“It’s so quiet here when the rest of you aren’t here, you know that right?” I sat on the porch steps of the little house the Apple’s called home, sipping some cider because I knew where the secret stash was. I glanced up to see Mac’s unamused face at the fact I did have the cider, but he nodded in agreement, sitting beside me to look at the farm. He didn’t seem to be focusing on anything in particular, though I guess when you live somewhere for so long you get used to how is looks. I turned my attention to the clouds in the distance, focusing on their shapes as the floated slowly across the sky.

“Yeah, sometimes it’s a nice change, at least there won’t be a curious Apple Bloom running around almost finding us, right?” I snorted, recalling the event his little sister had almost stumbled across one of our previous rendezvous that took place within the orchid, up against a tree I’m sure I ripped my shirt on. I was also pretty sure Mac had pocketed my underwear after that incident, either for his own amusement or just to be sure all the evidence was hidden. Either way, he had my underwear stashed somewhere and it was one of my favourite pairs. I made a mental note that I really should get them back to wear again, even if their exclusively seen by him. I turned my attention away from the clouds back at him.

“Yeah, I was sure she’d found us out. It’s just nice to relax you know, we’re both usually so tence or worked up when we do it.” He nodded, leaning back on one of the support beams inhaling the fresh air before letting out a content sigh and closing his eyes. He seemed to be different the past few times we’ve met up, and I was starting to wonder if he no-longer wanted this friends with benefits relationship. Though I don’t want to bring it up and end our fun so soon, I knew I needed to ask him if he was still OK with this.

“Yeah, you’re right.” I frowned at him, there was definitely something wrong with him, the sound of his voice was very, distant. I turned my body to face him, pulling myself so I sat cross-legged, my hands resting on my knees. This would just make our arrangement more difficult if he was going to be like this, I needed to be sure we still even had this arrangement, if he wanted to call it off I’d need to be in search of somebody new to satisfy me, though I doubt anybody would come close to screwing me as well as Mac has been.

“Ok, whats up, your acting really off? Don’t you want this arrangement anymore.” He opened one eye to look at me, and shook his head before running a hand over his face letting out some sort of strange laugh only making me frown harder, was that a no? I wanted to push him for answers, but he moved and soon had me laying backward on the wooden steps, I tried to search his face for any sort of explanation but instead he moved his head into my neck. His body covered mine, and this position limited my sight of anything. Was he cuddling me? I shifted my shoulder a silent protest at the position, I was not happy to be stuck underneath him.

“Mac, get off me, this won’t stop me trying to get to the bottom of this, and I can’t drink my cider like this!” I whined, trying to look back at where I’d put my mug, wondering if I made light of the situation he’d be more honest with me, I really didn’t want us to stop. He proceeded to nibble at my skin, and I pushed him as best I could, I refused to let him do this. He was not going to get away without giving me some idea of what was wrong.

“Mac, so help me, if you don’t let me know what’s going on in your head I’ll have to call this off myself, have you found somebody else?” His head snapped up showing me the widened green eyes he held. I took this chance to pull myself from under him, kneeling as I glared at him. I folded my arms across my chest, going fully into my bitch wants an answer mode.

“What? That's the only thing I can think of, you’ve been distant lately, more so than when we started this whole thing. Have you found a woman to satisfy your needs and be in a relationship with? Just tell me, if you have we’ll stop, I’ll find somebody else, I’ll keep my mouth shut she won’t find out, I’m loyal OK I sure as hell don’t want to be an issue.” He sat in silence, letting my words sink in, as he slumped back against the support beam again.He refused to look at me, and covered his face with his hands, while shaking his head.

“I don’t know Dash, I don’t think I can tell you.” He mumbled, that was it. I stood, that settled it then. I really should have kept my mouth shut, I’ve gone and ruined this all now. I reached down to grab my cider mug, downing whatever was left as he looked up at me from behind his sad eyes. I held back the snort at his expression. He looked like a puppy that had just been kicked, this difference was he knew why he had.

“Then it’s settled, this,” I gestured between us, “is over.” I walked up the steps, to wash up the mug and take back anything I knew I’d left here from our previous engagements. Only for him to grab my arm and turn me to look at him. I clenched my teeth, getting angry at my body because I could feel the need to cry. Why the hell should I cry, we’re fuck buddies it’s not like we’re anything near a functional couple.

“I don’t want us to stop …” He trailed off, only making me even more confused and angry, I threw my hand up in frustration, letting out an exasperated sigh, then what the fuck did he want? He could see my anger building, so he finally finished the sentence. “I want more.” I let my mouth fall open, more how, just more sex in general? The waves of emotions was messing with my head, I didn't even know how to react anymore.

He didn't give my chance to ask before his lips were on my neck, and I didn’t even want to fight back, I wanted this to happen, I’d almost say I needed it, I’d been looking forward to a weekend’s worth of his body so I wasn’t going to let anything else get in the way this time, no I needed for us to at least get ourselves high from each others bodies before this was officially ended.

I wrapped my legs around him, something that I did out of instinct with him, or maybe it was just muscle memory because I did it so often. I was pulled from my thoughts as his tongue washed over my collarbone, only making me moan.

“I love that noise, do it again, please, please do it again.” He begged against my skin before his hands ran through my hair, I complied, moaning again at the touch he provided. His breaths became quicker against me and soon he was pulling my shirt over my head, letting it fall on the floor under the kitchen table. Normally I’d panic that we’d forget it was there and AJ would see it ultimately busting us, but I knew she would be out of town over the weekend, and the shirt was plain blue, many people owned them. Mac’s hands brushed my hair softly, as his lips moved closer to my ear.

“I love your natural colour, though I do love the personality of your rainbow dip dye, natural beauty has always appealed to me more.” I couldn’t help but grin at his statement, before his lips made his way down my body and reached my exposed breasts, he’s so damn lucky I decided to skip putting a bra on this morning. I arched my back from his touch, letting out a shaky breath. He knew my body to well, way to well. His mouth kept working on my breasts as his hands moved to keep me against him while he walked us up toward his bedroom, each step causing him to brush against me, only causing me to moan again.

He pushed my against the wall near his door, finally letting my nipple free from his grasp as he breathed deeply over my skin, making goosebumps break out along the exposed flesh. I swallowed looking down at him as he raised his head.

He pressed himself against my bare chest, pushing me deeper into the wall nearest his bedroom door, dropping his eyes into mine. They looked lustful and bright, very different to how I usually saw them. I found my body squirming against him of it’s own accord, reacting to his expression. He drew his lips close to my ear, letting out a breathless sentence.

“I love you.”

I felt my breath hitch, like I’d been wanting him to say those words to me, like I needed it, I was confusing myself. He pulled me against him, opening his bedroom door and stood in the doorway, looking at me with an expression I could now recognise. Love. I was ready for this, ready to let it happen. I wanted this time to be different, for him to make love to me.

Author's Note

Sorry this took so long! Short n' sweet(ish) but t'was a filled, and the scene just before DIWK.

I'm working on the "AJ find them in bed togetehr" chapter, but I hope to have it publish in the next two weeks, making the story officially finished

~Bye