The Tears I Cry

Princess Celestia heard it herself. She heard the ponies. She heard everything.

“Boy, am I glad Nightmare Moon is gone."

Celestia heard that statement every year. She knew it was good for them but not herself. Celestia wished they knew what she was feeling right now. Celestia galloped to her chambers, her eyes squeezed shut together as she slammed the door behind her like she did every year on that day.

She did not want to remember that day she banished her sister, but she would never forget that day. Celestia walked to her bed, her head held down. She was so ashamed of what she had done, but she knew that 'what is done, is done'. Her room was always tidy, clean, and bright. She had everything she need, except her sister.

She laid her crown on her study table and slipped off her royal horseshoes. She did not hesitate letting her tears roll down on her cheeks as soon as she reached her comfy bed. She buried herself in her soft pillow, wetting the pillow instantly with her tears.

"Oh, Luna," Celestia sobbed, "Why? Why you?"

Celestia gazed at the stars and the mark on the moon from her window that her Luna is still there.

"I-if...if only...just only I would have more time with you. No, to never banish you."

Celestia have had many memories with Luna, but this one is something she'll always regret and never forget.

"CELESTIA!”

“Yes, Lulu?” Asked Celestia, entering Luna’s room. Luna’s room was dark blue, but that’s not an odd thing. The odd thing is that she had a T.V.! Luna loved playing games with her controller and sometimes, Celestia joined her.

"Let's play!" Luna proclaimed, with her little blue dress on. Her blue sparkling dress was a gift from Celestia during her birthday. Luna would wear it whenever there's a special event going on. She was young at that time and so was Celestia.

Celestia smiled. They loved playing with each other, but one will cut deeply into the Princess' heart.

"I, Celestia Sun, will hereby declare you banished in the moon!" Celestia giggled, her mother's huge crown on her nuzzle. Celestia pushed it back up as Luna laughed.

"NOOOO!" Luna faked yelled dramatically, placing a hoof on her forehead. They both burst out laughing as they tackled each other. Eventually, Celestia pinned Luna down on the soft carpet.

"Tia?" Asked Luna, after calming down from the fun game.

"Yes, Lulu?" Celestia replied.

"You will not banish me Princess to the moon, right?"

"Of course not, Luna. I love you and I will protect you no matter what."

"Promise?"

"Promise."

Celestia stifled a sob, "A-and I broke i-it Luna. I'm...I'm so sorry!"

Chokes and soft pleads were heard in her room. Celestia slowly rose to the balcony. "I'm so sorry," she closed her eyes. "I...Lulu, please...just don't say I didn't...love you."

She bowed her head down in sadness, "I...feel so alone, Luna. Without you, I wondered who am I going to sing the lullaby to. But then, I realized, it was only for you."

She let her tears stream out. "Just you."

She sang in a whispered voice,

“Fate had been cruel

And order unkind

How can I sent you away?”

Celestia remembered her singing the song to Luna for a lullaby after she was banished,

"I HATE YOU!"

Celestia’s ears immediately drooped as she pawed the ground with sadness.

“The blame was my own

And punishment yours

The harmony's silent today

But into the stillness, I'll bring you a song

And I will your company keep

Till your tired eyes and my lullabies

Have carried you softly to sleep”

Celestia closed her eyes as she felt a cold gaze of the moon. She heard the ponies from below singing and laughing together. She heard them saying ‘Goodbye’ and ‘Goodnight’. Memories rushed back to her of the time when she carelessly ignored her sister.

“Once did a pony who shone like the sun

Look out on her kingdom and sight

She smiled and said, ‘Surely, there is no pony

So lovely and so well beloved as I’

So great was her reign and so brilliant her glory

That long was the shadow she cast

Which fell dark upon the young sister she loved

And grew only darker as days and nights passed

Lullaby moon princess, goodnight sister mine

And rest now in moonlight's embrace

Bear up my lullaby, winds of the earth

Through cloud, and through sky, and through space"

Celestia dropped on her knees. "I...I hope you can forgive me!" Celestia cried. Celestia bowed her head, "I'm sorry...I failed you."

Thoughts of how Luna will respond instantly came rushing to her.

"And I never will!"

“It’s all your fault!”

“You and your silly reign ruined me!”

"Please," Celestia pleaded, eyes closed.

“Carry the peace and the coolness of night

And carry my sorrow in kind

Luna, you're loved so much more than you know

Forgive me for being so blind

Soon did that pony take notice that others

Did not give her sister her due

And neither had she loved her as she deserved

She watched as her sister's unhappiness grew”

Celestia opened her eyes which was brimmed in tears. Her mighty wings spread out as she launched to the sky. Her horn glowed bright, and stars were cast upon the clear night skies, resembling Luna.

“But such is the way of the limelight, it sweetly

Takes hold of the mind of its host

And that foolish pony did nothing to stop

The destruction of one who had needed her most

Lullaby moon princess, goodnight sister mine

And rest now in moonlight's embrace

Bear up my lullaby, winds of the earth

Through cloud, and through sky, and through space

Carry the peace and the coolness of night

And carry my sorrow in kind

Luna, you're loved so much more than you know

May troubles be far from your mind

And forgive me for being so blind”

Celestia gracefully dropped on the marble floor and look up to see her work. Her horn glowed once more, casting a spell. The stars danced around the moon, and three stars were placed on each side of the moon.

“I hope you will come back to me,” she whispered, thinking of Luna’s sweet face.

“The years now before us

Fearful and unknown

I never imagined

I'd face them on my own

May these thousand winters

Swiftly pass, I pray”

Celestia looked away from the sky as she flew to Luna’s room, placing Luna’s favorite dress on her bed.

“I love you; I miss you

All these miles away”

Celestia flew out, her heart heavy, and begun lowering the moon. The sun began to rise.

“May all your dreams be sweet tonight

Safe upon your bed of moonlight

And know not of sadness, pain, or care

And when I dream, I'll fly away and meet you there

Sleep...”

The sun arose slowly as the moon descended. Tears streamed down her face, ears were reared back in guilt, her eyelids forced closed as she gave out a scream, “Luna! C-come back!"

And maybe, just maybe, Luna will come back.