Shrugging I get dressed as the room fades into mist leaving me in a void with a door. When I’m ready I walk out and find myself back in the bar only moments after we left. Jade and Velvet are finishing up their dance and walking back to the table. I hear them talking but I can’t really understand, my headache having returned with a vengeance. Jade’s horn lights up and I feel a tingling in my head for a moment before the pain lessons. She looks concerned and Velvet has a ‘you did this to yourself’ look.

Jade half-carries me outside with Velvet trailing behind. I sigh in relief as we leave the music and get somewhere quiet. “You have a concussion along with other damage all over your body that you have aggravated with the alcohol. We are going home and you are going to get plenty of rest after I attempt to heal the damage you’ve done to yourself.”

I sigh as we say goodnight to Velvet, Jade tells her our address and asks her to look us up. I’m forced to walk due to Jade telling me that I can’t use magick in this state, but eventually we make it home and I strip before sinking into my plush bed. Jade’s magick works wonders on my body, leaving me feeling perfectly fit, albeit tired. She tries to say goodnight and leave, but I scoop her up and pull her into bed grateful that changelings are not nearly as heavy as they look and are much more cuddly.

Jade pulls herself closer and whispers to me conspiratorially “So, which one are you going for anyways? I could tell there was a lot of flirting but which one actually caught your eyes?” She has a grin splitting her face.

“Maybe it was Applejack, who I can tell likes me a bit. I don’t know about her, though, I’m wondering if she just likes the challenge of trying to make me submit. Maybe it was Dash who’s skilled in combat and strong. Maybe it was Rarity who is quite the beauty. Not sure about her either, I’m not even sure whether she thinks I’m a ruffian or a gentleman. Velvet is beautiful and there's something about her that catches my eyes, but I’m not sure what her interests are.”

“And what about Twilight?”

“She’s a little off limits if I mess with her Celestia is going to burn me alive. Not that I’m not interested but still…”

“I knew it! So what’s the plan?” I grin at her and kiss her. She leans into it and kisses me back pulling me in with a hoof. She looks a little dazed when we break apart. “Distractions are effective. But still. Are you saying your not going to do anything at all?”

“Duties remember? We both have duties that come before ourselves. I’m a knight and must stay at hand. I sense them hatching a plan around me. I can’t leave Canterlot without permission. If they come back I’ll be happy to see them. I have a feeling I can make good friends with them. Even Pinkie Pie, even if she has weird powers or whatever it is about her. Beyond friends, well, time tells no lies.” I sit in the table staring into the distance. She sits next to me and leans against me.

“So honestly, tell me about Chulainn. Was she as even with you as she seemed? How much were you actually holding back?”

“She’s a powerful opponent. I’m wondering how far down I’ve fallen. I’m strong enough now that I would be a god amongst my people because of Discord and everypony else's gifts. That’s just the thing though isn’t it? All this power I have now is just much stronger people doing small favors. Even right now, I’m running hot with more power than I’ve ever dreamed of, yet it was just a tiny little piece of Twilight’s immense powers.

“I feel stronger than I ever have, but I’m still safe to be around. I could hug you full strength and while it might be a little painful you’d be fine. If I hugged a human like this, even if I just lost control of my power for a second. I would kill them. I need to find out where I lie in this world.”

She looks contemplative. “Why? Isn’t it enough to simply be as strong as you can and always strive to get stronger? Does comparing to others amount to much? Had it been a deathmatch and she used her wings and flown. How would you have reacted?”

“In a death match, I would have used a lot stronger techniques. Once she was in the air I would have used her lack of grounding to attack with lightning and thrown off her flight paths with fire. I don’t know how good a flyer she is but I do know that she’s likely resistant to lightning like a pegasus and physics are weird here. I couldn’t tell you how that would have gone in a death match.”

She smiles and kisses me again gently. “What if she was a threat to me? What if she had come to kill me and destroy the hive?”

“All bets are off and she would have died. It wouldn’t be a fight, simply murder from where she least expects it. If I had to I would unleash the Midnight Lotus.”

“Exactly, strength is a thing that changes so drastically on a situational basis. On paper would you have lost the fight that killed you?”

“Aye, necromancers are the bane of astral types. Just as we are the bane of tech and assassin types. Why?”

“Yet, you almost won. Had you not given in to the pain of loneliness and simply defeated the female, you would have seen the necro try casting his spell and stopped him. That’s why.”

I think about it as we sit in silence. She’s right, there's no point in wondering how I match against others when in the end, anypony could beat me in the right situation. Strength is such a complex thing usually, but in this world where I don’t even know the rules it is ever greater levels of complexity. I don’t even know my own limits and abilities anymore.

Jade snuggles closer with a sleepy sigh and I curl around her watching her drift away into the realm of sleep. I wonder about her. I know she finds me attractive, but I wonder how much of her affections comes from the food she gets from it. Does it really matter? Perhaps there is wisdom in changelings they just want to be loved. If nopony loved a changeling then they would die. Perhaps I should commission a play about changelings. Something moving that draws upon the absolute beauty of needing love to survive.

The night is moving forwards and my muddled thoughts keep me awake. Giving up on sleep I try to get up and go for a walk when her hooves wrap around my waist.

“Where are you going? Your beds more comfy with you in it.”

“I thought you were asleep.”

“Maybe I still am.” She gives me a coy smile

I chuckle at that. She really is adorable. I sigh and snuggle back in with her, she is really cuddly.

“So many thoughts are running through my head. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I wonder how much I’ll change in this world, as well as how much I will change it. I’m a monster among cattle here and a genteel among beasts out there, where do I belong?”

“Honestly, it’s hard to link the person who is always kind and affectionate to me with the person who has half the city treating them like the princesses newest tamed monster. I don’t get how you can flash between a glare that crushes wills and the caring look that you always look at ponies nice to you with.”

“It’s because I’m a wolf,” I reply in explanation. She laughs like it was a joke. “Not even joking. Wolves are powerful creatures that hunt for and will kill anything threatening the pack. However if they can tell you're not a threat and not worth trying to eat they aren't dangerous. However at the same time, a wolf will always put the happiness of everyone else in the pack above there own.

“To put it simply if you're nice to me I’ll go a round with a demon to protect you. If you threaten anyone that I like then I will go as far as I have to in order to protect them. The guards today were making you sad, so that put them on my bad side. However, the ones who challenged me was a matter of pride. We don’t have anything against each other, fighting is how wolves decide who the alpha is. I will always be the alpha.”

“Being the alpha, what does it mean to you? It sounds like you always have to be in control, but I don’t think that’s what it means.”

“An alpha is strong. They protect the pack from anything and never back down. When the pack has to run away they are the last to get out. When the pack charges an enemy they are the ones who lead the real attack. I don’t want to control really. It’s more of I want to… I don’t know how to put it into words.” I trail off. This is more self-reflection then I had planned for tonight.

Jade smiles at me and kisses me again. It’s a lot more passionate than the small kisses before. Fire and ice play under my skin. My power ignites as it flows through me. Her power draws at my reserves leaving shifting patches throughout me where the burning power is cooler. It feels wonderful. She explores my mouth and gently traces my fangs. She has two sharp curved fangs on both the top and bottom of her mouth. They are sharp and the contact with them sends a jolt traveling down my spine.

We break apart and I feel light headed from the lack of oxygen. She had a soft gentle look when she kissed me, now her eyes blaze and I can see the desire etched in every part of her face. She is baring her fangs and rolls on top of me. She kisses me again as I trace her body with my hands.

She positions herself and brings herself down on me. The contact is electric as she takes my length into her at once. I feel a moment of resistance before she buries myself in her. She gasps and freezes for a moment. She looks like she is in pain.

“Are you alright?”

She kisses me again before she starts shifting her hips. She moans into the kiss as she starts gyrating. I feel a momentary compulsion to flip us around and take control but suppress it. Instead, I shift my hips and thrust into her. She gasps and breaks the kiss. I thrust again, this time, she meets my thrust with her own as we build a steady rhythm. She bares her fangs and her head darts at me but she stops short. Her eyes are intense and she seems to be fighting herself. I place my hand against the back of her head and push her teeth to my skin.

She bites down at the invitation and I feel my power flowing into her. She’s stopped moving and I roll her over. I position myself better and resume thrusting. The pressure in my hips is building. She begins moaning into my skin and yanks her head back in a shout as I finish inside her. I feel her body spasm as she drives her hooves into me pulling me closer. When the spasms stop she goes limb. I’m worried until I realize she’s sleeping. I slip out of her and lay next to her. I pull her close and close my eyes exhausted from the rough day and drain on my power. She really is so adorable.

I hug her close and finally feel myself drifting off to sleep.

Author's Note

As promised here's the rest of chapter 5. I know it's short but take heart, chapter 6 will be out later today or tomorrow and will have much more substance to it. Wolf is finally realizing that you can't have it all, he's no longer a demigod but now he has to remember how to mortal. There's an old curse "may you receive your most desperate desire" that he is quickly learning the meaning off. Next chapter should be the end of the Welcome to Equestria arc and be the beginning of the Shadows of the Forest arc, but no promises. This story is alive and I can't control what it wants to do.

To all of you who didn't read the last chapter because it was M/M, I recommend reading up till the authors interruption, I kinda put a couple of important things in there that were supposed to be in chapter 5.1. That said I have to say of course this story will be M/f/f centric with the occasional chaos is sexy chapter that will be considered semi-cannon and generally unimportant. But come on, bratty sub Discord is awesome and I have never seen it before ever.