She Won't Wake Up

Ponies are dropping dead everywhere. One day they would be perfectly fine, the next they would be... gone. I don't know how its happening! It just doesn't make any sense. I'm trying to find out what kind of disease it is by recording everything I can in my journals, but now they've just become something to help keep me sane. Like, my old diary I had as a filly.

Rainbow Dash got sick yesterday. Nobody really knew what had happened when the sky wasn't cleared the next day, but they had their suspicions. Which of course were confirmed when Rainbow's body was found by Fluttershy trying to cheer her up with some homemade cookies. I actually haven't seen Fluttershy in a while... I hope she's alright. Finding Rainbow just got her so worked up.

Ugh, everything is just terrible. Pinkie Pie died last week, and- great! Now I'm getting the paper wet! If you're reading this, sorry about that. I just really miss her and all... so many ponies are just spent! Global trade has almost entirely stopped, and food and supplies are quite scarce. Why, I couldn't even find a pencil to write this entry with!

The one thing thing just don't understand though-the one thing science just can't explain- is why do we deserve this? For Celestia's sake, what did we ever do to deserve this?

Equestria was a beautiful land full of magic and friendship. Now, the closest thing I see to friendship is the occasional sharing of food. No more laughter, no more cheer. Pinkie Pie being gone really doesn't help- but I can't keep dwelling over that. If I don't figure this out, everypony might die, and then what? Celestia and Luna are counting on me to fix this, and I can't let them down. They haven't caught the disease yet, but who says they can't? They're protected from regular viruses, but this one is so advanced who knows what could happen?

And, there is the possibility of myself getting sick. Why, I haven't gone outside since two weeks ago! Spike gets the newspaper, and the food rations from Sugarcube Corner, but... I have to stop thinking about Pinkie! She's in a better place now- I hope.

I'm running out of ink. The next shipment isn't till next month, and I even get it earlier than everypony else because of my research. I just hope that everything will turn out alright, in the end. And, I just feel so selfish. Making Spike go out there everyday, with no way of knowing he will be safe. I make sure he takes every precaution he can- not touching or talking to anypony except those he needs to, and disinfecting him every time he comes home. He even wears a face mask!

One time, he got a cut so I wouldn't let him go out until it healed. I had to go then, and the world looked exhausted. Just completely colorless.

I have to go to bed. Until next time,

Twilight Sparkle