-{David's Pov}-

I awoke in a clearing with dead manticores all over it and a throbbing pain running through my body. Luckily I remember everything that had happened before blacking out, so that's a good sign "I can't believe I actually had control over myself after I let go."

"Yes, you did, but it didn't come without consequences Yakaro." IT stated.

"What do you mean, wait, I didn't hurt the girls did I?" I asked as I grew worried that I did something that I would grow to regret soon.

"No, in fact quite it was the other way around, they hurt you." IT says a lot of things that can get me riled up if I was none the wiser to his schemes to be free but this doesn't sound like one of those moments. . . . and that scares me.

"What do you mean? Why would the girls want to hurt me if I didn't anything to them or was I but they caught on?" I inquired.

"You weren't going to do a thing. I think you must have blacked out momentarily after using one of those four manticores as a club to beat the others into a bloody pulp because soon after you were done you just started walking to them but I didn't sense any malicious intent behind your actions. You didn't change back after you were knocked unconscious by the purple one and they must have felt threatened by your presence. That unicorn had given you a warning but you didn't heed it but that is not the part that has me baffled." IT said.

"O..kay, then what does have you baffled?" I asked.

"Well......the fact that you were able to maintain control up until after you killed the last of the manticores, then just. . . . . lost it. It's all rather interesting so I need to ask, did you somehow manage to develop something to combat my control?" Well that answers the question of whether or not he knew what had happened but I did have another idea.

"No, well at least not completely, but I think it might have been 'Him', and you should know what I'm talking about." I told IT my idea for what might have happened.

"Well it would explain why you didn't go hostile but, and I have to say this, especially considering anyone else would if they knew the secrets you hold and how fucked up your life has been, you need to find help man. You've been fighting all of these fights on your own for far, far too long and even I'm beginning to worry." And now the jokes.

"Aaawww, you worried about me, does mean you've finally given up." I can't help it, getting this side of me riled up is hilarious if you know what buttons to push.

"Oh shut it Yakaro, we both know what you're trying to do and I'm not falling for it besides we have more important things to worry about right now." Now what could it possibly mean by that.

"What do I have to worry about? The girls are fine, I'm alive, and the manticores dead, so what other problem is there that needs my attention?" I asked as I thought he was trying to ruin the moment.

"Try the fact that now all of those ponies most likely hate or are scared of you because I guarantee that the ones who you saved are going to tell the rest of them what they saw, so you know what that means." My eyes widened as I finally allowed the situation to catch up to me.

IT was right, now that they've seen that monster they're going to tell everypony else about what I had done and have them want me ran out of town. Which means I'll have no choice but to leave since nopony is ever going to trust me again, even more so if Twilight as already informed Princess Celestia which means I'll probably be banished anyway. *sigh*"Well this just fucking great, and right when I was starting to make a better life for myself here. Though I guess I would be lying if I said that I wasn't suspecting it to happen sooner or later but I was really hoping it would be later. I guess there really isn't really anything else to do but to hurry on over the library and grab my stuff before they torch it or something." I said more to myself than to IT.

As I trudged down the path that lead back to Ponyville I couldn't help but think about what was going to happen once I got there. Various scenarios ran through my head, ranging from everypony running into their homes to hide from me to all of them shouting for me to be executed, but either way I'm leaving this place and I'll never come back. All those thoughts vanished as soon as I noticed that the path up ahead was clear of trees signaling the way out of this forest which is soon to be my new home.

I stepped into Ponyville to find that IT was indeed right. All around ponies were looking at me with either fear, disgust, or hatred in their eyes, but they were staring at me all the same. I looked among them to see if there was at least one pony here that didn't care about what I had done or what I hide inside but just saw the pain that it has caused me for the last six years. I know it's a relatively short amount of time but considering I'm only eigthteen and I my mind has labeled all of memories with. . . . "her" in them as things that need to be forgotten once and for all, which is basically all of my childhood up until this thing reared its head, all these years with this monster are all I have left.

I continued my search through the crowds as I made my way to library for that one soul that still cared about in a fleetly hope that I at least would have some good memories to look back to without them being distorted to what I'm seeing in my current situation. More specifically though I was looking for one pony that I was hoping more than anything that she would still be on my side and as I was passing the candy shop I found her and sure enough there she was, Bonbon, giving me look a sympathy and understanding. Under other circumstances I wouldn't want others giving me sympathy, but right now, i still don't like it but I don't care as it's a sign that someone still cares about me and not the monster.

Our stares linger for a bit before I begin to walk away. I'm already close to the library so it doesn't take me long to finally get there though when I did I could voices and although they were muffled I could recognize how many there were and who they belonged to. Inside were Princess Celestia, Princess Luna, Princess Cadance, Shining Armor, Spike, and the girls. "Well this is going to be a pain in the ass. I was hoping to not have to deal with them at all but I guess in hindsight it was stupid to think that." I said as I sighed dejectedly.

"Well you could just ignore them, get your stuff, and leave. I sure once they see that you don't plan on sticking around anymore they'll leave you be." IT suggested.

"I doubt they'll let it be that easy for me." I really, really do, but maybe I'll give it a shot anyway.

I opened the door and walked in as all them go silent, watching me as I make my way towards the stairs to what used to be my room and in the corner of my eyes I saw that all of them, including Fluttershy, were giving me death glares. I paid them no mind though as I traversed to stairs and went into my room. I packed everything as quickly as I could without looking like I was all panicky and exited the room. I was surprised to see that none of it had been destroyed or tampered with but that was of little concern for me at the moment as I was just wanting to get out here. I wouldn't get my wish of having zero confrontations with them as both of the princesses stepped in front of the door while I was a few feet from it.

"Pray tell, where do you think you're going?" Luna asked with venom oozing from her voice.

"Away." Was all I gave as response.

"Away to where exactly?" Celestia asked with just as much venom in her tone.

"What does it matter to you. I'll be going far away somewhere where no creature will have to interact with me ever again so you won't have to worry about me staying in Equestria and believe me when I say that I'm not coming back." Of course I was lying about not coming back but they didn't need to know that.

"And how can we be so sure that you won't and with an army at that?" Shining Armor stepped in.

"Why would I want to come back to a place that will forever fear and hate me for this thing that lies within me. Plus there is the fact that I don't believe in revenge unless it's for a good reason, such as anyone hurting my friends or family and right now I have neither in Equestria, well none except for Bonbon but honestly I think she'll have enough friends to do something if she should be harmed." At least I hope that they'll stand by her side because I'm not planning on leaving before saying my goodbyes. . . . even if they try to get her to turn against me but I don't think that'll happen, especially after what I'm going to give her.

"So you're really planning on just leaving with no intent on coming back to cause harm to the citizens of Equestria?" Cadence asked sounding surprised. Seriously how fucked do these ponies think I am.

"Nope."

"And if you do come back will you stay?"

"Odds are that if I do come back I will have hoping found a place to settle down and just wanted to visit Bonbon if she hasn't forgotten about me by then, so if I do come back I'll only stay a day or two, all depends how long the journey ends up taking to travel between here and wherever my home will be." I responded truthfully. I know I just said that I wouldn't tell them I wouldn't come back but considering that hate in their voices has been replaced with surprise and none have expressed any disposition to me wanting to keep in contact with the candy maker, I don't really see the point.

"Very well then. As much as I don't trust you now you have been nothing but honest with us since you have arrived here and, judging by the look in your eyes, the determination you hold to want to leave I will allow you to go without the use of force. Though that doesn't mean that we won't have eyes on you as you make your departure." Finally sunbutt, now fucking move so I can go.

The princesses stepped aside and let me pass so that I could begin my hunt for a new home but first I am stopping by Bonbon's place before I do. Making my way there was the same as walking to the library but I didn't care about any of them as they were no longer any concern to me. No the only pony that I care about now is a few yards in front of me and closing that distance fast as she runs towards me. When Bonbon is close enough she leaps at me, throws her hooves around my neck, and presses her muzzle into my chest. I return her hug and we stay like that for a little while.

"You're leaving, aren't you?" She asks with a strained voice as if she is on the verge of crying.

"Yeah, I am, I know you don't want me to though."

"It's not fair, you risked your life to save them and this how they repay you. It's hard to believe to that you actually called them your friends!" Bonbon shouted as she strengthened her grip on me.

"Well that's the reason why I consider them only my friends and not my best friends like Bonny. As I've already told you, the title of my best isn't just thrown around with me like what others do. My best friends are the ones I look to for help whenever I'm hurting inside and I need support. Their the ones who I know I can trust whenever things like this happen. Their the ones who I will show my loyalties to when the situation calls for it. But I have to say Bonny I think you might be above that as well." I said as a way to get her intrigued in what I'm wanting to do.

"W- wh- what do you mean David. Are you trying to ask me to be your marefriend?" She said that last part with half lidded eyes and a playful smirk on her face which I couldn't help but chuckle at.

"No Bonbon you silly mare, though I don't think I would have mind if you had wanted to be if it wasn't for this mess. No I was referring to the fact that out of everyone I've ever called one of my best friends you're the one I have come to trust the most with opening up to and it is for that reason that I want to give you something, something I wouldn't have even trusted my own mother with." I said before kneeling down to set her back on the ground and place my bag in front of me.

"What are you going to give me, and what do you want me to do with it?" She questioned as she tried to see what I was grabbing.

After a moment of digging into my bag I found what I was looking for and presented it to her. She gasped as she saw what it was and started tearing up.

"D- Da- Dav- id, I, I, I can't take this. I- I- It's your most prized possession." Bonbon stammered as she was trying to keep her emotions in check, but to be honest I was having the same problem as felt tears rolling down my cheeks.

"I know it is Bonbon and that's the reason I'm giving it to you. I, I want to ask you if you could keep safe for me while I try to find a place to live. You're the only one who I have asked to do this for me. Plus it will give something to remember me by while I'm away but I don't want to risk it being destroyed while I'm out there in the Everfree forest." I could barely contain myself now. I may be an asshole most of the time and act as though I was big and bad, but whenever things like this happen I can't help but want to break down and do nothing but cry for awhile, though I think that that has to do with the fact that I'm holding back so many of my emotions so that I could be the strong one for others. But right here, right now I think it would hurt Bonny because she may think that I don't as much as I say I do.

Bonbon had clung to me again after I had said that and cried her eyes out. I was do the same but was keeping some of it back as I rubbed her back to soothe her undoubtedly aching heart. I knew that she saw me as much of friend as I did her and I also knew that was going to be hard for her to just take in without some kind of outburst and I was fully prepared to let her have her moment, and these asshole better to the same. I don't care how badly they wanted me gone or what threats they used, if I have to let that monster again I will, and this time I won't hold back.

Sometime has passed before she had calmed down enough to speak with being interrupted by her own sobbing, I had stopped awhile ago but still had the occasional tear run down my face now and again. "You really are giving this to me aren't you?"

"Yes Bonbon, you are the only one who've I told why I really keep this notebook around, what those drawings really mean to me, and that's why you are the only one who I can trust to protect it."

"Well if I'm going to have this then I want to give you something to remember me by as well." I was going to object but she was already running through her door before I could open my mouth. It doesn't take long for her to come back and when she does she is carrying a box in her mouth. Bonbon stops in front of me and points at my hand getting what she means I hold out my hand and she places the box in it. I examine it a bit before opening it and see that it's the necklace I had bought for her after I had taken her out to dinner right after a stallion and brutally dumped her. Opposed to what many ponies thought, I wasn't trying to take advantage of the brokenhearted mare and just wanted to comfort her for obvious reasons. Though she had only worn it once and remembered to smile on her face when I presented it to her. It was a smile that had helped to remind that I'm the monster I thought I was, that there was in fact a good person inside, the very same one that had led me into being able to do what I did for the girls today, or yesterday still haven't figured out how long I was out exactly.

"You got that for me after I had that break up and since then it has brought me happiness whenever I'm feeling down just by looking at it but I think now that you're going to need for the same thing as you go through the challenges that forest will put you through but also know this David. I am giving this to you with every intention of getting it back so that means you better not die out there mister or I'll bring you back from the dead to kill myself." She said completely serious as she jabs her hoof into my chest.

"Yes ma'am, I'll make sure that I live just long enough to return this. . . . even if it's the last thing I do." I say as I playfully salute her.

"You better, or else." There's that threatening tone again......yep, Bonbon is back to herself.

"Well Bonbon as much as I wish I could stay I have to get going. I don't think the princesses are going to give anymore time to stay." I know, I know, I killed the mood but it's true.

"It's okay David I understand but promise that you'll come back to visit one day."

"Don't worry Bonbon I will. I'm not about to leave you behind because of them." And with that I gave her one last hug before turning around and walking back to the forest but after taking a couple steps I decided that I might as well as show off a little before I'm gone for however long. I stopped and let the strength of the monster free once again to the shock of everypony as they became fearful. I looked over shoulders back at Bonbon the see her in awe of the changes that my body has undergone before turning back to face forward and darted off into the Everfree as a blur in the eyes of most of scaring the shit out of them in the process. Could have sworn I also saw a stallion piss himself as well but it could have just been my imagination, can't actually see everything when you're moving so quickly.

"So I guess this is the start of another new life eh?"

"Yup, lets see what adventure it holds for me now."

Author's Note

Sorry about the long delay, finding a reliable device to continue has proved to be rather difficult but hopefully it won't take long to finish another another for this story before I transfer over to Darkness' Light.