To love and to be loved

by rebelragemode

Rating: everyone
Tags: Slice of Life, Human, Romance
Length: 1498

It is easy to love someone, and to have them love you back may be near impossible, but still possible.

Adagio Dazzle, her name could spark an hour long conversation. She's known for being part of the Dazzlings and trying to take over the school. Many people still believe that she's evil, constantly angry, but what she really is, is alone and all she wants is someone to understand her, but like she said "Who would want to help or understand a monster like me."
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This is my first fanfic, so if anyone has any critiques or believe that I should change something, then please let me know because i want this to be the best fanfic it can possibly be.

From: RebelRageMode

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2015-03-17 05:06:10 UTC

Chapter One: A meeting with the moon

"...And that's about all I can remember,"  mumbled Adagio.

Adagio had been having dreams like this for almost a month now where she would be hear voices say certain words constantly, she believed that they would eventually either weaken or just go away, But that never seemed to happen. instead her dreams became worse as time went on. They now were more terrifying and causing her to not want to sleep.

Soon after Adagio finished describing her dream, Luna began to write down what Adagio had just told her.

Even though Luna was the vice principal of Canterlot high, she still felt that she should help the students of Canterlot high with issues they may  have going on. Principal Celestia suggested that she became a counselor for the students due to the fact that she already was the go to person in the school for such matters, but Celestia also knew that Luna had a knack for helping the students, especially with dream related issues.

After a couple minutes of writing, Luna took her pen away from her page and looked up at the girl sitting across from her.

"Well Miss Dazzle," said Luna, as she began to rest back in her office chair, "your dreams are definitely trying to tell you something but what they are trying to tell you is yet unclear," she sat up again and gave a sigh, "but i do believe that these dreams are coming partly because of your past and the fact that you are having troubles letting go of it."

Adagio watched as Luna's expression changed to a more questioning and curious look.

"have you experienced any of the these feelings that you mentioned recently?"

Adagio thought for a moment before answering this question, she thought that she should lie so that she could finish this session with Luna, but she knew that wasn't going to solve any of the emotional problem she was having, she also knew that she couldn't keep bottling up her emotions any longer.

"Actually," said Adagio, "I have. My sisters, Sonata and Aria, decided to move out on me after what happened at the battle of the bands," Adagio paused for a moment, "and soon after they moved, things between us, they... well... began to change."

"Change?" questioned Luna, "what do mean by change?"

"Well they changed, they started to hangout with different people and they started to..."

"Forget about you." said Luna, almost predicting what the girl was going to say.

Adagio sighed, looking down at her spiked purple boots. "Yes."

"I see." Luna put her pen to the paper, looked down, and began to write again. After a minute or so she stopped, looked back at Adagio and continued to speak, "So after they moved away, did you begin to feel depressed in anyway?

"No," she said, her voiced sounding regretful, "I was more angry than anything at the time, they moved out without any warning or notice, and the fact that they left me so they could be with "someone better"didn't  exactly help either," she let a huff of air out before continuing "I didn't begin to start feeling depressed till after we got into this fight at the mall."

"Oh?" said Luna in curiosity, "and what were you girls fighting about exactly?"

"Well, you see we-" Adagio was cut off by the loud buzzing coming from the timer on Luna's desk.

Luna quickly picked the timer up from off her desk and began to reset it.

"My apologizes Miss Dazzle, but it does seem we have run out of time, would like to continue on with our discussion?

"o-ok ... s-sure," she said hesitantly, "when do you have another opening?"

Luna grabbed a binder from off the table next to her. She opened it and began to flip through a couple of pages, "Well I have some time for you in about three days from now, is that ok?

Adagio looked up, giving a faint, fake smile before answering, "Yea... that's sounds fine."

"excellent," giving Adagio a smile back before writing down the appointment.

Adagio was just beginning to stand up and put her book bag over her shoulder when she heard Luna say something to her.

"Adagio,"she said, "i know I'm not suppose to do this and this may sound like a much, but there is another student who goes here, and she had very similar problems to yours in the past, and i was wondering if you'd consider letting her join us in our next discussion to maybe help you see another persons perspective on the matter."

Adagio discouraged the idea herself, but she told Luna that she would consider the idea. With some final farewells, Adagio began to walk back to her class. On the way to her class she began to think to herself about what she just discussed and she kept thinking about what Luna had asked her. She thought about who could possibly have the same problems as her, but she quickly stopped herself after she told her self, "why would there be anyone who has the same problem as you? No one else tried to take over the school in a attempt to become adored, and besides, who would be willing to help..." She hesitated to finish herself.

She sighed and whispered the rest to herself, "Such a monster..." she sighed again "...A monster like me.

Prologue

Love, the word rang through her mind as if it had a hidden meaning behind the visions of her dreams. She was sitting in what looked like the auditorium of a high school, it was dimly lighten and was much larger than she remembered. The room it's self felt almost lifeless, like it hadn't been touched in months. Besides the one she was sitting on, all of the chairs were all either folded up or were scattered across the floor, along with a few folding tables, broken speakers, and some garbage, but beyond that there were no signs that anyone had in or out of this building recently.

Her dream stayed like this for what felt like hours, just her sitting and listening to the word bounce around around her mind, as if it was the one piece that would help her understand why she was dreaming of this place, why she was here, and why she felt so connected to this place.

Her train of thought was quickly changed as she realized that she no longer was hearing the word "love".it was now replaced with, alone, useless, unwanted, and hated, and the voice that was saying these words was no longer her own, it was now much louder and much more angrier. As the voice continued to say the words, she started to become scared of the voice, she felt the anger behind each and every word that the voice said, and she began to feel the pain of the words, she felt sharpness of each word scratch in her mind, she felt the words gripping at her emotions, cutting off all feelings to every emotion, except for regret, fear and sadness.

she could no longer take the pan of the voice, she quickly cupped her ears tightly with her hands, clenched her eyes shut and lowered her head, almost as if she was trying to rest it on her lap.

"Pl-please... just go away..." she said, with tears now beginning stream down her face.

The voice did not listen to her pleads, instead it continued to grow in volume and it became more angrier with every plead she made almost as if it was offended by her pleads for it to stop. In desperation she began to yell her pleads.

"just go away!" she said, now yelling over top the voice, "I know what I did, what we did was wrong, but all we wanted was to was some attention, some adoration, to no longer be-."

"Alone," said the voice, almost as if to finish her sentence, "I know what you wanted, i know how badly you wanted to be wanted in this world my dear, truly I do but...,"

The voice paused for a moment, and just as it did, her throat tighten as if the voice it self had it's hand wrapped around it. She began running her hands over her trying to feel for the hands that now felt like vice grips closing around her neck, but to her surprise, she felt nothing around her neck, not even her pendant.

As the unknown force continued to choke her, she began to fade in and out of the dreams reality, and the words of the voice began to fade in and out as well, but just before she went she went completely unconscious, she heard the voice say one final thing.

"you will never be accepted, and you'll always be alone, because no one can ever love a monster."

And with those final words, her dream ended.