You, you’re Rainbow Dash. You’re strong. You’re tough. You think yourself above all others. While, me, I’m Fluttershy. I’m timid. I’m a weakling, and I suffer because of you.
Yet, I envy you, Dash. You’re so proud and tough. You fear nothing. I wish I was as good as you are. I wish I was as strong as you are. You always shine, and you boast to everypony. You cast your voice, loud and proud. You show off your moves in front of everypony making them gape in awe. You think you’re better than anypony. I know that. You’re always trying to be the most popular pony. And you feel the need to try to be better than anypony that you think might be better than you.
I can’t remember the last time you showed me love? I’ve known you since our filly days in Cloudsdale. You were always there to save me from those bullies. Even then, you never payed much attention to me.
Sometimes you strain our friendship to the breaking point. Like when you prefer to hang out with your ‘cooler’ friends, such as Gilda, and not me. I’m sure that you like me as a friend, but I also know that I will never be number one in your eyes. If you and I could only become true friends.
Why do I love you? You saved me from bullies, and you still encourage me even though I'm not one of your best friends. There's something in you that makes me loyal. I have been with you for a long time. You may not have loved me, but I still trust you. I'll still help you with your problems. Only, I wonder if you will ever love me the way I love you?
No matter how much I love you. No matter how much I hope that I matter to you. No matter how I want to be a part of your happiness. It doesn’t seem to concern you.
You bully me with your ignorance and it hurts, Rainbow.
When we were in high school I tried to help you, but you never noticed. That’s when you were more of a crazy mare, having sex with all the girls, and crazy drinking parties. You were not yourself.
You only cared about yourself, and your popularity.
The mare that I thought was so kind and loving, the mare who was the one I loved, and I thought she was a good mare. I thought she was good natured. That dream shattered. The endless daydreams, the countless minutes I thought about her and I, and the moments of us together. All shattered like a piece of paper cut in half, and then crumpled till it was pure white dust as I learned the truth about what you were doing.
You have hurt me so many times. You’ve done so many stupid and destructive things. Why, after all this, am I still with you?
I know you can change into a new soul. Whether you’re crazy or not, I’ll help give you that chance, if you’ll allow it.
You may not have given me anything. All I want is for my friends to be happy. You’re the only one there for me, no matter how little you've done. I'm the only one who can stop you from the drugs, the drinking, and having sex millions of times because you’re depressed.
I’ve heard about your struggles from when you were a filly, and how badly it hurt when Gilda betrayed you, Rainbow. I also now how much pain trying to be tough all the time has caused you along with some other deep issues.
All you wanted was to be the best mare at everything. You were so h-horny.You always craved sex, and were able to get the stallions attention. It pained me to see you making the wrong life choices. I know you weren’t aware of what you were doing. I felt sorry for you, Rainbow.
Why am I still loyal to you? Even after I discovered you want sex from stallions, and that you post sexual images of yourself.
I know you love me even though you don’t show it very often. I love and care for you. I’m going to change you and help become a better pony.
I’m giving you another chance. Please, choose to take this opportunity, Rainbow.
You wanted to be accepted by all the “cooler” gangs in school, which is the reason you started taking drugs.
Through all the years we’ve been together. All the times I’ve been able to save you from yourself. You’ve gone off and overdosed. I can’t save you this time. No matter how much I want to.
I-I… hold on, Rainbow! Give me a chance. I love you! We’ve been through so much together in this life. I know we’ve argued and had our differences. Noponies perfect. Please, don’t leave me!
I wish I could have stopped you. I wish… I wish you were never traumatized. Wasn’t I a good friend? Wasn’t I a good wife?
I see you lying on the bed beside me.
“Just cause I’m dying doesn’t mean you stop being happy,” you said, weakly.
I see you smile at me. It’s the same brave smile I know and love. You don’t look like you’re in pain or even dying.
"How do you look so-" I tried to say.
“I enjoy seeing that beautiful kind little face,” you said. “It makes me smile. Please, never stop smiling. I love it when you’re happy.”
You looked at me for a little while. "So, Flutters, I was wondering, c-could we go on a walk to that hill where the Butterfly Migration was?"
Hearing your words, hearing that you wanted to go somewhere with me despite your pain. It seems like you might actually care for me more than I had thought.
"N-no, you need to rest." I said tucking you in the bed, not wanting you to feel more pain by walking.
“I’m already dying, Fluttershy. It won’t make any difference. I want to spend my…” you pause taking a deep shaky breath. “My last moments with you.”
We walked to the field covered in green grass with the sun about to set. We found the perfect bench to sit and watch.
"I'm sorry." You said.
"What?" I asked.
“I regret some of the decisions that I’ve made in my life. I regret taking drugs. It’s because I had no willpower that I’ve caused my own death,” you say as tears start streaming down your face. “I just couldn’t stop myself. I-I regret how I’ve ruined my life. I’m sorry, I should never have treated you the way I did. It was wrong of me to always ignore you, Fluttershy.”
"I-It's okay," I said, trying to comfort you.
“No! It’s far from ok. I love you and I’m apologizing,” you say. “You were there for me, but I wasn’t there for you. You stuck by me, and I don’t know why.”
“I love you, Rainbow. I knew deep inside that you did too,” I said. “But you’ve changed. I wanted you to become a better pony. You just needed some help. During our marriage, you loved me. Through thick and thin you’ve been there for me.”
"I was a foolish little filly," you repeat a few times, looking pained with grief. "I love you. Don't ever forget that. Don't ever forget that you’re one of the kindest mares out there. I don't deserve you."
"Hush, Rainbow, there's nothing to be done about the past," I said.
You put your head on my shoulder. “I wonder where we go when we die? It’s rather freaky,” you said, a look of worry furrowing your brow.
Silence.
“Do you remember when we went to the Traders Exchange to trade for that Daring Doo book?” you said, chucking. “And we had to trade all those different items to get that huge dog for the seller?”
"An Orthros," I said.
"Yeah, but she wanted you to go with her! You know, I was never ever going to let that happen," you said with a smile on your face. "We were so young and awesome then, we weren’t even marefriends yet!"
"How about the time when we tried to find your pet?" I said, laying my head on your shoulder.
"Yeah! And we had to find the most awesome pet of the bunch!" you said, smiling. "And it happened to be the most loyal and awesome one, Tank!" You laughed as you recalled the memory, but lowered your head. "I really miss Tank."
"I-I know." I replied softly.
“I hope that I’ll be able to see him. Maybe, just maybe I could be with him up there,” you prayed. “If there is even an up there.”
Nopony spoke for a moment. The sun was dropping below the horizon. As the sky changed from blue to a tangy orange color the birds flew around and the flowers had blossomed. It was a beautiful sunset.
“I love watching the scenery and this perfect sunset with you. It’s a nice way to go out,” you grinned, taking it all in. Slowly, you confessed, “I-I think my time is up.”
"No, Rainbow! No! You can still hang on. Don't think like that," I cried.
“Tell our friends that I love them. I love you, Fluttershy,” you stammered, gasping for breath.
“Please don’t go.” I breath the words out as the tears start falling.
“Goodbye, Fluttersh...” is all I heard as your last breath left you.
I’ll never let you go, Rainbow Dash. I know you’re never coming back. I know you’ll never be with me again on this earth. Why did you have to leave me?
Sobbing uncontrollably I manage to say, “I love you, Dashie."
Author's Note
Hope you guys enjoyed this story! I would like some critiques!
