The Blue Spark Diary

Everypony was in newfound high spirits. The celebration was going swell. But, Spike still hasn't told Twilight of his troubles. While the girls were catching up, I went off looking for him. He was in the kitchen, preparing something. Strange that. A dragon that can cook.

"Are you feeling alright, Spike?"

"Yeah, thanks. Rarity mentioned that you wanted to organise a party for Twi. It's very sweet of you, y'know."

"It's nothing" I reply ",you probably would've sorted one out if I didn't."

"But it's because you did it. We can all see that your sorry about...lets not speak of it."

I give out a small smile.

"And...im sorry, Ember. I shouldn't have put you through all that yesterday."

I didn't want to talk about the whole event, so I stayed quiet.

"I'm feeling much better now though. Fluttershy is really good at looking after dragons! Even though she is scared of them. Like this one time where Fluttershy and the girls went on what was probably an epic adventure to stop a huge dragon from polluting Ponyville with its snores! Twilight said Fluttershy was so brave when confronting it, and she saved the girls, AND Ponyville! For a shy, scaredy pony, she is amazing!"

I can tell Spikes mood is on the up.

"I have noticed! She is really caring for her friends." I bluntly respond.

There was an awkward silence.

"So...why did you want me?" Asks Spike.

"I was going to ask if you have mentioned your troubles to Twilight?"

"Oh, yea, I was-"

"Troubles? What troubles?" Twilight said from behind us.

This was quite startling.

"Ugh! Twilight! You scared us!" Spike says.

"Sorry..." Twilight blushes.

"But I was looking for you two, and overheard talking. Thinking it was you, I walked in. What's troubling you Spike?"

He looks at me, concerned, so I cover for him.

"I...don't think-"

"No. I promised you." Spike interrupts.

Twilight looks confused.

"Oh...well, I will leave you to it then.". I proceed to leave the kitchen because this was Spikes time to talk, not mine.

I make my way back to the others.

"Good gravy girl! Where have you been? Your missing out!" Says Applejack.

"I was making sure Spike was ok. He is talking with Twilight about his depression, like he promised me."

"Ah. Makes sense."

"Come join us, Sparks!" Rainbow shouts.

I wasn't paying attention to what the girls were talking about, all my concern was with Twilight and Spike. I just kept looking at the direction of the kitchen.

"Something wrong, Ember?" Asks Applejack.

"N-no. Nothing, I'm fine."

"Are you sure? You look worried" Fluttershy asks.

"Really. I'm fine."

"I'm not buying that. If something's up, you can tell us! We're your friends, you can tell us anything!" Offers a curious Applejack.

"It's just...". I sit on the floor with a thud.

"It's those two. Spike and Twilight. I can't stop thinking about them."

The girls looked at each other.

"Aww, did anypony tell you how cute you look when you are concerned? You're A-DOR-A-BLE!" Pinkie spouts.

"Pinkie...be serious." demands Rainbow.

"I am being serious! Just look at-ohhhh, you mean serious in THAT way! I get it! I know you care about them both Sparky, but you can't take AAAALLLLL responsibility for everything that happens! You just have to let things handle themselves! Otherwise, you will end up with too many problems that aren't even yours! I can understand, because I do it all the time without realising! Like when just this morning, before we went to go see Fluttershy and Spike, Mr and Mrs cake were wondering what their next big cake project should be, and I started to think of SOOOOOOO many ideas for what they could bake-"

"We get it Pinkie." Applejack says, annoyed.

"Sorry, I can't help it!"

"Pinkie is right, though. You relax a bit, y'know? You ain't long got out of hospital"

Before anypony could add, somepony was knocking on the front door.

"Oh oh oh! Can I answer it? Please?!" Pinkie exitedly pleaded.

"Well, yeah. If you want." Rainbow says.

Pinkie opens the door, to reveals Zecora.

"Pinkie Pie! A pleasant surprise!"

"Hello Zecora! Is there something I can help you with?"

"A question, I own. Tell me, is Twilight home?"

"Yep! You want to see her? Come right in!"

Zecora walks into the room.

"I see you ponys are having a celebration. What's the occasion?"

"We're welcoming Twilight back home." Applejack answered.

"She got released from the hospital today! Can you believe it?!" Pinkie exclaimed.

Zecora was dumbstruck.

"Zecora?" I asked.

"Nopony told me Twilight was ill...or that she had a hospital bill"

"Twilight had a hospital bill? Since when?!" Pinkie Pie worries.

Under her breath, Rainbow says "Pinkie, shut up! She had to rhyme something with ill! Its not as easy as it sounds!"

"Oooohhhhh....but she doesn't have a hospital bill, right?" "Pinkie Pie! Shhh!"

Unbeknownst to us, Twilight had made her way into the room, eyes wide. We all look over to her.

"Spike...I want you to come in here." she says.

Spike reluctantly made his way in. He sits down on the floor, and so does Twilight.

"I know this isn't easy for you. It wouldn't be easy for anypony. But I don't care if you feel better or not, I want you to tell me about your problem, as you call it. It will carry on if you don't tell me...I can help you..."

The girls had sat down by Spike and Twilight, but me and Zecora had stayed standing.

"Whatever it is Spike...you can tell me..."

"I..." Spike struggled to speak.

"...I haven't been feeling happy for a long time besides today...I can't remember the last time I was even remotely happy...".

Twilight became shocked. How could she not have realised?

Spike continued.

"And...I have been having bad thoughts...bad thoughts like I don't deserve to be...alive...and that I don't deserve to have all of you as my friends...I don't want to think these things, but I do. I can't help it. I want to get better, but I haven't had the courage to tell-".

Spike was cut off by Twilight breaking down into tears at her troubled friend.

"There there, sugarcube." Applejack says as she comforts Twilight.

"My oh my, I couldn't have guessed, that Spikes outlook on life was so depressed..." quietly remarks Zecora.

"I didn't want to see you like this, so I stayed quiet, Twi..." Spike adds.

"You did the right thing Spike. None of us like to see you upset..." Rarity says.

Spike stands up. He walks over to the broken Twilight.

"I'm sorry."

Suddenly, Twilight grabs Spike and hugs him. She has lost her composure, and bursts out crying.

"*sob*...don't be sorry...*sob*...it's not your fault..." Says Twilight, after some time

They let go, and Twilight kisses Spike atop his forehead, just like he had done to her at the hospital. Fluttershy was bawling at the situation. I almost was too.

"Just remember Spike" says Applejack "If you need us, for anything, were here."

After this, Zecora and I talked.

"I'm sorry, my little pony, I am ashamed. I forgot to ask of your name!"

"That's ok. And its Ember Sparks." I replied.

"just so you know, those pills you gave me...they worked wonders. I haven't been sleeping this well since I was a fillie! Thank you, Zecora!"

"Splendid news, Ember! I had my doubts! I will make you some more before you run out."

I smile, in appreciation.

"So what did you want to ask Twilight?" I wonder.

"I thought Twilight knew, where I could find you."

"You wanted me? Oh. I'm gathering about my name and how was things going?" I reply.

"Uh huh." Zecora answers, probably trying to make speaking easy on herself.

"I must get going, I have much to do." Zecora announces to everypony.

"see you soon!" She concludes.

Funny how she does that rhyming thing.