Maniacal Affection

A couple of weeks go by. Things slowly go back to normal, except Fluttershy. She would stay as her shy, quiet self, trying to get people to spend their time at the shelter. All the papers she handed out were thrown away or ignored. Until you stepped up. She ran into you and gave you a flier, persisting you to attend. You wanted to say no and tell her about this staged act, but that would lead into some trouble. Also, you actually felt doing something good for once, besides spending some time with a depressed nutcase. For most of the time, it was great. Seeing different species of dogs, cats, lizards, did interest you. Hardest part was the conversations with Fluttershy. Some seemed on topic, others…

”So Anon, what do you think about naming our child?” Were something like that, or other personal interests. ”I was thinking that if it’s a girl, we should name her Amber.” You scratch behind a Rottweiler’s ear.

”Anon?” The Rottweiler starts to lick your face.

“Yeah?” You say as the dog settles down.

”What do you think about it?” Fluttershy asks while you start to scratch his back.

“It sounds nice.”

”Are you even paying attention?”

You stop by the sound of her irritation and look at her. “Yes, I am.”

”Then how come we don’t talk that much?”

You let the Rottweiler run off to chew on his bone and approach her. “What is there to talk about? How much longer will you keep me in captivity? Will there be a time that I can be by myself? Will there be any more killings around for absolutely no purpose anymore? Is that want you want to talk about?”

The Border terrier in her arms whimpers. ”It’s all for a good purpose.”

You wait around if she will say anything else. “That’s it? That’s all you have to say about this?”

She pets the Border terrier while looking at you. ”If you must know, I did it for your safety.”

You scoff. “I was fine, until I was—“ You stop mid sentence and look around. This place is familiar. The smell and lighting that you are experiencing now rings a bell. “We were in here.”

”Pardon?”

“You raped me in here.”

”It wasn’t rape!” Fluttershy screams out.

“Then what was it!?” The animals in the shelter start to cause a ruckus.

”We should lower our tone. Some of them don’t like it when it’s loud.”

“You better tell me why you did it in here.”

She lets her dog go. ”I couldn’t use my home, so I let the animals go for some privacy.”

“But, how did you get them back?”

”It took me hours to search them.” Fluttershy sits on the counter. ”When I finally went home, my father hit me with his belt for arriving past my curfew.” She rubs her thigh a bit. ”Most of the birds left. Fortunately, others did come back. I did what I can to get every feline and canine I could see.”

“Wasn’t it dangerous?”

”Very, A hobo attacked me and… he’s in one of the city dumpsters.”

“Did he… is he?”

”Oh dear no, I grabbed a broken bottle while my pet distracted him by chewing on his pants.” You start to shake. ”I threatened him to stay away before he did anything else. Is something the matter?” You walk backwards but stop at a wall. She gets closer and pins you there. ”I’m not scaring you, am I?” You shake your head. ”That’s good. I was wondering about our time together.”

“What about it? We see each other every day, I volunteer here more than weekly, and don’t think that I haven't seen you in my bushes.” Fluttershy gives you some room.

”S-Sorry, I just thought that if you’re lonely at times. It seems like it’s much worse than I imagined.”

“Hey, I don’t judge on what or when you get off.”

”But Anon, that much in one day?”

“It’s not a problem when it’s still working.”

”That’s when you have me.”

“Oh no, not after the first time I did it with you.”

”What’s wrong? I understand it wasn't on a proper—“

“I was tied down and freezing, while you were using me like a mounted sucker. Does that sound enough?” Fluttershy rubs the toe of her boot on the ground.

”I won’t do it anymore. Unless if that’s your thing.”

“No!” You shout, causing some of the animals to bark for a bit.

”Okay. How about we do it once more?”

“Nope, I think I will settle for my hands, they are enough for a lifetime.”

”Not unless they’re stumps!” She barks out. ”I-I didn’t mean… I swear Anon, I would never hurt you.” You just stand there and look at her. ”Please, don’t think of me like that. I-I can be a good girlfriend. W-we never go out, and I really want to show you that I’m more than this.”

You think about this for a moment. If you go anywhere, people will suspect something is up. But if you don’t have some quality time with her… “My house.”

”A-are you sure? What about your parents?”

“They won’t mind. Also, they’ll go back to the hospital for my mom’s checkup.”

She smiles as if she won the lottery. ”I can’t wait for it to happen!”

“We’ll do it tomorrow. I’ll order some pizza and we can watch some movies.”

She runs up to suffocate you in a bear hug. “Never mind, I-I can wait a little longer.” You squirm around, trying to expand your lungs. ”I’m sorry! I’m sorry.” She releases you, allowing the air to flow in.

“It’s fine. Let’s just finish up today.”

You hang up the phone. Pizza should come by in half an hour.

”Hey son, are you ordering dinner for yourself?” You dad says while entering the room.

“I’m just having someone over for the night.”

”A friend of yours?” Your dad hits at you.

“She’s more than that.” Your dad smiles at your response and pats you on the shoulder.

”I see. Here, just in case if you two need to order something.” He pulls out a couple of tens. You count them, making it over ninety dollars for you.

“Thanks dad.” You put them right beside the money he gave you a few weeks ago. There isn’t much you can order, since you’re already happy with what’s around you. Rapid footsteps can be heard coming from down the hallway.

”I don’t want to be late, so let’s get a move on!” She gives you a quick kiss on the forehead before heading for the door. ”Stay safe, son.” Your parents rush out the front door and for the truck parked at the curb. Dad winks at you before heading out of the front door. You look outside to see your dad’s truck start up and drive away.

Everything is clean and tidy for your date. It’s so weird to call it that. You need to, since, that’s what it actually is. Now you’re forcing yourself into this? You can hear someone knocking at the door.

Open it up to see Fluttershy in a very nice, but slightly stained dress. ”I-Is it too much? Should I go home and change?”

“No, it’s fine. Come on in.” Even if it’s small, it looks like mud to you.

”I only saw one car outside, what happened to the other one?”

“My mom’s car is at the repair shop getting the muffler fixed. What’s up with the stains?”

”Um, I-I… there from…” She stutters.

“Wait, don’t tell me. You were hiding in the bushes for a while, waiting for them to leave?”

”I, y-yes! I-I was just waiting for that. And you know how cold and damp the dirt is.”

“Yeah, the rain lately is becoming a damn hassle.” You and Fluttershy share a chuckle, but hers was a bit weak. “Sorry for that lame joke, come on in.”

”Thank you.” She replies as she enters your home.

“You can take off your shoes if you want.”

”Um, where should I put my backpack?”

You’d expect her to just come with nothing this time. Maybe it’s some homework she needs help on. “You can put that anywhere, I don’t mind.” She drops it right beside the couch and takes off her boots to put it beside it as well. “Please, sit down.”

”Uh, I-I rather not.”

“Why not? It’s just a few mud stains.”

”W-well, I don’t want it to ruin your interior.”

You know how much your parents go on about a few mud stains on the floor, but when it goes on the furniture causes a flame war. It's best that doesn't happen anymore. “Crap, you’re right.”

”B-but -” She starts to grab the bust of the dress and slides it down. ”- I could t-take it off.” You back up, and almost fall on the couch. ”W-would you want me to stop?”

One part of you says yes, only to have it foiled by the other saying no. Still, you don’t want your parents to bitch about a few stains. “I’ll get a towel to hold them in.” You run for the bathroom and take a towel from the rack. When you get back in the living room, Fluttershy has already taken off the dress.

”Sorry, was I supposed to wait?”

You can’t help but to look at her bare skin. “It’s not a problem, just put them in here.”

She puts them in the towel. ”You can just leave it right beside my backpack.”

“Are you sure? I could just put it in the washer—“

”Please, just leave it.”

You shrug and do what she says. After dropping it, you sit right beside her on the couch. ”I-it’s a little cold, c-could you, maybe, start up the fire place?”

"Yeah, not a problem." You gladly reply as you wander to the chimney.

As you two watch the log go, she snuggles under your arm. The pizza came when the log was just lit. Too bad neither of you are hungry at the moment, so it’s just sitting on the table in front of you.

”Isn’t this cozy, just you and me, warming each other beside the fireplace?”

“Yeah, it’s nice.” You avert your attention to the dancing flames. This is alright, but you’re still disturbed with her behavior.

”Anon, what’s going on?”

“What do you mean?” You reply while keeping your focus away from her.

”You’re still trying to avoid me. I’m trying to communicate, but you're just give me small talk.”

“I thought we discussed about this back at the animal shelter.” You try to pressure on.

”That’s different.”

“How is that any different from now?"

”We are finally alone, it’s just us, and no one else is here. We can finally get to know each other. Nothing is in the way to bother our wonderful time.”

”Just wait until my parents get home.”

”Who knows about that?”

“I do.” You satisfyingly say.

”Okay sweetie~” She calmly replies while her head digs into your chest.

“Why are you so confident about this? Aren’t you even concerned when my parents come back? They’ll be questioning how long we’ve been together or why you’re naked.”

”Don’t you worry about that. Just concentrate on the time we have for now and forever.”

“It looks like someone’s optimistic about this.”

”I’m always happy when you’re around.” You sigh and mistakenly move your arm down her back. She shivers and snuggles you. ”Anon, I’m afraid that this fire isn’t doing much. Could we, maybe, get a blanket?”

“I’m not going to do it.”

”What do you mean? I just—“

“We’re not having sex.”

She sits up to meet your eye level. ”Anon, is that what you’re focused on?”

“That’s what I’m thinking that you’re trying here.”

”Can’t a girl just be naked for once without getting any issues?”

“When it’s in my house and you did it when I left the room does seem unusual.”

"That still doesn't justify anything! If you were naked, I wouldn't expect it from you." Without a second thought, you take off your shirt and undo your belt. "Anon?" Slip your pants and boxers off and pose.

"Still not expecting it now?"

Her eyes dart around, looking at each inch of you. ”I’m not sure,” She gets up to put her arms around your shoulders. ”Whatever you want, Anon. This time, you get to decide.”

”Aah! Ah, goodness, that was wonderful.” She says, falling back on your bed.

That happened. Why did you let that happen? What does it matter? After what’s going on for the last few weeks, it’s all a moot point. Even that you just came inside of her, that is nothing.

”I’m going to clean myself up.”

You turn on the TV while Fluttershy walks out of the room. ”Thank you for that report Jasper, in other news; let’s look back to earlier today where a car crash that happened during an intersection is now cleared up.” You turn up the TV. ”A couple in their early forties died in a car crash today. Officer Mosley stated that the car crash occurred when the truck failed to stop at a red light.” You look closer at the crash site. That truck resembles as if that was your dads. ”The driver failed to stop, resulting in a fatal collision from a local truck driver ramming into them. The truck driver isn’t wounded, but is traumatized—“

You turn it off and drop the remote. Both of your parents, gone. Done in by your dads reckless driving. You need to tell someone about this. Fluttershy is here, surely she can comfort you. You get up and walk into the living room to witness Fluttershy tossing in a pipe cutter and her dress into the fire.

She almost looks speechless when she looks at you. ”Oh dear.”

You drop down and dig your fingernails into your face. “This can’t be happening…” You say before fainting. Before you black out you can hear her footsteps through the pulsing of your heart.

You rock your head while opening your eyes.

”Anon, oh Anon are you alright?” For once, you would rather see the ceiling instead of anyone else. ”Anon, please tell me, are you hurt?”

“It’s painful.” You mutter out. Her hand moves around your arm.

”Where? I’ll get you an ice pack o-or painkillers.” Fluttershy frighteningly asks.

“It’s inside my chest.”

”I’ll go and buy some defibrillators.”

You grab her arm before she takes off. “It’s not that.” You sit upright on the couch but you keep your attention away from her.

”What’s the problem? If you have leukemia as well—“

“No, I’m clean.” You can clearly see that Fluttershy is more than worried.

”Tell me so I can fix it.”

“You can’t fix it!” You shout at her. The sofa moves around. You look back up and just watch the ceiling fan spin. “I’m lost.”

”But Anon, you’re right here.” You stand up and look at her. She has her green skirt and white tank top on.

“Don’t you get it? I have no one left on this world!” You jab your finger into your chest. “And it’s all thanks to YOU!” Then you point it at her. Fluttershy’s only response is her shaking head.

”That’s not true Anon.”

“I don’t have any uncles or aunts that can give a rat’s ass to live here. They never even visited us once, so what’s the point?!”

”I’m still here.” She gets up, maintaining eye contact. ”I will always be here.” Her stiff upper lip and furrowed eyebrows drives fear in your mind. ”And I will never be too far away from you.” You don’t notice her slow approach until there is nothing but her face in full view. ”No one and nothing will come between our love.”

“You should listen to yourself when you talk like that.”

”I do and I’m happy to have something in control.” She slowly backs away. You’re in too deep for any help. For Fluttershy, that was lost since day one. The fire place is littered with damaged evidence. It is enough to put you away for a long time, and you’ve seen those movies about jail.

”What are you going to do?”

As you're rushing through your head for an answer, your eyes start to burn from the warm tears emitting out of them. “YOU CAN’T KEEP GETTING AWAY WITH IT!” You clench your fists and punch the couch. “You can’t keep getting away with it!” You lay down on the sofa with your face on the cushion.

Her hand travels through your hair while your neck tingles from her own breath. ”Don’t feel so bad. In a few years from now, it will all be like a bad dream.” If only this was. ”I’m sorry to leave you like this, but I must go.” She gives you a peck on the cheek before leaving you on the couch.

“What’s the rush?” You say as you straighten up. Her backpack is zipped up and strapped to her back.

”My parents are worried about my tardiness lately. They demand that I should arrive home early from now on.” What an awful request, especially since she needs to attend the animal shelter every day. You take in a deep breath and say,

“What if I take care of them?” Her squee of joy picks you back up. The hug that she is giving you isn’t enough to keep your smile.

”I know that the loss of your parents is difficult Anon.” Fluttershy says to comfort you.

“You still have yours.”

”They aren’t even related to me.” You look back to the day Rainbow Dash informed you about Fluttershy’s parents. The people that she’s living with are far from the opposite of caring or compassionate.

”I promise you that everything will get better.”

“I’ll believe it when I see it.”

”Maybe not soon, but the future is always open.” She whispers to you and shortly after gives you a quick kiss.

You look at the opened box of pizza on the table. A few slices are gone, making the rest all to you. The noise of your front door being open and closed is enough to tell you that she’s gone, at least for now. Take the pizza box and start munching away your worries while a tear slips out of your eye, knowing that your parents dropped from this world in the blink of an eye.