I have to remember that this journal thing is important.

Where was I? Oh yeah now I remember, the things I sacrificed to come here to work...

I've gone over this but not in detail, in professional standards I'm a writer and somewhat of a techhead. I said a bit simply because I can't build something that complex, but I can fix things in a pinch. Before I was Celestia's assistant, I was a writer, with exactly two books published, three books I helped write and a bunch I had the pleasure to edit. But the real world hit my dream to create stories that ponies can enjoy like a bucking meteor.

It was hard starting out at first, but it didn't get any better later on, I barely got by with my short stories and editing job. I had to take jobs left a right to keep myself fed. I got lucky with a place to live, for a while I lived with a old friend of mine Xhisrc in Ponyville. I didn't get out much though, and when I did I was working odd jobs. I refused to let Xhisrc feed me, that would have killed my pride.

But as hard as it was...I loved my job. It was fun to write, I met other writers and editors along the way and made lots of friends. I actually inspired one pony to begin writing stories, that made my entire year, never met a fan before so that was new.

But hard times and love of writing aside, when Celestia herself came to Xhisrc's door, that was the strangest day of my life. The face she had that day and the words she said are still burned into my cranium.

'BlueSky, third son of HonorBound, I-'

At that point I realized she was on the verge of tears.

'Your father HonorBound has...he has...your father...your kind, brave...strong father...'

Then I realized I was crying, we both had the same look on our face.

'D-died...pr-protecting me...h-he saved my life...and all I did was scream and cry...'

She probably expected me to outright blame her, hell, she blames herself, every chance she gets. But all I did was stare and cry, in silence.

'I must be honest with you...' Too late for that. 'Everyone planned to ease into telling you...but your mother told me that you deserve to be told straight. Your father protected me from a assassin, a unicorn using dark magic...'

She walked inside without needing to ask, I had already stepped aside. We sat on Xhisrc's carpet and I listened, it sounded like a confession at some point.

'We were in the middle of court when I felt something off with one of the nobles, and before I could speak out, he jumped on the table and shot what I can assume was a spell that was meant to end my life...but your father was faster than my thoughts...he always was faster on his hooves than most...'

Normally ponies ask why, or did you catch the culprit...but I asked if he died in pain...she broke down right in front of me, yelling at me. Screaming that my father shouted...screeching in pain, in terrible agony, and all she could do was stare, cry and beg him to be alright. He was in pain, burning, lethal pain but he asked Celestia to tell me what happened personally.

I began asking her questions, I ask what the spell did, she choked on her words but told me it was a decaying spell meant to cause suffering beyond measure before death. I asked if she knew the unicorn, she only sobbed and shook her head 'no'. I asked if he suffered for long before death took him, she began to cry even more...I thought then I was just sad, but I may have hated her for a time. I wanted her to feel pain...I hated myself after she looked at me.

I still do sometimes, she didn't deserve that. But we ended up crying together for what felt like years, I went back to Canterlot with her and nearly every guard I saw looked like they had cried. I found out later my dad was nosy and a busypony who wanted to help everypony, I figured thats how he would be.

The funeral killed my eyes, crying for hours, being hugged by ponies I knew only as distant cousins, by other guards that my father touched. By Lulu, by BlueBlood, yes that pain in the flank...he never looked so terrible. I received kind words from crying nobles and it was the first time I truly met Twilight Sparkle and her friends. Twilight had lent me books to help inspire me, but now she had her hooves wrapped around my neck crying, she's so kind. Her friends were more reluctant, I hardly knew any of them, save Pinkie, Spike and RainbowDash, same flight school and such.

Diane was a mess, her eyes red, her mane was flat and with barely any color, her husband was beside her trying to cheer her up, I feel bad that I didn't know his name. Spike was taking it better than most, he was crying sure but he laid a claw on my shoulder, he was only just taller than me on all fours. He told me that death wasn't the end, he'd always be with me, he was much more mature than I gave him credit for. Rainbow...poor Rainbow, she knew my dad and buck was it hard on us both, we joked about the times we would drive him crazy as foals...then the tears came back. I think we spent the most time crying together, aside from my family.

My family...my mom, my sister, my brothers...they all came looking for me immediately and was sat together and talked. My mother was in pieces, my brother held her in place and my little sister, DreamCatcher stayed by my side all day.

......I had a point I was getting to...I'll just keep going...

A week after the funeral Celestia came to me with Lulu and some guards, asking for my presence at Canterlot castle. It was there she told me that my brothers declined my father's job as her assistant. My oldest brother, AmberPrism, had to run his animal shelter and my other brother, JazzRythme, had his music and family to consider, so she thought she'd at least ask. She still had red in her eyes when I took the job, I thought that I worked the same job, I could close the hole in my heart.

It took two months for Celestia to meet my eyes, nearly five to smile at me, Lulu was just as bad, but she met my eyes since the day I got there. Like she had to, like it was her duty, I snapped her out of that in about a few months.

Wrapping up, my job as a writer was important but...I got a chance to see my father's job...I gave up writing professionally to do what I do now. I love my job and thank Celestia that I'm able to do it, I've heard so much about my father since I started working here...I miss him...

I need to go get the dusk out of my eyes...till next time...

I'm glad I met Sky before he went to bed...he looked so distraught...so foreign...I thought back to when I met him. He was so sad then well, but he still tried to make me and sister smile. I spent so much time with him after he came to live at the castle. I was trying to make up for my inability to save HonorBound...but I realized how silly I was after spending so much time with him. He was so different from his father, sarcastic, animated, emotional and very philosophical, but he has a temper and can't see past his flaws. His father was insightful and nosy, he never gave himself time to regret anything he did, he always had a look of a veteran. Sky loves sweets and cold nights, opposite to his father who lived for spicy and hot days.

HonorBound was like a old soldier back from duty, while Sky is more like a childhood friend you can fight with. He's silly, easy to talk to, but when he is serious, Sky is supportive and a pillar of knowledge when the need arises. He's done a wonderful job becoming his father's successor and made his own identity.

But I never want Sky to look like that again, its too painful. I'm happy he talks to me about these things, but I feel like he wants to take to someother alicorn princess, one that control the sun.

If I said that out loud he might glare at me, I'll try it tomorrow.

Author's Note

Well this is gonna be a thing now, I hope the next one will be happier...

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