Dark Sparks

I woke up, alone in the empty hospital. I couldn't move, something was stopping me. I was stopping me. My head was in so much pain, I couldn't think straight. I wanted to weep it was that painful. What is wrong with me?

Nopony was to be seen. No doctors or nurses, no patients, nothing. Just me. I couldn't recall what happened before we got into my old house. The names of the girls had gone again, too.

"Melancholy Teardrops...Future Pixel...Ascending Shadows..." I repeat again, desperate not to forget.

Oh Celestia it hurts.

After saying this, probably a couple hundred times, I break. I can't face the fact I may never remember anything again. Maybe I will forget that I ever had them as friends...forget that ever had a family...even forget who I am. The sky was clear, and sun beamed through the window onto my chest. There was no beeping sound I expect to hear...my mind just wanders without me even realising.

Hoofsteps, coming from the hallway, outside the door.

It was Skyline.

"You should be grateful that Rainbow brought you here! What happened?"

"I...I can't remember..."

The doctors alert expression turned into a 'lost cause' kind of one.

"Where...where is she?" I ask.

"Rainbow said she wanted to get the 'others', because she couldn't handle this by herself, but she could be gone for a few days. Ponyville is quite far away from here. Did you find the house? Or the book?"

"I...think so...check my...bag."

Skyline looks in my bag and pulls out a book.

"'The Blue Spark Diary'..." He says.

"That's it...could...could you...read it out?"

"Read it out? You want me to..."

"...I can't...move my legs...otherwise I would read it...myself."

"...sure. I'll read it."

I felt like a kid again, getting my dad to read me a bedtime story. I think after a while even the doctor was interested. He questioned the fact that it is actually a diary at some points, rather than just a story.

As each page was read, I recalled certain moments, and names, only for them to just disintegrate from my mind thereafter. The pain in my head had subsided to a throbbing feeling of blood coursing gently through my veins. I could move again, too.

The doctor didn't read it all. But he had read enough.

"Wow...they did do alot for you...I can see why you wouldn't want to forget them..."

I didn't pay much attention to what the doctor was saying, I was just trying to remember what those two pills in the bag were for. It has to be important, and there isn't many leftover.

I can just about remember that I shown them to some doctor in another hospital, and he made some more for me, so that I wouldn't run out. But somepony gave them to me before that...that, I can't remember at all. Were the pills keeping me alive? Did I have a condition?

It occurred to me that the doctor could probably make some more of these pills, but do I want him to? If they are keeping me alive, why don't I just finish taking them? I feel horrible, and I can't remember why, my old 'friends' are just people to me now and most of all, I miss my family. The day I forget who they were will be the day I wont care about anything anymore.

"Ember?"

"...yes?"

"You have been staring into space for five minutes now."

My perception of time seems to be broken, too.

Skyline looks into my bag again. At the sight of the remaining pills, he takes a concerning breath.

"I don't suppose you remember what these pills are for?"

"...no..."

"Great..."

The doctor takes out a book from a cabinet beside him. He mutters the words as he reads them.

"...no...blue pills...not them....red...not them either...aha! 'clear pills or clear medicines are usually associated with sleep troubles, particularly periodic nightmares'."

Well, not so much keeping me alive.

"I...have nightmares?"

"It looks that way. Don't worry though, I will remind you to take them. I'm a doctor, after all."

I take the book from Skyline.

"I think I'm going to read the rest of it. Kill some hours."

"Very well." Skyline finishes.

I immerse myself with the book, once again. Taking in as much detail as I can. Night falls quicker than I expected, or even realise.

"Time for you to get some rest, Ember. Don't forget the pill." Skyline says from the hallway.

"Thanks doctor."