True Feelings

by rirepink

Rating: teen
Tags: Human, Slice of Life, Alternate Universe, Sad, Romance
Length: 4649

"Darkness... I hate darkness, it makes me defenseless. But it's not the darkness that frightens me. It's the unknowing of something that hides in the obscurity. And you never know what expects you there." - Rainbow Dash

At first I wanted to create a horror story with blood and guts and stuff, but It felt like I create a "monster" similar to "Cupcakes". Well, this one is a mixed story: It has some blood, but it's not what it looks like - It's a romance story, so… enjoy reading.

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2015-05-11 03:30:01 UTC

Nightmare

Chapter 1: "Nightmare"

"Darkness... I hate darkness, it makes me defenseless. But it's not the darkness that frightens me. It's the unknowing of something that hides in the obscurity. And you never know what expects you there." - Rainbow Dash

Rainbow-haired girl regained conscience. She couldn't see anything, it was a dark room. Lying on the floor, she tried to refresh her memory, but it was useless; She couldn't recall anything. The room was cold; Bleak as ice. Air was dry and she could barely breath. After calming herself down, she tried to get up, but every muscle of her body ached as hell.

Somehow Rainbow Dash managed to get up, but she was exhausted. Every movement of her body was painful. She could hardly swallow the air. Cold sweat drops appeared on her body as she tried to walk in the darkness. While walking, she called for help: "Hello? Is anybody there!...". It was useless, she was alone in the obscure room. After walking a few meters she bumped into an iron door. She opened the door with a creak, echoing across the corridor. At the end of it she could recognize a dim light. It was very far, she began walking to the light, but she was so tired that she could just fall on the floor. Her legs were aching, and her throat was dry. The only hope she had was a strange dim light. Maybe it was her chance to get out of here.

Walking along the endless corridor was really exhausting; She wanted to sleep, and her eyes began closing by themselves, sticking together. Finally, she could reach the light. It was just a tiny flashlight, she picked it up and continued searching for the exit. The flashlight was too small and weak to produce enough light to disperse the darkness around her. In this situation somebody would say: "Better this than nothing", but she won't. She couldn't see anything, flashlight just made an illusion of 'safety', it was useless.

After walking about a few hours, she found a crossing. There were three ways to go: front, right and left.

From the front way was blowing a disgusting smell. She couldn't recognize what it was, but the smell was really awful. It smelled like something rotten. She definitely will not go this way. Well, now it's one choice lesser. While she was thinking which one to choose, the flashlight slowly fade. "Damn it, guess I was wrong about flashlight, it was useful..." - she thought with a regret.

Suddenly, on the left side small light appeared far from Rainbow Dash. That was strange, maybe it was a trap, no it certainly was a trap. She quickly ran into the right side, as fast as she could. After she made sure that she was far away from the crossing, she walked on the right side of corridor. She tried to find something on the walls, maybe there would be a switch to turn on the lights, but there was nothing. Sometimes she could find something fluid, it was a strange liquid. She couldn't see what it was, so she stopped searching switch on the walls.

Corridor was literally endless, and she couldn't find anything. She stopped for a break. Darkness didn't scared her, not anymore. And as she thought about this, a few moments later a bright flash of light attacked her eyes. She quickly closed her eyes for a few seconds. After opening them her eyes couldn't adapt new conditions, they needed some time. The only thing she could see is a blur of a red color. About ten seconds later, finally, she could see everything around her.

The corridor was "pure" white: walls, floor and ceiling were "almost" white, except for the blood dripping out of the ceiling. Walls were "painted" in blood, and she could recognize some blood hand prints on walls and on the floor. Dash was even more scared, she wished she haven't saw this. She would definitely choose darkness, instead of light. Her heart was pounding faster as she looked on the walls "painted" in blood color.

After calming herself down, she continued searching for the way out of this hell. As she was observing everything around, she saw a door opening by itself on the right side of corridor. The door was covered in blood. It was suspicious, she turned away to go back, but suddenly light began turning off on the back way of corridor, but it was still switched on on the front side of corridor, where the strange door was. Rainbow Dash didn't know what to do: go into darkness, or to the door? What is more, she heard sounds of steps on the dark side, it wasn't that far, and she could hear a rasp of metal.

She chose to go to the door, maybe she could hide there. As she ran to the door, something stabbed her back. It was a sharp blade that pierced her belly. A sudden pain in the stomach made her scream. She barely could stand on her feet; she entered the empty room, and closed the door; her heart was beating even faster. The pain filled her mind, she couldn't stop thinking about knife sticking out of her belly. She tried to pull it out, but as she touched the knife, it made even more pain. Tears began appearing in her eyes, she couldn't bear with it. Her death was coming, and she is defenseless against it.

After a few seconds somebody on the otherside of the door, began pushing the door. Dash lost all of her strength and stamina by walking in this maze, she wasn't able to hold this door tight, not with a knife in her stomach.

"What do you want from me?! Go away, you creep!" - Dash cried

"Dash, it's me Pinkie Pie, help me. Somebody's coming, open the door!" - Pinkie replied.

"Pinkie? It's you?" - Dash was surprised to hear Pinkie's voice.

After she weakened grip, the door opened with force bumping into Rainbow Dash. She fell on the floor, on her belly, and then she saw her "best friend" entering the room. The Pinkie Pie that entered room was different from the friend Dash knew. Her usual fluffy cotton candy-like hair was now straight and sharp, the color of her hair was pale pink. The usual beautiful azure eyes were now black and lifeless. The clothes she was wearing were "white" apron dripping with blood and a blue blouse with a pink skirt.

Rainbow Dash was confused, she couldn't accept that Pinkie did this.

"W-why're you doing this, Pinkie?" Dash sobbed.

"Why? Because it's fun, Dashie" - Pinkie said with a smile. She came closer to lying Rainbow Dash, she was crying of fear.

"Please, don't do this" - Dash said crying.

Pinkie pulled out a knife sticking out of her tummy and tossed it away, Dash was whimpering of pain. She boosted and put Dash against the wall, licking her cheek in process. Dash was tired and exhausted, she tried to resist but it was useless.

Pinkie Pie drawed out another knife, but it was different - it was much longer than previous knife. She put Dash's hands together to the up and pierced both of them with a knife, attached to the wall Dash was "hanging" down on the wall. After this Pinkie leaned  over Dash's sobbing face and kissed her with tongue.

"I love you, Dashie" - Pinkie said with a smile...

...

The room was illuminated with a weak moonlight. It was a small room with blue wallpapers, it wasn't small nor big - average size. The wallpapers were depicting clouds with vivid lightnings and rainbows. On walls were different posters of "Wondercolts" the soccer club at her school. Moonlight weakly lighted room painting it with pale white color. Only wardrobe and her clock were left "unpainted". The clock was showing 3:06 PM, when a penetrating scream spread in the silent room. If she would live with somebody, they would hear her scream from the basement, but she was alone living in this big house. She was lonely living by herself, trying to be like an adult. Of course her parents supported her with money and stuff, and they regularly visited her (every 2 weeks), and she "enjoyed" adult's life. Well, she was lying to herself, she still was a 17-year old child, and deep in her mind she was regreting about living alone... She was breathing rapidly, hungrily swallowing the air. "It was all just a nightmare" - Dash thought, while panting. Her bed was wet; she was sweating heavily. After calming herself down, she got up of the bed and walked through a "dark" corridor enlightened by nightlights on every corner or wall. She went downstairs to the kitchen - to drink some water as her throat was dry. (By the way she was wearing pajamas with a pink pony that resembled Pinkie Pie. What a strange coincidence)

While walking to the kitchen she thought about strange nightmare she had. "I should probably stop watching horror movies" - Rainbow Dash said to herself with a sigh. "The horror movies explain everything except the sudden appearance of Pinkie Pie. And the last part was... a little... embarassing?" - as she thought about this a blush appeared on her face. "I wish I could confess my feelings to Pinkie, but It feels so wrong." - Rainbow Dash cried in the kitchen

Rainbow Dash was attracted to Pinkie, she had a crush since she met her. And as Pinkie was near her, the feeling grew even more. So Rainbow Dash tried to avoid Pinkie, and she was even more lonely. The only one that was helping Rainbow Dash to bear with loneliness was her pet tortoise - Tank. But, still it wasn't enough, her soul was crying of loneliness. She was lonely from her childhood as she was different, and she always tried to draw attention of everybody. That she didn't feel lone at all, and as she grew up, she met her best friends. She wasn't alone, not anymore, but as she met Pinkie. After she knew her better, her heart was melting every time pink-haired girl smiled at her. It was a gift for her soul. And presence of Pinkie was necessary for Rainbow Dash, it was necessary like water and air..

Silence was filling the house, not a single sound was heard. She went upstairs back to her room to pick a blanket with a pillow. Dash tried to get some sleep on the sofa in the living room, but it was useless. Not that she wasn't sleepy, it's just the thoughts of her last nightmare. They were disturbing her, and her attempts to sleep have failed. She looked on clock that was hanging on the wall: The arrows of clock were pointing at 3:36 AM. Tomorrow wasn't a school day, it was holiday, so she didn't feel worried about not getting a sleep. Rainbow Dash just wanted to forget about this nightmare. And she couldn't bear with the loneliness, sometimes she just cries at nights like this one, but tonight will be different. "Tomorrow I will confess my feelings to Pinkie, and It doesn't matter what she'll say to me (lie), I just want to end this"

A strange thought appeared in her mind: "Maybe I should go to one of my best friends? But, It's 3AM - everybody's probably sleeping right now. But what If I go to Pinkie's place or Fluttershy's? They would certainly accept me". Rainbow-haired girl quickly got up from sofa and went to her room. She picked a phone and stopped for a few moments: "Should I call Fluttershy, or Pinkie Pie? ...Probably Fluttershy, I can't talk to Pinkie, I'm not... prepared right now..." Dash dialed Fluttershy, patiently waiting for the otherside to pick up a phone. But nobody picked up the phone. "Hm, that's bad" - "Maybe, I'll just stay at home..." - Rainbow Dash thought with a little bit disappointment. She lied down on her bed and covered with blanket, but as she tried to sleep the fear of darkness and loneliness filled her soul... She trembled alone in her bed.

She won't be able to sleep, so she decided to call Pinkie.

"Hello? Rainbow Dash? - Pinkie asked.

"Yeah, Hi, Pinkie. Um, I just had a nightmare and I can't sleep... So can I go to you?" - Dash replied awkwardly

"Oh, that's so great! ...I mean you can come whenever you want, I'll be waiting for U" - Pinkie couldn't hide her excitement

"Hm, why she was so excited. Maybe she wants to make... A slumber party or something like that? But why she told that I can come whenever I want to?... Dash stop, it's just a politeness, nothing more" - Dash concluded while changing clothes. Pinkie Pie wasn't living far from Rainbow Dash's place, - It was just in ten minutes walking. She changed clothes a hoodie with jeans, grabbed keys and closed the house. After that she walked to the outside. The streets were enlightened by a beautiful moon, so it wasn't dark like in her nightmare. And the fresh air filled so nice and 'free'. As she walked to Pinkie Pie's house, she thought about confessing her feelings in the morning: "That's a bad idea, If she won't accept my love - I will lose my best friend that matters to me even more than myself - But If she will accept my love (She paused on this moment, blushing) ...I will be so happy I could die"

After 10 minutes she reached Pinkie's house. It was of pale grey colour, just a regular house like others in her neighbourhood. As Dash came closer to the entrance she knocked on the door, and less than a second Pinkie opened the door. Pink-haired girl quickly hugged Rainbow Dash and grabbed her hand.

"Yay, you've made it" - Pinkie welcomed Rainbow while yawning.

"Yeah,..Heh" - Dash was a bit surprised when Pinkie hugged her so tight. But it's not the hug that surprised her - it's the weird pajamas that Pinkie wore. "What're you wearing?" - Dash asked curiously. Pinkie wore a strange pink costume with cat's ears attached to her hood. "Cute" - thought dashed in Dash's mind.

"This one? Oh, it's just one of my... um, special pajamas... yeah, special." - Pinkie said, "If you want, I can bring you something like that" - she offered.

"N-No, I... prefer regular ones" - Dash replied with smile.

"So, where do you wanna sleep? If you're scared, you can sleep with me" - Pinkie said with excitement (especially on the last part) while giving Rainbow Dash regular pajamas.

"I... I'm fine, I'll sleep on the sofa" - Dash replied.

"Oh, Okay I'll bring you blanket and pillow" - As she said this, she went upstairs.

While waiting for Pinkie, Dash quickly changed clothes into Pinkie's pink pajamas with an image of pink pony with a pink mane that resembled Pinkie herself. "Smells like Pinkie..." - Rainbow Dash thought while smelling pajamas, and blushing.

Pinkie came to Dash with blanket and a pillow. "You know I can sleepwalk sometimes, so don't be afraid If I'll wake you up" - Pinkie said while giving blanket to her.

"That's weird, I didn't knew you can sleepwalk" - Dash said with surprise.

"Oh, I didn't know myself. I discovered about it not long ago" As Pinkie walked away from living room.

Dash lied down on sofa and covered with blanket. It was comfortable, and the smell of Pinkie surrounded her - but It wasn't enough. She was regretting about declining Pinkie's offer to sleep together. After a few minutes she went to her dream world. Or a nightmare world? She was probably having a nightmare again, because she was shivering and tears dropped from her closed eyes.  Nightmares filled her dream world, because she still had fears about confessing her feelings to Pinkie.

Reaching Stars

Chapter 2: "Reaching Stars"

"...Having a dream is something that you can't explain, sometimes it is something from your past or future, but sometimes it can be ridiculously stupid. Or not? Everything has sense, right?" - Pinkie Pie

A pink girl lied on her bed, dipped in her thought. Her name was Pinkie Pie, and right now she was suffering from insomnia. That's is something, that you won't wish to anybody, not even enemies. The reason why she couldn't sleep was her true feelings. Secretly she had a crush on Rainbow Dash, but the truth is that she wasn't sure If her best friend will accept her. She thought that If she will confess her feelings to Rainbow Dash, she will never be her friend. That's the reason why when she is happy - it's just an illusion. Her sadness is hidden under the mask of fake happiness.

(She was sleeping in her special pajamas of "loneliness", she wears them when she feels lonely. Right now she wore her favorite one - cat pajamas, with cat's ears. She had all kinds of pajamas: dog pajamas, mouse, even alligator and etc.) Pinkie tried to forget her problems for some reason, but no matter how she tried to sleep - it was useless. Pinkie have tried sleeping in different poses: on the right side, on the left, on her belly, on her back. Even her plushy alligator "Gummy" was useless. She gave up and began counting sheep, but it wasn't helpful either. The clock was showing 4:06 AM, "That's lame" - Pinkie thought while still counting sheep. "...five hundred and sixty six, five hundred and sixty seven, five hundred and sixty eight...It is so boring," - Pinkie said aloud with sadness. It felt so lonely and bored. After another some boring hundred sheep, she began observing her room, it wasn't bright as her personality, her inner world, but it had bright colors. And it wasn't random as everybody would expect, it was a cozy well-conditioned room with pink wallpapers, and a few streamers with random balloons. The window let pass the moonlight that filled the room, now it was colored in slight pale pink color. Her glance stopped at the window, something strange was happening there: The moonlight began slowly forming a bunch of tiny little creatures with legs. These "moonlights" began randomly walking and running across the room. Some of them climbed on Pinkie's bed and started dancing. "Oh, what a cute little thing. Heh, I guess counting sheep wasn't that useless" - she said with a smile. Pinkie got up of her bed, she stretched her arms to enliven her joints. Everything was so real, like it wasn't a dream at all. She was experiencing all the feelings like in real life.

"I wonder, what's outside" - she thought while trying to open the door. But, as she tried to open the door, her fingers went through it, like she was a ghost. She passed through the door, and her feet weren't touching the floor - she was floating in the air. "Wow, that's so cool! But it would be more fun If I had wings" Pinkie tried to float downstairs, but that was useless, she didn't know how to fly so as she tried to float, she flied upward. As she floated through the ceiling, she could see the sky wrapped in moonlight, enlightened with stars. After she reached the sky, she stopped at some point. Her body hanged in the clear area. She was so high she could see her best friends houses; As she enjoyed the panorama of her town, some bunch of clouds bumped into Pinkie Pie; She climbed the nearest cloud, and tried to step on it. The clouds were gathering together creating road that led somewhere. "Hmm, that's weird,... Okay, I'll just go where you want me to go" - Pinkie thought. She was walking somewhere, and she wasn't lonely. Her little moonlight friends walked on the clouds.

While walking on the clouds she enjoyed the beauty of night's sky. The sight was filled with glowing stars floating in the sky, and a giant moon that enlightened the whole city. After walking a few hundreds of "sheep" (measure of time for those who don't understand), she reached a strange house made of clouds. "Wow, what a big house, I wonder who's living there" Pinkie thought as she walked to the entrance of this big white cloud-like house. It featured classical columns and rainbow-colored streams and waterfalls. The house was resembling a tower, and at top of it was a rainbow, streaming down on another cloud. On the entrance was an image of cloud with a rainbowfied streak of lightning.

Pinkie went through the door and she found herself in a dark room, that was slightly enlightened by moonlight creatures walking on the window sill. She passed the corridor and went upstairs; While floating she saw different posters of a soccer team. Something familiar was about this. "Oh it's Wondercolts, a soccer team of our school, and Rainbow Dash is a member of this club... But that means that it is Rainbow Dash's house? Well, I've never been in her house, but I don't think she lives in the clouds, or she does?" Pinkie talked to herself as she floated across the house that was painted in blue. And of course It was filled with various posters of Wondercolts and Daring Do, another Dash's passion.

She floated through the door leading to a room with a sign: "Rainbow Dash". The room itself was empty, there was nothing except furniture and "moonlights" walking on Dashie's bed. "Oh, I thought I could meet her in my dream, It's so lonely her" - Pinkie thought. She floated outside of Rd's cloud-like house. The sky was still full of golden stars. It was a beautiful sight: Stars began falling down, floating in the moonlight. And by floating in the moonlight, I mean that white round creatures carried them. There were various stars, every star was unique and it had beautiful original coloring. One of the stars floated towards Pinkie (but without moonlights), it was a rainbow-like star with sky blue center. "Wow, it's colors are like Rainbow Dash" - Pinkie thought while carefully grabbing a star. She sniffed it - "Hmm, smells like... it really smells so familiar. Oh, it smells like Rainbow!; The glow of star was so beautiful and shiny that she could hardly resist not watching it. "I wonder how does it taste" - Pinkie thought while trying to lick it. "Sweet... like sugar" Pinkie concluded, smiling afterwards.

Truth (End)

Chapter 3: "Truth"

"Sometimes it's hard to tell, what you really desire, but you must believe in yourself to understand your true self. That way you will certainly know the truth about yourself" - just some thoughts.

The clock was showing 6:03 AM - It's morning already. Usually around this time Pinkie wakes up, but not today. Right now she was having a weird dream, and it's so complex, that it's hard to understand this dream. For some reason she didn't wake up. While her mind was surrounded by reveries she got up of her bed. It is an event of sleepwalking; Pinkie was quite surprised when she discovered that she can sleepwalk sometimes, and she didn't know why she was doing it. Sleepwalking or somnambulism may have different cause, maybe Pinkie subconsciously was desiring something. Maybe because of her true feelings about Rainbow Dash. She always loved Dash, but she tried to hide it, 'cause it felt wrong. Eventually she decided to stay cool and don't pay attention at unusual things: like sleepwalking or increased heartbeat, or a blush appearing on her cheeks when she... thinks about Rainbow Dash. Maybe she was sleepwalking because her body wanted to be with Rainbow Dash? But eventually she woke up after walking outside of the house while sleeping (It seemed like she tried to find something or... someone), at first it was scary and very confusing when she found herself on the streets, after that she decided to close house every night. And Maud (her elder sister) sometimes could find Pinkie sleeping on unusual places. Very often she stopped at place where she was around while sleepwalking, she even went to Maud's room and slept with her (Pinkie slept everywhere in the house: kitchen, living room, around door or just on the floor.)

Pinkie got up from her bed and walked to the door, she opened it and went to corridor. The way she was walking - well, it was kinda strange, sleepwalkers don't walk like that Pinkie; She was walking slowly with her arms lifted up in zombie pose. The Zombie Pinkie was searching for her brains subject of secret love, sniffing around the house; after searching around every corner she went downstairs trying to find Rainbow Dash, sleeping in the living room on the sofa, she was shivering of nightmares. Sleeping Zombie Pinkie was around two-three meters away from Rainbow, she then walked a few meters in the right direction and she just "smelled out" Dash's smell. Mumbling to herself "..it smells like Rainbow". After she reached her... destination, she lied down on the sofa and cuddled Rainbow Dash while smiling. Rainbow Dash stopped shivering as she felt warmth. At first she just slept with her for a few moments, and Rainbow Dash didn't suspect a thing she just felt more happier, because it was really comfortable and warm. But then, Pinkie started licking Dash's cheek. Pinkie mumbled again"Sweet... like sugar" and smiling. Rainbow Dash started to wake up a little bit, she slowly opened her eyes and was shocked. Pinkie Pie was hugging Dash so tight and licking her cheeks. Dash quickly tried to get out of it, but she liked the way it was, so she gave up. But she started to feel terrible: "She's just sleepwalking, maybe she don't understand what she's doing. I need to wake her up." But she didn't quite hurried to wake Pinkie Pie, 'cause she really enjoyed it. "Well... I just had a nightmare, so... I think I deserve to be treated like that," she thought, trying to find a justification. While Dash was enjoying this moment, Pinkie woke up by herself. (Probably her dream has just ended)

"Huh? R-Rainbow... Dash?" - Pinkie opened her eyes, tongue stick out from her mouth. She was lying on a blushing Rainbow Dash on a sofa. "I-I erm... Sorry?" Pinkie tried to excuse while blushing, "It's just you know... sleepwalking thing, heh... heh" - she nervously chuckled. Pinkie realized that she was still lying on blushing Rainbow Dash - she quickly got off of her, and as she turned away and wanted to go. Rainbow Dash grabbed Pinkie's hand to stop her.

"W-wait! I... I need to talk to you" - Dash started, she made a small pause, and then continued: "I don't know how you feel about this, but I can't live like this; Not anymore... I can't hide it. I...I love you!". She was staring at Pinkie with hopeful eyes. Pinkie Pie was surprised to hear this, and she felt so happy that she could die of happiness. She realized that Rainbow Dash was waiting for an answer, so she quickly hugged Rainbow Dash and kissed her.

"I love you, too!" Pinkie exclaimed with happiness.

"You do?" - Rainbow Dash asked Pinkie.

"Of course Dashie. I always loved you, but I... was afraid that you won't accept my feelings," - she explained while hugging smiling rainbow haired girl.

"You know If we just told each other the truth It would be a lot easier," - Dash added with a little bit of sadness.

"Yeah, but now it doesn't matter, 'cause now we're together" - Pinkie smiled..

The End.