What I want to tell you.

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What I want to tell you
Regret and rape.
Hospital visit
Storytelling (unedited)

What I want to tell you

Okay this a ship of Applejack and Fluttershy and one of my favourite pairings because it’s just so cute. This is also my first story so be gentle, please. This is a R18 story mostly because of sex. Now it’s not a clop fic but there is a lot of sex but there is also crying so it’s a bit sad. I don’t own any of the characters in this story; they belong to Hasbro and its respective parties.

“What was that, Sugar cube?” Applejack asked inquizzicly. Fluttershy had just told Applejack she loved her. Her heart was already racing a mile a minute, and now she had to say it louder? She wondered not for the first time if this was a good idea, she could always say something else besides her confession of love. ‘No’, a voice screamed at her, ‘it has to be done. You love her don’t you?’ “Yes” she said quietly.

She took in a breath, Applejack still standing there a confused look on her face. “ APPLEJACK, I LOVE YOU” Fluttershy said in what she thought was a loud voice but really was only one decibel higher than a birds tweet. But Applejack heard it and she was not shocked only confused “Ya Love me?”, she asked “Yes I do, I have always loved you Applejack from when I first saw you bucking apples to when we helped defeat Nightmare Moon, to when we went to the Grand Galloping Gala, I have loved you, but now that I have said it I’m sure you hate me for being so weird, but I can’t help it I’m in love with you and now that it’s said, we won’t be friends and I’ll have to leave town because of how weird I am” Fluttershy blurted out in a rush of one breath. “Ahh shucks Sugar Cube, you don’t need to do that because ya see … Ah love ya too, I was just waiting for the right moment to say it but now that you’ve said it, I don’t have to wait anymore because I love you too!”

Applejacks cheeks, along with Fluttershy’s, started to go red. “Does this mean we can be together, if you don’t mind having a scaredy pony as a fillyfriend of course”. Fluttershy asked bowing her head as though expecting pain. “Of course it does Sugar Cube, I want to be with you forever, an’ ya know what? For being so brave an’ allowing me to confess I’m going ta give ya something special”

“Oh I would like that very much”

“Okay then, I’ll met ya at your place around 4 in the afternoon. And be sure to do everything you have to do before that because you may not get out of the house for awhile, so to speak.” After this, she gave a mischievous wink and headed back in the direction of her farm.

“Oh what could it be angel?”, Fluttershy said aloud to the white bunny that was tapping its foot, in annoyance waiting for its carrot “Oh sorry um. Please forgive me”. The bunny snatched the carrots out of Fluttershy’s hoof and hopped out to his house with his usual disgruntle look on his face.

“I’ll take that as a yes”. And with that Fluttershy laid down on her couch looking at her clock ‘Oh it’s almost 4, I wonder what Applejack has planned for me?’, she thought as she heard a slight tapping at her door, then hinges as it opened to show a well groomed Applejack.

“Ah’m early Sugar Cube” Applejack stated as she stepped into the cottage and there lay her perfect little filly. ‘Fluttershy’, her mind sighed. “Umm hi Applejack…”, was as far as Fluttershy got before she felt a pair of lips on her own. “My Celestia, Ah’ve been waiting long to do that”, Applejack said as she pulled away from Fluttershy’s lips, Fluttershy for her part just sat there with an odd expression on her face as she breathed heavier than before.

Applejack waved a hoof in front of Fluttershy’s face. “Darlin’ if ya going to do that just from us kissing then ah’m afraid to try that thing with ya” “No!”, Fluttershy screamed, a feat for her on any occasion, “I mean, please I want to try what you want to do” Applejack shook herself as she regained the composure that she had lost when Fluttershy screamed but once she heard that sentence, she drew serious. “Ok, then follow me she said as she ascended the steps to Fluttershy’s bedroom. “Um ok”, Fluttershy answered nervously as she too ascended the stairs.

They soon stood in front of Fluttershy’s neatly made bed. “Now get on the bed Sugar Cube”

“Ok” Fluttershy said quietly as she got on her bed. “Now spread yourself out please” Applejack whispered seductively, so Fluttershy spread herself out with her front hooves lying at her side with her back hooves crossed so that Applejack could not see her secret place, which was slightly moist at Applejack’s stares. “Why are ya crossing your hooves Sugar Cube” “So you can’t see my … uhm…” she finished with a squeak and blush.

Applejack looked deeply into Fluttershy’s eyes as she said “ Please hon’, can Ah see? Or we won’t be able to continue with your reward.” Fluttershy’s eyes widened as her love said this, as she finally understood Applejack, the yellow Pegasus started to get wetter. “But … But we can’t do that, it’s wrong”, Fluttershy said as she heard her mothers icy voice in her head ‘Fillyfooling is wrong and no daughter of mine will participate in such a disgusting act!’ This being after she had caught Fluttershy with a filly of the same age kissing. Fluttershy had cried after that and the severe beating she had gotten. “O Sugar Cube, what do you think was going to happen now that we know, we love each other?”

“I don’t know, it’s just my mother used to beat me because she found me with a filly.” Applejack gasped at this “O hon’ Ah’m so sorry, but Ah promise that nothing like that is going to happen, so please, for me?”

“Ok” Fluttershy said softly as she slowly uncrossed her back hooves.

“Oh what a cute apple grove ya got.” Applejack whispered to Fluttershy as she stood at the end of the bed looking down towards Fluttershy’s marehood, that in essence was only a slit that led down from her anus and up between the yellow pegasus legs, but now as like never before it bulged slightly with blood, its lips slightly parted and moist, with a small hood at the top that coved her nib of pleasure which Applejack knew would show itself soon.

“What are you going to do Applejack?” Fluttershy breached the question. “Well let me show ya Sugar Cube, but ya’ll tell me if it hurts ok”, Applejack said with a dead serious look on her face.

“Ok” Fluttershy quietly responded, as Applejack bent down on the bed, her back legs hanging in the air, her chest on the bed, her face closing in on Fluttershy’s nether lips.

For what was a moment there was silence in the room then a small ‘Eep’ as Applejack kissed the top of Fluttershy’s slit, right above the clit, this being the first of many that was to come as Applejack kissed all around the yellow pegasus mound and her thighs, each kiss getting an “Eep” from Fluttershy.

It made Applejack smile as she continued, she also noted that as with her kisses, Fluttershy’s vagina and mound were getting wetter and her lips parting the tiniest more, this having a prolific effect on Applejack, as her own flower was dripping its nectar down her legs to the floor and if either Fluttershy or Applejack had listened close enough, they would have heard a small ‘drip drip’ on the woodwork.

At that moment it felt to Fluttershy as if all her dreams had come true, her heart racing pushing blood to her crotch and cheeks which each supported a heavy blush, her mind was blank and only concerned with the pleasure she was receiving from the kisses, but it was soon going to intensify for her as, with her kissing done, Applejack knew now how badly she wanted to taste the beautiful treat which sat in front of her.

She licked her lips in anticipation, then dug her snout into the most sensitive part of Fluttershy, which was accompanied with an “OH CELESTIA” from Fluttershy and a new wave of wetness from her vagina. Applejack inhaled deeply bringing the scent of Fluttershy into her nose as she brought out her tongue and began to lick with long, slow strokes, the sex of the winged beauty in front of her.

At this Fluttershy swore she almost had a heart attack, as the most intense pleasure she had ever felt, filled her mind with imagers of a future with Applejack and a happiness she had never experienced, but then she felt it, the orgasm, the explosion that usually accompanied her clopping. But this felt better, more like a warm wave building in her heart and sex rather than a forced push of sexual tension as with her clopping.

Applejack for her part was inhibited with lust, licking, slurping, spreading and digging with her tongue into the apple grove of Fluttershy, not thinking, not caring, only needing more of the mare in front of her and then she dug her tongue deeper into the opening of the mare.

‘It’s warm’ her mind hummed to her as her tongue dug through Fluttershy’s folds, to her centre, the warm walls of her mare seeming to coo to Applejacks tongue, being on the verge of orgasm. Fluttershy was indeed on the tip of her orgasm but felt a wall blocking her way, it had happened before, and then her mother’s voice came to her, the iciness still there despite her mother being dead for 5 years ‘ See I told you it was unnatural, even her perverted little love making to you, can’t give you orgasm’ ‘SHUT UP!’ Fluttershy screamed at her mother’s hateful voice, trying to force the orgasm she wanted, needed from Applejack. By pushing that wonderful head further down into her open marehood. But the voice would not leave her and then it manifested in the form of Fluttershy’s mother not as she had last seen her, sickly and dying but as she had been when Fluttershy was a filly, strong and hateful, by the bed she stood leering down at her daughter.

Applejack didn’t even flinch when the other mare appeared in the room, merely kept going, her head even further into Fluttershy. “What a disgusting display, and here I thought you may have been able to forget this disgusting choices and find a nice stallion, I was wrong and so is this and you know it Fluttershy” “No… No it’s not. It’s beautiful”, Fluttershy screamed, tears welling up in the corners of her eyes, at the apparition of her mother. “No, it is wrong and you know it, this is false, there is nopony else in this room with you, it is merely you and your hoof doing this, now I say be done with it!” She said raising her hoof high.

The room began to change back to its real life counter part with the sunlight turning dark showing the true time of day, and Applejack’s hat disappearing and Applejack herself becoming see through. But Fluttershy wouldn’t, couldn’t have it end like this. “No” she screamed “You no longer control me mother, I need this orgasm and I won’t have you ruin it!” she said as she forced the imaginary Applejack head deeper into her, in real life it was her own hoof pleasuring herself. She felt the walls to her orgasm shatter and her body go into convolutions as one of her most powerful orgasms washed over her, causing the fantasise to dissipate quickly and for Fluttershy to fall into a light sleep.

When she woke she was alone in a dark room, her room, her cold dark room. She began to sob silently as she recalled what she had just done. ‘How could I?’ she asked her self as she brought her hoof from her flower, both still coved in her juices, and cradled herself. All she was was a filly with a wet hoof, a slightly damp bed and a disgusting feeling in her gut. “ Why, why?” she asked aloud as she sobbed, “Why do I love you, Applejack? Why can’t I love a stallion?” She said to no one in particular. And so she lay a depressed mare that felt like a foal for wishing for thing that were said to be wrong, and no one came that night, she lay on her bed, sobbing for what she was and what she wanted. All night long until her little bunny came to her, lying down and hugging her for what he didn’t know or care.

Regret and rape.

What I want to tell you Part 2

By Jessy Toph

Second part of my story and could be the bounce board for more. Once again the characters and places in this story belong to Hasbro and its respective parties.

Fluttershy felt better when she awoke, Angle was still clinging to her front hoof. But she had made a decision during the night and that decision was that she was going to tell Applejack her feelings and then sweep her off her hooves. But first, she had to feed and care for her animals. And thus she spent the next 2 hours doing just that, all the while thinking about how she was going to confess to Applejack. The thoughts ranged from a direct confession to writing it in the sky with the help of Rainbow Dash; but sadly any idea was shot down quickly and effectively by the voice of her shyness and mother.

But she never did doubt that Applejack felt the same, what with all the subtle hints, such as dragging her by her mane to the cave of the dragon she had to confront or the smile Fluttershy swore she saw every time Applejack met up with her. No, there was no doubt in her mind that Applejack felt the same for her, our little Fluttershy, so all that was needed was a good confession that would allow Applejack to confess too and for them to gallop off into the future of their relationship. At least that’s what Fluttershy thought.

And so it came too pass that by the time Celestia’s golden orb hung high above Ponyville, our brave little hero had her mindset and a game plan, ready for the confession to her beloved. She walked all the way to the Apple orchard, her mind clear, always watching out for creatures she may have taken care of and the one mare that did what no other mortal or immortal did to her. But she found no such pony or critter on her way until she entered Apple Acres. She immediately felt self-conscious for entering uninvited and possibly unwanted, but she had to remember what Rainbow and Twilight had said about being more assertive with the things she did. But she still didn’t believe all she heard, and as always in her mind was her mother’s voice.

‘She’ll never feel the same for you, just accept that and move on to a nice stallion. Perhaps her brother, what was his name… that’s right Big Macintosh, he probably be more than ready to help you and your ‘problem’. Just think of that big stallion rid…’

‘No', the yellow Pegasus almost said out loud, ‘I will never allow myself to fall for it, mother. I like mares and that is the bottom line, I will never feel for a stallion.’ She suddenly remember what she was doing “Talking to your dead mother, in your head?”, the Pegasus asked herself quietly. “ You saw her die, for Celestia's sake, saw the illness take that hatred out of her, saw her pass on to the next life. But you still can’t let it go, can you? How pathetic is that?” she asked loader than before.

“What’s pathetic Sugercube?”, came the voice of her dearest. Fluttershy froze, her limbs locking, causing her to fall over. She hadn’t realized that during her internal monolog. Her hooves had carried her, seemingly by magic, to her most beloved and wanted, Applejack.

Applejack’s day had been quite pleasant; she had gotten up early, had had a good breakfast of apple fritters and was ready to buck some apples. She of course had no idea of what was coming her way or how much her future would change with that day. She had started in the south fields and was moving up towards the north when she saw Fluttershy. This didn’t in the least surprise Applejack, what did surprise her was the fact that although Fluttershy was here, none of her other friends were. “Hmm, wonder what she wants. Maybe she needs some more apples for her animal friends?” She quickly dismissed this idea because although Fluttershy did often order lager quantities of apples for her animals she usually had Angle with her. As Applejack neared Fluttershy she overheard the last of her conversation with herself “…how pathetic is that?”

“ What’s pathetic Sugercube?” She asked. Rarely did Fluttershy talk to herself or use the word pathetic.

This sudden amount of noise from Applejack caused Fluttershy to freeze and fall down. Applejack rushed over. “Ya’ll alright sugar? Ya gotta be more careful,” She said as she leaned down to help Fluttershy up. “Oh, um, I’m alright it’s just that you startled me and nopony likes to be startled”

“Oh, okay. Why were ya talking to yourself?”

“Oh, you heard, this is just going so badly already”, Fluttershy said as she slid into monolog. “Just slow down, sugarcube. What’s going badly? And why you here, are the rest coming?” Applejack was concerned, Fluttershy never acted like this, all strange and nervous. “Why don’t you tell me all ya troubles over a glass of apple juice?”

“NO! I have to say it in the open!” Applejack jumped back as Fluttershy screamed; now she was even more concerned as Fluttershy only yelled in situations of extreme stress. She was also intrigued. “What ya have to say, darlin’?’”

Fluttershy took in a deep breath, this wasn’t going very well, and the plan was falling to pieces. First she had fallen over, and then she had been heard talking to herself. ‘Maybe I shouldn’t say it.’ A part of her screamed at this ‘No, we have worked too hard and too long to give up now, just say it and everything will be all right, just say it and live.’ Her mind calmed itself. ‘Okay’

“Applejack, there’s something, something I just have to tell you.”

"What is it, sugarcube?” Fluttershy took in a deep breath, trying to calm herself.

“I…I love (mumble)”

“What’s that?” Applejack was confused, what did Fluttershy love and why did she have to tell her. I didn’t make sense. “I... I love you, Applejack!”

Applejack was touched “Aww I love you too sugarcube… but as a friend right?” Fluttershy started to feel the world fall around her, Applejack didn’t feel the same or ‘maybe she just doesn’t understand’ her mind offered, its voice sounded hopeful. “No, I love you as I have never loved anypony or anything else. I see you in my dreams and nightmares. I want you, I need you. Please, say you want me too. Please say you need me. I can’t live without you, my mind screams for you. When I go to sleep, I wish so much to have you by my side. Please, say you feel the same for me. Please, say that these feelings are not falling on deaf ears. Please, I need you, say you need me!” Fluttershy felt used, her whole body was trembling and her face was heated and red.

“This is the moment, this is when she says those perfect words, those words I wish for every night”

“No! No, it’s not, she doesn’t feel for you, nopony ever will, your feelings are wrong, you yourself are wrong. No one ever loved fillyfoolers…’ Then a part of her exploded ‘SHUT UP MOTHER, you are dead, you are wrong, I love her and she loves me, no one cares about you, that is the reason you hate, nopony ever cared about you! Well, some pony cares about me, so SHUT UP!!!!!!’. Through this conversation with herself, Fluttershy had done nothing more then blink twice and so as she came back to the present time and place, nothing had changed, nothing had happened and then Applejack spoke up.

“Are ya telling me that you're a fillyFOOLER!” Applejack’s voice rose as she said the last of the word. “Are ya telling me that ya belong to that rank of varmin, that like to be taken by other mares in their depravity. Are ya telling me that you defile the natural order of things, that you want me to join you in your depravity? ARE YOU INSANE? How dare you...!!!” Fluttershy bowed her head 'She hates me, she hates me.' Her mother's voice broke into her thoughts, laughing 'HA HA I told you no one loves fillyfoolers, you're sick Fluttershy, you're sick and depraved. No one will ever love you, no matter how much you think they will, no one will ever love you, you sick twisted spawn of...' 'NO!'

“... and how dare ya come here, infecting mah sister with your sick, perverted ideas. Ah bet you came here to induce her or ah into your perverted cult. Ah...” Fluttershy's rage broke, flooding her mind with hate, burning it to its demands. In doing this, it woke up her lust and they combined. She roared into the sky as her wings unfolded and jolted her up. At the shout, Applejack had stopped talking and looked to the place where Fluttershy had been moments before. Fluttershy was in the air, her lust and hate mixing, turning over what to do. She looked down and saw the object of her affections and with this the feelings ran. 'Love her, make her see our way, love her, rape her, make her love you. Take her body for your own, do it, DO IT!! Rape her!' Her idea chosen, she raced down. Applejack only had a moment to contemplate what was going on, before Fluttershy smashed into her. She heard a crack, signaling the breaking of one of her ribs, as the world slowed down.

She was being pushed through the air, Fluttershy face contorted in rage. Applejack was scared, more scared then she had ever been before. But she had no time to dwell on the feeling as she smashed into the ground. At first it felt like she had hit a wall, but it soon caved, as Fluttershy pushed. She felt more, then heard her back crack and started to feel pain. The skin on her flank felt like it was being flayed by thousands of knifes as she was pushed through the ground. A depression was forming in Applejack’s wake, until she collided into a tree, hitting her head. Her head hurt, she hoped it wasn't cracked as she raised her head to look at Fluttershy but she was stopped, as she felt her lips meeting Fluttershy's in mid turn. She clamped down her teeth, as her lips were violated by Fluttershy.

Fluttershy was in heaven as she kissed Applejack, but she wanted more, her lust demanded more. She pushed her tongue past her lips onto Applejack’s, then through those, but she then felt the wall that was Applejack’s teeth. Her rage screamed 'How dare she keeps what is ours'. But then, a plan, a most wonderful plan. She moved her right hoof from Applejack’s side and moved it to on her neck. She pushed down, her eyes closed. She felt Applejack resisting to open her mouth, knowing that if she did it would be invaded. But the pressure became to much, she had to breath. She opened her mouth trying to take as much air as possible. Fluttershy felt her chance as she plunged her tongue into Applejack’s open maw, taking her hoof from the same mares neck. Applejack tasted just like apples, Fluttershy loved it. As she devoured the other mares mouth, she claimed dominance with her tongue, forcing Applejack's to the bottom of her own mouth.But Fluttershy's lust still wanted more, she wanted her loves vagina. She wanted those soft folds of flesh, to taste, to eat, to truly show Applejack how mares made love. Her left hoof started to descended.

Applejack's mind was in turmoil, every rule her father had set down was being broken. Each of Applejack's senses was telling her to enjoy it, but she resisted, she had to. Fillyfooling was wrong. 'But you are one'., her subconscious said. 'NO AH'M NOT!', Applejack's mind screamed, 'Ah hate this, ah hate having her skilled tongue violating my mouth, hate her flower infused hair in my nose. Ah hate this, ah am not a fillyfooler, I do not like mares, I don't stare when Fluttershy walks past or Twilight. I don't fantasize about what it's like to kiss a mare. My daddy would be so disappointed that his little girl turned out like this, this monster, this pervert.'

She felt Fluttershy's hoof move down, digging into her broken rib, she wanted to scream but her mouth was occupied at the time, desperately trying not to fight against the other mare's tongue, to swirl around it, to become part of the kiss. She knew were the hoof was headed, this was the end. Where Fluttershy would feel the truth, that the mere kiss had taken her to heights she had never squalled before expect in her sleep. Applejack's body was ready for the other mare, ready to be taken in a moment of blazing glory, to be taken as Fluttershy's plaything.

Fluttershy got there, to Applejack's nether. It was wet. Her mind collected it self, 'She is wet, she's turned on. She wants me to do this. She wants me to take her, to rape her. Oh I can't do it. She wants it, she wants it.' Her rage subsided as her mind tried to comprehend what was being said. Then in one instant it was back to how it was normally. 'Yes, yes she likes me, she likes me.' Her true mind cooed. Fluttershy opened her eyes, they having been closed the entire time. She was hoping for love or even lust, arousal. But instead, she saw fear. The situation came rushing back. What had she done? What had she done to her love? She felt tears well up in her eyes. She couldn't look into those green pools of sadness.

She flew home, flying back to where things made sense, were she wasn't a monster, back to her kind deeds and gentle nature. And so she left a bruised and aroused Applejack under an apple tree, staring into the green of the leaves as she cried and finally accepted what she was and what she liked and the monster she saw herself as.

Hospital visit

What I want to tell you Part 3.

By FillyFooler

Pain, pain, thats all that was in AppleJack’s mind. It hurt to breath; it hurt to think. Emotional and physical pain were mixing and churning, she had a broken rib. It hurt but still her mind was thinking, 'I'm a Fillyfooler, I like mares, Oh Celsetria what would pappa think. How can I, I was raised better then that, Why!!!' She let out a scream of pure frustration. Now she was crying, the tears running thick and fast. She hated, hated, to cry. Why did she have to like mares?

Her mind screamed 'Because you do, now stop feeling sorry for yourself and buck up. We're in a real problem here; we're stuck here with a broken rib. Do you see how much trouble we're in?' It was true, she was in trouble, and she was scared. But still her mind was in turmoil, and she needed to find somepony, anypony to help her 'They will reject you, they will hate you. You have become tainted, no longer pure. You w...'. No, it was time for her to focus. She needed to get from out of this small ditch and out from under this tree.

One hoof at a time she raised herself, gasping all the way. She stood, triumphantly, against the pain 'They will kill you!' and fell down again. She started to see stars, their bright yellow and blue flashes running across her vision, her breath ragged. It was hurting more; she was sure the rib was killing her. 'Stupid Fluttershy, it's all her fault. Why did she have to love me? Why did she try to rape me?' 'Because you rejected her, it's very simple' 'So! That doesn't give her the right to try and take me by force.' she replied to herself as she lifted a hoof that felt like a thousand tons up on the small ridge. 'Oh please, you know you wanted it, don't try and lie to the element of honesty. You know if she had asked, you would of hurt her.' her inner voice stated mockingly.

Applejack stood once again on the ridge of her wake, as she stared at the family barn. It seemed like a long way away; how had that happened? She suddenly felt very tired. She wanted to sleep. She couldn't give up could she? She put one hoof in front of the other and took a step, instantly regretting it and collapsing on the ground again. Now this time she landed on her broken rib; it dug more into to her insides. She tried to scream, but no noise came out.

She tried to take a breath but couldn't. She started to panic, and blackness started to descend on her eyes. Sleeping seemed like a very good idea right now, in fact it was perfect. But still the noise of her mind whirled 'Yes, yes. Give in. Die! Die as the evil you are' 'You should of told her' 'How stupid were we?' 'This is our end' 'Is that Big Mac?' She opened her eyes wide as she saw Big Macintosh racing towards her. She smiled; she was going to be alright was the last thought that went through her head as the blackness won.

I am hurt

Darkness, darkness all around. But there were voices in the dark. Applejack is scared.

“Is sha waking up?”

I am a monster

“Will sha be alright, doc?” an elderly voice said in the darkness that occupied Applejack's mind. “It's hard to say, you say you didn't see anything or anyone?”

Why am I evil,

Was I not good,

Why do I love them,

Those of my kind,

Why, Why?

“We can’t lose one of yah appl' bunch” a smaller voice chimed

“Don't worry, as far as we can tell, all she has is a broken rib that started to rattle around a bit. But what’s more concerning is that she may have been raped.” a professional voice answered the small voice.

Have I not done good,

Pappa did you lie,

Have you lied to me about what is wrong and good,

Did you tell me a lie!

“Raped!” a louder, masculine voice yelled, “Who would rape Applejack?”

“Naw calm down sharp shooter, doc ar' ya shore that sha was raped?”

“No miss smith, I'm not, but we found some evidence she was in some way sexually violated.”

The small voice chimed in “Wh'ts sexually violated mean?”

“Shush naw pipsqueak, the big un's ar' talking”

To which the small voice answered “Ah am a big pony”

Maybe I was wrong,

I do like them,

Them of my own kind,

How I like them,

Their soft fur,

They look so good, I like them

How I loved that kiss,

But I am scared because of these things I want to do.

The voices were quiet once again as Applejack fell deeper into her subconscious. She tried to speak, but nothing came out. She tried to see but only saw only blackness. She tried to hear, but all there was was silence.

The cloud of nonexistence surrounded her fully. Some time into her ordeal, a voice, her voice. And then light, and soon she found herself facing herself. But it was her idea version, the wish she wanted.

“Hello” her self greeted,

“Helo yourself, Ah reckon Ah've blacked out?”

“Yes”

“Damn it! Ah should be awake, Stupid bloody Fluttershy, this is al' yer fault!” she barked into the whiteness that now surrounded her.

“Actually that's what I'm hear to talk to you about” her ideal approached

“Yeah, yeah Ah heard you before”

“No, this is more than something of pain and shame” Her self was making no sense.

“Ok”

“Well you now know you like mares, Correct?”

“Yes” Applejack's grudged response came.

“Both of us knew, Fluttershy loved us, correct?” the perfect self stated, to the shocked face of Applejack

“No, Ah have never kn'wn, how could Ah? Ah really dn't spend a wh'le lot of time with tha grl”

“Oh come now, Applejack. I am you and you are me, and we both know that she had those feelings. Do not think, we of your deep mind had not noticed, we know you saw it but you ignored it”

“ WELL WHT COULD AH HAD DON! Gone up to her and said ' By the way, Ah kn'w yer like mah, Ah think Ah might too, could yer help me' Th't wasn't what pappa taught us!” Applejack said in anger, as the whiteness around her flashed red and purple.

“I know, I know. Pappa taught us what was right and what was wrong, but maybe he was wrong?”

“NO, NO,NO!!!” Applejack screamed as the red and purple of her mind catapulted her towards reality, out of the deep of her mind and the truths it held.

A harsh, white light burned into her eyes as she opened them. She closed them quickly; it hurt too much to look, trying to turn away but just making a stabbing pain in her sides explode. “Look sha's waking up” an elderly voice said, close to her ear. A slow, monotones beeping tone soon came into hearing.

As she started to open her eyes, she noticed she was surrounded by her family. Granny smith by her head, Big Mac at the end of the bed with Applebloom standing next to him. It brought great appreciation to her heart to know her family cared so much for her.

“Heya Applejack” piped Applebloom from the foot of the bed,

“Shush now littlin, we've got matters to discuss.” Granny smith said, “Naw Applejack tell us, who did this ta ya?” Always to the point with granny smith, thought Applejack's mind.

Applejack took a needed breath. They were going to know the truth, and it felt liberating.

“Fluttershy, Fluttershy did this to me.”

She waited for outcry, waited for vows of vengeance, waited at least for acceptance of the truth. But all she received was a stern look from Granny Smith, “Now deary Ah know ya been though a lot...” she said as though talking to filly “ba this be no time for jokes, naw tell us wh' this ta ya!”

“Ah'm telling tha truth...” Applejack said as tears silently slid down her face, “sha did it. Sha pushed ma up against a tree and touched me. An' while sha was d'ing that sha was kissing ma, don't ya'll hear me. She raped me, she took all that was pure from me!” Applejack cried out in desperation.

The crying quickly summoned the doctor, “Ahh your awake, good, good. But please miss I ask you to try and not cry too loudly or forcefully. There are other patients and the cast has yet to fully set...” After seeing her visibly settle down and saying “Thank you”, he left left the room.

“Ohh Applejack” Applebloom said as she quickly went over and embraced her sister.

“Naw, hold on a apple picking minute” Big mac said in his slow southern drawl “Fluttershy wuldn't hurt a fly, infact sha'll give it a bath 'fore sending it on its way. Why wold she do something like this?” He finished.

“I don't know, one minute I'm yelling at her and the next I'm pushed against a tree with her tongue in my mouth and a broken rib”

“Why were ya yelling at her?” Granny smith asked, an eyebrow raised.

“Because she confessed she loved me!” Applejack yelled, “Can you imagine, her a part of those varmin fillyfoolers and her wanting to join her”.

The room was silent, everypony looking at Applejack as if she had finally caught up to something they knew long ago, “Why's ev'eryone looking at ma, like'm stupid”

“Cause punkin' pear, we've known that filly been keen on ya for over a year” Granny Smith explained,

“AND NO ONE TOLD ME!” Applejack screamed, outraged.

“We always thought ya knew, we thought all tha girls knew. The way sha held her self around you and all that blushing, we thought ya wuld catch on” Big Mac carried on “and we were sure as apple pie that ya liked her back.”

“How in tarnation did ya figure that, Pappa raised us better then them varmin” Applejack said, trying more to convince herself then her family around her”

“Ahh well deary, Ah always thought what ya pappa did ta that mind of ya'rs when it comes fillyfoolers wer wrong” Granny Smith said, a sad look coming to her eyes as she talked about her long forgotten son.

“Wha! Pappa woulda never done anything like that”

“Ah think it's time ah told ya lot why ya mumma left” Granny said, as she took a seat on the floor.

Storytelling (unedited)

What I want to tell you Part 4: Storytelling

By FillyFooler.

Granny Smith took a deep breath, wheezing as though pained by what she was about to say. “ When your father first met your mother, his first words to me were ' Ah'm going to marry that filly, mum'. This was back when he was five and after the oranges first moved to ponyville.

I remember that they moved into the third house on right of the town hall, back before the entire street burned down. They were such a cute couple growing up” she said with a smile.

“It turned out he was right, he did marry OrangeBright. What a fantastic wedding that was, two great growing families merging.

There was talk of massive mega farms, even brand names. And there they were, Appleseed and OrangeBright, two children in love.

It seems only yesterday me and ya grandpappy were watching as they said their I do's, Ah even remember yelling at them to keep it down at nighttime” Granny gave a small chuckle.

“But this was before that terrible fire. For three days it burned, the great fire of 1534. Nearly burned the entire town down, and that was when we lost OrangeBright's parents.

How that damn fire burned, consuming all in it's path” she shudders “and of course we also lost grandpappy to that thing. Oh how I told him not to go but, whipper snapper that he was, he went and got himself killed, that darn foal.

We never did find out how it started, ponies still hate to think about it. We lost so many of this little town. But then we got wonderful news, OrangeBright was pregnant with you Big Mac. But that OrangeBright was never the same after the fire, never the same. Always crying, and wailing.

Middle of the night, I'ld find her downstairs sobbing on the table, saying how it was her fault, how she could of saved them. 'Cause it was all nonsense. Though if Appleseed wasn't as thick as he was, he would of seen how distressed she was, though even after pappy he was just as happy and go lucky as could be.” A small frown has now disappeared off her withered face as she goes on.

“And then you were born, Big Mac, all small cute and pink” Applejack and Applebloom smiled as Big mac was graced with a blush “but even then she didn't care, she still went down at night and sobbed. Mind you she was a darn good mother, always feeding that big belly of yours mac, even when she was feeling down.

But then one day she just went and became completely the opposite, happy and lively as ya could wish for. It turns out, she got a new friend, the mare's you kids use to call Auntie Lilybloom.'

'Soon she was singing as she worked, happy all the time and the perfect daughter and wife. Then more good news came our way, you, Applejack, were going to be born. It was icing on top of cake, and I thought for sure that our little clan was heading in the right direction.

But soon cracks began to show between ya mother and father, at first it was just little things like her staying to long at Lilybloom's and him drinking a bit too much of our fermented cider. But soon they were arguing non-stop with real hate in their eyes, and my hope faded again.'

Granny Smith takes a few moments to stop and think as all three children look her way. “Then of course you were born, Applejack, and everything went back to the happy sweet way it was before. But I knew, knew it was false. I could see it in the way they moved around the house, talked, heck even in the way' Granny looks at Applebloom.

'They played bedroom. And 'fcourse Lily was staying around more, course Appleseed didn't see things right in front of his muzzle, and then Orangebright left.

Well for the first time anyway. You kids shouldn't remember it, cause you were so young but she just up and left. No note, no package, not a single thing to say why, when or where she went. We at the time assumed she had been ponynapped, so we called the authorities to find her. And wouldn't ya know it. Two day later they found her, well found is over doin' it.

They say they saw her, on a park bench kissing a mare.' Applejack gasps at this information, Applebloom, though not truly appreciating the implication of this information, has her eyes wide with wonder and intrigue and Big Mac seems to shake his head. Though what this meant is up to anypony in the room at that moment.

'And when we asked what this mare looked like, we knew it was Lilybloom. So before a shake of a cow's tail we were over there, demanding answers.

And by golly we got them, OrangeBright said how she had needed Appleseed but he had too inattentive to truly do anything. So she had turned to her friend, and after a time it had just seemed natural to be with Lilybloom.

And then the door was slammed in our face. Now I wasn't really that surprised, I had seen it develop.

But your father, your father took it hard. Had to damn near hurt him to come home that night and stop banging on their door.'

'Though the next day he returned, and started to knock again. They didn't let up for 2 hours before she answered him.

Course then your mother was guilt tripped by Appleseed, to see you kids.

And so she returned in a way, ah mean she wasn't there all the time but she tried her darndest to be a part of ya kids live while still being Lilybloom's special somepony.

During this appleseed started to drink, and drink heavily.'

'Now drunk, my son was as helpful as a sack of cotton but he could still talk. And as Celestia as my witness he must'a talked my ear of by the end of dat week bout your ma.

Then he started to talk to ya'll, don't much know what he said to ya'll but,' Both Applejack and Big Mac look down at this and remember, or try to at least 'I knew it was no good.

Though what could I do? He was your pappy. And through all this the farm had to stay afloat, and it was mostly up to me. And so that went on for a while, but then OrangeBright came back. Now, I rightly didn't want her back in my farm but Appleseed, being the foal that he was, took her back with open hooves. Never did find out why she came back, never even asked Appleseed did.

And ah wasn't really on speaking terms with her so I never found out too.'

Granny Smith takes a breather as Applejack and Big Mac contemplate what they had just being told. Applebloom then nudges Granny's shoulder and asks “So where do I come into the story Granny?”.

“Soon pickle pare, soon. So where was ah, oh right. So after coming back things seemed to calm down.

A day passed, then a week and soon, 'fore I could believe it, a year had gone and your Ma and pappy seemed completely normal with each other. Then Applebloom, you were found to be growing in your mamma's belly. Course for some reason your foal mother an' father went round Equestria for a year. Never really knew why they did that either.

And Applejack that was 'bout the time you went to Manehatten to stay with Uncle and Auntie Orange'.

Applejack smiles, remembering the rather fond memory of how she obtained her cutie mark. 'And course by the time Applejack got home, your mother and father we almost home too. And when they finally got home I knew that they were going to break up.

OrangeBright knew it too, though Appleseed pegasus head that he was didn't. And cours' you were there too Applebloom, all small and yellow. Now I didn't know when or why Appleseed and OrangeBright were going to break up, just knew.

But 'bout 3 months OrangeBright laid out on the dinner table, after ya kids had gone to bed. She had apparently figured out, that though sha loved you foals, she couldn't keep lying to both her self and Appleseed.

She was a Fillyfooler. Now at this Appleseed got right mad, all stomping and wailing. Only time I saw him hit your ma, and ah then stepped in. Telling him, no apple of mine would hit ponies when talking to them was good enough.

He then stormed off, later we found him in the hard cider. Clean went through half a barrel.

Now OrangeBright wanted to get going quick as a hare, but I reminded her of you kids and she agreed that for the next 3 weeks she would stay and get ready.'

Granny smith takes in breath, recalling through her memories a day she would rather forget. 'Now though OrangeBright was going in 3 weeks she never told ya anything, this was partly my fault. I didn't want you kids mad so, me and Orange made a story up of her needing to visit her family in Manehatten.

What she really was doing, was moving things she needed for her new life. Through all this Appleseed had started acting funny, strange sort of.

Talking to himself and drinking all hours of the day. Though what could I do, I was too busy. Now on one particular day OrangeBright was in Manehatten, and I was sure Appleseed was with me.

Now I know what I told you kids, and I know that Appleseed told you something on the night before. But well that day in Manehatten, your father killed you mother.' All the collected apple's gasp excluding granny.

'And later that day I found a letter from Appleseed, telling me he was going to do it, and what he was going to do after it and what he wanted you kids to get. I never want to go though that again, never. That's why you have to promise me that you won't hurt that pegasus.'

Applejack replies with “Bu...” before being interrupted by Granny Smith 'Promise me child, that you won't allow the hate that consumed your father to consume you to.”

Applejack looks dumfounded for a second, swallows, and forces herself to say “Okay Granny, Ah promise Ah won't hurt Fluttershy”.

At hearing this Granny Smith gets up and hugs Applejack round the neck, while also whispering “Thank you, thank you child”.

Soon Applebloom and Big Macintosh are also hugging Applejack. She feels loved, but in her head her mind is whirring. Thoughts, feelings, confusion.

It's all mixing and mashing. Like a sea torn apart and reunited by a thunderous storm, she doesn't know how to feel. But in that sea there is a rock, her family, her loving, loving family. A tear runs down her face as she relies this.

But all too soon the hug is over and her family is leaving. The farm still needs tendering to and they reckon she could do with some sleep. Promising as they leave to come back tomorrow, they go away and leave a thoughtful Applejack behind with only her thoughts for company.