Spilled

I was always called "The Shy one". No one really knows why I'm so shy. Probably because I never told anyone my past. I used to live in Manehatten before I moved to Cloudsdale, born there actually. Life there was...well...not so good. My father, who used to be the greatest thing ever in my world, turned abusive when I was around 4-years old with no good reason. I don't really want to go into many details about it, but from what I remember, they were bad. He left us when I turned 5, with just me and my mother. Life was just as hard since she didn't have a job at the time. Luckily, after the divorce, we had enough money to move out and get a new start.

We lived in Manehatten for a few months before we moved to Cloudsdale. Things were much better there without my father, but that doesn't mean everything was. Since my mother obviously had to work, I had to be babysat. It was pretty bad. The babysitter was just as abusive as my father, just not as aggressive. Things finally got better when I turned 8 when my mother said I was old enough to stay home alone. That's when I met Rainbow Dash at Flight Camp. After the whole fiasco with the bullies and the Sonic Rainboom, she flew down to the ground where I fell before I was saved by the butterflies. She sat beside me as I was watching the animals frolic and dance around in the fields, and introduced herself to me and I did the same with her. We talked for a while, mostly about the Sonic Rainboom. Then she asked me curiously, "Why do you seem so shy?". I told her I was afraid to tell her or anypony. But she reassured me, and even promised me, that she wouldn't tell anypony else. It took a bit of courage, but I finally spilled the beans and told her about my past. I then noticed a tear slowly streaming down her face. She told me that she had issues with her parents in the past as well, but not as harsh as mine. She felt really bad for me, poor thing. She hugged me tight and told me, once again, that she wouldn't tell anybody about my past life. She has kept that promise ever since.

I live in Ponyville now and have ever since. I've made many friends and lived a pretty good life. Not perfect, but good. The memories of my past are still fresh in my head though, and though it still shows at times, no one still knows the real reason why I'm so shy and quiet. Though I've always been shy, there were times where I had to be more assertive with situations. Once with a Cockatrice, another with a Dragon. With some Breezies, and even Twilight one time. Though I was assertive, I was still the yellow shy animal loving pony everyone knew and loved.

Until one day. The day I will never forget. The memories are still scarred inside my head. I had to be more assertive then ever. I felt like a monster. More of a monster than what Iron Will made me. In the end, the only question I have to ask is...

Was it worth it?

My name is Fluttershy...

...and this is my story.