I'll Do It. I Really Will.
I give you my blessing, Twilight, Flash. I wish for you two to be truly happy together, and stay together forever. You guys are my best friends...
I said that. And I meant it. I’m happy for them. Really, I am, but…I feel like I'm lying to myself. I do that all the time. Lying to myself. It's something I started doing after I left Equestria. Lied to myself everyday, saying I made the right decision. Saying I was better off here. Yeah, I lie to myself a lot.
But I never believe me.
...Every time I see Flash and Twilight hold hands, or kiss, or hug...something stings in my heart….like a little thorn is burying itself there.
And it’s driving me insane.
Every time I remember that I said I would be happy for them, it makes me want to cry. I stopped sitting at the lunch table because of that. I’ve stopped sitting in the cafeteria altogether, in fact. It’s just too painful. I started sitting on the roof of the school. Very quiet there, very peaceful.
I love it. No one knows where I go off to, and they’d never suspect that I’d be up here. It makes me very happy, for about ten minutes. Until I realize that, no matter how great the wind in my hair feels, or how happy the blue sky makes me, at the end of the day I’ll be in the same position as I was before. There’s just no point in being happy. Because wherever happiness is, sadness is lurking. Waiting to jump out when your happiness goes down in strength. I should have jumped off of that roof. Then no one would have ever been able to stop me.
I don’t want to believe that it’s Twilight’s fault that I’m depressed. But it is. If I had just stayed Celestia’s student, the roles would be switched. I would be the one dating Flash. I would be the one who gets to kiss him and hug him. I would be the one who's respected by all of Equestria for being the princess of friendship.
And Twilight would be the one standing on this bridge.
Is it really worth it? I say to myself. Your friends will all miss you...they’ll get over it. After all, they’ve got precious little TWILIGHT with them. A different voice in my head says. You're right. I reply. They DO have Twilight...alright, I’m jumping.
I take a step forward. One more step, and I’ll be over the side, and into my watery grave.
So I do it. I jump.
And it makes me feel...happy. True happiness is coming back to me!
...I changed my mind. I don’t want to be doing this. I-
I hit the surface of the water.
***
“Teen Commits Suicide by Jumping Off Of Canterlot Bridge.” Pinkie read off of a newspaper at the lunch table. “Teen Believed To Be Sunset Shimmer.” Pinkie looked up with misty eyes. “How...how could she?”
"She always was troubled, darling." Rarity replied. "After the Fall Formal, she got quite depressed. It only makes sense that she would do something like that."
"Damn." Rainbow breathed. "We were becoming such good friends..."
“Oh, get over it!” Twilight said, smiling. “You guys have got me!”
“Yeah, we do!” Pinkie said, wiping her eyes and laughing. “And you're a princess! MUCH better than ol’ Shimmy ever was!”
“Right?” Twilight said. “No one misses her. Just be happy that you guys have got me! Awesome, AWESOME ME!!!”
Sunset sat up in bed with a scream. “...It...was just a dream?”
She sat there for a moment, staring at the wall. After about twenty minutes, she got up and went to her closet. Let's see here... She had one dress in particular that she wanted to find. One that she just had to wear one more time before she...
She pulled out a shimmering ball gown that's color matched her eyes. She had only worn it once, so it was in fairly good condition.
After a few tries, she got it on. It was a little tiny. But hey, what would you expect from a dress that had been sitting in your closet for three years? She dug around in the closet, and after a minute, she pulled out a pair of matching shoes. She put them on with a grimace. They were also too small.
She slinked through the house, taking in everything as she walked. After all, it would be the last time she would be seeing it.
One item in particular caught her eye - a heart locket, which was the color of her eyes. It was given to her the day she was born, and was one of the only things she brought with her from Equestria. It was resting on a small table in the hallway.
She left it where it was.
She opened and closed the front door, and made her way to Canterlot Bridge.
When she got there, she looked up at the sky. It was beautiful tonight; there was a full moon, and lots of pretty stars. It was the perfect night for her to die.
She took a step forward….
“SUNSET, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!” Someone screamed. Sunset turned, and saw Flash running towards her, grocery bag in hand. “WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!” He repeated.
“It...it’s getting to be too much...me being here. On Earth. With you and Twilight.” She said, unable to look in his eyes.
Flash was quiet for a moment. "What do you mean?” He finally asked.
“I can’t live...if you and Twilight are walking the same Earth as I. I can’t live when I know that you two are dating. I can’t live…” She looked up, grabbed his collar, pulled him down, and kissed him. After a few seconds, she let go. Not looking away from Flash, she took a step back.
And fell from the bridge.
Flash looked over the side, eyes wide. Sunset looked up at him, sadness apparent on her face. I'm sorry. She mouthed to him. Flash only stared back in shock.
Good luck. she mouthed, before closing her eyes.
And she hit the surface of the water.
Author's Note
I wrote this a LONG time ago. So...sorry if it depresses anyone.
