i just think bravery doesn't like me sometimes

by Principles-of-snow

Rating: everyone
Tags: Slice of Life
Length: 1794

illustrator was just like most fillys. she was cute sweet, caring. but she had one problem. social anxiety. can anyone help her out of it?

Illaillustrator is a simple filly. She has a sweet caring family. Most ponies love and care for her. But out of her home she's not so loved. It doesn't help that she has social anxiety. Is there any mare or filly that will be able to help her?

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2015-02-02 19:05:35 UTC

More than odd everywhere

illaillustrator and dark ink walked together  through  town. " good morning Mrs. Cake!" Her brother waved to mrs. Cake, who waved back happily. they continued  walking along . Derpy tripped over dropping a box she was carring "whoops" illustrator  went to her "are you alright  ditzy do?" She picked up the box . Ditzy stood up and nodded "yep! Have you seen your dad around here?"  Illaillustrator giggled and nodded " he was heading to the office  earlier.  Did you loose him again? " ditzy smiled and nodded "he'll  be here soon. But we need to go. Bye miss ditzy!" They waved to her. She waved to them "have fun at school! " she went to go in the building  but bumped in the doorway. But she eventually  made it in. They continued  on their walk.Pinkie pie bounced over with olimpic speed "good morning! " they laughed "good morning pinkie pie!" She giggled  and bounced away. They finally  got to dark  ink's class. Illaillustrator  sighed when she saw it. But she smiled at him and kissed his head "have a good day dark ink" he smiled and nuzzled  her side "you too big sis!" He ran into his classroom happily "enjoy that feeling for as long as you can inky. Not being tormented  every day. Feeling like you're  going to fall apart" she thought sorrowfully as she walked away. She watched everyone around her. They were happily doing what the always did. Everyone always seemed to follow some kind of routine that she wasn't  told about. She had that odd feeling  again. Like she wasn't supposed  to be there. She felt like she was an odd Mare out. She sighed sadly and tutned the corner. There was her class. She could see some of the other fillies running around. Like those three who were always together.  She could never remember  their names though. All she new is they were about  the only other blank flanks besides  her. But she was way to shy to actually  talk with them.  She just walked into the classroom  and looked around. Then she had that odd urge to smash a chair. All she saw in the class was the fillies that had bullied her and mocked her. "Isn't  this just fantastic? " she mumbled  sarcastically

So im the monster they're not allowed to treat kind?

So im the monster they're not allowed to treat kind?

She took her seat. Which was close to the wall on the left but also close to the board. She liked to sit here because  her glasses  were really  bad so she didn't  have to strain her eyes if she sat there. She looked at tgem all. In the front was diamond  tiara and silver spoon. Behind them was snips and snails. Those three other fillies  came inside and sat behind illustrator "i wonder what miss cheerilee is going to teach us this week" the white, purple, and pink filly said happily " i have no idea" said the yellow one with red hair. Illaillustrator  noticed  she had quite a southern  dralw.  " good morning  class!" Cheerilee   greeted  "good morning!" The others greeted  "good morning. ." She said quietly . " i hope you're  all ready for the new school year!" They nodded "well i thought that what we should do first is introduce ourselves! " all but illaillustrator  cheered in agreement.  Illaillustrator  went pale at the thought of that. "We'll  go one by one. You'll  come up to the front and introduce  yourself.  Lets start with you!" She pointed  to snails, who came up "hello everyone  my name is snails!" They waved "anything  special  you'd  like to tell us?" Cheerilee  asked . He nodded "my parents  went to canterlot over the summer!" They clapped "very interesting.  Who wants to go next?" Diamond tiara  and silver spoon raised tgeir hoofs. She nodded to them and they both went up. "Hello there.  Im diamond  tiara  and this is silver spoon" she gestured to her "and last year i was the leader of the newspaper " she smiled  smugly and they sat down "thank you. Who's  next?" "Oh how about us miss cheerilee? !" They orange and pink pony raised her hoof and waved. "Come on up you three" the three  of them  ran up "hey my names scootalo!" "Im sweetybell!" "And my names applebloom!" They all smiled big "and we're -" "blank flanks" diamond  tiara  whispered.  Making some of the kids laugh. Scootalo  glared at her "true. But i was going to say we're  the cutie mark crusaders!" Applebloom continued. Illaillustrator  looked to her flank worried.  It was as blank as it had always been. The three all sat down behind  her. This process  continued  till she was the only one who didn't  go up yet. "Is there anyone else left?" Sweetiebell pointed  to illustrator  " she hasn't  miss cheerilee " illustrator  winced  and walked up slowly  "what's  your name dear?" She gulped "it's  illaillustrator " she mumbled  " hm?" "I - illustrator "  she said a bit louder. Cheerilee smiled "that's  a beautiful  name. Can you tell us something about yourself? " she nodded slowly   "i love to draw. Im actually  very good at it" cheerily  smiled calmly  " thank you. You can sit down" cheerily  could tell that she was very nervous so she let her leave at that. Diamond  tiara  smirked at her as she walked  by. She quickly  sat down. "Alright fillies" the bell rung "recess!" They cheered And ran outside.  Illaillustrator followed  after  them slowly.  Everyone  ran around  happily. She sat on the grass by a flower patch. She talked quietly with a bird that landed near her. When it flew away she looked  around to see who desturbed her and the bird. It was the a small green filly. she looked  around  nervously  " um hello.." she tried her best to smile. The green filly beamed "hey there! Name's  clover!" She chimed happily. She had a slight  accent . It was a bit like appleblooms. "Illaillustrator " clover shook her hoof hard " nice t-to meet you!" She yelped "can you let go of my hoof please?" She dropped  it and nudged her "why of course  illaillustrator! " she giggled.  She snorted  a bit. Somehow by some miracle  she made illaillustrator  smile. "Oh hey blank flanks!" Diamond  tiara  smirked  at  them. Clover just waved to her " hey there miss diamond  tiara! " she scoffed and rolled her eyes "you really are dumb" illaillustrator's eyes darted around. She was already panicking " h-hey that's  r-really rude" she shook slightly  "mhm. It's  supposed  to dear" she poked her chest "hey now no need to get rough" clover interrupted. Diamond  tiara  just scoffed  and pushed illaillustrator  down . Silver spoon pushed clover down too " listen you two. Don't  you ever back sass us or tell me im wrong in any way" with that they both trotted  off. Illaillustrator  slowly curled up and shook "are you alright  miss illaillustrator? " clover stood Next to her. She just stayed there shaking. Clover nugged her. She got up slowly,  her hoofs still shook slightly. "Come on. You don't  have to listen to them" clover nuzzled her and lead her back to the class

the same old new

Illustrator yawned  and opened her eyes. She saw bright sunlight shining on her night table "dear celestia.." she said angrily . She slowly  got out of bed and shook her head and streched  out her wings, yawning. She looked  to her mirror. Her purple mane had a white  stipe in it that went from  her bangs to the end of her mane. Her mane was a huge mess of frizzy hair. She just sighed  and grabbed  her glasses  and set them on her nose. At least she could see properly now. She grabbed  her saddle bag and put her things in it. She put it on her back and went into the hall. "Doodle!" Her little  brother yelled when he saw her . She giggled " good morning  dark ink" she greeted  happily  . He giggled  and they walked into the kitchen " are you ready  for the new school year doodle?!" He cheered  happily  as he sat at his spot at the table. Her smiled weakened "yeah" she lied. After all she didn't  want to ruin his excitement.  "That's  great doodle! I am too!" She smiled . She honestly  loved her home life. They all cared for her and her brother always knew when to make her smile or comfort her. Her parents they . He thoughts were  interrupted by a poke to her ear. It was her mother. She smiled sweetly  at her "your  main is an uter mess dear!" Her mother giggled.  She used her magic to levitate  a brush over and brushed through illustrator's hair. Once it was back to it's soft flat form she put it in a hair tie. "Thanks momma" she smiled and kissed her forehead " no problem  sweety" illustrator went to eating her biscuits.  Her father tumbled  into the kitchen.  All of them laughed "did you fall down the stairs again daddy?" He beamed  at her "why of course  my little  love" he straightened  the eccentric  glasses her wore. "Have fun at work daddy!" "Will do dark ink!" He bumped into the door but made it out eventually.  "That means you two should  get to school soon" illaillustrator  nodded and got up "come on dark ink!" He grabbed  his bag and kissed their mother "bye momma!" "Bye you two! And try to stay safe illustrator! " she nodded and they headed out across  town to shcool

Hide it all over again

She slowly  trotted  out of the building  "sissy!" Her brother  glomped her happily.  She sighed and put on her best smile "hey dark ink! How was school?" He beamed  and flew next to her. "It was awesome! Guess what we get to do tomorrow!!" She smiled at him. She was glad she  could hide things like this from him. She never wanted him to know how much his sister, his idol in life, hurt on the inside. "What?" "We get to write stories  about a family  member.  Im going to write about you big sis!" She ever so slightly  teared up "that's  great inky!" He giggled  " mhm! I cant wait to write it !" They both walked together  to their home "how was your school sissy? " she coughed at this and cleared her throat "it was great" "did you make any new friends?" She nodded slowly "thats awesome  sissy!what's  their name?" She smiled genuinely  now "clover" "oh oh can i meet her someday?!" "I don't  see why not" they laughed together  "hey you wanna  go to the apple patch with me?" He hopped up and down "of course!" She giggled  and they walked together  to the apple orchard.  When they got there they were greeted  by applebloom "hoowdy! What brings you?" Illaillustrator  cleared her throat nervously " i was hoping  i could get us some of your families apple pie..." "hey you're  that new filly in my class! Come on in ! Im sure  granny smith won't  mind getting  yall some " they followed her into their house "granny smith!" "What is it?" She yelled back from the kitchen "  some fillies came over to get your famous pie!" They followed  her into the kitchen.  Granny smith was sitting  in her rocking chair "well of course they can have some!" She slowly  got out of her chair and went over to the oven. On it was several  apple pies "wow there's  so many!" Dark ink gushed. Granny smith  chuckled  "well you'd  be surprised  how many mare and colts come for my pies." She handed them both a pie "thank you. How much are they?" She asked quietly  . Granny smith  and applebloom  laughed "you dont have to pay for them. Yall are only fillies" granny  smith  explained.  "But but" her brother kicked her shin "thanks!" They nodded "no problem! " "lets go sissy!" Her brother lead her out "thank you again!" She followed  after him "they were sonice.." her  brother nodded.