Young Flyers’ Competition with Rainbow Dash and the others, you didn't even bother asking me if I wanted to go. Did you even consider whether I wanted to see Cloudsdale, that I wanted to walk on the clouds or even see where the rainbows are made?
Though what really disturbs me was when you left me at home to go celebrate your birthday with Rarity in Canterlot without taking me along with you. It still hurts you know? You and your closest friends and family are supposed to celebrate your birthday together, but I spent that day in Ponyville alone. I even wanted to give you a book you always wanted, to show you how much I appreciated you. Though now that I think about it, did you even appreciate the things I do for you everyday?
That night when we escaped those dragons and I called you guys my family, I was wrong. Family does not treat others like dirt, or make them cry like I did. I called myself a pony at heart, but I am not. I do not belong here, and you’ve made that clear with the treatment. You and the others made me realize that I do not belong with you at all. So I will be going now, and find the place where I belong.
Goodbye Spike
Twilight gasped for air before screaming and slamming her hoof on the table. Dropping her head to the table, she continued sobbing in sorrow and angst of what has happened. With more tears coming from her eyes, she banged her hoof on the table multiple times before bringing her front legs to her head that absorbed some tears. A single thought ran through her head, that pierced her mind like a rapier piercing the flesh of somepony.
What have I done?!
