Tale of a Blood-mage

by Bounty96hunter

Rating: mature
Tags: Comedy, Adventure, Human, Dark, Sad, Romance
Length: 16318

A student discovers his magical element. Blood. Is there nothing to protect him from ohers?

Magic has long been accepted as a part of human society but there is always one that is despised by both those who use it and by the general populace. Blood magic. Simply the name will send shivers down the spine of those with the most basic of knowledge. Those with the "gift of the blood" are hunted down by their closest friends under the order of the magical Congress to prevent the "bloodied souls" from corrupting those around them. Little is known of the power or potency of blood magic, even less is known wether those who have the "gift" have it out of choice, curse, or birth. Whichever is the cause does not matter because do you need to truly know how something comes to be to destroy it?

Alistar, if that is his name, has no idea why his mind is being plagued by "the voice". On the brink of insanity is there no going back for him? Would it take the love of friends to change such a mind?

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2012-05-24 23:44:31 UTC

Sound of Madness: 1

I own nothing besides my Ocs, MLP FiM is owned by Hasbro, I do not own any pictures here or in other places, I leave credit to the owners of such pictures. This story is dark for a reason, there will be romance down the road but not for a while, if you cannot comprehend violence do not read. This this will have comedy later on but like romance, not for a while, I have to set the stage after all :D, This will perhaps have clop later on you will be told of this via warning before such happens. I am a first time writer (be easy on me), all constructive criticism is welcome. If this turns out to be popular I will continue this series. If you see any major grammar or spelling mistakes please alert me, I will attempt to correct such mistake.

Sound of Madness

I have been here in this pointless abyss for an untold amount of time, I don't know if it has ben mere seconds or uncounted years, I can no longer even know the difference in this place, as if I had ever known. All I know is that my sanity is stretched to its limit. I hear the voice, he tells me to unleash my power unto others. I no longer know what is right or wrong my only hope is to get out of here, anywhere would be better than this hellish place. He shows me pictures, images, telling me all that will be given if I listen. But I don't... Why? I no longer know only that he does not have good intentions towards me. There is nothing to do besides hear him. Even if he did go would it be better than this? To be stuck here alone,allowing what little of my sanity to leave me. Even the voice brings company.

I wish I knew what this place was doing to me, not just mentally, but physically. I look upon my body and see strange things. Parts of my body appears different from the rest. On the back of my left hand is a single drop of blood that appears to signify something greater than it seems. On the palm of my left hand is a tiny hole, that seems different from the rest of the wounds of my body, as if it will never get better. Even more surprising my right hand appears to be another beings hand, longer fingers,blood red, almost as if the hand of a demon. I can't help but think the voice has something to do with this. My left leg, or what I presume to be a leg, has missing skin almost as if it has been dissolved, or destroyed. Allowing me to see the muscles and veins under it. Something tells me this is not how it should be, but I am unsure on what that is. Perhaps the part of my brain the has some remembrance? My chest does not seem to be in better condition. I can see my rib cage, protecting what little of my body has yet to be destroyed. I do not dare touch my face, unsure how horrified I would be, upon realization that nothing of me is unscarred.

Is there no escape? By this point I no longer remember anything from my past life, or if life even exists. For all I know this could be all there is. But if that was true then how can there be others to unleash my power upon? Nothing makes sense anymore... As if it ever did.

I can go no longer, either I give into this things demands or I find a way to escape. I can take it no longer, to see nothing but darkness, to hear the voice, to see images that are not my own in my mind. I have had enough. I REFUSE to roll over to this creäture. I would rather it kill me now then suffer another second of this. But there is no escape is there? So what can I do? My only hope is some divine intervention that will never come. All that is left is to embrace the madness... And hope for the best.

The voice, seemingly sensing how I feel, brought an image in my mind of a creäture he called "human", according to him I am one of these beings. He calls them pathetic, saying I am one of the few exceptions. He even shows me another image, this one supposable me. I saw a fairly good looking man, brown hair down past his ears, with a smile on his face. Two blue eyes that appear as if they could peer into your very soul, see your faults, and accept you for them, but at the same time able to make you feel confidence in yourself. He had no scars or unruly marks. I was confused on how such a thing could be me, as I was covered in scars, and there is no way my face is that way with the pain I'm feeling. The voice laughs evilly, as that image disappears, another appears. An image of how I seem to be now.I was not surprised at how my body looked as I had gotten used to the disgusting mess, but what did surprise me was my face... It seems I was no longer the fairly good looking young man, no now my face as pale, as if all the life had ben sucked ou t of it. But most disturbing were my eyes... One looked completely normal, kindly, but the other...was Dark as the abyss surrounding me with a pinprick of red in the center.

The voice laughed at my displeasure, for it takes great joy in the misery of other being... I could never obey such a monster. The voice believing I have had enough sunk back into the seclusion of my mind. At this point I broke... What have I done to suffer such a fate? Did I do such horrible things in a past life? Or is this punishment for simply existing? My mind tumbles around with the idea, unsure of what to think. Before I can think much more on it I see a dim light in the distance, or what I perceive as light, for how can I call it such if I have never seen such a thing before? I move towards the light, not knowing how I am doing such. But does it truly matter when there is a chance of freedom? Before long I reach the light, it slowly begins to envelop me. This is better then the voice, I no longer care what this light will do, be it better or worse, a bad chance is better than no chance at all. Luckily it is for the better, as I can feel me leaving this wretched place, for anywhere but here is better.

Survival of the Fit Enough: 2

This is where I start giving personality to my character instead of just "setting the stage" also this will have cursing, crude humor, and shity jokes, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

Survival of the Fit Enough

I gasp in pain as I slowly awaken, head throbbing, trouble breathing, no idea what's going on. As soon as I recall all "the voice" has put me through, I wonder who was my savior? Was it myself? Because if it is that is real damn awesome, you know able to summon upon my divinity is in my top 10 of "cool shit".

"Wow I sure am a lot different here then I was in purgatory" I say, not able to come up with a better word for such a place. It seems that place made me immensely depressed or some shit because I seemed to be a whole different person here then there. But hey, I'm not complaining about not being a depressing asshole. At this point I realize... For lack of a better word... I'm fucked.

I just got dropped of in the middle of the forest no idea how I got here or how to survive, or even how to wipe my ass without fucking up in some bizarre way, for all I know half the plants here could try to fuck me over in some way or another, I never trusted plants to begin with... Or did I? Well Fuck it I'm not trusting them starting now, those blue flowers over their look like they could kick my ass... I think.

"Well no time like the present" I yell out to the wilderness quickly realizing the stupidity of announcing myself to my less than hospitable neighbors. "You know what... fuck you guys I don't care if you come out and try to fuck me over I've had enough of this shit". Soon after saying this I realize my self in all my glory, that I am not wearing any clothes... "fuck it I don't give a rats ass if you see my peaker or not" I shout out again to my asshole neighbors, I don't even have to know them to know they are assholes, but then I slowly realize those asshole will likely eat me, so I shut up.

During all this time I had been walking around aimlessly not paying attention to anything except how I believe my neighbors to be... Completely ignoring my open wounds and screwed up features. You'd be surprised how hard it can be to notice yourself bleeding out. I guess talking to myself helps with pain? Because now it feels like I just got kick in the balls... Except you know without getting kicked there... OK what I mean IS I am in so much pain that... You know fuck it I don't have to explain myself to my mind, that's just silly.

Alright as I now begin to understand, I don't pay attention. It just seems to be a simple fact, like how I can't conjure magical items for absolutely no reason, if I can that is real damn cool, but... Turns out this is a bad thing when you're in an unknown place with no idea of the effects of things here... Like fucking plants. Like those blue flowers I saw earlier.. As soon as I stumbled into those assholes I began feeling much weaker. Beyond weak, I felt helpless. My own worst fear is being in acted upon by FUCKING FLOWERS. Soon afterward I pass out from... Well hell I don't know being tired? What ever happened I just knew it would fuck me over in some way... God I hope the voice doesn't come...

Twilight Sparkle 3rd person

Twilight was quietly enjoying a book of (GUESS WHAT) facts about different species, at the moment she was reading up on something rumored as "humans" she usually did not indulge upon such unlikely tall tells but she had been ordered by Princess Celestia, by reasons she did not know. But she would not dare question the Princesses motives, her devotion was at time seen as dramatic but not much more than any of the other Princesses subjects. Perhaps being the sun goddesses personal student called for more devotion then with the princesses other subjects.

Twilight was nearly done with reading about the description of how a human looks when Spike burped from across the room, signifying a message from the princess. Before Spike, the green and purple baby dragon, could even say a word Twilight dashed over and read the message for she knew such an unusual request was not without reason.

Dear my most faithful student,There has been a disturbance believed to be in the Everfree forest, I advise you to take the Elements of Harmony into the forest to find such a thing.

From Princess Celestia.

Twilight knew for Celestia to almost order Twilight to do this must mean that this is truly important, not that anything Celestia says isn't, but cool her earlier request to research humans have something to do with this? She had to know so she quickly went off to her friends to gather them fo such a venture.

Human 1st person

"No leave me alone, I refuse to listen to you" I scream the violent voice in the reaches of my mind. Here I was trapped in the eternal abyss, at least this time there was hope for freedom, or at least freedom in death.

The voice yet again, preferring to communicate with images, revealing my worst nightmares. But... I was angry. It could not get away with this. I focused my energy into one form, a form of light. Hoping that this will lead to my freedom, or at least cause it to shut up for a while. It seemed to be working as I began to see things in my real eyes. As you can imagine being sent back to that place because of asshole flowers really pissed me off.

"Fuck you asshole flowers I'm goanna... goanna..." I stopped as I realized I was out of breath, as if all the energy had been taken away again. "fucking... Flowers" I take several minutes to recuperate, mustering the strength to fuck over that patch of flowers. After a sufficient amount of time I crawled over to the flowers, smiling evilly, knowing I would have my revenge. I mean come on they're damn flowers, I doubt there is much more they could do to me. So in anger, I rip up those assholes, they got what they deserved. But... Turns out these flowers are BEYOND the asshole category and more into the own worst enemy". Turns out they made incapable of speech. Now while this would not bother many people it does me as... Well as you may have noticed if I don't complain out loud the pain from my wounds surfaces, talking seems to be the best medicine for me. But those "things" have taken that away.

"gurhhhhh" I scream although what I meant to say was "FUCKING FLOWERS". But I doubt my neighbors would give a shit whichever I said as long as I rolled over and let them eat me. Speaking of neighbors...

I saw a big ass cat come out of the surrounding growth, now I'm thinking "OH SHIT A JUNGLE CAT" but really after looking a second longer it is even worse. It has a scorpion tail. Now this day just gets better and better. The "cat" looked real hungry so I can only guess what it has in mind. "fuck me.." Which translates to "brughh". But you know what? I refuse to die to a fucking kitten, in fact, if I ever see a cat again I'm going to-... At this point the kitty slashes at me, it seems to have covered quite a bit of distance in the time it took me to think about this.

But even more strangely, I feel an unknown power surging through me, as if my spilled blood gives me strength. By this time, I know there is no hope for my survival, even so I put up my left hand in an attempt to stop this cat from killing. Now imagine how surprised I am to suddenly see the cat seize up, as if all its muscles had stopped working, at the point of my hand? Now this is definitely in the top 10 of "cool shit I can do".

"Haha pussy cat you don't have shit on this" also meaning "Gurhhhhhhurhh". The longer I kept my palm towards the cat the weaker I felt. As I take my hand away the cat just gets up and run as if saying "fuck this". I collapse on the ground keeping up a tough demeanor until I'm sure it is gone. As I look on the ground in exhaustion, I notice the blood like tattoo on my hand glowing. This is all I need to feel confident that it had something to do with my survival.

It seems doing that did a bad toll on my body as I seem to have a lot less blood then when I awoke. I'm going to assume it was what ever the fuck I just did that caused that instead of my bleeding out on the ground, because if it's not, I'm fucked.

I then feel myself drifting away, I just hope I will wake up from were ever I'm going.

First Impressions: 3

I have a good idea for my characters past but I would like suggestions for adventures once everything calms down ( it will be quite a while till then I hope) but the sooner I get suggestions the more ideas I will be able to put together for future chapters. Thanks and don't forget to rate!

First Impressions

`

Mane six 3rd person

"umm... Twilight are you sure it is safe?" whispered a nervous Fluttershy, they hadn't even gotten to the forest and Fluttershy was already terrified.

"Don't worry, I'll protect you, I'll knock out any monsters in 10 seconds flat" Rainbow Dash yelled proudly, surprising Fluttershy as she gasped an "EEP".

"Now now sugercube, there be no reason to be scared, we'll protech yeh'" Applejack told Fluttershy, while casting Dash a disapproving look.

The mane six stood outside the Everfree forest, they had decided to meet near Fluttershys,well Twilight had sent a message via Spike not leaving much room to debate if they had even wanted to, since her house was the closest to the forest. Twilight had just told them of Celestia's message, while adding in it might have something to do with "humans". As soon as Twilight had finished they heard yelling not to far off. Causing Fluttershy to lose what little confidence she had.

"Ohhh I bet "Humanes" LOVE party's!" Pinkie Pie said defying the laws of physics as she disappeared in a puff of smoke. "Come on slow pokes" yelled Pinkie from the under brush of the forest.

"Pinkie comes back, we don't know what we're dealing with!" Twilights calls went unnoticed as Pinkie was already gone. "We need to stick togeth-" Twilight then realized her it was going on deaf ears as Dash had given chase, while Rarity and Applejack had convinced Fluttershy to go in.

"sigh"

Human 1st person

It was strange, as soon as I passed out I remained aware in a way. As if my body was in use while I was in here. It seems "it" has taken control. Well this sucks. At least it isn't here to torment me.

While I can't tell what I'm doing, I can FEEL what my body is doing. I discovered this from a strong blow to the chest, likely breaking a few ribs. I could feel the voices anger, as if it were my own. I felt my strength returning as if the ribs were being put back into place, but what being has the power to do this? And where would it get the energy? I'm surprised my body is still moving after all I've gone through, then again I shouldn't be surprised of what can happen here.

I grunted in pain, what ever it is doing with my body it sure is pissing some stuff off. Then the pain stopped, the familiar strength was returning. But even more than before. Then I felt nothing... As if it had all stopped.

Rainbow Dash 3rd person

Dash looked down on the forest from above, in a clearing of trees she noticed a bloody mass, her curiosity peeked she flew in closer. She gasped in horror as she saw what Twilight described as a human, except horribly disfigured. It had many pieces of missing skin, allowing one to view the organs beneath. She nearly barfed from the horrible image, before she noticed the evil looking red claw, it could cut a creäture into ribbons. But never one to back down, even when it'd be the correct thing to do, she moved in closer, hiding in a nearby tree.

The creäture moved, obviously awakening. It strangely stood on its back 2 hoofs, it also seemed to be missing a lot of fur, as the only places with it were its head and "other areas" Dash then got embarrassed, as it seemed a bit like peeping, as pony's were able to hide their parts well.

Without warning the monster stared right into her eyes, one kindly and blue, the other a dark abyss. For the first time in ages, Dash felt Genuine fear.The human smiled evilly, inviting Dash into a fight taking an aggressive stance. Dash, still never one to back down, even in fear, rocketed into the human. Hearing the resounding crack of many ribs. The human got right back up and... Smiled. "AGHHHHHHHHHH" Dash yelled as she felt the very life being drained from her, it was the most painful thing she had ever felt. A thousand red hot needles pierced her skin. As suddenly as it had happened it stopped. When dash opened her eyes she saw AJ, Rarity, and Fluttershy, attempting fight the monster. Even with 3 on 1 the monster inflicted many wounds, some fatal. They put up a good fight but for every wound they inflicted upon it, it gave back that times 10. It had had enough, without a seconds consent it begin sucking Dash's friends dry of their life to heal its own wounds. Luckily a magical essence surrounded it, Dash saw Twilights horn glowing, but knowing the strength of the creäture, Dash knew Twilight couldn't hold it for long.

Twilight was faltering, that is all it needed to break free, in seconds it bounded across the distance between them and grabbed Twilight by the throat, lifting her in to the air. Twilight gasped as her windpipe was constricted, the thing was toying with her, it could have killed her in a single blow. Dash Taking Advantage of its distraction, used the last of her strength to propel herself towards it. Before it could react Dash nailed it right in it head with her hoof, such a thing would have killed a lesser creäture but managed to only knock it out. Dash collapsed near the creäture, to tired to care.

Pinkie Pie 3rd  person Pinkie wanted to help her friends, but her fabled "Pinkie senses" disagreed. So she watched as the humane fought her friends. Right before she had had enough Dash charged at the humane choking Twilight. Pinkie let out a sigh of relief. But she still did not interfere, she had a feeling she shouldn't.

Human 1st person

I awoke with a headache, I wish I didn't have to feel like shit because the voice got all pissy. As I looked at my body, it appeared many of my wounds had healed,my chest was covered by a thin sheet of skin, no longer showing my organs. While my leg was covered in scabbing blood, looking a lot better than when I blacked out. What was it fighting? As if to answer my question I heard soft crying coming from nearby. Looking around I saw many colorful pony's that looked, for lack of a better word, fucked up. I felt immense guilt... It may not have been "me" that did it but it was still.. "Me".

I now took the time to see from where the crying was coming from. It seemed to come from a yellow bloody mass, with a blood caked pink mane. As it saw me stand up it whimpered. I would have attempted to soothe it, but it would have only come across as growls. Actions speak louder than words. I slowly approached the pony like creäture, its all too big eyes growing wider as she let out a tiny "EEP". I didn't know exactly what I was doing, but it felt like the right thing to do. I felt incredibly weak again, but I couldn't stop , for what ever I was doing was healing its wounds.

***

I've given so much of myself that I can't even walk in a straight line. There were only two of them left, the rainbow manned one and purple unicorn. I started with the rainbow one, figuring it has more serious wounds due to her shallow breathing. I gave the last of my strength to this pony- no wait, Pegasus, I hadn't really been paying attention to such details, as I was far too tired. This next one could quite easily kill me if I'm not careful.

Oh no... I had been so focused on everything else I hadn't noticed its crushed wind pipe. I put my ear to where I perceive its heart to be, to hear... Nothing. It had only been a minute since I had gotten up p.. Perhaps it is not too late? I don't know what I was doing, but at the moment it seems better to rely on instinct. I proceeded to put my left hand over where the heart likely is... I pushed my power directly into that spot... With satisfaction I heard a faint beat... But its windpipe was still damaged... I gave the last of my strength, life, and blood, to fixing it enough so it could breath. By this time all the other pony's had gathered around. With a single smile I collapsed.

Blast from the Past: 4

Alright I'm going to try to upload one chapter a day, if I follow this rule you will see this the day after "first impressions".Oh by the way you will learn a bit about the past of the "human" if you didn't read the description, you will also learn his name.

Blast from the Past

The voice was beyond pissed, in fact it seemed like if it could it'd kill me without a seconds thought. But, since it couldn't without fucking itself over, it settled with tormenting me. Again it showed me bloody images, but one appeared over and over. A young child, soaking wet and cold, with blue eyes crouching over a younger boy, possibly his brother. The young one was caked in frost, while the older was trying, without luck, to bring back his brother. The voice seemed to hold this one in high regard calling it the one "where we first met". How romantic. I was honestly curious about what happened, perhaps unlock some of my past. But do I truly want to know? The voice, like always did what I didn't want. I slowly saw a world appear in the dark abyss. I closed my eyes a little fearful of what happened. I was no longer in any pain, in fact I felt full of energy.Why would I be in pain? I no longer heard the voice, wait- what voice? I should go find my brother, he said he wanted to play today.

After many minutes of futile searching through the snow I grew worried, it isn't like him to avoid me. I searched all his known hiding places, I was very worried now. "John this isn't funny" I yelled hopping he would hear me and come running. Where did he say he wanted to go? Was it the apple tree? No, I was just there perhaps the- like that it hit me with a ton of bricks. The lake

. I ran as fast as I could. Why did he want to play by the lake?

***

"Alistar can we play by the lake tomorrow?" My brother begged. "If it is cold enough, I don't want the ice breaking under your little feet"

"I'm not little, I'm a big boy"

"You sure are, now lets go to bed, it gets cold at night." We had to take shelter in our parents home, we were holed up due to unfortunate circumstances involving our parents death. Because our parents possessed magical powers the Magical Congress took it upon them self's, from the very kindness of their hearts, to educate us poor wilders. They would be coming before long but we couldn't run anywhere to survive the winter. The best I can do is to spend this time with John, as we will likely never see each other again.

"I'm cold" "I'll go get some more blankets" When our parents were alive it was always warm enough, something to do with magic. So they didn't have much need for AC. I went down te hall from where we were staying, my room. All the other rooms were destroyed, by the experiments of my father. I didn't love him, in fact I hated him. He never paid any attention to my brother or I. My mother on the other hand made up for it. I only wish she hadn't been lost in dads crazy experiment. I don't know much about it only that it involved blood magic. The council didn't know this, if they did we would be killed without question.

I returned with the blankets I had found in the hall closet. Just enough to keep him warm . I will have to be cold but, anything for my brother. He was all I had left.

***

I snapped back to the present, due to me reaching the ice covered lake. I saw John happily, playing on it. I heard an enormous crack, as he disappeared.

"No..."

I quickly took off my clothes that will weigh me down, I sprinted across the ice, the ice not able to take my weight, broke under me. With part of my lower body in the freezing water,I crawled across the ice to where my brother disappeared. I dived, I was stunned by how freezing it is. Without taking time to recuperate I looked for my brother. Mybody already so numb I couldn't feel anything. I felt around for him, anything, something to grab onto. I felt a coat, but unable to tell if it was my brothers or not due to the cold. I pulled, feeling a reassuring weight around it. The reassurance didn't last long, as It was too heavy. Filled with dread I refused to give up. I scrambled over the already frosting over hole made by my brother, with strength I didn't know I had, I nearly threw him over myself in a rush to get him to air. I gasped in breath as I reached the surface. I smiled in triumph, but that didn't last long as I spied my brother. He was blue, frost covered him from head to toe. Feeling adrenaline coursing through me, I grabbed him by the collar, pushing him towards the parts of the lake completely frozen through.

I was over taken by fear for my brother, for how can I save him?

I gasped in pain as I was brought back to reality, well, the reality of purgatory. The voice cackled evilly, I didn't pay much attention to it as I relived the memory of my brother in my mind. I curled up in ball, attempting to remember what happened afterwards. Was he saved? Despite everything I went through I took some solace in finally knowing my name. Alistar. I was not familiar with other names but it still seemed strange to me. The voice left me again, as I seemed t be regaining some form of consciousness.

Introductions: 5

Sorry about the short last chapter, I made up for it by making this one longer. Enjoy!

Introductions

"urhhhh" I felt quite a bit of pain, but nothing I wasn't used to. I am a badass after all. As I tried to sit up something was wrong. Something was holding me down. I don't know what they have done to me but, being strapped to a table is very... Bad for me.

I began breathing rapidly. I pushed against the restrains. My skin must be weak because after this bit of work, I felt blood down my leg. I didn't care, I just didn't care. I felt that all too familiar strength, I suppose I take power from blood. I pulled my left arm with all my might, I heart a snap as the restraints were breaking. This seemed to get the attention of the beings that brought me here. As I heard heavy hoof steps, I completely broke my left arm free.

I saw a pony, a unicorn to be precise, levitating a syringe in the air. I knew what it had in mind. It seemed about to speak but I didn't give it the chance, I grabbed the syringe and stapped it into the unicorns side. I injected what ever it was. At that moment many more pony's came into the room. I paid no attention to them as I began work on my right. The red claw was now free. I didn't want to use it on any of them, I will try to bluff my way out. The pony's seemed hesitant to come and stop me, that is when I recognized them. They were the pony's I had hurt. I immediately stopped. I began slowly laying back down. Be it guilt, or regret, I would not hurt them. I saw the unicorn I had injected about to pass out. I gave one sheepish grin as he passed out. It was meant as an apology but the yellow pony with the Stetson hat didn't seem to think so.

"So after you knock 'em out you don't even say 'yer sorry?" It was more a statement then a question. My attempt to answer this is by pointing to my mouth and growling. I then began showing acting out myself writing on paper. They didn't seem to understand. Ugh fuck what am I going to have to do?

I leapt up, surprising them, I heard a familiar "EEP" then a yellow mass disappear behind the others. They must have thought I was going to attack as they all took a fighting stance. Well, all but a strange looking pink pony. "Hey I bet he is trying to tell us something, maybe he got his tongue cut out or, maybe he doesn't know how to speak. Can you say pink come on can yah can yah" I was honestly amazed on how any creäture could speak so quickly and not even take a breath in between. In my amazement I almost forgot what I got up for. But I remembered as soon as I saw a nearby quill, must be used to fill out documents. I then showing myself writing again with the quill, they seemed to understand. I sighed in relief, as it would get real damn hard to communicate otherwise. It is also great I'm left handed.

The purple unicorn brought me paper, she quickly got away as soon as I had it, I couldn't blame her for being scared of me. If I saw myself I would probably be scared as well, in fact I'd be terrified if a monster with a red claw, different color eyes, blood mark, and had nearly choked me to death. Yeah I'd be real damn scared. "Any questions" I wrote on the paper, they were obviously surprised I could write, as I heard a few gasps and a tiny "EEP", really is there anything it isn't scared of?

"What is your name" said the rainbow haired Pegasus, she seemed to be the bravest, and most prideful.

"Alistar, what are yours" They seemed to honestly be shocked again, I mean a creäture that can write has a name GASP. I know I'm being unfair but really, I was getting tired of this shit. It was here I noticed that the knocked out staff was still there, beside my table/bed. I pointed to them, they shuffled a little embarrassed that they had forgotten. But the pink one seemed unfazed. "Oh him, he'll be alright, in fact when he wakes up he will be SO happy to know that we resolved this, oh yeah, I'm Pinkamena Diane Pie, but that names no fun, so call me Pinkie Pie, that names fun that's what I like fun fun fun! Oh, your new here and you know what that means? You get a surprise party, oh but it wont be a surprise now that you know. Well I'm sure it can be just as surprising if you know about it or not. I also work at sugercube corner, I bake, do you like baking? I love baking" I was again shocked,  why am I shocked anymore? I should really just go with the flow. Who am I to question if this pony is able to talk at the speed of light?  I smiled acknowledging her introduction.

Next up was a prim and proper looking unicorn. She had white fur, err hair, hell I don't know. With a long flowing purple mane, she looked quite stuck up, but I'm not here to judge. "Hello, a pleasure to meet you. My name is Rarity. Darling you must allow me to make you some clothes, for you simply can't go around in that dreadful hospital gown. Come by my shop the Carousel Boutique when you want me to take your measurements". I smiled again, it was the best way to show a hello without taking the time to write it.. Well at least I will finally get some clothes. I'd rather not walk around with my junk out facing against the wraith of nature.

Next was Miss -, ah fuck it I don't know enough about them to come up with snappy names. As weird as it seems, I now realized that all these females had seen my junk during the fight, while for an instant I was proud it quickly turned into embarrassment as I no longer thought of them as animals but... People.

"I'm Rainbow Dash, faster flier in Equestria, maker of the famous Sonic Rainboom, and future member of the wonderbolts" Alright, she was definitely the most prideful as she puffed out her chest as she spoke, trying to make a good impression. I chuckled a little at how hard she was trying. Then there was that familiar yellow Pegasus, the rest of them seemed to almost push her towards me.

"Umm... Hi I'm Fl...sh." I gave her a quizzical look to signify I couldn't hear her, she said a little louder. "I'm Fluttershy" I was barely able to catch it but I nodded as she seemed to be very scared of me, I didn't want to make her anymore uncomfortable.

Next up was the one with the Stetson hat, I was honestly curious about her as she had a southern accent, something hard to find in the north out in the middle of the woods.

"Why mah name's Applejack, I work at apple acres buckin' apples, any apples you see likely came from mah farm. They be the best you'll find dang near anywhere" I nodded, my curiosity nearly satisfied, all that was left was the purple unicorn. I almost didn't want to know about her as I had well... Killed her. "I'm Twilight Sparkle, Princesses Celestia's student..." I waited for her to say more but she didn't, still can't say I blame her, I did kill her after all. "Any other questions?"

"Do you like party's? I LOVE party's, they are like the best thing ever, oh why is one eye different from the other? Is that a human thing?"

"I like party's, I don't know why one eye is different from the other, I don't remember much."

"Why can't you speak, you dumb or something?" "No, I'm not dumb, Dash, flowers did this" "What kind ah' flowers"

"The blue kind, I walked into them, they caused me to pass out and feel weak... In anger I ripped them up, but before that they made it so everything I say comes out as growls"

"Don't worry Alistar, I'll get Zecora to make an herbal bath to fix that" It had been the first time in a while since Twilight had spoken, seems she was finally warming up to me. YAY. I nodded my head and gave a smile to show I was thankful. I don't know how a bath will fix this but, fuck it, this place doesn't make sense anyway.

"Why'd yah' fight us"

I sighed, this was honestly a bit personal, but seeing as I had killed one of them, and nearly the others, they deserved to know. But not now, I need to wait at least until I can talk. "That wasn't me, I will explain more clearly when I can talk, also before you ask, I don't know how I did what I did. I didn't really know what I was doing" They nodded, but they did not understand what I meant. "umm... Why did you break out" I heard the quite voice of Fluttershy. Can't she talk louder? It'd be a lot easier on me. "I have a fear o being restrained, or unable to move. It seems to connect in someway to my past"

"What do you eat, If you do not mind me asking" "I am Omnivorous, I can eat just about any thing I come across, but not grass or leaves like what I assume you pony's eat, if I don't eat meat I will have to get the Nutrients I need from a wide variety of plants. Which will be quite troublesome"

Awkward silence is awkward. I continued writing "Don't worry, I wont eat you, you don't look that tasty anyway" This seemed to break the ice just enough for a few light chuckles, whew that was close. Should probably be more careful about who I tell. "If you don't mind I'd like something to eat, and some sleep as I'm quite tired... And tell them not to restrain me again. I likely would have hurt someone in my escape if you all hadn't shown up." Some nodded, some said "Ok" one said something I couldn't understand (DAMNIT FLUTTERSHY).

I waved them out, as soon as they left, I feel asleep. I was quite tired. My stomach can wait.

Song and Dance: 6

Alright I add a bit of music to this, I give credit to the makers of the songs (you'll see which ones). Also if I start getting ahead in my writing I'll start uploading more than one a day. Also tell me if you prefer longer chapters taking longer to write, or shorter ones that I can absolutely put up everyday.

Song and Dance

I had just gotten out of the hospital, the staff, to say the least, wanted me gone as soon as possible. Once I was able to move without bleeding they practically pushed me out the door. Maybe I shouldn't have stabbed that guy? Well either way, in the time I was there, I became much closer to the 6 mares I had nearly killed. You know saying it like that makes me sound like a complete psychopath. Ah well if I am one I'll just kill myself. As bad as that sounds as far as I can tell from my memories, I have nothing to live for. Perhaps it is a bit early say that but, I will not allow the voice to take control of me again, I have grown too close to all of them for that to happen. I will say that as far as I know, they are all I care about in this world, or any other. If only I could find a way to unlock my memories without losing control. I was able to practice something in the hospital that's real cool. It seems I remember songs real well. Because once I heard music playing down the hall, all my memories of music came to me. Not that it really mattered. Least I got some cool jams to listen too in my mind.

Oh yeah, Twiight came around with an herbal bath the day after I awoke, turns out I had been out for a few days after my spell of death and destruction. Well as surprised as I was that the bath relieved me of my weakness and growling voice, you had thought I'd have shit gold with my mouth(although I'm sure I have done similar things wid mah wicked jokes brah). All shity jokes aside, it was real damn awesome. To be able to communicate without writing is a blessing. My hand had been starting to bleed through the bandaging. It hurt like hell, it also seems I was right, no amount of magic could heal that hole. Ah well, least it is easy to stop the bleeding, while also giving full access to my magic.

I'd been experimenting in a way, I was careful about what I did, but it seems I could do other things besides causing incapacitation and pain. I can shoot little bolts of lightning, I know damn cool right? But it get better and better. I CAN conjure things, not without using blood though. It nearly killed me the first time. All I had gotten was a cool looking ring. It seemed familiar some how. It was silver with a small sapphire and two smaller rubies beside it. I put it on the middle finger of my left hand, it fit like a glove, well ring.

Rarity had said she couldn't wait for me to come to her shop, so she came to me, took my measurements,(turns out this requires no clothes on , go figure), then got the clothes for me the day before the hospital said "Fuck this guy" or else it would have been awkward walking around with the pony's seeing myself in my glory, for I doubt the hospital gives away free gowns. The clothes were stylish, but VERY colorful. I had purple pants, inlaid with a golden yellow down the sides. A green shirt inlaid with silver,(really wtf) and what I call, The Pimp jacket. It was fuzzy soft, and warm, it was a purple color inlaid with gold and GASP silver. All I needed was a pimp cane and I'd be in buizzznezzz. Although even before I got these cool threads I was to cocky, so imagine how I am now?

Twilight had offered for me to live with her, you would not believe how surprised I was for this. I mean a mare I had killed not even a week ago, was offering or me to live in HER HOUSE. Damn, pony's here are way too caring for their own good.

I know I had told them I would tell them why I attacked them as soon as I got my voice back but... I wasn't ready. What if they decided I wasn't worth the risk of making a friend out of? I had after all been capable of killing the 6 elements of Harmony. Yup I had learned more about them as soon as my voice was back, turns out I took out the 6 most powerful beings in Equestia, beside Princess Celestia and Princess Luna, with hardly getting hurt at all. Ok maybe I'm exaggerating but is it really my fault for being so damn awesome? Yeah I fell bad but that doesn't mean I can't brag right? Right. Well time to stop thinking about the past and move to the future.

Alright remember how fucked up I am? Well I'm still fucked up. Not AS much as I was but still, big claw weird eyes, pale face, blood mark, hole in hand, you get the point. Least I didn't see my ribs or veins from my leg. That is an enormous plus. I doubt these pony's could handle that. I couldn't help but laugh at the look on their faces of a monstrous weirdo, looking like a pimp, walking down my street like he owned the damn place. I nearly doubled over laughing as I heard "THE HORROR THE HORROR".

Alright I had made it to the tree. Oh did I mention the place Twilight lived was in a tree? A LIBRARY tree? Nope I didn't oh well. Oh yeah before I forget, she has a baby dragon assistant. As soon as I see him I will make him my bro for life. That is like so awesome it is ridiculous, I can just imagine me goin' "Brofist?" "Brofist" BAM instant Bros for life.

As I looked in through the cracked door, I saw nothing but darkness. "umm you in there Twilight? I don' really like the dark to tell you the truth" I called in nervously, call me  wimp but being stuck in darkness for who knows how long, while going insane can really give you a bit of fear for it. I walked in slowly, careful about where I stepped, As soon as I shut the door behind me I hear a big "SURPRISE"

"OH FUCK ME"

Awkward silence...

"Umm... Sorry, I don't like surprises, scares me a bit." luckily only my six friends where there to see me make a fool of myself.

"Oh that's fine, glad you came, you know it wouldn't be a "Welcome to equestria and nearly killing us" party with out you, you know since your the one who-" I put my left index finger to her lips in the well known sign of "shut up", I didn't really want her to remind all of us of what happened, she also can get a bit annoying.

"Well," I say trying to break the ice "got any alcohol"

"Yeah wouldn't be a party with out booze, I mean yeah it would but it wouldn't be fun, and a party that's no fun isn't a party" Pinkie was able to say before I could reach her. Ah well, win some you lose some.

***

Ok after I was sure everyone had a drink, not enough to make them drunk, barely buzzed, I needed them mainly thinking about what I was about to do. Oh yeah their alcohol concentration was far lower than what I was used to. I couldn't even taste the alcohol, I wasn't even tipsy! But being un-drunk was worth it to see their already adorable faces bunched up into grins.

"Ok remember when I said I was going to tell you all about why I attacked you?" they nodded.

"I'm about to sing a song from where I'm from called Monster by Skillet, once you hear this song you will understand. Everything in the song describes how I feel, and what is happening, if you want me to leave after the song I will understand"  They seemed confused, yet again(I seem to do that a lot) but they agreed.

First I told them of my power of being able to conjure, then of my memories of music. I suppose if I try conjuring music it will work out. I'll just have to sing, which I'm OK with as it would seem more like it is coming from me. I had just set everything up, I got a drink in case I got thirsty, a mike, and somehow Pinkie was able to get Amps( don't ask how I have no idea, again don't question it).

"Ok 1, 2 ,3, go"

The secret side of me, I never let you see

I keep it caged but I can't control it

So stay away from me, the beast is ugly

I feel the rage and I just can't hold it

It's scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls

It comes awake and I can't control it

Hiding under the bed, in my body, in my head

Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

My secret side I keep hid under lock and key

I keep it caged but I can't control it

'Cause if I let him out he'll tear me up, break me down

Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

It's hiding in the dark, its teeth are razor sharp

There's no escape for me, it wants my soul, it wants my heart

No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream

Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I'm gonna lose control, it's something radical

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

As I looked at them, they seemed to be shocked, awed, scared, and sad. Without saying a word I walked past them all leaving the them the time to think. But the main reason was I could feel him taking control. I couldn't hold off the blood lust forever.

Sweet Embrace: 7

Sweet Embrace

Twilight sparkle 3rd person

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

Without a word he walked past, not an explanation nor a reason. As she heard the door close she snapped back to reality. The Princess needed to know right away.

Dear Princess Celestia, The human Alistar has left during his party. I did what you asked and forgave him. I think there is more to him then I originally thought. I didn't question you with keeping him in a ungaurded hospital, but is it wise to invite him to live in my home? I am honestly scared for our safety. He sang a song involving a monster coming out, he then left without saying a word. Please come

. From, your Student,

Twilight Sparkle

Twilight was shaking, she was terrified of this creäture. She knew little to nothing about it. She could still see in her eyes Alistar playing with her, holding her by the throat, draining the life out of her. If Dash hadn't intervened she would be dead. Yeah once he came to he healed them all, nearly killing himself in the process. But this obviously meant he was mentally unstable. And to hear him sing such a horrid song? He was even more dangerous than they had thought.

Alistar 1st person

I really fucked up didn't I? Not only did I scare everyone shitless, I got all worked up about it and know I'm losing control. How wonderful. Maybe it is better this way. If I get far enough in the woods it will give the princesses time to come and kill me untill he is able to make it back to town. Maybe I scarred them enough they wont come looking for me untill the princesses arrive? Oh I hope so. It would really ruin my day to wake up surrounded by dead ponys. I continued running trying to put as much distance between us as possible.

"fuck, fuck FUCK"

"Oh shit my damn leg"

I hadn't been paying attention to much, except getting as far as possible, and like always, the universe took the time out of its busy secudule to take a shit on my head. It was twisted out of proportion, as I tried to put weight on it I sunk back down to the ground in pain.

"FUCK YOU ROOT"  I am REALLY starting to hate plants. I stared into that roots very soul, attempting to cause it to curl into fear. Wait, what? Oh shit I'm becoming like Pinkie Pie. I really am insane. Well at least I'm that fun kind of insane, not the kind that goes on a killing spree because someone stepped on my shoes. Then again maybe I'm both? Well, fuck. Well might as well accept insanity, the "voice" might find it harder to jerk me around if I am. Speaking of the "voice" I need a really demeaning name for it, something ridicules. How about Shelden? Yeah Shelden will do nicely. The thought of an evil demon creäture named Shelden just makes me chuckle. "BEHOLD I AM THE GREAT AND POWERFUL SHELDON BOW BEFORE ME FOOLISH MORTALS." Hell yeah this day isn't so bad after all. You know, beside terrifying my only friends, admitting to them I'm a monster, and possibly have gone stark raving mad. All that considered, today is a pretty good day.

"Well looks I'm stuck here for a while" I said "how you doing Sheldon?" Yup he doesn't like the name, I'm glad he can only communicate through images, I don't think I could take another voice in my mind, you know. I'm already crazy enough as it is. From what I could tell, Shelen is like, any typical evil demon anywhere "I AM ABOVE YOU FOOLISH MORTALS BLAH BLAH, BOW DOWN" "Yeah fuck you too Shelden" I laugh a little at his reaction, to his less than immtemidating name. It feels nice to knock him down a peg. He may be able to haunt my dreams, but I can haunt him when I'm awake. Trust me, it is almost worth his punishment at night.

"Well Shelden looks like we'll be here awhile"

"What? You don't think so? What do you have in mind?"

"Now why would I do that? Also, why do you want to help me?"

"Hmm, I guess that makes sence" Shelden had just told me to use my blood magic to force my bones back into place. He says it will get me moving again, but it will hurt like hell. Well, not one to leave anything undone, I do what Sheldon suggests.

"OH FUCK ME THAT HURTS" Shelden wasn't kidding, it was the most painful thing I can remember, although that does not exactly say much, point is, it hurt like hell. "you... damn... asshole" I was able to barely mutter as I slipped into unnconchiousness. Asshole planned it all along.

Princess Celestia 3rd person

Celestia was about to go to bed, listening to her favorite Song, She absolutely loved it. It was her absolute favorite record.

"Humans make such wonderful music" Celestia declared, listening to ever repeating song. She had, "liberated it" from a human that had managed to cross over into Equestria. It had been a few hundred years since then, and she had enjoyed it immensely. Because of this her servants started calling her "Trollestia", named after the fun she often had with the new servants.

She smiled as she closed her eyes, but unfortuneitly, she was interrupted by a message appearing in front of her. She sighed, sometimes she wished she could have some time to herself. She was the Sun goddess after all, and gods need plenty of breaks. It is often tiring raising the sun every day, then taking care of political matters. She knew who it was from, Twilight Sparkle. She was really the only one that sent messages to her this way. She considered just putting down "tl;dr" and see whatever Twilight wanted in the morning. She was very busy listening to the song. But her gut told her it likely had something to do with the new human. Celestia knew it was no threat. Obviouslly such weak creatures couldn't threaten her kingdom. The last visitor told all about human life, involving cars, guns and such. But she wasn't concerned with that, as no non-bilogical matter can come and go through the dimensions. They are all weak and defenceless in this place without their technology.

She didn't believe for a second that a human had nearly killed the six elements of harmony. Yeah, humans are violent creatures, but they don't have access to magic. If they did then she would be worried. It was far more likely a manticore or pack of timber wolfs attacked them without them noticing.

"MIght as well get it over with" she said.

Ughh why was Twilight so paranoid? The human was harmless, well screw it, she was going to bed. But Twilight wont calm down untill she does something.

Luna!Yeah Tia?

I need to go to ponyville and see whats bothering Twilight, she wont shut up about that human.

Tia don't you think this human might really be a threat? A lot can happen in a few hundred years.

Just go, I want to enjoy my music...

Ughh, fine, you really do deserve the title, "Trollestia"

You bet your flank, now get out of here.

Shelden 1st person

Finnally free from that wretched place he calls his mind. Ahh, well least he was dumb enough to try out fixing his bone. Even the least experienced in blood magic know healing yourself without something to drained from causes immense pain and black outs. Well it isn't his fault he is left in the dark, I am his teacher after all. But I can't reveal much untill he is willing to submit, or else he could over power me. He could likely do it, unlike his fool father. Wonder how he is enjoying those memories? Hah, and I have his brother to thank for this. It is surprising how much you can bend another will with a little fear and torture. Even the strongest willed cannot overcome fear. Perhaps I will teach Alistar how to do this? It would be interesting to see how he uses such knowledge. A little cut there, a whisper here, is al it takes. The child didn't stand a chance.

Alistar 1st person

"Come on breath please" I was over my brother, I had just gotten him to sturdy ground. I checked his heart. No beat.

"Don't you die on me, your all I have" I said with tears in my eyes. I pushed on his chest repeatedly, then I blew into his mouth. Mother called it "CPR" it can apparently force the body to come back to life, if it is done soon enough. But he was far to cold, even if I did get him back he would die again from hypothermia.

"Please I'll do anything, just don't leave me"

I was getting despite, I sent a tiny shock into his chest, with relief I heard a faint beep. I remembered my mothers words again. A rapid change in cold will affect the brain the most, combined with poor care, even if they heal, they will never be the same. I saw in my mind, my brother trying to live a normal life but failing. As others looked down on him for his dissabilitys.

"I refuse for you to live your life that way"

I forced myself into his mind, a very dangerous thing to do, for anything could happen in his mind. But I could repair what ever damage has happened. Before entering I surrounded us in a weak bubble, enough so I wont die of the cold while inside his mind.***"John you here" Icalled into oblivion, this was a bad sign, no coherent thought meant he was possibly brain dead. No, I refuse to accept this. Take me instead.

"I can give you such"

"Who's there?"

"A friend" "What do you want?"

"I want to help you,I only ask one thing in return"

"and w-what might that be"

"Entry into your mind"

I considered it, this being was untrustworthy but it was my brothers only chance of a normal life. I didn't care what would happen to me, so long as he was ok. I don't care how he is here, so long as he follows his end of the deal. I knew what to ask for, to bind him to this deal.

"I... Want a contract"

"HAHAHAHA... a bold one... very well you will have your contract." a contract appeared in front of me, with a quill, but no ink, we were not going to use ink. But I would not sign something without looking over it. I knew how these beings played, they'd always find a way to cheat you out of your end. Even if it would not benefit them. I skimmed it, for every second counted for my brother, I stopped halfway through, my brother wont live much longer. I signed on the dotted line, I felt pain through my body as my blood appeared on the contract. Nothing could seal us closer. "There now follow your end of the deal"

"Very well" It smiled, I didn't really see it, but felt it.

***

I gasped awake, looking over at my brother, I saw his eyes fluttering.

"Oh thank god"

I then realized what I had given for my brother, possibly my very soul, but it was worth it.

***

I had never been happier, my brother was awakening. I put a big smile on my face, I wanted my brother to live the best life possible, and if putting on a smile helps, I will.

He awoke with cold, emotionless eyes he looked right at me and said nothing. "John...are you ok?"

No response.

"No... you should, I mean..."

I was overcome with grief, it HAD cheated me. Even worse, my brother would be better dead, this was not my brother. There was no soul, no spark. It was just a body, nothing more.

"YOU FUCKER WHAT DID YOU DO?" "I did what I said I would, your brother IS alive, his soul just isn't there, I had made a little deal with another so, involving your brother."

"Who did it!?" I asked in anger, I ould tear them limb from limb.

"Your father"

I was shocked, dumbfounded, was my father really that monstrous?

"Allow me to explain, your father wanted ower, so he contacted me through a blood ritual, he used your mother to bring me here, she was a good offering" I shivered, but not from the cold. "like I said, he asked for power, I gave it to him. It seems he couldn't control it. He was going insane. Weak fool. He asked for one more deal. I take away his power for your brother. I did that, I took all his power, life,blood, magic ,everything. I then struck a deal with your innocent brother. I set him free if I give him you. He resisted, at first, but torture is very persuasive." I nearly puked, he...he...." He accepted, he only wanted the pain to stop, again, weak like his father. It seems he wanted another way to try to get rid of me, through his own death. He hopped that cold would dissuade me, fool, I am not from hell but from the darkest parts of the soul. Luckily, for me, you came by to save him. And I, never one to leave a deal unstuck gave you your brother back. Since he, in a way, gave you to me. I followed up my deal and set him free. So now, lets us get down to business"

***

I was... words can't describe how I felt. Shocked? Mortified? Nones describe it well enough. I had given, everything, for nothing.

"Now in the contract, it said you are to be my student, I will make you such. But must earn this honor. I will now cause you to forget your family, ou will love no human being, this will allow you to only hate now... enjoy"

***"

My head" I said awakening in a rundown house.I felt a buzzing in the back of my head. Not sure what it was, I ignored it. Across the strange room I saw a human ,boy to be precise. He seemed unmoving, like he didn't care for life. To say the least It was creepy. The buzzing increased, it seemed to want me to do something about this kid. But what. Right before I left te room, to try to find supples, it came to me. This child was a demon, it made me forget and tortured me. Overcome with anger I went over and punched it in the face.

No response.

"What think you can fool with me and get away with it" I yelled in anger, kicking him in the throat. It had trouble breathing, I was oddly happy seeing the monster suffer. I was going to get all it deserved. I felt a unkown anger fuel me on. I hit and hit again, even after it stopped moving. When I was done I felt oddly... happy.

***

"No... I... I... Killed my own brother..." How could this happen? This thing has turned me into a monster. I killed my 7 year old brother. I wasn't even 13. I layed down in the abyss, yet again overcome with grief.Shelden 1st person

Ahh Alistar is finished with the memory, hope he enjoyed it. I particularly did. Neverbfr ad I out smarted a whole family. Quite an achievement. I even got a promising student to go with it. He must be close to giving in, if I'm able to kill these dumb ponys he will have nothing left to live for.The more grief he feels, the stronger I am. I might even be able to talk to these ponys before I kill them. Oh how wonderful. Oh I feel them coming...

I quickly climbed a tree, hiding in the branches, completely unnoticeable.

"Princess," ohh a princess, this will be fun. "please don't underestimate this human, he nearly-"

"I know what he nearly did, Celestia doesn't believe, but I do" Hmm, she could be a potential threat. "So"The princess continued "this human says he is plagued by a voice, a monster?"

"Yes, Princess Luna, he says it was the monster in him that attacked us"

"There is more to this then meets the eye"

"Indeed there is Princess" I said, dropping out of the branches. "There is so much more then you could even comprehend"

They seemed to be surprised to see me, my I mustn't have left much of an impression.

"What? Don't remember me? I Killed the purple one over there. The weak one may have brought you back, but surely you couldn't forget such pain and fear"

This seemed to spark anger from them, especially the rainbow maned one.

Before she could get enough courage  attack I said "Ahh, Ahh, Ahh, remember what happened last time you attacked me? You broke quite a few fo my ribs, but I think I came out on top of the exchange"

This caused fear to flash across her face, she must remember the pain of being drained. "Ahh, you remember, but perhaps you need another lesson" I lifted my left hand, well Alistar''s hand, towards her. I heard her scream in pain, while I grew strong. "STOP" I felt something block me from my fun, I was restrained, again, but more securely this time.

I smiled, they could not hold me for long.

"What? Can't I have some fun with my future subjects?" I said mockingly.

"How dare YOU!"

She made a mistake, she was so concerned with constricting my chest, she forgot about my hands. I Rased my left, she stopped as the pain hit her. I cried, in pain and fear. I wasn't sucking her life, I was ending it. The others tried to stop, but I sliced up any that got too close. I could feel myself weakining. What was happening. Alistar must be taking control.

rather feel pain

***Alistar 1st person

I felt horrible. I was a monster. I'd let down my only friends, killed my brother. There is no telling what other horrible things I had done. Over come with grief, I sang. There was nothing left to do.

Pain by Three Day Grace

*Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb

You're not the only one

I'll take you by the hand

And I'll show you a world that you can understand

This life is filled with hurt

When happiness doesn't work

Trust me and take my hand

When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony

Are better than misery

Trust me, I've got a plan

When the lights go off, you will understand

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing, rather feel pain

I know, I know that you're wounded

You know, you know that I'm here to save you

You know, you know I'm always here for you

I know, I know that you'll thank me later*

I felt myself slowly gaining control, I don't know if it is emotional release, or from  saying one big "Fuck you Shelden" but I didn't care, I just kept on.

Pain, without love

Pain, can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Rather feel pain than nothing at all

Rather feel pain

The world slowly came into contrast, I felt myself again. I truly, would rather feel pain.

No Escape: 8

Hope your enjoying the longer chapters. From the one and only. - ME

Oh yeah... tell me if it is too soon. You'll know what I'm talking about.

No Escape

I opened my eyes to see ponys cowering, not what I wanted to see. I let my arm down, allowing them to move freely.

"You should kill me" This filled each and every one of them with shock.

"Is... that..."

"Yes, it is."

Silense.

"I'm going to go "sleep" by that tree. If I don't wake up I'll understand. If I wake up in a dungeon I'll understand. If you see him, kill him without hesitation"

I now realize they don't really know my plan, well might as well tell them.

"I'm going to go in a self-induced coma. When I wake up he should be gone, or be under control. If I'm not in control. He won. Kill me wthout hesitation. Without question" I didn't wait for them to respond, I went over to the tree I pointed out, the owner of the fucking root. Right before I got started I used electricity to burn a big "FUCK TREES"into the bark. With satisfaction I got started. They were too awestruck by what was happening to do anything. I smiled widely before being encased in darkness.

***

I appeared in a long, dark hallway. It was difficult to remember my reason being here.

"How clique...couldn't it be something a little more awesome, like a maze?" just like that the hallway began reshaping itself.

"Aww fuck" why did I have to open my big mouth? As I tried to imagine the hallway I got a roaring headache. "WELL FUCK YOU TOO BRAIN"  damn, now I have to stumble my way around.

"left, right, right, left, no it was uh right, left, left, right... aw damn it". I had tried to backtrack to the start as it went to a dead end. Well I'm lost, might as well pick a random direction and say "fuck you maze". I did that and guess what? It worked out. My mind simply amazes me at times. I came across a door, entitled "Fears" it had to be this door huh? The one door I come across happens to be my fears. Fuck you universe. Haven't screwed me over enough already huh?

Well, I am tired of this shit. I'm going in their and I'm going to conquer my fears. If it doesn't kill you it makes you stronger right? Right. This can only end well.

***

"Alistar please don't do it"

"I'm sorry... I can't stop"

"No please, please Pl-"There was a resounding crack as I broke Twilights neck, I looked down at the bodes of my friends. I closed my eyes, hoping it wasn't true. I heard their screams of pain as I tortured some of them, their pained gasps as I sucked the life out of them, their begging... But I couldn't stop, I wasn't in control. This had played over, and over again. Each time worse than the last. Their begging hurting me more and more as time went on. The worst part is... I felt nothing, no satisfaction, pain, or misery. For lack of a better word... I felt cold. I had lost feeling a long time ago. I could hear laughing in the distance. I sighed as the act played out again.

Twilight 3rd person

"Is... he ok?"

"No, ever since he was brought 2 weeks ago, he has been getting worse and worse. We don't know how he is still alive as long as he has gone without nutrients or water. He has been screaming, you might want to consider... putting him out of his misery"

Twilight was the one assigned to help watch over Alistar today. Celestia put him deep in a dungeon/hospital. Alistar was bound, strapped to a chair. He couldn't have gotten out as metal was holding him to it. His hands were bloody from his thrashing about. All his friends felt his pain, as he was fighting a battle on their behalf. One they could not interfere in. They had all taken turns watching him. Fluttershy really had it bad, as she had continued crying several days after her turn. So Celestia and Luna filled in her spot when the others were not around.

They had all tried everything they could to make his stay more bearable. Pinkie had even tried to make him a party. But it wasn't allowed. It was deemed "a threat to security" by the warden. He was times at heard crying, or laughing. It was hard to decide if they should free him from his pain. But they couldn't do it. They still had hope.

"Can.. I go in?"

"Sure, but if he breaks out and strangles you don't blame me" said the warden, a Unicorn almost pure white, mane and all. This was a low blow, it was well known what had happened involving them all. Without dignifying that with a response Twilight walked through the iron door. A quite expensive metal, as they had yet to industrialize the metal industry. Alistar was in the center of the room, unmoving. He couldn't move much anyway as both of his hands and feet are clad in iron. They had some difficulty with his claw hand, but were able to sufficiently bind it. He was bleeding all over the floor, they had to constantly heal him with magic and antibiotics as many times as his wrists were rubbed raw. There are leather straps across his chest, further preventing him from moving. It was a safety precaution, for him as well as the ponys around him. Once he panics, the straps are the one thing keeping him from breaking his own neck.

"Hello"

Twilight was dumbstruck. Alistar's eyes were still closed, his lips unmoving. It seemed to appear in her own mind.

"Indeed it is"

Twilight panicked, she ran for the door, but as hard as she pulled it wouldn't budge. The ponys on the other side of the glass seemed to know that something was wrong, The door would not move from either way. As if it was held by magic.

"What do you w-want" Twilight stammered. This seemed to cause the voice great amusement.

"Haha" it chuckled " All I want is for you to come closer"

Twilight was moving towards the chair against her own will. She tried to fight it but couldn't.

"Yes just a little closer" Twilight was terrified to say the least. What was it going to do  her? "Oh I'm not going to do anything" it boomed in her head "That is Alistars job" Alistar's body opened its eyes. Twilight gasped, his one blue eye was nearly red. He had near full control. She felt herself feel light headed. She collapsed right there on the ground, as darkness surrounded her.

Warden 3rd person

"Someone get that door open!"

"We're trying sir, but it wont budge"

The warden growled, he wasn't going to let that little Filly die at the hands of that thing.

"You, go get the Princesses" He shouted at the nearest guard "Tell them there is a problem with the prisoner, it involves one of the elements of harmony"

"Yes sir" the earth pony replied dutifully. The warden quickly forgot the other guards presence, he expected the job to get done, and get done right.

The warden concentrated his horn on the door, pushing with all his strength. Not even an inch. He was going to have his work cut out for him.

Alistar 1st person

"Why can't I just die? I have had enough of this" I had watched this far too many times. I had even taken the initiative to kill my friends out of choice, it was far better than allowing them to be tortured. I had killed them all but one. Twilight. It had to be her huh? I had quickly killed the others, painless, one simple snap of the neck. They didn't even know what happened. None of them even had time to fear. Execpt Twilight. She had run, I felt guilt for letting her feel fear. But if I didn't kill her I will lose control and torture her. It seemed all too realistic.

I heard crying ahead, I felt guilt, but she will thank me for what I'm about to do. "Don't do it Alistar" she begged "You are not a monster"

"I am, I am only doing this the least painful way for you as possible"

"But I'm REAL, you don't have to do this"

"Your'e not real, this is a nightmare, it can't end untill Shelden is satisfied. I'm sorry, but it is either this or he takes control and tortures you."

"What do I have to do to convince you this is real?

" "Nothing, because this isn't real"

"You have yet to kill me, so you must believe there is a chance I'm real"

"Don't make this harder than it is. This hurts me as well"

"I AM REAL, come and tell me I'm not, I have memories from before I met you, your mind can't fabricate what it does not know"

"How do I know your not lying?"

"You... don't"

I put my left hand around her throat. She squirmed, with those all to big eyes. It felt so real... her fur so soft. Can I really kill my friends? Well, I already have, they just haven't realized it yet.

To my surprise, Twilight leaned forward, and gave me a quick peck on the lips. I dropped her, this was something I had never thought of... she was definitely real.

"Twilight"

"Yes..."

"It is you... Isn't it"

She nodded.

I bent over and cried, I had almost REALLY killed one of my friends. I could never forgive myself if it really happened. In fact, I CAN'T forgive myself for almost doing it. Twilight hummed a "It's ok". I gave a half hug with my left arm. I couldn't risk hurting her with my claw. I couldn't help but sing... damn do I always go to that when I'm depressed?

I can't escape this hell

So many times I've tried

But I'm still caged inside

Somebody get me through this nightmare

I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me

No one will ever change this animal I have become

Help me believe it's not the real me

Somebody help me tame this animal!

This animal, this animal

I can't escape myself

So many times I've lied

But there's still rage inside

Somebody get me through this nightmare

I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me

No one will ever change this animal I have become

Help me believe it's not the real me

Somebody help me tame this animal I have become

Twilight started humming quitetly along, I smiled in thanks.

Help me believe it's not the real me

Somebody help me tame this animal

Somebody help me through this nightmare

I can't control myself

Somebody wake me from this nightmare

I can't escape this hell

This animal, this animal

This animal, this animal

This animal, this animal

This animal

So what if you can see the darkest side of me

No one will ever change this animal I have become

Help me believe it's not the real me

Somebody help me tame this animal I have become

Help me believe it's not the real me

Somebody help me tame this animal!

This animal I have become

I knew she would be there for me. That is all that matters. Perhaps there was hope after all?

***

I awoke groggy, I heard a door bang open, metal of some kind. Oh no... I was restrained. Well what did I expect? If I wasn't restrained there would probably be people dead. Even if it had nothing to do with me losing my fight with Sheldon. I could hardly notice the hoof pressing into my throat, I was panicking far too much. I heard some type of yelling then... nothing... darkness.

Memories: 9

Memories

"Hmm... seems we have a blood mage here... age 15, plenty of time to overcome possible difficulties"

"What are you talking about?"

"Do you remember the demon? See that mark on your hand? It is a calling card. I'm sure we can find a use for you"

Darkness.

***

"Where... am I?"

"Don't worry... you will have a use in this world"

***

I gasped as I was awakened, who were those people... what did they do? Do I truly want to know? An insufferable buzzing sounded in my head...

"AGHHHHH" it was the most painful thing I had ever experienced, it felt as if my head was exploding. "KILL ME" I shouted without thinking, for deaths sweet embrace would be better than this.

Darkness.

***

"hmm... he is not acting well to the stimulants... hit him again" I felt the wind get knocked out of me as I was punched in the stomach. I gasped for breath that would never come. I was bound to a chair in a dark room. Bleeding from every possible place, there where several holes in my skin, one in particular on my left hand. I felt it rather than saw it, for I could not move at all. Seems they didn't want me trying to escape or ending my miserable life.

"Subject has yet to overcome pain, he wont be accepted untill such a thing has been accomplished..."

***

"What is happening" I heard a concerned voice go through my mind.

"Must be a side effect of the medicine, quick, bind him, he is sure to hurt himself with his thrashing"

***

"Subject is stable, proceed" I felt a foreign chemical surging through my veins, I felt a unimaginable bloodlust overtake me.

"Release him" I felt my iron bonds come off, without even thinking I struck the nearest object. I heard a satisfying, childlike scream, I pounced upon the screaming object, I ripped its throat out with my teeth.

Satisfaction.

I spied a strange wall, different from the regular grey, I could see the outline of a  being on the other side. Fueled with rage I propelled myself towards the object. I heard a satisfying crack as the glass was damaged, before I could destroy the being a shock spread throughout myself.

Darkness.

***

"Heart rate is rapidly falling, he is going into shock, give him a shot of adrenaline" I felt a sharp object pierce my skin. I felt a rush of energy, but it didn't stop it...

Darkness.

***

"Subject has grown well, should be ready for task group soon."

"Give me a summary of Alan Starr"

"Of corse, subject is highly resistant to pain, when given drug Omega Saint Subject goes into suicidal rage, will do nicely as shock trooper, has limited magical ability, but grows stronger when wounds are inflicted upon it. Has lost most if not all higher thought, it has grown to fear being bound, often causing it to lash out without thinking."

"What of the demon?"

"A side effect of Omega Saint prevents the demon from accessing its puppet. Its powers are ours to play with"

"What are the possibility of the demon taking control?"

"Slim to none, you can tell how much control it has by the color of its eyes, the redder the more control it has. But we cannot completely remove the demon. Doing so will kill the subject."

"What of the Subjects claw?"

"A side effect of the demon being in his mind, it likely took Subjects hand and replaced it with its own so it will always be apart of it"

"Do you have experience with such things?"

"Yes, remember this is not the first one the Congress has instructed me to make. Just the first child. Due to this the Subject will be far stronger than previous Subjects."

"How can we control him?"

"You don't really, he is wearing a collar, filled with high voltages of electricity. You drop him at the destination you wish to be destroyed, when he is finished you set off the charge, then use the tracking device implanted in the collar to find him."

What if-" he was interrupted by a red light, followed by a blaring alarm.

"Subject is lose, we shall commune later"

***

"Paient stabilizing, heart rate returning to normal, stand by in case he goes into shock again"

"Should we fetch the Princesses to say that Paient is awake?"

"No, he needs his rest. Any attempt at talking could send him into shock again"

"Yes sir"

***

"Hello subject... I see you have found a way to remove the collar?"

"I am going to end your pitiful life, human, no one keeps me from my prize"

"Please... P-Please spare me"

"I am going to have fun with you..." His screams were heard by the few survivors of the facility, it stayed that way for hours on end. They hid, hoping they would be spared, They didn't know he had no need for mercy...

***

I awoke bound to a table, for once I didn't panic. I could hardly believe what I had gone through. So many questions left unanswered, yet so many I wish were not answered at all.

"Please unbind me" I yelled out, my voice carrying far across the busy hallways. With in seconds a nurse came around, looking quite sheepish, an earth pony blue eyes, brown fur, gray mane. I didn't have time to pay much more attention as my head began hurting, not quite as much as before, but enough to knock the air out of me. The nurse called something down the hall, but I didn't listen as I was in a lot of pain. I nearly blacked out from the throbbing inside my skull, but I resisted as I didn't want to relive such horrible memories. I saw the masked faces say things I couldn't hear. I would not be able to hold on much longer.

The pain slowly subsided, seems they injected something into me to stop it. I was forever grateful.

It felt like it was several minutes since I woke up, they had finally unshackled me, right before I started panicking too. I spied Celestia in the door way. I opened my mouth to explain but she responded with a "Twilight explained everything, no need to worry. We have medication for you that should prevent you from losing yourself. Talk to Dr. Whorse about it if you wish to know more" just like that she left. I didn't even have time to say hello. Damn, she must be real busy to not pay any attention to the crazy human with a demon hand that has the power to defeat a goddess and the six elements of harmony. Yup REAL busy.

I waited around for Dr. Whorse to show up, I didn't have to wait long as Dr. Whorse showed up within the minute. I nearly busted out laughing at Dr. Whorse. I couldn't tell if her name had something to do with her skimpy outfit, or her lollypop cutie mark you get from the Dr. when you were a kid. Either way, it was hilarious.

"Well" she said in a sultry voice, her blond hair complementing her equally blond fur "The medicine we give you will stop that voice in your head, while also preventing most uses of your magic, I hope that wont be a problem deary"

I'm sorry, I couldn't help myself, I just laughed and laughed and laughed. Dr. Whorse didn't know what I was laughing about but she joined in. Today is a good day.

I was prepped to leave the strange hospital soon, it seems this place hadn't been active in a few hundred years since a pony went suicidal. Man how happy go lucky is this place? There were deep scars in my wrists, now I look like even more of a badass. Well now I'm not likely to get many more due to Shelden being under control. The pills really do work wonders. I'd say it is worth nearly losing all my magic. I suppose it could be considered "resistance training" as I could feel unknown power surge through me. Not as powerful as before, but enough so that I can try out new things. I don't know the full extent of these new powers, but perhaps that is for the best.

I went around in a hospital gown untill Rarity got me new clothes. The previous pair was beyond repair, mud soaked, blood covered and torn. I asked for something less colorful, didn't want to come off as a walking rainbow, like Dash. She did what I requested, rather sourly at that. I didn't get something as colorful as last time. But just as mind boggling. I had black jeans, Black T-shirt, With a white vest, Inlaid with gold. It looked great, but I wasn't too happy about how much attention it would draw. Well, at least it wont draw AS MUCH attention as the last outfit. I told her I would find a way to pay her back, she said not to worry about it, but I will find a way to pay her back. I don't much like owing favors, even to my friends.

All my friends visited me, Twilight a little more than others. We didn't talk about what happened in my mind. Perhaps it was for the best. But I felt a strange longing that I wish her visits were not so short. She was only there for about an hour every other day. But there are more important things to think about like umm... I'll get to those things later then.

Pinkie said she wanted me to get better as soon as possible as she was throwing a "Welcome back from the hospital after nearly killing us again party". I didn't like the name much, but once Pinkie is set on something there is no changing her mind.

I hadn't realized how dependent on magic I was for substances. I had hardly eaten since I had newly arrived here, a carrot here, an apple there. But no, without my magic I was constantly eating. Celestia was nice enough to get me the meat I required. It was only fish,  that they usually only gave to the visiting griffins, but it was delicious to say the least. They have little to nothing that I can eat. It was difficult to get a good source of Carbs and fat. Seems Celestia needed to pull some strings to get me some potatoes. I specifically requested them due to their high amount of Carbs. I was like always, grateful to her. I was able to get every thing else I needed from the local vegetation and fruits.

Well, I was now leaving, I got started on my walk to ponyville, only to be stopped by the staff saying "I had to take the train" well, I would have liked a nice long walk but I suppose I can't argue with the people who had to put up with my shit the last few days.

It was an uneventful ride, I soon arrived at Ponyville to be embraced by my friends. I hadn't been this happy in a long time. They led me over to the library, guess there is no time to waste?