The Autobiography of Scootaloo - A Diary Collection

by Tails_155

I Never Got To Say Goodbye (♫)

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Scootaloo's Diary is a leather-bound "Forever Pages" enchanted diary with her name hoofwritten in smudged permanent ink. It is hoofwritten by what looks to be a fairly young pony. The edges of the pages are all warped as if it has been dropped in a puddle or left out in the rain. Various pages appear to have things tucked within.

Entry 1:

Auntie Raincloud said I should start writing a diary with my memories of my parents. She bought me this special notebook that has lots and lots of paper, even though it's not very big.

Mama and Papa have become very sick, she says, and I may want to see these someday, she tells me. I don't know what she means. They just seem sick from some food, it's nothing too odd, is it?

Anyway, I feel like I might give this a try. I do like to write. Mama and Papa are in the hospital right now. Mama said she'd be fine, she's just a little sick. Just like I was thinking, nothing strange there.

Whatever, I'll give this a shot, but I don't see myself being one of those girly girls who writes in her diary all the time. I hate to waste such a nice gift, especially from Auntie Raincloud.

Last week we were out at the park and Mama and Papa seemed fine. Papa and I were playing and he was holding me up like I was flying, telling me one day I would be a talented flyer like the Wonderbolts.

Mama was watching from under a tree. She was just resting. We had been walking around the town for a long time. She bought me strawberries. They're my favorite. There wasn't really anything that happened since then, except Mama and Papa going out to dinner last weekend. We think that's where they got sick, other ponies in the hospital went there, too. Some restaurant.

I can't really remember anything else right now. Maybe that's why Auntie Raincloud said I should do this. I know my parents have done a lot of fun things with me, but I can't remember them right now. Small drawing of a frowning pony

Oh, also, the strawberries were great! I hope that once Mama and Papa get better we'll be able to go get more!

Entry 2:

Auntie Raincloud moved into Mama and Papa's house the other day. She said she would have to take care of me from now on. I'm kind of nervous. We visit the hospital every day after school. Mama and Papa always look so tired when we go in there. They always make sure to give me a hug no matter how tired they are, though. They tell me they love me and ask me how school is going.

I don't really talk to anyone in my class except the teacher. I only talk to her because I have to answer questions sometimes. small drawing of an adult pony using a pointer to point at a chalkboard with the word "boring" scribbled underneath

I tell Mama and Papa it's good, though. I don't want them sad and sick. They really should get some sleep.

I showed Auntie Raincloud that I started writing a diary. She told me I should write down some of the simple things so I would remember them when I got older. I don't know why, I think I'd I remember them just fine! I guess I'll try, though.

Papa's name is Thunderclap and he works as a weatherpony with Auntie Raincloud. He gets to push around the clouds and cause the rain. I always thought that was pretty cool. If someone made me mad I could just stomp down rain on them. little "ha ha" written in the margins It's cooler than that, though. Without Papa and other weatherponies doing their jobs, we wouldn't have any food! a little scared face

Mama's name is Rosy Fields and she works in town as a florist. When I go to visit her it always smells so good, and all the flowers look so nice. My favorites are the tulips. They're so bright, and there's so many colors, any color you can name. little drawing of a tulip with a heart by it Maybe I'll bring Mama some tulips when we go visit tomorrow. I think she would like that.

Oh! And I remembered another story!

A couple of months ago we went to see the Wonderbolts in a town close by called Ponyville. They were so awesome! I wish I could do flips and stuff like that! I mean, I wish I could even fly. I hope Papa's right about me, I want to be able to do cool stuff like that! Everybody likes them, too! That must be so cool!

Papa bought me a poster of Fleetfoot. She's amazing, and so fast! Papa said I'll be able to fly soon, I just need to keep exercising my wings and when I'm old enough I will get lessons.

Entry 3:

I brought Mama tulips today. She and Papa looked very tired, so we didn't stay long. She was very happy about the flowers, though. She and Papa both gave me a hug and told me that they were sorry if they can't always give me a hug. I don't know why they couldn't. They'll be fine in a few days. Food sickness just feels terrible, but ponies deal with it and move on.

Auntie Raincloud and I left Port Mane earlier today to go for a hike. She told me that things aren't looking good for my parents. I don't know what she means. They're just sick. They've been sick before. I don't know if it's some kind of mean joke she's playing, but I won't fall for it.

Another story. When I was really little, I used to go to work with Mama. She used to tell me she always had to keep an eye on me or I'd eat all the flowers. I do love daffodils, they're tasty. Small drawing of a daffodil, with "Delicious!" written underneath

When I got a bit older, I used to help her cut the flowers. I usually cut them too short, but it's not so easy. I'm not a unicorn! They have it so easy, they can carry things without their hooves getting in the way. They don't have to taste the handles of tools and stuff. Not to mention everypony has to clean tools all the time so you're not chewing on someone else's spit. Gross.

When I went in to get the tulips yesterday, Miss Golden Posey was running the shop. When I told her my parents were looking tired she gave me a hug and started to cry. I don't understand what got her so upset.

Entry 4:

The page has a card that says "get well soon" tucked into it. Clearly drawn by a young pony. It shows two adult ponies and a little pegasus pony on the front inside a heart. Inside the card it says "I love you Mama and Papa, when you get better, we should go to the park. I've been exercising my wings and can't wait to start flying training! Love, Scootaloo". The back has another heart drawn on it.

Auntie Raincloud made me really mad. She said we couldn't go see Mama and Papa today. She said they weren't in any condition to see me. What could she mean? I'm their daughter! I should be able to see them whenever I want! I almost thought about sneaking out to see them myself.

I was going to give them a get well soon card. I drew it myself. I told them how I have been exercising my wings. I can move myself around on my scooter with my wings now. I think that means I should be able to fly any time now.

This afternoon Auntie Raincloud says we're going to Ponyville. She has a friend who lives there. Her friend, Granny Smith, works at an apple orchard. I do like to visit her because we always get fantastic apple pie! Small drawing of a pie

I can't wait to see Mama and Papa again. I hope they like my card. I worked really hard on it. It's hard to draw Mama's mane.

Entry 5:

An angry face drawn in the margins. We didn't get to see Mama and Papa again today! I'm so mad at Auntie Raincloud. What if they don't get better because I didn't get to see them? What if they feel bad because I didn't get to give them a hug? I don't want them to stay sick because of me! A frown is drawn beside the exclamation mark.

The pie was great, but I wish Mama and Papa could have had some of it. Papa loves apple pie. When I was younger, we'd go with Auntie Raincloud to visit Granny Smith, and Papa would eat half an apple pie while we were still there. Mama would always tell him he was rude, but I understand why he would eat the pie, it is so good!

While we were visiting Granny Smith she said she had a filly about the same age as me. She said that the filly, Apple Bloom, was out with her sister, Applejack, so I didn't get to meet her.

I'm thinking about running off and finding somewhere I can live on my own. Then I'll be able to visit my parents whenever I want. Nobody can tell me I can't.

Entry 6:

The pages are wrinkled from being wet. There are smudges on the pages and it looks tear-stained.

Mama and Papa are gone... they're not in the hospital anymore, but they're not home either. They're gone. Gone forever. Auntie Raincloud says that she has to take me to pick out a dress for the funeral... how could Mama and Papa leave me? Did I do this? Is it because I didn't go give them a hug? Auntie Raincloud wouldn't let me! I wanted to go see them! They didn't even get my card!

When Auntie Raincloud goes out to work later, I'm going to run away. I don't want to go to Mama and Papa's funeral! I can't! I can't see them... like that... I miss them so much. I can't stay here. Every time I walk into the house I feel like they're going to be home soon. I can't keep remembering them every time I walk in. I have to go somewhere else.

Entry 7:

Written on the same page as the previous entry.

I just made it into Ponyville. I hope Auntie Raincloud doesn't worry about me. I'll be okay. I can make it just fine on my own!

I really miss Papa. Who is going to teach me to fly, now? Mama can't. She's gone, too. Why did they have to go? I still feel like I should have given them another hug. I didn't get to tell them goodbye. I told them I would see them tomorrow the last time I saw them. Then I didn't go see them the next day. I basically lied to them. I didn't get to see them. It wasn't my fault, though! Auntie Raincloud wouldn't let me go. I didn't mean to lie. I didn't know!

I don't really have anywhere to live here... I've been walking around pretending I'm here visiting. Everyone keeps asking if I lost my parents. How did they know? I tell them I didn't. I don't want them to send me back to Auntie Raincloud. I can't go back home. I miss them too much.

I don't know where I'm going to sleep tonight. Maybe I'll go sleep at Granny Smith's gazebo.

Entry 8:

I finally stopped crying at night the other day. I still miss my parents a lot, but I just can't cry anymore. My face, eyes, and throat hurt too much. I also feel a bit sick in my stomach from crying. I wonder how Auntie Raincloud is doing.

I almost got caught at the gazebo yesterday. A big red pony came walking by around sunset. I ran to hide in the trees. I don't know if he saw me or not. He called out like he heard something, but after a minute he just kept going.

I may try to go to the schoolhouse today. Mama always said I should take school seriously so I can become a successful pony. I guess I'll start going to school here. I already have a plan on what to tell the teacher if she asks about my parents. I'll tell them that they're very busy ponies, but that we just moved to town. That should work just fine, I think.

I've been eating the apples that get left behind when the Apple family bucks the trees. I've seen them while I hide in the bushes. They leave all the bruised apples on the ground, but at least I get to eat something.

I hide from the Apple family because I don't want to get in trouble if they find me. I really don't know what I'm going to do.

Entry 9:

My teacher, Miss Cheerilee was very nice when I said I had just moved into town. She said she hoped to see my parents really soon. This may be a really big problem. I almost broke down when she told me that. I told her they were very busy, and it may be a while, maybe months. That will hopefully buy me some time. She wrote a note for my "parents" about when she was available.

I sit in the front row by a unicorn named Sweetie Belle. Her sister, Rarity, came in for show and tell today. She designs clothing. Some of the clothes she had in the pictures she brought were amazing. She draws so well. Some of them were like puffy and fluffy and fancy and ick, but others were really neat.

I don't know what I think about school so far. Sweetie Belle seems very nice, but I don't really feel like I want to talk to anypony else in the class. I really don't know what I'd say. I don't want to get caught, especially by these ponies who might make fun of me. I only kind of talked to Sweetie Belle because I think I'm really going to need a friend to get me through this, even if I don't talk to them about what happened with my parents.

I don't know what I am going to do about where I stay. It gets cold some nights but I don't have anything else to do. I may need to start looking for money to buy a blanket or something. I tend to look at the ground when I am walking around town, just in case I find some money. I've already found two or three bits.

Entry 10:

There are these two fillies in the class, Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon. They're brats! They send me these notes. Mean things. They'd tell me "Go home, new kid!" and "Go back to where you came from." They pick on me on the playground. Maybe they're right. Maybe I really am a stupid filly. I couldn't help my Mama and Papa. They don't have to be so mean, though.

I talked with Sweetie Belle today after school. She lives with her parents in town, but is usually with her sister during the day. She says she loves her sister, but feels like she's always in her sister's way. She tries to be helpful, but she always seems to cause problems. I asked her about her parents. She said they're nice, but didn't really say anything else. She kept saying how much she wants to be like her sister. She really has an obsession, too. She is ALWAYS talking about her sister. I guess that's okay, but why would you want to be just like somepony who always tells you you're doing things wrong?

Maybe that was my problem when I was at home. Maybe I just caused problems. At least now that I live by myself, I can't get in anypony's way. Maybe I'm the reason Mama and Papa got sick. I should have told them to stay home, or found somewhere else to go. Maybe if I had said something, they wouldn't have gone there and gotten sick.

I found some money on the ground today and bought a daffodil sandwich. It was so good. I haven't had good food like that since Papa used to make me them. It wasn't as good as Papa's, but it was way better than those disgusting bad apples.

I found a bush just behind the schoolhouse that is big enough for me to fit underneath without poking me. I think I am going to start sleeping there at night. Miss Cheerilee has been very nice to me, even though I've been late basically every day. I don't have anything to wake me up on time, though. Maybe if I sleep by the school, I'll be able to sneak around to the front door without being late.

Entry 11:

I met this cool pony named Rainbow Dash today. She's a weatherpony just like Papa is was. She's super fast and says one day she's going to be part of the Wonderbolts! That is so cool!

There was another pegasus I met, named Fluttershy, but she didn't say much. She squeaked out a hello, I think. I couldn't really tell. Rainbow Dash introduced me to her when I bumped into them by accident downtown. I told her I was new to town and didn't know many ponies. She asked me what my parents did. I told her the jobs they used to do, but I didn't tell her that they're gone.

Rainbow Dash asked me Papa's name when I said he worked as a weatherpony. I said that he didn't work here in town and decided to talk about something else. I didn't want her to find out I was here on my own. I don't think she bought it, though. She looked at me funny.

School is boring. I know Mama said I need to work hard and do well in school, but it's so boring! I never have anything to eat at lunch, so I just tell Sweetie Belle I'm not hungry. This nerdy pony named Twist sometimes gives me some candy. She's nice, but she's so... well, nerdy... I tell her thank you, but I don't really hang out with her.

Sweetie Belle says that the Summer Sun Celebration is happening in Ponyville this year! I haven't seen the Summer Sun Celebration since Mama and Papa took me when I was really little. That year it was in Fillydelphia. It was so exciting, and I got to stay up all night, partying with the other ponies.

Sweetie Belle tells me that Rarity is in charge of decorations for the Celebration! I'll be spending a lot of time with Sweetie Belle up until the big day. She said "My sister just thinks I'm a walking disaster. She wants me as far away from her work as I can get. It's like I can't do anything right." I feel bad for her, but at least she has a sister. At least she has a family.

I wonder how Auntie Raincloud is doing...

Entry 12:

I finally decided to write a note in as good of hoofwriting as I could to give to Miss Cheerilee saying that my parents are busy most of the day, and that none of the times provided worked. It was hard to write, not only because I wanted my writing to look like an adult pony's, but because it was painful pretending to be my parents.

Sweetie Belle and I went downtown today. I met Rarity again. She gave Sweetie Belle some money to go "stay out of her mane" as Sweetie Bell put it. We went to a place called Sugarcube Corner, it’s also the house of a couple ponies called the Cakes. I didn't know it was their house until they told me. Why would you want to live where you have to work?

I met this crazy pony named Pinkie Pie there. I've never met someone so hungry and so obsessed with partying in my life. She also just won't shut up! She talks so fast that I can't even understand what she says half the time, and the other half she's talking about absolute nonsense anyway. She's friendly, though.

At first I thought Rarity was a nice pony, but she is so mean to her sister. She basically said exactly what Sweetie Belle has been saying when we got back. Sweetie Belle didn't mean to knock down the banner Rarity was working on, but Rarity called her a "klutzy filly" and said that she always makes a mess. I told Sweetie Belle that it wasn't her fault, but she was almost crying.

We also ran into Fluttershy while we were downtown. She didn't say anything other than greeting Sweetie Belle. Does she not like me? What'd I do? Was it because I ran into her? Is she that stuck up?

I moved into a different bush today. The one I was staying in was too close to the school. I had to tell a colt named Snips that I was looking for my notebook. I blamed it being there on Diamond Tiara. He didn't ask any questions after that. I don't feel bad for blaming anything on her. She's so mean to me.

Entry 13:

Sweetie Belle and I ran into this pony named Applejack today. I wonder if that was the one Granny Smith mentioned a couple of months ago. I knew she was part of the Apple Family, because I'd seen her when I was hiding at Sweet Apple Acres a few times. She has a really twangy accent and sounds out of place from the other ponies in town. I wonder if the family isn't from around here.

She said she thought she had seen me before, and eyed me like I was in trouble. She asked if I had met her before when I was very young or if I had been to Sweet Apple Acres before. I lied and told her I had never seen her before. I don't know if she saw me by the gazebo or in the trees, but I don't want to get in trouble. I don't want to get sent back to Port Mane, and I don't want to get in trouble for taking the apples...

Applejack seems really nice. She said she had a sister about my age. She talked about her like they were very close. Sweetie Belle and I both said we wished we had sisters like that. I just wish I had anyone I could call family in town. I can't go back to Port Mane, though. I can't live in that house again.

When I got back to where I have been sleeping, I started to cry. I tried to stay really quiet, I didn't want anyone to hear me and find me. Hiding is really difficult, especially since I have these times where I can't stop crying! I wish I didn't care about anyone, then I wouldn't have this problem.

Entry 14:

We don't have class this week, because the Summer Sun Celebration is this week. Rarity has been really busy decorating the town for Princess Celestia, so I've been spending a lot of time with Sweetie Belle. Miss Cheerilee told me that my parents need to show up soon, because she needs to talk with them about my schooling back home. I am starting to worry Miss Cheerilee is going to figure out what's going on.

Sweetie Belle and I have been trying to get our cutie marks. We don't really know what we're good at, though. Sweetie Belle said she'll probably get her mark in "getting in the way" since she always seems to be causing problems with her sister.

I don't know what I'm good at. Is there a cutie mark for lying? Maybe one for stealing? I did take all those apples. They were the ones left on the ground, though! I am not a thief, am I? Am I really a bad pony? A small doodle of a Scootaloo with an arrow pointing to her saying "thief" and another one saying "liar" with a label above her saying "Scootaloo the Bad Pony"

The weather has been warming up in the day, but some nights have been fairly cold. It was really cold last night, so cold, I had trouble sleeping. I watched the stars for a while, and I thought I saw some stars moving straight toward the moon. It was really strange. Something weird is going on. It’s supposed to be summer, soon.

Entry 15:

Tomorrow's the day! The Summer Sun Celebration! I hope everything goes well. I can't wait to get some tasty treats. I haven't really had anything good to eat in a couple days. Small drawing of Scootaloo on her back with her hooves on her stomach labeled "Hungry Pony"

This really snooty purple unicorn came into town today. She seems really stuck up. She walks around like she's in charge of everything and she has this little purple dragon who doesn't always seem like he wants to be with her.

I saw Rainbow Dash clear the WHOLE sky today. She was super, super fast, and she did it like it was nothing! It must have been only a few seconds and the skies were totally clear! It was AMAZING! I hope one day I can fly like that! Maybe SHE can teach me!

Sweetie Belle was really upset this afternoon. Apparently, Rarity told her that she has done nothing but get in the way all week. She came to me telling me she was nothing but trouble. I sat with her on the playground and told her she's a sweet pony and that Rarity is just really stressed. I don't know if that was a lie or not. Rarity may just be a really mean pony.

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