Green Ember

"I'm so sorry, I never should have done that to you." Colgate said, choking on her tears. Though she had probably been fine before I came home, she was now unleashing torrential tears. I was in shock. I didn't know what to think. On one side, I had unmatchable joy. I was with my soul mate once more. On the other side, she had betrayed me. She left me alone, to waste away. Didn't she understand how much I loved her? Didn't she care? Does she think that we can pick up where we left off? Does she know the pain, the misery, the suffering she has caused me?
"Before you go any further. Why? Why did you leave me? I was wondering if I had been doing something wrong this whole time and you finally got sick of it." I said, parting from the embrace. She stumbled her way to the couch, where I stood across from her.
"The spark was gone. It wasn't magic when we were together. In the start, it was like we galloping through the stars, but at the end, it felt... plain, generic, normal. I never fully left you, I just wanted to take a break for a few weeks. But you never showed up anywhere. I couldn't find you. I couldn't go to your house. I felt horrible, as if I had stabbed my best friend and left them to die." Colgate said, the words falling over themselves as she spat them out between tears.
As I heard these words, I realized that she would have came back if I had let her. I had fulfilled my own prophesy. I was the asshole. I was the jerk.
"It's not your fault. I never let you." I said, telling her of my revelation. Her tears slowed down enough so she could say a quivering sentence.
"What do you mean?" Colgate
"I was caught up in misery. I rarely left home or did anything. I let you be miserable. I swear, I'll never do that to you again. But first, you have to promise to talk about problems instead of... this." I said, bargaining for what I had lost. I didn't know what I was doing, but I did know why. I wanted Blue back.
"Do you think we can pick up?" She said, rubbing her red eyes, apparently out of tears.
"No... let's just start over." I said, hugging her.
Parting from the hug, she said "Hi, I'm Colgate"
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the next morning.
"dude, because your feeling better, I got some of Joe's donuts!" I said, fruitlessly trying to wake Ember up. Ember was a heavy sleeper, only breaking from the slumber when his alarm that shakes the bed goes off.
I walked over to the kitchen, setting 13 donuts in a box on the counter. I walked into the living room, but to no avail. I tried the bedroom, seeing Ember and Colgate snuggling, not yet awoken from the slumber.
"Somehow, I'm not suprised. His horrible luck always plays." I said.
Colgate mumbled in her sleep in response to what I said and knowing her, it was something along the sarcastic lines of "Blackjack".
Leaving the room and heading back to the kitchen, I looked for a pad of paper to leave a message with.
After scribbling a barely legible message, I took a donut and left the apartment. Something told me they wouldn't be asleep for long. As I readjusted his bag so that the weight was more evenly distributed, I heard thunks from the other side of the wall.
"Blue, there's donuts." Ember said
"Yummy." Colgate said.
"Back to third wheelin'" I said
"How did these get here?" Colgate said, enjoying a donut.
"Does this face look like it cares?" Ember said, recieving a laugh from Colgate.
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"So you two are back to normal?" Diamond said. We were at Hayburger King, munching on fries and hayburgers. At one point, we had an eat-off here. I lost, but that's only because I tried to beat him by 3 burgers and ended up puking. I nodded in replience to his question.
"I'm glad you're happy, but are you sure that's good?" Diamond said. I nearly beat the shit out of him right then and there.
"What the fuck are you trying to say?"
"Her love is your drug. Think about it. You went through a withdrawal when you two split apart. You are really happy when you are getting your dose of her love." Diamond said
"Shut the fuck up." I said, getting angry. "She is the best thing that has happened to me."
"What about me? I'm your best friend! Doesn't that matter? When things went heavy, I was there to help you lift. I have always been by your side, so can't you just listen to me for one fucking moment." Diamond said, his voice getting louder and louder.
"Excuse me! If you two are going to shout, you need to get out. There are children here." A pony with a manager pin said.
"Fine" I said, teleporting the both of us out and to my apartment.
"If she is a drug, then how come I recovered? It was her that came back, not me! Drugs don't come back. I was over it, I could have never seen her face again and been fine. I could have spoken to her and be fine." I said, getting pissed off about what he was saying.
"UNDERSTAND ME! I'm trying to help you. I don't want you to get hurt again. You don't understand how scary it was to see you literally drop everything. You weren't yourself." Diamond said.
"I understand what you're saying perfectly fucking well." I said using a harsh voice filled with venom. "If you really wanted me to get better, you would let me learn from my mistakes, not spoon-feeding them to me."
"IF I REALLY CARED ABOUT YOU, I WOULD NOT LET THIS HAPPEN AGAIN! There was no lesson to learn the first time, and there's no lesson this time. I'm not saying break it off with her, I'm just saying that you should be very careful. I know you. You may hurt yourself next time. I don't want to see that." Diamond said, trying to calm the situation down by the end. He didn't know how close I was to killing myself the first time. Or maybe he did, that was why he said it.
"I am being careful. I am taking it slow. We agreed that we would start over."
"I dropped donuts off and you two were in bed together, who knows what you two did that night? What's that for taking it slow? For being careful?" Diamond said
"We didn't do anything! Besides, what the hell were you doing in my house?" I said
"You gave me a key and told me to come over whenever I wanted. I was trying to do something kind, to celebrate." Diamond said
"Ge-"
"Mares come and go, but family lasts forever. We are family. I don't care what any damn birth certificate says, we are family." Diamond interrupted me.
"Get o-"
"I have done everything for you, now would you just li-"
"GET OUT!" I shouted, no longer wanting to hear his words. They were too perfect, made too much sense, but it contradicted my beliefs. I knew how this worked. The seed had been planted, and doubt is the only plant that could emerge. If I got him away, there would be nobody to tend to this seedling of hell.
"I know what you're thinking. I'm not trying to push you apart, I'm trying to make sure you don't get hurt again. I've already lost you once, I'm not going to lose you again. I'm leaving now, but I want you to remember what I said. I don't want to see you hurt." Diamond said. He waited a moment for me to say something, but when I didn't he sighed in disgust and left the apartment.
"Everything was going so perfect."
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I sat down on my bed, ready to write. I picked up my feather and dipped it into the inkwell and I wrote. I decided to write a theory. A theory about life. And so I began.
"Life: My Theory on What Life is
In life, there are ups and there are downs. We all know this. No one has had everything go right just as no one has had a life go all wrong. If you see all good events as a number from 1-10, 1 being the least exciting and 10 being the most, and then you see bad events as a negative number playing by the rules for a positive event except with negative numbers, then add all of the numbers together, you will notice that almost undoubtedly you will come out with a negative number. That is where I get the base of my theory. Or this equation is the result of much thought of my theory.
In life, there are good things and bad things. The key to dealing with bad things is accepting that bad things happen, that everything will go wrong eventually. How to deal with good things is to not get too attached to them. They don't last forever and if you get to attached, you will constantly pull towards this one event, throwing everything towards it, not caring about what you lose as long as" I stopped writing. I understood what he was saying. It made sense. I was just throwing everything at Colgate and I ended up with her, but how long would that last? I had lost nearly everything and lost what mattered most. I just hope he was willing. No, he was willing. He understood. It didn't matter how much I studied, I would never be as wise as Diamond.
"I've been so horrible. Is this all it really takes? Just to write a theory on life and get sidetracked from the main idea. It can't be that fucking simple. It's never simple." I said, complaining about how easy it was.
Should I go now? Or tomorrow? I asked of myself. I knew I would never come to an agreement with myself.
I laid down on my bed, where a lay awake for the next few hours. Staring at the clock as it ticked the time away, I felt myself slip away near 5. Before I slept, I came to decision. Talk to him tomorrow.
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I got ready for the day, brushing my teeth, then combing my main just to ruin it by shaking my head to wake up. I got my saddlebag on and walked to school. Teleporting was too off-putting to me and I couldn’t manage many distances because the strain on the mind was hard for me and the change in environment threw me off.
I approached the gaping doors that welcomed thousands daily. I knew where Diamond would be. He was in the library in the mornings, never breaking from his pattern.
I went to where he normally sat, but I did not see him. Or did he not want to see me?
I headed to Science Class which was taught by Mrs. Light, a former student of the school. I sat down in the back corner, hoping that Diamond would sit back here, but once the class settled, I saw that he was seated in the front.
“You’re back Ember. I have a full list of homework I expect to see on my desk by Friday. I shouldn’t give you even that, but I know that things go wrong in life.“ Mrs. Light said
“Thank you Mrs. Light.“ I said
After class ended, Diamond disappeared from the class, using his wings to propel him away.
"Math Class. He can’t avoid me there“ I said
Getting to math class, I felt a great relief to see him in his usual spot, behind Colgate. They didn't speak or look at each other.
I sat down next to Diamond, who didn't even look up.
"You were right." I said "I'm sorry." Colgate looked back at me, wondering if I was talking to her. She saw that I was looking at Diamond and looked back to her paper.
"I just didn't want you to get hurt, I hope you know that." Diamond said
"How was he going to get hurt?" Colgate said, once again turning her attention over to the conversation.
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Sorry about the abrupt ending, I just don't know how to continue it from that point. More will be up... eventually.