Sweater Weatherby BlackLight2015Chapters'Cause it's to coldOutside it starts to pourYour hooves in the holes of my sweater..they seem to fit inWhen it starts to snow...and you let her go'Cause it's to coldChapter 1 'Cause it's to cold By: Rainbowfeathers2015 use the sleeves on my sweater let's have an adventure head in the clouds but my gravity centered touch my neck, and I'll touch yours I sighed as I listened to the song playing on my stereo, I rubbed away the tears from my already bloodshot red and puffy eyes, I sniffled as I pulled my fluffy white covers close to me. 'How could Dumbbell just leave me after a year? And especially after he told me that he loved me' I thought to myself as I rolled over to look at the picture on my end table, it was a picture of Dumbbell and I. He was giving me a piggy back ride and I was kissing him on the cheek, the tears started to flow again. I was a wreck and it was all because of him, all because I didn't notice us drifting apart. How could he do it? My phone started to ring; I just lay there as I let it go to the answering machine. I know I was just making it harder on myself, but I just couldn't stand it to talk to any pony right now. "Hey, it's Rainbow Dash, leave a message and I'll be sure to get back to you” *beep* "Hey Dashie it's Twilight again, why won't you answer the phone? Or call us back? We're all very worried about you. I know Dumbbell hurt you worse than any Stallion has before, but please, we're all here for you. Call me back please" Twilight left her a message. I had a message from everyone Fluttershy, Pinkie Pie, Applejack, Rarity, Twilight, Flitter and Derpy. I hadn't called a single one of them back; I don't know why they kept trying. Couldn't they tell that I wanted to be left alone? I looked out my window at the thunderstorm going on outside, the rain and thunder pelted and rattled against my windows, while the lightning caused eerie dark shadows in my house. My cloud house was always chilly when it was raining; I got up out of bed and walked to my bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror; my usual bright prismatic hair was dull and disheveled. I had dark rings under my eyes not to mention that my usually very bright magenta eyes were now a dull hue of pink, I had cuts and scars under the sleeves of the sweater that no one would ever see, at least I wouldn't let them see. I sighed as I pulled the sweater off; I set it aside and started to brush my hair. I started the water and stepped into the hot shower; I washed my hair and body and just stood in the shower until the water had gone extremely cold. I stepped out of it and started to dry off, I blow dry my hair and brushed it out again, I pulled the sweater over my head and looked at myself in the mirror. My hair wasn't as dull as before, but it wasn't as bright either, I wandered out into the living room and turned on the TV. I put it on a movie as I stared at the screen, I heard someone knocking on the door. I sighed as I ignored the annoying pounding on the door. "Rainbow I know your home, please let me come inside" Flitter's voice said from the other side of the door, I sighed as I slowly made my way towards the door and opened it to let her inside. She came in and hugged me tightly, "Rainbow you look so sad, and I’m so worried about you, all the other girls are as well. Please try to let go of him. He isn't any good for you, look what he's doing to you. You would've never let any other bad relationship make you act this way before. Why start now?" Flitter said to me with tears in her eyes. I sighed as I hugged her back I didn't like to see my friends cry, I really was trying to get over Dumbbell. That's what I thought it was at least. It was hard for me to let go, his dark blue eyes, his shaggy blond mane, his chocolate brown fur. I sighed as I looked at Flitter. "I'm sorry Flitter it's just been so hard on me. He told me he loves me and then all of a sudden boom, I'm not good enough for him, " I said sadly as I sat on the couch with Flitter. She nodded at me as she held onto my hoof, I gave her a weak smiled as I looked at her. "Rainbow I know you're sad, I can't tell you I know what you're going through, but I can tell you that you have me and the rest of the girls here for you" Flitter said smiling back at me. I hugged her tightly as I started to cry again. "Why are you crying again?" she asked as she rubbed my back, I sniffled as I looked at her. "Flitter I hurt all of you by ignoring all of your calls, you guys have tried to help me and talk to me through all of this pain. And yet I ignored all of you and was too busy sulking in my bed and being sad" I said as I wiped away my tears. Flitter smiled at me again as she hugged me. "Rainbow it's okay, it's not like we're going to leave you any time soon. You ignoring us like you did may have hurt our feelings, but we'll always be here for you no matter what, and always will be your best friends" Flitter said letting go. I gave her a small smile as I looked at my ceiling; it wasn't a dark gray anymore. When I'm in a bad mood my cloud house would be a dark gray, but since I'm in a better mood now it's back to its normal white color. It was still storming bad outside, but I was thankful that Flitter was here with me. "Well Rainbow I'm going to go and talk to the other girls to let them know you are in a better mood and that maybe they should come visit and to try to get you out of the house" Flitter said smiling at me. I nodded at her as I walked her to the door, I waved goodbye as I looked for something to eat. I settled for a daisy and sunflower salad, as I ate my salad I smiled to myself for being in a better mood. I decided it was a good idea to go grocery shopping today; I fluttered down to the ground and walked to the store. I grabbed some more daisies and sunflowers to make more salad. After I finished my grocery shopping I made my way over to Sugarcube Corner to get some doughnuts, after buying a dozen doughnuts I went to put all my stuff away. I thought a visit to Twilight's was much needed, I hoped that she wasn't mad at me for ignoring her calls as well. As I walked to Twilight's Library I could see some ponies would stare at me. It was probably because of the way I acted after Dumbbell and I broke up. I ignored their stares as I knocked on the door; I smiled as Twilight opened the door. "Dashie I'm so glad you're in a better mood, I'm also glad to see what you finally came out of your house" Twilight smiled as she hugged me tightly as she stepped aside to let me inside. I could smell that Spike was working on his famous Daisy soup so I felt I had to stay. "So, Dash how are you doing?" I sighed as I looked at the sweater I was wearing, it was his. "Well Twilight I don't know, I'm not over Dumbbell. I loved him, it will take me quite a while before I'm over him," I said looking down at my hooves. Twilight smiled at me. "Well, I know it will take you a while I'm just glad you're looking better, " she finished as she got up and started to make me some cinnamon tea. I smiled as I waited for my tea. "I know Twilight it's just I wish he wouldn't have done that to me, if he was just going to dump me he shouldn't have told me that he loved me? Yeah, I mean I know I still wear his sweater, but so far it's been helping me, " I said as I sat there. She turned and gave me a knowing look. "You'll be alright, I can tell" I gave her a small smile as she handed me my tea, I slowly sipped at it as Spike finished making Daisy soup. "So "Rainbow are you going to stay for some of Spike's famous Daisy Soup?" Twilight asked as she got herself a bowl, I nodded happily at her as she handed me a bowl. I took a deep breath; Spike definitely knew how to cook one mean bowl of Daisy soup. After I finished my tea and soup I left Twilight's in a better mood, I made it back to my cloud house. The weather was still chilly and cloudy; I shivered at the cold bite of the wind. I walked into my house and started a fire to warm up my cloud house; I lay on the couch and pulled my Wonderbolts blanket tighter around me. 'So much warmer' I thought to myself as I blankly stared at the TV for what felt like hours, A movie about two ponies that weren't meant for each other falling in love was on. It made me smile a little, made me hope that I would be able to find another Stallion that would treat me better than Dumbbell did. I still remember all the good memories we had, but I also remember our last fight before we broke up.. "I hate you Dumbbell why do you have to be such a fucking asshole, what the hell did I ever do for you to treat me this way?" I asked. "Why don't you ask your stupid hick farmer friend Big Mac? He seems like he's pretty jealous of our relationship and I hate it. He's not going to come between us is he??" Dumbbell growled at me. "Why the hell would you think Big Mac would be a problem?! I haven't talk to him since we started to go out." I screamed as tears stained my bright cyan fur. I shuddered, he was always jealous of Big Mac, always thought I was going to leave him for Big. What caused, it was Dumbbell manages to overhear Big talking to Applejack that I could do way better than him and that I should've picked him over Dumbbell, but I still would've picked Dumbbell over Big Mac. I sighed as I looked at my clock it was already 11:00 pm, I got up and turned off my TV and the lights and got into bed. I pulled my covers over me as I looked out my window at Luna's bright moon and millions of stars. 'Please help me get over Dumbbell and to find another Stallion that will treat me a million times better than Dumbbell did' I said to myself as I got up and turned on my music. My favorite song was on and it was how I felt right about now And it feels like I've been buried alive by love If I should die before I wake Pray no one my soul to take If I wake before I die Rescue me with your smile I smiled to myself as I slowly started to doze off while the music played; I snuggled into my soft bed and pulled the covers tighter around me as I finally drifted off to sleep. I hoped that tomorrow would be better than today had, and I planned on spending the day with Fluttershy to make up for ignoring her calls. I had to make up to all of them, after Fluttershy I was going to visit Rarity as well. I will have a long day ahead of me tomorrow, I hope tomorrow was as good as today was. Outside it starts to pourChapter 2 Outside it starts to pour I slowly opened my eyes as I heard my alarm going off, I rubbed the sleep from my eyes as I looked out my window. "Looks like it's another rainy day" I said to myself as I got out of my warm comfy bed, I made my bed and wandered into my bathroom to brush my hair. I took a look at myself in the mirror, I sighed my prismatic hair was still a dull hue of rainbow colors. My eyes were a little brighter than they were yesterday, but I still had dark circles under them, I pulled up the sleeve of the dark navy blue sweater to see the slashes on my arm. I grabbed my razor blade as I slid it gracefully across my arm; I smiled once I saw the crimson blood meet my cyan fur. I watched the blood drip down my arm and onto my floor; I watched it for what seemed like hours before I cleaned my arm up. I pulled my sleeve down as I walked into my kitchen and munched on one of the doughnuts I had bought the other day, after I finished it I brushed my teeth and looked at the time. It was 10:45 so I knew Fluttershy would be awake around this time; I flew out my window into the gloomy, cold and icy rain. It pelted my face as I flew to Fluttershy's cottage; After a short fly I finally made it to Fluttershy's I knocked on her cottage door, I looked at her chicken coop that looked like it got fixed recently. I heard the door opened and I came face to face with the last pony I thought I would see here. Big Mac. "Oh well howdy Rainbow Dash. How are you today?" He asked as I saw Fluttershy came into view she gasped. "Rainbow please come inside right away, I'm glad you finally left your house," she said as she ushered me inside, "Goodbye Big Mac thank you for fixing the chicken coop the other day" she finished as she closed the door. She frowned at me as she sat down on her chair. "You look like a mess Rainbow and you'll catch a cold, let me dry that sweater for you and please go and take a warm shower," she finished as I pulled the sweater off, I especially made sure to make sure Fluttershy didn't see my arms. I smiled at her as I slowly made my way down the hallway to her bathroom. "Thanks a lot Fluttershy" I said as I closed the door, I turned on the water and waited for it to warm up. I stepped into the hot shower and smiled to myself as the hot water cascaded down my lanky body, I started to shampoo my mane, tail and fur and let it set in for a while. I rinsed off the shampoo as I grabbed the conditioner, I let the conditioner stay in my mane and tail for a while to make my hair softer. I rinsed it and felt like I was presentable to come out of the shower now, I stepped out and started to dry off. I dried my hair and brushed it out and smiled at myself as my hair, eyes and fur were becoming a little brighter. I came out of the bathroom and found Fluttershy petting Angle. "Oh Rainbow you look so warm now, here's your sweater" she said handing me the sweater. I pulled it over my head and smiled as the scent wafting from it; it smelled like fresh clean rain. I saw that Fluttershy had made me some of her famous rose tip tea; I sipped at it as I started to think of what to say to Fluttershy about everything that has happened in the past couple of weeks. "So Fluttershy I wanted to tell you that I'm really sorry for ignoring all of your phone calls and ignoring the other girls as well, I talked to Flitter and Twilight yesterday and I plan on seeing Rarity after I'm done here. Tomorrow I plan on meeting up with Pinky Pie and Applejack." I said smiling at Fluttershy. She smiled back at me as she finished her tea. "I'm so glad that you are starting to feel better Rainbow. I know Dumbbell hurt you bad, but I'm glad you aren't pushing us away anymore," she said taking her cup to the kitchen. I finished my tea and put it in the sink for Fluttershy to finish washing. "So Rainbow I have one question for you. Why on earth do you keep wearing Dumbbell's sweater? I mean I'm sorry for asking, but I'm really curious" she said drying off her hands as we walked back to her living room. I sighed; I wanted to tell her it was because I was afraid of what they'd think of the slashes on my arms. "Well, honestly, it's because I'm not ready to let go of him yet. I'm glad I'm finally talking to you ladies again because I've missed you guys so much. After I'm finally ready to take this sweater off I'll let you burn it" I smiled at Fluttershy. She had the biggest smile on her little face. She got up and hugged me tightly. "I'm so proud of you Rainbow! I can't wait for us to burn this sweater" she said as she let go of me. I smiled as I said goodbye to her and started to make my way to Rarity's house. I hoped she was just as forgiving as Twilight, Flitter and Fluttershy. I smiled as I saw Sweetie, Applebloom and Scoots run out the house with Rarity yelling at them, 'Wonder what they did now?' I said to myself. Rarity saw me and smiled. "Dashie finally, I was worried you weren't going to apologize to me," she acted as she flopped over. I giggled to myself as I helped her up and gave her a huge hug. "I missed you so much Rainbow. I was so worried when you never answered my phone calls. I thought maybe you hated us for warning you about Dumbbell" she said letting me inside. "Oh Rarity I could never come to hate you ladies. You have all been there for me more than Dumbbell himself was and she was supposed to be my boyfriend" I said as we sat down in her living room. She gave me a huge smile after I said that. "How is that going for you anyway? Are you over him yet? I see you are starting to look more like your normal self" she smiled. I just nodded. "It's okay, I suppose, my hair and eyes are getting brighter and brighter every day. I still wear Dumbbell's sweater that he gave me, but when I'm over him I told Fluttershy her and I can burn it" I smirked as I pet Rarity's cat Opal. Rarity smiled at me as she called her cat over. "Well, when you and Fluttersy do that please count me in on that little adventure," she laughed a little. Her cat hissed at something and ran off. I nodded at her as I heard the wind starting to pick up, 'looks like I'll be walking home' I thought to myself. "Rarity I want you to be part of that when I burn it, I want all the girls to be part of it" I smiled as I saw the wind was continuing to pick up speed and intensity. "Oh my Rainbow it looks like you should head home soon," she said, looking out the window, hoping that Sweetie and her friends had made it to Sweet Apple Acres. I couldn't help but smile at her, I had weighted down my house yesterday before it started to rain. "Oh no don't worry about it Rare I weighted my house down yesterday before it started to rain, it might be moving around a lot. But it's not moving from its spot" I said laughing. She smiled at me as I sipped on the pop she brought me. I heard knocking at the door. "Oh, hello there Big Macintosh what can I do for you?" I gasped as I did not want to be seen by him. "Well, I was wondering where Rainbow Dash was, I saw her at Miss Fluttershy's and I've been wanting to talk to Rainbow for a while since we got in that fight out on my farm. I miss her a lot." he said sadly, I made a meowing noise and Rarity looked at me confused and I shook my head so she knew to tell Big Mac I wasn't here. "Well Big Macintosh I haven't seen her since Dumbbell broke her heart and she went crazy and stopped talking to all of us" Rarity said in mock anger. "Oh Dumbbell broke up with her? Wow I really had no idea. Why did she stop talking to you guys? Are y'all supposed to be best friends?" he asked a little concerned. "Dumbbell told Rainbow that he loved her and then the next day he said he wanted nothing to do with her. And I don't know why she stopped talking to all of us, she stopped going out, she stopped everything except work" Rarity finished sighing a bit. I heard Big Mac sigh "Well could you tell her I want to talk to her? That is if you see her?" Big Mac asked. "I will Big Mac, have a good rest of your day" Rarity said, putting on a fake smile and she turned around and looked at me weirdly. "Why didn't you want him to talk to you?" she huffed. "Because Rare I'm not ready to face him yet after everything that has happened" I sighed "I think I'm going to head home" I finished as I got up, I gave Rarity a hug and started to walk home. The wind was roaring so because of that it took me forever to walk home. I fluttered up to my house and walked through the door. I shivered and started another fire and lay on my couch, pulling my Wonderbolts blanket tight over me. I stared blankly at the ceiling quietly listening to the TV as I watched the shadows from the fire lick at my ceiling. The warmth from the fireplace started to make me sleepy, 'mmm this fireplace was a great idea' I thought to myself as I turned to face the TV. I stared at it and was trying to figure out what was on the TV when my phone started to ring. I just ignored it and let it go to the Messaging machine. "Hey its Rainbow Dash leave a message and I'll be sure to get back to you" *beep* "Hey Rainbow Dash its Big Mac, I really want to talk to you. I didn't realize that Dumbbell and you had broken up, and that you've been ignoring all of your friends. That means you've been all alone these last few weeks, you need somepony to be there for you. I want to be that somepony." I started to cry from Big Mac's message; I rubbed the tears from my eyes as I rolled onto my stomach and hid my face against my arms. 'Why? Why is this happening to me?' I thought to myself as I got up and crawled into my bed, the silver light shining into my room. I smiled to myself as I watched a falling star. 'I wish that Big Mac and I would be friends again' I wished to myself as I started to doze off. Your hooves in the holes of my sweaterChapter 3 Your hooves in the holes of my sweater I opened my eyes only to squint them suddenly 'man for once it's a sunny day' I said to myself as I slowly got out of bed, I didn't bother with making my bed today. I wandered into my bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror, I smiled at myself as I saw my hair was starting to get a little brighter. My prismatic hair looked like a paisley rainbow now instead of a dull grey rainbow, my eyes were also a paisley pink. My color was starting to come back, I still had a long ways to go before I was back to my normal self but I'm getting there. The rings under my eyes weren't as dark either, since I was starting to get more sleep, I walked out into the kitchen and ate a doughnut. Once I was done, I decided it was time to apologize to the rest of the girls today, and maybe try to talk to Big Mac. That's the part of my day I was worried about, I heard someone knocking on the door. 'Wonder who that could be?' I thought to myself as I opened the door and saw Derpy. "Hey Rainbow Dash, I brought your mail" she smiled. I hugged her tightly. "Oh Derpy I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I avoided all of you girls when you all have been there for me," I said as I started to tear up a little. Derpy smiled at me as she handed me my mail. "I do understand Rainbow Dash, remember I am a single mother" she said as she turned to leave. "Thanks Derpy" I sniffled as I waved goodbye to her. I put my mail on my table and flew off to Sugar-cube corner to talk to Pinkie Pie. I landed on the ground and trotted towards the door of Sugar-cube corner. I opened the door expecting to see the Cakes and instead seeing Pinkie Pie. I smiled "Pinkie Pie just the lady I wanted to see today," I said trotting over to the counter. Oh, hiya Rainbow" she smiled at me as she finished putting away newly baked cupcakes and cookies. I smiled back at her as I sat on my haunches. "So Pinkie, I wanted to apologize for being so withdrawn and not talking to you or the girls. Plus ignoring all your calls" I sighed, looking at my feet. I felt a hoof on my shoulder, I looked up to see Pinkie smiling at me. "It's okay Rainbow I understand, Cheese Sandwich and I have gotten in fights before. Granted, you and Dumbbell aren't together anymore, but this is a learning experience," she smiled as she gave me a cupcake. I took it gratefully and munched on it while she finished baking. After I finished my cupcake I got up. "Well Pinkie, I'm heading out to Sweet Apple Acres to go talk to Applejack and then maybe Big Mac. I don't know how it's going to go so wish me luck," I said sheepishly as I got to the door. "Good luck Dashie" she squealed happily. I laughed to myself as I flew into the sky and headed towards Sweet Apple Acres. I started to fly a little fast and after a while I could smell apples, I smiled to myself. I haven't been here for Big Mac and I got into a fight and stopped talking, I guess it's a good think he wants to talk to me again. I looked around and saw Applejack by some of the Apple trees in the south field. I swooped down and landed sloppily. She turned around and smiled at me, I gave her a weak smile in return. "Well howdy Rainbow what are ya up to t'day?" AppleJack asked, smiling as she bucked another tree. I smiled back at her as I sat down. "Well, I wanted to tell you that I am sorry for the way I acted towards all of you girls. You all have been there for me and I just ignored all of you. All of your calls and everything. I'm a horrible friend," I said as I looked at the ground and kicked my hooves around in the dirt. I looked up to see Applejack smiling at me, I gave her another one in return. "Well Rainbow you have been through a lot, I don't know what you've gone through, but I understand you wanting time alone. I just wish you would've told us that instead of ignoring us," she said as she took her bucket up apples and headed towards the barn. I followed quickly behind her. "Thanks AJ I just felt horrible and I feel so much better after apologizing to all of you ladies, you girls are my best friends and if I even lost one of you I would be devastated" I said as I sat there and watched her put all the apples away, a few feet away I saw Big Mac pulling the plow. I was trying my hardest to not look at him. Applejack followed my gaze and smiled. "Are you going to talk to him today? He told me he wasn't even sure you would listen to his voice mail," she said sitting down next to me. I sighed as I looked from Big Mac to Applejack. "I don't know what to do AJ. Like I want to talk to him, but then again, I don't want to talk to him. I hurt him bad AJ and I haven't talked to him since" I sighed as I felt the sting of tears coming. I willed them back. "Well Dash I would say right now take your time, you don't have to talk to my brother right at this moment in time. But don't forget about him either, I don't want him hurt anymore. You did hurt him bad, but I think he hurt you worse" She said as she got up and grabbed her bucket to continue bucking Apple trees. I followed her, I was trying to decide if today was the day that I wanted to talk to Big Mac. I deiced I wasn't going to. "Well AJ I don't think I'm going to talk to him today, but I will another day. I just don't feel up to it today" I sighed. Applejack smiled and hugged me tightly. "Well, like I said just don't forget about him," she said as she continued to buck Apple trees. I said goodbye to her and started to fly back to my house. I really hoped that once I did talk to Big Mac that he would want to be my friend again. I really, really miss him. The only other stallion I had been friends with was Thunderlane and I haven't seen him since my party for winning best young flyers competition. I landed towards Twilight's library, I was going to stop and talk to her but she seemed busy. I decided I was going to walk to my cloud house, while I was walking I wasn't paying attention and bumped into Thunderlane. "Oh man I'm sorry Thunderlane" I said in a quiet voice. 'I would put Fluttershy's voice to shame' I thought to myself. I looked up to see Thunderlane smiling at me. "It's okay Dashie, what's been going on with you lately. Everyone said you were distant with everyone," he said, walking with me to my house. I looked at the ground for a bit before I answered. "Well Dumbbell dumped me and I haven't been the same since, he told me he loved me and then all of sudden he dumps me" I said as I started to walk slower. Thunderlane put his strong black feathered wing around me. I looked up at him as he nuzzled against my neck. "I'm so sorry Dash, I wish I would've known. I'd have kicked his ass, he was a douche to you anyways. I just hope you let go of him eventually," he said to me as we stopped at my house. I sighed as I looked up at my house. "Um, do you want to come inside, I haven't had anyone over for a while, not since Flitter a few days ago" I said smiling a little. Thunderlane nodded as we flew up and walked into my house, I had no idea what we were going to do so I decided on a movie. "I love this movie" Thunderlane said as he wrapped us in a blanket, I wasn't used to this so I had no idea how to react. It's been a while since I've been around another guy. I started to relax a little when I felt Thunderlane's hooves on mine. I looked up at him and smiled. I could get used to that. "I love this movie too" I smiled as I nuzzled against Thunderlane's chest, he didn't seem to mind. I could really get used to that. I wasn't really paying attention to the movie, I was paying more attention to Thunderlane. I don't think he minded too much. He smiled down at me and nuzzled his snout against my hair. I giggled a little as he did that. "I haven't heard you laugh in quite some time" Thunderlane said to me as he stretched a bit, he wrapped his wings around me. I smiled to myself as I felt the feathers tickling me a little. "I haven't heard myself laugh in a while either Thunder. It's kind of nice to just relax and watch a movie with a guy" I said as I relaxed and leaned into Thunderlane a little. "I haven't actually hung out with you in a while, not since flight school that one summer with the Wonderbolts" he said as he pulled the blanket and his wings tighter around me. I sighed to myself, I really could get used to this, him being around and making me feel safe and warm and comfortable. "Thunderlane I could get used to hanging out with you, maybe we could hang out for the next few days" I said as I snuggled into him. "You know what Rainbow I would love to hang out with you for the next few days. Seems like you've needed someone around lately to make you feel better" Thunder said to me as he nuzzled his snout into my hair again. I couldn't help but smile to myself as we continued to watch the movie. "That sounds amazing Thunder" I said as I slowly started to doze off, I was warm and comfortable. Not to mention I felt safe and secure wrapped in a blanket with Thunderlane. I closed my eyes and sighed as I relaxed, I felt Thunderlane lay down and I wrapped my arms around him and nuzzle into his chest. I looked at him and saw he was smiling at me. I couldn't help but smile to myself. I feel myself starting to feel happy, I looked at the screen of my tv, my eyes and my hair were starting to get brighter. "This seems pretty amazing right now as well," he said as he started to doze off. I smiled as I closed my eyes. Yep, I could get used to this life ..they seem to fit inChapter 4 ..they seem to fit in I slowly opened my eyes, I blinked a few times and noticed I had fallen asleep on Thunderlane. 'Man, he's still here? I wasn't expecting him to stay that long' I thought to myself as I stretched a little. He slowly opened his eyes and smiled at me, while stretching his wings, he wrapped them around me. "Hey sleepy head," he said sleepily. I smiled at him as I got up, I walked to my bathroom and brushed out my hair. It was starting to become brighter, along with my magenta eyes. I smiled to myself as I looked at myself, 'Wow, I look so much better than I used to' I thought to myself as I walked back out into my living room. Thunderlane was preening his wings, I figured I needed to do that soon. I pulled the sleeve of my sweater up to look at my arm, most of the cuts and slashes were faded scars. I still had quite a few that were visible, I pulled it back down as I walked into the kitchen. I grabbed a doughnut to munch on. "So Thunder do you have anything planned for today?"I asked quietly as I finished my doughnut. Thunderlane looked up and smiled as he stretched his wings again. "Well, I was supposed to talk to Cloudchaser today," he said getting up. My mood turned a little sour at the sound of that name. Thunderlane could tell. "Sorry about that," he said, looking, at me sheepishly, I smiled at him. "It's okay. When you're done talking to her you should come by and we'll hang out," I said walking him to the door. He nodded at me and flew off into the sky, I smiled a little to myself. I decided I was going to have a lazy day where I stay home all day, I climbed into bed and pulled the comfy blankets over me once more. I woke up a few hours later. "Man, it's only 10:45 am," I said to myself as I got back up. I had made my bed, I looked at my end table and the picture of Dumbbell and I was gone. I smiled to myself as I was slowly getting the rest of him out of my life, all the pictures were gone, all earrings and necklaces he gave me were gone. All I need to do now is to get rid of this God forsaken sweater. I decided I was ready to talk to Big Mac and maybe get everything behind me, hopefully he would forgive me. I smiled as I spread my wings and took to the sky, I haven't actually flown anywhere in a long time, so it was nice to feel the cool breeze on my face and the wind flowing in my mane. I finally made it to Sweet Apple Acres, I saw Big Mac by some of the Apple trees in the south field. I smiled as I trotted my way over to him, I started to get nervous as I got closer to him. "Well Howdy Rainbow how are you doin'? He asked me quietly I looked down. "I'm not doing to well Big. I came here because I wanted to talk to you," I said in a whisper. Big Mac took a seat and relaxed a little, he gave me a small smile "Well, I'm all ears" he said to me. I nodded, I was trying to figure out where to start with the conversation. "I don't really know where to start" I said sheepishly. Big Mac smiled at me "Well, why don't you say so the day you ran away from me on the farm" He said staring intently at me. I nodded at him as I made myself comfortable since this was going to be a very long story. "I was really scared when you asked me out, mainly cause I didn't want Dumbbell to be mad at me. He was cruel when he got mad, I learned that a lot" I said as I looked at Big Mac. He nodded as he shifted to make himself comfortable. "Well, if you were scared, why didn't you just tell me you were scared?" he asked sadly. 'I wasn't liking the tone in his voice, there was a hint of sadness in it, it made me feel guilty' "I really have no idea Big Red, I just didn't know what to do and I made it worse by not saying that. I am really sorry that I made you cry, and now I really am kicking myself for not picking you. If I had picked you we'd be dating still, my breakup with Dumbbell hit me so hard Big Mac. I changed so much and I made all my friends around me worried" I finished as a few tears streaked down my cyan face. I closed my eyes as I started to cry, all of a sudden I felt a pair of muscled forelegs hug me and Big Mac nuzzling against my neck. I nuzzled into his chest, I just wanted to stay there forever. "Well Rainbow Dash I still really like you, I never stopped" He said looking into my magenta eyes. I blushed as I looked away from him. I looked up into his beautiful green eyes. "Do you forgive me Big Mac? I really hurt you, and I made it worse by running away from you," I said sadly as I looked down. I felt his hoof under my chin, he pushed my head up and started to lean forward. I froze, I hadn't been kissed in a while and I was scared. I felt silly being scared. I seriously mean that. I felt Big Mac kiss me gently, I closed my eyes as I kissed him back. I slowly opened my eyes and saw Apple Jack smiling at us as she continued towards the barn. "Dashie, of course I forgive you, I'd be crazy not to," he said as he nuzzled his snout against my rainbow mane. I smiled as he did just that. I felt like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders, I really hoped that maybe Red and I would go out later. I was really stupid not to date him. "Thank you so much Red, you don't know how happy you made me. I won't get scared and run away this time either" I finished as I nuzzled against his chest. He smiled down at me as he let go of me, I smiled up at him as I stood up. "Well, I think I'm going to head home. I'll come see you again tomorrow Red" I said as I nuzzled against his chest again. I flew up into the sky and made my way back to my house, I was in such a good mood, nothing could ruin this day. I finally made it home, I smiled at the fresh smell in my house. I made my way to the bathroom to take a look at myself, my mane was almost back to its prismatic glory and my eyes were finally magenta again. I was so happy 'I knew this day was going to be good, I am almost back to my normal self again. Which also means I can burn this sweater' I thought to myself. I decided I was going to fly, until it was night time. I haven't done that since the night Dumbbell has told me he loved me, it was going to be liberating that I was letting go of one of the worst memories I've had in a long time.My wings spread wide and took to the sky, the cool wind playing with my rainbow mane. I took a deep breath of fresh air, I had a huge smile on my face as I flew up a little higher. I found a nice cloud to sit on and look down on Ponyville, I smiled to myself. I really did love this town, it had all of my best friends in it and of course my cloud home which I would never leave behind. I recognized Thunderlane walking with a group of ponies I never really got along with, Cloudchaser was one of them and not to mention Dumbbell's friends Hoops and Score. I really hoped Dumbbell didn't look for me, I started to freak myself out. I took to the skies and headed for Sweet Apple Acres again, I flew as fast as my wings would let me. I landed sloppily as I looked around for Big Mac and or Apple Jack, I saw Big Mac and ran towards him. "Dashie what's wrong?" He asked with a look of worry on his face. I took a deep breath to calm myself down. "Dumbbell and his friends are in town..I'm kind of freaking out, I thought for a minute, maybe they were looking for me and that's why I decided to book it here as fast as I could" I said out of breath. Big Mac furrowed his brow in thought. "Well, Ah suppose you can stay here until we know they're out of town" he said nuzzling against me. I gave him a small smile in return. "Thanks so much Red, I was just so worried. I knew you'd be here to help me," I said happily. Big Mac nodded at me happily and told me to hide in his room. I nodded and ran into his house. "What's goin' on brother?" Applejack asked a little confused. Big Mac looked at her with an angry look on his face. "Dumbbell is in town" is all he said to his sister, she understood why Rainbow Dash wanted to hide somewhere she knew she'd be safe. "Man, I need to tell the rest of the girls, this isn't good. What would make him come to town all of a sudden?" she said looking at her brother. Big Mac shrugged as he got up and started to put all of his tools away. I watched Big Mac and Applejack as they started to put all the tools away. Why would Dumbbell come to town, what was he trying to do? Rub in how well he fits in with everypony I went to flight school with? Yeah, it hurt to know a douche bag like him could have that many friends. But I had something he would never have, friends that would be there for life, his would only be there for maybe a few years before they figure out how much of an asshole he is. I shook the thought of Dumbbell out of my mind and looked up to see Big Mac and Apple Jack running towards town. 'They are probably going to get the girls' I thought to myself, I was starting to worry again. I guess I would see what this situation would bring me. *(Big Mac's POV)* Ah watched as my sister ran from one friend's house to the other to let them know that Dumbbell was in town and most likely looking for Rainbow Dash. I was trying to keep the anger inside just thinking about him and what he did to my Dashie. "Brother, I got all the girls together, we're all going to the farm to hide, I am not letting him get to any of us to find Rainbow. I'm not chancing that," she whispered to me. I nodded and we started to walk back to the farm. "I really hope he is just in town tonight" Twilight said to the girls. Flitter nodded her head vigorously. "Yeah the last thing I want to see is Rainbow Dash look like a graying rainbow, I think that was the hardest thing I had to see. She's made such an improvement, I mean she is almost back to normal. He doesn't need to ruin it" Flitter said with anger. Fluttershy nodded in agreement. "Yes, she has made a huge improvement, plus we still need to burn his sweater. Oh...maybe he is here for that?" Fluttershy thought looking at the rest of the girls. Twilight furrowed her eyebrows in thought for a moment. "But Rainbow said that he gave that to her why would he want it back now? Especially since it's been almost 6 months since they broke up" Twilight said looking ahead. Pinkie and Rarity nodded as they reached the Sweet Apple Acres sign. "Alright girls. Let's head off to the farm while Big waits here to see if Dumbbell heads this way" my sister said walking with the rest of the group. "I really hope he doesn't head this way, he would be dumb to even try it" I said to myself. Just my luck, I thought to myself when I saw a chocolate brown Pegasi stallion making his way towards me with his orange and gray Pegasi sidekicks. Plus Flitter's sister Cloudchaser and strangely Thunderlane who was supposed to be Dashie's friend. What the hell were they up to? Why were they all here? I was starting to become worried as I tried to shake the worried expression from my face. "So Big Mac, we meet again. Say you didn't see that slut Rainbow Dash around have you? I would really love to have a nice little talk with her" Dumbbell said to me arrogantly while smirking at his friends. 'Celestia help me' I thought to myself. When it starts to snowChapter 5 When it starts to snow *(Rainbow Dash's POV)* I looked out the window as I sat on Big Mac's bed, I was looking for the girls. I saw Applejack running full speed towards the house, I worried for a minute with the look on her face. 'Oh no I hope nothing bad happened' I thought to myself as I saw the rest of the girls running after AJ. I heard AJ making her way up the stairs, I got up and opened the door. "Aj what's going on?! Did something bad happen to Big Mac??" I asked worriedly. Apple Jack smiled at the worry for her brother and shook her head. "No, we all wanted to come talk to you to figure out what to do about Dumbbell" she said looking angrily out the window. I nodded as the rest of the girls made it to Big mac's room. I sighed, I really had no idea what to do about all of this. I was starting to get really nervous, I sat down trying to think about what to do. "I really have no idea what to do about all of this," I said looking at the girls. Twilight furrowed her brow in thought, even Pinkie Pie was deep in thought. "Well, I guess it all depends on whether or not he comes to Sweet Apple Acres" Twilight said looking out the window. I looked out the window as well, the sky was dark gray. The wind was also starting to pick up, I sighed as I watched the apple trees sway back and forth. 'Please be safe Big Mac' *(Big Mac's POV)* I sighed to myself as I stared at Dumbbell and his group of friends, "what the hell Dumbbell? Don't you dare call my Dashie a slut" I said angrily at him. He chuckled as he looked at Apple Jack and the rest of the girls make their way towards me. "Apple Jack, Twilight what are all of you doing here?" I asked as I looked at Dumbbell. "We came here to watch Rainbow Dash kick his stupid fucking ass" Fluttershy said glaring at Dumbbell. The rest of the girls looked at Fluttershy happily, she was finally done being shy. She stood up for herself and her friends. "Well, well, well, looks like little miss innocent isn't so innocent after all" Dumbbell smirked at Fluttershy. Fluttershy smirked back at him. "Yeah, I'm not so innocent. I hope you're ready to pound into the ground" She said smiling. I couldn't help but smile at Rainbow's friends. *(Rainbow Dash's POV)* "What the fuck do you want Dumbbell?" I scoffed as I stood in front of Big Mac and the girls. Dumbbell smirked at me as he got in my face. "Thunderlane told me about your little sleepover" He said smiling. I smiled back at him. "Oh yeah that's nice, It's not like anything happened anyways" I said as I looked at Thunderlane who looked really nervous all of a sudden. "Thunderlane what's with the nervous look? Did you do something you shouldn't have?" I smirked at him as he started to back up. Dumbbell looked back and forth from Thunderlane and I, he looked like he was starting to figure out that Thunderlane lied to him. "Get the fuck out of here Thunderlane you were supposed to be Rainbow Dash's friend. Why would you do this to her? What is your problem?" Big Mac bellowed at him as he got in Thunderlane's face, Thunderlane looked terrified. Dumbbell glared at Thunderlane and he took this as his time to leave as he ran for it and flew off. Big Mac snorted as he walked over to me, he nuzzled his snout into my mane. I smiled at him, "Are you going to be okay?" Big Mac asked a little concern in his voice. I smiled and for the first time for a long time I felt like I could take care of this problem by myself. "Yes Big Mac, for the first time I can finally say that I can take care of this by myself. But thank you all of you for supporting me this whole time. I honestly couldn't have done this without any of you guys," I said, looking at all of my friends. I turned and looked at Dumbbell and his friends, Hoops and Score looked really scared. They started to back up away from Dumbbell and Cloudchaser, I smirked at Dumbbell and Cloudchaser. "Hoops, Score what the hell are you doing?" Dumbbell bellowed at them. "Dude, remember that look, she had it when she was in flight school" Hoops said as he continued to back up. "Yeah dude, I don't really feel like being beat up again" Score said as he flared his wings along with Hoops and flew away. "Whatever you pussies" Dumbbell yelled as he turned to look at me. I got in his face as I glared at him. "You really want to do this again? You really haven't changed. What the hell did I see in you anyways? I don't know why I even loved you," I said as I looked away from Dumbbell and looked at Big Mac. Dumbbell scoffed at me. "Whatever I heard about your lovely little breakdown, so don't try to act so tough now" he said back to me. I rolled my eyes. "Get the fuck out of here" I bellowed at him as I pulled back my right hoof. And I punched Dumbbell with a mean right hook, he stumbled for a while before shaking it off. He glared at me as he shoved me down, I shook it off as I stood up and punched him again this time with a left hook. It took him longer to shake this one off. "Dumbbell babe maybe we should just leave. She isn't worth it anyways" Cloudchaser said quickly. Dumbbell nodded and he and Cloudchaser took to the sky and flew away as fast as they could. "Finally I'm free of him," I said as I took the sweater off. Fluttershy and the rest of the girls eyed my front legs, Fluttershy hugged me tightly, tears forming in her eyes. "You shouldn't have had to deal with this on your own" Fluttershy said quietly. I nodded slowly. Twilight and the other girls gave me a huge group hug. "Rainbow Dash we're a group and we'll always be here for you. Don't shut us out again we missed you" Rarity said sadly. "Twilight light it on fire" Fluttershy said "I've been waiting for this day" Fluttershy finished. Twilight lit it on fire. Fluttershy jumped up and down a few times "Yay" she yelled. I sighed as I smiled at the burning sweater and my best friends. "I can finally see that I am rid of him. Over these last few months I am finally back to my normal self" I said happily as I hugged Flitter and the rest of the girls" I shivered as I looked up at the sky. It was starting to snow. "We all should really head home" Twilight said. I gave them all a big hug and waved goodbye to them as they left the farm. I looked behind me and Applejack was smiling at me. "What?" I asked, looking at her. "I'm proud of your Rainbow dash. You and my brother should have some time alone, so I'm going to go to my room" She said smirking as she left for the house. I followed a snowflake as it landed on my nose, I smiled at it as I made my way over to Big Mac. He looked lost in his thoughts. I sat next to him as I nuzzled against his strong side, he smiled down at me. "Big Mac, what's wrong?" I asked as I sat in front of him, Big Mac looked at me his green eyes looked really sad. I started to worry that I did something wrong again. "Did I do something?" I asked started to freak out. Big Mac looked away from me, I felt the sting of tears in my eyes. "No. No, please don't leave me" I said as the tears started to roll down my cyan fur. Big Mac looked at me, he had tears in his eyes as well. I started to rub at my eyes as the tears continued to stream down my face, I felt Big Mac pull me into a hug. "Rainbow you didn't do anything wrong, I'm just so happy that you are back to your normal self. And I get you to myself now," he said, nuzzling against my face. I couldn't help but smiled at him, I nuzzled back as I stood there with him. My mane had snow in it and I was starting to get cold. Big Mac smiled at me as we walked into his house. Granny Smith had made some hot Daisy soup and curry dumplings, I was starving so I ended up eating two helpings. I sat with Big Mac in the living room as Granny Smith and Applejack were talking about what they had to do when spring came around. "Man, it's still snowing, I can't fly in this" I mainly said to myself. Big Mac smiled. "You know you could stay with me" Big Mac nuzzled against me, I smiled to him. "Sure, I'll stay with you tonight" I said nuzzling back. I followed Big Mac up to his room, I laid my back against the cool wall. I smiled once I felt the heat of Big Mac next to me, I snuggled with him as I nuzzled into his chest. I took a deep breath, Apples and sweat. I smiled against his chest, he rubbed my back as I started to slowly close my eyes. I had a really good dream, it was about Big Mac and I. We ended up getting married and having twin foals, and even though we ended up keeping the farm it was one of the best dreams I've ever had. My eyes slowly fluttered open, Big Mac was still in bed with me. I smiled as I nuzzled against his chest, I looked out his window at all the snow outside. "Great my house is going to be freezing" I said to myself. I slowly got out of Big Mac's bed and made my way downstairs. Granny Smith and Applejack smiled at me. "Do you want some breakfast sugarcube" Applejack smiled at me. I nodded as she brought me some hay and daisy cakes, after I was done eating I waved goodbye to Granny Smith. Applejack followed me outside. "So do you think you are going to be with my brother?" she asked. I nodded, smiling at her, she smiled back. "Will you tell him I'll come see him after I do some errands?" I asked. Applejack nodded, I smiled and took to the sky. I had a lot to do today, now that I was back to my normal self I was going to take a nice long fly and relax at my cloud house. I smiled to myself as I felt the cold air in my wings and mane, I couldn't help but shiver from the cold. It was going to be a really good day, I could feel it. ...and you let her goChapter 6 ...and you let her go 'Well you need the light when it's burning low' 'Only miss the sun when it starts to snow' 'Only know you love her when you let her go' 'Only know you've been high when you're feeling low' 'Only hate the road when you missin' home' 'Only know you love her when you let her go' 'And you let her go' ' You stupid fucking idiot, how could you just treat her like shit? And now she is over you and with that hick Big Mac' Dumbbell thought to himself as he lay on his couch in his dark apartment, he wondered how she could have gotten over him so quickly. He sighed as he rolled over and looked out the window, ' another gloomy fucking day' he thought to himself again as he got up and got something to eat. As he ate all he could think about was how happy Rainbow Dash looked without him, he felt the sting of tears prick at his eyes. ' Stupid Rainbow Dash' he said to himself as he scrubbed at his eyes. Dumbbell looked at Cloudchaser as she snored away in his bed, ' God, I really am stupid' Dumbbell thought as he stared at Cloudchaser. He shook his head and put on his uniform and got ready to work with the weather team for the day, he closed his door and took flight. He hoped that Rainbow Dash wasn't going to be at work, he looked behind him at Hoops and Score, they knew why he was in this mood. Dumbbell flew quietly and looked around to make sure Rainbow Dash wasn't around, he relaxed a little when he didn't see her. He landed by the weather factory and made his way to his bosses office to see what he had to do. After the storm, he was supposed to clear clouds, he walked with Hoops and Score who would be helping him. "Hey man, how are you doing today?" Hoops asked. Dumbbell looked at him, then back at the floor. "I'm not doing too well, I just have a lot on my mind today," he said as they wandered around the factory. (Rainbow Dash's POV) I opened my eyes, it was gloomy today. I was in a good mood today. I smiled to myself as I got up and made my bed, I flew out the window to get for a quick fly. The cool air felt amazing flowing through my mane, it had a brisk feeling to it. It woke me up, I appreciated a day like this. I stopped by Fluttershy's I wanted some of that tea she made, I knocked on her door. She opened the door, she saw me and her eyes lit up. "Oh Dashie! I'm so glad that you came over. Do you want some of that Rose hip tea?" she asked. I nodded as I walked by her. I sat down onto her fluffy couch, I snuggled into the couch. I heard Fluttershy making the tea, I watched as some of the animals fluttered around, sleeping, and snuggling with each other. I saw Fluttershy coming over to me handing me a mug full of tea, I took a drink. Smiling as the warm liquid ran down my throat. "So Dashie what are your plans for today?" she asked. "Well, I didn't have much planned for today, I took a fly and came to see you. Other than that I had plans to see Twilight today" I smiled. Fluttershy nodded as she took another sip of tea. I sat there looking out the window, I could see it was starting to rain. "Great it's raining" I said, smiling. "I guess it could be worse. It could be raining harder than this" Fluttershy smiled. I just nodded. Fluttershy got up and turned on her stereo, I smiled when I heard the song. It was definitely one of my favorites. Fluttershy and I started dancing around, Angel was even into the music. I heard a loud clap of thunder, I jumped a little. Fluttershy and I started laughing. "Well Fluttershy I better head over to Twilight's library," I smiled at my best friend. I decided to walk, the rain was getting harder, I didn't want to hurt my wings. After about half an hour I finally made it to Twilights Library. I knock on the door. Spike opens the door. "Rainbow Dash, come in. I'm making my Daisy drop soup" Spike smiled. I just nodded. Twilight smiled when she saw me. "Hey, you," she smiled. She handed me a cup of cinnamon tea, I smiled as I took a sip. I closed my eyes as the warm liquid warmed me up. I sat at the table and watched as Spike was finishing his soup up, I sipped at my tea. "So Rainbow Dash what did you plan for today?'' Twilight asked as she sat at the table with me. I just smiled. "Well, I already went to see Fluttershy, then it started raining. So I hurried over here to see you. Other than that I have nothing else planned" I said, sipping on my tea. Twilight smiled as she poured herself some more tea. "Nice well you can hang out with us for a while" Twilight smiled. I just nodded. Spike finished his soup and started pouring it into huge bowls, I was so looking forward to this soup. It was one of my favorites, Spike gave me my bowl and I started to dig in. I took my time and savored every spoonful. I closed my eyes, Spike's soup was amazing. It was always so warm and always tasted amazing. As I finished my soup, I sat back. "Man, I suppose I should start heading home," I said to Twilight. She smiled and took my bowl, she put it in the sink for Spike to wash, I waved goodbye as I flew out of the window. It was starting to get colder, I shivered as I flew through the cloudy sky. My cloud house was in view, I smiled to myself once I landed on the front steps. I walked into my house, it was freezing in here! I walked over to my fireplace and started a nice warm fire, I grabbed my blanket and curled up to watch a Daring Do movie. I started to drift off to sleep. *(Dumbbell's POV)* I sighed to myself as I walked through the door, today had been one of the worst days of my life. 'Stupid clouds' I thought to myself. I flopped down on my couch, I looked around my dark empty apartment. I was expecting to see Cloudchaser just hanging around, maybe she got the hint I didn't want her here anymore. I grabbed a blanket and curled up, I was starting to feel alone. I wonder if this is how Rainbow Dash felt when I left her, I could feel tears pricking at the corner of my eyes. I didn't know what to do with my life anymore, I was unhappy. Rainbow Dash was happy, I was alone. Rainbow Dash had Big Mac, I felt tears falling down my face. I wanted her back, but I knew I'd never have her in my life again. I let the warm tears fall, I just laid there. Letting it all out, maybe I would feel better if I did? Who knows, I slowly started to close my eyes. *(Rainbow Dash's POV)* I woke up to someone yelling from the ground below, I sighed and got up. I stretched out my wings and let out a loud yawn. I opened the front door to see Big Mac. "There you are Rainbow" he smiled up at me, I smirked at him. "Of course I'm here what are you doing Big Red?" I asked as I fluttered to the ground. He smiled at me, I wondered what he was thinking. "Rainbow Dash I was wondering, would you like to be my girlfriend?" he asked, my eyes widened. I nodded happily. He hugged me tightly, I sighed as I hugged back. I was finally with Big Mac somepony I should have been with from the very beginning. "I'm going to make this last forever Big Red, I've always loved you. I should have picked you in the beginning" I said kissing him. He smiled at me. "What?" I asked smiling back. "I'm glad you finally realized I've been in front of you your whole life" he said. "Awe you big cheeseball" I said as I ruffled his dirty blond hair. He blushed and looked down at the ground, I lifted his head with my hoof. I kissed his cheek and we started walking towards the farm, I have a feeling Big Mac and I will last for years. I am finally happy, I can't believe I didn't pick him from the start. He's the perfect Stallion for me, I'm wild he's shy. I'm proud and he's simple. He brings the mare out of me more. I'm glad that he isn't so shy to share his feelings with me, he also has a more playful side because of me and he's all mine. I smiled at him as I nuzzled against him. This was just the beginning of our life, I can't wait to see what is to come.
'Cause it's to coldChapter 1 'Cause it's to cold By: Rainbowfeathers2015 use the sleeves on my sweater let's have an adventure head in the clouds but my gravity centered touch my neck, and I'll touch yours I sighed as I listened to the song playing on my stereo, I rubbed away the tears from my already bloodshot red and puffy eyes, I sniffled as I pulled my fluffy white covers close to me. 'How could Dumbbell just leave me after a year? And especially after he told me that he loved me' I thought to myself as I rolled over to look at the picture on my end table, it was a picture of Dumbbell and I. He was giving me a piggy back ride and I was kissing him on the cheek, the tears started to flow again. I was a wreck and it was all because of him, all because I didn't notice us drifting apart. How could he do it? My phone started to ring; I just lay there as I let it go to the answering machine. I know I was just making it harder on myself, but I just couldn't stand it to talk to any pony right now. "Hey, it's Rainbow Dash, leave a message and I'll be sure to get back to you” *beep* "Hey Dashie it's Twilight again, why won't you answer the phone? Or call us back? We're all very worried about you. I know Dumbbell hurt you worse than any Stallion has before, but please, we're all here for you. Call me back please" Twilight left her a message. I had a message from everyone Fluttershy, Pinkie Pie, Applejack, Rarity, Twilight, Flitter and Derpy. I hadn't called a single one of them back; I don't know why they kept trying. Couldn't they tell that I wanted to be left alone? I looked out my window at the thunderstorm going on outside, the rain and thunder pelted and rattled against my windows, while the lightning caused eerie dark shadows in my house. My cloud house was always chilly when it was raining; I got up out of bed and walked to my bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror; my usual bright prismatic hair was dull and disheveled. I had dark rings under my eyes not to mention that my usually very bright magenta eyes were now a dull hue of pink, I had cuts and scars under the sleeves of the sweater that no one would ever see, at least I wouldn't let them see. I sighed as I pulled the sweater off; I set it aside and started to brush my hair. I started the water and stepped into the hot shower; I washed my hair and body and just stood in the shower until the water had gone extremely cold. I stepped out of it and started to dry off, I blow dry my hair and brushed it out again, I pulled the sweater over my head and looked at myself in the mirror. My hair wasn't as dull as before, but it wasn't as bright either, I wandered out into the living room and turned on the TV. I put it on a movie as I stared at the screen, I heard someone knocking on the door. I sighed as I ignored the annoying pounding on the door. "Rainbow I know your home, please let me come inside" Flitter's voice said from the other side of the door, I sighed as I slowly made my way towards the door and opened it to let her inside. She came in and hugged me tightly, "Rainbow you look so sad, and I’m so worried about you, all the other girls are as well. Please try to let go of him. He isn't any good for you, look what he's doing to you. You would've never let any other bad relationship make you act this way before. Why start now?" Flitter said to me with tears in her eyes. I sighed as I hugged her back I didn't like to see my friends cry, I really was trying to get over Dumbbell. That's what I thought it was at least. It was hard for me to let go, his dark blue eyes, his shaggy blond mane, his chocolate brown fur. I sighed as I looked at Flitter. "I'm sorry Flitter it's just been so hard on me. He told me he loves me and then all of a sudden boom, I'm not good enough for him, " I said sadly as I sat on the couch with Flitter. She nodded at me as she held onto my hoof, I gave her a weak smiled as I looked at her. "Rainbow I know you're sad, I can't tell you I know what you're going through, but I can tell you that you have me and the rest of the girls here for you" Flitter said smiling back at me. I hugged her tightly as I started to cry again. "Why are you crying again?" she asked as she rubbed my back, I sniffled as I looked at her. "Flitter I hurt all of you by ignoring all of your calls, you guys have tried to help me and talk to me through all of this pain. And yet I ignored all of you and was too busy sulking in my bed and being sad" I said as I wiped away my tears. Flitter smiled at me again as she hugged me. "Rainbow it's okay, it's not like we're going to leave you any time soon. You ignoring us like you did may have hurt our feelings, but we'll always be here for you no matter what, and always will be your best friends" Flitter said letting go. I gave her a small smile as I looked at my ceiling; it wasn't a dark gray anymore. When I'm in a bad mood my cloud house would be a dark gray, but since I'm in a better mood now it's back to its normal white color. It was still storming bad outside, but I was thankful that Flitter was here with me. "Well Rainbow I'm going to go and talk to the other girls to let them know you are in a better mood and that maybe they should come visit and to try to get you out of the house" Flitter said smiling at me. I nodded at her as I walked her to the door, I waved goodbye as I looked for something to eat. I settled for a daisy and sunflower salad, as I ate my salad I smiled to myself for being in a better mood. I decided it was a good idea to go grocery shopping today; I fluttered down to the ground and walked to the store. I grabbed some more daisies and sunflowers to make more salad. After I finished my grocery shopping I made my way over to Sugarcube Corner to get some doughnuts, after buying a dozen doughnuts I went to put all my stuff away. I thought a visit to Twilight's was much needed, I hoped that she wasn't mad at me for ignoring her calls as well. As I walked to Twilight's Library I could see some ponies would stare at me. It was probably because of the way I acted after Dumbbell and I broke up. I ignored their stares as I knocked on the door; I smiled as Twilight opened the door. "Dashie I'm so glad you're in a better mood, I'm also glad to see what you finally came out of your house" Twilight smiled as she hugged me tightly as she stepped aside to let me inside. I could smell that Spike was working on his famous Daisy soup so I felt I had to stay. "So, Dash how are you doing?" I sighed as I looked at the sweater I was wearing, it was his. "Well Twilight I don't know, I'm not over Dumbbell. I loved him, it will take me quite a while before I'm over him," I said looking down at my hooves. Twilight smiled at me. "Well, I know it will take you a while I'm just glad you're looking better, " she finished as she got up and started to make me some cinnamon tea. I smiled as I waited for my tea. "I know Twilight it's just I wish he wouldn't have done that to me, if he was just going to dump me he shouldn't have told me that he loved me? Yeah, I mean I know I still wear his sweater, but so far it's been helping me, " I said as I sat there. She turned and gave me a knowing look. "You'll be alright, I can tell" I gave her a small smile as she handed me my tea, I slowly sipped at it as Spike finished making Daisy soup. "So "Rainbow are you going to stay for some of Spike's famous Daisy Soup?" Twilight asked as she got herself a bowl, I nodded happily at her as she handed me a bowl. I took a deep breath; Spike definitely knew how to cook one mean bowl of Daisy soup. After I finished my tea and soup I left Twilight's in a better mood, I made it back to my cloud house. The weather was still chilly and cloudy; I shivered at the cold bite of the wind. I walked into my house and started a fire to warm up my cloud house; I lay on the couch and pulled my Wonderbolts blanket tighter around me. 'So much warmer' I thought to myself as I blankly stared at the TV for what felt like hours, A movie about two ponies that weren't meant for each other falling in love was on. It made me smile a little, made me hope that I would be able to find another Stallion that would treat me better than Dumbbell did. I still remember all the good memories we had, but I also remember our last fight before we broke up.. "I hate you Dumbbell why do you have to be such a fucking asshole, what the hell did I ever do for you to treat me this way?" I asked. "Why don't you ask your stupid hick farmer friend Big Mac? He seems like he's pretty jealous of our relationship and I hate it. He's not going to come between us is he??" Dumbbell growled at me. "Why the hell would you think Big Mac would be a problem?! I haven't talk to him since we started to go out." I screamed as tears stained my bright cyan fur. I shuddered, he was always jealous of Big Mac, always thought I was going to leave him for Big. What caused, it was Dumbbell manages to overhear Big talking to Applejack that I could do way better than him and that I should've picked him over Dumbbell, but I still would've picked Dumbbell over Big Mac. I sighed as I looked at my clock it was already 11:00 pm, I got up and turned off my TV and the lights and got into bed. I pulled my covers over me as I looked out my window at Luna's bright moon and millions of stars. 'Please help me get over Dumbbell and to find another Stallion that will treat me a million times better than Dumbbell did' I said to myself as I got up and turned on my music. My favorite song was on and it was how I felt right about now And it feels like I've been buried alive by love If I should die before I wake Pray no one my soul to take If I wake before I die Rescue me with your smile I smiled to myself as I slowly started to doze off while the music played; I snuggled into my soft bed and pulled the covers tighter around me as I finally drifted off to sleep. I hoped that tomorrow would be better than today had, and I planned on spending the day with Fluttershy to make up for ignoring her calls. I had to make up to all of them, after Fluttershy I was going to visit Rarity as well. I will have a long day ahead of me tomorrow, I hope tomorrow was as good as today was.
Outside it starts to pourChapter 2 Outside it starts to pour I slowly opened my eyes as I heard my alarm going off, I rubbed the sleep from my eyes as I looked out my window. "Looks like it's another rainy day" I said to myself as I got out of my warm comfy bed, I made my bed and wandered into my bathroom to brush my hair. I took a look at myself in the mirror, I sighed my prismatic hair was still a dull hue of rainbow colors. My eyes were a little brighter than they were yesterday, but I still had dark circles under them, I pulled up the sleeve of the dark navy blue sweater to see the slashes on my arm. I grabbed my razor blade as I slid it gracefully across my arm; I smiled once I saw the crimson blood meet my cyan fur. I watched the blood drip down my arm and onto my floor; I watched it for what seemed like hours before I cleaned my arm up. I pulled my sleeve down as I walked into my kitchen and munched on one of the doughnuts I had bought the other day, after I finished it I brushed my teeth and looked at the time. It was 10:45 so I knew Fluttershy would be awake around this time; I flew out my window into the gloomy, cold and icy rain. It pelted my face as I flew to Fluttershy's cottage; After a short fly I finally made it to Fluttershy's I knocked on her cottage door, I looked at her chicken coop that looked like it got fixed recently. I heard the door opened and I came face to face with the last pony I thought I would see here. Big Mac. "Oh well howdy Rainbow Dash. How are you today?" He asked as I saw Fluttershy came into view she gasped. "Rainbow please come inside right away, I'm glad you finally left your house," she said as she ushered me inside, "Goodbye Big Mac thank you for fixing the chicken coop the other day" she finished as she closed the door. She frowned at me as she sat down on her chair. "You look like a mess Rainbow and you'll catch a cold, let me dry that sweater for you and please go and take a warm shower," she finished as I pulled the sweater off, I especially made sure to make sure Fluttershy didn't see my arms. I smiled at her as I slowly made my way down the hallway to her bathroom. "Thanks a lot Fluttershy" I said as I closed the door, I turned on the water and waited for it to warm up. I stepped into the hot shower and smiled to myself as the hot water cascaded down my lanky body, I started to shampoo my mane, tail and fur and let it set in for a while. I rinsed off the shampoo as I grabbed the conditioner, I let the conditioner stay in my mane and tail for a while to make my hair softer. I rinsed it and felt like I was presentable to come out of the shower now, I stepped out and started to dry off. I dried my hair and brushed it out and smiled at myself as my hair, eyes and fur were becoming a little brighter. I came out of the bathroom and found Fluttershy petting Angle. "Oh Rainbow you look so warm now, here's your sweater" she said handing me the sweater. I pulled it over my head and smiled as the scent wafting from it; it smelled like fresh clean rain. I saw that Fluttershy had made me some of her famous rose tip tea; I sipped at it as I started to think of what to say to Fluttershy about everything that has happened in the past couple of weeks. "So Fluttershy I wanted to tell you that I'm really sorry for ignoring all of your phone calls and ignoring the other girls as well, I talked to Flitter and Twilight yesterday and I plan on seeing Rarity after I'm done here. Tomorrow I plan on meeting up with Pinky Pie and Applejack." I said smiling at Fluttershy. She smiled back at me as she finished her tea. "I'm so glad that you are starting to feel better Rainbow. I know Dumbbell hurt you bad, but I'm glad you aren't pushing us away anymore," she said taking her cup to the kitchen. I finished my tea and put it in the sink for Fluttershy to finish washing. "So Rainbow I have one question for you. Why on earth do you keep wearing Dumbbell's sweater? I mean I'm sorry for asking, but I'm really curious" she said drying off her hands as we walked back to her living room. I sighed; I wanted to tell her it was because I was afraid of what they'd think of the slashes on my arms. "Well, honestly, it's because I'm not ready to let go of him yet. I'm glad I'm finally talking to you ladies again because I've missed you guys so much. After I'm finally ready to take this sweater off I'll let you burn it" I smiled at Fluttershy. She had the biggest smile on her little face. She got up and hugged me tightly. "I'm so proud of you Rainbow! I can't wait for us to burn this sweater" she said as she let go of me. I smiled as I said goodbye to her and started to make my way to Rarity's house. I hoped she was just as forgiving as Twilight, Flitter and Fluttershy. I smiled as I saw Sweetie, Applebloom and Scoots run out the house with Rarity yelling at them, 'Wonder what they did now?' I said to myself. Rarity saw me and smiled. "Dashie finally, I was worried you weren't going to apologize to me," she acted as she flopped over. I giggled to myself as I helped her up and gave her a huge hug. "I missed you so much Rainbow. I was so worried when you never answered my phone calls. I thought maybe you hated us for warning you about Dumbbell" she said letting me inside. "Oh Rarity I could never come to hate you ladies. You have all been there for me more than Dumbbell himself was and she was supposed to be my boyfriend" I said as we sat down in her living room. She gave me a huge smile after I said that. "How is that going for you anyway? Are you over him yet? I see you are starting to look more like your normal self" she smiled. I just nodded. "It's okay, I suppose, my hair and eyes are getting brighter and brighter every day. I still wear Dumbbell's sweater that he gave me, but when I'm over him I told Fluttershy her and I can burn it" I smirked as I pet Rarity's cat Opal. Rarity smiled at me as she called her cat over. "Well, when you and Fluttersy do that please count me in on that little adventure," she laughed a little. Her cat hissed at something and ran off. I nodded at her as I heard the wind starting to pick up, 'looks like I'll be walking home' I thought to myself. "Rarity I want you to be part of that when I burn it, I want all the girls to be part of it" I smiled as I saw the wind was continuing to pick up speed and intensity. "Oh my Rainbow it looks like you should head home soon," she said, looking out the window, hoping that Sweetie and her friends had made it to Sweet Apple Acres. I couldn't help but smile at her, I had weighted down my house yesterday before it started to rain. "Oh no don't worry about it Rare I weighted my house down yesterday before it started to rain, it might be moving around a lot. But it's not moving from its spot" I said laughing. She smiled at me as I sipped on the pop she brought me. I heard knocking at the door. "Oh, hello there Big Macintosh what can I do for you?" I gasped as I did not want to be seen by him. "Well, I was wondering where Rainbow Dash was, I saw her at Miss Fluttershy's and I've been wanting to talk to Rainbow for a while since we got in that fight out on my farm. I miss her a lot." he said sadly, I made a meowing noise and Rarity looked at me confused and I shook my head so she knew to tell Big Mac I wasn't here. "Well Big Macintosh I haven't seen her since Dumbbell broke her heart and she went crazy and stopped talking to all of us" Rarity said in mock anger. "Oh Dumbbell broke up with her? Wow I really had no idea. Why did she stop talking to you guys? Are y'all supposed to be best friends?" he asked a little concerned. "Dumbbell told Rainbow that he loved her and then the next day he said he wanted nothing to do with her. And I don't know why she stopped talking to all of us, she stopped going out, she stopped everything except work" Rarity finished sighing a bit. I heard Big Mac sigh "Well could you tell her I want to talk to her? That is if you see her?" Big Mac asked. "I will Big Mac, have a good rest of your day" Rarity said, putting on a fake smile and she turned around and looked at me weirdly. "Why didn't you want him to talk to you?" she huffed. "Because Rare I'm not ready to face him yet after everything that has happened" I sighed "I think I'm going to head home" I finished as I got up, I gave Rarity a hug and started to walk home. The wind was roaring so because of that it took me forever to walk home. I fluttered up to my house and walked through the door. I shivered and started another fire and lay on my couch, pulling my Wonderbolts blanket tight over me. I stared blankly at the ceiling quietly listening to the TV as I watched the shadows from the fire lick at my ceiling. The warmth from the fireplace started to make me sleepy, 'mmm this fireplace was a great idea' I thought to myself as I turned to face the TV. I stared at it and was trying to figure out what was on the TV when my phone started to ring. I just ignored it and let it go to the Messaging machine. "Hey its Rainbow Dash leave a message and I'll be sure to get back to you" *beep* "Hey Rainbow Dash its Big Mac, I really want to talk to you. I didn't realize that Dumbbell and you had broken up, and that you've been ignoring all of your friends. That means you've been all alone these last few weeks, you need somepony to be there for you. I want to be that somepony." I started to cry from Big Mac's message; I rubbed the tears from my eyes as I rolled onto my stomach and hid my face against my arms. 'Why? Why is this happening to me?' I thought to myself as I got up and crawled into my bed, the silver light shining into my room. I smiled to myself as I watched a falling star. 'I wish that Big Mac and I would be friends again' I wished to myself as I started to doze off.
Your hooves in the holes of my sweaterChapter 3 Your hooves in the holes of my sweater I opened my eyes only to squint them suddenly 'man for once it's a sunny day' I said to myself as I slowly got out of bed, I didn't bother with making my bed today. I wandered into my bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror, I smiled at myself as I saw my hair was starting to get a little brighter. My prismatic hair looked like a paisley rainbow now instead of a dull grey rainbow, my eyes were also a paisley pink. My color was starting to come back, I still had a long ways to go before I was back to my normal self but I'm getting there. The rings under my eyes weren't as dark either, since I was starting to get more sleep, I walked out into the kitchen and ate a doughnut. Once I was done, I decided it was time to apologize to the rest of the girls today, and maybe try to talk to Big Mac. That's the part of my day I was worried about, I heard someone knocking on the door. 'Wonder who that could be?' I thought to myself as I opened the door and saw Derpy. "Hey Rainbow Dash, I brought your mail" she smiled. I hugged her tightly. "Oh Derpy I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I avoided all of you girls when you all have been there for me," I said as I started to tear up a little. Derpy smiled at me as she handed me my mail. "I do understand Rainbow Dash, remember I am a single mother" she said as she turned to leave. "Thanks Derpy" I sniffled as I waved goodbye to her. I put my mail on my table and flew off to Sugar-cube corner to talk to Pinkie Pie. I landed on the ground and trotted towards the door of Sugar-cube corner. I opened the door expecting to see the Cakes and instead seeing Pinkie Pie. I smiled "Pinkie Pie just the lady I wanted to see today," I said trotting over to the counter. Oh, hiya Rainbow" she smiled at me as she finished putting away newly baked cupcakes and cookies. I smiled back at her as I sat on my haunches. "So Pinkie, I wanted to apologize for being so withdrawn and not talking to you or the girls. Plus ignoring all your calls" I sighed, looking at my feet. I felt a hoof on my shoulder, I looked up to see Pinkie smiling at me. "It's okay Rainbow I understand, Cheese Sandwich and I have gotten in fights before. Granted, you and Dumbbell aren't together anymore, but this is a learning experience," she smiled as she gave me a cupcake. I took it gratefully and munched on it while she finished baking. After I finished my cupcake I got up. "Well Pinkie, I'm heading out to Sweet Apple Acres to go talk to Applejack and then maybe Big Mac. I don't know how it's going to go so wish me luck," I said sheepishly as I got to the door. "Good luck Dashie" she squealed happily. I laughed to myself as I flew into the sky and headed towards Sweet Apple Acres. I started to fly a little fast and after a while I could smell apples, I smiled to myself. I haven't been here for Big Mac and I got into a fight and stopped talking, I guess it's a good think he wants to talk to me again. I looked around and saw Applejack by some of the Apple trees in the south field. I swooped down and landed sloppily. She turned around and smiled at me, I gave her a weak smile in return. "Well howdy Rainbow what are ya up to t'day?" AppleJack asked, smiling as she bucked another tree. I smiled back at her as I sat down. "Well, I wanted to tell you that I am sorry for the way I acted towards all of you girls. You all have been there for me and I just ignored all of you. All of your calls and everything. I'm a horrible friend," I said as I looked at the ground and kicked my hooves around in the dirt. I looked up to see Applejack smiling at me, I gave her another one in return. "Well Rainbow you have been through a lot, I don't know what you've gone through, but I understand you wanting time alone. I just wish you would've told us that instead of ignoring us," she said as she took her bucket up apples and headed towards the barn. I followed quickly behind her. "Thanks AJ I just felt horrible and I feel so much better after apologizing to all of you ladies, you girls are my best friends and if I even lost one of you I would be devastated" I said as I sat there and watched her put all the apples away, a few feet away I saw Big Mac pulling the plow. I was trying my hardest to not look at him. Applejack followed my gaze and smiled. "Are you going to talk to him today? He told me he wasn't even sure you would listen to his voice mail," she said sitting down next to me. I sighed as I looked from Big Mac to Applejack. "I don't know what to do AJ. Like I want to talk to him, but then again, I don't want to talk to him. I hurt him bad AJ and I haven't talked to him since" I sighed as I felt the sting of tears coming. I willed them back. "Well Dash I would say right now take your time, you don't have to talk to my brother right at this moment in time. But don't forget about him either, I don't want him hurt anymore. You did hurt him bad, but I think he hurt you worse" She said as she got up and grabbed her bucket to continue bucking Apple trees. I followed her, I was trying to decide if today was the day that I wanted to talk to Big Mac. I deiced I wasn't going to. "Well AJ I don't think I'm going to talk to him today, but I will another day. I just don't feel up to it today" I sighed. Applejack smiled and hugged me tightly. "Well, like I said just don't forget about him," she said as she continued to buck Apple trees. I said goodbye to her and started to fly back to my house. I really hoped that once I did talk to Big Mac that he would want to be my friend again. I really, really miss him. The only other stallion I had been friends with was Thunderlane and I haven't seen him since my party for winning best young flyers competition. I landed towards Twilight's library, I was going to stop and talk to her but she seemed busy. I decided I was going to walk to my cloud house, while I was walking I wasn't paying attention and bumped into Thunderlane. "Oh man I'm sorry Thunderlane" I said in a quiet voice. 'I would put Fluttershy's voice to shame' I thought to myself. I looked up to see Thunderlane smiling at me. "It's okay Dashie, what's been going on with you lately. Everyone said you were distant with everyone," he said, walking with me to my house. I looked at the ground for a bit before I answered. "Well Dumbbell dumped me and I haven't been the same since, he told me he loved me and then all of sudden he dumps me" I said as I started to walk slower. Thunderlane put his strong black feathered wing around me. I looked up at him as he nuzzled against my neck. "I'm so sorry Dash, I wish I would've known. I'd have kicked his ass, he was a douche to you anyways. I just hope you let go of him eventually," he said to me as we stopped at my house. I sighed as I looked up at my house. "Um, do you want to come inside, I haven't had anyone over for a while, not since Flitter a few days ago" I said smiling a little. Thunderlane nodded as we flew up and walked into my house, I had no idea what we were going to do so I decided on a movie. "I love this movie" Thunderlane said as he wrapped us in a blanket, I wasn't used to this so I had no idea how to react. It's been a while since I've been around another guy. I started to relax a little when I felt Thunderlane's hooves on mine. I looked up at him and smiled. I could get used to that. "I love this movie too" I smiled as I nuzzled against Thunderlane's chest, he didn't seem to mind. I could really get used to that. I wasn't really paying attention to the movie, I was paying more attention to Thunderlane. I don't think he minded too much. He smiled down at me and nuzzled his snout against my hair. I giggled a little as he did that. "I haven't heard you laugh in quite some time" Thunderlane said to me as he stretched a bit, he wrapped his wings around me. I smiled to myself as I felt the feathers tickling me a little. "I haven't heard myself laugh in a while either Thunder. It's kind of nice to just relax and watch a movie with a guy" I said as I relaxed and leaned into Thunderlane a little. "I haven't actually hung out with you in a while, not since flight school that one summer with the Wonderbolts" he said as he pulled the blanket and his wings tighter around me. I sighed to myself, I really could get used to this, him being around and making me feel safe and warm and comfortable. "Thunderlane I could get used to hanging out with you, maybe we could hang out for the next few days" I said as I snuggled into him. "You know what Rainbow I would love to hang out with you for the next few days. Seems like you've needed someone around lately to make you feel better" Thunder said to me as he nuzzled his snout into my hair again. I couldn't help but smile to myself as we continued to watch the movie. "That sounds amazing Thunder" I said as I slowly started to doze off, I was warm and comfortable. Not to mention I felt safe and secure wrapped in a blanket with Thunderlane. I closed my eyes and sighed as I relaxed, I felt Thunderlane lay down and I wrapped my arms around him and nuzzle into his chest. I looked at him and saw he was smiling at me. I couldn't help but smile to myself. I feel myself starting to feel happy, I looked at the screen of my tv, my eyes and my hair were starting to get brighter. "This seems pretty amazing right now as well," he said as he started to doze off. I smiled as I closed my eyes. Yep, I could get used to this life
..they seem to fit inChapter 4 ..they seem to fit in I slowly opened my eyes, I blinked a few times and noticed I had fallen asleep on Thunderlane. 'Man, he's still here? I wasn't expecting him to stay that long' I thought to myself as I stretched a little. He slowly opened his eyes and smiled at me, while stretching his wings, he wrapped them around me. "Hey sleepy head," he said sleepily. I smiled at him as I got up, I walked to my bathroom and brushed out my hair. It was starting to become brighter, along with my magenta eyes. I smiled to myself as I looked at myself, 'Wow, I look so much better than I used to' I thought to myself as I walked back out into my living room. Thunderlane was preening his wings, I figured I needed to do that soon. I pulled the sleeve of my sweater up to look at my arm, most of the cuts and slashes were faded scars. I still had quite a few that were visible, I pulled it back down as I walked into the kitchen. I grabbed a doughnut to munch on. "So Thunder do you have anything planned for today?"I asked quietly as I finished my doughnut. Thunderlane looked up and smiled as he stretched his wings again. "Well, I was supposed to talk to Cloudchaser today," he said getting up. My mood turned a little sour at the sound of that name. Thunderlane could tell. "Sorry about that," he said, looking, at me sheepishly, I smiled at him. "It's okay. When you're done talking to her you should come by and we'll hang out," I said walking him to the door. He nodded at me and flew off into the sky, I smiled a little to myself. I decided I was going to have a lazy day where I stay home all day, I climbed into bed and pulled the comfy blankets over me once more. I woke up a few hours later. "Man, it's only 10:45 am," I said to myself as I got back up. I had made my bed, I looked at my end table and the picture of Dumbbell and I was gone. I smiled to myself as I was slowly getting the rest of him out of my life, all the pictures were gone, all earrings and necklaces he gave me were gone. All I need to do now is to get rid of this God forsaken sweater. I decided I was ready to talk to Big Mac and maybe get everything behind me, hopefully he would forgive me. I smiled as I spread my wings and took to the sky, I haven't actually flown anywhere in a long time, so it was nice to feel the cool breeze on my face and the wind flowing in my mane. I finally made it to Sweet Apple Acres, I saw Big Mac by some of the Apple trees in the south field. I smiled as I trotted my way over to him, I started to get nervous as I got closer to him. "Well Howdy Rainbow how are you doin'? He asked me quietly I looked down. "I'm not doing to well Big. I came here because I wanted to talk to you," I said in a whisper. Big Mac took a seat and relaxed a little, he gave me a small smile "Well, I'm all ears" he said to me. I nodded, I was trying to figure out where to start with the conversation. "I don't really know where to start" I said sheepishly. Big Mac smiled at me "Well, why don't you say so the day you ran away from me on the farm" He said staring intently at me. I nodded at him as I made myself comfortable since this was going to be a very long story. "I was really scared when you asked me out, mainly cause I didn't want Dumbbell to be mad at me. He was cruel when he got mad, I learned that a lot" I said as I looked at Big Mac. He nodded as he shifted to make himself comfortable. "Well, if you were scared, why didn't you just tell me you were scared?" he asked sadly. 'I wasn't liking the tone in his voice, there was a hint of sadness in it, it made me feel guilty' "I really have no idea Big Red, I just didn't know what to do and I made it worse by not saying that. I am really sorry that I made you cry, and now I really am kicking myself for not picking you. If I had picked you we'd be dating still, my breakup with Dumbbell hit me so hard Big Mac. I changed so much and I made all my friends around me worried" I finished as a few tears streaked down my cyan face. I closed my eyes as I started to cry, all of a sudden I felt a pair of muscled forelegs hug me and Big Mac nuzzling against my neck. I nuzzled into his chest, I just wanted to stay there forever. "Well Rainbow Dash I still really like you, I never stopped" He said looking into my magenta eyes. I blushed as I looked away from him. I looked up into his beautiful green eyes. "Do you forgive me Big Mac? I really hurt you, and I made it worse by running away from you," I said sadly as I looked down. I felt his hoof under my chin, he pushed my head up and started to lean forward. I froze, I hadn't been kissed in a while and I was scared. I felt silly being scared. I seriously mean that. I felt Big Mac kiss me gently, I closed my eyes as I kissed him back. I slowly opened my eyes and saw Apple Jack smiling at us as she continued towards the barn. "Dashie, of course I forgive you, I'd be crazy not to," he said as he nuzzled his snout against my rainbow mane. I smiled as he did just that. I felt like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders, I really hoped that maybe Red and I would go out later. I was really stupid not to date him. "Thank you so much Red, you don't know how happy you made me. I won't get scared and run away this time either" I finished as I nuzzled against his chest. He smiled down at me as he let go of me, I smiled up at him as I stood up. "Well, I think I'm going to head home. I'll come see you again tomorrow Red" I said as I nuzzled against his chest again. I flew up into the sky and made my way back to my house, I was in such a good mood, nothing could ruin this day. I finally made it home, I smiled at the fresh smell in my house. I made my way to the bathroom to take a look at myself, my mane was almost back to its prismatic glory and my eyes were finally magenta again. I was so happy 'I knew this day was going to be good, I am almost back to my normal self again. Which also means I can burn this sweater' I thought to myself. I decided I was going to fly, until it was night time. I haven't done that since the night Dumbbell has told me he loved me, it was going to be liberating that I was letting go of one of the worst memories I've had in a long time.My wings spread wide and took to the sky, the cool wind playing with my rainbow mane. I took a deep breath of fresh air, I had a huge smile on my face as I flew up a little higher. I found a nice cloud to sit on and look down on Ponyville, I smiled to myself. I really did love this town, it had all of my best friends in it and of course my cloud home which I would never leave behind. I recognized Thunderlane walking with a group of ponies I never really got along with, Cloudchaser was one of them and not to mention Dumbbell's friends Hoops and Score. I really hoped Dumbbell didn't look for me, I started to freak myself out. I took to the skies and headed for Sweet Apple Acres again, I flew as fast as my wings would let me. I landed sloppily as I looked around for Big Mac and or Apple Jack, I saw Big Mac and ran towards him. "Dashie what's wrong?" He asked with a look of worry on his face. I took a deep breath to calm myself down. "Dumbbell and his friends are in town..I'm kind of freaking out, I thought for a minute, maybe they were looking for me and that's why I decided to book it here as fast as I could" I said out of breath. Big Mac furrowed his brow in thought. "Well, Ah suppose you can stay here until we know they're out of town" he said nuzzling against me. I gave him a small smile in return. "Thanks so much Red, I was just so worried. I knew you'd be here to help me," I said happily. Big Mac nodded at me happily and told me to hide in his room. I nodded and ran into his house. "What's goin' on brother?" Applejack asked a little confused. Big Mac looked at her with an angry look on his face. "Dumbbell is in town" is all he said to his sister, she understood why Rainbow Dash wanted to hide somewhere she knew she'd be safe. "Man, I need to tell the rest of the girls, this isn't good. What would make him come to town all of a sudden?" she said looking at her brother. Big Mac shrugged as he got up and started to put all of his tools away. I watched Big Mac and Applejack as they started to put all the tools away. Why would Dumbbell come to town, what was he trying to do? Rub in how well he fits in with everypony I went to flight school with? Yeah, it hurt to know a douche bag like him could have that many friends. But I had something he would never have, friends that would be there for life, his would only be there for maybe a few years before they figure out how much of an asshole he is. I shook the thought of Dumbbell out of my mind and looked up to see Big Mac and Apple Jack running towards town. 'They are probably going to get the girls' I thought to myself, I was starting to worry again. I guess I would see what this situation would bring me. *(Big Mac's POV)* Ah watched as my sister ran from one friend's house to the other to let them know that Dumbbell was in town and most likely looking for Rainbow Dash. I was trying to keep the anger inside just thinking about him and what he did to my Dashie. "Brother, I got all the girls together, we're all going to the farm to hide, I am not letting him get to any of us to find Rainbow. I'm not chancing that," she whispered to me. I nodded and we started to walk back to the farm. "I really hope he is just in town tonight" Twilight said to the girls. Flitter nodded her head vigorously. "Yeah the last thing I want to see is Rainbow Dash look like a graying rainbow, I think that was the hardest thing I had to see. She's made such an improvement, I mean she is almost back to normal. He doesn't need to ruin it" Flitter said with anger. Fluttershy nodded in agreement. "Yes, she has made a huge improvement, plus we still need to burn his sweater. Oh...maybe he is here for that?" Fluttershy thought looking at the rest of the girls. Twilight furrowed her eyebrows in thought for a moment. "But Rainbow said that he gave that to her why would he want it back now? Especially since it's been almost 6 months since they broke up" Twilight said looking ahead. Pinkie and Rarity nodded as they reached the Sweet Apple Acres sign. "Alright girls. Let's head off to the farm while Big waits here to see if Dumbbell heads this way" my sister said walking with the rest of the group. "I really hope he doesn't head this way, he would be dumb to even try it" I said to myself. Just my luck, I thought to myself when I saw a chocolate brown Pegasi stallion making his way towards me with his orange and gray Pegasi sidekicks. Plus Flitter's sister Cloudchaser and strangely Thunderlane who was supposed to be Dashie's friend. What the hell were they up to? Why were they all here? I was starting to become worried as I tried to shake the worried expression from my face. "So Big Mac, we meet again. Say you didn't see that slut Rainbow Dash around have you? I would really love to have a nice little talk with her" Dumbbell said to me arrogantly while smirking at his friends. 'Celestia help me' I thought to myself.
When it starts to snowChapter 5 When it starts to snow *(Rainbow Dash's POV)* I looked out the window as I sat on Big Mac's bed, I was looking for the girls. I saw Applejack running full speed towards the house, I worried for a minute with the look on her face. 'Oh no I hope nothing bad happened' I thought to myself as I saw the rest of the girls running after AJ. I heard AJ making her way up the stairs, I got up and opened the door. "Aj what's going on?! Did something bad happen to Big Mac??" I asked worriedly. Apple Jack smiled at the worry for her brother and shook her head. "No, we all wanted to come talk to you to figure out what to do about Dumbbell" she said looking angrily out the window. I nodded as the rest of the girls made it to Big mac's room. I sighed, I really had no idea what to do about all of this. I was starting to get really nervous, I sat down trying to think about what to do. "I really have no idea what to do about all of this," I said looking at the girls. Twilight furrowed her brow in thought, even Pinkie Pie was deep in thought. "Well, I guess it all depends on whether or not he comes to Sweet Apple Acres" Twilight said looking out the window. I looked out the window as well, the sky was dark gray. The wind was also starting to pick up, I sighed as I watched the apple trees sway back and forth. 'Please be safe Big Mac' *(Big Mac's POV)* I sighed to myself as I stared at Dumbbell and his group of friends, "what the hell Dumbbell? Don't you dare call my Dashie a slut" I said angrily at him. He chuckled as he looked at Apple Jack and the rest of the girls make their way towards me. "Apple Jack, Twilight what are all of you doing here?" I asked as I looked at Dumbbell. "We came here to watch Rainbow Dash kick his stupid fucking ass" Fluttershy said glaring at Dumbbell. The rest of the girls looked at Fluttershy happily, she was finally done being shy. She stood up for herself and her friends. "Well, well, well, looks like little miss innocent isn't so innocent after all" Dumbbell smirked at Fluttershy. Fluttershy smirked back at him. "Yeah, I'm not so innocent. I hope you're ready to pound into the ground" She said smiling. I couldn't help but smile at Rainbow's friends. *(Rainbow Dash's POV)* "What the fuck do you want Dumbbell?" I scoffed as I stood in front of Big Mac and the girls. Dumbbell smirked at me as he got in my face. "Thunderlane told me about your little sleepover" He said smiling. I smiled back at him. "Oh yeah that's nice, It's not like anything happened anyways" I said as I looked at Thunderlane who looked really nervous all of a sudden. "Thunderlane what's with the nervous look? Did you do something you shouldn't have?" I smirked at him as he started to back up. Dumbbell looked back and forth from Thunderlane and I, he looked like he was starting to figure out that Thunderlane lied to him. "Get the fuck out of here Thunderlane you were supposed to be Rainbow Dash's friend. Why would you do this to her? What is your problem?" Big Mac bellowed at him as he got in Thunderlane's face, Thunderlane looked terrified. Dumbbell glared at Thunderlane and he took this as his time to leave as he ran for it and flew off. Big Mac snorted as he walked over to me, he nuzzled his snout into my mane. I smiled at him, "Are you going to be okay?" Big Mac asked a little concern in his voice. I smiled and for the first time for a long time I felt like I could take care of this problem by myself. "Yes Big Mac, for the first time I can finally say that I can take care of this by myself. But thank you all of you for supporting me this whole time. I honestly couldn't have done this without any of you guys," I said, looking at all of my friends. I turned and looked at Dumbbell and his friends, Hoops and Score looked really scared. They started to back up away from Dumbbell and Cloudchaser, I smirked at Dumbbell and Cloudchaser. "Hoops, Score what the hell are you doing?" Dumbbell bellowed at them. "Dude, remember that look, she had it when she was in flight school" Hoops said as he continued to back up. "Yeah dude, I don't really feel like being beat up again" Score said as he flared his wings along with Hoops and flew away. "Whatever you pussies" Dumbbell yelled as he turned to look at me. I got in his face as I glared at him. "You really want to do this again? You really haven't changed. What the hell did I see in you anyways? I don't know why I even loved you," I said as I looked away from Dumbbell and looked at Big Mac. Dumbbell scoffed at me. "Whatever I heard about your lovely little breakdown, so don't try to act so tough now" he said back to me. I rolled my eyes. "Get the fuck out of here" I bellowed at him as I pulled back my right hoof. And I punched Dumbbell with a mean right hook, he stumbled for a while before shaking it off. He glared at me as he shoved me down, I shook it off as I stood up and punched him again this time with a left hook. It took him longer to shake this one off. "Dumbbell babe maybe we should just leave. She isn't worth it anyways" Cloudchaser said quickly. Dumbbell nodded and he and Cloudchaser took to the sky and flew away as fast as they could. "Finally I'm free of him," I said as I took the sweater off. Fluttershy and the rest of the girls eyed my front legs, Fluttershy hugged me tightly, tears forming in her eyes. "You shouldn't have had to deal with this on your own" Fluttershy said quietly. I nodded slowly. Twilight and the other girls gave me a huge group hug. "Rainbow Dash we're a group and we'll always be here for you. Don't shut us out again we missed you" Rarity said sadly. "Twilight light it on fire" Fluttershy said "I've been waiting for this day" Fluttershy finished. Twilight lit it on fire. Fluttershy jumped up and down a few times "Yay" she yelled. I sighed as I smiled at the burning sweater and my best friends. "I can finally see that I am rid of him. Over these last few months I am finally back to my normal self" I said happily as I hugged Flitter and the rest of the girls" I shivered as I looked up at the sky. It was starting to snow. "We all should really head home" Twilight said. I gave them all a big hug and waved goodbye to them as they left the farm. I looked behind me and Applejack was smiling at me. "What?" I asked, looking at her. "I'm proud of your Rainbow dash. You and my brother should have some time alone, so I'm going to go to my room" She said smirking as she left for the house. I followed a snowflake as it landed on my nose, I smiled at it as I made my way over to Big Mac. He looked lost in his thoughts. I sat next to him as I nuzzled against his strong side, he smiled down at me. "Big Mac, what's wrong?" I asked as I sat in front of him, Big Mac looked at me his green eyes looked really sad. I started to worry that I did something wrong again. "Did I do something?" I asked started to freak out. Big Mac looked away from me, I felt the sting of tears in my eyes. "No. No, please don't leave me" I said as the tears started to roll down my cyan fur. Big Mac looked at me, he had tears in his eyes as well. I started to rub at my eyes as the tears continued to stream down my face, I felt Big Mac pull me into a hug. "Rainbow you didn't do anything wrong, I'm just so happy that you are back to your normal self. And I get you to myself now," he said, nuzzling against my face. I couldn't help but smiled at him, I nuzzled back as I stood there with him. My mane had snow in it and I was starting to get cold. Big Mac smiled at me as we walked into his house. Granny Smith had made some hot Daisy soup and curry dumplings, I was starving so I ended up eating two helpings. I sat with Big Mac in the living room as Granny Smith and Applejack were talking about what they had to do when spring came around. "Man, it's still snowing, I can't fly in this" I mainly said to myself. Big Mac smiled. "You know you could stay with me" Big Mac nuzzled against me, I smiled to him. "Sure, I'll stay with you tonight" I said nuzzling back. I followed Big Mac up to his room, I laid my back against the cool wall. I smiled once I felt the heat of Big Mac next to me, I snuggled with him as I nuzzled into his chest. I took a deep breath, Apples and sweat. I smiled against his chest, he rubbed my back as I started to slowly close my eyes. I had a really good dream, it was about Big Mac and I. We ended up getting married and having twin foals, and even though we ended up keeping the farm it was one of the best dreams I've ever had. My eyes slowly fluttered open, Big Mac was still in bed with me. I smiled as I nuzzled against his chest, I looked out his window at all the snow outside. "Great my house is going to be freezing" I said to myself. I slowly got out of Big Mac's bed and made my way downstairs. Granny Smith and Applejack smiled at me. "Do you want some breakfast sugarcube" Applejack smiled at me. I nodded as she brought me some hay and daisy cakes, after I was done eating I waved goodbye to Granny Smith. Applejack followed me outside. "So do you think you are going to be with my brother?" she asked. I nodded, smiling at her, she smiled back. "Will you tell him I'll come see him after I do some errands?" I asked. Applejack nodded, I smiled and took to the sky. I had a lot to do today, now that I was back to my normal self I was going to take a nice long fly and relax at my cloud house. I smiled to myself as I felt the cold air in my wings and mane, I couldn't help but shiver from the cold. It was going to be a really good day, I could feel it.
...and you let her goChapter 6 ...and you let her go 'Well you need the light when it's burning low' 'Only miss the sun when it starts to snow' 'Only know you love her when you let her go' 'Only know you've been high when you're feeling low' 'Only hate the road when you missin' home' 'Only know you love her when you let her go' 'And you let her go' ' You stupid fucking idiot, how could you just treat her like shit? And now she is over you and with that hick Big Mac' Dumbbell thought to himself as he lay on his couch in his dark apartment, he wondered how she could have gotten over him so quickly. He sighed as he rolled over and looked out the window, ' another gloomy fucking day' he thought to himself again as he got up and got something to eat. As he ate all he could think about was how happy Rainbow Dash looked without him, he felt the sting of tears prick at his eyes. ' Stupid Rainbow Dash' he said to himself as he scrubbed at his eyes. Dumbbell looked at Cloudchaser as she snored away in his bed, ' God, I really am stupid' Dumbbell thought as he stared at Cloudchaser. He shook his head and put on his uniform and got ready to work with the weather team for the day, he closed his door and took flight. He hoped that Rainbow Dash wasn't going to be at work, he looked behind him at Hoops and Score, they knew why he was in this mood. Dumbbell flew quietly and looked around to make sure Rainbow Dash wasn't around, he relaxed a little when he didn't see her. He landed by the weather factory and made his way to his bosses office to see what he had to do. After the storm, he was supposed to clear clouds, he walked with Hoops and Score who would be helping him. "Hey man, how are you doing today?" Hoops asked. Dumbbell looked at him, then back at the floor. "I'm not doing too well, I just have a lot on my mind today," he said as they wandered around the factory. (Rainbow Dash's POV) I opened my eyes, it was gloomy today. I was in a good mood today. I smiled to myself as I got up and made my bed, I flew out the window to get for a quick fly. The cool air felt amazing flowing through my mane, it had a brisk feeling to it. It woke me up, I appreciated a day like this. I stopped by Fluttershy's I wanted some of that tea she made, I knocked on her door. She opened the door, she saw me and her eyes lit up. "Oh Dashie! I'm so glad that you came over. Do you want some of that Rose hip tea?" she asked. I nodded as I walked by her. I sat down onto her fluffy couch, I snuggled into the couch. I heard Fluttershy making the tea, I watched as some of the animals fluttered around, sleeping, and snuggling with each other. I saw Fluttershy coming over to me handing me a mug full of tea, I took a drink. Smiling as the warm liquid ran down my throat. "So Dashie what are your plans for today?" she asked. "Well, I didn't have much planned for today, I took a fly and came to see you. Other than that I had plans to see Twilight today" I smiled. Fluttershy nodded as she took another sip of tea. I sat there looking out the window, I could see it was starting to rain. "Great it's raining" I said, smiling. "I guess it could be worse. It could be raining harder than this" Fluttershy smiled. I just nodded. Fluttershy got up and turned on her stereo, I smiled when I heard the song. It was definitely one of my favorites. Fluttershy and I started dancing around, Angel was even into the music. I heard a loud clap of thunder, I jumped a little. Fluttershy and I started laughing. "Well Fluttershy I better head over to Twilight's library," I smiled at my best friend. I decided to walk, the rain was getting harder, I didn't want to hurt my wings. After about half an hour I finally made it to Twilights Library. I knock on the door. Spike opens the door. "Rainbow Dash, come in. I'm making my Daisy drop soup" Spike smiled. I just nodded. Twilight smiled when she saw me. "Hey, you," she smiled. She handed me a cup of cinnamon tea, I smiled as I took a sip. I closed my eyes as the warm liquid warmed me up. I sat at the table and watched as Spike was finishing his soup up, I sipped at my tea. "So Rainbow Dash what did you plan for today?'' Twilight asked as she sat at the table with me. I just smiled. "Well, I already went to see Fluttershy, then it started raining. So I hurried over here to see you. Other than that I have nothing else planned" I said, sipping on my tea. Twilight smiled as she poured herself some more tea. "Nice well you can hang out with us for a while" Twilight smiled. I just nodded. Spike finished his soup and started pouring it into huge bowls, I was so looking forward to this soup. It was one of my favorites, Spike gave me my bowl and I started to dig in. I took my time and savored every spoonful. I closed my eyes, Spike's soup was amazing. It was always so warm and always tasted amazing. As I finished my soup, I sat back. "Man, I suppose I should start heading home," I said to Twilight. She smiled and took my bowl, she put it in the sink for Spike to wash, I waved goodbye as I flew out of the window. It was starting to get colder, I shivered as I flew through the cloudy sky. My cloud house was in view, I smiled to myself once I landed on the front steps. I walked into my house, it was freezing in here! I walked over to my fireplace and started a nice warm fire, I grabbed my blanket and curled up to watch a Daring Do movie. I started to drift off to sleep. *(Dumbbell's POV)* I sighed to myself as I walked through the door, today had been one of the worst days of my life. 'Stupid clouds' I thought to myself. I flopped down on my couch, I looked around my dark empty apartment. I was expecting to see Cloudchaser just hanging around, maybe she got the hint I didn't want her here anymore. I grabbed a blanket and curled up, I was starting to feel alone. I wonder if this is how Rainbow Dash felt when I left her, I could feel tears pricking at the corner of my eyes. I didn't know what to do with my life anymore, I was unhappy. Rainbow Dash was happy, I was alone. Rainbow Dash had Big Mac, I felt tears falling down my face. I wanted her back, but I knew I'd never have her in my life again. I let the warm tears fall, I just laid there. Letting it all out, maybe I would feel better if I did? Who knows, I slowly started to close my eyes. *(Rainbow Dash's POV)* I woke up to someone yelling from the ground below, I sighed and got up. I stretched out my wings and let out a loud yawn. I opened the front door to see Big Mac. "There you are Rainbow" he smiled up at me, I smirked at him. "Of course I'm here what are you doing Big Red?" I asked as I fluttered to the ground. He smiled at me, I wondered what he was thinking. "Rainbow Dash I was wondering, would you like to be my girlfriend?" he asked, my eyes widened. I nodded happily. He hugged me tightly, I sighed as I hugged back. I was finally with Big Mac somepony I should have been with from the very beginning. "I'm going to make this last forever Big Red, I've always loved you. I should have picked you in the beginning" I said kissing him. He smiled at me. "What?" I asked smiling back. "I'm glad you finally realized I've been in front of you your whole life" he said. "Awe you big cheeseball" I said as I ruffled his dirty blond hair. He blushed and looked down at the ground, I lifted his head with my hoof. I kissed his cheek and we started walking towards the farm, I have a feeling Big Mac and I will last for years. I am finally happy, I can't believe I didn't pick him from the start. He's the perfect Stallion for me, I'm wild he's shy. I'm proud and he's simple. He brings the mare out of me more. I'm glad that he isn't so shy to share his feelings with me, he also has a more playful side because of me and he's all mine. I smiled at him as I nuzzled against him. This was just the beginning of our life, I can't wait to see what is to come.
