History Hurts

by Fluttercord4ever1

Rating: mature
Tags: Discord, Gore, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Dark, Sad, Romance, Princess Luna, Rainbow Dash, Rarity, Tragedy, Fluttershy, Sex
Length: 2735

Fluttershy is having a dream-no not a dream, a memory. She grows depressed and Discord is the only one to make her snap out of this depression.

Fluttershy doesn't know what to do about this dream and falls into deep depression Rarity and Rainbow Dash see this and try to help out but when they get the help of the Lord of Chaos, Fluttershy opens up to a dark past. But during all of this Fluttershy also opens up to her own darkness.

Published 2015-02-28 05:00:02 UTC
Last updated 2015-03-01 03:01:43 UTC

Chapter One-Dreams

She was dead.

Her lifeless corpse was beside me as I watched the house burn, it's hard to think just this morning we had been laughing and enjoying each others company but now everything went wrong.

I remember screams but I didn't pay attention to them, I just sat there on the ground, I wasn't crying, I was too shocked to cry. I looked down at my mother, she was once smiling and laughing, now she had blood all over her with a tear-stained face, with no pulse or beating heart.

I didn't want it to be true, the only one who ever loved and cared for me was now dead. And I couldn't do anything about it. After all I was only 18, what could I do? Sure, I could go get help but I couldn't walk or stand, I was cut all over my legs and I was pretty sure my right hoof was broken. But I didn't want to leave my mom alone.

I remember fainting because of blood loss, but there was these ponies who were dressed in white coats, they picked up my mother's lifeless body and took her away. I wanted to scream and protest but my eyes were getting heavy and as I was closing my eyes I remember someone whispered into my ear,

"Don't worry, everything will be okay..."

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Fluttershy awoke with a start, the dream she had just experienced left her with tears in her eyes and a wet pillow case from the wetness that came from her eyes. She sighed as she wiped away the tears, she looked over at the alarm clock that was beeping loudly, she groaned as she turned it off. Fluttershy was getting out of bed as she looked at the window, it was dark and dull outside due to the snow storms that were happening lately. Usually she would already be awake by her little furry friends that were hungry and wanted their master to get up and feed them but not today, they were hibernating and Fluttershy was left with an empty house.

Fluttershy walked downstairs, the only noise was coming from her hooves as she walked but other than that, there was complete silence. But as she began to make tea she remembered the dream once more.

It had been going on for a week now but at first Fluttershy thought nothing of it, but now she was growing worried about it. Due to these dreams she had been more quiet than usual and she hadn't been taking care of her own needs as like feeding herself. Fluttershy remembered everything, it wasn't just a dream, it was a memory. She never told any pony this dream, even after these 6 years, she chose to keep it hidden. For a moment she felt sorry for herself.

'Oh stop it Fluttershy! Now is not the time to be selfish!' She thought to herself.

When she was finished with her tea she decided to have a warm bath, she just wanted some relaxation to get her mind off of the dream.

She thought of the battles she and her friends had. She smiled at these memory knowing that their friendship will never expire. But that smile quickly faded as she remembered her last battle, she had thought he was her friend but he betrayed her, she had forgiven Discord but couldn't get a thought out of her head. Was she really not that important to him? Not only did he betray her but put pony kind at risk, without earth ponies the earth wouldn't grow, and there would be no rain from the pegasus, it could've killed her.

But she shouldn't think of it now, it was fixed and it was in the past. Fluttershy thought it was a good time to get out of the tub so she drained the tub and slowly got out. From the steam the mirror got foggy so Fluttershy used her hoof to wipe away some of the fog, but as she did the mirror showed what she looked like, she had bags under her eyes and she looked exhausted. She stared at her reflection and slowly started to cry. She didn't know why, maybe because of the dream or the the fact that she was helpless and weak-

"No! I shouldn't think that! Look at what this dream is doing to you Fluttershy!" She told herself.

She felt lonely, more lonely than the time her mother died. She needed to be with some pony, she needed company. No not a pony...but another creature.

Author's Note

So yeah this is what I thought of. I was trying to sleep but than this idea came to mind and I had to write it before I forgot about it in the morning.

Chapter Two-Unsuspected visit

Discord was in his thinking tree.

He was wondering how everything got like this, first he made friends, well a friend. Then he betrayed them, then he was forgiven...again. He didn't know why the ponies forgave him but he didn't question it, he was thankful. But while he was thinking this a new thought came to mind,

'I haven't seen Fluttershy since the incident.' He thought to himself.

He had denied the feelings he had for her a long time ago but they just keep on coming back. He can't get rid of them, every time he would see a butterfly he would always think of Fluttershy. But even though they are the best of friends and they are pen pals, he hasn't seen her or gotten a letter from her.

'Maybe she still doesn't forgive me-no she said she did! Well maybe she found out on my feelings and this is the way she tries to say no?' He thought.

At the thought of this Discord's face darkened, but why should he feel this way? He didn't know for sure. From this his face brightened just a little.

Discord was growing bored so he made a bunny into a chocolate covered one, it screamed and ran off as Discord's laughter grew louder each second, but that laughter stopped when he heard a familiar voice call to him.

"Discord...?"

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Fluttershy knew where Discord's house was but never really visited. The house was in the Ever Free Forest. Sure she was scared but she needed to see him, but she didn't know where this bravery came from.

As she walked the pathway she noticed all the different plants and herbs, 'they're really beautiful!' She thought. She began to smile, but she hadn't really smiled like this in a week. For once this week she felt peaceful. But the pathway ended and she arrived at Discord's house, well it isn't really a house, it has a force field around it and it's invisible, but she was really the only one to be allowed in. If you aren't allowed in well... Fluttershy couldn't think of the things that could happen.

But she knew he only used his invisible house to take cover from storms or to sleep. Fluttershy knew where he was usually, his thinking tree. She walked to it and sure enough Discord was sprawled out on a branch, he looked very focused.

Fluttershy watched as Discord's face darken at a thought she did not know of, but then watched as it brightened somewhat. She felt kinda awkward just standing there watching him so she began to speak.

"Discord...?" She called out.

Discord turned his head to she the pony he was just thinking about.

As he smiled he said, "My dear! What brings you here? Oh I rhymed!" Discord said excited at the last part.

Fluttershy smiled at this and continued, "Well I felt like I needed to see you."

"Well ain't that sweet?" Discord said in a country voice.

Fluttershy giggled at this, she never could figure out why Discord could always make her smile. He just had that affect on her.

"Discord? Do you ever feel useless?" Fluttershy said in a serious tone as she walked to the trunk of the tree and sat down, "Like you feel like you disappoint every pony?" She continued looking up at Discord as he looked down at her from his branch.

He teleported down and and sat next to her.

"Yes my dear Fluttershy, I have." He said almost in a whisper.

Fluttershy now had tears in her eyes. Discord didn't know what made him do it but be put his talon to her cheek and used his paw to wipe away her tears. Fluttershy was surprised at his gentle touch but thought nothing of it, she simply sighed and rested her head against his talon.

"Why do you ask?" He finally asked her, he slipped away and put his back against the tree trunk.

"I don't know..." She lied.

Discord knew when she lied, before she told a lie her hooves would twitch and she would blink five times. When he saw her do this he didn't ask why she was lying, he presumed that she had her reasons and that he shouldn't push her to do something she wasn't comfortable doing.

Fluttershy looked up at Discord and started sobbing, she didn't know why. She was just emotional right now and needed to tell some pony, even though she wanted to tell Discord she decided to tell Rainbow Dash first, for she knew what happened too.

Discord was shocked, he didn't know what to do when a mare cried. So he simply patted her head awkwardly.

"I'm s-sorry D-discord, I-I need to g-go." Fluttershy finally said as she started to run away.

Discord was more than confused but he was more concerned than confused. But he knew she must've had her reasons and shook off the feeling of sadness of seeing his beloved cry. So he left her alone.

But deep down he knew something was happening. Something Dark.

Chapter Three-Rainbow Dash

Fluttershy flew as fast as her wings could go.

She needed to get to Rainbow Dash's house, and fast. She was afraid if she waited too long she would collapse and sob. But no she needed to be strong, it was probably nothing and the dream is just a phase. But why did she have a feeling in her stomach that told her to keeping on flying and never turn back. The feeling was getting stronger but now her face was darkening by the second, this thing, this feeling, was making her think.

'Why should I be going through this?! I've never been anything but kind to every pony! And for ponies to treat me like I'm worthless even tough I go through all these things it's just-' she thought.

She groaned in frustration and finally landed at Rainbow Dash's cloud.

All the feelings were now replaced with sadness.

She raised her hoof and knocked on the cloud door. It was a soft knock but to her it was loud and it felt like a drum was banging in her head as she knocked. The door opened to a annoyed looking Rainbow Dash but the annoyance was replaced with a bright smile.

"Hey Flutters! What's up- uh Fluttershy are you okay?" She asked with concern.

"Uh um yeah! I'm perfectly fine!" She lied, "But I do need to t-tell you something..." She continued.

Rainbow backed up to let Fluttershy in, but Rainbow had a curious look on her face.

"So uh what do you need to talk about?" Rainbow Dash asked as Fluttershy and her sat down on opposite sides of the couch.

Fluttershy looked at Rainbow nervously, she didn't know where to start.

"Well, do you remember the-" she gulped "t-the f-fire?" She finally said.

"Of course, how could I forget?" Rainbow Dash said looking at Fluttershy with a sad smile.

"I'm sorry you had to go through that... You-you used to be a great and fast flyer, then that fire... It destroyed you. I remember you waking up at the hospital and the doctor saying that you clipped you wing. Is this what this whole thing is about-" rainbow Dash said but was interrupted by an angry Fluttershy.

"NO! WHY WOULD I BE CRYING TO YOU ABOUT THAT?! MY WING IS CLIPPED AND I'VE ACCEPTED IT A LONG TIME AGO!" Fluttershy snapped as she began to sob.

"Woah Flutters! I'm sorry! What's wrong?!" Rainbow Dash asked slowly looking for a place to hid if Fluttershy went into rage.

"I never told you this but...during that fire my m-mom...d-died." Fluttershy stuttered. She slowly began to sob into her delicate hooves.

"B-but Fluttershy, you told me you never had a mom..." Rainbow Dash spoke in a whisper.

"Well, every pony else has a mother and what do I have?! Nothing! That's what! My father didn't even love my or my mom enough to stay!" She snapped. She was filled with rage and sadness. She didn't know what to do with her hooves so she roughly put them into her mane and sobbed enough more loud.

"I'm so sorry..." Rainbow Dash said. She suddenly felt guilty, she always had a father that loved her and cared for her mother. Her mother was always out of town but would come back home at the end of each day to shower her with love. She felt horrible that she always had been rubbing it into Fluttershy's face whenever she would tell her about family reunions.

Fluttershy saw the guilt in Rainbow Dash's eyes and suddenly felt guilty herself, she had snapped and yelled at her best friend. Rainbow didn't deserve this. But then Fluttershy suddenly realized something.

'Rainbow Dash had everything as a child, even now she still does! She deserves every last bit of this!' Fluttershy thought to herself, her face was growing darker and more rage was put on her face.

"I don't want your pity..." Fluttershy said in a disgusted tone. She got up from the couch suddenly feeling stupid for coming here. She headed to the door not looking back. She opened the door and left.

Rainbow Dash had tears in her eyes. Did she just lose a friend? No! Fluttershy is just going through a phase she shouldn't be worried about anything! Fluttershy would be okay by the end of the week. She had nothing to be worried about, or did she?

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Fluttershy was now walking back to her cottage, it was dark out and Fluttershy was growing tired suddenly feeling the exhaustion from her fly. She was feeling rage and sadness, did she just yell at her best friend? Even though she was the one to go over there, she still yelled at her innocent friend. But then the rage came back, but she rubbed her 'little happy family' in her face for so long, she deserved it! Fluttershy didn't know what to think anymore, she never really yelled at any pony, she just wanted to talk to some pony that understood her. But she wished she could undo everything that she said in her conversation with Rainbow Dash. Fluttershy remembered the look of sympathy on Rainbow Dash's face, and she yelled at her for doing so. She felt horrible and just wanted to go to sleep, she was growing suddenly very grumpy.

"Fluttershy...?" A familiar voice called out to Fluttershy.

Fluttershy turned around to a smiling Rarity.

"Oh hello Rarity." Fluttershy said in a tired voice.

"Oh darling you look exhausted! Come here, come here dear! It is a long walk to your cottage, how bout you spend the night her?" Rarity asked with a smile.

Fluttershy was grateful that she didn't have to walk all the way home, it was cold outside since it was winter but she was also grateful that she didn't have to be alone tonight.

"Thank you Rarity." Fluttershy said automatically when Rarity asked her question.

Rarity smiled a 'Your Welcome' smile and invited Fluttershy into her house.

"Let me bring you some tea. Just make yourself at home!" Rarity offered.

"Oh no that's fine Rarity, I just want to sleep." Fluttershy quickly said just wanting to rest.

"Of course! Let me show you to your room." Rarity said leading Fluttershy to the guest room.

Fluttershy entered the room and said her thank you again to Rarity. Once she was alone in the room she collapsed onto the bed and fell asleep.