The Autobiography of Scootaloo - A Diary Collection

by Tails_155

Rating: teen
Tags: My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Rainbow Dash, Cutie Mark Crusaders, Romance, Scootaloo, Slice of Life, Alternate Universe, Featherweight, Sad, Original Character
Length: 117860

This is a story focusing on life from Scootaloo's POV. It takes place starting before season one.

Scootaloo is a young pony who has endured quite a bit of hardships, but has made the best of her life, even if it hasn't always been so easy. The little filly from Port Mane shares, in her own words, the ups and downs of her life, and just what it means to endure.

Find out how Scootaloo has endured through love and loss. See her thoughts on Rainbow Dash, her family, the crusaders, Featherweight, Pipsqueak, Diamond Tiara, Silver Spoon, Princess Luna and more.

Thanks to user sqarishoctagon for helping me edit. Soundtrack added via YouTube.

[Image is deceptive, it's not always as sad as the image implies, there's all kinds of moods, but this is a pic I'm proud of, and it's relevant in parts. Also check this description for more pics as the story unfolds.]

THIS IS A SIMILAR BUT DIFFERENT UNIVERSE. I wrote this, starting during late Season 2, so I had to make judgment calls based on the information I had. As such, certain episodes thereafter do not match up, or fit in different places. Consequently, it is a very similar alternate universe. Many events happen in both this and the show timeline, but do not always match. I tried to stay consistent when possible, but certain things were lost to disagreements in interpretation. I like how I wrote my story and will not force it to match what came after I started writing. I've also decided to consider this fluidly finished. I still seem to make updates, but I no longer guarantee them.

[Please, if you read this, let me know what you think. PM me, comment, whatever. I just really want to hear people's thoughts!]

Pictures of the OCs:

Auntie Raincloud: http://fav.me/d57lxyk
Rosy Fields: http://fav.me/d57lxsb
Thunderclap: http://fav.me/d57lxv5
Miss Golden Posey: http://fav.me/d57m7on
Shooting Star: http://fav.me/d57mfah
Lucky Buck: http://fav.me/d57mf6t
Shutter Speed: http://fav.me/d57vow5
Ocean Breeze: http://fav.me/d57ly1b
Maple Woods: http://fav.me/d57m5dq
Sandy Shores: http://fav.me/d57m5gl
Cherry Tart: http://fav.me/d5mb5ch
Blazemane: http://fav.me/d57wlua
Thunderbolt: http://fav.me/d57wm42
Winter Winds: http://fav.me/d57wlwl
Wild Wisp: http://fav.me/d57wm2h
Jasmine Tea: http://fav.me/d6hb1kx
Golden Manchet: http://fav.me/d6hazp7 (Turned out greener than I intended.)

*THANKS TO EVERYONE who has given this a 95+% positive rating after over 3000 views 800 comments and 550 votes! I'm so thankful for your enjoyment of the story!*

Story events/characters that could spoil things:

http://fav.me/d8upn3c - My own art
http://fav.me/d8upn2w - My own art
http://fav.me/d8upf61 - My own art
http://fav.me/d8un0gx - My own art
http://fav.me/d8uqb91 - My own art
http://fav.me/d8urrbn - My own art
http://fav.me/d8uwzxl - My own art -- SPOILERS
http://fav.me/d6h2xa6 - Commissioned :heart:
http://fav.me/d6fvi4w - Commissioned :heart:
http://fav.me/d6fspin - Commissioned :heart:
http://fav.me/d6fp5eb - Commissioned :heart:
http://fav.me/d6h7t30 - The photograph from Entry 35. Faded as found. :heart:
http://fav.me/d6gcugr - Scootaloo's Family Portrait ca. Entry 43. Commissioned and lovely.
http://fav.me/d8y4c5t - Commissioned art portraying an event from the final two chapters. (Spoilers.)
http://fav.me/d53luw1 - Legitimate fanart. GREATLY appreciated. :heart:

http://fav.me/d8wy111 - a picture of Lucky Buck created from an art prompt "Starstruck"

Published 2012-05-23 17:14:01 UTC
Last updated 2015-11-20 08:37:53 UTC

A New Home, For a Time (♫)

Entries 16-31

Entry 16:

Something terrible has happened. Sweetie Belle and I went to the Summer Sun Celebration together and a giant, scary pony named Nightmare Moon threatened to make it night forever! Sweetie Belle and I huddled together with a pony we didn’t really know. It was some yellow pony wearing a bow in her mane. We were so scared we didn’t really talk to each other, so nopony said anything, and we don't know who she was.

After this "Twilight Sparkle" pony (the stuck up one from the other day) jumped forward and explained what was happening, she, Rarity, Rainbow Dash, Fluttershy, Pinkie Pie, and Applejack all took off toward the Everfree Forest. I don't know why they would be crazy enough to go in there. I hope they fix things though.

It's still dark out. Maybe that creepy Nightmare Moon pony was serious. I hope the sun comes back, I like the sun. It reminds me of all the fun times I had with my parents at the park, or in the yard, or... well... I just miss my parents so much.

Sweetie Belle and I are going to stay together at Rarity's house and wait for her to come home. Somehow I feel like we won't be having school while all this is going on.

Still no sign of Rarity. Sweetie Belle is getting worried. She asked me if my parents would worry about me not coming home. I told her they wouldn't. They can't really worry about anything anymore. (I didn't tell her that.) I hope Auntie Raincloud is okay. She probably doesn't even know what's going on, unless she came to see the celebration. I didn't see her, though.

I'm starting to wonder what is going to happen as far as this all goes. What will we do if it is never daytime again? What will happen if Rarity doesn't come home? I don't know what Sweetie Bell would do if she didn't have her sister. Would she be okay? I don't want her to feel like I have...

I've been comforting Sweetie Belle for a while now. She's very worried about her sister. I had to stop her from crying. She was going to make herself sick. I understand why she's worried. I mean, I know what it's like to lose a family member, and if something goes wrong... well... I hope it doesn't.

I'm going to stop writing in here for a while. Sweetie Belle was wondering what I was doing. I don't want her to read this and find out about what's happened with me. Until this gets all sorted out (if it does) I'm not going to be writing anything in here.

Sweetie Belle fell asleep. I'm just going to say it's been a day or so now and still no sunlight. I hope Rarity is okay.

Entry 17:

Finally! I woke up after falling asleep on the floor by myself, and the sun is up in the sky again! Rarity is home and took Sweetie Belle for something to eat. She offered for me to come along, but I feel like they need some time together. If I still had family I'd want to be together with just them after an adventure like Rarity and her friends had.

I ran into Miss Cheerilee today. She asked me if I was okay after everything that happened. At first I didn't know how to react. I thought she meant about Mama and Papa. I didn't know how to respond. Finally, I figured out she meant the Summer Sun situation. I told her I was fine. She asked me if something was wrong. I didn't know how to answer. She finally told me that if there was anything she could do, to tell her and she would help.

Miss Cheerilee is such a nice pony. She's a great teacher and she is always so kind.  She's noticed I don't bring anything for lunch and has been sneaking me food in the morning. She says she doesn't know why I don't bring food, but that I need to eat to stay healthy. She doesn't know how much I appreciate it. She did tell me that my parents need to come in soon, or she would have to come home with me one day and wait for them. I'm starting to worry about what is going to happen. I'm running out of ideas!

Sweetie Belle and Rarity are back home, and Sweetie Belle said I can stay with her tonight! I haven't been able to sleep inside in weeks. I'm so excited to get to spend more time with her, especially now that she's not all upset. She said we can plan different ways to get our cutie marks. It's going to be so fun!

Entry 18:

This unicorn who calls herself "The Great and Powerful Trixie" came to town and was bragging all about her magical powers. Lots of ponies thought she was a snobby high horse.

While she was in town, Snips and his friend Snails fell in love with her, and followed her everywhere.

I don't see what the big deal is, she's just some fancy pants unicorn. They say she defeated an ursa major. I don't think so. Those things are giant! I remember when I was little, Mom and Dad took me to see one they were shipping on a boat to be released somewhere else. It smashed a bunch of houses on the edge of town. It was about as big as some of the boats on the dock.

Those two stupid colts lured an ursa minor into town! What were they thinking? Luckily, Twilight Sparkle protected everypony. We could have had a big problem.

Entry 19:

Still no luck on the cutie mark. I had to tell Sweetie Belle that she is not "no good at anything" like she seems to think. It is upsetting to know that nopony else in the class still has a blank flank, but we're just still full of potential, I keep telling her.

We're going to keep trying. Whichever of us gets our mark, first, promises not to pick on the other for being the last one in the class. I never would, but I'm glad to know that she would treat me the same way. I'll definitely be happy for her if she gets her mark, but I really do want mine soon. I hope it would make my parents proud.

I wrote another note to Miss Cheerilee today, I need to get myself some more time and figure out what to do. If she finds out, I'm going to be in huge trouble.

I also ran into Rainbow Dash today. I still haven't built up the nerve to ask her to teach me to fly. The only two other pegasi I've really met are Fluttershy, who I still can't tell if she doesn't like me, and our goofy mailmare. The mailmare is so clumsy. I don't know if it would even do me any good to ask her. She has funny eyes, but she seems very nice. Apparently she has a daughter in our class named Dinky. I haven't met her, but I'll keep an eye out for her this week.

I saved up a bunch of money I've found and finally was able to buy a new scooter. I forgot my old one at my house. I can still push myself around on it. I may not be able to fly yet, but at least these wings are good for something. Sweetie Belle thinks it's so neat that I can get around on a scooter without using my hooves. I guess so, but it's not really that different in the end.

The other day I woke up and town was empty. I found Sweetie Belle in Rarity's shop alone. It was really weird. Rarity told us when she finally got home that there's somepony called a zebra by the name of Zakura Zecora that lives in the Everfree Forest. Everypony used to be scared of her until somepony found out she was nice. I don't know why anyone would just be scared of somepony. What makes her so scary?

Entry 20:

Dinky Hooves is a nice little unicorn. She seems a bit less clumsy than her mother. I don't know if I will hang out with her or not, but I definitely don't dislike her.

Diamond Tiara invited everyone in the class to her cute-ceañera party. Rarity tells Sweetie Belle and me that it's because she is a nice pony who wants everypony to enjoy her special moment. We know the truth. She just wants to boast in front of everypony how "special" she is. She drives me crazy. I can't wait until I get my cutie mark and it's way cooler than hers.

Silver Spoon and Diamond Tiara were picking on a filly named Apple Bloom today. At least it wasn't us, but Sweetie Belle and I are not the only two without a cutie mark. I feel bad for poor Apple Bloom. I am guessing that she's Granny Smith's grandfilly.

Drawing of Silver Spoon and Diamond Tiara in a circle that has been crossed out.

Haha! Sweetie Belle and I totally screwed up Diamond Tiara's cute-ceañera party. It felt good. We finally had a chance to show her and Silver Spoon a taste of their own medicine! Apple Bloom has joined Sweetie Belle and me, we're going by the Cutie Mark Crusaders! We're going to get our marks together! It's going to be so awesome!

Apple Bloom is a really nice pony. I feel like I've seen her before. Anyway, she's part of the Apple family, like I thought. She invited Sweetie Belle and me over to hang out. I'm sort of nervous. I don't want Granny Smith to find out I ran away from home and tell my aunt.

Entry 21:

I talked with Apple Bloom after school the other day. I asked her about her family. She said she lived with her sister and brother and grandma. I asked here why she didn't live with her parents, she said her parents died when she was very young. I almost started crying. I didn't know that her parents were gone, too!

I didn't tell her I already knew her grandma. I still don't want to get in trouble. I knew she had a sister, but I didn't know she had a brother. Maybe that's the pony who almost found. I guess that makes sense. I thought it was her dad or something, though. I hope that he didn't see me! I don't want to get in trouble! Drawing of Scootaloo with an unhappy face with the word "nervous" under it

Even though I didn't want her to, Apple Bloom introduced me to Granny Smith yesterday. What was I going to say? I couldn't tell her no. I was so nervous. However, it turns out Granny Smith can't remember anything for more than a few minutes. I don't know how she's so good at cooking. How can she remember the recipes if she can't remember anypony's name?

Miss Cheerilee told me that she was worried about me since my parents still hadn't shown up. She said she has given my parents more than enough time, and that they need to meet with her soon. I didn't know what to say, she asked if I was okay, and if I understood. I nodded and ran off. I don't want to lie, but I don't want to be sent home. I need to figure something out.

Sweetie Belle and I went with Apple Bloom to help Granny Smith cook. I got to try some apple tarts and apple fritters. They were so good. I may help them cook more often. I'll be able to have something to eat that way. Sweetie Belle ended up covered in flower. It didn't really change her coat's color, but her mane was all white. It was pretty funny. She got upset, though. Apple Bloom and I had to persuade her that she can do things alright, it was just a mistake.

Sweetie Belle is so nice and always means well, she just happens to be a bit clumsy. I really wish she'd stop being so hard on herself. She's my first and closest friend in town. She's my only friend in town other than Apple Bloom (well, and Twist, I guess, though she's still so nerdy, I feel like I'm more likely to be picked on by Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon when she talks to me).

Entry 22:

We're staying with Sweetie Belle at Rarity's tonight! This week is going to be the week for sure! We're definitely going to get our cutie marks. It's going to be awesome! I wonder what it'll be!

Change of plans, apparently we're going with Fluttershy! Fluttershy really is a very nice pony, she just is very... well, shy. Sweetie Belle made us these cool capes. She got in big trouble, though. We almost didn't get to sleep over, because she used Rarity's nice silk and Rarity had to make more.

Rarity had the nerve to call all three of us "a problem!" She is so mean to all of us. She is nice every once in awhile, but she usually just tells Sweetie Belle how much she's in the way. It's really annoying, and poor Sweetie Belle gets so upset.

Entry 23:

We got into big trouble last night in the Everfree Forest. We went to rescue one of Fluttershy's chickens and almost got attacked by a cockatrice. Luckily, Fluttershy saved us all! It was so cool! She stared down the cockatrice! She survived being turned to stone! It was amazing!

I ran into Applejack and Apple Bloom today in town. She asked me how I was and called me sugar cube a bunch of times. I told her I was fine and we talked for a while.

Applejack seems really nice. She seems to be very close to her sister. Apple Bloom said they spend a lot of time together, kind of like my parents did with me. I had to stop myself from crying when she said that. She asked what was wrong. I told her nothing was wrong. I hate lying, but I don’t want her knowing what happened.

They invited me to the house this evening. I can't wait. I love going to the Apples' house, there's always a lot of good stuff to eat. Drawing of a pie.

I left early. I thought I saw a pony who looked like Auntie Raincloud through the window and couldn't stop worrying that she'd come and find me.

When I got there, Sweetie Belle, Applejack and Apple Bloom were waiting for me. She brought us on a long walk, eventually showing us to... what was left of her clubhouse. She let us have it, which was nice and all, but it was falling to pieces. It's going to take a lot of work to make it into anything we can actually use.

Before I left, I met Big Macintosh. He eyed me like he didn't trust me. I think he did see me that night at the gazebo. I hope he isn't mad. I didn't mean to steal all those apples. I was hungry. And they were the ones he left behind! I didn't do anything wrong, did I?

Entry 24:

I had to come clean to Apple Bloom. She said that after I left, a pegasus named Raincloud visited the house. She talked to Granny Smith for a long time. After the others left, Auntie Raincloud told Granny Smith and Apple Bloom that she had been missing me for weeks now and she was very worried.

I told Apple Bloom not to tell anypony what I told her. She was really upset that she couldn't tell my aunt that I was in Ponyville, but promised not to tell. She started bringing lunch to school for me. I don't know how to thank her. She's so nice.

I should have asked her to help me with Miss Cheerilee.

Auntie Raincloud is getting older, and she hasn't been able to travel very much lately, Apple Bloom said. I feel bad for her... I just can't go back there. I hope she is okay... when I saw her, part of me wanted to give her a big hug and tell her I was fine... but I didn't want to go back to Port Mane... so I left in case it was her, and it was...

Apple Bloom says that Auntie Raincloud has been terribly worried, and didn't think I would've gone out of Port Mane, but she had no luck searching inside the town.

The clubhouse looks fantastic. Apple Bloom did a great job. I've started offering to stay late and clean up every evening, and then sleeping up there. Apple Bloom seems to know why I'm staying late, because she brought up blankets and pillows the other day.

Small drawing of the treehouse fills the rest of the page. Underneath it is the label "new home".

Entry 25:

Got covered in taffy today. Learned we are not cut out for hair styling. We're not psychic. Tried on mountain climbing. No go. Got chased by a squid. We're also not librarians.

However, we did learn that there's a talent show going on at the school. We got six wooden planks, a 4x8 of plywood, a box of nails, four cans of paint, four brushes, some cloth materials, a fan, and a book titled Ghosts, Goblins and Ghoulish Figures. We're going to do an awesome song.

[Doodle of a microphone in the margins.] I'm doing the singing. It's going to be totally awesome. Writing lyrics is really tough, though (I keep writing about food). I’ll get it, though! This is going to be awesome! I don't know if Apple Bloom is cut out for the choreography, she's not the best on her feet. Sweetie Belle keeps losing all the fabric. It keeps rolling all over the place, and she made an outfit with five legs, which was really weird. Sweetie Belle also painted the scenery. All the backgrounds are brown. I think we'll be fine, though! We left Applejack speechless! Speechless! How cool is that?

[Drawing of the jester hat medal.] We won best comedy act! We were really worried that we weren't going to win anything. We may have looked absolutely silly on stage, but at least we made everypony laugh! We did a great job at being funny! Maybe that’s our talent? No cutie marks, though! What’s it take to get a stupid cutie mark?

Rainbow Dash came to see us and stayed after to congratulate me! It was so exciting! I still didn't build up the nerve to ask her if she could teach me to fly...

Miss Cheerilee pulled me aside and told me that my parents have one week to talk with her before she has to talk to somepony about my living situation. She said that she has had to wait a few months to talk to parents, before, especially if they are like Diamond Tiara's parents, and can be out of town for months on business. She told me that this is the longest she has ever had to wait, though. I'm pretty nervous about this. I'm going to be sent back to that house. I can't handle that! What will I do?

I'm trying to figure out what to do about Miss Cheerilee at the clubhouse. The clubhouse is really-- text cuts off here.

Entry 26:

I've really liked staying in the clubhouse the past couple days. However, I probably am going to have to go back home, again. Doodle of a crying pony.

Applejack found me writing in here in the clubhouse late last night. She told me that she would walk me to my house, that it was too late to be going home alone. I ended up telling her what was going on, that I was living in the clubhouse, and that I ran away from home a little over a month ago.

Applejack brought me to the house and wrote a letter to Auntie Raincloud. She said she is sending it first thing in the morning. I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't want to leave Ponyville. My two best friends are here. Besides, I can't go live in that house again! It reminds me too much of Mama and Papa. I would have to start everything over, and always be remembering my parents... I don't know what I'm going to do.

Auntie Raincloud came into town as quickly as she could. She came and give me a hug and said she was so worried. I told her I couldn't go back home, that I couldn't go back to that house. She told me that that was okay... I didn't have any idea what she meant.

She told me she was planning to move to Ponyville anyway. It turns out she said she was getting to old to travel back and forth from town to visit her closest living friend, or buy some of her groceries. She said she was planning to sell the house when she got the letter. I'm upset by that, though. I don't want to go back, but I don't want to lose the house either. All my family's memories are in that house!

A small drawing of Scootaloo's house as best as she remembers it fills most of the rest of the page, under it is a label of "Mama's and Papa's and my home."

I just hope whoever buys it takes really good care of it.

Entry 27:

Auntie Raincloud found a house not too far from Sweet Apple Acres. I'm staying with her again. I love my aunt, I really did miss her. I just couldn't go back there. She did give me something that will always remind me of my parents, but it makes me both happy and sad: I got a locket with a picture of my parents in it. I leave it on my dresser and look at it every night before I go to bed. Sometimes it makes me cry, other days it makes me happy to see their faces again.

She also saved my old scooter. She said it was something she always remembered me by. She let me have it once I moved back in. I have the one I bought still. I think I'll keep it at the clubhouse, in case we need to move something around. It wasn't nearly as good anyway. Besides, I can't get rid of my old one. Mama and Papa got it for me! I'm very happy that Auntie Raincloud saved it! The day I left I wish I had brought it with me... but now I have it again!

The other day Rarity got kidnapped by some stupid dogs looking for gemstones. She managed to protect herself and get out alright, though. Sweetie Belle and I found out from Twilight Sparkle. Spike kept muttering something about it being his turn to be the hero. He has some weird obsession with Rarity. Twilight is a lot nicer, now that I've met her a few times, I shouldn't have called her stuck up when I first saw her. I take it back.

Today, Applejack is headed by train to deliver a fully grown tree she has named "Bloomberg". It is the strangest thing I have seen in a long time. Anyway, Auntie Raincloud also invited Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle to stay the night tonight. Sweetie Belle found out I had been staying alone the whole time I knew her and was really upset. She keeps blaming herself. It wasn't her fault! I didn't want her to know. I don't want her sad, that makes me sad. Small drawing of a sad pony labeled "guilt isn't fun"

Miss Cheerilee came to meet Auntie Raincloud. She learned everything that was going on and gave me a big hug. I almost started crying. She also told Auntie Raincloud very nice things about me and said I was "a good friend to Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom," which I was very happy to hear. She also said I had a habit of not paying attention and falling asleep in class. I really do like Miss Cheerilee, but school is so boring. Drawing of Scootaloo giving a raspberry, with the words "school is boring" repeated below.

Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom are here. [In two different styles of hoofwriting are the words "Cutie Mark Crusaders forever!" and "Scootaloo is cool!"] We're going to be spending the evening figuring out what to do to get our cutie marks. We just know this week is going to be the week!

Entry 28:

We're doing a zip line (whatever that is) this afternoon. Spike says they're really fun. I hope it goes well, it seems simple to build.

That didn't work well. We decided on a different idea (and then got all the tree sap off of us from when we discovered zip lining wasn't for us). We're going to go find Rainbow Dash and see how she got her cutie mark. Maybe that will be a good place to start (and maybe I'll be able to ask her to teach me to fly, finally! Auntie Raincloud is way too old to teach me how to fly).

That was exhausting. We spent ALL day finding out EVERYPONY'S cutie mark story except Rainbow Dash's. We finally found her after everypony else. I had never been happier to sit and listen to somepony tell me a story (well, except when my parents used to tell me stories back when I was a very little filly).

Rainbow Dash is the only pony in history ever able to do a Sonic Rainboom! She's done it TWICE! That is so cool! One day I want to be just like her! Small drawing of Rainbow Dash labeled "So awesome!" I've been exercising my wings. I still can't lift myself off the ground, but I can go really fast on my scooter.

Aww! I forgot to ask Rainbow Dash to teach me how to fly! Little doodle of Scootaloo sighing.

Entry 29:

Winter Wrap-Up was really fun. I got to help Sweetie Belle and the mailmare's filly, Dinky Hooves, wake up animals for spring. We almost didn't get done in time, but Twilight Sparkle managed to organize everypony and get things done on time for what the mayor says is the first time in a while.

Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle are staying with me again, tonight. This week is going to be the week, we just know it! We're going to get our cutie marks for sure! We're making a big list of everything we can think of and we're going to do them all, one by one! If that doesn't work, nothing will!

Applejack is planning a surprise party for Pinkie Pie! She said it's just for her and her friends. Apple Bloom, Sweetie Belle and I want cake, too! We're going to sneak into the barn after everypony's gotten to partying and get some cake. The Cakes made it, so we know it's going to be absolutely delicious!

The party was fun and all, but I kept getting chomped on by an alligator with no teeth. It was very strange. The cake was really good, though. Applejack wasn't even mad at us. I think she just didn't want us to ruin the surprise. Why does nopony think we can do anything right? Is that why we don't have our cutie marks? Do we just mess everything up? Sometimes I feel like I do, but the others don't seem to be doing anything wrong to me...

In about a week is the Grand Galloping Gala. Rarity and Applejack are both going, and since Sweetie Belle won't have anypony to watch her, the Cutie Mark Crusaders will be having another sleep over again! I can't wait!

Miss Cheerilee suggested I try to get my cutie mark by doing something with my scooter. I don't know about that, though. What, would I just have a scooter on my flank? I don't think that seems like that would work... Besides, I've been using my scooter for years! Wouldn't I already have it by now?

Entry 30:

This week is the week for sure! We're definitely going to get our cutie marks! We have the list all made and we're going to start going through the ideas. It's going to be great! Little drawing of a heart with the letters "CMC" inside, with the words "Best friends forever!" underneath.

We had to cancel the sleep over... Auntie Raincloud is sick. Apple Bloom is going to get Big Mac and we're going to try and get Auntie Raincloud to the hospital. She seemed just fine! Well, she had been coughing, but she's old, that's not unusual... I hope she's okay.

I'm sitting in the hospital. I hate hospitals. Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom are here with me. Auntie Raincloud is not looking good at all. I can't lose Auntie Raincloud! She has to get better!

Big Mac took Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom and said I needed to spend time with Auntie Raincloud, just her and me. He looked very worried when he left. I hope things are okay. I hope Auntie Raincloud is okay...

Entry 31:

The page looks heavily tear stained and smudged. Some of the writing is scribbled out as if Scootaloo was having trouble writing very well. Auntie Raincloud... dipassed away this early morning early. I did get to say goodbye, but I didn't want to. I finally did, because if this was going to be my onlylast chance, I didn't want to do the same thing that happened with Mama and Papa.

I didn't ever really write any stories about Auntie Raincloud in here yet... Auntie Raincloud was a sweet mare. She was always there to take care of me when Mama and Papa would go out to spend the evening together. I spent probably almost as much time with her as I did with Mama and Papa. She was my foalsitter when I was really young.

There was one time where she took me to Canterlot for a few days. We got to go through the castle! She said she had attended two of the Grand Galloping Galas as a younger pony. She knew several ponies in Canterlot. We got to stay in a really nice room. She went with just me. It was a special trip she planned just for us. It was a great few days. We got to see some very fancy stores and she bought me a snowglobe with Canterlot Castle in it.

I had to go to this will reading thing. Auntie Raincloud gave me the snowglobe I had left back at the old house. I put it on the dresser with my locket. I don't know what I'm going to do, though. Where am I going to stay? I can't live alone in this house!

Fluttershy and Rainbow Dash came to visit me at the house and both gave me a big hug. Fluttershy offered for me to stay with her until everything got sorted out. I packed up my stuff and I am living with her right now. Her new friend, Shooting Star, has been visiting us quite a bit lately, both to spend time with Fluttershy, and to see how I was doing. Shooting Star met Fluttershy a couple of weeks ago, and he's very nice, I don't know much else about him. He's been trying to cheer me up all day. The two of them spent a long time talking to me and telling me things were going to be okay.

How can they, though? How can anything be okay? I lost Mama and Papa, and now Auntie Raincloud! Maybe I'm just supposed to be alone. Shooting Star told me that things will work out, that I'll be okay, and that Auntie Raincloud loved me, and that she just got sick. I know she didn't leave me on purpose. She wouldn't do that, would she? She loved me! I loved her, too.

It Takes A Village (♫)

Entries 32-52

Entry 32:

I have started living with the Apple family. I guess that makes Apple Bloom kind of like a real sister, in a sense. I go to visit Fluttershy who is teaching me, as best she can, how to fly. She's so unconfident in her own abilities that she doesn't really know how to teach too well. Besides, I feel like I am just getting in the way of her and Shooting Star. She and Shooting Star are nice about it, though.

Shooting Star is almost as good as Twilight Sparkle when it comes to magic. He definitely knows his stuff. He also came from Canterlot. I still think that in a fight, Twilight would probably win, but I doubt that would ever happen. Shooting Star is pretty similar to Fluttershy when it comes to being friendly with everypony, but he's far more confident in himself. I think that's what makes him so good for her. He really helps encourage her. I'm glad, too. Some times I feel like everypony takes Fluttershy for granted. She'd help anypony in any way she can. The few days I've spent with her really show that.

I have a little bed in Apple Bloom's room. We spend most of the night chatting, and often don't get to sleep until late. One day we spent all night talking about our parents. She says she doesn't really remember her parents very well. By the end of the night, we were both crying. She doesn't even really remember what her parents look like.

I told her about a time Mama and Papa took me on a trip on one of the big fancy cruise ships that come into the dock every once in awhile. We got to eat a bunch of fancy food and we had these big fancy beds. It must have cost a lot, another thing I wish I could thank my parents for doing for me.

I still have a hard time some nights after Apple Bloom gets to sleep. I stare at my snowglobe and locket. I just have these nights where I can't stop thinking about Mama and Papa and Auntie Raincloud. I feel like it's all my fault. I know it makes no sense, but I still feel it. It makes me so upset that I can't sleep.

Some nights, though, I think of good times we spent together, and even though I miss them, remembering them still makes me happy. I would never want to forget my parents or Auntie Raincloud. It may hurt, but I still loved them. I am still glad I was lucky enough to remember them, unlike poor Apple Bloom.

Entry 33:

Staying at the Apple family's house is great. There's so much tasty food around. Lunch is good. I always have lunch now, ever since Auntie Raincloud first came to Ponyville. This food is delicious, though, and Applejack packs me and Apple Bloom the same tasty goodies for lunch.

Miss Cheerilee has been a great help over the last couple of weeks. She always comes up to me after school and asks if I am okay, and if I need to talk. She told me the other day that she lost her grandpa when she was very young and that they were very close. She says she knows what it's like to deal with it one time so young. She said that I must be struggling a lot, having to deal with it twice, including losing both parents together.

She's right. I act alright at school, but it's difficult. I've had so many days where I just don't want to get out of bed. I just want to lay there and cry. I just want to sit there and remember the times Mama and I would pick flowers, or when Papa and I would go to the park, or when Auntie Raincloud would bring me here to Ponyville and I just want forget everything else (well, maybe not Sweetie Belle and Apple Boom). I've spent several hours talking to Miss Cheerilee and telling her how much I miss my parents and my aunt. She always sits and listens and tells me things will be okay. It's hard to believe her, but she made it. She's fine. In fact, she's great. So maybe things will be okay.

Applejack and Big Macintosh have also sat down with me and told me that I will be okay, one day. They've told me I will probably always hurt, but I will be fine. Applejack tells me everypony has to deal with it at some point. I believe them that I will be okay, but why does everypony have to deal with this? I don't want ANYPONY to deal with this. It feels so bad.

Entry 34:

The pages are tear stained once again.

I ran away from school today. I'm in Port Mane now. I'm sitting at my parents' grave. This is the first time I have ever seen it. I came and told them how sorry I was that I didn't get to say goodbye. I told them I didn't know I wasn't going to be able to see them the next day. I told them I really wish I could have given them a hug. I told them I still do. I can't stop crying!

I ran away because of Diamond Tiara. She told me that I was alone because my parents didn't want me. She said my aunt was probably happy she was gone, because she wouldn't have to deal with me anymore. Maybe she's right. Everypony does seem to leave me eventually. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe I should just be on my own. I can't lose anypony if I don't get close to them.

Apple Bloom heard the whole thing and called to stop me, but I just couldn't stay there. I had to go somewhere, and I came all the way here. I walked by my old house. A couple of unicorns moved in. It really isn't mine anymore. It never will be, again. Now that it's not mine, I want to be there more than anything. I want to go to my old room and wake up when everything was fine. I want to go into my old kitchen and smell the lavender on the windowsill. I want to sit in the living room and be with my parents. I want to tell them I love them. I want to hear them tell me the same thing. I want to lay beside my aunt as she reads one of her sappy romance books. I just want to be happy again.

It's getting dark. I keep hiding from ponies as they walk through the cemetery. I don't want them to talk to me. I don't want to talk to anypony. I just want to be here, with my parents. Maybe I'll just stay here forever.

Entry 35:

The page has a faded picture of a light blue pegasus with a gray mane. She looks to be older in age. She is standing with Celestia at the Grand Galloping Gala from an unmarked year.

Applejack found me at the cemetery, asleep on my parents' headstone. She, Apple Bloom, and Big Macintosh found out where I went. Apparently Granny Smith can't remember names, but she remembers where Auntie Raincloud, Mama and Papa lived. They came and told me I had to come back home, that I couldn't stay there. I wish I could, I wish I could be with them, again.

They took me to my old house and asked the unicorns to let me go inside. They explained what had happened and the unicorn family let me come in for a visit. I started crying as soon as I walked inside. I walked into my old room on the second floor. The walls were the same light blue with the same clouds. The same dresser was there. The same little bed. It was now a unicorn colt's bedroom. He asked me who I was and why I was crying, but I couldn't get myself to say anything. He went downstairs. I'm guessing his parents or somepony explained what happened because he came upstairs again and told me how sorry he was about what happened.

Downstairs hadn't changed much, either. The table in the kitchen was different. The chairs were different. They were definitely fancier than the ones we had. The living room's walls were now a sandy color instead of the light green they used to be. The cabinets were all the same, though. The windowsill even still had lavender on it. The second I walked in I smelled it. Even though the table was different, I felt, just for a second, like I was back home. I even called out "Mama" and "Papa". I thought it was in my head, but Apple Bloom told me I said something out loud. I could've left this world, right there, and been a happy filly, but it didn't happen.

The unicorns gave us a few pictures that were left in the house when Auntie Raincloud left. I am so happy they gave me them. I have a picture to remember what Auntie Raincloud by. I also have a picture of me as a little filly. I don't think I've ever seen the picture before. I had huge eyes when I was little.

I was really happy the family that moved in was so nice. The father said he promised the house was in good hands, and that I could visit anytime I wanted. I hope they take good care of it.

I'm back in town with the Apple family now, though.

Entry 36:

I think I'm gonna get on my scooter, today, and try and get my mind off things. When I'm doing tricks and moving around fast, I am usually able to get my mind off my troubles. Maybe it'll make me feel at least a little better. I still miss Auntie Raincloud so much. I should have stayed with her. I had so much time I could have spent with her. She must have worried about me so much...

I was scooting around town, doing tricks, and Rainbow Dash was impressed by my skills! Oh my goodness! Rainbow Dash thinks I have nice moves! Maybe she will take me under her wing! Maybe she will teach me to fly!

I talked with Rainbow Dash for a little while (well, more... listened as she talked. She is so awesome!) She told me that she saved The Wonderbolts and Rarity at the Best Young Flyer competition! SHE saved the WONDERBOLTS! The Wonderbolts! That's so amazing!

I told Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom, and Apple Bloom said she's going to try and get Rainbow Dash to come camping with her, and I'm invited! Sweetie Belle is going to bring Rarity! (I wonder how that will work... honestly, it kind of worries me).

Sweetie Belle got her to come by telling Rarity they needed to spend time together. Well, it wasn't quite that easy. She said her parents had told Rarity, recently, that she needed to take a break from her work and spend time with her. Sweetie Belle, you're too smart for your own good.

Entry 37:

Sweetie Belle got what she asked for... and more. She's hauling tons of stuff for Rarity. Rarity brought a cart stacked with all kinds of boxes. She's not really the camping type, clearly.

I haven't seen Rainbow Dash yet. Maybe she's not coming. Oh, why would she? I'm just some stupid filly. What would she care about camping with somepony like me? I still keep thinking about what Diamond Tiara said. Maybe she's right, and if my family doesn't want to be around me, why would Rainbow Dash?

Rainbow Dash met us at the first camping spot. We're going to make a campfire and tell stories.

That was creepy... I'm afraid. I don't want anypony to know that, though! What if Rainbow Dash finds out and thinks I'm uncool? What if she never wants to be around me again? Besides, Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle would make fun of me. I acted all brave when they freaked out, but really I'm just a lying filly, again.

I can't sleep. I keep having nightmares. But when I wake up, I have nopony to go to. I don't want anypony else to know I'm a liar. I'm so scared, though...

Entry 38:

I was SOOO tired, today. We had to hike a long time, but I couldn’t stay awake. I fell asleep on the cart Sweetie Belle was pulling. (As if she didn't have enough to haul. Some friend I am.)

I got spooked and offered to help Rarity, and I hauled the (very heavy) cart to this creepy stupid cave. We are sleeping in it tonight. This is awful. A drawing of the cave fills the page, the entry continues on the next page.

I had to go get firewood, too. We told MORE stories. I wanted to take over and tell a... happier story, this is embarrassing.

Rainbow Dash didn't like my story and took over. She told a story of The Headless Horse. She said that The Headless Horse is in these woods! I'm so freaked out! I need to stay brave, though. What would Rainbow Dash think of me? What would my parents think of me? I'm such a liar. Who am I kidding, saying I’m brave?

Princess Luna talked to me in my dream and told me I need to face my fears. I need to come clean about my fears...

I got all freaked out and ran away. I fell in the water (I lost the scooter I bought when I came to town. I brought it instead of the one Mama and Papa got me, because I didn't want the rocks to tear it up.) Rainbow Dash had to save me.

I told Rainbow Dash that I was scared, and she told me that, when she first heard the stories, she was, too. She even offered to take me under her wing! I have somepony to help me learn to fly and be like a big sister to me! I told her about all the other things on my mind, lately on our way back to the cave, about how I just can't stop feeling upset about what Diamond Tiara said.

Rainbow Dash sat me down and told me not to listen to Diamond Tiara. She told me that she was a brat with "no grasp of real life." She's right, that stupid filly doesn't know anything about how tough life can be. She lives in a nice fancy house with both her parents and more money than I will probably ever see. She's lucky. What's not fair is she's lucky and she'll never realize or respect how lucky she is.

Entry 39:

WindsWinsome Falls were amazing! They were even cooler since Rainbow Dash flew me around with her. We all spent a long time playing around. After a while we just relaxed. I hope the trip back is fun. I had a great day.

The falls are some of the prettiest things I've ever seen. I bet Mama and Papa would have loved to have seen them. I bet Auntie Raincloud would have loved to see them, too. I miss them all so much. Even when I have good friends all around me, I still have a part of me missing.

I really had a wonderful time today, and I'm still so excited Rainbow Dash is going to help me! Maybe I'm luckier than I think. I may not have my family, but at least I have friends who will take care of me.

Drawing of the falls.

Entry 40:

The last couple days of the camp out were a blast! Rainbow Dash said she would lay off the really scary stories, and told us about her time in Cloudsdale. Applejack told stories from when she was a filly. Rainbow Dash told us that she has been seeing this pony, Lucky Buck, recently, and Applejack made fun of her saying she never imagined Rainbow Dash being that close with anypony. I think she upset Rainbow Dash more than she expected, because Rainbow Dash didn't talk to her much until the fire went out. Applejack said Rainbow Dash took her too seriously. I suppose, but it did seem a bit mean.

I was able to enjoy the camping a lot more, since I was able to sleep. I also was able to enjoy what we were doing instead of worrying like a silly filly. Sweetie Belle didn't ever have much energy to do anything because Rarity's stupid giant cart wore her out. I don't get why she lets Rarity push her around. Rarity should have carried all that junk, not her. Sweetie Belle needs to fight back a bit more, not let Rarity walk all over her.

Rainbow Dash said she would start helping me learn to fly in her spare time. She said if she doesn't have anything to do for weather, she'll find me after school. This all really helped me cheer up. I've been having a hard time dealing with losing Auntie Raincloud, so maybe learning to fly will help cheer me up in time. Having good friends really helped me deal with this a lot better.

Entry 41:

Rainbow Dash and her new special somepony took me to get a treat. This Lucky Buck unicorn is a really nice stallion. He comes from Canterlot, where he went to school with Twilight. He said Twilight probably wouldn't remember him, since she didn't really seem to talk with anypony in Canterlot. He says he's seen her before several different times, though.

They finally got me cheery enough that I was able to start practicing flying. I was able to get off the ground for the first time! All I did was hover, but that's better than nothing! Rainbow Dash said I'm a natural. She told me if I kept practicing, one day I could be as good as she is! For a little while I didn't even feel sad. It was the first time in months. I felt like I was in the right place. I felt like I was making my parents proud, even if they weren't there to see it.

When I thought that, though, I became pretty sad. Lucky Buck had to cheer me up. He told me my parents would've been there if they could. He said they would've been very proud of me. He may not have known them, but he did make me feel a lot better. He patted me on the back and Rainbow Dash gave me a hug, and they walked me back to Sweet Apple Acres.

Lucky Buck is a policepony in town. He moved here recently. He used to be a policepony in Maneapolis. He wanted to move to a smaller town because he was tired of how busy his job was, but he still wanted to be a policepony. Apparently Maneapolis is huge, and they don't have many policeponies. He said he felt bad about leaving an already small police force, but he said he just couldn't take it anymore. He said he was tired all the time.

I guess that makes sense. I wouldn't want to be tired everyday, either.

This evening, Sweetie Belle came over and she, Apple Bloom, and I spent the night camping at the gazebo. We spent some of the time talking about our big trip, and said we would have to do something to try and get our cutie marks soon. With everything that has happened lately, we haven't gotten anywhere. I told them I was sorry for making such a big deal, and they both told me that I had nothing to be sorry about. They told me they wished they could have made everything better.

They decided to talk about what we would do, and told me we would get our cutie marks soon, and that I would be okay. They also both told me something that made me feel good, better than I have felt in quite a while. Apple Bloom told me that she was very happy to have me as a friend. She told me I was one of her best friends. I knew I was, but she had never told me that. Sweetie Belle told me the same thing. She said that the only thing she regrets about meeting me is that she didn't get to help me as much as she could have back when we first met.

I still don't know why she feels so guilty about that. I didn't let her know, because I didn't want to make anyone take care of me, (that, and I didn't want to be sent back to Port Mane).

Entry 42:

Lucky Buck said we're going to see the Wonderbolts tonight! I haven't seen them since Mama and Papa took me (I guess I could count the flyover at the Summer Sun Celebration, but that’s not the same). I can't wait! I can't tell whether Rainbow Dash is more excited or I am. I have started to deal with things better lately. I've been able to smile easier.

That was SO cool! I got to meet the Wonderbolts, and Fleetfoot even signed my old poster! I got ALL their autographs on a new poster Lucky Buck bought me. They recognized Rainbow Dash and asked if she was the one who saved them and Rarity at the Best Young Flyer competition. OF COURSE she was! (Who else would be the one to do something so cool?) We got to hang out with them and go to dinner with them! It was a great evening. I got to sit and talk WITH THE WONDERBOLTS!

Rainbow Dash and Lucky Buck sat at their own table together. Rainbow kept coming over to the table every so often to talk to her heroes, but for the most part she and Lucky Buck ate at their own table. I told them I was just learning to fly and that Rainbow Dash was teaching me how. Soarin' asked how I was related to Rainbow Dash, since she was too young for me to be her filly. I ended up explaining what happened to my parents and aunt, and I managed to do it without crying. It may not seem like much, but that’s NEVER happened before. Usually I get pretty upset even talking about them, at all.

I don't know whether to feel guilty about that, or whether to feel relieved. Am I getting stronger, or am I forgetting them?

Soarin' and the other Wonderbolts all seemed sad to hear what I told them. They all told me that things would be fine. They had all lost somepony close to them. A couple had even lost parents. They all told me they had dealt with it in time, and look at how successful THEY are! Maybe everypony really is right. Maybe I will be okay, after all.

Entry 43:

[Tucked into the page is an image labelled "My Other Family" on the back.]

Just woke up. I really met the Wonderbolts! It wasn't a dream! Last night was SO cool!

I'm going with Rainbow Dash today to practice flying again. I still can't keep myself in the air for very long at all. She told me not to get frustrated, and that it will take time. She said that if I get frustrated I'll just mess myself up. I hope she's right about me. She told me I am doing pretty well for how little training I have had.

Flight training is tough! I haven't been able to lift myself off the ground again so far. Small drawing of a pouting pony. Rainbow Dash keeps telling me I'm working myself up too much. I just want to become a pony my parents would be proud of. She told me that they would always be proud of me. I almost started to cry. She suggested we give it a break for the day.

I have moved in with Lucky Buck. He and Rainbow Dash have taken to adopting me. That means so much to me. Rainbow Dash will never know how special that is to me. Applejack said she would miss me, and that she really enjoyed the time we spent. She pulled me aside and said I was like another sister to her during the time we'd been together. When she said this I almost started to cry. She was almost crying, too, when she told me I was welcome to stay over anytime.

Apple Bloom said it was going to feel weird being on her own at night again. She said she really enjoyed spending time with me. I won't be far, so I can always visit. I mean I'm not leaving town, or anything, I'm just moving to a new house.

Lucky Buck took me downtown this afternoon. We went for a treat at Sugarcube Corner while Rainbow Dash was up preparing the skies for an afternoon rain. Pinkie Pie was there and came up and talked (and talked and talked) to (at) us about nothing at all for way longer than Lucky Buck or I really wanted. By the time she left to go talk to (at) Berry Punch, Lucky Buck and I were exhausted. We walked downtown for a little bit longer before heading home. He bought strawberries and pears along the way.

I haven't had strawberries in a long time. They used to be my favorites, but until today, I couldn't get myself to eat them. They make me think of Mama and Papa too much. They tasted sooo good, and I felt happy and sad at the same time. Lucky Buck asked me what was wrong, and I told him about how Papa used to get me strawberries as a special treat, and how Mama used to make delicious strawberry cake. He apologized and told me he didn't mean to upset me. It wasn't his fault, and I told him that, but he still seemed a bit upset. I really am glad he bought them, they were good. Besides, they were a gift.

The bottom of the page has a drawing of a strawberry, underneath it says "I still do like strawberries."

Entry 44:

Today I'm staying over at the Apples' house with Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle! We're going to get our cutie marks this week for sure! We have a bunch of new ideas (juggling, hoofball, interior design--we're going to have to see if Applejack will let us rearrange Apple Bloom's room.)

Beds are heavy and noisy, so we're no interior designers (Applejack found out what we were doing after she told us no.) Also, getting hit with batons hurt, I don't think we're going to juggle. We scored for the other team playing hoofball, so maybe that's just not our game. There are only so many things in Equestria to do. We have to figure what we're good at, soon, right?

Applejack showed us some cool lasso tricks today. I managed to get my back hooves tied in a knot. Applejack had to get Twilight to undo the knots. She says she's never seen a knot like that. Maybe that's my special talent, knots! After all, if Applejack hasn't ever seen a knot like that, maybe I make really amazing knots.

Knots are not my special talent. I can't even figure out how to tie anything. We'll figure something out soon, I hope! Apple Bloom says we should get our cutie marks in "trying" since we keep doing all these different things and still haven't succeeded.

Entry 45:

Miss Cheerilee told the class today that we're going on a field trip. I wonder where we're going. She didn't tell us much, just that we were going this afternoon.

Apple Bloom, Sweetie Belle, and I were kind of bored on the field trip, because it was a tour of Sweet Apple Acres. Applejack and Miss Cheerilee lead us around the place, and Applejack explained what kind of jobs she and Big Macintosh have. Big Mac was plowing a field and basically just responded "eeyup" and "nope" to a few things as Applejack talked about why he was plowing the field, and why it was important.

I guess it wasn't so bad. I learned just how much Big Mac and Applejack have to do. I never knew working on a farm was so much hard work. I thought you just planted seeds and let the pegasi water them. Turns out there's plowing, planting, protecting the crops from animals, harvesting, and also things not at the farm, like advertising, talking to businesses, delivering food. It's a lot of hard work!

Applejack gave all of us a big, tasty golden delicious apple. Mine was really good! Apple Bloom split hers and gave it to Sweetie Belle and me. Said she gets them all the time.

Rainbow Dash was busy again tonight. Apparently the pegasi missed a scheduled rainfall and had to make a big storm to make up for it. She got home late, and she was dripping wet. She said now that she's staying in a house on the ground from time to time she has to get used to going home in the rain.

Lucky Buck can't fly. I still can't, either. Because of this, Rainbow Dash spends many nights down here with us. She still owns her cloud house, but she tells me she wants to spend time with Lucky Buck and me.

Entry 46:

I accidentally called Rainbow Dash "Mama" today. She doesn't even look like Mama. Why'd I do that? I'm so pathetic. Mama is gone. Rainbow Dash just blushed and gave me a hug. She didn't say anything. Did I do something wrong? Me and my big stupid mouth.

Sweetie Belle came and visited me today. She said Rarity has a big order and told her to stay out of the way. Typical Rarity, she just pushes Sweetie Belle out of the way whenever she's busy. She doesn't even care if Sweetie Belle is alright. If I were Sweetie Belle, Rarity wouldn't treat me like that.

We hung out in my room for a while. I told her what happened this morning. She said she didn't see what the big deal was. Maybe I'm overreacting. It was just a mistake, wasn't it?

This afternoon we went to see Apple Bloom. This afternoon we went to see Apple Bloom. Maybe we could be animal care ponies! That’s a really good idea!  She said something about OpelOpal-EssRarity's cat. Rarity's cat is just a mean old fur ball. She can't be the way all animals are.

We're not animal care ponies. We went to Fluttershy's. Shooting Star had to help us out after Apple Bloom did something to cause a hawk to start chasing us. He calmed us down and told us that we should try something we've done before, something we really like to do. What good would that be? If we've done it, wouldn't we already know it was our special talent?

He and Fluttershy (after she calmed down, we kind of made a mess of her animal pens. She was really worried) were very nice. They both suggested we try looking for less dangerous things. Fluttershy said she didn't start working with larger animals until she had gotten used to working with smaller ones. Shooting Star said he didn't start with tough magic. He began by moving around sticks and stuff before he started doing fancy things.

Maybe they're right. Maybe we're starting too big. I don't know though. If we just do simple things, how are we supposed to know if we're really good at them? I like their support, but the more I think about it, the more I realize that idea doesn't make much sense

Entry 47:

Rainbow Dash told me today that whenever I finally get to flying, she'd show me what it's like to be a weatherpony. That's going to be so cool! I want to be able to push around all the clouds and make it rain, just like Papa and Auntie Raincloud did back home.

Miss Cheerilee had to sit me by her today. I got in a fight with Diamond Tiara after she called Rainbow Dash worthless for making it rain too long. Diamond Tiara's so dumb. Rainbow Dash is the coolest pony in all of Equestria! She also told me I was stupid for thinking Rainbow Dash was so special.

Of course Rainbow Dash is special! She and Lucky Buck adopted me! They've been great to me, and they do everything they can to make me feel happy. Diamond Tiara doesn't know what she's talking about. Miss Cheerilee was mad. She pulled me aside, and talked with me until I calmed down.

After school Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle asked if I was okay. I told them I was fine. We're going to find a way to get back at Diamond Tiara. We'll show her not to mess with us!

Entry 48:

Apple Bloom, Sweetie Belle and I have to stay late after school today. It was so worth it, though. We dumped a bucket of frogs on Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon. They ran off SCREAMING! It was so funny!

Diamond Tiara came up to me on my way back to Lucky Buck's house. She told me I would always be a blank flank because I was completely useless. It took everything I had not to kick her right in the mouth. I kept walking home and she told me I better keep running. When I got home, I started to cry. Why do I still not know how I am special? Maybe she's right. Maybe I'm not special.

Rainbow Dash came home and saw me upset. She said she's going to go talk to Mr. Rich about Diamond Tiara. I don't know what good that will do. She'll just make fun of me for telling on her. That'll just make things worse.

Rainbow Dash brought Diamond Tiara to the house with Mr. Rich and Mr. Rich made Diamond Tiara apologize. Mr. Rich seems like a nice guy. I haven't met him before today, but he seemed upset that his daughter would say such a thing.

Lucky Buck took Rainbow Dash out to eat tonight. I told them to go on their own. I don't want to keep getting in the way of them. They're so nice together, and I keep feeling like they feel like they have to include me.

I'm just somepony they decided to take in and feed. They keep treating me like I'm their filly or something. It's so nice of them, but I just feel like I'm getting in the way of them being together. I mean, I’ve felt this way for a while. Whenever I come home, and they’re together, they begin to talk about ME. What for? I don’t mind if I just come home and go to bed.  They don’t have to watch over me like this. I know they’re worried about me, and want me to feel at home and safe, but I really just feel like I do a bunch of taking. I have already been a thief for months, before. I don’t want to be that again.

I feel like they need a night just the two of them.

Entry 49:

The page has some tears stained into it.

I ran away to hide in the clubhouse last night. I felt like Rainbow Dash needed a night alone with Lucky Buck. I thought if I was there when they came home, all that was going to happen is whatever fun they had would turn into them worrying about if I was okay.

It turns out that all I did was make them even more worried. They spent an hour looking for me before Rainbow Dash found me sleeping in the clubhouse. She read my diary. I don't know how I feel about that. She told me that I was being silly for worrying about getting in the way.

After school today, Lucky Buck and Rainbow Dash told me to sit with them, and that we needed to talk. Lucky Buck said that he and Rainbow Dash don't think of me as "just a pony they have to feed." He said that he and Rainbow Dash see me as their filly. Rainbow Dash told me that she was upset that I would call myself "just somepony they decided to take in and feed" and that she thinks much more of me than that. I feel terrible.

They aren't mad at me. I would be. I feel like I told them that everything they've done was meaningless. What they've done means more to me than they could ever know. They didn't have to take me in. I'm such a bad filly. I can't do anything right.

Entry 50:

This page is also lightly stained with tears.

Miss Cheerilee talked to me after school today. She said I was unusually quiet today. I just didn't feel like talking. I feel like I'm always doing something wrong. I lied to her and told her I was okay. I don't want her worrying about me, too. I already have Rainbow Dash and Lucky Buck worried.

Why will nopony leave me alone? Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom came to see me when I got home and asked if I was okay. Why won't everypony stop worrying about me? I should have never run away. I should have just stayed with Auntie Raincloud and never met anypony here. If I had done that, they wouldn't have to worry about me. They wouldn't even know who I was.

A somewhat distressed looking drawing of a pegasus pony with the label "always causing trouble" takes up the middle of the page.

Rainbow Dash and Lucky Buck are taking me to Canterlot this weekend. They said I need to spend a few days with them and calm myself down. They found me writing in my diary and told me I needed to relax. They said that whatever was bothering me would pass. I don't know how. The only way it will pass is if I just disappear.

Entry 51:

I spent the night sleeping on the couch. Rainbow Dash had her wing wrapped around me last night and I was just so comfortable I didn't want to move. I woke up and saw she didn't move last night either. Lucky Buck was already awake. I asked if he stayed on the couch last night, too. He said he went to bed, that he felt like Rainbow Dash and I needed this moment. I don't know what he meant by that. Now I really am getting in their way. Rainbow Dash stayed with me all night instead of being with her special somepony.

We just made it to Canterlot and checked into a really fancy room in the castle. Rainbow Dash says Twilight Sparkle had it saved for us when we got here. I didn't know that she had that kind of ability. I knew she went to school here, but wow.

I ran away during dinner this evening. I said I had to go to the little filly's room and ran out the door. I wanted Rainbow Dash and Lucky Buck to spend dinner together. It was such a special restaurant. They didn't need me getting in the way.

Rainbow Dash and Lucky Buck found me hiding in a café. Why won't they just leave me behind and enjoy being together? Rainbow Dash told me she was very worried about me. She doesn't need to be. I can make it on my own. I don't need to be in her and Lucky Buck's way.

Entry 52:

We're on our way home this evening. The trip to Canterlot was wonderful. I just hope I didn't ruin it for Rainbow Dash and Lucky Buck. They tell me that had a great time, but I just don't know. When I ran away, I wanted them to have a good time, but all I did was upset them.

Miss Cheerilee says this week we have another field trip. We're going to Canterlot of all places. I told her I just came from Canterlot this weekend. She said she already knew that. How did she know?

Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom, and I talked for a while after school today. We have some new ideas in the works for our cutie marks. Sometime this month we're going to try bowling, and flower arranging. Maybe I could be good at what Mama did. She would be really happy if I could do that. Besides, I spent so much time around flowers when I was little, maybe it's my destiny!

Rainbow Dash and Lucky Buck took me to a restaurant this evening again. I didn't run this time. Every time I run, I just get them all worried. I still don't know why they brought me along, though. They're special someponies! Why would they possibly want an annoying little filly like me getting in their way? I just don't understand.

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Entries 53-67

Entry 53:

The page is stained with brown droplets. Tucked into the pages is a one page essay on "discord."

"Essay on Discord:

Discord seems to be when everything gets turned every which way. In the worst cases it seems like discord is when nothing is the way it is supposed to be. Recently Ponyville was turned into a big giant mess. This Discord thing made everypony fight with their friends and made everything really weird.

Discord is what gets in the way of true friends. We can't give into discord or we could lose what's really important to us. Friends aren't supposed to argue like Discord wants. Friends may disagree, but they don't get in big fights without discord.

If everypony could live in harmony, we would never have to deal with discord again."

In a far better quality hoofwriting at the bottom of the page, it says "C+ hopefully we won't have any more fights like that during class! Or ever, for that matter!"

Got in a big argument at school. I still say that one statue represents chaos. Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle were acting so weird. We kept getting in arguments all day. I don't know what's going on with everypony.

Now I have to write this stupid essay about what discord is. I don't know! I have no clue what to write. Besides, the others started it. Sweetie Belle hasn't ever hit me on purpose before. Not like that, anyway. Apple Bloom has smacked me with a tree branch before, but I think she was just picking and didn't really mean it. Today was different.

Something strange is happening, really weird. It is raining something. I think it's chocolate milk. I have never seen this before. The clouds are all pink. I don't know what's going on, but it's definitely not normal. Rainbow Dash came home and said she has no idea what's going on, but that she has to leave for Canterlot right away. I hope everything is okay.

Everything is still all weird. I still haven't seen Rainbow Dash in a while. Lucky Buck says everything will be okay, but I don't know if I can believe him. He keeps looking out the window with a worried look on his face.

It's been hours. Still no sign of Rainbow Dash. The house is floating on a rock. Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom are here with me. Everything is a total mess. We can't leave the house now. There are big card houses and dancing bison and the ground is all checkerboard. I'm serious.

Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom decided to try and find their sisters. We had to get a ladder for them to get out. Lucky Buck told them to be careful, and that if they find anything out, or can't find anypony in an hour to come back here. I hope they're going to be okay.

Sweetie Belle said Rarity was walking around with a giant rock on her back, and that she's acting very strange, mean, even for Rarity. Apple Bloom said Applejack was acting really funny, too. I haven't even seen Rainbow Dash at all.

Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle keep arguing with me and each other. I don't understand what's going on. I'm very worried, and Lucky Buck yelled at me. He's never done that before.

There was a big flash of light. Everything seems normal again, but I don't really know what just happened.

MamaRainbow Dash is back! She has on a cool necklace thing. She said we need to go to Canterlot, that there's some sort of ceremony. I don't know what's going on.

Rainbow Dash is on TWO windows at Canterlot Castle with her friends! That is so cool! I found out she and her friends saved everypony from Discord. Discord apparently came back to life and caused all this mess. Rainbow Dash and her friends rescued everypony from him, though.

Entry 54:

Twilight was acting super, super weird, like SUPER weird. She gave us this weird old stuffed toy. She was all freaked out. All of a sudden I couldn't help myself but I just REALLY wanted that stupid, stupid toy.

Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom and I agreed never to talk about it again. I have no idea what happened. Big Macintosh took the stupid toy though, apparently he really did like it. I don't see why. It's just some stupid stuffed toy.

Whatever happened, even the mayor wanted that stupid toy, so I don't know that it was just a regular toy. Something was definitely weird about it.

Turns out Twilight Sparkle enchanted it just to get some stupid letter to Princess Celestia on time! Twilight is so strange. She tried to get us to fight with each other. That's how mean is that? Also, unicorns can do that? I really hope there aren't many unicorn bullies like Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon. I'd hate to be the one a unicorn was bullying!

MaRainbow Dash met Princess Celestia again today. Apparently she and the others have to write to Princess Celestia whenever they learn something about friendship.

Seems weird to me. I wouldn't want homework I wasn't getting graded on, even if it was the Princess. I don't get it.

Entry 55:

Tonight is Nightmare Night! This week new colt joined the school from out of town. His name is Pipsqueak. He says he's never experienced Nightmare Night! How can that be? It's so much fun!

Pipsqueak is from Trottingham. He speaks kinda funny, but he's really nice (and REALLY little).

Rainbow Dash says she's going to spend the night doing some really crazy pranks. I bet it'll be fun, but she said it'll be in the sky, and that I probably wouldn't be able to help.

I'm going as a werewolf! Rarity made my outfit. It's so awesome!

Nightmare Moon Princess Luna came to visit Ponyville for Nightmare Night. She really scared everypony. Twilight Sparkle told me she didn't want to scare anypony. I guess that's why she said she was going to cancel Nightmare Night when everypony kept running away.

She seems like she's probably a nice pony. Once she learned how to talk like a normal pony (she kept using all these weird words, like she was from another time) she seemed just fine.

We saw Fluttershy. Pinkie told us she was getting gobbled up by Nightmare Moon. It turns out Fluttershy just ran into her door when Twilight brought Princess Luna to see her.

Pinkie also told everyone that she was going to gobble up Pipsqueak. It turns out she was just saving him from the apple tub. He was trying to bob for apples and fell in.

I feel really bad for Princess Luna. She didn't even know what fun was. How can she have gone for as long as she did without learning about fun? That would be terrible.

I didn't mean to make her feel so bad. I didn't know she felt so bad about the way we saw her. Pipsqueak and I agree that she's our favorite princess.

Rainbow Dash was a bit irritated when she got home. She says Princess Luna got her with her own prank. She got over it, though, and said it was actually probably really funny.

Entry 56:

Sweetie Belle told me that lately Rarity has been even meaner than normal. I did get to meet her parents, though. They seem like nice ponies. They're way nicer than Rarity is.

I had no idea what Sweetie Belle's parents even looked like. We have always been at Rarity's shop when we would hang out. Sweetie Belle says she never introduced me before because I "never asked." Scootaloo smacking her forehead doodled on the side.

Apparently, Sweetie Belle decided she just wasn't going to be sisters with Rarity anymore. I had no idea you could do that. She told me she thinks Rarity hates her anyway. I told her that wasn't true, but I can see why she'd think that. Rarity is always telling her that everything Sweetie Belle does is wrong.

Sweetie Belle spent all day hanging out with Apple Bloom. I didn't get to hang out with them because Rainbow Dash and I were practicing flying. I made it off the ground again! I even stayed in the sky for a few seconds! I wish my parents could have seen it.

I watched the Sisterhooves Special. I thought Sweetie Belle was running with Applejack at first. I was really confused. Apple Bloom met up with me during the race and said she, Rarity and Applejack had a plan to get Sweetie Belle back together with her sister.

I may not have a sister (now that Rainbow Dash is my Mom. Besides, Rainbow Dash was busy moving around clouds to keep weather clear for the race), but I am happy I have two ponies who care about me like sisters, just like I may not have parents anymore, but I have two other ponies who care about me like parents. I should have stuck around to congratulate Sweetie Belle and Rarity, but I went with Lucky Buck after I got a bit upset.

I got upset because I started missing my parents while watching the race. We used to play all kinds of fun games in the park back in Port Mane. We didn't get flank deep in mud, but we did end up messy sometimes. We used to have so much fun. When I saw everypony having so much fun in the race, I just got upset and had to leave.

Lucky Buck took me to a café. He bought me a piece of strawberry cheesecake and told me it was okay. He said moments like this will always happen, but that it gets easier to deal with them over time. If that's true, how come all these months later, I still can't stop getting upset like this? The snack was tasty, but I didn't get to congratulate my friend because I got so upset. What kind of friend am I? A small drawing of Scootaloo, underneath it says "bad friend"

Entry 57:

Shooting Star took Fluttershy, me, Rainbow Dash and Lucky Buck to Fillydelphia. Fluttershy said it had been a while since she had been able to spend time with her long-time friend. Shooting Star, Lucky Buck, Rainbow Dash and her had planned a nice little trip. I don't know why they brought me, though.

Shooting Star and Lucky Buck walked around downtown with me while Rainbow Dash and Fluttershy were eating and doing some shopping. Shooting Star really knows his way around. He says that after he graduated from magic school, he traveled Equestria and lived in a few places for a couple of months at a time. He said Fillydelphia was one of his favorite places, and that he'd wanted to bring Fluttershy one day. He said he wasn't expecting to go with a group of ponies, but he was happy about it, because he hadn't gotten to talk with me or Lucky Buck or Rainbow Dash much.

I felt like I had ruined his trip with Fluttershy. Lucky Buck said he ran into Shooting Star one day and that they got to talking about going on vacations and decided we would all go as a group. I don't know why they didn't just drop me off at Sweetie Belle's or Apple Bloom's. I don't need to be here, this is a special time for them!

We went all around town after Fluttershy and Rainbow Dash caught up to us. We saw all the sights. We even went through the Fillydelphia Museum of Art. It was really neat that Shooting Star knew his way around so well. It made the trip really fun!

I was really young the last time I was here. I don't remember much of the city. It was basically a new experience for me. We did go to the place where the Summer Sun Celebration was held when I was little. I tried to find where we were, but it looked so different being almost empty. Besides, that was so long ago.

I still feel like they should have left me behind, though. I tried to stay quiet as much as I could, but Lucky Buck kept asking if I was okay. I was just fine except for feeling guilty.

Shooting Star bought me a couple of postcards to send to Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom. I took some of the money I brought and bought another one for Miss Cheerilee. I hope she likes it. She always talks about how much she enjoys history. The card shows a picture of a couple of the monuments and has some information about their history on the back.

I accidentally called Rainbow Dash "Mama" again. She seemed surprised, so I apologized to her and almost started to cry. She smiled and gave me a hug. She said it made her feel special that I said that. Why? I mean, I know moms are special, but what's special about being called that?

I don't want to forget my real Mama. I mean, if I start calling Rainbow Dash that, what if I forget my real Mama? Would that happen?

Entry 58:

We head home from Fillydelphia today. Shooting Star said I am a sweet young filly. Who has he been talking to this whole time? I'm NOT sweet! I'm a tough and cool filly. I want to be like Rainbow Dash. Fluttershy is sweet. I like Fluttershy and all, but she's not Rainbow Dash!

We just got home. Cheerilee stopped by the house and said Fluttershy told her we were back in town. She thanked me for the postcard and said she'd put it up on her desk at school. That's so nice of her.

I met Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom and we're finally going to try out bowling. We're not doing so well at this point, though. Are we ever going to get our cutie marks? It seems like no matter what we do, we're destined to stay blank flanks.

Apple Bloom went into the Everfree Forest all upset. I hope she's okay. It's dangerous in there. Sweetie Belle and I should've followed her in.

I started to be able to stay in the air for a while at a time. It's so cool!

Apple Bloom met us at school, and she has a cutie mark! I don't know what it is yet.

Haha, it was funny watching Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon trip over themselves trying to do the loopty-hoop. Sweetie Belle and I don't think it's for us, either, though.

Uh... Something is going on. Apple Bloom has two cutie marks. I'm really happy for her. Sweetie Belle and I agree she's the most special pony ever, but I've never heard of such a thing. Besides, she gets two before we even have one?!

She put on quite a show downtown today. It was really neat. I hope Sweetie Belle and I can get our cutie marks, soon. Maybe we'll get two, too!

Entry 59:

I don't know what's going on, but Apple Bloom had three cutie marks! Something weird is happening. She wouldn't stop doing all her talents! Is she trying to rub it in? Drawing of a pouty Scootaloo.

This really doesn't look good. Apple Bloom is bouncing all around town. She is covered in cutie marks!

She has something called cutie pox. This doesn't look good at all! I hope she's okay. She's whizzing around like a tornado now.

I'm glad that's over. I was starting to get tired just watching poor Apple Bloom. Apple Bloom was so nice about what happened. She apologized to Zecora and even to both of us. I don't blame her for giving it a shot. I probably would have, too.

We're going to get our real marks for sure this week, though! We just know it!

Entry 60:

Rainbow Dash got a pet... turtletortoise. I don't get it. It has a little propeller thing on its back so it can fly around, which is kind of neat, but why a turtletortoise? I'll ask her when she gets back from setting up this afternoon's rain.

Apparently that tutortoise saved her life! Crazy. It's cute, but I wouldn't have ever expected Rainbow Dash to get a pet turtortoise. His name is Tank. He's really friendly and has an adorable face. It still seems weird, though. It usually stays with Fluttershy, since she and Lucky Buck have to work so much.

I wonder what would be a good pet for me some day. Maybe like a hawk or something. Hawks are really cool, and they can fly so well! I hope one day I can fly as well as a bird like that.

I've been practicing flying. I still can't stay in the air too long, but I'm able to lift myself off the ground when I want. I can't get very high up in the air yet, either. I'm trying, though! I'll be a flyer yet!

Entry 61:

I started a Rainbow Dash fan club that meets at the Cutie Mark Crusaders clubhouse. It's going to be so cool! I think she'll enjoy it. We got these neat rainbow wigs and everything!

We had our first meeting today. I thought I heard Rainbow Dash somewhere when we were deciding what to declare Rainbow Dash. I didn't ever see her, though.

MamaRainbow Dash is upset. Apparently there's a mysterious pony in town that keeps rescuing ponies. She says she's supposed to be Ponyville's hero. I don't care. She's still my hero.

Lots of strange and dangerous things have happened lately. A pony carriage went rolling down a mountainside. A building fell down. Even a dam broke! It's been crazy this week. That Mare-Do-Well pony really is quite amazing. She rescued the town!

Wow. I didn't realize how upset Rainbow Dash was about Mare-Do-Well. I really shouldn't have said Mare-Do-Well was the "greatest hero in Ponyville." I think I really hurt her feelings.

I told Rainbow Dash I was sorry. She said that SHE was sorry. I didn't know what to say. She sat down and wrote a letter to Princess Celestia and then said that she was sorry she got such a big head about the whole Mare-Do-Well thing. Did I make her think she had a big head?

Entry 62:

Rainbow Dash left today to go with her friends to surprise Rarity for her birthday. I'm here with Lucky Buck. He took me to the school playground to hang out with Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom today.

It's been getting colder again. Winter is definitely on its way. We didn't stay out too long. We came back home to play games and think up ways to get our cutie marks. Lucky Buck said we should be keeping a list of the things we've done after we kept suggesting things and realizing we had done them.

I'm glad I found a place to stay before winter came back around. Most of the winter last year I didn't even get to write. It was too cold. I spent most of the nights wandering around looking for a place to keep warm. I can't believe it's been almost two years since I started living here.

Shooting Star came to visit Lucky Buck today after Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom left. He came to pass the time while Fluttershy was gone. He said once he got the animals all fed for the evening, there wasn't much to do so he decided to walk around town.

He asked me how I was doing. I said I was fine. He asked if I was feeling better now than I had been the last couple of times we had a chance to talk. I told him I felt a lot better. I still miss my parents, but I think they would have wanted me to live the best I could, not continue to worry about them. I miss them a lot, but I don't really cry anymore (unless it's just a really bad day.)

Entry 63:

It's still getting colder out. I'm glad Lucky Buck's house is so warm. I usually come home right after school unless I'm going somewhere with Sweetie Belle or Apple Bloom. He and Rainbow Dash (when she's not working) are always home with dinner ready when I get there.

I think I found away around accidentally calling Rainbow Dash "Mama" without forgetting my real Mama. I think I'm going to start calling Rainbow Dash "Mom". It's different enough that it's not what I called Mama, but I think she'd really like it. Every time I accidentally call her "Mama" she blushes and smiles.

I don't know what happened, but on Spike's birthday he became huge and started tearing apart the town and stealing everypony's stuff! It was really weird. Rarity of all ponies saved us. I guess it makes sense, he still looks at her like she's the prettiest pony in the world. She is a beautiful pony, but it just seems weird. He's a dragon.

Rainbow Dash found out she's playing Commander Hurricane in the Hearth's Warming Eve show at the end of the month in Canterlot! She is really excited. I’m excited too! I hope we can get good spots! It may be tough. The Canterlot show is the biggest show in Equestria! And RAINBOW DASH is going to be in the show! It’s going to be huge, and it’s going to be AWESOME!

Entry 64:

It snowed for the first time yesterday. Rainbow Dash said she likes winter, but hates how cold it gets when she pushes around the clouds. She said that it just gets to where her wings don't want to move sometimes and she has to take a break. She told me she hates taking breaks. She hates having to slow down, ever. Sounds like Rainbow Dash to me.

I can hear Mom practicing lines for the show in her bedroom. It's really funny to hear, because Lucky Buck is not an actor at all, so he delivers the lines so badly. That, and it's really funny to imagine him as the characters.

[Drawing of Lucky Buck dressed in a Princess Platinum outfit]

Lucky Buck said we don't have to worry about tickets when I asked him. He said since we're coming as guests of the actors, we get reserved spots. I asked him if he was sure, he said he made sure. We're going to be right up front for the show! I'm so happy!

I didn't get to go to last year's Hearth's Warming Eve show. I didn't have a way to go. I just stayed in town and visited shops, pretending to look around so I could stay warm.

Lucky Buck said he is going to drop me off at the front. He's going to go help prepare the party after the show. So he won't be up front with us. I guess I'll try and find Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom.

Entry 65:

Next week is the show! Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom said they're going to be in the front, too. We'll all be together! It's going to be great! Mom is going to do a great job. I just know it.

I remember to write it the same way now, but I still seem to call Rainbow Dash... Rainbow Dash a lot. Sometimes when we're at home I remember to call her "Mom," though. It's just strange. I haven't really used a word like that on purpose in a long time.

We had recess inside for my birthday today. It was too cold out, Miss Cheerilee said. Miss Cheerilee and everypony (well, most of the class) wished me a happy birthday. It's basically just another day, to me. My parents used to have parties for me. It feels weird having one without them here.

Mama always used to set up our little yard or rent out the park. Papa would make a really good cake. I didn’t get many presents, but I didn’t really care. I loved getting to spend time with my family. I even invited students in Port Mane, even though I wasn’t really close friends with anypony. I got my first scooter one year for my birthday. When I got bigger, Mama gave it to our neighbor’s colt. I kind of miss it, even if I couldn’t fit on it. Drawn below is a drawing of a scooter with a flame design on the bottom.

Miss Cheerilee told everypony in class that we would get extra credit if we went to one of the Hearth's Warming Eve shows. We just have to get signed proof from a family member. She said that several ponies in the class (me, Apple Bloom, and Sweetie Belle, of course) have family members performing this year.

Diamond Tiara told me after class that Rainbow Dash was going to mess up the whole show. I wanted to kick her, but instead I waited until she got down the path and threw a snowball at her and zoomed off. She didn't catch me before I got to the house. Lucky Buck told me to apologize, so I did, even though I really didn't want to, but it was really funny to see the clump of snow in her mane as she stormed off down the street.

Rainbow Dash and Pinkie Pie set up a birthday party for me. I wasn't expecting a party at all. I haven't had one in a couple of years. I got a new Wonderbolts poster from Rainbow Dash, and a book called "1001 Cutie Marks" from Twilight Sparkle. She said maybe if I read through it I would learn how to get my cutie mark. It's just a bunch of sappy stories about finding yourself. I appreciate it, but I don't see how it's going to help me.

Entry 66:

We're getting ready to leave for Canterlot in just a little bit! Rainbow Dash looks so cool in her helmet. She's going to do an awesome job. I just know it!

The words of the line is crooked. The writing is sort of sloppy. There is so much showsnow on the ground. I'm writing this in the dankdark of the theater while Apple Bloom, 3weetjeSweetie Belle and I wait for the show to start. It's a bit too dark to see what I'm d@ihgdoing, and we're kind of snug, but I can't wait for the show! I know it's going to be great!

The audience is filling in. There are so many ponies here, I hope Mom doesn't get stage fright! She won't though, she's good in front of--

The show was awesome! I forgot all the history from when I saw the show when I was a very little filly. It was actually interesting. I usually find history boring, but this was really neat! It's weird to think that at one time I would have never been able to be friends with Sweetie Belle or Apple Bloom (though there are some Earth ponies I could see that being the case. Yes, I'm talking about Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon.)

The party was a lot of fun. Mom was signing autographs (along with all the other ponies in the show) and there were lots of tasty things to eat. I really enjoyed everything today.

When we got back to Ponyville, Mom fell right asleep. Dad and I sat and talked for a little while. He said he was very happy I had a good time. He also wrote a note for me to bring to Miss Cheerilee.

Just noticed I called Lucky Buck "Dad"... I haven't done that before.

Entry 67:

For Hearth's Warming Day, I got Mom a sweater for when she is up in the clouds. Rarity made it for me to give to her. It has all the colors of her mane on it and her cutie mark on the chest. It also has covers for her wings as far as it can go without messing with her ability to fly. She said it was really cool and that she would definitely be using it. I'll have to thank Rarity again when I see her next.

I got Dad a picture book with pictures from all of our trips and stuff in them. He always took all these pictures when we'd go places and they just sat in stacks in a closet. He said it was a wonderful gift and that he was very happy.

I got a new scooter! I told them that I was going to keep using my old one until it got too worn out. I'll never get rid of my old scooter. It's one of the few things I still have from my real parents. I really like the new scooter, though. I told them it's really cool! I definitely will use it one day! Maybe I'll just switch between them from time to time.

I went and showed Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom my new scooter, just to try it out and to see what they got. Apple Bloom got a cookbook and a new bag. Those just don't seem like very fancy gifts. They seem more like things for a job. Sweetie Belle got a new dress. It's really pretty, but I don't know how she moves around in it. It's really poofy.

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Entries 84-108

Entry 84:

Today, after school, Pipsqueak told Sweetie Bell he liked her. I thought it was so cute. Sweetie Belle didn't know what to say. After Pipsqueak left, Apple Bloom and I joked around with her.

I ran into Pipsqueak this afternoon. He said he feels really silly. He says he should've just kept his mouth shut. After that I felt bad. I tried to tell him he wasn't silly, and that if he likes her, he likes her. I also reminded him that she technically didn't say no. He told me he meant to tell her on Hearts and Hooves Day but he was too nervous. He's really a sweet little colt. I hope things work out and he and Sweetie Belle can be friends.

Little drawing of Scootaloo giggling

Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom and I are going to try and give hedge art a shot. Sounds really weird, but we're up to try anything. What if it's our special talent? What would it even look like?

Apple Bloom cut off my tail! It's going to take forever to grow it back. I look absolutely ridiculous. Not to mention I feel all uneven now. I am not even sure I can use my scooter too well, let alone fly. Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom thought it was funny. I'm definitely going to hear about this from Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon tomorrow. I really don't think it's so funny.

Mom said it'll be fine, but she did laugh at me. If Mom laughs at me, I just know everypony else will. I look ridiculous!

Entry 85:

Page lightly stained with tears.

I was right. Today was terrible. Everypony laughed at me. Apple Bloom finally said she was sorry, but it was hard to take her seriously when she was laughing, too. Miss Cheerilee finally got the class to leave me alone, but I told her I felt sick after lunch and hid from everypony until it was time to go home. That way Dad wouldn't wonder why I was home early, since he doesn't work today.

Dad took me to Rarity's. Rarity almost passed out when she saw my tail. She said it looked awful (thanks for letting me know). She had some extentextensions for my tail, but since there's so little hair, it's really uncomfortable to wear them right now. At least everypony (hopefully) won't make fun of me tomorrow.

Sweetie Belle saw me and said she was sorry for laughing at me. I still don't know, she could tell I was upset at school. I don't know whether to take her seriously or not.

Applejack brought Apple Bloom to the house and made her apologize. Applejack says she's not happy that Apple Bloom treated me like that. Apple Bloom said she didn't do it on purpose. I know she didn't, but her laughing really upset me. I'm not surprised that Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon made fun of me, but they're my friends!

Entry 86:

Sweetie Belle told Pipsqueak she likes him, too! I was shocked. Apple Bloom, Featherweight, Snips, Snails and I were playing catch with a hoofball when we saw Sweetie Belle go over to Pipsqueak and give him a hug. I asked her what happened and she said she liked Pipsqueak, too. She just didn't know what to say. Huh.

I think I just saw Twilight Sparkle wandering around with her head all wrapped. Her hair was cut really short. I have no idea.

Mom says that apparently Spike burned off Twilight's mane and a flowerpot fell on her head. in a tent. I still have no idea.

Mom and Spike were apparently picking on Twilight, who decided she wasn't going to do anything after receiving a visit from herself in the future. She said Twilight was trying not to do anything so she wouldn't cause some horrible disaster that is supposed to happen next Tuesday.

So unicorns can enchant things to make everypony who sees them fall in love with them AND travel back in time? I hope I never make Sweetie Belle really mad!

Entry 87:

Mom invited me to watch the dragon migration. I already told Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom I was going to see it with them. We're going to hide in the bushes. We're not going to stand out in the open like Mom and her friends.

We're here waiting for things to happen. Sweetie Belle (She was kind of quiet and didn't say much to me) and Pipsqueak (I guess Sweetie Belle invited him) are here, so are Apple Bloom (she still hasn't said anything to me since she apologized), Twist and Dinky (I invited), and Featherweight (I don't know who invited him. I mean, I don't have a problem with it, but I don't know who invited him). I don't know when things are supposed to start, but this is going to be awesome!

That was so cool! All those dragons! I've never seen anything like it! I'm glad I got to see it, and I'm glad I got to see it with my friends. Even if my two closest friends didn't really talk to me. Mom got a face full of flames! I'm glad she's okay. She told me she was glad I wasn't where they were. She didn't want to see me hurt.

Spike left early. I don't know what he was doing. Why wouldn't he want to watch the dragons migrate? He is a dragon, after all.

I don't know what to think about Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom. Just because I'm upset doesn't mean I don't ever want to talk to them again. We're best friends, aren't we? We're still friends, aren't we?

I really hope so.

Entry 88:

Mom went with Twilight Sparkle and Rarity to keep an eye on Spike. Apparently he's going to go with the dragons on the migration. I hope Spike is okay.

Dad and I are going to the Apples' today. Applejack invited us to lunch. I wonder if Apple Bloom will talk to me. Maybe I'm just a bad friend.

Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle were both at lunch. They both said they were sorry again for laughing at me, and they were sorry they didn't talk to me during the dragon migration.

Big Mac had that stupid stuffed toy again. Twilight didn't even think it was as special as he does. He stuffed it under the table when he saw me staring at him. Whatever, if he likes it, he likes it. Still weird to me. Stallions don't play with dolls, do they?

Since they didn't talk to me, I mainly sat with Featherweight. He had binoculars, so I got to get a good view. I was upset they didn't talk to me, but I can't stay mad at my friends. They're just that, my friends!

Spike rescued a phoenix egg from some big mean dragons. That's so cool! Mom also helped rescue Spike after the dragons got angry at him for not smashing the egg.

Who would smash a phoenix egg? Or any baby egg? How horrible. I'm glad Spike decided being a "dragon" dragon wasn't for him. I like him more as a "pony" dragon, if that means he saves phoenixes. Phoenixes are just the coolest things!

Entry 89:

The baby phoenix hatched last night! It's so cute! Little drawing of Peewee takes up a lot of the page.

Twist came by the house and brought us some candy. She said she wanted to thank me for inviting her to come to the dragon migration. That was really nice of her. She may be totally nerdy, but she's still a really nice pony, and that's good enough for me.

Spitfire of the Wonderbolts is going to be here in a couple weeks! Mom told me. She's super excited because Ponyville is this year's home of the pegasi tornado to send water up to Cloudsdale. Mom's in charge of everypony in the group. She hopes they can break the wingspeed record for this year. I want to help, but she says I'm too little, and that it's going to be dangerous.

I hope that things go well. I wish I could help. I feel like I should. I should've learned to fly better. I knew I should've been exercising more. It'd be so cool to help set an Equestria record!

Entry 90:

I had no idea Fluttershy had bully problems when she was in school, too. She was so upset about the bullying from Flight Camp that she didn't even want to help with the tornado. Apparently some ponies made fun of her for being so slow. Why would they do that? If they're trying to get a top speed, why would they treat anypony like that? Besides, Fluttershy is so nice to everypony, what type of pony would be mean to her?

Mom's really upset. She and Fluttershy have been friends for a long time. She seems really upset that Fluttershy isn't going to be able to join in. I wish I could take her place. Then they would have the same amount of ponies and Fluttershy wouldn't have to worry about being bullied.

Entry 91:

Today is the big day. I see everypony heading to the reservwarreservoir. Everypony except me, that is. Well, me and Fluttershy. I'm watching the tornado from the edge of town with Dad, Fluttershy and Shooting Star.

I don't know how he did it, but Shooting Star managed to get Fluttershy to go over there. She didn't seem to try and fly at first, and the tornado fell apart, but they tried again and finally Fluttershy joined the group. They did it! Maybe if I had helped, they could've made it the first time, but at least Fluttershy got over her problems, and everypony treated her like a hero! Good for her!

Maybe by the time they choose Ponyville again, I'll be able to help with the tornado for Cloudsdale. Next time, I want to help set a record with Mom! That'd be so awesome!

Entry 92:

Featherweight got his stupid cutie mark before us! Featherweight! How did he get his cutie mark first? He's nice and all, but what does he have that we don't?

Sweetie Belle and I tried a bunch of stuff with newspapers today after Apple Bloom left a copy of the Foal Free Press with us. We didn't find anything special, though we did end up all muddy. We're going to go tell Apple Bloom that her idea made no sense.

We're going to try and be journalists for the Foal Free Press, maybe we'll get our cutie marks that way! Apparently that's what Apple Bloom wanted us to do the whole time.

Oh gee. Diamond Tiara is in charge of the Foal Free Press. This is going to be a big mess. She was mean to Featherweight. Featherweight isn't mean to anypony! He doesn't even say anything!

I'm going to write about a new bird nest that Sweetie Belle and I helped make.

Ugh, got covered in mud after trying to write about the nest. I looked ridiculous. I hope nopony saw me.

This is going to be a nightmare. Diamond Tiara is a monster. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea.

Sweetie Belle had a new idea for a story. We're going to write on Snips and Snails. They got totally covered in bubblegum. We're going by the name Gabby Gums.

Wow, Diamond Tiara was actually nice (for Diamond Tiara) to us after we brought this new story and got it printed. She wants us to do more.

Sweetie Belle told me that Rarity said our column was better than "anything in the Ponyville Express!" That's crazy. Now we have to find out what to do next.

Entry 93:

We've been doing gossip stories about all of Ponyille. It's awesome! Everypony's been loving it!

It's a bit uncomfortable, though. The Mayor looked really upset. I hope it wasn't because of what we wrote.

Entry 94:

Diamond Tiara didn't like our interview with Spike. Now we have to figure out something else. I don't like writing gossip. I'm afraid I'm going to hurt somepony's feelings.

Entry 95:

The hoofwritten copy of an apology article in the Foal Free Press is tucked into the page. The page itself is somewhat tear-stained.

We've had to start writing things that are basically just lies. I felt horrible when we did one on Mom. I hope she's not mad.

The only reason I did it is because Sweetie Belle said she was doing one on Rarity's diary. I was really shocked that she'd steal somepony's diary after seeing what happened to me on the playground, but we needed something. I'm starting to worry that this is just wrong. I hate lying, and I hate doing this to everypony.

Diamond Tiara won't let us stop. She's threatening to run stories on us! If we stop doing the Gabby Gums segment, we'll be the laughing stock of everypony!

Mom's really mad at us, she stomped down rain on us. Fluttershy is crying. We made Fluttershy cry. After I just wrote the other day asking who would bully Fluttershy, we made her cry. If it wasn't enough that we made Mom so upset she stomped rain on us, we hurt the feelings of the nicest pony in Ponyville.

And what if Mom doesn't love me anymore? I guess I deserve this. I'm the worst filly ever.

Nopony wants to talk to us. I'm afraid of getting embarrassed, but I didn't tell the others how upset I was that Mom is mad. I don't even want to go home tonight. I don't want to look Mom in the eye.

Sweetie Belle had an idea. We're going to come clean to everypony, even if it means Diamond Tiara is going to ruin us.

Mom didn't come home last night. She slept in her cloud house. Dad said she just needed some time to think. He was upset with me, too, but he told me he loved me. He didn't talk to me much, though.

What if they really don't love me anymore? Maybe I should run away. If this doesn't work tomorrow, I'm going to go hide in the clubhouse until I find somewhere else to be.

Entry 96:

Featherweight is the new editor-in-chief. Everypony forgave us, and Diamond Tiara got demoted (and covered in ink! It was awesome)! I never want to do that again. I felt horrible.

After school today, Featherweight came up and apologized for the picture of me in the mud. It's the most I've ever heard him say. I was really surprised he said anything. He is a really nice pony, even if he did take those embarrassing photos of us. At least he apologized, and he seemed like he meant it. He looked very upset with himself when he came up to talk to me. He looked like he wanted to say something else, but he kind of walked away after looking at me a couple of times.

He's going to be a great editor-In-chief. We may not have as popular a newspaper, but at least he's nice. I think everypony would listen to him because they wouldn't forget that he said something. He rarely says anything at all.

I apologized again to Mom and started crying. I felt lousy. She really should've just left me to the streets or something. I still haven't gotten over what I did.

She told me to calm down. She said even if I hadn't apologized, she would've eventually gotten over it. She told me she loved me. She really is the best pony in Equestria. She and Dad both thought I was ridiculous for asking if they loved me, and for asking if they wanted me to stay. They both said they couldn't believe that I would think they wouldn't love me because of one foolish (big) mistake.

It wasn't just one foolish mistake. It was dozens! Dozens of BIG mistakes. If I were them (or anypony in town) I wouldn't trust me ever again.

Entry 97:

Mom is going with Pinkie Pie and her friends to take some cake to a competition in Canterlot today. She said she won't be back for a couple of days.

Featherweight came up to talk to me again today. I was really surprised. He is still upset about what he did, too. He said he feels like he invaded everypony's privacy. I guess I'm not alone, in that way. At least he didn't make up lies about everypony.

He also said he kind of liked me. I smiled and gave him a hug. I didn't say anything. I still don't know what to think. What am I supposed to do now? I've never had somepony tell me they like me before.

I told Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom about what happened. They both don't really know either. Sweetie Belle said that she just kind of hangs out with Pipsqueak when she gets a chance. She said she doesn't really know what else there is to do. I do like Featherweight. He's been really nice to me ever since we first metwere in the same place together. (He didn't talk, but he shared some grapes with me the first time I was around him.)

I just need to figure out what to do. I need to think. I don't know what to say to him when I see him again.

Entry 98:

I just found out that I get to be a flower filly in a Royal Canterlot Wedding! I'm so excited! Rarity is making everypony who is going dresses! I don't know what to say! Why was I picked? I'm not really that special.

I finally got up the nerve to tell Featherweight I liked him, too. We're going to Sugarcube Corner today after school for a treat. He said he is paying. He insists. That's so nice of him, but I don't understand why. I don't get it. I have enough for a snack.

I talked to Twilight Sparkle today. Apparently she's really upset her brother didn't tell her personally that he was getting married. I guess I can understand being upset, but if he really is the Captain of the Royal Guard, wouldn't he be, like, really REALLY busy?

Everypony else is really excited, though. Mom is going to do a Sonic Rainboom after the vows are said! She's super super excited! I would be!

Spending time with Featherweight was nice. He didn't say a lot, but he seemed like he was really happy I made it. He did tell me that he lives with his adoptive father. Adopted? I wonder why. Did he lose his parents when he was young, too? I hope not, it feels terrible, and I wouldn't wish for something like that for anypony.

Featherweight was mostly in his low quiet voice, but he got really loud and had a really worried look on his face when he told me NOT to tell anypony that he was adopted. I would never. I know how Diamond Tiara has treated me, I'd rather die than let anypony at school find that out about somepony else! He'd really never say anything.

Entry 99:

We're on our way to Canterlot. It's really exciting! Everypony (but Twilight, oddly) is really excited.

There were a LOT of guards and a big purple barrier when we got to Canterlot. I've never seen Canterlot like this. It's crazy!

Twilight is so angry. I've never seen her like this. She yelled at me when I mentioned Princess MeMi Amore Cadenza to her this evening. What'd I do? I mean, she wouldn't just yell at me, but what did I do? I hate when I do something wrong and can't even figure out what I did.

Entry 100:

Dad still isn't here. He said if he wasn't here by the day before the wedding, that he would be out in the courtyard watching. He wasn't sure if he would be able to get off work for the week of the wedding of not. Being a policepony means you can't always get the days off you want. He already had reserved the day of the royal wedding the day he found out about it. He told me that even if Mom and I weren't a part of the wedding, it's still a very special occasion for anypony, even if they're not from Equestria.

Twilight is acting so weird. She seemed really upset and ran past me to the rehearsal. She was late. I heard her yelling from the door while I was looking for Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle. She called Princess Mi Amore Cadenza evil! Evil? What'd she do? I haven't really seen her other than one day when she walked past me. She didn't say anything, but I'm just some filly. She probably wasn't the one who picked me to do this.

Twilight made Princess Mi Amore Cadenza run away crying. Shining Armor yelled at his sister, and told her not to show up for the wedding at all! His sister! Then, everypony but Twilight left. Then the Princess went back in. I never did see Twilight leave at all. Maybe she stayed in the Ballroom until after I went to bed.

But wow! Not show up for the wedding at all? It's his sister! I really don't know what to think. I don't know how that would make me feel. I wonder what's wrong with Twilight. She hasn't acted like herself the whole time she's been here.

Entry 101:

Well, today's the day. I feel really weird being at Twilight's brother's wedding without Twilight there. Doesn't anypony else think that's odd? She is the only reason any of us know anypony here.

I'm almost ready to go in. This dress is so great! Rarity really is an amazing designer!

That was terrifying! This thing called the Queen of the Changelings was parading around as Princess Cadence (I finally found out that's what she usually goes by. Nopony told me). Then she turned into her real, creepy form and knocked out Princess Celestia! Then she attacked everypony with all her minions. It was so scary.

Mom and her friends went out to find the Elements of Harmony and got caught. I was really freaked out. Twilight just barely rescued Princess Cadence in time, and somehow Princess Cadence saved Shining Armor, and the two of them cast some crazy spell that defeated the Changeling Queen.

Now I know why Twilight was acting so weird. She figured out something was wrong. Nopony listened, though. I didn't know what was going on. I should've paid attention. Maybe I could've helped her. But I don't even know the Princess.

At least everypony is okay.

I definitely won't forget this day. It was crazy and very busy, and of course it was also really scary. I didn't even get the chance to write as much as I wanted to. I had to do my job. I threw down flower petals for that thing to walk on. The whole time, the real princess was trapped. I didn't know, though! It's not my fault, is it?

Poor Princess Cadence. She looks so sick. She said she'll be fine. She thanked me for caring about how she was. I'm so embarrassed. Twilight was right the whole time. If we had all just listened, we could have fixed everything before all this happened.

Entry 102:

We're redoing the Royal Wedding next week. We couldn't hold it right away because everypony had to clean up the castle. Dad was supposed to visit and see the show from outside. I hope he is okay. We're staying in Canterlot all week. We need to help clean everything up.

Princess Cadence came up to Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom and me and said she was very excited we were going to be flower fillies for the wedding. She is really really nice. Now I see why Twilight Sparkle has been talking about how great she is ever since everything got sorted out the other day.

Entry 103:

We had the real wedding. It was amazing. I got to be the flower filly for the real Princess Cadence this time. A real princess! The wedding was so sweet. Shining Armor and Princess Cadence make such a sweet couple!

Pinkie Pie set up a really fun party afterward. I should've invited Featherweight! I told that to Sweetie Belle and she said she should've invited Pipsqueak, too. We're both feel really silly. There's not a very big chance of another royal wedding for a long time.

I'll have to tell Featherweight that I'm sorry when we get back to town. That was so stupid of me. I hope he was able to see the fireworks, at least.

Entry 104:

Tucked into the page is a photograph of the Cutie Mark Crusaders in their outfits on a train. The back has the date and a caption about the royal wedding.

I feel much better today. We got all dressed up to see Princess Cadence and Shining Armor off. I'll probably change when we get back to town. I don't know when I'll get to wear something like this again. This is pretty special.

Dad did make it to see the wedding from outside the castle. He came with Shooting Star, and they brought Pipsqueak and Featherweight with them! I forgot I told Dad about Pipsqueak. I knew I told him about Featherweight, but I didn't know he was going to do that. I'm glad he did.

They were all excited to see us. We got on the train back home together and talked about what happened.

Apparently after the fake wedding started to go downhill, Dad told Shooting Star they needed to get everypony out of the way and fast. They hid in a basement while everything was going on, so nopony got hurt. I'm glad. Once I found out they were all here for the fake wedding, I was worried about whether they were okay or not.

Pipsqueak told Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom and me that we looked very pretty. He is the sweetest little colt! Featherweight didn't build up the nerve to talk, so I just sat by him on the ride home. I could tell he was happy to see me. He wouldn't stop looking at me. He kept blushing and smiling.

Entry 105:

Everything has kind of settled down since the wedding. It's actually been very quiet. It's kind of weird after being so busy.

Featherweight came to visit today. He and I played games in the living room while Dad made lunch. He's finally started talking more, at least to me, and even a little bit to Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom, and Pipsqueak. He talked about the Foal Free Press. After Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom and I found out we weren't going to get our cutie marks in journalism, we decided to quit the team. It was getting in the way of us finding out what our cutie marks were. Too much time.

Featherweight wrote a piece about the wedding and read it to me. He's a really good writer! He also takes pretty good pictures. The Foal Free Press' photographer hadn't talked about going to the wedding, so Featherweight took one of his cameras and took pictures. He said he wished he had had time to take pictures of the fake wedding, but they needed to get to safety quick. He's crazy. There's no way "pictures" was the first thing on my mind.

Mom has to take care of a big storm today. They had to postpone two rains due to several pegasi being out of town. The weather is off sometimes during the summer. Lots of pegasi go to visit their families, plus there was the wedding, and so Ponyville ends up with not enough ponies to move some of the bigger clouds around.

Entry 106:

Today, school was pretty fun for a change. We talked about ancient pony history. Today we talked about the earliest pegasi. Apparently pegasi have always been tough ponies. This seems kind of funny when you look at ponies like Fluttershy and Featherweight. I couldn't imagine either of them fighting anything.

Miss Cheerilee came up to me after class today. She told me she was happy to see me taking notes. She says she wished I would take class seriously more often. Mama used to tell me school was important. Maybe I can try a bit harder to pay attention.

Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom and I are going to try photography. Featherweight said he really liked taking pictures for the paper (when he wasn't being forced by Diamond Tiara to snoop on everypony, anyway). I figure we can try. What's the worst that can happen taking pictures?

I fell off a little cliff trying to get closer to a bird I saw flying. I should've been paying attention to the ground, but I was looking through the camera. I wasn't able to fly in time to stop myself. It wasn't a big fall, but it did hurt.

Apple Bloom kept getting her hoof in the picture somehow. I don't get it. Sweetie Belle couldn't get the film into the camera and keep the camera shut. None of her pictures turned out.

Entry 107:

Apple Bloom seemed really upset today. She says she doesn't understand why nopony thinks she's cute. I don't think that's true at all! I think several of the colts in class probably like her, but I couldn't see her and Snips together, for example. I think that the ponies who would have a liking for her just know they're not in her league. I told her this, but she said I didn't have to make things up to cheer her up. Make things up? Is she crazy? I'm not going to make stuff up. I don't want people lying to me, why would I bother lying to her? I have no reason to lie to her. I was kind of upset by that, but she's just in a bad mood. I don't think she meant it.

I told Applejack why Apple Bloom was upset. She took Apple Bloom for a walk, just her and Applejack. I hope she gets to feeling better. I didn't mean to make her upset. I know Sweetie Belle didn't either.

Featherweight wanted to come hang out today. I told him I was busy. I still feel bad for Apple Bloom. I didn't want to see him today if she was still upset. I didn't want to seem like I was rubbing it in her face. I told him I would see him next weekend.

Entry 108:

Featherweight answered a question at school. Even Miss Cheerilee was surprised. He's still very quiet in class, but he actually said something--while everypony was in the room! A small drawing of Featherweight with his hoof raised. A drawing of Miss Cheerilee with a surprised, but happy look on her face.

Featherweight is really smart, so I know he knows the answers. He just doesn't like to talk. He told me after class that getting to talk with me has made him feel better, like he should actually say things to ponies. I felt really special and really bad at the same time. I should've gone to see him last weekend. I didn't want to upset Apple Bloom if I saw her again, though.

Dad and Mom took me to dinner. Featherweight happened to be at the restaurant with his dad (the one who adopted him.) His dad is a really nice pony. He told me he was very happy that Featherweight was seeming happier than he had been. He said that I'm "to credit for that." I don't know what that means for sure, but if he means he thinks it's because of me, I don't think so. I'm just some pony he knows. He did it himself.

We ended up eating dinner with them and Dad paid for everypony's food. Featherweight thanked him. He actually spoke quite a bit! It's still really rare, but two times in one day! I'm really happy he's more comfortable talking with some ponies.

Featherweight's dad was talking to us when Featherweight wasn't at the table. He explained a bit about Featherweight that he said nopony at school except Miss Cheerilee knows. Featherweight's mom and dad ran away and left him alone in some other town. He was taken in by this nice older pony, his adoptive dad, Shutter Speed. How awful! He said Featherweight knows, but that he gets really embarrassed about it. He said he thought we should know in case we said something and he seemed upset for no reason.

I felt horrible when he said that. I may not have my parents anymore, but at least my parents kept me. Maybe that's why Featherweight doesn't talk much. I don't know if I would feel like talking a lot if I felt like my parents didn't want me at all. What would that even feel like?

Love and Theft (♫)

Entries 109-116

Entry 109:

Last night, I asked Mom and Dad what they thought of me being with Featherweight, I forgot to write about it because I was so tired when we finished talking. Mom asked if kids at school were calling me "filly fooler" and I was just using him because I was trying to get somepony to stop making fun of me. She said if that was the case, to talk to us, not to use somepony else.

I have no idea what a "filly fooler" is. I asked her, she said it's a mean name for fillies who like (as in like like) other fillies. I've never heard anyone say that, but why would anypony make fun of somepony liking somepony else?

Mom said when she was in school in Cloudsdale, ponies said stuff like that all the time. She said that if you were best friends with another filly and didn't have a coltfriend, they'd make fun of you for it. Seems stupid to me.

I told Mom that I didn't mean anything like that. I really do like him. She said that as long as I really did like him and I wasn't just trying to use him for something else, then she was happy if I was happy. She said she just wanted to make sure I wasn't causing problems for somepony because of my own problems.

She said he is a real sweet colt and she didn't want him getting hurt if I wasn't being serious. She seemed to be a lot more protective of Featherweight last night. She said that especially somepony like Featherweight doesn’t need someone with them just for show.

I'm happy that Mom is so worried about his feelings. I guess that means she does like him.

Talking with Dad about it was a lot quicker. He just said he thought it was cute and that he thought Featherweight was a nice young pony.

Entry 110:

Page is heavily stained with tears and a few drops of blood.

Diamond Tiara stole my diary while I was at school today. She read about me and Featherweight. She read about Sweetie Belle and Pipsqueak. She read about how Apple Bloom has been feeling. She read parts of it out loud on the playground. Once I figured out what was going on, it was too late. Miss Cheerilee had to come stop us. If she hadn't I'd have broken her nose. She bucked me in the face really hard. Poor Featherweight.

Featherweight ran off. It took a couple hours to find him. He was hiding in the bushes in the Everfree Forest. I just happened to see him. It took me so long to get him to look at me, even. I don't blame him. If I hadn't written down what I found out about him, the whole class wouldn't know it now. I really am the worst pony ever. I wouldn't be surprised if he never wants to talk, especially to me, again.

I finally got him out from the forest. I guess I can do some good. I don't know if he left because I was trying to cheer him up, or because he didn't want to talk to me anymore. I would totally understand that.

Apple Bloom said she's not upset that everypony found out how she was feeling. She told me that not everypony in the class is as mean as Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon. Still, I hope Featherweight is okay. I saw him walk home from the forest. I didn't want to follow in case he is really mad and doesn't want to see me.

Sweetie Belle and Pipsqueak said they're not upset. They said there wasn't anything for them to be upset about. I guess they were lucky then.

Mom found out what happened and she went to talk to Mr. Rich. It won't do any good. Diamond Tiara always does the same thing. She lies and says she's sorry, then just does more of the same thing.

Entry 111:

Page is stained with tears.

Featherweight didn't come to school today. I'm really worried about him. I got in trouble again for getting in a fight with Diamond Tiara. She picked on me about Mom going to see her dad. Then that brat had the nerve to say that "nopony wanted Featherweight here, anyway." I think she had to go to the hospital. I think I really hurt her. Serves her right if I busted her mouth. Maybe she'll stop talking.

Silver Spoon came up to me after Diamond Tiara was sent home. She apologized to me! She actually apologized! She said that what happened went way too far, and she really feels bad about what happened. I don't know what to think. I would have never expected such a thing. I mean, this is Silver Spoon I'm talking about.

On my way home I almost went to Featherweight's house, but I really don't want to make things worse. That's all I ever seem to do.

Mom sat and talked with me all afternoon. She offered to go talk to Mr. Rich again. I told her it doesn't do any good. Mr. Rich is a nice guy, but his filly is an evil little creature.

Mr. Rich came over and said he wanted to know what happened, and why I kicked his daughter. He said he wanted me to apologize. Mom said that Diamond Tiara should be apologizing to me. I was so mad at Mr. Rich that I interrupted Mom and said Diamond Tiara should be apologizing to Featherweight. Nopony has seen him since he went home yesterday! I don't really know what is happening with him, but I really hope he is alright. If something happens to him, Diamond Tiara will pay.

Entry 112:

Page is stained with tears. It is heavily crumpled and the writing is very dark.

Mom said I needed to apologize, just because Mr. Rich was so upset. Mr. Rich could buy Dad's house and Mom's house right out from under them, so I guess I have to.

That was the most embarrassing thing in my life. I hate her. I hate her so much. Only Diamond Tiara could make someone apologize for what she did to them, and enjoy it like that! She made sure everypony in town heard me apologize! She told me this was my "proper place" in life. Apologizing to "ponies who are better" than me.

Maybe she's right. I wish I could tell Featherweight how sorry I am. I don't care that she knows about Mama and Papa and Auntie Raincloud. Those were my secrets to lose. She took someone else's secret from me, and it's my fault. Featherweight has every right to blame me as much as more than Diamond Tiara.

I don't want to come out of this house ever again. I don't want to talk to anypony. I just want to sit here in my room and disappear forever.

Entry 113:

Featherweight was at school today. He just looked at his desk throughout the whole class. Miss Cheerilee went to talk to him at recess. I sat inside and didn't say anything. He didn't say a word, either. He was just starting to get comfortable talking to other ponies.

I can't believe it. Featherweight invited me to his house after school. I don't understand. I didn't even answer him. I couldn't look him in the eye. I just struggled not to cry. Then, he patted me on the back with his wing and walked home. Why would he want anything to do with me after the other day? I don’t even want anything to do with me.

Featherweight is the sweetest pony in all of Equestria. I went to his house and he sat down with me at the table while his dad was out. He told me he isn't mad at me at all. He said it wasn't my fault. he says he heard I got into another fight with Diamond Tiara and said he wishes he could've helped me calm down. Apparently he was so embarrassed when Diamond Tiara read out loud about his parents abandoning him, that he was actually sick for two days. He wasn't just hiding, he was really sick!

He gave me a big hug and we sat and talked until his dad came home. His dad gave me a friendly smile and said he was happy I came to talk with his colt. I don't know about his real parents, but his dad is the kind of dad he deserves. He's such a sweet pony, just like Featherweight, himself, is.

This weekend Featherweight invited me, Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom, Dinky, Twist, and Pipsqueak to the park. I joked about how we should plan some way to get Diamond Tiara back. He said the coolest thing I've ever heard. He said, "She's not worth it." He's right. He said "she's going to be very lonely when, no, if she grows up."

Featherweight says the Foal Free Press staff was actually very nice about what happened and asked if he was alright. They are writing a piece on bullying in the next paper. It's a nice idea, but it's not going to change Diamond Tiara at all.

Entry 114:

We all went to the park with Featherweight. Mom, Dad, Featherweight's dad and Applejack all came to keep an eye on us. Applejack said if she saw Diamond Tiara come anywhere near us she would "personally escort her back to her house." I don't know if it was to protect us from her, or to protect her from us.

We played games all afternoon. I haven't felt this happy since Mom and Dad and I ate dinner with Featherweight and his dad. At the end of the evening Featherweight gave me a kiss on the cheek and a very long, tight, warm hug. I hugged back. I just wanted to stay there forever, without bullies or schoolwork or anything else. Just my friends and my coltfriend.

I still don't think I deserve him, though. He's far too good for somepony like me. He's a wonderful pony, and I really hope he knows that.

Entry 115:

Diamond Tiara had to sit in the corner of the room this afternoon. She said that Featherweight's parents left him because he was "a big mistake" after he tripped her at recess. I don't know if he did it on purpose or not, but I hope it was on purpose.

Featherweight didn't even flinch! He just sat there and shrugged. He didn't say anything. I think he was hurt, but he wasn't going to let her know that.

Pipsqueak of all ponies actually told Diamond Tiara to leave Featherweight alone. I thought it was sweet, but what was little Pipsqueak going to do? It didn't matter because Miss Cheerilee was very angry with Diamond Tiara. She said that if she ever heard such a mean thing again, she would send anypony who said it home on the spot.

Diamond Tiara said something after school and Silver Spoon actually told her to shut up! I think Silver Spoon is tired of just how overly mean Diamond Tiara has been lately. She still stays her friend, and she still picks on ponies, but she seems to have things she just won't do. I guess I can like her a little bit for that.

Entry 116:

Featherweight came over today. We just sat and talked for a few hours. I did most of the talking. He's still not really that talkative again, yet. I hope he gets to feeling like he did before, I was so happy for him.

I asked him if he was upset with what Diamond Tiara said yesterday. He said he was very hurt. He said he felt like maybe she was right. That maybe he was just a mistake. He said, "After all, my parents did just abandon me. They must not have loved me at all." He said if he hadn't been in class, he would have wanted to cry, but he just didn't want to let her win. I thought I was tough. It was hard to listen to him say all this. He had no emotion in his face, like it was just an everyday thing. I almost wanted to cry for him. I told him if he needed to let it out, I was there for him.

I don't know whether he liked what I told him after that or not. He smiled at me, but I don't know if I hurt him worse. I told him his parents' only mistake was missing out on the sweetest colt in Equestria. I said that his parents didn't deserve someone so great.

Maybe I put my hoof in my mouth. I don't know. Whatever, I still think it's true. If his parents abandoned him, they didn't deserve him.

What It Takes To Be A Hero (♫)

Entries 117-124

Entry 117:

I actually flew all the way up into the clouds today! Mom was so happy! She said I did a fantastic job! I wish Mama and Papa were here to see. I wish I could tell Auntie Raincloud about this.

I told Dad what I did and he gave me a hug and said that it was "great news!" I'm glad this happened when it did, because I needed some "great news" about now. I've been feeling so upset with all that's going on. I still haven't gotten over Diamond Tiara taking my diary.

Entry 118:

Page is very wrinkled and tear stained. The writing is very sloppy and shaky.

There was a big earthquake after school. I went home to see if everypony was okay, and Mom was hit by some sort of light and now she has been turned into some sort of crystal. All I have now is one crystal feather that fell from her when she was hit. Did I lose another pony forever?

I don't know if Dad is okay. He's in Fort Hoof today, visiting his cousin. I can see out the window that something is happening to lots of ponies. Spike said I need to go with him to find Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle. I don't want to go anywhere. Ever again. I don't want to meet anypony ever again. All I do is lose everypony.

All three princesses and Shining Armor came and told me, Sweetie Belle, and Apple Bloom that we need to go find these temples back in the villages the three pony tribes came from. They're supposed to have some sort of special magic for the three things the princesses gave us (Princess Luna turned Mom's feather into a barrette, Princess Cadence turned some crystal apple into a tiara for Apple Bloom, and Princess Celestia turned a crystal heart into a locket for Sweetie Belle.) How are we supposed to do that? We're just fillies!

The princesses, and Shining armor. All of them. They’re all turned to crystal. If this thing can turn even them to crystal, what chance do we have? This is hopeless.

The penmareship is poorly written and somewhat difficult to read.

It's night. It's dark. There are these monsters out there, and we're trying to sleep in a bush. We found a book in the Ponyville Library that showed us where we're going. I saw Featherweight. He's really upset. Apple Bloom led him to a cellar where she said she brought Dinky, earlier, to be safe. Pipsqueak, Twist, Snips, Snails, and several other ponies were down there, too. All the foals are okay, it seems, but all the older ponies have been turned to crystal. I hope we can do this. If we don't, it's my fault that Mom is gone forever. Miss Cheerilee was turned to crystal, too...

We went to Canterlot where there was a cave. That's where the map starts. from there we headed up and over a mountain. it took forever. Then we made it to the edge of a forest. That's where we're sleeping. We're out in the open. We're not safe at all.

I just can't sleep. I'm so worried about what's going to happen. What if we can't do this? What if I can't do this? The book we have says these temples require somepony with courage, somepony with hope, and somepony with sympathy to grant their powers. I don't know why I'm here. I don't have any of those. I don't think I can do it, I can't stop thinking about myself, and I don't think this is going to work at all. All we're going to do is go out there and I'm going to get my friends hurt. Why wasn't I turned to crystal?

Entry 119:

We were in that forest forever. Now we're in this field full of rocks. I hurt my leg after I led some crystal monsters that were chasing us away from Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle and over a cliff. I'm okay. I just kind of did it. I saw a cave that would be safe for my friends and I told them to go. I flew off toward a cliff and the monsters chased after me. I didn't care if they got me. I just wanted my friends to be safe. Right now they're everypony I have. I can't let them get hurt. Even if it isn't such a happy story for me.

The monsters attacked us as soon as we got out of the forest. There were several different sizes and colors, and we ran to a bigger cave, first, but there was another one inside. Then I led them off the cliff and they broke into a thousand pieces. if I hadn't been able to fly, I would've been down there with them... At least Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom would have been okay.

I hope Featherweight is okay. I bet he's scared and confused. He lost his dad the same way I lost Mom. I just hope we can do this. I still don't know what good I am going to do.

This cave is only a bit safer than that stupid bush. At least nothing can stomp on us... I still feel like we're in danger...

I miss Mom. I miss Mom so much. and I miss Dad. I miss Mama and Papa, and Auntie Raincloud, and I wish I could be with Featherweight. I didn't sleep again last night. I just kept worrying. what if I can't do this? I'm no good at anything. I don't even have my cutie mark! What good am I going to be when it comes to saving everypony?

Entry 120:

Page is wrinkled and stained with tears.

Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom have been trying to cheer me up. They both seem to think things are going to get better. I don't know. As long as I'm in charge of fixing things, I don't see how...

We made it to the place the three tribes met before they set off to discover Equestria. It's all broken down. The pegasus fort is all dark and gray. I have to go there alone. After that, we'll go to the other places. I guess the others will just wait in this building while I'm gone. It's safe.

Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom said we're all going to go to a different temple at the same time. We're each going to the place that our ancestors came from. I told them they didn't have to, they said that if I had to go alone, they'd go alone, too. They're so nice. They really didn't have to. I think it's a bad idea though. What if it's dangerous?

Entry 121:

I am exhausted. I don't want to do anything anymore. I got my stupid enchantment. I want this to be over with. The monsters played with my head. they showed me Mama and Papa getting sicker and passing away, and Auntie Raincloud, and Mom and Dad turning to crystal, and Miss Cheerilee turning to crystal. and I couldn't help them. I just saw all of them disappear. Again. I'm exhausted. I feel terrible.

Once I saw the stupid things, I got so mad at them, I just had to get what I came for, just so that they didn't win. I feel so lonely now. nopony is back yet. What if, because I agreed we all go on our own, Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle got hurt? I should have told them to wait. Now they might be in trouble and it's all because I agreed to let them go.

Apple Bloom is here! She asked me why I keep writing. I said that it helps calm me down. I guess that's true. whenever I'm really upset I just want to write what happened down and let everything out. and be somewhere where nopony can find me.

Apple Bloom said she chased after those stupid crystal monsters, and that she rescued one and let it go! If I had found them I would've stomped them into a million pieces. I want them all gone!

We still haven't heard from Sweetie Belle. I knew we should have

Sweetie Belle said that she got stuck in this maze that kept moving around, and until she was reminded of her family, by her locket. She said it gave her a lot of hope, seeing her family’s faces. Before that, she thought she was going to be trapped forever, but then the walls all just kind of disappeared once she felt like she could do it...

I want to get as far away from this place as possible. It really shook all of us up, and now we're done, so I want us to go. Now.

Entry 122:

We haven't seen anypony or anything at all, all day. Everything is so empty, it's really creepy.

Entry 123:

Everypony is okay again. I didn't get to write anything down. I wanted to get everything fixed and I didn't want to waste any more time.

We saved Twilight and her friends first, so they could go with us to get the Elements of Harmony. That alone wasn't enough to save everypony. We had to rescue the princesses and Shining Armor before we finally beat that thing.

Apple Bloom let the creatures go. They live everywhere now. I wanted them to all go back to where they were from or be turned to dust! They wouldn't attack us when she was around, though. It's like they cared for her and didn't want her hurt.

We went through all that work. We saved everypony in Ponyville. The princesses went to save ponies in other places, but we saved everypony in town and we STILL don't have our stupid cutie marks. Twilight said she thought it would be a really big burden to have a cutie mark as "hero." I don't care. That'd be the coolest cutie mark, ever!

Entry 124:

Page is wrinkled and covered in tears.

Featherweight stayed with me all afternoon, yesterday. We just sat on the couch at Dad's house, and I cried and cried and cried. I know I should be happy, but I felt like I had lost everypony. When I was up there in the clouds, I thought I had lost everything. I thought I was just going to give up and lay there forever.

I guess I just hadn't let it out yet.

Featherweight was so sweet. He just wrapped his hooves around me and gave me a kiss, a real kiss, my first real kiss, and he hugged me until I fell asleep. When I woke up in the middle of the night, he was gone.

Mom says Featherweight stayed with me last night until she said it was getting dark and his dad would be worried about him.

Featherweight told Mom he didn't want to leave until somepony got home to make sure I was okay... She said he was very worried about me and how upset I was... She said he told her to remind me that it was over, that everything was done... that everypony was okay...

Featherweight is so sweet. I have to go see him later today, I have to thank him. He didn't have to do all that for me. He stayed with me even though he was worried about his dad, too. He should have been with his dad.

I spent the afternoon with Featherweight. We went to the playground and just sat and talked. I told him that he was very important to me. He told me that without me, he wouldn't have been able to be as happy as he was today.

I don't know why he thinks I'm so special. I'm just some pony with good friends that help me make it. I'm nothing without them. I guess that's just how it works. Nopony would be who they were without their friends.

A Balance To Everything (♫)

Entries 125-135

Entry 125:

Diamond Tiara has been unusually quiet lately. I wonder if its her special way of thanking us for saving her parents. Whatever. I'm not complaining.

I found out I fly better than Featherweight. Maybe it's because of those gangly legs he has. or maybe it's because he gets blown around in the wind so easily. We were going to hang out in Mom's house with her, but he couldn't reach high enough on his own, so I made some cloud steps up to her house.

Featherweight said that Mom's house was one of the coolest ones he'd ever seen. I really like it, too. Mom said that's why she didn't get rid of it. She wanted somewhere to go relax away from Ponyville, just in case. I guess that makes sense. I know there are times I wish I could just get away for a while.

Featherweight and I played "I Spy" from the windows of Mom's house. You can see Ponyville so well from up there! It's so peaceful way up there in the clouds. I definitely know why Mom likes the house so much.

Entry 126:

A couple of pictures of the Cutie Mark Crusaders attempting silly (and potentially dangerous) schemes, as usual, while trying to get their cutie marks.

This may sound really silly, but Featherweight gives the best hugs. I just feel so comfortable when he's with me. I feel like I could just sit and talk with him forever. Mom saw us talking in Dad's house and just kind of let us be. She checked every now and then to see if we were okay, but she didn't say anything.

Featherweight helped Apple Bloom, Sweetie Belle and me come up with ideas for how to get our cutie marks. He says we keep trying things that we've never done before. Isn't that the idea? He suggested we try things we've enjoyed doing, but we didn't really do very much. He suggested I try something with my scooter. I swear I already did that. I know somepony talked to me about it before. It must not have worked.

Featherweight has started talking more again. I'm very happy for him. I keep hoping he'll talk in class again. He's a very smart colt. I feel like he'd be happy if he could let everypony know how smart he is every once in a while. Some of the ponies think he's nice, but don't know anything else about him. I don't think he needs to tell them everything, but maybe he could do a show and tell with his pictures. He takes such good pictures. He even took a few of Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom and me trying to get our cutie marks.

He told me he may start a column in the paper about our attempts. I told him I didn't know about that. I mean, after all, I don't want a weekly list of how many times we didn't get our cutie marks. That feels like it rubs it in. He told me he wouldn't talk about why we're doing stuff, just about all the fun things we've done. He said he had some good pictures of us decorating Applejack's apple stand the other day. The pictures are pretty neat, but I don't know. He told me he'd show me what he wrote before he put it in, just in case.

Entry 127:

Tucked into the page is a small news article from the Foal Free Press

"The Quest for Identity

by Featherweight (FFP Editor in Chief)

Within the fold of our class are a trio of friends who have been on a constant quest to get the most out of life and find out just who they are. Scootaloo, Sweetie Belle, and Apple Bloom have been trying dozens of different hobbies, just to get a taste of all that life offers. 'It's sometimes difficult to come up with ideas we haven't done, before' says Scootaloo. The trio has done all sorts of activities from harvesting to hoofball, art to zip lines.

'It's been really nice getting to spend so much time with my two best friends' Sweetie Belle informed me while they were pulling out buckets of paint to decorate the sign, pictured to the right. 'We have had a great deal of fun' shares Apple Bloom, tossing paintbrushes into a wagon. The sign they are decorating is for her sister's apple stand, market days from sunup to sundown (except during harvest time).

No matter what, the trio's zeal for experience is something we should all aspire to emulate. After all, what is life without something new from time to time?"

Featherweight wrote a pretty neat piece about us. He interviewed us about what all we've done, and made a nice little piece about our "quest" to find ourselves. He managed to make it about us without talking about how we still don't have our cutie marks. It's a sweet little piece.

Featherweight and I went to visit Shooting Star and Fluttershy. Featherweight was very nervous at first. He hasn't ever talked to Fluttershy, and still feels bad about the Gabby Gums photos. Fluttershy was very surprised when the first thing he said all day was "Sorry." She didn't know what he meant. She was worried that she had done something wrong.

Nice ponies are so funny.

When Featherweight explained what happened, she was very nice (as she always is) and said it's all in the past, and not to worry. After he got past that, he was a bit more talkative. Fluttershy really seems to like Featherweight. They're both uncomfortable talking to other ponies, especially new ponies, and they both really like animals, so I guess it makes sense.

Shooting Star said we were a cute couple, and Featherweight turned bright red. It was so adorable. He didn't say anything for a little while after that, but it was okay. Cute, though? I thought I said this before. Cute isn't me! I'm a tough, cool pony like Mom!

We helped take care of the chickens and rabbits. Fluttershy's birds really seem to like Featherweight. I think it's because he's so cautious. When he was with them, he didn't make any sudden moves, and they'd all come over to him. I think he really enjoyed going to visit Fluttershy. I may bring him to her cottage again sometime.

Entry 128:

A picture of Scootaloo pushing around a cloud with Rainbow Dash. On the back in a different pony's hoofwriting, it says "Scootaloo's First Raincloud"

I got to help Mom push around the clouds today! Featherweight took a picture and sent it to Mom. It's not the first time I've been in the clouds, really. After all, I helped with the last Winter Wrap-Up, too. This, though, was the first time I was able to help all on my own.

Mom and I are going to Port Mane with a copy of the picture to put with Mama, Papa and Auntie Raincloud. I think they'd like that.

Featherweight said he wanted to come with us, so we talked with his dad and now Featherweight is coming to Port Mane, too. I haven't been back there since Auntie Raincloud was brought back to Port Mane after her funeral. I don't know what her grave looks like.

It was hard to go back to see Mama and Papa. I cried when I found Auntie Raincloud's grave. Featherweight stayed right beside me and held me close. He and Mom both said that they are sure Mama, Papa, and Auntie Raincloud would be happy for me if they were here.

I showed Featherweight my old house. The unicorn family that lived there saw me and asked if I wanted to come visit. Their colt is much bigger now. His name is Ocean Breeze. He's half a year younger than I am, and has his cutie mark, too.

Drawing of Scootaloo with her face down on a table saying "I'm hopeless."

I showed Featherweight my old room (it was pretty different now.) The walls were different, all the furniture was replaced. The kitchen still had lavender in it. I almost started crying. Featherweight was right there for me, though. He asked if I wanted to leave. I told him I just missed Mama and Papa. I told him that they used to have lavender in the kitchen just like the unicorn family.

I was getting kind of tired, but I really wanted to show Featherweight and Mom the flower shop Mama used to work at. I haven't seen it in a long time. Miss Golden Posey came up to me and gave me a big hug. She said she hadn't seen me in forever. She asked how I was doing, and said she was so sorry about everything that happened. I told her I was fine (well, as fine as I'm going to be) and that I was living in Ponyville. I introduced her to Featherweight, and she said he seemed like a very nice young colt. If only she knew!

He said he was happy he got to come with me, but that he was sorry I was upset. He doesn't know that I couldn't have been happier that he went with me.

Entry 129:

The writing is the same as the back of the picture from the previous page. The page has some tear marks on it.

Dear Scootaloo,

I couldn't get the nerve to tell you to your face, but I think I love you. I hope you feel the same, but I can understand if you don't. You were asleep when I wrote this. You fell asleep on the couch while I was over again. Your mom told me you needed sleep, and just carried you into your room.

I really hope you feel the same about me, but like I said, if you don't, that's okay...

Love, Featherweight [Featherweight is signed.]

P.S. Sorry for messing with your diary. I should've asked. I promise I didn't read anything!

Entry 130:

The writing on this page is Scootaloo's once again. Tucked into the page is a picture of Featherweight's face with a big smile. On the back, written by Scootaloo, it says "My coltfriend, Featherweight"

I don't know what to say! Featherweight is so great. I just finished talking with him. He said he was really nervous when he wrote in my diary. He didn't want me to be mad. He said he just couldn't get to where he could tell me to my face. He was too nervous.

It was so sweet of him. I'm really happy he was able to tell me he liked me back when he did. I don't know how I would have been today if he hadn't talked to me after the thing with the Foal Free Press. He's a really special pony.

Dad and Mom both read what Featherweight wrote and both of them said it was "adorable." (Mom teased me a bit.) He's such a sweet colt. I just can't stop saying it! I think I love him, too.

I've never felt like this before. I'm just so happy. I have a loving Mom and Dad, even after everything that has happened, and two very close friends, and a wonderful coltfriend. If I could stay like this forever, I think life would be as close to perfect as I'll ever know.

I would like to have my cutie mark, though. Just saying. I mean, come on!

Entry 131:

Featherweight has started spending a lot of time with me, even when I'm with Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle. He said sometimes the stuff we do for our cutie marks is dangerous, and he doesn't want to see me, or really any of us getting hurt.

I don't think we've ever really been too badly hurt. Covered in sap, yes. Covered in mud, yes. Chased by a squid, yes. How many things have we done?

I'm starting to wonder, thinking about it. Seriously, is there anything I am good at?

I asked everypony and they all said I'm a good friend. That's sweet of them. Featherweight told me I also am really cuddly. That made me blush. But, can you get a cutie mark in cuddling? Would that even be a useful talent? It'd be kind of weird. What would it look like? What am I talking about? I don't want a stupid 'cuddling' cutie mark! I mean, I wouldn't be able to get something like that. I would have something tough and cool. I just know it.

There has to be SOMETHING I'm good at. The three of us are actually not even sure what to try now. We'll have to think this week.

Entry 132:

Featherweight and I went to Fluttershy's again. Fluttershy was out shopping, but Shooting Star was at the house. He said we were welcome to stay. Featherweight played with the bunnies while I sat under the shade of the cottage. He brought one of the little ones over to me and sat with me and the bunny.

I read some of the things from my diary to him. He said he felt so sorry for how I lost my parents, and how I dealt with it. He said he hated hearing me fight with my feelings about it. He asked what happened. Auntie Raincloud told me she thinks it was something they ate. Apparently several ponies in Port Mane got very very sick at the same time. Thinking about it again, I really just hope they didn't hurt.

I started to get upset reading and writing. Featherweight curled up with me and tried to cheer me up. I told him I was going to write in here that he's too nice for his own good. A lot of me definitely thinks he's too nice for me.

He just saw me write that and said that I was being silly.

Fluttershy is home. She was happy to see us. She invited us in for some tea. Fluttershy makes really good tea. We stuck around and talked for a while.

I am pretty sure Featherweight was joking by the way he said it, but he told Fluttershy he would have to stop by more often for tea. He said it was so good. Then, she said we were welcome anytime. I'm not surprised she of all ponies would tell us that, but it was still very nice of her. Fluttershy said she thinks it's interesting how much quieter I am when I'm not with Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom. She said when I'm with them I'm loud enough that the birds fly away, but when I'm not, all the animals seem much calmer. Am I really that loud? I've never noticed.

Entry 133:

I was walking downtown today past Sugarcube Corner and got buried under a bunch of streamers. Only Pinkie Pie would ever cause something so silly as a "streamer accident." She said she was packing up a party box and didn't get the lid shut right. I will never understand that pony. Ever.

I met Featherweight at his house. He said I had confetti in my mane. I guess I'm not surprised. He helped me get the confetti out. It felt really nice, him running his hooves through my mane. I felt so relaxed.

We flew up to Mom's house and watched her moving around clouds. She waved to us while she was working. We just sat and watched and looked around Equestria as far as we could see. Someday when I'm older, I hope I can get a nice cloudacloudicloudominium like Mom's. Featherweight and I both really like the views, and it's so much quieter way up here. When I'm upset, I can just get away from everything. It's no wonder Mom is up here so much.

Entry 134:

It's Nightmare Night tonight! I am going as Mom. Little drawing of Scootaloo with a Rainbow Dash mane, as indicated by the various stripes through it, laughing.

I told her I wanted to do something funny this year, and I remembered I still had my Rainbow Dash Fan Club mane. (We don't really meet very often anymore. We still are a thing, I guess. I'm still a fan of Mom!) Mom got me some blue paint and helped me get all colored up. She said it was like a little "almost as awesome" version of her. I'm fine with being almost as awesome. For now.

Featherweight is dressed as a ghost. I told him he should've picked a costume I could actually see him in. I also told him that it seemed a little lazy. He laughed kind of nervously and told me he forgot it was Nightmare Night tonight. How can anypony forget it's Nightmare Night?

I totally forgot last year that I was going to write a letter to Princess Luna telling her how much I appreciate her. I said it before, I don't blame her for feeling a bit upset from time to time. The night is so pretty. After Featherweight and I finished going door to door, we went to the Apples' gazebo with Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom, and Pipsqueak and just looked at the stars. Poor Pipsqueak fell asleep while we were out there. Somepony (it totally wasn't me) drew a mustache on him. Nopony else stopped meher, though!

I finished writing my letter and Spike sent it for me. I hope Princess Luna likes it. I really didn't get to thank her for cheering me up when that crystal monster attacked Ponyville, or for helping me get over my fears and talk to Mom back when we had that camp out.

Entry 134:

Placed into the following page is a response letter from Princess Luna.

"Dear Scootaloo,

I appreciate your letter, and am very happy that you took the time to write me on Nightmare Night! I am no longer as petty as I used to be about Nightmare Night, nor night time in general, as you likely know. You did, however make me feel special, when you told me that you thought my night was beautiful. I am very glad you think so. You say you still haven't earned your cutie mark. I promise you, you will earn it in time. You are a wonderful young pony and you are full of potential. One of these days, I hope to hear from you that you earned your cutie mark, and I hope you let me know what you find as your special talent.

Yours,

Princess Luna [''Princess Luna' is signed.]"

I got a letter back from Princess Luna! Spike brought it to me this morning! Mom said it was really cool! I think so, too! I'm going to keep this letter forever!

I showed the letter to everypony at school today. They all (except Diamond Tiara, of course), thought it was really cool that I got a letter from one of Equestria's princesses. Miss Cheerilee told me after class today that she is thinking about having an extra credit assignment next year for Nightmare Night as far as writing letters to Princess Luna. She said she thinks she may do the same for Princess Celestia during the Summer Sun Celebration week. That would be really cool. I think the princesses would find that really nice.

Featherweight and I went to the library with Mom this afternoon. Featherweight kept looking through history books, so I showed him the one that we used when we went to the homes of the three pony tribes. He was really excited. He read the whole thing. Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom and I only looked at a few pages. The book is giant.

Mom was reading the Daring Do book that just came out. I just came to hang out. I mostly ended up reading back over everything that has happened to me since I started writing in this thing.

I really am very lucky, I have to say. Seeing all the stuff that I've been through, I ended up with some very good friends and family. I love all of them, very much.

Bullies and Best Friends (♫)

Entries 136-144

Entry 136:

A photograph of Scootaloo kissing Featherweight on the cheek, and another photo of Featherweight blushing deeply are tucked into this page.

Featherweight took me to shoot pictures today. I was only joking about the photo he had on his wall of me and my friends, but I think I embarrassed him.

I told him his big picture he had on the wall was of all three of us, and joking (I mean it, I wasn't serious small drawing of Scootaloo blushing) I asked if he was looking at me, or somepony else. I trust him more than that, but he was super embarrassed that I thought that.

He took me out to take pictures to replace the one on the wall. I didn't mean for him to take me so seriously.

Taking photos was fun! I've only used a camera once before, and it wasn't the best experience. It was more fun with Featherweight. His dad had an extra one in the house for me to borrow. I am not very good. I definitely won't get a cutie mark from it, but at least it was fun!

We got back to his house after his dad came home and I asked his dad to take some pictures of us, together. I think I surprised him when I kissed him on the cheek. After his dad snapped a photo of me kissing him on the cheek, he was bright red in the face. He's so cute when he blushes.

Entry 137:

Diamond Tiara made fun of Featherweight's teeth today. Diamond Tiara being Diamond Tiara, I suppose. He spent all day trying to hide his teeth. It wasn't until we were out on the playground when I told him that I found the way he always bit his lower lip cute that he relaxed, finally. Diamond Tiara really has a thing for finding exactly what upsets everypony the most and taking advantage of it. Her cutie mark should be for meanness.

He still seems overly worried about how his teeth look. I wish Diamond Tiara would leave him (really, everypony, that'd be great) alone. (It may sound mean, but I sometimes wish she'd just disappear.) Featherweight is in charge of the newspaper. If he wanted to, he could post all kinds of mean things about her in there, but he leaves her alone. Why does she pick in him?

I told Featherweight I don't want him to change how he looks. He kept talking about braces. I wouldn't stop him if he wanted to for him, but if he wants to do it for somepony else, I just won't let him. I feel like his funny teeth make him special.

I told Diamond Tiara that nopony likes her, and that she would be alone all her life. I know it was mean, but I'm sick of how she treats me and my friends. She seemed to be hurt by what I said, though. Maybe she'll shut up and leave us alone now.

Entry 138:

Diamond Tiara wasn't in class today. She's probably just sick, but part of me wonders if I hurt her feelings that much.

I asked Silver Spoon where Diamond Tiara was at recess and she said that Diamond Tiara wouldn't talk to her yesterday after school. She was just completely quiet. Did I really hurt her feelings that bad?

I'm sure Diamond Tiara will get over it, but I didn't mean to make her so upset (maybe). maybe I should say something?

Entry 139:

Diamond Tiara wasn't in class again today. Silver Spoon said she didn't want to talk to anypony, not even her. This wasn't my fault,  was it?

Featherweight came up to me at recess and asked if something was wrong. I kept thinking about if I was too mean to Diamond Tiara. I know she wouldn't be the same to me, but I guess we're different in that way.

Featherweight said if I feel that upset, maybe I should apologize, even if the very idea makes me sick. I guess I should, if for no other reason than to feel better about myself, be the better pony.

I apologized to Diamond Tiara after school. She acted like herself after I did, only a bit more shy, which is something I've never seen from Diamond Tiara. I asked her why she acts like she does to us and she didn't answer. Maybe she'll change, maybe she won't. I doubt this will be very long-lasting, myself.

Entry 140:

Diamond Tiara didn't say anything overly mean today. I say "overly mean" because she still called Apple Bloom and me "blank flanks" at recess, but we're used to that. Sweetie Belle was with Pipsqueak most of recess, they really make a cute couple. They were swinging on the swings while Apple Bloom and I figured out ideas for our cutie marks. I think next we're going to try and see if Vinyl Scratch will teach us how to DJ. I said I thought it would be something really cool we could try.

Featherweight and I went to take pictures again. We saw some rabbits and an owl. We also took some pictures of Ponyville from the clouds. It was a pretty fun afternoon.

This evening we went to Vinyl Scratch's. Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom and I are going to try and get some money to buy her a new record. She said it was okay, and that it happens all the time, but we really messed up one of her records. It has a big cut across it now. She was really nice about it, but we didn't do it right, clearly. It was kind of fun, and it was really cool hearing her play around, it's too bad we're not going to get cutie marks in that, because she makes some pretty cool music.

Entry 141:

A picture of a family of rabbits and an aerial photograph of Ponyville are tucked into the page. As well as an article including a picture of Vinyl Scratch and Scootaloo at a set of turntables while Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom watch.

"Music To Our Ears

by Featherweight (FFP Editor-in-Chief)

The ever-adventurous trio calling themselves the Cutie Mark Crusaders found themselves in the company of Vinyl Scratch, the local DJ at Club Mane. The mixing virtuoso gave Scootaloo, Sweetie Belle, and Apple Bloom a crash course in her line of work. The three fillies tried their hoof at mixing, and while they decided it wasn't for them, they said they had fun.

"I figured it was something worth trying. She's an awesome DJ," said Scootaloo, in a conversation after giving the turntables a shot. "There's so much going on at once. I don't know how she can keep it all in mind. That's a lot of work!" Sweetie Belle said of the musical mare. The trio all gave a try to the turntables, and found it to be a practice that takes practice. "I respect what she does much more, now that I know how complicated it is," shared Apple Bloom after her attempt.

Vinyl Scratch can be heard four evenings a week at Club Mane, and can be hired for parties by request. All ponies must be of adult age, or accompanied by a guardian to enter Club Mane."

I was right about Diamond Tiara. The last couple of days were nice, but Diamond Tiara is definitely still Diamond Tiara. She told Sweetie Belle that she'll never get a cutie mark, because she has no talent. Sweetie Belle was really upset at recess.

It may take a lot of work to cheer up Sweetie Belle. She said that Diamond Tiara is probably right and that all she ever does is cause problems and make a mess. Sweetie Belle does far more, and far better things than that! She was my first friend in Ponyville, and she has done far greater things than just "get in the way." Without her, I don't even know where I would be.

Pipsqueak finally decided he was going to talk to her. He took her to dinner. I hope he has more luck than we did. She still seemed pretty upset when they left after school. Apple Bloom, Featherweight, Dinky, Twist, and I are going to figure out some way to tell her how special she is to us.

Featherweight had several great photos of everypony in our little group together. We made a card for Sweetie Belle. Telling her that we all thought she was a wonderful pony. Twist made some candy for her, and we all signed the card.

Featherweight took the card to Pipsqueak to sign and give to Sweetie Belle, I hope she likes it.

Sweetie Belle came by the house to thank me for the card. She said she had gone to thank everypony, and that she really appreciated the card. I told her that we would get our cutie marks soon. We just have to keep trying. She hung out for a while and said she wanted her cutie mark, but right now she wanted even more to have Diamond Tiara leave her alone.

Entry 142:

I've started being a bit more sarcastic to Diamond Tiara (even more than usual). Maybe if she realizes I'm willing to fight back for my friends and me, she'll finally leave us alone.

If she's really going to treat us the same way after I gave her a taste of her own medicine and then was big enough to apologize, I'm just going to keep fighting back. She made fun of Featherweight's teeth again, I told her I could give her a mouth to match. I almost did, too.

Other than Diamond Tiara being her normal self, today was actually quite good. Sweetie Belle managed to do some simple magic (carrying things around) outside today. She was pretty excited. I was too!

After school today, Diamond Tiara suckerbucked me! I thought I was going to get into a big fight, but Featherweight jumped in the way. Featherweight got kicked in the ribs by Diamond Tiara, but he just shrugged it off! He's definitely hurt, but he says he'll get over it. I'm spending the afternoon taking care of him until his dad gets done with work. Featherweight says he thinks he's fine, but I want to make sure.

Entry 143:

Featherweight was okay. His dad took him to the doctor's. The doctor said he was fine, just some bruises. Diamond Tiara packs quite a kick when she's mad, so I wasn't sure. I'm glad he's okay, though.

I met him back at his house after he went to the doctor's. (I still hate hospitals).

Mom says Diamond Tiara is lucky Featherweight stepped in the way. She says I probably could've taken her out. I think so, too. I hope I don't have to find out. I don't want to get in trouble again.

Mom said she'd rather I didn't get in fights, obviously, but she said she doesn't expect me to be a pushover either.

Entry 144:

This week HAS to be the week we get our cutie marks! Apple Bloom invited Sweetie Belle and me to Sweet Apple Acres for the weekend. We're going to figure this out, once and for all!

I don't remember whose idea it was to be honey collectors, but it was a bad one. Never again. Twilight Sparkle had to help me pick out the stingers. Not a fun afternoon.

Apple Bloom said you have to be nice to the bees. She said it's an important part of the Zap Apple harvest, and that it has to be done just so. She still, clearly, doesn't have the knack for it, yet. She got stung, too. Sweetie Belle said she doesn't think she's a honey collector. Maybe she was the smart one.

Our other cutie mark schemes are going to have to wait. I'm all sore from the stingers. It'll go away, but it's definitely no fun. Featherweight was really freaked out when he saw me. I told him I was okay, but he was worried. He helped me take care of the stings.

A Hearth of Warmth (♫)

Entries 145-152

Entry 145:

Diamond Tiara said Apple Bloom and I looked ridiculous with all our stings. She asked what we did, but we didn't even talk to her. We didn't want to give her any more reason to make fun of us.

It is Featherweight's birthday today. I got him a Spitfire poster. Spitfire is his favorite Wonderbolt. I hope he likes it. I didn't know what to get him. He never seems to want anything. It bothers me, I always feel like he gets me a lot and takes me to eat and stuff, and I never feel like I can give him anything as a thank you.

Based on his reaction, he really liked my poster, but I think Sweetie Belle got him the best gift... Rarity made a little plush of me. It's absolutely adorable and really sweet. He was speechless (not too unusual for him) and really happy. I wish I could've given him something so cool, but I don't know that I would've felt right giving someone a gift that was me. I feel like that'd be pretty self-centered.

Pinkie Pie threw him a party at Sweet Apple Acres. She said it was way too nice of weather to throw it inside.

Pinkie Pie may be one of the strangest ponies I know, but she sure does know how to throw a party. She had the Cakes make a special cake for Featherweight. It was so good. She hoofed the bill, all on her own. I don't know how she makes so much money. It can’t all be from working at Sugarcube Corner, can it?

A drawing of Pinkie Pie talking somepony's ear off. The other pony is giving her money and saying "Please, take it all! Just stop talking!"

Featherweight put the poster up in his room, and set the plushie on his bed. He set the pie Apple Bloom brought him on the table, and put the other gifts up. After that he and I went to the gazebo. Everypony else had cleared out. Even Apple Bloom headed back home, telling us she'd see us tomorrow at school.

We laid out and watched the stars for a long time. I asked him what the thought about the gifts. He said that my gift was really cool, and Sweetie Belle's was amazing, that Apple Bloom's pie looked delicious, and that the new saddlebag that Pipsqueak got him was really needed. He said it was a nice saddlebag, too. Apparently it has a special spot to keep his camera protected so it can't get bumped around.

I snuggled up close to him and he told me that right now he was getting the best gift of all: to be with me. It was so cute, but so cheesy. When I laughed he said he really meant it. I didn't know what to say. It was cheesy, but he was so serious. He's just so sweet.

Entry 146:

Tucked into the page is a photograph of a skinny (though somewhat chubbier than he is presently) cream-colored, very young foal with a brown mane.

Also tucked into the page is a hoofwritten letter:

"Dear Scootaloo,

I wanted to thank you so much for the poster. As you know, it is hanging up in my room right now! You didn't have to get me anything, and I'm so thankful for your gift. You, more than anypony at school, have done more than I could ever thank you for. I love you so much, and appreciate every moment I get to spend with you.

Love,

Featherweight"

I told Rarity I really want a set of those plushies of my friends. She wouldn't take my money. She said she would do it no charge (after she finished her next big order).

When I went to visit Featherweight today, he was still asleep. He looked adorable with that little plushie in his hooves, cuddled up. He told plushie-me not to worry, and that he loved me. It was so cute, and so sweet.

I didn't really want to wake him up, so I went back downstairs to talk to his dad. I definitely know where Featherweight got his kindness. His dad is a friendly pony with lots of stories. He really cares about Featherweight quite a lot, and he told me Featherweight talks about me all the time.

He told me a couple of stories of when Featherweight was little while I waited for Featherweight to come downstairs.

When Featherweight was very young, his dad says he was just as curious. Before Featherweight took pictures all the time, he always enjoyed looking at plants and animals, and loved to go to the park. I wasn't really surprised to learn this, but it was cute seeing a picture of baby Featherweight.

It wasn't long after this that Featherweight came downstairs. He was so embarrassed when he saw me with a picture of him as a little foal, and equally embarrassed when I saw him carrying that plushie downstairs looking for breakfast.

I spent the day with Featherweight and his dad. Featherweight and I listened to him tell some stories from when he traveled. He used to be a photojournalist for the Canterlot Times. He's actually been to Port Mane! I mean, it's not far, but it's still interesting. He didn't know my parents, but he's been to the park I went to, Ambermane Memorial Park, and he knows the town.

I think Featherweight enjoyed hearing his dad's stories just as much as I did. He sat quietly (no surprise) and seemed very focused on everything his dad said.

His dad had to get groceries, so we eventually left. He gave his dad a hug and said he was going to spend the day with me. We went to get some lunch and then went to the swing set at school and just talked. Miss Cheerilee saw us outside and came and visited for a while. She told us we make a cute couple. Featherweight is so cute when he blushes.

She told me that she was happy somepony managed to get Featherweight to speak up a bit. He told her he'll probably always be pretty quiet, but that he's tried to be more talkative. He also said that having good friends, especially me, really helped him with that. Everypony in the class got along with him back before we started spending time together, but he said he didn't really have any friends. That's sad, because he's such a great colt.

After Miss Cheerilee went back into the schoolhouse to finish grading, I found out that Featherweight thinks as much of Miss Cheerilee as I do. Apparently she's been keeping tabs on him, too. She's been making sure he's okay, since she knows about his past, as well. He says she is "a wonderful teacher" and "somewhat of a hero" to him. I wish he'd said that to her face. He said so well what I wish I could tell her.

Entry 147:

I'm spending the day with Mom, Dad, and Mom's friends. We all are going to watch her practice flying. Mom is still the coolest flier in Equestria. I don't know how she does all that cool stuff.

Mom had me fly with her. Everypony was watching. I was really nervous. Mom said I did great. I stayed in the air, anyway. I couldn't do any tricks, but at least I didn't fall out of the sky when I tried to fly. Mom said next week we'd practice trying to do some tricks. I can't wait!

Fluttershy said I fly much better than she did at my age. I'm not surprised, but it was a nice thing for her to say, and I feel pretty good about it. She also asked if I was going to visit again, soon. She says she likes spending time with Featherweight and me. I didn't realize. I thought she just kind of put up with us. She says she really enjoys talking with us. I didn't know Fluttershy enjoyed talking at all. Shooting Star said that we were absolutely welcome anytime. Maybe we'll go there after school tomorrow. I know Featherweight loves the animals.

Entry 148:

Tucked into the page are a couple pictures of Fluttershy's animals, and a picture of Fluttershy and Shooting Star together. Also included is a picture of Scootaloo asleep under the side of Fluttershy's cottage.

Featherweight finally remembered to bring his camera when we went to visit Fluttershy. He took quite a few pictures. I just sat and watched. I think I fell asleep at one point. He didn't seem to mind. I don't like falling asleep while I'm with friends (or, in this case, my coltfriend). I feel like it's telling them they're boring or something.

That pony took a picture of me while I was asleep! He thought it was funny when he showed me the picture. I guess so, but I was kind of embarrassed. We were supposed to spend the day together, and I fell asleep.

Featherweight went home for dinner. He invited me to eat with him, but I promised Sweetie Belle that we would hang out with Apple Bloom. Rarity had one of my plushies done. She said she started with Featherweight "because honestly, darling." I told her I didn't realize she was so good at making plushies. I thought she just made clothes. She said stuffed animals were a hobby she had since she was young. She used to make them as gifts for her friends when she was in school. She showed me a couple she made when she was very young. She showed me a rabbit and a chipmunk.. They were so cute!

I spent the evening with Sweetie Belle. We went to visit Apple Bloom. She was working with Granny Smith in the kitchen, learning some of Granny Smith's favorite recipes. We stayed out of the way. Sweetie Belle said every time she tries to help cook, Rarity says she makes a big mess. I do have to say Sweetie Belle isn't going to get her cutie mark in cooking. She's the only pony I know who has ever burned juice.

Entry 149:

I brought my Featherweight plushie with me to his house today. He said it was absolutely adorable. I told him of course it was, it was of him. He was as red as the schoolhouse.

I pushed a couple clouds together, and Featherweight and I are sitting and watching Ponyville from the clouds. I can see why Mom loves to do this. It's so peaceful. I'm just sitting here with Featherweight, writing and talking.

Featherweight asked what I was writing. I told him I was just writing about what was going on. I read him a bit from my diary. He says I'm too sweet. He says he's not as special as I say he is. I absolutely disagree. I feel like I don't say enough about how great he is.

Haha! I couldn't help myself. Diamond Tiara walked underneath us, and made some stupid remark to me, so I stomped down some rain. It felt so awesome. She was so mad!

[A drawing of Scootaloo stomping rain down on Diamond Tiara takes up the rest of the page.]

Entry 150:

Tucked into the page is a news article with a picture of Scootaloo stomping down rain from a cloud.

"Ponyville's Youngest Weatherpony?

by Featherweight (FFP Editor in Chief)

Scootaloo, a local pegasus, has been practicing her flight under the adroit aerial expertise of Rainbow Dash. Recently, Scootaloo found herself pushing clouds around much like the pony who trained her. 'I want to be just like Rainbow Dash someday,' the filly said in an interview, 'she is my hero!'

Youthful idolatry aside, the young pony fared well in the skies, bringing down rain, after helping move clouds around. 'It's not my first time working with the weather, but every chance I get is always exciting.' The young filly doesn't know if she will be a weatherpony when she grows up, but she isn't ruling it out.

Watch the skies, because the students of today may be the ones in charge of the weather tomorrow!"

Diamond Tiara was worse than usual, today. She didn't get away with her remarks, though. She had the guts to say things in front of Miss Cheerilee. Miss Cheerilee was not happy. Diamond Tiara had to sit inside during recess for making fun of Featherweight. Serves her right.

Miss Cheerilee said she wishes she could help me more when it comes to my problems with Diamond Tiara, but she says she can't play favorites, and if she doesn't see what happens, she has to go by what she hears, and Diamond Tiara says I have just as much to do with it as I say Diamond Tiara does. I guess I can understand that. It must be tough being a teacher.

I've started paying a bit more attention in class. I really want to make Miss Cheerilee (and, of course, Mama) proud. I still find myself falling asleep in class, sometimes, but I hope I am doing better than I was. I hope Miss Cheerilee sees that I am trying harder.

I spent the evening with Apple Bloom. Sweetie Belle was with Pipsqueak, and Featherweight was really tired today, so Apple Bloom and I sat and talked in the clubhouse. We talked about ways to get our cutie marks. We keep bringing up stuff we've already done. I think we need to find some new ideas.

Entry 151:

It turns out that the unicorn family that owns my old house has a lot of money. They bought a vacation home here in Ponyville. I had never heard of a "vacation home." Anyway, they came to town today, and I talked with them for a while. They said they forgot that this was where I lived, but that they were happy to see me. They asked how I was. I said I was fine.

Apple Bloom saw me while I was talking with the family. She began talking to Ocean Breeze. He was really nice to her. He said she was really cute.

I introduced Sweetie Belle to the unicorns, too. Ocean Breeze seems like a nice unicorn. I wouldn't mind if he hung out with us while they are in town.

I invited Ocean Breeze to spend time with Featherweight, Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom, Pipsqueak, Twist, Dinky, and me. I introduced him to everypony he didn't know, and we spent the afternoon on the playground. He and Apple Bloom talked for a long time. I wonder what they were talking about. They were off on their own a bit.

Featherweight picked me some flowers, it was so sweet of him. Dad got me a vase to put them in and I put it on my nightstand. They're so pretty.

Entry 152:

I ran into Applejack today on the way to visit Featherweight. She said that Apple Bloom was "spending time with some new unicorn colt" she hadn't met before. I guess she's talking about Ocean Breeze? That's sweet of her to be a friend to him. I don't think he's ever been in town before. His parents said they've been in Ponyville before, but that it had been a long time.

Featherweight and I went to visit Fluttershy and Shooting Star again, today. We fed the chickens and the other birds. Featherweight is the only pony other than Fluttershy that I know who can get birds to land on him. They just like being around him. Now I know how he gets such good pictures. The animals just seem to like him.

Fluttershy came out for a while and talked to us. She said she really enjoyed being around us. She said since we aren't loud, the animals like being around us, too. She said most ponies who visit are too loud, or move too fast and scare all the animals. She told me that when I'm with Featherweight I'm usually very quiet, but when I'm with the other Crusaders, I tend to be a lot louder. I've never really noticed.

Fluttershy said that she really enjoyed it when we helped out. I didn't know we were helping out. I just like feeding the animals. She said she really appreciated it. We sat and talked for a while. Shooting Star came out with a snack and visited with us as well. Shooting Star asked if we could help take care of the animals next week. He and Fluttershy are going with Rarity to Canterlot for a vacation. Rarity invited them along, and Fluttershy said if she could find somepony to take care of the animals, she'd love to go. She was too shy to ask anypony herself, though.

Featherweight seemed very happy to help out. I have no problem with it, either. She said if we needed in the house, Angel knew how to let us in. When I first met that rabbit I didn't know why Fluttershy liked him. He really does care about her, he just is terrible at showing it.

Wind Under Wing (♫)

Entries 153-162

Entry 153:

Well, at first I thought Ocean Breeze was going to be a one-time meet, but I guess I was wrong. Apple Bloom has fallen head over hooves for him, and I think he has done the same for her. I feel like I should say what I know about him, now. I am going to talk with Ocean Breeze's parents today, just because I'm curious.

Ocean Breeze is a cream colored unicorn with a two-tone Wonderbolts-blue mane (the darker of the two shades is EXACTLY the Wonderbolts color. I'm so jealous!) His family owns a fairly successful furniture business that has tables and chairs all across Equestria! They're really nice, too. The stuff from my old house was all stuff their company made, Maple Woods (Ocean Breeze's dad) designed the table downstairs himself!

Maple Woods is the lead designer of the Equinapolis Furniture Company. He is like the Rarity of furniture. He knows how to design the most beautiful furniture of all sorts. I actually think the bookshelves at dad's house are made by his company.

Ocean Breeze's mother, Sandy Shores (no relation to Sapphire Shores. Yes, I asked. Yes, she's heard it before), met Maple Woods at Mt. Bridle. He was looking for workers to start up a company, and she was hired as the chairpony of the new company. After working together for 5 years, they fell in love, and now they're co-owners of one of the most successful furniture companies in the last few decades.

Maple Woods says his greatest honor to date is that he designed a set of tables and chairs for Canterlot Castle's ballroom, a year ago, and that Princess Luna said it was "absolutely elegant." He said he will never forget receiving such a compliment from a princess. I can imagine it would be pretty cool!

Sandy Shores says she finds Ponyville to be a "cute little town, like something out of a storybook," and says she has always wanted to live here. Maple Woods says that they can't live in Ponyville, though, because they need to live close to the factory that recently opened in Port Mane, because they need to keep an eye on things as they are shipped out of the port.

Sandy Shores and Maple Woods agreed to buy a house here, and visit when they could. They said that now that Ocean Breeze is getting old enough, he may choose to live here, or in Equinapolis, where their other house is. (They own three houses? Wow.) If he doesn't live at home, he'll be living with his foalsitter, Cherry Tart. I haven't met her, yet. She currently lives in Port Mane, but said she would be happy to move if Ocean Breeze wanted to try making it for a couple years away from his parents. I don't know why anypony would ever want to do that. Why would somepony want to live anywhere but near their parents?

Sandy Shores and Maple Woods said they would rather he live here in Ponyville if he were to live away from them (still seems odd, but I don't own three houses, either.) They said they would rather him be close enough that they could visit on the weekends, and Equinapolis is three days away.

They are a very nice family, but they could buy all of Ponyville if they wanted to. It's sort of intimidating.

Entry 154:

I went to meet Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle today. Apple Bloom was with Ocean Breeze. We were going to show him around town. I couldn't help it though, I had to ask why anypony would live anywhere other than with their parents. I think I embarrassed Apple Bloom, but I had to know. It just doesn't make sense to me.

He said his parents wanted him to learn to live on his own. They thought he should learn what it is like to live without all the fancy things money can buy. He said he wanted to try it, too. He said he's always been used to getting anything he wanted, anytime, and said he wants to know how his parents had to deal with things before he was born. I guess that makes sense. He still respects his parents, and wants to learn how they made it. I still wouldn't want to leave my parents' side if I had them.

We showed Ocean Breeze all the sights. We introduced him to our friends, our families, and Miss Cheerilee. We told her he was thinking about moving to town, and she said she would be more than happy to have him in class. He said she seemed much nicer than his teacher back in Port Mane. I don't really remember Miss Silvermane. That was awhile ago, now.

Ocean Breeze said his parents invited the Mayor to their house today, and that he met her this morning. I don't think we've ever had the Mayor visit our house. I've met her a couple of times, and she's nice, but we've never had her come visit us.

Pinkie Pie is planning a party for the family this afternoon. I don't really know if Pinkie's brand of party is right for these fancy rich ponies, so I am kind of unsure how it will go.

The family had a great time at the party! They said it was a wonderful change from all the snobby rich parties they've been to over the past few years on business. I would not have imagined they would react that way. I'm happy, though!

After the party got into the swing of things, I couldn't find Ocean Breeze anymore. I hope he wasn't uncomfortable. Sweetie Belle and I went looking. She said she couldn't find Apple Bloom, either. Maybe they went off somewhere together.

Entry 155:

I was right. Apple Bloom and Ocean Breeze spent the evening at the gazebo. She and Ocean Breeze stayed long enough to talk with some ponies before they left. He said the party was really fun, but that he wanted to spend some time with Apple Bloom. She seemed embarrassed by that. I don't know why. If they want to spend time together, what's wrong with that?

Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom, Featherweight, Pipsqueak, Ocean Breeze, and I all spent the afternoon hanging out at the clubhouse. Applejack kept coming to check up on us. I don't think she's ready for Apple Bloom to have a coltfriend. She kept looking at Ocean Breeze with her "I'm watching you" face. Apple Bloom was so embarrassed. After her third or fourth time checking on us, Apple Bloom finally shouted "WE'RE FINE APPLEJACK!" It was funny, but her sister is just checking on her. She wants her to be safe. Ocean Breeze is from out of town. Applejack doesn't know him too well, yet. I totally understand why she would worry.

Ocean Breeze agrees. He said he has no problem with Apple Bloom's family checking on him. He said he would be somewhat worried if they didn't. After all, they don't know who he is, really. Apple Bloom seemed relieved when she found out he wasn't bothered.

I've never seen somepony from out of town so patient in dealing with Granny Smith. Ocean Breeze said that Cherry Tart can act the way Granny Smith does from time to time, so he's used to it. The whole time Granny Smith was talking toat Ocean Breeze, Apple Bloom was stiff as a board, with the goofiest looking smile and a face as red as her barn. I don't know why she was so embarrassed after Ocean Breeze said that he was used to it. Granny Smith is a perfectly fine old pony. She's just a bit goofy in the head. It's just the same as Pinkie Pie.

Entry 156:

Tucked into the pages is a picture of Scootaloo, upside down in the air.

Mom and I had flight practice today. Featherweight and Dad were there to cheer me on. I'm still not very good. Mom says I'm doing well, but I don't feel like I am. I can't do any tricks. Every time I try to do a loop, I about fall out of the sky when I get upside down. She says I gotta flip faster. It's really tough to flip, even as fast as I'm trying, now!

Mom asked Featherweight if he wanted to try a few tricks. He said he didn't feel comfortable with that. I am guessing that means he's better at them than I am, because it was just us watching, who was going to make fun of him? Of course he'd get to flying better than me, faster. It wasn't long ago that he was fast, but could only fly low.

I was definitely right. Mom finally persuaded Featherweight to join us. He could do rolls, flips, and he was able to keep up with Mom longer than I was. He kept looking really embarrassed whenever he would do a trick. I don't know why. He was so amazing! I just wish I could do all that.

Mom said I was doing great, I just needed to practice more. She finally persuaded me to get up into the air one more time, and I actually did a flip! I was so excited. Featherweight was so happy for me! Mom and Dad were excited, too! Featherweight even got a couple pictures. He said he would get me a copy to take to Mama and Papa and Auntie Raincloud next time we were in Port Mane for their grave. He's so sweet. He also apologized for doing all the tricks. He said he wouldn't have done them if Mom hadn't kept asking him to. I told him there was nothing to apologize for. He said he didn't want me to feel like I wasn't very good. He said I was flying great for a pegasus my age, especially for one who didn't have a pegasus to train with for two years.

I don't know who he trained with, though. His dad is an Earth pony. Where did he learn to do all that?

I asked him where he learned. He said he wasn't sure I would want to know. I told him of course I did. He said he just kind of watched Mom fly when we were hanging out with her and taught himself. He taught himself to do all that? I can't believe it! He said he got hurt quite a few times. I'd noticed him wrapped up at school several times, I thought he just got hurt on the playground or something. It turns out he was teaching himself to fly. I should've been trying harder lately.

Entry 157:

[The page is tear stained, and the following entry is in a familiar hoofwriting, but not that of Scootaloo’s again.]

"Dear Scootaloo,

Sorry for taking your diary again without asking. I saw you were upset, and after you took a nap, I read what you wrote. You're really a great flyer, especially for your age and everything that's happened to you. You need to stop being so hard on yourself. You've been through more than anypony I know, and you're as old as I am! Please, when you're upset, it makes me upset, too. I really hate to see you so hard on yourself. You're a wonderful pony, and need to see yourself as such. I love you. Your family (adopted, as well as your late parents and aunt) loves you. Your friends love you. Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle care about you more than I've ever seen friends care about each other. Why don't you seem to see yourself at least half as great as we do? Please stop being so hard on yourself.

Love, Featherweight.

P.S. If you want, I can teach you to fly when we're together. Your mom told me she is busy with work sometimes, and can't always teach you like she wants. Maybe I could help both of you out."

Entry 157:

Page is covered in wrinkled spots from tears.

I called a meeting with all of my friends after school today. We all went to the clubhouse for the day. I asked them what they thought about me, and how I have acted lately.

At first nopony wanted to say anything, then Twist finally spoke up. She said she thought I was "super cool" but that I always seemed to be angry with myself about something. Apple Bloom said she felt the same way. She said that she still, to this day remembers how I stood up for her in front of Diamond Tiara at her cute-ceañera. She says that she wishes I would respect me the same way I respect others, even ponies I haven't ever talked to.

Sweetie Belle told me that I needed to stop blaming myself every time something went wrong. She said if I was going to tell her that, I needed to think the same for me. Pipsqueak said that I was very protective of my friends. He said he really enjoyed that. He said, though, that he worried, sometimes, that I was so concerned with my friends, that I didn't worry about myself. He said even when I get in arguments with my friends, I always seem to be more upset with myself afterward than happy with whatever decision we came to. Dinky told me that she always found me to be fun and full of energy until I would get upset, and then I would become upset enough she would worry about me.

Featherweight said he didn't feel like he had to tell me anything else. He said that he already wrote me a message, and that he felt like he had summed up his thoughts pretty well. He seemed somewhat upset.

Ocean Breeze said he didn't know me very well, but that he agreed with my friends. He said that so far, most of the time he's been around me, I've seemed upset, but not with him. He said he never knew what it was, but that he always wondered if maybe he had upset me and I just was really good at acting like I was upset with somepony else.

I told them I would try and be less rough on myself, and that I was really sorry I had worried everypony so much. I also told them that I was really serious, that I would try and be a happier pony. I have to try, if not for me, at least for them.

Entry 158:

Page is lightly covered in tear marks.

I met with Featherweight after school again today. He seemed upset again. I asked him what was wrong. He said me. I was really worried when he told me that. He said he was very bothered by how I had been treating myself ever since we started talking. He told me he has worried about me every night, and that that is the reason he's always asleep so late on the weekends.

He told me he didn't want me to act like I wasn't special. He told me that I would get my cutie mark in time if I would just stop worrying so much. He said that he wanted to tell me so much more in the second note he wrote to me, but that he didn't want to come across as angry.

Then he told me I needed to stop crying, and that he wasn't mad. He said he was just very worried about me, and upset that I acted like I did with myself. He told me everypony feels like I do, sometimes, like they are always messing things up, or that everything is their fault. He said that most ponies, aren't like that all the time, though.

He told me that if I needed help, to talk to him, or at least somepony, because he didn't want me to keep acting like I had. He said sometimes he feels like I hate myself, and that he is very worried about me when I get very upset with little mistakes I make. He said that the way I was acting after Diamond Tiara stole my diary was so upsetting to him, that he almost got sick again. He felt like he had caused me to treat myself like that, and he didn't want that.

He also said he wished I would at least talk to somepony instead of writing every negative feeling I have about myself in my diary. He said if I write it in here, then when I'm alone and upset, I'll just remind myself of every mistake I did, or didn't make.

He said he doesn't mind if I'm upset with myself, sometimes, and he didn't expect me to change, magically. He said he just wishes I would at least try not to be so hard on myself. He said he wished I acted as cool and spunky when I was with him as I did when everyone at school was around. He said he's seen me when I'm trying to get my cutie marks, and he says he loves to see me happy and having fun, and he wants to see me like that more often.

I understand. I know I am tough on myself. I am at least going to try and be a better pony happier with who I am.

Entry 160:

Tucked into the pages are a few pictures of Scootaloo doing tricks, one with Featherweight clapping beside her. On the back of each of them, in Featherweight's hoofwriting, it says "See? I told you you could do it!"

I showed Featherweight what I wrote yesterday. He said that if I was serious, and tried hard, that it was a good first step. He told me that he didn't expect me to fix in a day. He said he wouldn't want to put so much pressure on anypony. He said he was just worried about me.

I asked him if he would help me learn to fly after class today, and he said he would be excited to help. I am looking forward to it so much I haven't even been able to focus on class today. Hopefully it will take a bit of pressure off of Mom. I know she loves to help, but she has some weeks where she just has to do so much with the weather that she can't be here. If Featherweight was right about what Mom said, I hope this means that she doesn't have to feel so guilty. Some days when she's had a rough day and is exhausted. She seems very upset if she can't go out with me and fly for a bit. I'm never upset with her about it, but she seems upset that she can't take a while and practice with me.

I'm kind of nervous. Featherweight brought everypony to watch. He said that my friends would be a good encouragement. Even Dad came to watch. Dad is taking pictures for Featherweight and me. Featherweight said he wants to see how happy I am when I learn to do things, and that he wanted me to remember the first time I managed to do things.

I actually did pretty well today! I managed to do a roll a couple of times, and I was able to do another flip! Featherweight told me as long as I kept practicing and exercising my wings, I would be a Wonderbolt in no time. I am sure he was joking, but it was a sweet thing to say.

Entry 161:

Tucked into the page is an article with the previously indicated photographs.

"Flying With Friends

by Featherweight (FFP Editor-in-Chief)

Pegasi get to experience something that most other ponies (save for the friends of a powerful unicorn) won't: the freedom of flight, the wind-in-the-mane, hoof-dangling excitement of being airborne by one's own accord. This previous week, I spent time with my friends, and flew around with fellow classmate, Scootaloo.

She wowed her friends and me with her flying skills and wonderful tricks. She was rather excited to get to show her friends her stuff. 'I never thought I would be able to do some of these things! I've practiced and practiced, and it feels great when I finally do a trick.' Flight is a special gift that those of us with wings often take for granted, but it's truly a unique experience.

Much like we will never get to experience being able to cast spells, some of our friends will not get to feel the wonder of flight. What is always wonderful is when friends show support and excitement for these experiences. Friends who share in the experiences of each other can feel a special reward in that togetherness."

Featherweight went up to tell Miss Cheerilee something before class, and winked at me. I wonder what he's up to.

IS HE CRAZY?! He told Miss Cheerilee that he wanted to show the class the tricks we had worked on! What was he thinking? I can't do those tricks in front of the whole class! I could barely do them yesterday at all!

That went far better than I ever expected! It was actually really fun. It was really funny seeing Diamond Tiara pout when I pulled off a flip and a double roll. Featherweight gave me a big hug and told me to bow to my 'fans.' He's such a goof.

Miss Cheerilee told me after class that I did great today. She said that she hadn't seen flying like that from a filly in her class in years. I'm just glad I was able to do it. I was so nervous. I kicked Featherweight in the flank on the way home from school and told him never to surprise me like that again. He gave a grin that has me kind of nervous.

Mom said she always knew I could do it. She was pretty happy when she heard I was flying and doing tricks on the playground. We went out for a bit of practice after dinner. I showed her my stuff and she said I would be almost as good as her in no time.

Entry 161:

Featherweight showed Mom the pictures of me doing tricks, and told her more about class yesterday. She said that she knew I was awesome, and that she told me I would be an awesome flyer in no time!

I still can't fly for too long, and it takes a lot of effort for me to do tricks, but I can do them! I seemed to do better, yesterday. I don't know if it was just from practice, or if I did better because I was nervous. Whatever the reason, I am really happy he got me to do it, even if it did freak me out.

Featherweight kept telling me I was his little Wonderbolt today. I think he's going a bit overboard. I'm really excited I was able to do those tricks, but I am still not as good as him, and especially not as good as Mom or the Wonderbolts. I'm sure he's just trying to be encouraging, but it's a bit much to me.

I told him to stop, and he told me he was trying to be encouraging. Even so, it’s a bit over the top to me.

I don't know whether he's right or not, but I felt really good today. We hung out with our friends at Sugarcube Corner after class, today. Ocean Breeze bought everypony whatever we wanted. I got a piece of strawberry pie. It was really good! Featherweight just got a cup of water. I told him he needed to get some meat on his bones and he blushed. I ordered him a big slice of chocolate cake. He ate the whole thing.

He told me he didn't order anything because he didn't want to spend Ocean Breeze's money. He said he didn't want to feel like he was using Ocean Breeze as a friend. I guess I can understand that, but he still liked the cake.

Ocean Breeze's parents are headed back to Port Mane this weekend. Ocean Breeze says the thinks he wants to stay in town. He and Apple Bloom sat at their own table and talked while the rest of us joked around. They make a nice couple. And since Ocean Breeze is pretty rich, she doesn't have to worry about him using the Apple Family for their money. And since her family is pretty well to do, as well, he doesn't have to worry, either (though his family definitely has a lot more money, I think.)

Be The Bigger Mare (♫)

Entries 163-169

Entry 163:

Tucked into the page is a written apology to the class.

"Apology Letter To The Class:

To everyone at Ponyville Elementary School, especially Miss Cheerilee,

I am sorry for causing such a big mess yesterday. I should have controlled myself better. Sometimes when somepony hurts or upsets a friend of mine, I act before I think. I will try to control myself better in the future, and I hope nopony sees me any worse today than they did in the past. Once again, I am sorry.

I don't care what Diamond Tiara thinks of me, she didn't need to do that to Featherweight. Featherweight brought his plushie to school in his saddlebags (which I thought was so sweet and adorable). Diamond Tiara saw it on the way outside for recess, and brought it out onto the playground for everypony to see, and for them to make fun of him. Some of the ponies pointed and laughed, and he got pretty embarrassed. Then she threw it in a mud puddle.

I have to stay after school today. After Diamond Tiara did that, I bucked her onto her back and started kicking her. I was so mad at her. There was no need for her to pick on Featherweight, and when she threw the plushie Rarity made in the mud, I just lost it. Diamond Tiara has to stay after school, too, since she was kicking me, as well. I'm alright, just really mad. I kind of wish she wasn't staying after with me, so I wouldn't have to be in the same room as her anymore.

Featherweight waited outside the school for me after class. Diamond Tiara didn't say anything, she just kicked mud at us as she walked by.

Miss Cheerilee told Diamond Tiara and me that if we got in another fight, we would have to be suspended for a week. She said she doesn't want to have to do it, but she has to treat everypony the same, and that four fights is four fights. A fifth one is a week's suspension.

I really don't want to get in trouble like that. I don't want Miss Cheerilee to think of me as a bad pony. I just don't like it when people mess with my friends! I was trying not to cry in the classroom. Like Featherweight has said, don't give her the satisfaction. I think Miss Cheerilee knew I was upset, because she talked to me on my way out (after Diamond Tiara left) and said that if there was a problem I really needed to go to her, because if I take matters into my own hooves, she has to handle it the same way she handles everypony else.

She said she really worries about me. She told me that she’s happy I’m protective of my friends, but that I need to remember how my actions reflect on me. She said that what Diamond Tiara did was absolutely wrong, but that I can't go fighting other students. She says it's for everypony's safety. She told me she didn't want me to think she saw me as bad in any way. She said she has to do her job, and that involves taking care of everypony, "not just Scootaloo."

Featherweight sat and listened the whole time. He said that she was very patient, and that he is reminded again of why she makes such a good teacher. He said that he would have a lot of trouble not picking favorites with ponies like Diamond Tiara in the class, and that she does a great job.

I'm writing a letter of apology to the class. I hate to let Diamond Tiara "win," but I feel like I owe it to Miss Cheerilee.

I talked to Rarity, Sweetie Belle told her what happened. She was not happy. She called Diamond Tiara a self-important brat who doesn't value hard work. I think she was more upset that her work was thrown in the mud than that Featherweight was upset by the whole thing.

Entry 164:

I told Miss Cheerilee before class that I had something to tell to the whole class. She looked at me confused, but said "sure."

That was the most difficult thing I've done in a while, even compared to flying in front of the class. Miss Cheerilee said that it was "very mature" of me to apologize like that. I really wish I could tell her just how much she means to me. Just because I got better grades on my last three tests doesn't really mean a lot, I don't think. I wish I could really show her how important she is. Without her, I probably wouldn't have made it very far here in Ponyville.

Outside on the playground, Miss Cheerilee kept a close watch on me. She seemed worried. I think I know why, because she stopped Diamond Tiara in the middle of her sentence when Diamond Tiara told me something about my "rightful place" again on the playground. I don't care what Diamond Tiara thinks anymore. I care what she does, especially to my friends. It was nice of Miss Cheerilee to help me out, though.

Featherweight told me after school that what I did was "very courageous." He said he never would have expected me to do something like that. I told him that I felt like I owed it to Miss Cheerilee. He said that he thinks she really respected what I did. I hope so.

I told him I was upset that I let Diamond Tiara win by apologizing today. He said she won the second I attacked her. I've never thought about it like that. He said she's always looking for a reaction. He told me that that's why he tries his best not to get upset with her. I guess I never thought of her as that evil. I always just thought she was a brat. Who enjoys seeing people hurt? How awful.

Entry 165:

Silver Spoon talked to me at recess, today. She said that she wanted to tell me it was really brave of me to apologize to the class. She said if Diamond Tiara hadn't been causing a scene yesterday, she would've told me then, but she didn't want to butt heads with her friend.

I finally just asked her why she likes Diamond Tiara. She said that Diamond Tiara is really nice to her friends, she's just mean to everypony else. I don't get it. What did everypony do to her?

I told Featherweight what Silver Spoon told me. He said he never has disliked her. He said that he feels, sometimes, like she's just scared of Diamond Tiara. I told him that apparently she's nice to Silver Spoon. He said it's probably because Silver Spoon's family is rich, too.

Featherweight and I are hanging out with Sweetie Belle, Pipsqueak, Apple Bloom, and Ocean Breeze this evening. We're going to the clubhouse and playing some games. I told Apple Bloom to expect Applejack to visit a few dozen times if we were all in the clubhouse again.

We eventually got bored of horseshoes and board games and went into town for a treat. We went to Sugarcube Corner. Ocean Breeze offered to pay for everything again. We all told him not to, that it wasn't fair to him. He didn't understand. He just doesn't seem to get the value of money, yet. Maybe he'll learn as he stays in town. He only has so much of an allowance now, and I think he keeps forgetting that. He already bought Apple Bloom a pretty heart necklace with an amathamethisamethyst in it. I think that if he bought everypony's treats, he would be out of money for the week. It's still more than I get. Ever. I think it's more than Mom makes in a day's work.

Then Featherweight went and paid for my strawberry shake! I ought to buck him in the head.

Entry 166:

Tucked into this page are two clips of an article about Ocean Breeze.

"Welcoming New Friends

by Featherweight

Recently, we had a newcomer join our class. Ocean Breeze is a bright and traveled young colt who has found himself a new resident of our humble town. 'I like the community, and I like the atmosphere,' he said in interview, 'I feel like it is a wonderful place to live.'

'He's a nice colt. It's been fun hanging out with him the last couple of weeks,' shared Apple Bloom when asked about the newcomer, (Continued on page 3A)"

"New Friends, from page 1A

'I'm always happy to meet nice new friends,' she continued.  My friends and I came across this new colt when Scootaloo ran into him in town. Scootaloo met Ocean Breeze in Port Mane months ago, and, as luck would have it, his parents purchased a place here in town to visit on occasion. 'I couldn't believe it when I saw them, but here they were,' Scootaloo told the FFP, 'They live in my home from when I lived in Port Mane.'

Be sure to give a warm welcome to the new colt when you see him or his guardian, Cherry Tart, around town. Show him that Ponyville is a wonderful place to call home!"

Diamond Tiara tried to buddy up to Ocean Breeze today after she found out who his parents were. He said he didn't buy her sweet talk for one second. He's been in the class for a few days now. He's seen how she treats everypony, he says.

Diamond Tiara basically tried to get Ocean Breeze to ask her out on the playground. Like she didn't understand that he was taken, and like she didn't get that he sees through her. I don't know which upsets me more. Apple Bloom almost caused a scene of her own today when Ocean Breeze told her what Diamond Tiara did. Ocean Breeze told her just to let it go. I think she's worried about her trying to take him. I don't think she needs to worry, though.

Diamond Tiara tried again to sweet talk Ocean Breeze and he told her to leave him alone and he wasn't interested. She got really mad. She said she didn't see why anypony would ever want to be with someone as "lowly" as Apple Bloom, while she was standing next to him. I almost got myself in trouble again, but then Ocean Breeze said something that made me laugh. He told Diamond Tiara "well, first, she's not a total brat" like Diamond Tiara, and that "second, she cares about more than how much money somepony has." I thought Diamond Tiara was going to explode. Her face was a red I've never seen on somepony like Diamond Tiara before.

Featherweight and I joked all evening about what Ocean Breeze said. Ocean Breeze said he didn't think he said anything wrong (maybe "wrong" isn't the right word, because it was totally fitting for Diamond Tiara). He said he would have told anypony else the same if it were true, and that he always tells people what he thinks. It was really funny, that's for sure. A drawing of a very upset Diamond Tiara.

Entry 167:

Everypony else was busy today, so I hung around with Pipsqueak. He said he was happy to spend time with me. He said he hasn't really had a chance to talk with me on my own.

I asked him how he and Sweetie Belle were. He said that she is a nice filly, but that she needs to stop thinking that just because Rarity says she messed up means she really messed up. Apparently Rarity still gets on her case a lot, but now Pipsqueak is the one who deals with it. I hope she's at least better than she was. Sweetie Belle hasn't really talked about it like she used to. Maybe it's because she talks with Pipsqueak instead.

Pipsqueak is a really nice colt. I'm glad he and Sweetie Belle are together. He just kept talking about how he hoped she was okay today. I guess she went with Rarity to some fashion show to help show off the dresses. I really hope that doesn't go wrong, though I am not holding my breath. Pipsqueak said he wanted to go and see her, but that he forgot to set his alarm, and woke up after they left town. That's too bad. He seemed pretty upset and embarrassed.

Featherweight met up with us after he finished helping his dad clean the house. The three of us went to Fluttershy's cottage and helped feed the animals. It was a really nice day, except poor Pipsqueak seemed upset he was missing Sweetie Belle's show.

I was right, apparently Sweetie Belle had trouble with the stuff Rarity had her wear and she stumbled and knocked over three racks of clothes. Rarity was on her case most of the week. She stayed with me for two days to get away from it. Sometimes Rarity can be so nice, but most of the time she makes me so mad. No wonder Sweetie Belle always feels so bad. Rarity gets on her case so much.

I tried to keep Sweetie Belle's mind off the event. We went with all of our friends and kind of took over the playground this weekend. We played games and passed the time, like a special recess with nopony but us. Sweetie Belle seemed happy, so I'm happy. Pipsqueak seemed happy she was happy, too.

Entry 168:

Featherweight and I are going to show Mom how my practice has been going. I'm not a lot better, but I can definitely stay in the air longer! I haven't learned to do any new tricks, but I'm getting pretty good at the ones I have learned! My wings just get tired so fast, still. It's harder to stay in the air than it looks!

Mom said she was really excited to see how well I was doing. She said if I kept up like this, I'd make it onto the Wonderbolts before she did. It was awful nice of her to say that, but I am more surprised she hasn't been accepted to the Wonderbolts, yet! What's it take to be on the team?

Mom told me I should try and learn some new tricks. Featherweight said he doesn't really know many tricks. He told her he never really wanted to be a trick flier. The only reason he knows how to do flips and rolls is because he thought they would be fun. He said rolls are sometimes nice when he's in a hurry and has to get through a busy area, but that since he just wanted to learn to fly fast and safe, he never really bothered learning tricks.

Who doesn't want to learn to do tricks? I thought every pegasus wanted to be on the Wonderbolts! I asked him why he didn't want to learn to fly like the Wonderbolts, he said he never wanted to be in the spotlight and he said that he believes he'd never be that good. I guess that makes sense. I don't know how he would be around big crowds of ponies. The thing is, I know, and I think he knows, too, that he could be an amazing flyer if he tried to learn some tricks. He's already very good.

This evening, Featherweight had a surprise party planned for me! I totally forgot it was my birthday! Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom had worked with Featherweight to make a photo album of our (failed) attempts to get our Cutie Marks. Featherweight said he really enjoyed looking back through the pictures and seeing how happy we all looked. It's a really sweet gift. I don't even remember doing all these things. We really need list somewhere. Pipsqueak got me a collection of souvenirs from Trottingham. He says his dad went back over recently to visit some family, and he figured it'd be a nice little gift. Ocean Breeze found some more things that Auntie Raincloud had left at the house when he helped cleared out the storage room recently. He gave it to me, telling me he figured I would really want anything I could find of my family. He also had a picture of Mama and Papa's grave covered in flowers. He said that his parents make sure that the grave looks nice so if I ever visit, it doesn't look lonely. I really appreciate it. It's very sweet.

Entry 169:

I got an A on my test! I've never had an A on any test, or really any assignment for that matter! I'm so excited! Miss Cheerilee said I did a wonderful job. She said she was proud that I did so well, and she hopes I keep paying attention so well.

Featherweight told me he was very happy for me. All my friends told me the same thing. I'm really happy. I never thought I would ever get an A on anything! Especially not a test!

Mom and Dad were both really happy, too! We went out to eat and celebrate. I got a daffodil sandwich and some strawberry pie. I need to do well on my assignments more often if it means every day will be like this!

Featherweight and I spent the evening on the couch, talking with Mom and Dad. Featherweight said he is very happy with how much happier I've been lately. He said he wishes I was always like this, because he can't stand it when I'm upset.

I have to say, I have been feeling pretty good lately. Featherweight was right. Just because something goes wrong doesn't always make everything my fault. I think Mama and Papa would be happy to see me like this. I know I enjoy not being so upset all the time.

Beware the Quiet Ones (♫)

Entries 170-182

Entry 170 :

Last night I talked to Mom and Dad about inviting Miss Cheerilee over for dinner. I hope she says yes, I think it would be really nice.

School today was pretty good. I didn't fall asleep at all. I still get bored, but I am trying harder to be a good student.

Miss Cheerilee is going to come to dinner! I'm pretty happy. I hope she has a good time.

Miss Cheerilee told Mom and Dad that I was a wonderful filly, that I was "passionate, brave and very loyal" and that she was "thrilled" that I was trying harder lately.

Mom and Dad told her that I talk about her a lot, and that I really respect her. I'm glad they said that, because I've been trying to tell her that for a long time.

I told Miss Cheerilee that she is a wonderful teacher, and that she really means a lot to me and my friends, especially Featherweight and me. She seemed really happy with what I told her.

She said she really cares for us, and she told me that what Featherweight and I have had to deal with is something most of our classmates won't have to deal with.

She said she hasn't really ever told me or Featherweight just how special we are for doing as well as we have, given what has happened. She said Apple Bloom has a similar struggle, but that she didn't have to experience it at an age where she understood what was going on.

I'm really happy Miss Cheerilee came over. I hope I was able to show her just how much I care about her. Without her help, I really don't think I would be where I am today.

I think it's very sweet of her to be so worried about Featherweight and me.

Entry 171:

I talked to Featherweight today about what Miss Cheerilee said about us. He said he always saw her kind of like a mother figure, and that hearing she said that was really special.

We spent the day practicing flying again. I'm getting pretty fast. I still don't know any new tricks. Maybe Mom will get a break tomorrow. She has had to move clouds every day this week!

Featherweight took me to the marketplace. We got some treats at Berry Punch's stand and then went to Mom's house. We saw Mom heading there, she just got off work. We hung out with her for a while, relaxing and looking at the view.

Mom said she could teach me to fly a bit tomorrow, but that there's an evening rainstorm she has to take care of. I guess a bit is better than nothing.

Dad bought me a strawberry pie today! It was so good! I shared a piece with Featherweight, and Mom and Dad both had a piece. It was a really nice evening.

Entry 172:

Mom taught me how to land in a gallop today. I stumbled and hurt my leg the first time I tried. I stumbled several times after that, but I eventually got it! It's not too easy. I mean, my hooves don't want to take to the ground at that speed.

I showed the trick to Featherweight, he was pretty excited. He said it was really cool, and that he wanted to learn to do it. Maybe I can actually teach him something!

That was really funny. Featherweight's long, gangly legs made his landing a lot more difficult, and some of his stumbling was silly looking. He had to aim his legs for the ground and level himself a lot more than I had to. He got it down after several tries, but he had to slow down after he landed correctly, because his legs were sore (both from running, and stumbling). He said he's okay. It was funny watching him the first few times, he kept running before he ever got close to the ground.

Featherweight pulled a leg muscle. He's laying on the couch right now. I hope he's alright. Now I feel bad for laughing at him.

I had to help Featherweight home. He said he'll be fine after a night's rest, but I had to help him stay off his front leg.

I guess I'm not a teacher. I thought I was doing pretty well, but Featherweight got hurt.

Entry 173:

Featherweight heard me talking about teaching him with Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle and cut me off. He said that it was silly for me to think that just because he got hurt means I'm not a good teacher. He told me I did very well at teaching. He said I was patient and I was encouraging.

I guess that makes sense. I mean I got hurt when learning from Mom, too. I guess that there are just risks in teaching tough things to people. I just have to remember that.

After class today, Featherweight and I went to Fluttershy's house to feed the animals. Shooting Star made us a snack and talked with us for a while. Fluttershy was helping Rarity with some dresses, so we have just been chatting with Shooting Star for a while.

Fluttershy just got home. She seemed really tired. She thanked us for feeding the animals and said she doesn't think she would've had the energy to take care of all the animals after trying on dress after dress.

Entry 174:

Writing is jittery, as if the writer was nervous. A few tear marks mar the page.

After school, Featherweight and I were downtown, and Diamond Tiara saw us. She, being her usual self, came up and made some stupid remark. I don't remember now. I made some remark back, and she kicked me in the nose.

She said if I didn't watch my mouth, I would end up having teeth like my "abandoned coltfriend." And then it happened: Featherweight actually got angry, like scary angry. He jumped on her and started stomping and kicking her. I yelled to get him to let her go. She was yelling for him to stop. So was I, and finally, Dad was called to the scene during work, and ended up having to break it up.

Dad had to use magic to pull Featherweight off of Diamond Tiara, and had to walk Featherweight home. He told me to go straight home, which I did. I'm waiting for him now.

Dad said I can't see Featherweight without him, Mom, or Miss Cheerilee keeping an eye on him. He said that ponies don't just start attacking other ponies like that. Dad said Featherweight is dangerous, and that "he showed that, today." It wasn't his fault! I explained what happened, and Dad said that even when something like that happens, ponies just don't do that only once.

He said every time he's encountered somepony that violent, he ends up running into them more than once.

Entry 175:

I can't focus on class today. I keep looking at Featherweight. He is unable to look at anypony, and he looks like he's ready to cry right in the middle of class. Diamond Tiara sat as far away from Featherweight as she could. I think he scared her.

I talked to Featherweight all recess. He said he's so mad at himself for losing control. He said that Diamond Tiara rubbed it in before they left, telling him that his parents left him because he was "nothing but trouble." I hate her. I don't hate anypony, but I hate her.

I kept an eye on her all recess, she kept looking over at Featherweight and then avoiding eye contact.

Featherweight kept making these weird faces, I finally realized he was trying to hide his teeth. He told me that everything Diamond Tiara said has really been bothering him. He said he's mad at himself for letting it get to him, for letting her win, but that he just can't ignore it this time for some reason.

After school, I really wanted to follow Featherweight home and cheer him up, but since Dad told me I had to be with somepony if I spent time with him, I just gave him a big hug and walked home. Alone.

I don't have anything to do, today. Sweetie Belle is with Pipsqueak, Apple Bloom is with Ocean Breeze, and I can't just go with either of them alone. I told my friends in class what happened yesterday, they said they were very sorry, and invited me to spend time with them, but I just can't.

Sweetie Belle told me that we and Apple Bloom should spend time, the three of us. She said we should try again on our cutie marks, that maybe that would cheer me up. I just don't feel like it at all, though.

Mom and Dad sat me down and told me that Mom had talked with Dad, and that Featherweight deserves another chance, but that he has to re-earn Dad's trust. We're still not allowed to spend time together without somepony there, but Dad said he was "a bit harsh" with what he said.

A bit? He basically told me that Featherweight, one of the sweetest ponies I know, a pony who has helped me become who I am today. I love Featherweight so much. Dad basically told me that he was bad and shouldn't be trusted. He told me that because of one mistake he made while he was very very upset.

Entry 176:

Page is dotted with tears.

Dad is working today, Mom has to move clouds around all day. I think I'm going to sneak over and spend time with Featherweight. I can't just sit here all day, and I can't be the third pony with my friends. I can't sit here all day, because every day I sit alone, I start to blame myself more and more for what happened. If I hadn't responded to Diamond Tiara, like Featherweight has told me over and over, he wouldn't have gotten upset.

I'm with Featherweight. I didn't tell him what Dad told me. I couldn't. If I did, he would have told me to go home. He wouldn't want me in trouble. He wanted to go downtown with me. I am really nervous and have been looking around the whole time. I hope Dad or Mom doesn't see us. Featherweight asked what was wrong, I lied and told him that I was just looking to see if I could find any of my friends. He said I looked worried. Of course I am.

Featherweight saved me. There was a wagon rolling downhill out of control. I froze when it came by. He knocked me out of the way and got hit. He's in the hospital right now. I had to bring him in. Dad ended up coming to the hospital when he heard what happened. He's very upset with me and told me to go straight home. I'm just sitting here thinking about what happened. This is all my fault. I should have gotten out of the way. I should have just stayed home. I should've told him what was going on and just went back home after telling him I loved him. I should've listened to Dad, but Featherweight was so upset. I couldn't just go away after seeing how upset he was, but look what I did this time! Featherweight is really hurt.

The whole time we were talking, even when he was worried about what was wrong with me, I could tell something was wrong with him. I finally asked him, he said he was so mad at himself for letting Diamond Tiara get to him. he told me that he felt like she was right. He said he feels like he should run away, because he's nothing but a problem for his dad. that's not true at all! His dad loves him so much. I should have just kept my mouth shut the other day. I should've stayed home. Why did I ever do all this to Featherweight? I should've just stayed out of his life.

Dad told me that I should not have been out. He told me that because I did what I wasn't supposed to do, he had to say that I couldn't go visit Featherweight in the hospital today. He told me to go to my room.

I can't stop crying. I can't stop blaming myself. I can't stop hating Diamond Tiara and myself. I can't stop worrying about Featherweight. I can't just go to sleep and wake up when things are even just a little bit better. Or wake up as somepony else.

Mom got home. She came and told me that I shouldn't have gone behind their backs, but that she would take me to see Featherweight tomorrow. She said that it takes a brave pony to risk getting hurt to save somepony else. She says that she is going to talk with Dad about what happened. She thinks that Featherweight is a good pony who made a mistake, like I was trying to tell them! At least somepony believes me. I hope everything works out.

Entry 177:

Mom said that Dad doesn't see Featherweight as a bad pony, he just is worried about him and me. She told me Dad is considering changing his mind, but that for now, since I lied, he is sticking to what he said.. He said I may be in trouble for a while for going behind his back.

Mom said he told her that ponies don't just do things like he did only once. She told me he's not really worried that he is bad, just that he could be dangerous when he gets upset. She told me Dad feels like if we got in a fight and it got too big, he could do something he would regret. Featherweight would go through Tartarus before he would do anything to me.

Mom told me she was surprised Featherweight agreed to spend time with me since I wasn't supposed to be with him without somepony else there. I told her that I never told him. I was almost crying. Again. She said she hadn't really known me to hide the truth from anypony. I said I don't lie to people I care about, but that I just wanted to spend time with him so much, that I couldn't help it. I didn't think it would hurt anypony. This is all my fault.

We're at the hospital, waiting to see Featherweight. apparently he broke his leg and twisted his wing. He has several other bruises, but he has to stay because of those things. I hate hospitals. I hate them so much.

Featherweight looks like his regular self. except that he's wrapped up and purple in a few places. He said he's pretty sore, but that he was glad he did what he did. I'm not. It should've been me. It should have been me wrapped in that bed, hating every second of being in the hospital. Or worse. This is all my fault.

Featherweight told me to cheer up, that everything that happened has happened and can't be changed. I told him I wasn't even supposed to be there yesterday. He was really upset. He said he shouldn't have been there, that I should have been at home. He told me he didn't want me in trouble.

He didn't want me in trouble?! I'm the reason he got hurt and he didn't want me in trouble? Sometimes he makes me so mad. Why won't he tell me what I'm thinking? Why won't he say I'm a bad pony who lies, who shouldn't be trusted, who puts her friends in danger so she can have what she wants?

I asked him why he won't just admit that I'm not a good pony. He told me to shush. He said that I am "a great pony" and that there's nopony else he would rather have jumped in front of that wagon for. He told me I am becoming the old upset me, but I just can't help it. This is all my fault!

Mom was also quite upset that I said what I said, she told me I was overreacting. Overreacting? I got my coltfriend hurt because I wanted to see him! This is my fault!

I gave him a light hug before we had to leave. I wanted to hug him tight and not let go, but I didn't want to hurt him. Worse. He told me to take really good notes this week, because he wouldn't be able to do it.

Entry 178:

Miss Cheerilee told me I have seemed very serious about school for the past couple of days. I told her I was making sure Featherweight had good notes. She said she was glad I was helping him, and that she wishes I would be this serious all the time.

She told me she's very sorry about what happened to Featherweight, and that she hopes everything goes okay. She made a card that everypony signed, and I was the last one to sign it. I'm glad I was, because I crossed out Diamond Tiara's "serves you right" comment. I stopped the class and told Miss Cheerilee what happened, she was not happy with Diamond Tiara.

At recess Diamond Tiara called me a snitch for saying what she wrote in the card. I told her to leave me alone, and she just kept picking. Miss Cheerilee saw her and sent her inside for recess. Miss Cheerilee came and talked with me, she said I shouldn't just sit under a tree all recess, that I would feel better if I went and spent time with the other ponies. I just don't feel like it. I even told Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle to "go away." I think I hurt Apple Bloom's feelings, but I just don't want to talk to anypony except Featherweight right now.

I'm going straight home and straight to bed. I don't want dinner. I just want to be left alone.

There are several pages, dotted with tears, of drawings of a scrawny pegasus with a gap in his teeth.

Entry 179:

Featherweight got out of the hospital and went straight to visit me. He flew here, since his leg is still wrapped. Mom was home, so I was able to spend time with him. I said in front of both him and Mom that I was very mad at Dad for not letting me go see him more.

He said he wasn't upset with my Dad at all. He said that Dad is just worried about me, and that Dad didn't want me lying to him. Featherweight said that if he had known what was going on, he would've sent me home, too. He didn't tell me it was my fault he was hurt, but that's what I thought when he told me that.

We stayed on the couch and talked for a long time. He hugged me tight and told me to stop blaming myself, that it wasn't my fault.

It's hard to think that when it definitely is my fault. He wouldn't have been there if I hadn't lied to him. It is my fault.

Mom gave us some money and told us to go spend the day together, that she would tell Dad what was going on. We all left, and she flew off into town.

We went to eat at a café, then headed up into the clouds. I just sat on the clouds next to him, leaning on him. I didn't say anything for a long time.

He asked me what was wrong, when I told him the same things I had been saying before, he told me to stop. He said I needed to let go of what happened and move on. He said I was doing so much better, but that ever since everything over the last couple of weeks happened, I've become my old self again.

He clung to me (with his good hoof) the rest of the time we were in the clouds. I cried for a while, but I eventually just rested there with him, trying to calm down. He told me to do what I needed to do to let go of all this anger with myself. The second he said that I wanted to go lock myself in my room and not talk to anypony. I wouldn't be angry if I didn't do anything. Then I wouldn't make any mistakes.

We headed back down to Dad's house, Dad was there. Featherweight sat me on the couch and started pacing around the room. Dad asked what was wrong, and Featherweight started to cry.

Featherweight told my Dad that I had been blaming myself for everything that happened, and that I wouldn't cheer up. He said he felt like what he did to Diamond Tiara had "trapped" me like this.

Both of them sat there and talked with me, they told me that I needed to stop doing this to myself. Dad told me he wasn't going to be mad at me forever. I just let him down by lying..

I made my coltfriend cry, and I let my Dad down. I really am a bad pony.

Entry 180:

Dad said I could visit Featherweight like normal again. He said he feels like I need somepony other than Mom and Dad to help me out. He said the way Featherweight dealt with me yesterday showed that he was worried enough about me, that he felt Featherweight was probably safe enough. Of course he's bucking safe enough.

I spent the whole day with Featherweight. We spent most of the day at the gazebo just laying there, talking. He kept telling me all these nice things he thought about me. He told me that without me, he would still be afraid to talk in class, and that he would probably be a pretty sad colt.

He told me that he wished I could see the filly he sees. He told me that I was very loving, that I was a very loyal friend, and that there's "nopony else in the world" he would want to be with.

I just sat there. I was afraid if I said anything I would start crying again. I'm tired of crying. I'm so tired of crying. My eyes and cheeks and jaw hurt. I finally ended up speaking my mind, and of course, I started. Some sort of tough filly I am.

I told him I wished he would find somepony else, because I was not this amazing pony he kept telling himself, and me, that I was. Then he told me to shut up. Like, he actually said "shut up" to me. He actually looked angry.

He said I needed to get over this, that I was not this terrible pony I kept saying I was. He said I was being ridiculous. He said he understood being upset with mistakes, but that they were just that, mistakes. He told me I needed to look at myself in a mirror and see the "beautiful, sweet, caring" pony that everypony else saw.

I just sat there. I had no idea what to say. Part of me was still surprised he told me to shut up.

He looked upset with me. He said he was "terrified" that I was going to be like this forever. He told me that he didn't want me to be upset like this all the time. He told me he knew what this felt like. He said he hated it, and hated seeing any of his friends, especially me, like this.

He said if I kept acting like this, he'd start treating himself like I treated myself, just to show me what it looked like. I can't have him acting like I do. I just can't. I know what it's like. I hate it.

This was all a mistake.

Entry 181:

The back of the previous page is covered in the words "It's okay." and "I love you." in familiar, but different hoofwriting.

I didn't go to school today. I ran off. I'm just sitting in a bush on the edge of the forest. I couldn't look at anypony today. I just don't want anypony to see me.

Miss Cheerilee apparently told Mom what happened, because Mom found me this morning. She draggedwalked me to school and talked with Miss Cheerilee for a long time.

At recess today, Featherweight came up to me, and asked me why I did what I did. I said I really didn't know. I just didn't want to see anypony. He sat beside me and cuddled up. He told me to relax.

He changed seats and sat beside me after recess. He scooted his desk right next to mine and kept writing "It's okay," on my diary. He got in trouble once, but Miss Cheerilee turned back around and let him continue.

After class Miss Cheerilee pulled me aside, Featherweight stayed and waited. Miss Cheerilee asked me if I was okay. Every time I said I was fine, she told me I needed to be honest, because Mom, Dad, she, and Featherweight are all worried. I bet Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle are, too. I hate worrying everypony, but I just can't stop feeling like this! Do they all think I like this?

I finally told her I am just really upset with myself for getting Featherweight hurt, and for getting him in trouble. She told me the same thing Featherweight told me. She said that "everything that happened was just a mistake," and that I needed to stop treating myself like a rotten apple.

Featherweight came and talked with Miss Cheerilee and me. He told her that he'd been telling me the same things, and they both tried to cheer me up. I guess I smiled at some point, because Featherweight said he had never been happier to see somepony smile.

Maybe they're right. Maybe I'm taking this way too far. it was just a mistake.

Just another mistake.

Entry 182:

Featherweight and I are spending the day with Sweetie Belle, Pipsqueak, Apple Bloom, and Ocean Breeze. Featherweight was the one who got everypony together. He told me he had an idea.

We all spent the day at the clubhouse talking. Featherweight stood up after a little while and asked everypony what they thought of me. He said it was easy to tell that I was still upset, and that he felt like hearing some nice words from my friends may help me out.

Everypony kept telling me how 'great' I was. They all told me that they wouldn't be the same without me as their friend. I wasn't sure if it was for good or not, that they would be different.

Finally Featherweight came up and told me to stop ignoring everypony and to listen. He actually kind of shook me. Everypony told me that they wanted to see me happy again. Sweetie Belle told me that she had been worried about me a lot lately. She said she was upset that I didn't want to spend time with her or anypony else.

Apple Bloom said she was really sad that the pony who stood up for her, back before I even knew her, was treating herself like this. She told me she looked up to me, because I used to be so confident at recess. Whenever anypony would pick on us, I was the one who would stand up to them. She told me that she was very unhappy I was like this.

Everypony must be right. It's not just one or two ponies. Maybe I am just overreacting. It was just a mistake, right? Featherweight gave me a hug and said that he forgives me, if that's what I need. He said he was never upset with me in the first place, but that he knows sometimes when he messes up, he wishes the other person would forgive him, so he figured it was worth a try.

I did feel better. I felt a lot better, really. After everypony sat with me and told me they liked it when I was happy, I felt even better. I like being happy, too. I just don't always feel happy. I sometimes don't even feel like feeling happy. I'll try to treat myself better. I'll try, at least.

This afternoon was much better. Featherweight got me to try and fly for a bit. We ended up chasing each other around in the air while our friends watched. Featherweight is such a great pony. I really am glad he loves me enough to stick with me when I'm acting like I was. He told me if he can get hit by a wagon for me, he can definitely be there for me when I'm sad. Very funny.

I told him now probably wasn't the best time for that joke. But I did laugh. He told me that now was the perfect time for that joke, and gave me a big hug.

The rest of the evening the six of us stayed in the clubhouse planning Apple Bloom's, Sweetie Belle's. and my next thing to try to get our cutie marks. We're going to try dodge ball. It's a fun game, and at worst someone gets bonked with a ball, right?

I Hope I Make You Proud (♫)

Entries 183-192

Entry 183:

I bopped Featherweight out of the air and into a tree. He's okay, but I was worried for a bit. We're not professional dodge ball ponies. Other than my one hit, I didn't do so well. One of Apple Bloom's tosses bounced off the barn and popped on Sweetie Belle's horn. We were all on the same team.

Sewing is not our thing. Sweetie Belle had to calm Rarity down after I almost broke her good sewing machine... Apple Bloom did alright, but she said she doesn't really enjoy it. She said you work and work and nopony even notices how much work it was. She said she really respects Rarity's work, now, though. Sweetie Belle didn't get a chance to try sewing for her cutie mark. Rarity told us to leave.

Featherweight came to visit us and ask how we were. Not so good, but not bad. We're used to doing things only to find out we didn't get our cutie marks. It's still disappointing, but nothing new.

Sweetie Belle went to visit Pipsqueak, so Apple Bloom, Featherweight and I passed time in the clubhouse. We played some games and eventually went to see what Applejack was up to. She had just finished harvesting and was taking a break to do some tricks with a lasso. She's so good at that. I remember last time I tried that. I have no clue how she can do all those tricks. It almost makes me dizzy just watching.

Ocean Breeze came and hung out with us for a while. He just got back from visiting his parents this afternoon. He gave Apple Bloom a bouquet and gave me a rose, saying Miss Golden Posy asked him to bring it to me. She's a sweet pony. I should go visit her. I told Featherweight and he said that if it was alright with my parents, he would go with me next weekend.

Mom and Dad said that that was fine, we're going to Port Mane next weekend. I haven't seen Miss Golden Posy in a while, now.

Mom said she'd go with us, but Saturday is a rain day. Dad doesn't have Saturday off, so it'll be just us.

Entry 184:

I've been doing better in school, lately! I'm really happy, and now that I'm trying harder, I haven't been nearly as bored. There are definitely still days, though. Miss Cheerilee said she's happy to see my grades have gotten better, though!

Diamond Tiara has finally gone back to being a bratty, mean filly once more. She said something to Featherweight about me wanting to leave him and him being completely alone. I wouldn't leave him if somepony tried to pry me away. However, now Featherweight has this thought that he wants to meet his actual parents after she mentioned him being abandoned again...

Why would he ever want to meet them? After what they did, I wouldn't ever want them to see me. They don't deserve to see what a great colt he's become. How would he find them anyway? He said he knows it'll never happen, but he's just curious. I guess that makes sense, but still.

I spent most of the afternoon with Featherweight. We just talked a lot about school and our friends and families. He seemed a bit distracted, but I guess I was, too. I kept wondering how I would be if I didn't ever know my parents... It is just one of those things I guess I'll never be able to understand. It'd probably be very frustrating... Not knowing your own parents?

Maybe his parents were on his mind, too. After a while we headed to his house, and one of the first things he asked his dad when we got to his house (after the regular "how was your day" things he always asks his dad,) was if he knew anything at all about his parents. His dad said he never saw them, he only saw a small colt in a ratty blanket sitting beside his booth unattended the whole time he was selling photos. He said that once he realized nopony was coming to claim the small child, he figured he had a duty to care for little Featherweight.

How sweet and generous. He wasn't a foster pony, he just took this little colt in and raised him on his own. His father is the kind of father Featherweight really deserves. As far as I'm concerned (I mean, but who am I?) Shutter Speed is the only father Featherweight needs. I do understand his curiosity, though...

Entry 185:

The page is lightly dotted with tear stains.

Featherweight has put aside thoughts about his parents, and has gone back to his old self. We flew around in the clouds for a while after school. Tomorrow we go to Port Mane. I think I'm going to get Miss Cheerilee one of Miss Golden Posey's bouquets for her desk. Miss Golden Posey makes beautiful bouquets. It's her special talent. [Drawing of Golden Posey's cutie mark: a rose and two tulips whose stems converge at the bases.]

We're in Port Mane. I remember the smell of the water in the breeze. I've never really mentioned it, but I love the smell. We just passed my old house and are taking a break in the park to rest after a long walk. There are a couple of families here playing with their little foals. It's cute, but it makes me miss my parents more than usual...

We're visiting Miss Golden Posey at the end, so the flowers won't wilt on the way home. We're traveling through the parts of town I remember. We're visiting the docks, right now. There's big boats with EFC on the side. These must be the shipping boats for Ocean Breeze's parents' company. They have lots of big boxes on them.

Maple Woods saw us at the docks and came and visited with us. He let us go on a tour of the boat he was helping load. I've never been on a boat like this. When I was little I went on a ferry ride, but it was a much smaller boat than this. There are hundreds, maybe thousands of boxes of furniture, furniture pieces, and advertising materials on this boat. It's huge! We talked for a while with Maple Woods after he finished loading the ship. He invited us to my old house for lunch. Sandy Shores was happy to see us, and asked us how we were. They're so nice.

I got a bit choked up, again when I smelled the lavender in the kitchen. Featherweight asked what was wrong. I told him nothing, because it wasn't really a big deal, just a weak moment. Lunch was wonderful! I had a daffodil sandwich with some grapes and a slice of strawberry pie. We spent a while talking to Ocean Breeze's parents. They're really nice ponies.

They asked how Ocean Breeze was doing. We told him he still hasn't quite figured out how to manage his money very well, but that he's a very kind pony who means well. They said they weren't surprised he hasn't figured out the value of money, yet. They said he pretty much got whatever he wanted when he was young. After a bit of conversation we left. We had other stops to make before going to visit Miss Golden Posey.

We went to the cemetery to see my parents' and my aunt's graves. I got a bit teary-eyed and Featherweight cuddled up to me to try and cheer me up. I wish my parents and my aunt could have met my coltfriend. He's just as kind and loving and caring and sweet as they were. I think they would have loved them just as much as I do. We spent a while sitting by their graves, under the shade of an oak tree. We finally left after about a half hour of me talking like a crazy pony to my parents' and aunt's graves. I probably looked ridiculous, but I just wish I could talk to them again...

After talking about my parents for a while with Featherweight, he brought up his parents again. I don't know how to help him. There's no way to find them. I can only imagine how hard it is not to know...

We finally made it to meet Miss Golden Posey. She gave me a big hug and asked how I was, and told me I was growing into a beautiful young filly. It was sweet of her. We talked for a while, until she had to close down the store. She invited us to come visit her any time. I tried to buy a couple bouquets, but she insisted I take them, free of charge. They must have taken such a long time to pick, arrange, and care for. I didn't know what to say. She gave me a big hug before we left, and showed us where her house was, so we can visit her when she isn't working.

We made it back to town just in time to catch Miss Cheerilee leaving the schoolhouse. She was cleaning up for Monday. I gave her her bouquet. She said it was absolutely beautiful. I agree, it really was a very pretty bouquet. I'll have to write Miss Golden Posey a thank you letter.

Featherweight and I spent the evening with Mom and Dad at Dad's house. Dad got a vase and filled it with water for the other bouquet I got, and put it on the table. I really like the celosia. It's so bright and pretty.

I walked Featherweight home this evening. I didn't want him to leave. Today was so wonderful, even if I was a bit sad at times. It was a good sad. He told me that we could go see Port Mane again sometime if I wanted. I would love that.

The following page is a sketch of Featherweight drawn inside a heart.

Entry 186:

Today at school, Miss Cheerilee has the bouquet I got her on her desk. I felt kind of special. I tried to take really good notes. I'm really trying a lot harder at school most days. Time passes quicker at school when I'm doing something.

I'm out on the playground with my friends. We're just relaxing under a tree right now. Everyone is still Monday-sleepy. It's like none of us slept well last night. Miss Cheerilee came over and joked that maybe we should have Monday nap time. We all thought it was a good idea. She kind of blushed and changed the subject. I thought it was pretty funny. I don't think she was expecting that!

She told us if we got up and moved around we'd wake up easier, so we played a couple games and got to moving around. She was right. I felt a lot better after moving around.

After school, I went with Apple Bloom to help Applejack harvest. I haven't really visited with Applejack in a while, and she is so important to me. I figured I could help with the harvest to show her I cared. She was really excited to see me. We talked and picked (or bucked, in their case) apples.

The farm has been doing well this last month, apparently everyone is just hungry for apples lately. That's good. The Apple family works hard. They deserve the success.

We played some of the apple basket game. We use the bruised apples and we try and toss them into an empty basket from different distances. Sometimes I placed the basket in the trees to add an extra challenge. It was a lot of fun. Applejack is very, very good at the apple basket game. I really enjoyed spending the afternoon with Applejack and Apple Bloom.

Entry 187:

This morning was scary. There was a storm scheduled for the day, but it started to lightning before it was rainy, and Ocean Breeze's house got struck by lightning! Everypony is okay, but there was a fire. Ocean Breeze stayed with the Apple family while Miss Cherry Tart went to Port Mane to tell Ocean Breeze's parents what happened. Ocean Breeze is really freaked out. I would be!

Featherweight and I went to spend time with Ocean Breeze and Apple Bloom. Sweetie Belle, Pipsqueak, Dinky, and Twist were all already there. We just talked with him to keep him calm. He was so worried about how much it would cost to replace the damages. He said he knows they can afford it, but that it's money wasted. He's really upset. I totally understand him being upset, but at least everypony is okay, right?

We finally got Ocean Breeze to relax a bit. He's still worried, but things will work out. We all offered to help fix up the place. He said that we were wonderful friends.

Cherry Tart, Maple Woods, and Sandy Shores are all in town. Maple Woods said that all the money in the world is nothing compared to Ocean Breeze's safety, and that they're just happy everypony is alright. Sandy Shores took Ocean Breeze on a walk to try and calm him down more. Maple Woods went with the rest of us to look at the house. The second floor is pretty badly burned. He said it's no big deal, that he can get it all fixed up this month. He said that Ocean Breeze would have to come back to Port Mane, though. Apple Bloom was pretty upset. Featherweight left after that. I wonder where he is.

We all walked around the inside of the house to see what all happened. Maple woods said it seemed like the fire was stopped before it got downstairs. That's good. We went upstairs to see how it looked. It didn't look good. Maple Woods picked up a bit of cloth and suddenly seemed a bit worried. He explained it was a gift from Ocean Breeze's grandma to Ocean Breeze as a baby, a baby blanket. He took it with him, and explained that she passed a way a couple years ago. I'll have to remember to grab my scooter, locket and snowglobe if anything ever happens. I don't want to lose them!

Featherweight met up with us again just as we were leaving what was left of the house. He said that his dad told him they could set up the spare rooms and Ocean Breeze and Cherry Tart could stay with them until the house got taken care of. Apple Bloom was very excited. Ocean Breeze seemed a bit upset and said they didn't have to do that for him, but Featherweight insisted.

How sweet of him. He always surprises me with how nice he is. He left the moment he heard they might not have a place in town to stay just to see if he could help them out.

Ocean Breeze is pretty upset about losing most of his grandma's blanket, but he said he wants to keep what's left. It's special to him. I totally understand. I wish somepony could have saved it from the fire... It's really too bad.

Entry 188:

It's kind of weird seeing Ocean Breeze when I go to visit Featherweight. There's nothing wrong with it, but it's kind of weird being all cuddly with Featherweight when there's one other pony there. I've gotten to talk with Ocean Breeze more often, though. He's still somewhat shaken, but he's not like he was.

I see several ponies working on Ocean Breeze's house. They're working pretty quick. They already have the frame all rebuilt. Cherry Tart has been helping plan the rebuild. She is a pretty talented handypony. She has been working hooves-on with the construction team. She seems pretty good at everything she does. She said it comes with being a lifetime foalsitter. She said you learn to do a lot of different things.

Ocean Breeze went to help out. He said he knows how to work with wood, so he figures he might as well help out, too, leaving after saying "It is my house..." He may still be upset, but he's handling the situation better than I would have.

Featherweight and I went to see if they needed anything. We brought them some lemonade and some snacks (Berry Punch gave us some treats for free for them. She said it was just awful what happened.) Everypony thanked us and said they didn't need any help. Mom was helping work on the walls. She said she feels bad that her weather did this to somepony in town. It wasn't really her fault, but I guess I can understand. It's nice of her either way. Dad was also helping haul wood and rock and stuff to the house after he got off work.

Apple Bloom has been at Ocean Breeze's old house helping move tools and things all day. She is still very upset this happened to her coltfriend's house. I think we're all still upset. That's nature, though.

Entry 189:

Diamond Tiara really played up the fake concern today. She was hanging all over Ocean Breeze. I sympathize with how uncomfortable he looked. She said Rainbow Dash was worthless for not making sure it rained before lightning struck. Ocean Breeze got upset and said it wasn't the pegasi's fault. I'm glad he said something, because I would've if he hadn't.

Once she found out her act wasn't working, she turned into the bratty Diamond Tiara we all know and hate on the playground. She said if he was going to treat her like that then it served him right that his house burned down. I wanted to knock that smirk off her face, but we had to go inside. Silver Spoon even backed away after she said that, I think she was embarrassed. I was angry all afternoon, and she didn't even say anything to me!

I caught up with Ocean Breeze after school and asked if he was alright. He said he was upset, but that he would get over it. I told him that it was Diamond Tiara being Diamond Tiara. He said he knows, and that what he still meant what said before: she'll be all alone when she gets older.

Ocean Breeze spent the afternoon with Apple Bloom. Pipsqueak, Sweetie Belle, Featherweight and I went with Cherry Tart to help pick out paint. We got Ocean Breeze's favorite green for the walls in his room. His room is almost finished, so we're going to help paint it this week. The building crew has worked really fast on the house, and they've done a really nice job. I guess that when you have twenty carpenter ponies working on a house, it gets done pretty quick.

Entry 190:

We helped paint Ocean Breeze's room today! We all signed our names in paint. Painting the room was fun! Cherry Tart took Ocean Breeze downtown, so he doesn't know his room is being painted. It's going to be a cool surprise! Sweetie Belle's back is all green after I accidentally dropped my paintbrush. She looks really funny!

None of us got our cutie marks in painting, but at least we had a lot of fun! The room looks great! The moving ponies are bringing in his furniture and then we're going to close the door and surprise him this evening! It's going to be so fun!

Ocean Breeze was so happy with the room! He said we did a "fantastic job" and that we were "the best friends a pony could have!" His new room looks so nice. I never actually saw his old room, but his new one looks great! He almost cried when he saw that we had made a special shadow box for what was left of his grandma's blanket. Miss Cherry Tart gave us a picture of him and his grandma to use as the background. He said it was a wonderful gift.

The house should be done by next week. Mom and some of the carpenter pegasi are already working on the roof. It looks good as new from the outside (except that it hasn't been painted yet.) The inside walls are almost done, and the ceilings aren't all finished yet, and the windows aren't in in some of the rooms, either, but it's almost done!

Entry 191:

Ocean Breeze invited us to his house after school. He showed us how it looked, now that it was all finished. He thanked Featherweight and said it was very generous of him to offer to take in him and Cherry Tart. He said if he ever needed anything, just to ask.

He also thanked all of us for helping with the house, and said that his room looked great, and he loved the gift. His parents are coming to town this weekend to see the house.

Featherweight and I spent the evening in the clouds, now that all the work is finished on the house. We relaxed and watched the view as the sun set and the lights came on across town. Ponyville looks beautiful at night.

We headed to my house after it got dark, and talked with Mom and Dad. Mom says she's happy the house is done, but she's still embarrassed that lightning caused a fire on her schedule. It's not like it was her fault!

Entry 192:

Tucked into the page is a picture of Scootaloo and Rainbow Dash flying side by side, and another picture of Scootaloo upside down in a cartwheel position in the air.

This morning, Maple Woods came and thanked Mom, Dad and me for helping get the house back into living shape. Sandy Shores gave us a strawberry cheesecake. She told me that she made the strawberry cheesecake specially for me, since I like strawberries so much.

After I got up and moving around, I went to spend time with Featherweight. I got there just before Ocean Breeze and his parents came to visit. They thanked Shutter Speed for housing their son and foalsitter for the last couple of weeks. They offered to pay him for his troubles, but he refused. They brought him a couple pies and a cake, as well.

We spent the afternoon just goofing around. After a couple hours we went to visit Fluttershy and Shooting Star. We fed the chickens and rabbits and talked with them for a while. Fluttershy said she was really worried about Ocean Breeze and Cherry Tart, but said she wasn't really the type of pony who could be too helpful rebuilding a house. She said she did bring the workers some food, and she helped repaint the outside walls.

Shooting Star just got back to town. He found out last night what happened. He said he was very happy everypony was okay. We spent a while outside drinking tea and talking about what happened. It really has been quite a busy couple of weeks. I really hope nothing like this happens again, it was really scary.

I spent the afternoon practicing flying tricks with mom. Featherweight watched and took pictures. I did a cartwheel! I was so excited! I haven't learned any new tricks in a while, but I did this on my second try!

I can't wait for school tomorrow! I'm going to show my friends my new trick. I practiced it several times after I did it!

Who Am I? (♫)

Entries 193-199

Entry 193:

A picture of Scootaloo carrying a terrified Diamond Tiara in the air, and a picture of Diamond Tiara alone in the air with her legs blurred, as if she was flailing around are both tucked into this page.

That was so fun! Everypony thought my new trick was so cool! Well, everypony except Diamond Tiara, as usual. I think it really annoyed her that I didn't pay attention to what she said. I was too busy talking with my friends to listen to her rude remarks. I'd like to see her try.

Hahaha! Featherweight agreed to help me mess with Diamond Tiara. I picked her up and flew her up into the air and told her to try my tricks if she thought they were so easy. She looked so funny spiraling and flailing her legs around! Featherweight caught her before she hit the ground and set her down safely. I'm only kind of happy about that. After all, if she'd gotten hurt, I could've gotten in trouble.

Diamond Tiara, of course, took the whole thing as a chance to say we were the two most useless ponies in Equestria, and she said she wishes we would both just disappear forever. She ranted on about how we're perfect for each other because neither of our parents wanted us, and we would both never be worth the ground she walked on. It hurt a bit, but we were both too busy laughing at the whole thing. Featherweight even got a photo before he caught her.

Mom found out about what happened, and she said I shouldn't be making things worse with Diamond Tiara, but it was hard to take her seriously, since she kept laughing. She said if Diamond Tiara had been hurt, I could have been in big trouble. However, she had the goofiest grin on her face.

I showed Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom the photos Featherweight took, they thought it was so funny! We put a copy of the picture of her flailing around on a shelf in the clubhouse.

Entry 194:

Featherweight went out of town with his dad this weekend, so I've been spending time with Fluttershy and Shooting Star, today. I talked to them a lot about Featherweight, and eventually asked how the two of them met.

Shooting Star had just moved to town, and he bumped into her at a café near Rarity's. He had just bought breakfast when he saw her leaving the Carousel Boutique. He went up to talk to her because she looked nervous, so he thought she might be new to town.

According to Shooting Star, "she didn't really say anything for a while, except these funny squeaks," so he felt like he was just upsetting her and began to walk away.

Rarity saw Fluttershy was still outside, and asked her who he was. Fluttershy said she didn't know, and so Rarity called him back over. Shooting Star came back over to talk to the two of them, and Rarity talked for Fluttershy, basically.

Shooting Star explained to Rarity that he figured she might be new to town based on how shy she was. Rarity told him that she had lived in this town for years, that she was just really shy. Shooting Star told Rarity he thought that was cute, and invited Fluttershy out for coffee. Rarity said yes for her, since she still wasn't talking.

"After a couple of awkward meetings, mainly staring," she began to talk, a bit. Shooting Star said he learned that she worked with animals, and was very excited, since he had worked a couple of years, helping a veterinarian friend of his. Once he told her that, she began to be (a bit) more comfortable talking to him.

The whole time Shooting Star was telling the story, Fluttershy was bright red. Shooting Star didn't help matters when he said that she's adorable when she blushes.

Fluttershy told her side of the story, too. Most of it was the same, except that she said she only went to see him again because Rarity encouraged her. For some reason, when I hear this, I think of Rarity pushing Fluttershy across town. It's a funny picture.

A drawing of Rarity pushing a freaked out, stiff as a board Fluttershy takes up most of the rest of the page.

We spent the rest of the evening caring for the animals and just talking. Now I wonder how Mom met Dad.

Entry 195:

Mom and Dad are both off today, so I asked how they met. Mom says she saw this new pony in town, hauling his stuff into a house. She didn't think much of it, until she saw his signed picture of him with the Wonderbolts. She asked him about it and he explained he had seen and met them a couple of times.

She helped him move in, and they talked for a while. She asked him if he wanted to go eat somewhere, and he agreed. They talked for a while, and Mom challenged him to a race. He agreed, and "lost miserably," (according to Mom) but she said he was "the fastest unicorn" she'd ever raced.

Dad asked if she wanted to meet again sometime, and they started spending more and more time together. Eventually Mom decided to take me in, and asked Dad if he would help take care of me if she adopted me, saying that I was going to be with he a lot if she did.

Apparently Mom and Dad had talked about my situation before, and they both felt concerned. Dad offered to take me in, since I couldn't really fly up to her house at the time, and asked if she wanted to move in.

She said she didn't want to get rid of her house, but that she would consider it, and after a couple of days, she moved in some of her stuff and started living in his house part of the time.

I really am thankful they took me in, even today. I may take it for granted, sometimes, but I can't imagine how life would have been if they hadn't. Fluttershy is nice, and all, but I would have never learned to fly like I have, and I probably would have gone crazy with how quiet it is. It's okay to visit from time to time, but every day it's awful.

Entry 196:

Featherweight brought me a patch for my saddlebag from Starshine's Peak. His dad took him to the town where he found Featherweight. Featherweight seemed a bit upset. I'm guessing he didn't find anything new out.

I was right, at recess I asked him what was wrong, he said he traveled all the way to where Shutter Speed found him and learned nothing new about his parents. I keep thinking he's past this, but I guess not. Like I said before, I don't know how I would be in the same situation, so I guess I understand...

I took Featherweight out to Sugarcube Corner and got us both a treat. I talked with him for a while to try and cheer him up, but he never was back to his usual self. He said he felt let down, even though he wasn't expecting much.

We went to Mom's house and watched the clouds for a while. He didn't talk much. I'm a bit concerned. He said he'll get over it in time, but that he just needs time to think. It worries me, though.

I gave Featherweight a big hug and told him things would be okay either way, and he smiled, finally. I wish he would let go of this. His parents probably wouldn't recognize him if they saw him, and since he doesn't know anything about them, either, what's the point? I mean, I understand him wanting to know, but where can he even start if everything he's done hasn't worked?

Entry 197:

Featherweight came to Dad's house, crying, after school. He said he was talking with Pipsqueak when Diamond Tiara overheard him talking about wanting to find his parents. She told him that even if he did find them, they wouldn't want anything to do with him. She said if they abandoned him in the first place, they would never want to know him.

He was very upset. I wanted to find her and drop her from the sky again, but this time without anypony to catch her. What a pile of rotten apples. She's such a terrible filly.

It took everything I had to help cheer up Featherweight. Mom and Dad even had to help. He was just so quiet and wouldn't talk much, at all. I've been cuddled up to him all afternoon. We all kept telling him that he would be okay, and that he had a very loving dad who would do anything for him.

By the time I brought him home, he was feeling a bit better, but he was still quite upset. I talked to his dad after he went inside and told him what happened. He's not happy, and he's quite worried.

Entry 198:

Page is lightly dotted with tears.

I spent the day watching Featherweight. I didn't hear anything Miss Cheerilee said. He's still staring a lot, and not himself. I just don't know what to do! I feel so worthless. I can't even cheer up my coltfriend.

At recess he told me he wants to find his parents, but doesn't know what to do. I told him if he ran off, I don't know if I could take it. He said he wouldn't ever leave. He said first off, he doesn't know where he'd go, second, Diamond Tiara was probably right, and third, he couldn't do that to his dad or me or any of his friends.

I'm glad he is still reasonable, even if he's upset... but I am angry that he said Diamond Tiara is probably right for two reasons, she doesn't know what in Tartarus she's talking about, and even him just saying she's right about anything makes me angry. She's not worth the dirt he walks on.

Featherweight said he was very upset just before recess, because he saw me trying not to cry. He said he felt so guilty. I wanted to tell him it wasn't about him, but nopony would've believed me. I told him I just hated seeing him so upset, and that I hoped he would feel better, soon.

Cherry Tart is taking Ocean Breeze, Apple Bloom, Sweetie Belle, Featherweight, Pipsqueak and me to Port Mane this weekend. We're going to go on a ride in Ocean Breeze's parents' boat. Maybe we can cheer Featherweight up, then.

Entry 199:

We just made it to Port Mane, Featherweight is already a bit happier than he was this week at school. We spent most of the walk talking about how annoying Diamond Tiara was. It's always funny when Ocean Breeze speaks his mind, because he just says, he doesn't care. He said she was about as useful as the junk left over in the fireplace. Then he began talking about how much he hates cleaning the fireplace. It must be a new chore Cherry Tart has given him, because she began to laugh.

I really like riding on boats. It's so relaxing. Apple Bloom isn't having so much fun, though. She's a bit sick. I think she's seasick. She's trying to make the best of it, though. Cherry Tart gave her some tea that she said "clears seasickness right up" and now she's better than she was.

Featherweight keeps looking off into the water. I haven't really left his side all day. He brought up how much being called "abandoned" upsets him, and I want him to know that he has somepony who cares about him. I can't imagine how he feels...

I took everypony to visit Miss Golden Posey while we were in town. She gave everypony a daffodil to snack on from her collection of stems she cut too short. We got to see the flower gardens, and we all tried making bouquets. I'm definitely not very good. I probably did better when I was little. Miss Golden Posey said they were beautiful bouquets. She must have just been trying to be nice, because I knocked half the petals off the flowers I put together.

Featherweight took me to visit my parents and Auntie Raincloud's graves. He seemed upset the whole time. I am pretty sure I know why. I told him we didn't have to be here, if it was going to make him upset. He told me that it was important for me to get to remember my parents. I gave him a hug and told him that we should get back to the group. I don't want him to keep thinking about his parents right now. I want him to be back like he has been. He told me it will pass in time, but it's not passing fast enough. I hate to see him like this!

I talked with Featherweight and his dad about how he's been lately. I told him he's really worrying me. His dad told him he needs to try and cheer up, because no matter what, he loves "that little colt" he's "known since he couldn't even walk." Featherweight began to cry, which made me cry. I hugged him tight and told him I loved him, and that I wanted him to feel better, soon.

We finally got him calmed down, and he started to return back to the good old Featherweight. We just kept reminding him that he had people here who loved him, and not to worry about what Diamond Tiara said.

I've never been happier to see somepony smile. Just before I left, I showed him his picture of Diamond Tiara falling, and I got him to laugh, it was one of the best sounds I've heard in a long time. It was one of the best feelings I've felt in a long time.

I told Mom and Dad about Featherweight and they said just to keep reminding him he's not alone. I won't stop until he's feeling better. I know how it feels to be alone, and I don't want anypony (well, except maybe Diamond Tiara) to feel like that...

Learning To Fly (♫)

Entries 200-207

Entry 200:

This is the most frustrating choice I've ever had. Mom, a couple of weeks ago, sent some pictures and a recommendation for me to go to Flight Camp. I got invited, it's next week... I don't want to leave Featherweight alone, he's still not his normal self.

I talked with Mom and Dad, and they said the decision is up to me. Mom said even being invited is something to be proud of. I definitely agree, I'm very proud of the invitation, but I can't leave Featherweight. Mom says it's up to me, and that she wouldn't be hurt if I decided not to go. She said she understands why I'm having trouble. I could really learn a lot, and I'd love to go.

I talked to Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom, and they both said I should go. They said that they would be able to be there for Featherweight, and that this is a once in a lifetime opportunity. They're right, people don't really get a second chance to go. I just don't know.

Featherweight overheard me talking to Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom. we tried to pretend we were talking about something else, but he had already heard too much. I didn't want him to know, because if I didn't go, I didn't want him to feel guilty. And if I did go, I would have told him before I left...

He told me I had to go. He said that he would be fine. He said nothing was wrong. He looked so hurt. I asked him why, he said he was upset because he didn't think it was anything to lie to him about, and nothing worth hiding. He said it's a very special opportunity.

I just don't know. He said that I had to go. He said it was a waste if I didn't. He is not a waste, but what do I do?

Now that Featherweight knows about it. I think I have to go. I think he'd feel so guilty if I didn't. He knows how special it is to be invited. This is Spitfire's Flight Camp at Cloudsdale, the biggest flight camp in the region. Possibly in Equestria.

Entry 201:

I've decided to go to Flight Camp, but I'm still really worried it's the wrong decision. What if something happens? What if Featherweight does what I always do and runs off? What if Diamond Tiara runs her mouth and something happens? I really hope he'll be okay. I told him I would write him every day, he said he would do the same. I told him I love him. I told him he's one of the most important ponies in the world to me. I said I didn't want to go, but when I did, he cut me off and told me to go. I hope he'll be okay. he's still definitely not the Featherweight I've known for these past few months.

Mom is taking me to Cloudsdale this afternoon. She says I'll have a great time. I hope so. but I'm more worried about how Featherweight is going to be. I haven't stopped thinking about him since he told me to go. I hope nothing happens.

I just got checked into my room. I'm roommates with a filly from Canterlot named Blazemane. She's small, but she's really fast. She said she's from a family of race pegasi. Her father won Best Young Flier and the Canterlot Derby Youth Division the same year when he was a colt. What am I doing here? I should be back at home with Featherweight, making sure he's okay, with my friends, with people who aren't going to think my flying is ridiculous. I'm going to make a mule of myself, and Featherweight is home alone.

Blazemane assured me she has no desire to make fun of anypony. She said she's here to learn from the best, and let her skill speak for itself. She said ponies who put down other ponies don't have anything to show for it but words. I guess that's encouraging? I'm still nervous. I hope Featherweight is okay.

I wrote to Featherweight and told him everything is okay. I told him I loved him, and I'd be back in a couple of weeks. I really hope he's alright. I'm worrying myself sick. I almost fell out of the clouds on the way to the opening ceremony.

Entry 202:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

I'm fine, please stop worrying... Just because I have a lot on my mind doesn't mean it's the end of the world. I'm okay. You need to enjoy this very special moment. I'm proud of you! We all are! Now go out there and be the best flier you can! If something happens, don't get upset, just dust off and move on. You'll be back in no time. Make the best of this while it lasts!

Love, Featherweight"

Blazemane and I talked about our friends most of the morning, the first flight lessons are this afternoon. This morning we're supposed to get to know our roommates, become friends. Blazemane is nice once you get past her intimidating outside. She said she thought it was "adorable" that I was so concerned for my coltfriend. She said she wishes she had a coltfriend, but that a lot of the ponies in her neighborhood are really stuck up and worried about knowing the right ponies or having all the most important awards. She said she hopes she's as good as her dad, but isn't going to tear her mane out if she's not perfect. She said "After all, the competitions are the best of the best," and that if she even makes it in she's "earned something special."

She said she thought it was interesting that I didn't have a cutie mark, but I made it to Flight Camp. She said she didn't see anypony else without a cutie mark. why did she have to remind me? And I'm not cute! I'm tough and cool, not cute!

So Diamond Tiara isn't the only pony in Equestria so full of herself. A pony named Thunderbolt thinks he's the coolest pony in Equestria. He said he's not here to learn, but to show the other ponies how amazing he is.

I learned my flight form is awful. I put my front hooves out in a way that slows me down, and my back hooves don't stay high enough in the air, causing drag. I also learned my wings are tilted back too much. This is going to be a rough couple of weeks... At least Miss Winter Winds is very patient and kind. She said if I practiced really hard this week, I'd have perfect form in no time, and that my form was definitely within my abilities to fix. She also taught me a way to exercise so I can keep my back legs higher in the air. She said a lot of ponies have trouble with their back legs.

Thunderbolt got perfect marks for form, Blazemane got perfect marks except her back legs were also too low. I guess I'll have somepony to practice with.

I wrote Featherweight again. I told him I need to work on my form, and that my teacher is nice. I didn't tell him about Thunderbolt, because I don't want him to worry more. I told him I loved him, and that I'd be home soon.

Blazemane and I toured the Cloudsdale Weather Factory today after practice. She said she had always wanted to go, and I don't really have anypony else to talk to, so I went with her. It was really interesting. All those snowflakes are individually crafted. only the best of the best can get a job at the factory, and it takes years of training. I asked a couple of ponies if they knew Rainbow Dash, and they asked how I knew her, they were really surprised when I said I was her daughter. I didn't think to explain she adopted me. I'm not sure I would have wanted to mention it, since I was with Blazemane.

We had another practice this evening, we played stormball, it's a lot like hoofball, except everypony flies, and there's rules, of course, for where and how you can fly. Miss Winter Winds said it helps with agility and attention to surroundings. She said both are absolutely important when it comes to being a professional flier. Hoofball is definitely not my game. If I hear one more word from Thunderbolt about how bad I am at stormball, I think there may be trouble...

I did what Featherweight always tells me to do and told Winter Winds about Thunderbolt making fun of me, she said I needed to learn to handle other ponies, but she stopped the game and told everypony that if she heard anypony making fun of anypony else, they would have to do twenty laps around the nimbus. She said that we're all learning, and putting other ponies down is disrespectful and will not be tolerated. I guess it does work.

I am exhausted. I got a bit better at stormball, but it's definitely not going to get me a cutie mark... I mean I already knew that, but I was reminded of it today. Blazemane is already asleep. That was a lot of work today... I hope everypony at home is okay. I hope Featherweight is okay.

Entry 203:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

I'm glad you're taking this seriously, and I'm glad you're appreciating the opportunity more than yesterday. I really hope you are having a good time. It's good that your teacher is nice. Keep practicing, and you'll be the best flier there!

Like I told you yesterday, I'm fine, and I love you, too. Don't worry about when you're coming home, worry about where you are. I'll be waiting for you when you get back, but it's no hurry. Have a good time and enjoy yourself!

Love, Featherweight"

Thunderbolt caught me in the hallway and asked what my diary was. I told him it was my notes from training yesterday. He said it was silly that I was taking notes. He told me that if I needed notes to learn to fly, I'd never be any kind of flier. At least he didn't question what it was. I'm going to start hiding this in my saddlebags. I don't want him messing with it.

We did checkpoint racing today. I came in third of eight in my first race, and second in my second! I was so nervous. I guess I'm better than I thought. Thunderbolt said it was a lucky break, and that if I had raced him, he would've lapped me. Blazemane was in my second race, she was first place. She's really fast. She won by four or five lengths. She told me I did great, but I'm not so sure if she was being nice, or if I really did well.

Blazemane and I sat on some clouds above Cloudsdale and just watched the town for a while. She told me about Canterlot and I told her about Ponyville and Port Mane. She has never been to either Port Mane or Ponyville. I told her she should come visit sometime. She asked when and why I moved from Port Mane if I liked it so much. I didn't really know what to say, I told her that my parents wanted to live in Ponyville. I don't know if I want to tell her about my parents. she seems nice, but I don't know if she keeps secrets, and I don't want Thunderbolt knowing for sure.

We do more checkpoint races here in a few minutes, I'm up against Thunderbolt twice. I am really nervous. I don't want to hear his mouth when he brags. I already know he's faster than I am. I watched the other races...

That was embarrassing. I came in fifth. Fifth! Thunderbolt hasn't shut up. I decided to write this away from everypony where he wouldn't bother me. I'm missing Blazemane's third race, though. I really hope she does well, she's definitely fast...

I beat him! I beat Thunderbolt! He made me so mad. He asked if I went to cry when I came back to the group and told me I was a sorry excuse for a pegasus, and that my Mom and Dad or whoever taught me to fly must be embarrassed or stupid... I wanted to pummel him where he stood, but it was time for a race... I put everything I had into the race... I didn't expect to beat him, but I didn't want him to get too far ahead. I wanted him scared. I totally embarrassed him though! He hasn't said anything since I passed him! Thank goodness. Maybe he'll leave me alone.

Blazemane said I was amazing! She asked how I managed to get so much faster so quick, and I told her I was just mad at what he said. She said it worked. She asked what I thought of her races. I told her I wasn't able to see her third race, but that she did great in her fourth. Apparently she won both races. The one I saw, she was a fourth of the track ahead of the next pony. She's amazingly fast, like almost Rainbow Dash fast. Almost.

I wrote Featherweight and told him the news, that there was, indeed, a bully in my class, but that I beat him in a race. I told him that his suggestion to talk to the teacher worked, and that I loved him and missed him. I really hope he's okay, and not just saying things to make me feel better.

This evening we did more stormball. I really don't like stormball. I guess I'm getting better, but it's just so rough, and I'm already sore from exercise and practice. During a time out from the game, Miss Winter Winds came up to me and told me my last race was fantastic, and that if I kept my form that perfect, I'd be one of the top fliers of the class! She asked how I picked up so much speed between my third and fourth race. I told her that Thunderbolt picked on me again, and that he made fun of my family... She said that that was absolutely inappropriate, and that she would talk to Thunderbolt, but that she wouldn't tell him who told her about his behavior.

Thunderbolt has stayed pretty quiet all day. Hopefully he'll shape up, or at least leave me alone. I--there's a big mark across the page, starting from here, and going through some words, tearing the bottom of the paper. The entry continues on the next page.

Thunderbolt threw a stormball at my pencil. He said I needed to stop taking notes and show how good I was. He said he wanted to see me show some skill that wasn't total luck. I challenged him to some tricks. What is wrong with me?

That wasn't nearly as bad as I expected. He hadn't learned any tricks, because he has been so worried about going fast. He did a couple flips, but my rolls, cartwheels and flips really shut him up. He told me to do it again, and prove it wasn't just luck. I'm about to go back up there.

Thunderbolt is in big trouble. Miss Winter Winds was watching us do our tricks and saw him throw a stormball at me while I was flying. Luckily I fell into a cloud, but Miss Winter Winds is not happy. He laughed at me as long as I could hear him when Miss Winter Winds was taking him away.

Blazemane said I did a great job and asked if I could teach her some tricks. We're going to try some out tomorrow during our break. I'm really tired right now.

Entry 204:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

That's great news! I told you! The teacher wants to help you out. It's her job. Congratulations on winning your race! I'm proud of you! I hope you keep having a good time, and that you're feeling okay. Things are fine here. I spent yesterday hanging out with Pipsqueak. We went to bowl, and hung out at his house.

I love you, and I know you'll keep doing a great job! Take care!

Love, Featherweight"

We're doing a thing called "Altitude Racing" this morning. it's where we fly as high as we can, as fast as we can. We are timed, so we do them individually, and every round, we're rated on a scoreboard. We're judged on speed, form, and height. I've never even thought to practice flying upwards fast, I hope I do alright.

I definitely need to work on that. I didn't do so well. All four times I raced, I was last, or close to last. Maybe I was a bit nervous, since Soarin' from the Wonderbolts was a guest judge. Maybe I just need to practice.

Miss Winter Winds said she's happy I took her advice on the exercise, because she said she already sees a visible difference in how good my form is. That's good news. I'm glad I'm learning something from being here.

I practiced my tricks with Blazemane. She said it was so cool that I knew how to do them so well. She did a few flips and rolled once. We're going to practice more after our afternoon event.

I wrote to Featherweight and told him about the Altitude Racing, and that he and I need to practice that when I get back, because I want to get really good at everything I can. I told him I love him and I'll see him soon. I told him I'm having a good time.

We're doing weight training this afternoon. I'm actually doing really well. I may not be able to fly upward very fast, but I can catch weights pretty well, and I can stop myself before I hit the clouds, even with pretty heavy weights. Not all of them, but most of them! They get up to a bit heaver than I am. After that, I usually hit the clouds before I can lift them into the air. When we're lifting, and not catching them, I can lift about one and a half times my weight. It's tough, though.

I'm watching Blazemane do tricks right now. Miss Winter Winds said she'd come watch us after she finished cleaning up from training. Blazemane is doing--

That was a close one! Blazemane fell out of the sky, and couldn't get herself upright. I had to dive down and catch her! I'm glad I was able to do it! I would hate to see her hurt! She thanked me and said I saved her life. I don't know about that. She's a good flier, I'm sure she could've saved herself. I'm just glad she's okay.

Blazemane had to go to the nurse, apparently she twisted her wing when trying to do a roll. The nurse said she should be okay after some rest and some ice.

Miss Winter Wind said she saw me catch Blazemane. She said she tried to help, but she was too far away. She reached the edge of the clouds when I caught her. She watched to make sure we were okay, and helped me take Blazemane to the nurse. She said it was brave of me. Luckily I was at a desk where my diary didn't go falling to the ground, that could've been a disaster, too! I knocked the chair out of the way when I took off, but my diary was okay.

Blazemane thanked me again when she got to our room. She said that I was a hero! A hero? I still think she would've been okay. I had to make sure, though. I'm not a hero. It's sweet of her to be so thankful, though.

Entry 205:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

Are you okay? I didn't get a letter from you, today. I hope you're alright and just busy. If I don't get a message from you tomorrow, I'm going to guess you're busy, and simply hope you're okay. Keep practicing and take care.

I love you!

Love, Featherweight"

This morning is dodge ball. I've done this before, too. I already know I'm bad. I just hope Thunderbolt is bad, too... Blazemane has to sit this out. She's still sore. She said she'll be my partner in the relay this afternoon, though.

Thunderbolt hit me right in the eye! It hurts really bad. The rules are that you can't hit somepony in the head, or it doesn't count. He's really good at dodge ball, so he did it on purpose. I know it! I can't stand him. What did I do to him?!

Miss Winter Winds said she can't do anything about it, because it's hard to tell if it was on purpose. She said if she's going to keep a close eye on him, though.

Blazemane and I are practicing tricks again. I showed her that I can land in a run and take back off. She thought that was cool, so I tried to teach her. It's a tougher trick, though. It may take her some practice.

I didn't get a letter from Featherweight today. I hope he's okay. He said he'd write to me every day. I hope he's just busy or something. Maybe the mailpony missed some stuff, and I'll get it later. I don't know. I just hope he's okay.

We're doing relays this afternoon. Blazemane said she's alright enough to race. We're up against Thunderbolt and Wild Wisp. I hope Blazemane is ready for it.

We won! Blazemane definitely was still sore, but she pulled through! She did a great job. I told her to go rest, and that she was fantastic. We're watching the other relays from the side. We're sitting by Miss Winter Winds.

We're going to bed early tonight. We're both really tired. After relays, we did extra exercises, since we weren't racing, most of the time.

Entry 206:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

I hope you're okay. Remember, if you feel like you're too tired, tell the teacher you need a break. Don't overdo it. I want you to be safe. Falling from the clouds is way different than falling close to the ground. I'm sure you're fine, but I figured I'd let you know.

I love you! I hope you're alright, and having a great time! Let me know about what happened when you get back!

Love, Featherweight"

This morning we're watching a short film about proper flight form and wing care, and then we're taking our second form test. The funniest line from the film was "Healthy wings are the difference between life and death!" I guess it's true, but the voice said it in a tone so serious I couldn't help but laugh. Miss Winter Winds asked what was funny, and I told her nothing. Blazemane giggled, too.

Miss Winter Winds told me I'm doing much better, but that I need to keep my front hooves forward more, that I'm spreading them too wide. She told me to try and make a triangle with my hooves. I guess I'll have to keep practicing. She showed me a couple of times, and helped me get into place while I hovered, once. In time I'll get this.

I didn't receive a letter from Featherweight again... I really hope he's okay... He promised to write every day so I would know he was okay. If something's wrong, I'm never going to forgive myself... I really hope he's okay... Hopefully he's just busy or something... yeah, he's probably busy...

I wrote to Featherweight, asking him if he's alright. I told him I'm a bit worried that I haven't received any letters from him recently. I really hope everything is okay.

I didn't do well at tricks during trick flight today... I kept thinking about Featherweight... if he doesn't write me tomorrow, I'm really going to start worrying...

Blazemane asked me if I was okay. She said I seemed very distracted. I told her I was just expecting a letter today and didn't get it. I told her I'd be alright. I don't want her worrying.

I can't sleep tonight... I just keep thinking about Featherweight... I really hope everything is alright back home...

Entry 207:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

I hope you're alright. Are you having fun? I'm fine. I'm a little worried I haven't heard from you, but I figure you're just busy. So much to do at Flight Camp! Yesterday I spent the afternoon with Fluttershy and Shooting Star. Shooting Star showed me some neat magic tricks. I'll have to remember to have him show you when you get back.

I hope you're enjoying everything, and that everything is okay. I love you, and hope to hear from you soon!

Love, Featherweight

P.S. Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom say hello. They say they meant to write you, but school has been busy lately. Sweetie Belle said making two copies of notes (one for you) is more work than they expected. They're not upset, but they are busy! I think I may try to help them out."

We're doing cloud-breaking today. We have to find and bust all ten gray clouds as fast as we can. I hope I do okay, that'd be something fun to write Mom about!

I did alright. I'm still pretty distracted. I hope I get a letter from Featherweight today. I'm still worried... I got fourth place out of the twenty of us in the class. I probably could've made third place if I had been more focused. Thunderbolt got second, and Blazemane got first. Thunderbolt seems mad that he's not beating everypony like he thought. He made sure to ask me how embarrassed I was that I couldn't make the top three. I don't really care. I do as well as I do.

I didn't get a letter from Featherweight again! Something must be wrong... I'm really worried. I knew I should've stayed home. I shouldn't have come here. Featherweight might have run away or gotten sick, or maybe he's hurt... what if he's all alone? What if nopony knows where he is? He wouldn't have run away to try and find his parents would he?  Where would he look? He doesn't know anything about them... He was so bothered by what Diamond Tiara said, though... I really hope he's okay... I'm worried.

I didn't really do any exercises today... Miss Winter Wind asked why I wasn't exercising for the workout session this afternoon. I told her I was really tired, that I didn't sleep well. It wasn't a lie, but it wasn't the only thing... I really hope Featherweight is okay.

I can't sleep again today. I just can't stop thinking about him! I hope he's okay. What if he isn't though? I should've stayed home. This is my fault. I think I'm feeling sick.

Hope Is So Much Stronger Than Fear (♫)

Entries 208-215

Entry 208:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

I'll be seeing you soon! I can't wait! I hope you've been practicing hard! I bet you can fly circles around me, now. We'll just have to see! Write me if you have the time. Miss Cheerilee told me to tell you hello, and said she hopes you're having a great time.

I hope things are going well, and I love you!

Love, Featherweight"

I went to the nurse's this morning. I missed wing speed testing. I'm sick to my stomach. I can't stop worrying about Featherweight. He would have written me by now, wouldn't he? Is he mad at me for going when he was upset? This is my fault. I know it.

The nurse said she didn't see anything wrong with me, but gave me some stomach medicine. She said I needed to go to training and get my mind off whatever was bothering me. She said she has seen this many times, and that it's usually just nerves. She told me to relax. Relax! How can I relax? Featherweight may have had something happen to him!

I finally got to do my wing speed test. I didn't do as well as I had hoped. I'm still too distracted. I only got a 3. I know I can do better, but I'm just worried.

I still didn't get a letter from Featherweight. Something must be wrong. I hope he's okay... I knew I should have stayed home. I shouldn't have come!

Blazemane asked why I was crying. I told her I was just homesick. She told me that tomorrow would make everything better and patted me on the back. Why would tomorrow make everything better?

I wrote Featherweight asking him if he was okay, and asking him to write me as soon as he could. I told him I loved him and missed him very much.

This afternoon I told Blazemane I was sick and that she should head off to training without me. I am just going to go to bed early.

Entry 209:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

I'm starting to think I won't be able to hear from you again until I see you. That's fine, just remember I love you! I'll be seeing you very soon! I hope everything is alright. If you get the chance, I would love to hear from you, but don't worry about it if you are just too busy.

When you get back here, you're going to show me how much you've improved your flying!

Love, Featherweight"

[Written sideways in the margins is "5021 Starswirl Blvd., Canterlot 1R5 5F0"]

Blazemane said I looked exhausted this morning. I told her I didn't sleep well again last night. I told her I miss my friends at home. She said today is visitors' day. I didn't even know there was such a thing... I hope Featherweight is able to come... I'm really worried about him...

I haven't seen anypony I know, yet... maybe nopony knew there was a visitors' day... I hope everypony is alright at home... I really do miss them... I'm very worried about Featherweight, though... the last time I saw him he was still not himself...

We're starting our flight training for the day. Lots of ponies' friends and families are here. It must be nice. I'd love to show Mom and Featherweight how much I've learned. I guess that will have to wait. I really hope everything is alright. Most of all I wish I could have seen them, because I want to know how everypony is doing.

Mom and Featherweight just got here! Mom says Featherweight was still asleep, and she didn't want to wake him, because yesterday she saw him downtown, and he looked really tired. I asked him why he hadn't sent me any letters, and he was really confused. He said he's written me a letter every day! He asked if I had written him anything lately, and I told him I had written him, too... I don't understand.

Featherweight said I looked tired and worried, he asked what was wrong. I told him I was worried about him. He said he's fine. He still doesn't seem himself, he seems really quiet, like quieter than usual. He also looks very tired. He said he's been worried about me, because he hadn't heard from me, and knew I had been worried.

I asked Miss Winter Winds if she had seen any letters from me lately. She said she would have to ask Thunderbolt. Apparently, when he got in trouble, he was sent to sort mail as punishment. I have a bad feeling about this.

Miss Winter Winds brought me my letters Thunderbolt stole. Thunderbolt was kicked out of Flight Camp. On his way out he kept making fun of Featherweight and me and making kissy faces. Miss Winter Winds is not happy, she said she has never seen such behavior in her time working Flight Camp.

I feel so much better now! I've spent the last hour with Mom and Featherweight, showing them how I've improved. Featherweight said I'm doing great. I told them I was so worried about the letters and thinking something was wrong, or that he was mad at me that I missed evening practice yesterday.

We're doing trick flight again this afternoon, Blazemane did a roll, finally! She said she was nervous after last time. Featherweight asked what happened last time, and Blazemane said I saved her life again. I still don't get how I saved her life. She probably would have been fine.

Featherweight said he was proud of me, and Mom said I'm doing awesome, and that I'm a hero. She told Blazemane about her situation at the Best Young Flier competition and Blazemane said it was the coolest story she had ever heard.

I'm so happy Mom and Featherweight got to visit. I was so sad to see them go. Featherweight seemed much happier this afternoon. I'm glad.

Miss Winter Winds asked how I knew Rainbow Dash, I told her she was my Mom, and she seemed surprised. She said she thought Rainbow Dash was way too young to have a filly, especially one my age. I told her I was adopted, but asked her to keep it quiet, just in case. She said the secret was safe with her.

Miss Winter Winds was in Mom's class at Flight Academy. She showed me a picture of Mom as a filly in a group photo. It was funny seeing a little Rainbow Dash. She was so cute, but I'd never tell her that (unless I was teasing her or something.)

I wrote Featherweight and told him how happy I was to see him, and that I can't wait until I get home. I told him I'm feeling much better, and that he's the reason. I told him I loved him, and that there was less than a week, left.

This evening Blazemane and I talked late. She said my mom is the coolest pegasus in Equestria. Like I didn't know this! She said she'll have to visit Ponyville sometime. She said I'll have to visit her in Canterlot, too. She said she knows it's expensive to rent a hotel, but that I may be able to stay with her, and I told her that if I can't, but I'm lucky, Twilight Sparkle can get me a room at the castle. She told me I was the coolest filly she had ever met. Haha!

Blazemane gave me her address, and said if I wanted to, I could write her anytime. She said she'd be excited to receive a letter. She said I'm a really nice friend, and very encouraging. That's nice of her to say. I really have liked her company.

Entry 210:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

Are you getting letters from me again? I can't believe that brat did that. What if you had been writing someone sick? It's like he didn't even care! How disrespectful. It's over, now, though. I hope this week goes much better. I'm sorry you got sick. Don't worry about me. I'm fine! I have a surprise to show you when you get back. I hope you find it cool.

Your dad told me to tell you hello, and to say he's sorry he hasn't written you. He has been very busy this week. It was Town Market Week last week, and everypony had a booth, he had to watch and make sure nopony was stealing anything.

I really hope you have a lot more fun, this week!

Love, Featherweight"

Today we're doing Altitude Racing, again. I hope I do better, this time! I haven't really been able to practice. Blazemane told me I'll do great. She said if I'm anything like my Mom, I'll do amazing. She still doesn't know Mom adopted me. I'll tell her sometime, but I don't know if anypony here is friends with Thunderbolt, and looking for a reason to pick on me.

I beat Wild Wisp and almost caught up to Blazemane. She's so crazy fast, especially for a filly. She really earned that Junior Wonderbolts outfit she wears all the time. It may just be one of those things they sell at the Flight Camp Trading Post, but she probably will be a Wonderbolt one day. She's amazing!

Miss Winter Winds made sure to hand me my letter, herself, today. She told me she wanted to make sure I understood that she was not happy with what happened, and that she was very sorry I got so upset. I really have good luck with teachers. Miss Winter Winds is like the Miss Cheerilee of flying. She's always so excited to see everypony in the mornings!

Tonight Spitfire is going to teach us the history of the Wonderbolts! She is really going to be here! I'm so excited! I wonder if she'll remember me. Probably not, but it's nice to think!

I was right, she didn't really remember me. She apologized for forgetting who I was, but when I told her Mom's name, she said she remembered us. She said she was very happy to know I got to come to her Flight Camp. I told her I was excited, too. She asked what my favorite type of flying was, I told her tricks, and she asked if I could show her my stuff! Spitfire! Herself! I was so nervous.

Blazemane and I both showed her what we could do. She said I was really good for a filly my age, and to keep practicing, one day I could be a Wonderbolt! I'm sure she tells all the ponies that, but it was still really cool to hear from her!

I wrote Featherweight, telling him what happened. I told him I was really excited. I told him I loved him, and that I would be home soon. Today was awesome!

Entry 211:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

Hmph! You'll believe Spitfire, but you won't believe me? (I'm joking! I'm not upset! That's great news! I'm happy for you! I'd be excited, too!) Does this mean I can call you My Little Wonderbolt, again? Haha! You really are a great flier, it's not just words, don't underestimate yourself like that! Even if she tells everypony, that, it's true for you!

I'm glad to hear you're having a much better time, now. Don't worry about when you're coming back. Think about the fun you're having! Make the most of it!

Love, Featherweight"

And another from Lucky Buck.:

"Dear Scootaloo,

Sorry I didn't write you last week. It was a very busy week. I had to work double shifts to help with the Market Week. It's all done, though. Are you having fun? I heard somepony was stealing your letters. If you see him again, you should tell him he can get in serious trouble for that. He's lucky all that happened was getting kicked out of Flight Camp. I bet his parents are pleased.

If you're getting worn out, then remember you come home in five days. If you're having a great time, there's still five days left! I hope things are going better this week for sure! I'll see you very soon.

Love, Dad"

Blazemane and I are going to have to race today. We're doing a five lap flight race, five races this morning, five this afternoon. We get points every race. First gets ten points, second gets nine, and so on. As long as I get above tenth place, I get points. I'm going to try and get points every round. Hopefully I do really well. The top three racers get to take home a special trophy. I probably won't get a trophy, but I'm trying my best anyway. No matter what, I have to get a least ten points! I'd be really happy getting at least thirty, though!

Blazemane and Wild Wisp are so fast! I got fifth place in the first race. They're changing the track, right now. I'll be doing the second race here in a couple of minutes. Wild Wisp came up to me and told me I was doing a great job. She said she's really seen me improve, lately. She said she hasn't seen that much improvement in anypony else, and that I was really taking this seriously. She also apologized for what Thunderbolt did, and said she didn't want to pair up with him for the relay, but that nopony else picked him, so she got stuck with him. That wouldn't have been fun, at all. She also told me she never did congratulate me for winning the relay, but that I did a great job!

I'm definitely better at turns than Blazemane. She still beat me, but I caught up to her a lot more this time. we had to go in a clover, and I almost passed her on the turns. I got second place! Maybe I'm doing better than I thought!

The third race was just a regular oval, and Blazemane won by a lot. Wild Wisp got second, I got third. Still, I have twenty-three points so far! I'm really happy with that!

The fourth race we had do climb and fall. Wild Wisp almost beat Blazemane! It's the closest finish, yet! I got fourth. I already have thirty points!

The last race of the morning starts here in a second. There's a lot of loops. I could maybe get a close second!

That wasn't so good. I only got third. Blazemane has a whole fifty points! Wild Wisp has forty-three, and I have thirty seven. Wild Wisp is really good at dives and climbing! We're the only three who have been in the top five every race. If I keep this up, maybe I could get one of those trophies, after all!

Blazemane and Wild Wisp told me I was doing great, and Blazemane made a joke, saying she was going to have to make me mad. She said she wanted to see me give it my all, and that she felt bad nopony else had won a single race. I told her to promise she wouldn't let anypony win on purpose. She said that's not how she plays. She plays fair, but plays to win. She said if somepony really wanted to beat her, they'd have to give it everything they had. She looked at Wild Wisp like it was a dare. Wild Wisp told her that she was going to catch her in the second round. I already know that if I am getting a trophy, I'm getting third, but I'm really proud of how well I've done!

Now I feel bad. Featherweight did tell me the same thing Spitfire did. He said he's not upset, but still. I feel bad now.

Blazemane came up to me a moment ago, before the sixth race and said she wanted to see me beat Wild Wisp every time this second round. She said they've become rivals, and she wants to beat her by as many ponies as she can. Is she crazy? Wild Wisp is way faster than I am! The only reason I've beaten her at all is luck! This track is crazy looking. There's a lot of climbing. Wild Wisp might just beat Blazemane, this time! I'm going to try and keep up, but I don't expect to do too well.

I beat Wild Wisp! It was really close, but I stayed closer to the inside on the turns, and barely beat her. She said I did really well, and that I needed to dive like that more often. Blazemane told her I was good at diving, and that it was how I saved her. She's still going on about that.

I did it again! Wild Wisp actually got fifth this time. Another pony tried to get past her on the outside and bumped her into the clouds. They got slowed down, and she ended up way back. Now Blazemane has seventy points, Wild Wisp fifty-seven, and I have fifty-five. If I keep it up, I could beat Wild Wisp! It really comes down to luck, though. She crashed.

Blazemane said I was doing great and teased Wild Wisp a bit. She said I should have raced like this in the first round. Now, everypony has scored at least some points. I guess that's good. I think I'd be embarrassed to get eleventh or lower in EVERY race, even if these are some of the best pegasi foals.

Wild Wisp must have overdone it, she was ahead of me at the start. Way ahead, but by the end, she fell back to fourth. We're tied! I'm really nervous, now. I could beat Wild wisp! That's crazy!

Wild Wisp beat me this time! She said she had to make up for her messed up runs. She said she's going to be really serious this last race. Blazemane told me to make my Mom proud and show Wild Wisp what I had in me... I hope I've been making Mom proud. Mom, and Dad, and Mama, and Papa, and Auntie Raincloud and Featherweight, and everypony else. I have to do my best! I have to get second! I just have to tie her. If I beat her in the next race, we'll have a one on one for second.

I can't believe it! Nopony can. I don't know what to say. Blazemane is shocked. I beat her! I beat Blazemane! I beat Blazemane in a race! She is speechless. Everypony is. Even Miss Winter Winds doesn't know what to say. I got second! I didn't even have to race Wild Wisp in a one on one!

Blazemane finally said something. She said I did a fantastic job! She says she can't believe it. She says she can't believe she got ninety-nine points. Almost perfect, but not perfect. She said she's not too upset, but she's amazed, after how well she was doing. Miss Winter Winds told her she has never seen anypony get higher than ninety-five points.

I'm so excited about this trophy. This is the coolest! I got second place! I still can't believe it. Blazemane is more upset than she thought. She keeps looking at the numbers on the trophy.

I had to ask her if she did it on purpose. She said she was trying her hardest. She said after she won the first nine races, she felt like she had to win the last one. She felt like she had to get a perfect, since she was so close. She almost teared up. I asked if she was okay, she said she was fine. She said racing for somepony other than myself must have been exactly what I needed.

Maybe so. I felt like once she told me to make Mom proud, I had to go for it. I ache all over, but I had to give it everything. I still can't believe it, though.

I wrote Featherweight and told him about the races, and about the trophy. I told him I loved him, and that he was part of the reason I won. I still can't believe it. I beat Blazemane in a race.

Entry 212:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

That's great news! Congratulations! I'm so proud of you! I hope you're proud! I'll be sure to keep it a secret, so you can surprise your mom and dad, unless you wrote them. I can't wait to see the trophy!

Love, Featherweight"

Blazemane has been pretty quiet this morning. I hope she's okay. I didn't know winning a race would do this to her. I feel kind of bad.

I talked with Wild Wisp. She said there was no reason to feel bad. She said I won fair and square. She told me I should be proud.

This morning we are doing hoop racing. We have to fly through as many hoops as we can in three minutes. Regular hoops are worth one point, moving hoops are worth two points, small hoops are worth three, and small moving hoops are worth five. First place gets a medal. Normal hoops are about twice as big as Miss Winter Winds, small hoops are just a bit bigger than each of us. They move kind of fast. I'm watching Wild Wisp right now.

Wild Wisp got sixty points. That's a lot! We're talking while I wait. I'm next.

I got fifty-seven points. I guess I won't win this time! That was fun, though! I want to try that again some time. Blazemane still hasn't said much. I hope she's okay.

Blazemane got ninety-seven points! That's amazing! Miss Winter Winds said it's a new record! She seemed a bit happier.

I asked Blazemane if she was mad at me. She said she was mad at herself. She told me racing is everything to her. She said Fleetfoot is her hero. She said the fact that she didn't get a perfect after getting so close is actually a bit embarrassing. She said that I should be very proud. I told her I felt bad she was upset. She said it just meant she had to keep practicing. She's a bit happier now that she won the hoop race, but she still seems upset.

We have the afternoon free. I spent the afternoon talking with Miss Winter Winds. She says she was impressed that anypony beat Blazemane. She said she was happy with how much I have improved. She said I'm still not in perfect form, but also said that "sometimes perfect form doesn't work for everypony. Sometimes they actually fly worse in perfect form. Don't tell anypony I said that." She said her job is to teach form. Even ponies who don't fly best in perfect form should know perfect form. Official competitions always judge on form.

I asked her how she got the job as teacher for Spitfire's Flight Camp. She said she used to be a stormball teacher at the Cloudsdale Flight Academy, and flight instructor for both Cloudsdale Flight Academy and Fort Hoof. She said one day Spitfire sat in on a flight class at Cloudsdale and told her that her patience and skill were great, and invited her to teach the Flight Camp. She said she has done it for five years. That's really neat. Hoof picked by Spitfire herself! What an honor! She said she wrote a letter to everypony in her family about it. I definitely understand that!

I wrote Featherweight, telling him about the race, and that I got fourth place. I told him I love him, and that I'll be back soon.

Blazemane is back to herself now. I think once she got another medal, she cheered up. I really hope she has more than just racing. That seems like very little to have going.

I talked with Blazemane, and she said that's pretty much it. She said she doesn't really have a lot of good friends, just people she knows and talks to. How sad. I told her she was my friend, and she said she is happy for that.

Entry 213:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

Fourth isn't too bad! Congratulations! Keep practicing and having fun! Maybe sometime we can find a place and try racing through hoops, you and I! I don't know how good I would be, long legs and all.

I really hope you're having a great time! I'll see you soon!

Love, Featherweight"

"2155 Nimbus Ln. Cloudsdale 2V6 5H3" is written in the margins of the diary page.

Today we're doing our last races. Tomorrow is wrap up, clean up, and closing secret event, and then the day after that, our parents come and get us and we head home.

This morning was sprint racing. Of course Blazemane won. Blazemane really won. Blazemane won by like six pony lengths. She did amazing! I congratulated her, and told that that was impressive flying. It really was! Mom needs to race Blazemane. Mom would definitely win, but I bet Blazemane would be a tough challenge!

This afternoon we're doing something called "goal guard." We have to protect a cloud hoop about six times as big as me, and keep as many hoofballs as we can from going through the hoop. Wild Wisp is doing amazing. Only two have made it through so far.

Wild Wisp ended up with a score of minus four. Blazemane got a score of minus seven. I'm up next.

Minus eight isn't bad. I got fifth place. Blazemane said she isn't too upset. She said it's not really her type of flight. She's fast on the track, but she's not very accurate, and she doesn't turn very well. Nopony got a score of zero.

I am kind of sad that tomorrow is the last day. I'm definitely ready to see Featherweight again, though. I'm ready to see all my friends and family. I just am really having a good time with Blazemane, and I really like Miss Winter Winds.

I told Miss Winter Winds I wanted to be able to write her, and she gave me her address. She said if I forgot it, Mom knows what it is. That's good.

I wrote to Featherweight and told him I was having a great time, and made a couple good friends. I told him I loved him and that I would see him very soon.

Entry 214:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight.

"Dear Scootaloo,

I know you'll be here soon! I hope you had a great time, though! Remember to come see the surprise! It's really cool! I hope you'll like it as much as I did!

Everypony in class (we'll just say everypony,) told me to tell you hello, and that they would see you very soon! Sleep well, because you also have school when you get back! Only for two days, but you do still have class this week, and I won't let you skip, even if I have to drag you to class, myself! Haha!

Love, Featherweight"

Cleanup has gone pretty well. Blazemane and I didn't really make much of a mess, so it was easy to pack up. My Featherweight plushie and a pillow are all I have left. Everything else is packed up. We go to a ceremony this afternoon, but the rest of the day is free. Blazemane has been doing winglifts off and on all morning. She said that she is going to go for perfect in the next races she does with me. That has me nervous.

She said someday we would come back up to the Cloudsdale tracks and race, just the two of us. She said she is going to win every race. She said she won't be upset if she loses, though, and that I am a really good flier. She said I really improved this week, more than most of the ponies. I told her I probably didn't improve as much as it seemed, since I had the trouble in the middle of the first week. She said either way I did a great job, and should be proud of how well I did.

The closing event was a small meeting with all the Wonderbolts! Blazemane almost fainted when she met Fleetfoot! She was pale in the face, and looked so nervous! She eventually calmed down, and talked (and talked and talked) to Fleetfoot. Fleetfoot handled it very well, she must be used to it. We all got special Spitfire Official Flight Camp posters, signed by all the Wonderbolts, and two special patches for our saddlebags. I'm keeping them as they are. I don't want to have them put on something, in case I get new saddlebags one day!

I'm really excited, and can't sleep. Blazemane and I are just talking and talking. She's still excited from meeting Fleetfoot. Every other sentence is about Fleetfoot. It's kind of funny.

Entry 215:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Featherweight:

"Dear Scootaloo,

I don't know if this will reach you at camp or not. If it doesn't, when it's returned, I'll give it to you. I'm really happy to know you had a good time, and I'm glad that bully got sent home. I'm sorry you got so worried the first week. This was supposed to be a fun experience for you! I hope you learned a lot and had a lot of fun, when all is said and done!

See you soon! Be sure to come by Dad's house when you get back.

Love, Featherweight"

The diary page is lightly dotted with tear stains. Written sideways in the margins is "127 Redtree St., Ft. Burning Hoof 3R7 7X2"

I was really sad to leave Wild Wisp and Blazemane. I told them I would write them both. I told Miss Winter Winds I would write her, too. I had a really good time, and all three of them were so nice to me. It was a great experience. I'm glad Featherweight told me to go. He's the greatest colt in Equestria!

Mom came to bring me home. I showed her my award. She said my trophy was really cool. She said Dad would have to find a shelf to put it on! Now I have a medal and a trophy! (And no cutie mark.)

We just got back home. I am so tired. I think I'm going to go to bed early, tonight. I have school tomorrow and the day after. It's the weekend after that, though!

I went to see Featherweight after school ended. I gave him a BIG hug. I'd be surprised if he could breathe. I was so happy to see him, though! He showed me his plushie of me. Rarity made him a little Wonderbolts outfit for it! It's so cool! I'll have to tell Rarity how cool it is the next time I hang out with Sweetie Belle.

I spent a couple of hours with Featherweight before heading home to go to bed. I'm really tired, and I still have to go to school, this week, so I'm going to bed. Dad made space on my bookshelf, at the top, for my trophy. I'm so excited!

I had a great time today, but I'm really worn out. I just finished putting up my poster and talking with Mom and Dad about how it went. I'm really glad I went, but I'm also happy to see Featherweight is feeling better.

Hoof In Mouth (♫)

Entries 216-225

Entry 216:

Page is smudged with tear stains.

I can already tell today isn't going to be good. Diamond Tiara has been mean all day. I just hope that I can keep out of her way.

She picked on Featherweight about his parents, and I got in her way, she told me my parents didn't love me either, and that they were probably happy to get sick and die. I almost got sick I was so upset. Miss Cheerilee caught her and pulled her into the classroom to talk to her. Then I said the dumbest thing I have ever said.

Featherweight tried to cheer me up and said my parents loved me, and I was stupid enough to say "How would you know? You don't even know your parents!" I am such an idiot. I shouldn't say anything when I'm angry.

Featherweight left class early today. I haven't seen him since then. I'm so dumb. Me and my big stupid mouth. I bet he hates me now. I'm no better than Diamond Tiara. He was just trying to cheer me up!

I am going to bed early. I don't want to talk to Mom and Dad about today anymore. They keep trying to tell me it was just a mistake. I really hurt Featherweight's feelings, I just know it.

Entry 217:

Page is dotted with tears stains.

Featherweight isn't in class, today. This is my fault. I know it. I hope he never talks to me again. I'm such a bad pony...

I didn't pay attention at school at all today. I kept looking back to where Featherweight usually sits. At recess, I just sat alone, and told everypony to leave me alone. I don't want anypony to talk to me.

I went straight to my room when I got home. I've been looking at my diary, and the pictures and letters Featherweight gave me. He's such a sweet pony, and I go and hurt his feelings like that. I'm awful.

I really need to apologize to Featherweight, but I don't want to talk to him if he doesn't want to talk to me. I don't want to make things worse.

Entry 218:

A letter is tucked into the page, with an envelope stamped "FORT BURNING HOOF POST" and a return address:

"Wild Wisp

127 Redtree St.

Ft. Burning Hoof, Equestria 3R7 7X2

Dear Scootaloo,

I was happy to meet you at camp, and hope you will keep in touch. How have you been? I know it hasn't been long, but I hope your trip home was okay.

Maybe some day we will meet again. If you are ever in Fort Burning Hoof, I would be happy to give you a tour. I would love to see Ponyville, too!

I hope everything is okay, and I hope you are having a good time at home. See you soon, I hope!

Wild Wisp"

Featherweight wasn't in class again, today. I thought I saw him going to the library on my way to class. I almost followed him, but I didn't want to make problems again.

Today was terrible. I almost got in a fight with Diamond Tiara, since she wouldn't leave me alone at recess. I finally flew up into the clouds, where she couldn't follow me.

I don't want to talk to anyone. I hope Miss Cheerilee doesn't call on me in class this afternoon.

I acted like I was asleep in class again today. I figured it was better than opening my stupid mouth again.

Mom and Dad keep asking me what is wrong. I tell them nothing, because I don't want to talk about it.

Entry 219:

Page is smudged with tear stains.

Featherweight is in class again, today. He is very quiet, and he won't even look at me. I am such a terrible pony.

He didn't talk to me at recess, either. He spent time with Pipsqueak. I just sat in the tree, trying to hide from everypony. It's very difficult to be in class with him when he won't even look at me.

I flew off at recess. I didn't go back to school this afternoon. I just couldn't.

Mom found me and tried to bring me back to class, but I was so upset she excused me for the afternoon. She kept trying to cheer me up, but didn't even know why I was upset.

She took me to Sugarcube Corner. I didn't eat anything. I didn't feel like I deserved a treat.

I am going to bed early again, today.

Entry 220:

I skipped class and hid in the bushes, today. I don't want Featherweight to see me. I probably make it worse when I'm around, just by being there.

I remember when I first got to town, and I used to do this. It makes me miss Mama and Papa. They'd probably be embarrassed by me. I'm nothing like them. They were so nice and smart and they worked hard. I'm nothing like them. How did I end up being such a disappointment?

I snuck back home and went to my room. I'll probably do the same thing tomorrow. I don't want to go back to school for now. Maybe once Featherweight forgets about me I can go back, but for now, I don't want to remind him how dumb I am, or remind him about his problems.

Entry 221:

[Page is smudged with tear stains. The side of the page, halfway down has the words "I love you." written several times, the rest of the writing wraps with respect to the words, as if written later.]

Mom found me in the bushes today. She said she thought I was up to something after the way I acted last night. She walked me to school. I feel terrible.

Miss Cheerilee called recess early, and I just stayed in the classroom. Miss Cheerilee tried to talk to me, but I felt like if I said anything, I'd start crying. Featherweight, apparently, didn't go to recess, either, because he came up to me and gave me a hug. I couldn't help but cry. I hugged him so tight and kept telling him I was sorry.

Miss Cheerilee moved him to sit next to me. She said that she felt like I needed cheering up, and that she usually doesn't move friends together, but this was a "special situation."

I can't believe how sweet Featherweight is. He said that he wasn't mad at me, but that he was embarrassed that I was right, and disappointed that I said what I did. He said he wouldn't be mad at me for saying something when I was upset. He knew I didn't mean it.

I asked him if he went to the library the other day, and he said he did. He said he wrote a letter to Princess Celestia and needed Spike to send it.

He asked Princess Celestia for any information about his parents. I am worried about this. He has a great dad, a real dad. His actual parents are terrible for what they did, and they don't deserve to see him. As bad as it sounds, I hope that Princess Celestia can't find anything.

Entry 222:

Spike came to Featherweight's house this morning and gave him a letter from the Princess with a picture of his parents. Their names are Airborne and Fallstreak. I don't feel so good about this. He says he wants to go and find them. They live in a sky town called Mare's Tail north of Phillydelphia.

Featherweight has been talking about this all day. He said he wants to prove to Diamond Tiara that his separation from his parents was an unfortunate mistake. He said he loves his dad, but that he wants to meet his real parents.

I am worried about this. He seems so excited, but what if something goes wrong? Phillydelphia is a long way away. It's at least a couple days of travel. I hope he'll be okay. His dad is taking him to Phillydelphia, and he said he'll fly north on his own.

Featherweight won't be at school this week. I feel like I'll be worrying about him a lot until he comes back. Something just doesn't seem right about this.

I spent the afternoon with Pipsqueak and Sweetie Belle. They were playing around beside the Carousel Boutique. They invited me to spend the afternoon with them. We played games and talked about Featherweight. Pipsqueak seems to think it'll be good for him. "What if he's right?" he asked. I guess that is true, if he is right, he will finally get to meet his parents. I bet it's been frustrating not knowing them.

Sweetie Belle said all I can do is be encouraging and supportive of him. I would write to him every day, like he wrote to me while I was gone, but where he will be is going to change...

I hope they're right. I hope Featherweight and Shutter Speed are doing alright. They should be resting at a hotel or something by now. It's getting dark.

Entry 223:

Tucked into the page is a letter written on stationery labeled "Oxbow Junction Bed and Breakfast" with rustic accents on the edges, as well as a few sheets of drawings, some good, some poor. Many including a drawing of a skinny pegasus.

"Dear Scootaloo,

We made it safely to Oxbow Junction. It should only be a day before we reach Phillydelphia. How are you doing? I am sorry I didn't let you know sooner that I was going to leave. I found out yesterday morning. I hope I didn't ruin any plans. I'll make it up to you when we get back to town!

Don't worry about me. I'm alright! I'm so excited! I'll be home in no time.

Love, Featherweight"

Today is boring. Everypony is busy, even mom. Today is a scheduled rain day, so nopony is home. Sweetie Belle, Pipsqueak, Ocean Breeze, and Apple Bloom are all busy. Pipsqueak and Sweetie Belle have a presentation tomorrow, so they're finishing it up. Apple Bloom has to do chores, and Ocean Breeze went to visit his parents in Port Mane. I'm so bored!

I'm happy to see Featherweight is still okay. I hope he can make it safely. That's a very long trip to make without planning.

I spent most of the day drawing. There wasn't really anything else to do. It was too rainy to go around town, and nopony was home.

Dad just got home, he's soaking wet! I bet it's not fun to be a policepony on a rainy day. He says "it's part of the job" but it still seems like no fun. I tried to help him cook dinner. I'm not very good, I made a really big mess, and almost burned the bread. I tried, though.

Mom said that today wasn't very good. She said nopony listened to where the clouds needed to be, and she had to move a lot of them on her own. She said the weatherponies she usually works with were out of town today.

What a boring day. I hope school is fun tomorrow. It can't be as boring as today.

Entry 223:

Tucked into the page is a letter tightly crammed into the few lines of space on the back of a Phillydelphia postcard marked "ONE DAY DELIVERY" and "PHILLYDELPHIA POST."

"Dear Scootaloo,

We made it to Phillydelphia just fine! Tomorrow I head north to Mare's Tail on my own. I already know where to go, and I should be just fine. I hope you like the gift, it made me think of you.

I hope you are doing well. I should be home in just a few days! Wish me luck!

Love, Featherweight"

School, today was actually almost as boring as yesterday. At least recess was fun. Diamond Tiara slipped and fell in the mud and had to spend the rest of the school day muddy. She got most of it off, but she still had spots all afternoon. It was really funny. [Below this line is drawing of Diamond Tiara with muddy splotches covering her sides, including part of her cutie mark.]

After school, I spent some time with Ocean Breeze and Apple Bloom. We went to help Granny Smith with apple pies. I didn't really help, after how I did yesterday, cooking. I did get to talk with them, which was better than sitting around all afternoon.

We stopped by my house for a while, and I got a letter from Featherweight. He also sent some "Phillydelphia's Famous Strawberry Tarts" with the letter. He's so sweet. The treats were great! I shared some with Apple Bloom and Ocean Breeze. Ocean Breeze said he can buy them any time, if I want. He said it's not too expensive, and he has enough money after buying food that he could do that for me. I still don't think he understands money, but he's trying.

I practiced flying for Apple Bloom, Sweetie Belle, Pipsqueak, and Ocean Breeze. They said I'm doing so well. I still haven't learned anything new, but I am pretty good at the things I learned at Flight Camp. I'm definitely faster than I have been.

Entry 224:

Today, Featherweight should have made it to Mare's Tail. I hope he's doing alright. I'm still a bit worried. He'll be okay, though. I know it.

Zecora came to talk to us at school today. She taught us about natural medicines and what she does. It was interesting, I guess, but Apple Bloom was really into the talk. She was asking all kinds of questions. She really seems to like that stuff.

At recess, I played tag with my friends. I kept flying off. They said it wasn't fair. I thought it was funny. Eventually, Ocean Breeze pulled me down with magic. He said if I was allowed to fly, he could use his magic to pull me down, and tagged me on the forehead. We all started laughing.

I didn't receive a letter from Featherweight today. I guess that makes sense, he probably was busy traveling yesterday, or maybe he met his parents! Maybe they took him out for the day and spent the afternoon with him. I hope I hear what happened soon! I can't wait for him to come home. I miss him.

I spent the evening working on my flight. Mom was going to teach me, but there was a "cloud situation" and she had to leave. I don't even know what that means, but I'm sure it was important.

Apparently a couple of the new weatherponies put the clouds way too low to the ground and there was a really thick fog. Nopony could see anything, and when they tried to break up the clouds, they started a storm. Mom says "They better learn fast, or they're gone." It sounds silly, but I hope everypony is okay.

Learning to Fall (♫)

Entries 231-235

Entry 231:

Writing on the page is smeared and has tear stains.

Featherweight is seeming happier than he has been. He's still pretty quiet, but he raised his hoof and answered a question today. Poor colt. I still have no idea how he is feeling. I've learned in the time we have been together, that he is really good at lying about how he is feeling. He always acts happy at school, but he's may be very upset when we're together. I'm starting to wonder if he's pretending to be happy around me, too, because I warned him that finding his parents may not be such a good idea.

I should have kept my stupid mouth shut. He's really upset, now. He said he's been trying to act as if he's okay, because he knows he'll feel better in time. He said he feels horrible for lying to me. I tried to tell him that it's no big deal, that I was just worried about him. He was almost crying at recess, and Diamond Tiara saw the chance and took it. I had to tackle Featherweight out of the air to keep him from fighting her. I messed up his wing pretty bad. Diamond Tiara is in big trouble, and Featherweight is at the hospital. He was screaming... His wing was all bent wrong. Even Diamond Tiara looked worried for a second, before putting that bratty, smarty-hooves smile back on her face. I'm so stupid. I should have just kept quiet.

I wrote a get well soon card for Featherweight and gave it to Miss Cheerilee to have everypony sign. Diamond Tiara had the nerve to say that "nopony really likes Featherweight," Miss Cheerilee took her out of the classroom and walked her home, saying that what she said was "completely unacceptable." At least we don't have to deal with her this afternoon, but poor Featherweight. I really hope he is okay. It was an accident. I didn't mean to hurt him, he's just so... scrawny. I'm so stupid.

I went straight to the hospital after school. I didn't even tell Mom and Dad where I was. Featherweight was asleep.

Somepony brought him the plushie Rarity made of me. I guess his dad has visited. I didn't see Shutter Speed, though.

They said his wing is broken in five places... It was an accident. Why didn't I just keep my mouth shut? I hope he's okay. I hope he's not hurting... What is my problem? Why am I so dumb?

Mom found me at the hospital. She told me I needed to go home, and said that sitting around the hospital while he is asleep isn't helping anypony. I'm mad at Mom. I wanted to be there to tell Featherweight how sorry I was when he woke up. It's my fault he's stuck in that place. I hate hospitals, but this is my fault! I need to go see him.

I am sneaking out of my window after Mom and Dad go to bed. I'm going to go see Featherweight one way or another.

Featherweight was awake when I got to the hospital, but he told me to go home, that it was late, and that he would be fine. I told him I was so sorry, and left my note under his pillow, when the doctor helped him up to re-wrap his wing. I couldn't leave him without something to tell him how much I cared. He probably feels even more lonely in that place. The nurse made me leave after she finished helping Featherweight, telling me it wasn't visiting hours. Stupid rules. I just want him to be better. This is my fault.

I just got back home, Mom and Dad are still asleep. It's late.

Entry 232:

The page has a couple shaky sketches of a scrawny pegasus.

I was almost late to school. I am so tired. I hope Featherweight is okay. I haven't been able to focus on anything Miss Cheerilee has said. I keep yawning, and my eyes won't stay open. I asked Sweetie Belle if she would take notes for Featherweight, since I am having such a tough time, today.

I fell asleep before recess, and Miss Cheerilee woke me back up when it ended, asking me if I slept well last night. I told her that I was worried all night about Featherweight. I didn't tell her I snuck out of the house, but I bet that didn't help, either.

This afternoon I was a bit more awake, but I still wasn't able to pay attention to Miss Cheerilee. I kept thinking about Featherweight. What if he feels lonely? What if he's mad at me? He seemed upset last night. I shouldn't have gone. I shouldn't have said anything, yesterday. I'm a terrible pony.

I went to see Featherweight, and he was awake this time. He told me he was happy to see me, but I am not sure if he meant it. I think I made him upset when I asked him if he was serious. He's just so good at pretending everything is alright, sometimes I have to make sure. I asked him if he really wanted me to be there, or if he was just being nice. He said that he was serious, that he was happy I was there, especially as lonely as he has been. He said he couldn't stop thinking about his parents while he was here, since he had nothing else to do. I almost ran away, right then. He asked me what was wrong, and I told him nothing. He knew I was lying, I could see it, but he didn't ask again.

Just before visiting hours ended, I put another note under his pillow, and realized he hadn't found yesterday's note. I decided hiding them wasn't a good idea, since he has trouble moving around without help. I gave him both notes and patted his good shoulder. I wanted to give him a big hug, but I didn't want to make things even worse.

I spent the evening with my other friends. They all asked how Featherweight was. I told them he was still sore, and felt lonely. I asked why they didn't visit. They said that they thought I needed time with him. Why would I need anything? He's the one who is in the hospital. I almost got mad at them for not visiting. I told them they should come with me, tomorrow.

Apple Bloom had to pay for Ocean Breeze's snack at Sugarcube Corner. He ran out of money. He was so embarrassed. I almost laughed, as upset as I am. He still hasn't learned money very well. He's getting better, but he's still not very good.

Entry 233:

More drawings of a scrawny pegasus, one sketch of a pony's face with a gap in its front teeth.

I wasn't very focused again today. I just couldn't pay much attention. I just want to visit Featherweight. As much as I can't stand hospitals, this is all my fault, and I don't want him feeling lonely, especially right now.

At recess, I asked Miss Cheerilee if I could go visit Featherweight. She told me it was too far to get there, visit him, and come back. I was upset, but I guess she's right. She told me she's sure I am upset, but letting him rest and heal is just as important as visiting him. Again, I guess she's right, but I am still worried about him. I hope he is doing alright. I hope he isn't hurting.

Diamond Tiara came up to me while I was writing, and told me my "twig of a coltfriend" is probably happy to be away from me. I wanted to buck her in the face so bad, but I don't want to get in trouble again. If I got sent home again, mom might not let me visit Featherweight at the hospital.

Featherweight told me the letters were wonderful, and helped him keep his mind off his parents.

He is still really sore. He rolled over to talk to me and twisted his wing a bit. He almost started crying. I felt so bad for him. I don't even know how bad it hurts. He's tough, even if he's so flimsy. I don't remember him hurting this bad last time he was here.

I just realized, I've put him in the hospital twice. What is wrong with me?

The nurse brought him a bag of something to stop him from hurting, since he was having trouble talking, he hurt so bad.

Sweetie Belle and Pipsqueak came to visit Featherweight, too. Apple Bloom is with Ocean Breeze. They're walking to Port Mane with Cherry Tart to get Ocean Breeze's allowance.

Featherweight said he was happy to see them, and that he enjoyed having some company. Sweetie Belle pointed at me and said that he already had company, and he blushed. He said he was embarrassed that he said it like that.

He said he meant that he enjoyed knowing how much his friends cared. He said he was sorry to me two or three times. I knew what he meant, he didn't have to say he was sorry. He kept talking really slowly, and repeating things a lot.

I left Featherweight another note before I went home. I wonder why he was acting so odd. It must have been the stuff they gave him. At least he isn't hurting, now.

Entry 234:

The top half of the page is a drawing of a familiar scrawny pegasus in a hospital bed.

Today was the same as the other days at school lately. We have a test tomorrow. I will probably do a terrible job. Serves me right for hurting Featherweight.

I visited Featherweight, again. He has to lay in this strange thing to keep his wing propped outward. He said it hurts, and he can't get comfortable. He looks really tired. His dad came in to visit, too. He said he has been keeping him company during his morning visiting hours. I feel a lot better knowing he hasn't been all alone when I haven't been there.

I told him and his dad I was so sorry about what happened. Shutter Speed told me it was an accident, an that I didn't need to get so worked up. Featherweight told me he didn't know why I was apologizing. I said this was my fault, and he told me it was his fault. His fault? I am the one who broke his wing!

He told me if I wanted to blame anypony, blame Diamond Tiara. His dad got upset at the name. Apparently, Diamond Tiara has been an issue for Featherweight ever since he started school with her. She made fun of him for being so skinny when they were younger.

Entry 235:

I don't know why I came to school, today. It seems like I can't focus while Featherweight is in that place. Maybe it's because it's my fault.

After class, my friends and I went to visit Featherweight, again. He's still in the weird thing to keep his wing straight. The nurse told him that he will be able to close his wing again, tomorrow. However, he'll have to be very careful. The nurse said that broken wings are very difficult to set correctly, because they're very fragile, and don't rest flat. They have to wrap the wing in a cast that will hold it flat. That sounds very uncomfortable. I just hope he gets better, soon. Nurse Gentle Hooves said he should be able to leave this evening after they do one last series of checks! They said he cannot fly for a month!

It will be winter by the time he can fly again. A whole month! How annoying! Not only that, but he has to be very careful. He'll be able to spend the weekend with me, though!

I'm waiting outside the hospital. Featherweight is finishing his final checks and getting all wrapped up. They said he would be out in an hour or so. Everypony else went home. It's getting a bit chilly out.

Featherweight and I went to his house to see his dad and tell him the news. His dad was happy to see him. He said he'd help make sure Featherweight kept his wing safe.

We spent the rest of the evening at Dad's house. Mom looked upset when she heard "no flying for a month" and said that she would go crazy if she had to stay off her wings for a whole month. I'm just happy I can spend time with him, again, without nurses telling me when I have to leave.

Overdose (♫)

Entries 236-241

Entry 236:

A letter is tucked into this page, written in hasty script, angled forward, with narrow loops, and sharp points. The envelope is stamped "CANTERLOT POST" and has a return address:

"Blazemane

5021 Starswirl Blvd.

Canterlot, Equestria 1R5 5F0]

Dear Scootaloo,

Sorry it took so long to write to you, but I just found your address, again! A frowning face is drawn below the exclamation mark.

How have you been? I've been practicing a lot, lately! Next time I see you, you better be ready to race!

See you, soon!

Blazemane"

Featherweight and I are staying at his house, today. He said he doesn't really feel like moving around, much. He said he is still getting used to the cast, and it hurts, because it's heavier than he's used to, so his shoulder hurts a bit. It's always funny when I visit Featherweight at his house. He walks around the house with the me-plushie. I don't know if it's because I'm there, or not, but it's cute.

We spent the afternoon chatting, his dad got out some picture books. I had seen some of the pictures, before, but I hadn't seen a lot of them. Some were pictures Featherweight had taken, others were of Featherweight as a little foal, and others were of Shutter Speed and Featherweight. Shutter Speed said he had to use a tripod, but he wanted pictures of them together in case something happened to him. I wish I had more pictures of my parents, or Auntie Raincloud.

One of the books was a bunch of pictures of me flying and taking pictures. I couldn't help but laugh. He told me that I was his favorite picture subject. He's so sweet! I was just so embarrassed, though!

Mom brought me a letter from Blazemane on her lunch break. I wrote to her, and remembered I needed to write to Wild Wisp. I was so upset the day she sent me her letter, that I forgot! I hope she isn't upset! I also wrote to Miss Winter Winds.

Featherweight has so many pictures! Shutter Speed has boxes of pictures, books of pictures, pictures in frames, pictures, everywhere! He keeps most of them in the basement, because that is where his darkroom is, and because that is where he has space.

Featherweight and I spent the afternoon watching the pegasi move the clouds around from the window. His dad had to get stuff for dinner. Featherweight said it was going to be uncomfortable carrying a saddlebag, since he can't put it on his back. I didn't even think about that. He can't put anything on his wing that will move it too much.

Featherweight couldn't get comfortable on the couch. He had to sit in one of the chairs from the table. When he sat on the couch he kept trying to keep his weight off his wing, and couldn't relax. This is going to be a long month for him, I bet.

He told me that being unable to fly isn't going to be nearly as annoying as how uncomfortable he is. He said he has to lay on the side he doesn't usually sleep on, and that it feels weird. I wish I could do something.

Featherweight walked me home, he was so cold. He doesn't deal with the cold very well, and winter is on its way!

Entry 237:

A letter is tucked into the page, written in neat, upright script, with wide loops and soft curves. The envelope is stamped "CLOUDSDALE POST" "WEATHERPONY RATE" and has a return address:

"Winter Winds

2155 Nimbus Ln.

Cloudsdale, Equestria 2V6 5H3

Dear Scootaloo,

It has been very busy, lately. We are getting ready for the winter! I love winter, as I'm sure you could guess. It's my favorite. I love the beauty of the snow, and I love the cold. I don't enjoy it when it's hot, so I really enjoy the fall and winter.

I'm sorry to hear your coltfriend is hurt. I hope he has a speedy recovery and can get back into the air! A month is a long time! He will probably have to work his wings out for a while before he can fly like he used to. Take care of him, and I'm sure he will be fine.

Don't be so hard on yourself, though. We all make mistakes. I knocked two teeth out of my friend Silverwing's mouth when we were playing stormball in school. Accidents happen, and you should just be happy you meant to do the right thing. You don't want a lot of fights on your school record, after all!

I hope things get better, and I hope to see you again, sometime.

Best wishes,

Winter Winds"

I made Featherweight come with me to the Carousel Boutique. I told Rarity I needed a sweater for Featherweight that would fit safely over his cast. He was so embarrassed, but let Rarity take his measurements. She was very careful not to bump his hurt wing. She said she would be happy to do it, free of charge.

We spent the afternoon with Sweetie Belle. She said she has been thinking of ways to get our cutie marks all day. She said we should see what Apple Bloom was doing, and try to get our cutie marks, today. I told her that I would love to, but I want to make sure Featherweight is okay. He said he would be happy to watch us try to get our cutie marks.

Apple Bloom went to Zecora's with Ocean Breeze, so we decided to go to the clubhouse and play games. Poor Featherweight still can't get comfortable with the weird cast. Hopefully he will get used to it, soon. I bet it's really annoying.

Sweetie Belle got in trouble with Rarity when we got back to the Boutique, and had to help Rarity clean up all her thread. Featherweight looks cute in his new sweater, it's green with black on the ends. I just hope it keeps him warm, he's so skinny it doesn't take much for him to start shivering!

We went to Dad's house after Featherweight got his sweater. A letter from Miss Winter Winds was on the table for me. I felt better knowing I'm not the only pony who has accidentally hurt somepony I cared about.

I hope Featherweight will be okay at school, tomorrow. He's still getting used to the cast. He gets so upset when he tries to relax and has to keep moving around to keep from putting weight on the sore wing.

Entry 238:

I left the house early to help Featherweight to school. I carried his saddlebags for him, because I didn't want him to fight with it. He wore his sweater to school. Of course Diamond Tiara made fun of him.

School is still boring, but I am focusing better, now that Featherweight is back in class.

Featherweight was embarrassed when Diamond Tiara said he must have gotten it used. She said he couldn't afford anything else. I told her that it was made just for him and she said the only reason he would have anything specially made would be because he was "too scrawny" to wear "real ponies' clothes."

She drives me crazy. Featherweight tried to stay calm, but she kept going. She said he was a "skinny freak with stupid teeth." He finally got so upset that he made her cry. He told her that she only made fun of other ponies because her parents didn't pay attention to her. He said they wouldn't want to, because she's such a spoiled brat that they're probably embarrassed. At first she was angry, but after Featherweight stomped off, I am pretty sure she started crying. I almost felt sorry for her.

I asked Featherweight if he was okay, and he said that she seems to know all the worst ways to upset him. He said she makes fun of how little money he has, how he's skinny, and his teeth and ears. I told him not to let her get to him, as hard as that is. He said he tries, but that she always knows how to hurt him. He said he was thinking about getting braces, except that he can't afford them.

I told him not to listen to anything she said. I said if he wanted to do something to his teeth for himself, that was one thing, but that he shouldn't do anything for her. Especially for her. I said I thought his teeth were cute, and he turned bright red, it was so funny! I told him not to think about her, just to worry about his friends and family.

After school, my friends and I all went to Sugarcube Corner, and Ocean Breeze offered to pay for everypony's treats. Featherweight looked upset, and I told Ocean Breeze he needed to pay better attention to his money, after all, he just ran out a couple of weeks ago. Featherweight said he wasn't hungry and left, so I followed him.

I asked him what was wrong, and he said he hated that he couldn't give me all the gifts Ocean Breeze gave Apple Bloom. He said he loved his dad, but that they have to be very careful what they spend, because he doesn't make a lot of money, and he doesn't have a mom to help with the money problem. I never thought of that, it must be very tough. I haven't thought much of money since I was on my own. I forgot how difficult it is to deal with money when you're always short. I don't know how to help, though. I would give him some of my allowance, but I feel like that would make him feel worse. I don't know what to do.

Featherweight told me not to worry about him, that he was just having a rough day. That's exactly why I would worry about him! I hate seeing him upset.

Entry 239:

I helped Featherweight with his saddlebags again today. I think I'm going to help him every morning until he can wear his saddlebags again. I just feel like I should.

Diamond Tiara was very quiet today. She didn't even say anything to us all day. It's really weird. Usually at recess she finds all my friends and says something mean to all of us. She seemed upset.

Silver Spoon came up to me and Featherweight after school and asked what we said to Diamond Tiara. Featherweight told her what he said yesterday, and she seemed upset. She told us that Diamond Tiara has had problems with her dad ignoring her all the time. He's so busy he rarely talks to her, unless he wants her to do something. Featherweight told me after she left that he almost felt sorry for Diamond Tiara.

Featherweight is still having trouble with his cast. He was really upset today. He said he sometimes gets very mad because he can't get comfortable. He said broken wings must be one of the most annoying things to deal with. Maybe he's right, I would hate not being able to lay how I wanted. That would be so annoying!

Entry 240:

The page has a few tear stains on it

Diamond Tiara was herself again, today. She was maybe even worse than she has been. She kicked dirt all over Featherweight and me. I got really upset and told her Featherweight has to keep his wing clean. She said "somepony as poor as him will never be clean" and I almost bucked her in the face. I let her win and went back to Featherweight. I helped him check to make sure he was alright, and didn't have to have his wing wrapped again. He's going to the hospital after school just in case.

I waited outside that place for Featherweight. He came out with a clean wrapping on his wing. Nurse Gentle Hooves told him that he needed to be more careful, because he will have to have the cast longer if it gets all dirty. He seems really upset.

I asked Featherweight what was wrong, he told me he heard what Diamond Tiara told me. He was almost crying, again. I told him not to worry about that brat, but he was too upset. I gave him a hug as best I could with his cast. He said he wishes he had just lost his wing. He said he hates this cast, and he hates how uncomfortable he is. I told him he needed to calm down, but he was just so upset. I feel worthless when he gets like this. What good am I if I can't cheer him up?

He finally calmed down after a while, but I think he just made himself tired, he still seemed upset. I wrote him another note and left it in his room on his pillow while he was helping his dad with dinner. I wish he wasn't like this! He doesn't deserve to be so upset. He's a wonderful colt, and this is so unfair!

Entry 241:

Poor Featherweight. He gets so annoyed by his wing's cast. He says it's not even that he can't fly, just that it's so uncomfortable. It's heavy for a wing, and it has to stay flat down, so he can't stretch his wing out.

At recess, he kept fighting his cast. He was so upset. I felt horrible.

I still feel like this is all my fault. I shouldn't have been so careless when I stopped him. He wouldn't be wearing that stupid thing if it weren't for me. He wouldn't have had to be in the hospital if it weren't for me. I don't understand why he likes to be around me. I always do dumb stuff like this.

Featherweight keeps asking me what's wrong, but I don't want to tell him. I already know what he'll do. I want to disappear. I don't want to be his problem anymore. He deserves better than this.

"Dear Scootaloo,

I took this while you were ordering your food at Sugarcube Corner. We need to talk.

Featherweight"

Oh no... oh no, oh no, oh no!

A Weight Is Lifted (♫)

Entries 248-255

Entry 248:

This will seem strange, but Pinkie Pie was everywhere today! Not like... she was crazy like usual, but there were lots and lots of... her...? Them? Oh gee, more than one Pinkie Pie?

After school, there was a stampede... of Pinkie Pie...s? I brought a cloud down low enough, and flew Featherweight and me up into the sky, we didn't even want to know what was going on. We were exhausted just seeing all the Pinkie Pies.

We were worried with all the hopping and jumping and... general Pinkie Pie things that he could hurt his wing. It's the first time we've been in the clouds together in a couple weeks.

I had a great time chatting with Featherweight, and I felt really good to be up in the clouds with him again. He said he really has missed flying, even though  he was more concerned about just getting the stuff off. He said the thoughts of flying aren't nearly as frustrating as not being able to stretch and move his wings in general.

Entry 249:

I waited outside the hospital for Featherweight to finish his checkup this morning. He is still healing very well! The doctor said he may be able to have his cast off a week early, but he still won't be able to fly for that last week. Nurse Redcross said it was too late to see for sure, but that if he continues to take care of his wing so well, he should be fine.

Featherweight said he's going to spend some time with his dad this weekend, so I won't be seeing him much this weekend. I hope he's going to be okay. His dad is a good pony, though, he'll take care of Featherweight.

I spent time with Sweetie Belle, this afternoon. We spent time cleaning up the clubhouse. It was quite a mess. It looks brand new, now! Applejack even helped us repaint the outside! No more chips in the paint!

Apple Bloom caught up with us after a little while. She was with Ocean Breeze getting things for our Harvest Day float. We're going to make a big pumpkin! Ocean Breeze said he and Cherry Tart have to leave for Port Mane the week of the parade. It's too bad he'll miss it, but Featherweight will probably take lots of pictures.

Entry 250:

I have been reading up on how to make floats, I'm going to get the float moving this week. This is fun! I like getting to work with these gears and pieces.

Twilight helped me figure out how to get the wheels working. She said she had just read a book on making this stuff the other day. She was studying parades and history and blah blah blah. It was nice of her to help out, but I know more about the history of parades now than I really wanted to know.

Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle are decorating, and even though Pipsqueak didn't want to ride in the floats, he's helping out, too. Pipsqueak said he'd rather cheer us on. Featherweight won't be on the float, either said he wants to get some good photos, and "besides, it's the Cutie Mark Crusaders float."

I got to talk to Featherweight for a little while this evening. He says he's doing fine. I told him I missed talking to him today. He said I need to spend time with my other friends, too. He said he heard Sweetie Belle talking about how she and Apple Bloom missed spending time as the Cutie Mark Crusaders. I'm going to have to start having a day every now and then, just us three. I didn't realize they felt like that.

Entry 251:

School today was more talk about the parade coming up, as if Twilight didn't talk my ear off the other day. I'm still excited, though. The pumpkin looks so cool!

This is the last major harvest before fall begins, so it's a big deal. We celebrate for a day, and then all the farmponies get to work for the winter months. We live close enough to Port Mane that food isn't too expensive if we don't have enough from town, but it's still a big event.

Actually, it's gotten pretty cold a couple times already, and fall doesn't even start for another couple of weeks. I mean, Ponyville isn't really known for getting too hot, but it has been chilly a couple times.

We get next week off. So many ponies have family in the parade, and they all help with their floats, that Miss Cheerilee decided we don't have school the week of the parade.

At recess, we told some of the other ponies we made a float. Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon came over and said I was lying for attention. She said she wouldn't believe us until she saw our float. I hope she doesn't find it before the parade, she could mess it all up!

Featherweight came to look at the float, and said it looks fantastic! He said he was amazed that it worked like a real float! I feel so proud of myself for getting it to work!

Pipsqueak, Ocean Breeze, and Featherweight, Twist, and Dinky helped us finish painting the float, and get everything into place. Next week is the big event!

I got in a bit of flight practice with mom this evening. She told me that just because Featherweight is grounded doesn't mean I should be letting myself get rusty. I haven't flown as much as I used to, because I don't really have anypony to fly with. Too bad Blazemane lives too far away, and my other friends from Camp are even father.

I definitely am slower than I used to be, I need to practice my form again.

Entry 252:

Featherweight has to go to the hospital at recess, it's his last checkup before they maybe take his wrap off. He still won't be able to fly for a week, but at least he will be able to stretch his wings. He has to go in all of next week (except the day of the parade) to work his wings out and build up his strength, again.

At recess, Sweetie Bell, Apple Bloom and I decided what else we could get our cutie marks for. We think it'd be really cool to get them before the parade, and show them off from the float!

Featherweight says if everything goes well, they'll take the wrap off in two days! They did a bit of exercise with him to see how he was doing, and said he should be fine. They said his wing is mostly healed, that they want to keep it on for a couple more days, just in case, but that by next week, he should be ready to get himself flying, again.

Featherweight went to Fluttershy's. He said he would meet me later, that I should spend time with Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom. He said he heard us talking about getting our marks before the parade and said this afternoon was a perfect time to give it a shot.

Dad had to help us out. We're not ribbon dancers, and we made a huge knot, and by knot, I mean, including us...  Dad suggested we try something that wouldn't make a big mess. I don't think he meant to, but Sweetie Belle seemed upset when she heard that. Dad apologized, but I think it stuck with her. After Dad left, Sweetie Belle said she still hears enough of that at home. She says Rarity is still always saying all she does is make messes. She said it's not as bad as it used to be, but she still feels like nothing other than a clumsy pony who will never get her cutie mark.

I know she's wrong about that, but she won't ever listen to me. She may be a bit clumsy, but she's the nicest filly I know. She will get her cutie mark, one day. She said she didn't feel like trying anything else this afternoon, so we went inside. I felt bad for her. Dad felt bad, too. He talked to me after they left and said he didn't mean to make her so upset. I told him that Rarity is always on her about making messes and he seemed disappointed. I told him things would be okay, but he still looked embarrassed.

I'm getting back into flying correctly. I was a lot faster today, once I started thinking about what Miss Winter Winds told me, and I did what she said, and I picked up my speed quite a bit!

Featherweight came to show me his new pet, Dart the Hummingbird. She's a black and green hummingbird and she's perfect for him. She's really quiet, and very friendly, just like him! She's really pretty, too!

Entry 253:

Tomorrow is the day! Featherweight gets his wrap off!

Apple Bloom told us she might have family visiting next week, so she may be busy. She said she will still be with us on the float, but we may have her cousin with her.

Featherweight said he can't wait to get the wrap off. He said it's not nearly as bad as his cast was, but that he hates not being able to stretch his wings. He said he gets really bad wing cramps from it from time to time. He saw I was upset and told me it wasn't my fault. He said he told me before, he shouldn't have let Diamond Tiara get to him.

After school, Featherweight and I went to Sugarcube Corner to celebrate his wrap being off, tomorrow. He won't be in class in the morning, because the doctors only had time early. I told Featherweight I'd get him whatever he liked, and then that featherbrain went and paid for my strawberry cheesecake and his pumpkin pie! I wanted to bop him. He thought it was funny.

Sweetie Belle came to tell me she had learned some little magic tricks, but that she seemed more often to do magic by accident. She made some sparks from her horn, then sneezed and accidentally lit some hay on fire. I got water and put it out, but Sweetie Belle was so upset. She said she can't do anything right. I ought to bop her, too. I told her magic is tricky, that she wasn't going to become Twilight overnight.

Featherweight and I reassured Sweetie Belle that she's not just a bunch of accidents waiting to happen. She said she feels like the last thing she did right was help out Apple Bloom back when we first met her. I told her she has been one of the nicest ponies I've met, even still, today. She said that's not that big of a deal. I was amazed. Not that big of a deal? If she hadn't been my friend when I first came to town, who knows what would have happened? I was almost hurt that she thought that. I'm upset whenever she gets like this, and it's pretty common, but for her to shrug off her best quality as "no big deal" really upset me.

Entry 254:

I can't wait to see Featherweight! He will be at school just before recess. It's chilly today, I hope he brought his sweater.

He did. Good. I was afraid I was going to hear about a skinny pony frozen outside the hospital. [drawing of Featherweight with icicles hanging from his nose, with the caption "Like this."]

Featherweight kept moving his wings around. He was told by the nurses to keep moving his wings to get the muscles back to regular strength. He looked so silly. He kept flapping his wings while he was talking, taking notes, and just sitting in class. I heard Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon making jokes, but either Featherweight didn't, or he was ignoring them.

Featherweight said he can't fly yet, but that he really liked being able to stretch his wings. We went to spend time with his dad and Dart. Shutter Speed told me it had been a while. I hadn't even realized that I hadn't visited Featherweight's actual house in so long. He got us each a slice of chocolate pie and we talked about the float, and Featherweight. Shutter Speed said he would make sure Featherweight was getting his wings back into shape. He said both he and Featherweight would be taking pictures of the parade. Featherweight said he would be focused mainly on his friends. Shutter Speed is taking pictures to make into postcards for Ponyville, so he will be taking pictures of everything interesting he sees.

I wrote Sweetie Belle a letter tonight telling her how special she was to me, and that she needed to cheer up. I told her if she was upset she could always talk to me.

I know how she feels better than she knows, after all.

Entry 255:

A note in neatly written script is tucked into the page.

"Dear Scootaloo,

Thank you for the kind words. I know I was a real fussy filly the other day. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get you all worried. I know I'm not just a big mistake. I just have days where it feels like nothing goes right, or even if they do, I manage to mess things up in the process.

I would really like to talk to you sometime, if you're free. I never really know how to ask, since you spend so much time with Featherweight (not that there's anything wrong with that! Don't think I am mad you have other good friends. Besides, you two are an awesome couple!) If you have this week, I'd definitely like to talk. If you are busy, that's okay, though.

Don't worry about me, though. I am fine, really. Some days are just rough, but everypony has rough days. It happens.

Your friend,

Sweetie Belle"

The back of the previous diary page has a bunch of math written all over it.

I went to visit Sweetie Belle, today. I told her she has a lot to be proud of. I said she has a good singing voice, she always tried to do the right thing, and that I'm happy she's my friend. I got her a slice of vanilla cake (she loves vanilla) from Sugarcube Corner and we went to the clubhouse. Apple Bloom was busy helping Applejack and Big Mac get ready for the harvest, so it was just us two.

I told her she was really smart, and that I wished I could be that smart, but I hate to study, and I just don't learn very well. She told me if I ever needed help, I could always ask her, she'd be happy to help. I felt silly that I had never thought to ask before. She helped me do some math. I think I get it better, but she's still way better, and way faster than I am.

Pipsqueak and Featherweight met us at the clubhouse, and we went to the playground. We played on the swings and had a really good time. We hadn't been able to play on the playground without dealing with Diamond Tiara for a while. Miss Cheerilee came out and brought us snacks. She said she was just cleaning up the schoolhouse when she saw us outside. We thanked her for the treats and talked with her for a while before she went back to finish cleaning up. She said she likes big breaks, because she gets a lot of time to get the schoolhouse looking all nice and neat.

We offered to help her. We got all the books on the shelves, cleaned desks, and swept the floor. Miss Cheerilee was very happy, and thanked us for our help. I'm always happy to help Miss Cheerilee. She's the best teacher, ever!

The four of us left the schoolhouse and went to see if Apple Bloom was done for the afternoon. We found her at Ocean Breeze's. She was having dinner with him and Cherry Tart. We all played games and told Ocean Breeze goodbye. He is going with his parents to check on the new place at Oxbow Lake, again. He's learning what to look for, and how to handle whatever they find. Always with the business stuff.

Three Becomes Four (♫)

Entries 256-262

Entry 256:

Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom, and I are going to pick up Apple Bloom's cousin, Babs Seed. She doesn't have a cutie mark, either! Hopefully she'll join the Crusaders! Then there will be four of us! Maybe she'll tell us about Manehattan. I've never been there.

She didn't seem too impressed with our clubhouse. I'm almost a bit upset, that's like a second home to me. We're going to show her the float we made for the parade this afternoon. I hope she likes it.

Great. Just great. Now there's three of them. Diamond Tiara, Silver Spoon, and Babs have all teamed up to make our lives miserable. Babs even broke our float. That took so long to make. I don't even feel like making another one, what's to stop her from doing it again? We're not going to tell on her, though, We're not snitches.

Sweetie Belle is really upset. She keeps talking about how she was so proud of the float. She says she always feels like she's making mistakes, and she was actually proud of herself. Babs has a lot of nerve to do this to Sweetie Belle. I'm upset, but poor Sweetie Belle.

Entry 257:

We're doing everything we can to avoid Babs for the rest of the week. She'll be gone, soon, and we won't have to worry about her. At least when we outnumber our bullies, they don't bother us at every chance they get. This week is going to be terrible.

We're not safe anywhere in town. We're going back to the clubhouse to wait this all out.

I need a minute. I told the girls that I would catch up to them back in Apple Bloom's room. Babs, Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon stole our clubhouse! It took us a while to get Sweetie Belle to stop crying, but I didn't have a chance to let go of my anger. I'm going to talk to Featherweight, I need someone to talk to.

I told Featherweight I want to get Babs back for all the thing she's done to us (in only two days, no less!) He said that was a bad idea. He said I need to treat Babs just like the other bullies. I need to do what I can to ignore her, and it'll pass. He said that Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon won't want the clubhouse when Babs leaves, and the more of a reaction we give them, the more they'll bother us. He just doesn't understand. That's ours! We're going to get her back, I just have to figure out how.

Poor Sweetie Belle is still upset, she started crying again. She said that the clubhouse was the only place where nopony was mean to her. I kind of feel bad that I haven't been talking to her much, lately. She said not to be upset, that Pipsqueak has been there for her. I still feel bad. We have to give Babs a taste of her own medicine.

I got an idea! We're going to make a new float, and we're going to rig it to fall apart in the middle of the parade and throw Babs into the mud. Maybe after she's seen what we can do, she'll learn not to mess with us.

Tonight we're going to put the new float together. I have the things we need as long as Apple Bloom gets a timer.

We got it all made. This is going to be great! I thought for a moment I had my cutie mark, but it was just oil from when I rolled over on my wrench by accident.

Entry 258:

Page has smudges that appear to be from mud.

I'm kind of sad about the float, it looks really nice. It'll totally be worth it, though.

Well, I feel horrible, now. Poor Babs has been picked on at home, and was just trying not to be picked on while she was here. We became a bunch of bullies trying to get her back! I guess Featherweight was right.

Applejack says we should have just talked to her. Sweetie Belle says we should have listened to her. I feel pretty bad.

We're going to elect Babs into the Cutie Mark Crusaders, now that we know what she's dealing with. I still feel terrible for being so mean to her. I mean, she started it, I guess, but still. That's no reason to act like we did.

Note to self: revise the initiation script.

Entry 259:

We invited over everypony to meet our new member. Pipsqueak, Featherweight, Twist, and Dinky were all really nice to Babs. She said she was really sorry about how she acted. Part of me is still hurt, thinking about losing the clubhouse, but she seems like she means it. Sweetie Belle forgave her already, but that's just how she is.

I did pull Babs aside and tell her how Sweetie Belle felt about what happened the other day. I couldn't keep my mouth shut. I was so bothered by how upset Sweetie Belle was. She went over to Sweetie Belle and gave her a hug and apologized for ruining the float and taking the clubhouse. Sweetie Belle acted like it never happened and said everything was fine, now. Sometimes I worry she'll let ponies walk all over her, like Fluttershy.

Featherweight made sure to tell me he told me so. I told him he's lucky he's still recovering or I'd have bopped him. He laughed.

He told me the doctors say he'll be able to fly in just a couple days! I'm pretty excited!

Babs asked what was wrong, so I told her what happened, and she looked pretty upset. She said she couldn't believe she was nice to those ponies.

Speaking of Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon, I haven't seen them around today, which is good.

Entry 260:

The page has the following scribbled on the side of it:

"Babs Seed

7824 Thorntree St.

Manehattan, Equestria 7KA 8H4"

Babs gave us her mailing address, so we can write to her when we have something to share. I'll need to add it to my list at home.

We spent the day trying to think up new ways to get our cutie marks. We didn't figure out anything good. Eventually, we started telling Babs the things we'd already tried.

Babs wrote down a few she hadn't tried at home, when we listed off things we'd done. She said she'd give them a shot when she got home.

When I got home in the evening, Mom and Dad asked why I didn't talk to them about Babs. I said I didn't want to be a snitch, and mom said sometimes I need to talk to somepony to fix things.

I'm kind of nervous what Mom would've done, really. A lot of the page is filled with a drawing of Rainbow Dash bucking a door, with Babs hiding, looking scared on the other side.

She wouldn't have done that, but you never know.

Entry 261:

Apple scented smudges dot the page.

Today Apple Bloom had to help with the harvest. She said it's going to get cold quick, and Applejack and Big Mac need all the help they can get. She said she'll be fetching buckets and helping however she can all day. Babs offered to help, so we're all going to do what we can. Today's her last day, here.

Wow, I'm exhausted. Apple harvest is a lot of work. We didn't even buck any trees, we were just fetching things and we were all worn out by the end of the night.

We helped Babs pack up and told her we'd see her at the station in the morning. I stopped by Featherweight's house before I went home. He said he should be able to fly again really soon! It's about time!

Dad asked how things were going with Babs. I told him she leaves tomorrow, and that we're good friends, now. He seemed relieved. He said he didn't want another pony I have to worry about bullying me.

Entry 262:

We saw Babs off, she stood up for us when Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon decided to pick on us before she left town. Silver Spoon seemed almost afraid at the mention of her mom. It was funny to see Diamond Tiara covered in mud.

Featherweight met me after we left the station, and he was flying! He said the doctors told him he could fly now, but he had to be careful for a while. They told him not to fly if his wings felt stiff or sore. We spent the afternoon in the clouds playing around. He said he feels great, being able to fly again.

We did have to stop every now and then to let him rest, but it felt great. Mom found us and we all flew around for a while. She finally left after a bit, there's a rainstorm scheduled for this evening.

We went to Featherweight's house for dinner. During dinner, Featherweight said he found Sweetie Belle, before he found me. She apparently said she felt special that I was so worried about her the other day.

Featherweight tells me that Sweetie Belle sees me like I see Mom. He says she really looks up to me. I don't know about that, but I do know if anypony messed with her that they'd have to deal with me.

Of Amulets and Awards (♫)

Entries 263-271

Entry 263:

Featherweight came to fly with me to school today. I didn't want to race him, just yet. He's still not as fast as he used to be, and he can still hurt his wing if he's not careful.

Today in class we started Family Appreciation Days, again. I'm scheduled for tomorrow. I'm the first one. Last time we did these, I couldn't go. I'm gonna bring in Mom if she can do it. Mom's the coolest mare in Equestria!

Diamond Tiara griped about Babs "betraying" her all recess, calling Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom and me blank flanks who knows how many times. Featherweight and I flew up into the clouds after a while, everypony else just kind of ignored her.

After school, Featherweight and I flew around for a while, again. He is flying pretty well. He said he can't tell how much slower he is, because he hasn't been able to fly for so long. He's not too slow. He's just slower than he was. I'm not even trying to, and I feel like I could easily outfly him. We flew around a bit with Dart, and eventually went to the cafe.

Haha! I paid for our food today! I didn't let Featherweight get the bill! Victory!

Entry 264:

For Family Appreciation Day, Dad is coming in. Mom had to take care of a big storm to make up for the rain we didn't get during the day of the parade. She said I should get home quick after school.

After everything from last week, Dad gave a talk about bullying. He said bullying was a big problem in Phillydelphia. He said he remembered having to work some scary scenes where foals were pretty badly hurt, or other foals who were too scared to go to school. He told everypony to tell a teacher, parent, or older pony they trusted if they were constantly being bullied "because staying quiet lets the bullies win. Bullies want you to be too afraid to tell on them."

Something horrible happened. That Trixie unicorn came back to town, challenged Twilight to a duel, and kicked Twilight out of town! Dad tried to stop her, too. She trapped him in some box thing. I don't even know if he's okay... I really hope he is...Trixie told mom and her friends that they had to do whatever she said, or she'd go after everypony they cared about. I ran away at that point. I couldn't deal with it. Mom hasn't come home, yet. If she doesn't come home, soon, I'm going to stay at the clubhouse.

I'm all alone, again. I'm so scared that Mom and Dad will be stuck forever... I'm staying at the clubhouse, now. Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom are staying with me. Rarity is stuck having to do what Trixie says, too. Apple Bloom said she wanted to stay with us, so we had somepony else to talk to. We're all worried. Big Mac says everything will be okay. I just don't know...

Entry 265:

We found out Mom and her friends are done. Mom got home late, and I had already left. She went looking, but when she found out I was with Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom, she went home. She knew I'd be safer with my friends, than around her.

Mom told me to stay safe, that she and her friends were going to the library to try and find some way to stop Trixie. I hope they find something.

Featherweight and Pipsqueak came to see if we were okay. They said Ocean Breeze and Cherry Tart got turned back to Port Mane, because Trixie doesn't want any ponies going out or coming into Ponyville without asking her, first. Apple Bloom was pretty upset to find out.

Featherweight tried to cheer me up, but I am so worried. I hope Dad is okay. I hope nothing happens to Mom. What if Mom gets caught? What if I never see Dad again? I don't want to be alone again! I hate it!

I couldn't sleep. I was so worried. Mom stopped by late at night to see if I was doing alright. She said they had a plan. She told me her friends need to get Twilight to help them, and they have an idea. She is worried about Dad, too. She said she doesn't think Trixie would hurt Dad, "yet." Yet? What does she mean by yet?

Entry 266:

I hope whatever Mom and her friends have planned works. I am so worried.

We still haven't heard anything. We're just hiding in the clubhouse, waiting for any news about what is going on.

Big Mac said he needs Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom to come with him. He said I should go to Fluttershy's cottage and stay with Shooting Star. He doesn't want me to sit here, all alone.

Shooting Star said everything will work out alright. He told me Twilight is a clever mare, and she'll help everypony figure this out.

I'm so glad Twilight is so smart. She tricked Trixie into taking off this magical pendant she was wearing, and saved everypony. Sweetie Belle, Big Mac, and Apple Bloom had to dress up as Rarity and Applejack to trick Trixie.

I thanked Zecora for helping us. She said "Never worry, Scootaloo, there will always be friends to help you."

I asked Big Mac why he sent me to Shooting Star instead of having me help. He said he saw how worried I was and didn't want me upset if something went wrong.

I probably would have messed up everything, anyway. I was so worried. I gave dad a big hug when he was freed. He said he was fine, that he was more worried about me and Mom than he was about himself.

I still feel bad for not helping. I thought the whole thing with the crystal monster meant courage was my thing. I guess not.

Featherweight said I am brave, I just also care a lot for my friends and family. He said if I needed to help, that I would have stayed tough, as always.

Entry 267:

Included is a photo of numerous woodland critters swirling around in an infinity pattern, with fireworks behind them.

On the back of the previous page, various activities dot the paper. The list includes "shingling," "astronomy," "chemistry," "wagon repair," "fireponies Apple Jack said 'no.' Tell Apple Bloom not to ask, next time." among others.

Today, Princess Celestia is here with ponies from Saddle Arabia. Twilight is nervous, because she has been asked by Princess Celestia to put on a show for Ponyville's guests.

Rarity is busy setting up her shop for special visitors, and the Apple family is hard at work making treats for everypony.

There's security everywhere. Royal guards are by every shop, and there are guards following the Princess and the Saddle Arabian ponies. With all the guards, there's about twice as many ponies as usual.

Dad is very busy today. The Ponyville Police Department is helping the Royal Guard protect everypony in case something happened.

Fluttershy is really worried about all her animals who are part of the show. They all seem pretty excited, but Fluttershy says they're scared. Angel shook his head. He seems happy. Shooting Star told me Fluttershy is just being Fluttershy. That makes sense, this isn't the first time she's been like this.

Mom is on cloud watch duty, winds from out of town could blow clouds into the sky.

Since everypony is so busy with all the big things going on, the Cutie Mark Crusaders are going to make a list of things to try for our cutie marks.

Twilight is so amazing! She put on a really cool show for everypony. Trixie even helped out before leaving town. She made fireworks to add to the show. She stumbled on the way out of town. I couldn't help but laugh.

Princess Celestia said she was very impressed with Twilight's ability. The Saddle Arabian Princess said she was "most overjoyed" with everypony's hospitality. Dad received special hooflinks from the princess. They were made in Saddle Arabia. Mom got me two postcards from Saddle Arabia. They're signed by the Saddle Arabian princess! She said I could give one to Featherweight. They have pictures of the Saddle Arabian palace. The back has the Saddle Arabian flag. They're really neat!

After Twilight's show, she brought Princess Celestia the amulet, and Princess Celestia said she would put the amulet deep in her vault where nopony would be able to get it. Zecora, Mom, her friends, dad, Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom, Big Mac and I all got special pendants for protecting everypony. I don't know why I got one. I didn't even help. I don't feel like I deserve it. After Princess Celestia left, Mom told me I helped by keeping Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle safe. All we did was sit in the clubhouse. I'm pretty sure she's just trying to make me feel better.

I think I'm going to send my pendant back. I didn't earn it.

Entry 268:

Tucked into the page is a letter from Princess Celestia on a very official looking letterhead.

"Dear Scootaloo,

I appreciate your honesty, and desire to be fair. You may not have been part of the ponies that rescued Trixie from the Alicorn Amulet's curse, however, you are part of your friends' drive to carry on, even through tough times.

Much like Twilight learned when not to push herself past her limits with her magic, you, too, seem aware when not to push your limits. By staying behind and later realizing your fear could have jeopardized your friends, not acting was, indeed, the heroic choice. Even brave warriors know that if the enemy is too strong, surviving and surrendering is sometimes the best, even if painful, choice.

Therefore, dear Scootaloo, I return your pendant, for understanding your limits, and having faith in your friends.

Cherish your friends, always.

Princess Celestia"

I gave Featherweight his postcard, today. He went home and put the postcard in a frame. He said it was a really special gift, I'm glad he liked it.

I wrote a letter explaining what happened, wrapping the pendant inside, and had Spike send it to Princess Celestia.

The Princess just sent the medal back, with a letter! I guess if she really wants me to have it, I'll keep it. Even after reading what she wrote, I don't really know that I should have it.

Dad says he's glad he can finally rest. It's been a few days since he could.He said he's happy everything worked out. I am, too. I'm glad things are back to normal.

Dad and I spent the evening talking. Mom had to set up an even bigger rainstorm this evening, because we went three more days without rain, now.

Dad said he hoped his talk would help, even though everypony was distracted by Trixie coming to town. He said he can't really do a whole lot about the bullies at school unless somepony says something. He said he hopes I understand that I can talk to him if somepony is causing trouble. I know I can, I just hate telling on people. Even after Babs left, I still feel like it's something scaredy foals do.

Entry 269:

Tucked into the page is a letter postmarked "MANEHATTAN POST"

The writing is shaky and barely legible.

"Babs Seed

7824 Thorntree St.

Manehattan, Equestria 7KA 8H4

Hey, Scootaloo! Just sending everypony a letter to see if the addresses work. I talked to my sis about school, and she said she would talk with my teacher about keeping an eye on the foals who pick on me.

I hope I get to see you guys soon! Maybe this winter, or in the spring when I have time off! We'll have to see.

Anyway, I hope you get this, and can read it. Sorry my writing is so sloppy. Applejack can read it to you if you have trouble. She can read my writing.

See you later, Cutie Mark Crusader!

Babs Seed" Her name is in effortfully clearer print.

Sweetie Belle and I are going to go through our lists and decide which ideas we're starting with, first. Apple Bloom went with Applejack to Port Mane to find Ocean Breeze and Cherry Tart.

We think we know what we are going to do. It's too late, today, but Sweetie Belle really wants to go try and find gems, like her sister. She said she would love to surprise Rarity with a matching cutie mark.

We may not have been able to start our new list of ideas, but this evening we DID help Applejack clean the barn and get it ready for painting. We're not sanders, the wood powder kept making me sneeze!

Entry 270:

In school today, Featherweight brought his dad in. He gave a talk on photography and showed some really nice pictures he took. He finished the class by passing around some of Featherweight's pictures. Featherweight was so red in the face, it was funny.

Of course Diamond Tiara would make fun of Featherweight's pictures. She told him that the only reason he was the newspaper photographer when she ran it is because he had his own camera. I almost bucked her in the dirt. His dad donated that camera to the school after Featherweight started working the Foal Free Press. Featherweight is a good photographer!

After school, Ocean Breeze invited all of us to Sugarcube Corner, since he was finally back in town, and had some extra money. Apple Bloom hasn't seen him in about a week and a half, we couldn't say no.

I got a chocolate shake and some strawberry shortcake. Featherbrain paid for it because he didn't want Ocean Breeze to spend all his money. What about Featherweight? I don't want him spending all his money, but he always buys my stuff.

Entry 271:

Applejack came in this year for Family Appreciation Day. She did lasso tricks outside after her talk about working on an apple orchard.

At recess, Apple Bloom said she agreed with Sweetie Belle on starting our list with the gemstone hunting cutie mark. We're going to go right after school. We already have pickaxes and everything ready.

Crafting a Disaster (♫)

Entries 272-275

Entry 272:

Tucked into the page is a "get well soon" letter, with notes from the various ponies in Scootaloo's class. One name is absent from the card.

"I'm so, so sorry! I hope you are okay! - Sweetie Belle"

"Can't wait to have you back in class! Feel better! We miss you! - Apple Bloom"

"Please feel better, soon! I've been missing you, terribly. - Featherweight"

"Get well soon! Sorry you're feeling manky! We well miss you! - Pipsqueak"

"It's been a different class, without you. Heal up real quick! - Ocean Breeze"

"The whole class is terribly sorry you are unwell. We wish you a speedy recovery, and hope to see your smiling face again very soon! - Miss Cheerilee"

"I hope you're okay! - Twist"

"I hope you get to feeling better! We miss you! - Dinky"

"Get well soon! - Silver Spoon"

"I hope you get to feeling better real soon! - Snips"

"Yeah, real soon! - Snails"

"Sorry to hear you're in the hospital! Get well soon! - Chowder"

Among messages from other classmates.

Well, it's safe to say we're not gemfinders. I'm in the hospital. I hate hospitals.

I tried to save Sweetie Belle from some falling rocks, and I guess I got hit. I don't remember anything after knocking Sweetie Belle out of the way. Mom is mad at me for doing something so dangerous without telling anypony. Dad is worried, but he doesn't seem as mad.

I hate hospitals, hate them, hate them, hate them!

Dad told me his story about how he got his cutie mark. It's not really anything fancy, but it's a sweet story. It's not the best, it's not as cool as Mom's.

Who am I kidding? I'd love to have a cutie mark like that, or any for that matter. I hate how long this is taking. I wonder how Mama, Papa, and Auntie Raincloud got their marks... I guess I'll never know that...

Dad has really cheered me up, I'm still stuck in here, but he's keeping my mind off things.

Entry 273:

The writing seems jittery, and is spread out a bit. There are tear stains on the edge of the page.

Nopony is here. I'm alone in this place. I hate hospitals. I HATE hospitals.

I can't find anypony. I feel like I'm the only pony in this place... It smells horrible, and I feel so lonely. I miss Mama, Papa and Auntie Raincloud...

Nurse Redcross had to help somepony down the hall, and had to step out when I woke up. She's here now, but I'm still trying to calm down. Dad had to go to work today. There was a break-in at the jewelry store!

Dad came back. He was pretty upset I woke up before he made it back. It's not his fault.

He spent the day talking about getting his cutie mark, about bullies, and about a friend of his. I didn't know about his friend... if something like that happened to Sweetie Belle or Apple Bloom, I don't know what I would do.

Featherweight came to visit again. Diamond Tiara apparently was making fun of me on the playground and got sent inside for recess. I guess Miss Cheerilee heard her say it 'serves me right' or something. Featherweight was happy she got in trouble, but he still seemed angry when he was telling me about it.

He said everypony else was happy to hear that I was okay. Pipsqueak told him to tell me hello. Apple Bloom had to go home to help get ready for a family reunion they have coming up, but she told Featherweight to wish me the best. Sweetie Belle kept acting upset at school, Featherweight said she still seems to blame herself. I'm gonna have to talk to her, whenever I get out of this stupid place.

I HATE hospitals. They cleaned my cuts. It hurt SO bad...

Featherweight had to head home, but Dad's been talking to me about how much he likes being in Ponyville, and how much he cares about me and Mom.

Entry 274:

I have to do some tests and then I get to go! I may be able to make it to school to talk to everypony!

They let me go! Dad just dropped me off at school. I still have a bunch of bandages, but Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom were so happy to see me! I surprised Featherweight and he gave me a big hug. I'm still a bit sore, but I'm happy to be with my friends again.

Miss Cheerilee said she was excited to see I was out of the hospital. She's not the only one. I don't want to go back there again, ever, if I can help it.

Pinkie Pie (of course) had a big party planned at Sugarcube Corner for me. Featherweight brought me there, and she had cakes and cookies and all kinds of goodies. I really liked all the treats, but I just want to rest and spend time with my friends.

After spending a little time at the party and listening to Pinkie Pie talk (and talk, and talk, and talk) about how excited she was that I was okay, Featherweight and I left and went to his house. Shutter Speed told me he was happy to see I was alright. He told me Featherweight has been keeping him updated. He would've visited, himself, but he has a big photo gallery going up in one of the galleries in town, and he has been busy setting it up. He took us to see it before it was open. There's a picture of me and Featherweight in there!

Shutter Speed told me he tried to visit me the day after I woke up, but by the time he was headed there, Featherweight was on the way back, and told him visiting hours had passed. It's okay. I'm just happy to be out of there.

Entry 275:

It's still kind of rough getting out of bed in the mornings. My shoulders and neck hurt the most. I'm sure it'll pass in time, just as long as I don't have to go back.

Sweetie Belle gave me a bunch of notes from the days I was gone. She told me she wanted to make sure I didn't miss anything so she took the best notes she possibly could. I told her she really needs to relax, she seemed to calm down, finally, but she's been so upset it's almost annoying. I wouldn't tell her that, though, that might just make it worse.

Apple Bloom said Babs is going to be back in town for the reunion! She said she may get to come see us before she leaves, but it depends on what happens during the reunion. I hope I get to see her, but if I don't, I can still write her. I wouldn't want to get in the way of their reunion, after all.

I wonder what it's like to have a family reunion. I'd love to meet my family again. It can't happen, but it's nice to think about. All the family I really knew is gone. I have a new family, though. I'll never forget my first family, but my new one is wonderful.

Featherweight and I offered to help finish up the gallery, since it opens tonight. All the pictures are up, now, and it looks really neat! Shutter Speed takes awesome photos! Cherry Tart, Ocean Breeze and his parents came to visit the gallery. They helped rent the gallery, and bought one of his pictures for their living room in Port Mane! Shutter Speed was so excited, Featherweight was happy, too. They don't really have a lot of money, so I can understand why it is such a big deal. I'm very happy for them.

Mom said once I get my bandages off I can start flying again. Dad says the doctors told him that it will be a couple of days, still, but that I should be okay to fly, soon.

Nightmares Into Dreams (♫)

Entries 276-281

Entry 276:

Apple Bloom has to help set up for the reunion today, so Sweetie Belle and I are going to be on our own today. Sweetie Belle doesn't really know what we can do while I'm all bandaged up. It's true it's hard to find your cutie mark when you have to be careful, but I don't want to end up in there again!

Rarity sent us out since we were too loud while she was working. Still no good ideas. We're back at my house, now that it's getting really chilly out, we didn't want to stay outside.

Sweetie Belle and I wish we could go back to the Carousel Boutique, because we are trying to think of outfit ideas for Nightmare Night costumes. There's not a whole lot of ideas at my house for them, and we're not coming up with anything good. Featherweight and Pipsqueak met us at my house, we played some games and had a lot of fun. I can't wait to get these bandages off, though.

Pipsqueak invited us to his house tomorrow. I've never been there. It should be fun.

It's really not as fun when I can't fly, and the Clubhouse is off limits. I'm sure we could go to the Clubhouse if we wanted, but we don't want to get in the way. We made the best of the day, though. I think.

Entry 277:

I go to Pipsqueak's house this afternoon. Until then, I'm spending time with Featherweight at his dad's gallery. We looked at some pictures last time, but we spent more time with Ocean Breeze and his family. We got to get a better look at the gallery now that Pinkie Pie wasn't running the grand opening party. Shutter Speed really is a very good photographer.

I wasn't aware that Pipsqueak's parents were divorced. He said it's okay, that they're still friends, they just aren't as close as they thought they were. Sweetie Belle said she knew for a while, but she didn't think she should tell anypony. I can only imagine what Diamond Tiara would do. Pipsqueak says that his parents divorced about a year after he moved to town. His dad lives in town, too, but somewhere else. He lives with his mom for a couple of weeks, then he goes to his dad's. He says it can be annoying to move all the time, but that he's happy he can still see both his parents, and he's happy they're happy.

I don't know what divorce is like, but he sure makes it sound easier than I think it would be. He is either really tough, or it was a really easy divorce. I feel like it would be really frustrating. He seems happy, though.

We had some tea and played some games. After a while we went to see Golden Manchet, Pipsqueak's dad. His dad was happy to see him, and he met all of us. His dad seems like a pretty nice pony. He works in town as a market-hoof. He helps set up and clean up booths for the ponies on the weekends. During the week he helps repair and repaint any booths that need fixing and touch-up. He has to go back to work in about a half hour.

When we go back to his mom's house, his mom, Jasmine Tea, was home. She was happy to see all of us and told us that they didn't usually have company. She works in Port Mane as a dock worker. She says she lives here because Pipsqueak has become such good friends with all of us and she wouldn't want to make him change schools.

Both of Pipsqueak's parents seem really nice. Pipsqueak says they just kind of decided they didn't love each other one day, and decided to go their separate ways. How can somepony just decide they don't love somepony they've been with for so long? His parents were married for ten years!

Today was really nice. Pipsqueak has very nice parents, even if they are separated, and if he's happy, I guess that's alright.

Entry 278:

Apple Bloom said that Applejack went a bit crazy with her plans and the first half of the day nopony got to talk with anypony else because they were all so busy. They ended up having to rebuild that barn again. I feel like they're always building barns over there. She said they got it rebuilt pretty quickly, though.

She also said that after everything calmed down, it was a lot of fun. Babs told all of us hello, and said she was sorry she didn't get to stay, but everypony has school today, so she couldn't stay another day. It's too bad, but we'll have to write her.

Pipsqueak says he's really excited about Nightmare Night. He's going to be going as a "big scary monster" this year. I have a hard time imagine Pipsqueak being anything big or scary.

I still haven't figured out my costume, and it's right around the corner! There's less than a week left!

I went to Featherweight's house and we played around with Dart for a while. I wish I could fly again. I should be able to fly here pretty soon, though. I might even try to fly tonight.

Yeah, I'm still a bit achey, and the bandages on my shoulders make it tough to fly. Dad says the bandages need to stay on a bit longer. He said we'd see tomorrow.

Entry 279:

Still trying to figure out my Nightmare Night costume. It has to be something awesome! But I already went as Mom last year. What's more awesome than that? I'll have to think of something that's at least a bit awesome, even if it's not as cool as Mom.

At recess, Apple Bloom, Sweetie Belle and I tried to think up good ideas for our costumes. Sweetie Belle says she just wishes she had a cutie mark. I think I'm going to go as a zombie. It's easy, but it can be made to look really cool if I do it right, and mom can probably help out.

Featherweight says he has an idea for his costume, but he wants to surprise everypony. He told me he has had the most trouble hiding it from Sweetie Belle since Rarity is making the costume for him. I wonder what it's going to be.

I talked to mom about my costume idea, she said she can help me make it look really cool. I hope so, it's never going to be as cool as going as Mom, but I can't do the same thing every year! Dad said he's going as a policepony (he has to work that night.) No fun.

Featherweight says he just got back from checking out Rarity's work on his costume and he says he's really excited about it, it looks really cool so far. I want to know what it is!

Entry 280:

Diamond Tiara said she is going to be passing out candy to all the "babies who aren't too old for the holiday." What a brat.

Miss Cheerilee says she'll be at the schoolhouse if we want to visit on Nightmare Night. I don't see why we wouldn't want to visit. Featherweight and I already plan to go there.

Pipsqueak says his costume is all ready, and that he just needs to talk to one pony to make sure everything works out. I wonder what that means.

Mom got the makeup, tomorrow is the night! It's going to be awesome. Mom tried on some designs this evening with me, and after we got our ideas down, we went out and I was finally able to get these bandages off and fly! Mom says I did pretty well for all the time I've been grounded, since I also didn't fly much when Featherweight couldn't. She says I really need to get back to practicing, though.

Entry 281:

Today is the day! I got all made up before I went to school, everypony gets to wear their costumes to class today, but they have to leave anything distracting in the back of the room. Pipsqueak doesn't really look either big or scary, but it's a fun costume, all the same.

We learned about the history of Nightmare Night today, and we learned a bit about Princess Luna. I still think the night is very pretty, why did she think people don't love the night?

I got all my makeup redone, since it got smudged at recess, and we're ready to go for the night. Mom says she is going to be pranking as usual, again. I told her I'd love to prank with her, but dad didn't think it was such a good idea.

Pipsqueak got Twilight to cast a spell to make him big. It's pretty cool, I guess he really was going to be a big scary monster. It's kind of funny to see him like that, though. Featherweight's costume is awesome! He's dressed like a phoenix, and the wings all glow! Rarity did a really good job. It's really cool.

Apple Bloom went as the Headless Horse, I don't know how she sees. Ocean Breeze didn't dress up! What's that about? Apple Bloom made him wear a sheet to look like a ghost, he looks funny. Sweetie Belle went as a mummy. She says it wasn't her first idea, but after she got all wrapped up in ribbon, she decided it was alright.

Princess Luna came to celebrate Nightmare Night again! She said she owed Ponyville for teaching her how to be a part of the world after 1000 years. She was really nice. Tonight was really really fun! I can't wait to do it next year!

Complete Discord (♫)

Entries 282-286

Entry 282:

Mom and her friends are waiting for Princess Celestia today, I wonder what's going on. Maybe I'll find out after school.

At recess, today, Featherweight and I flew around and stretched out our wings. We talked for a while, and he says his dad has another gallery in a couple of weeks, and wondered if I wanted to help put up the pictures, again. Sounds like fun. I really like his dad's pictures, he's really good.

I don't understand. Apparently Princess Celestia wants Fluttershy to make Discord a "good" creature. Has she gone crazy? Doesn't she remember what happened last time he was out? I hope this doesn't end in disaster...

Really... Fluttershy... Featherweight and I just don't get it. Fluttershy? What's Fluttershy going to do? We can't stop thinking about it after what happened last time. He told me that when Discord attacked last time, he was trapped in a room in his house with no doors, and couldn't get out. He said he was really freaked out and lonely. I can imagine. I really hope Celestia knows what she's doing, and I hope Fluttershy can do it, whatever it is she is doing.

Mom says Discord kicked Shooting Star out, and he's so angry he left for Phillydelphia for a couple of days. Apparently he wants no part of Discord. He said he's worried about Fluttershy, but knows there's nothing he can do. Mom says she's never seen Shooting Star so angry. He apparently said some pretty bad things about Celestia, calling her a "reckless fool." That's a pretty bad thing to say about the Princess, but I really don't get what she's doing.

Entry 283:

I went to talk to Featherweight today, and he was home alone. He said he didn't know where his dad was. He figured he was out getting groceries or something.

We played a few games, and I invited him to come with me to hang out with the Crusaders. We're going to try trampoline jumping. I don't really know what you can do to be a "trampoline" pony, but Apple Bloom said it sounds like fun.

I really hope that bird is okay. Poor Sweetie Belle's got a welt on her face.

Mom says Fluttershy's house is spinning in circles, floating in the air. I really don't think this is going to end well.

Featherweight walked away when Mom started talking about Discord. He says he still has nightmares sometimes about being trapped alone.

Mom had to go to a dinner party with that thing. This doesn't sound good.

Sweet Apple Acres is totally flooded! I wanted to go help Apple Bloom, but Dad told me to stay here, because he was afraid it had to do with Discord, and he doesn't want me getting hurt. What about Apple Bloom?

I swear I saw Sweet Apple Acres under ice. This must be Discord. Featherweight and I went to his house, he said he didn't want to be reminded of what was going on.

Mom says Discord "is fixed." Whatever that means. I don't believe it, and Featherweight said he doesn't trust Discord for a minute. If he has turned good, I'm happy, but I don't think I will ever believe it.

Entry 284:

Apple Bloom says that everything is back to normal, and the trees are in full bloom. Maybe something good happened, after all. I still don't know.

We're going to try hang gliding, today. I can already fly, I don't really know how hang gliding is going to be anything special for me.

Well, it was fun, but we're not really hang gliding professionals, we all got stuck in trees. Mom and I had to get Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle out. Featherweight says we need to try something less dangerous "like bungee jumping, or something." Not a bad idea.

Featherweight told me he was joking, that he thought that was a terrible idea. I don't know, that could be pretty cool. He suggested we do pinball. He said he always liked pinball, even if he wasn't too good at it. Doesn't sound quite as exciting, but who knows?

Well, we played pinball for two hours, and nothing is happening. We're not very good, really. Featherweight said he's terrible at pinball, but then he beat all of our scores. I told him this and he said it was because he had more practice. Are we really worse than terrible?

Of course Pinkie Pie would have the things to go bungee jumping "in case of a bungee jump emergency." Really, "bungee jump" and "emergency" are words I don't want to hear together, especially just before doing this. Are we crazy?

Well, that was fun, but pretty scary. I had to fight flying the whole time. Featherweight said he couldn't watch when I went for a jump. Pinkie Pie was having way too much fun (like that's news.)

We didn't get our cutie marks. Too bad, that would've been really cool. I tried to get Featherweight to do it, he said there was no way. Too bad, it's really pretty fun.

Featherweight and I went back to his house. His dad wasn't home again. He said he's kind of worried, he says his dad has been gone several times this week, without him knowing where he went. His dad always comes home and says everything is okay, but Featherweight is worried.

His dad came home, he seemed happy enough, I wonder what's up. He told Featherweight to relax. He said nothing was wrong, that he just had stuff to do. Featherweight said he feels like his dad is avoiding him for some reason. I don't know why, but I am afraid Featherweight is going to get all worried, again.

Entry 285:

On the back of the previous page is a jotted list of things to do, including "darts," "sand sculptures," and "mountain climbing," among other ideas.

Sweetie Belle brought in Rarity again this year. I don't get why, she has other family in town, but she always brings Rarity.

Featherweight got a picture of me bungee jumping for the Foal Free Press this week. I really look kind of cool (or crazy, maybe both.) Diamond Tiara complained that ever since she left the Foal Free Press it's been "boring junk" and "Featherweight writing stupid lovey-dovey drivel about his stupid fillyfriend." Featherweight does seem to write about me a lot, but he does see me a lot, too. He did write about Rarity's new line of clothes and Berry Punch's big fruit sale, too, so it's not like he only writes about me.

Apple Bloom, Sweetie Belle and I are trying to come up with awesome new ideas, again. We're going to figure this out, soon. We just have to! We've been trying things for years, now. It has to happen eventually... right?

Featherweight and I went to visit Fluttershy. Shooting Star was back in town, he said he was "relieved" that Fluttershy was okay, but he still thought Princess Celestia was crazy. He said he worried the whole time he was gone that something would happen to Fluttershy, but that he didn't want to stick around and feel useless. Fluttershy seemed pretty embarrassed that she let Discord just kick him out, but she said she had a job from the Princess. She has a point, but I don't know, I still feel like something's up with Discord. Featherweight said he will never believe that Discord can be "anything close to 'good.'"

Entry 286:

I walked to school with Featherweight this morning, it's getting chilly. It's not chilly every day, but some mornings, especially, it can be cold. Featherweight had on his sweater. It's not snow weather, yet, but it feels like it's getting close.

Pipsqueak brought in his mom for Family Appreciation Day, today. She talked about work on a boat. She showed a picture of her next to the big huge crates they have. They have to have teams of several ponies to pull them, even when they're lifted by cranes at the docks. They're gigantic!

Diamond Tiara said Pipsqueak must be pretty embarrassed that both his parents have "simple labor jobs" and that they "moved here to work as grunts." Poor Pipsqueak was quiet most of recess. I wanted to knock Diamond Tiara in the dirt, but Miss Cheerilee was watching.

Diamond Tiara had to stay after school today for making fun of Pipsqueak. Serves her right. I was the last one outside today, so I heard that she had to stay after class for an hour.

My friends and I all went to Sugarcube Corner. Featherweight's dad was there and called us over. He was there getting some treats ordered for the opening of his gallery, and got to talking with Jasmine Tea. She was there getting some scones, and ran into Shutter Speed. Pipsqueak was still pretty quiet, but his mom asked him what was going on and he explained.

She called Diamond Tiara "that gabby tart with more money than sense" and we all laughed. Pipsqueak started to cheer up. Featherweight and Shutter Speed went to figure out what to order for the gallery while Pipsqueak's mom bought us all a snack. I bought my own, because I know that Jasmine Tea doesn't have a lot of money, she has to take care of herself and Pipsqueak on a dock worker's salary. It was tough to convince her not to buy me anything, but I didn't want her to spend more money on me. I may not have been in Port Mane for a while, but I know it's not the best paying job. Papa used to buy treats for the dock workers he knew after work. He said they usually had nothing more than a sandwich for lunch, and he always felt like they could use a pick-me-up.

Featherweight and I went to his house afterward. He said he and his dad picked out some nice treats for the gallery. I never realized there was so much work that went into setting up a gallery. Shutter Speed came home after a while and said the gallery would be cleaned out and ready for pictures in a couple of days. Featherweight looked excited. He said that the last gallery was a big success. Apparently they sold a lot of pictures. Shutter Speed said "it looks like it'll be a good Hearth's Warming this year." Featherweight told him he didn't need to spend a single bit and almost looked upset. He told me he always feels bad on Hearth's Warming Day because he can't afford to get his dad a gift without spending his dad's money. His dad laughed and said "You're my son, that's how it works." Featherweight blushed and sighed.

Featherweight walked me home and told me that this year he planned on saving up money by helping with jobs around town. He said he already had about seven bits, which isn't a lot, but it's not bad for somepony as young as us. I think I may try to talk to Mom and Dad about if we can help him get his dad a gift without feeling like that. Odds are he'd be upset if he got money from us, too, though. There's no winning.

Ready, Set... (♫)

Entries 287-91

Entry 287:

I wrote a letter to Blazemane, this morning. I figured it had been a while, and I wanted to know how she was doing. Mom said she'd give it to the mailmare today.

Featherweight had to stay late after class today to help with the Foal Free Press. There was a problem with the printer and he had to help fix it. Miss Cheerilee said if it's a big problem, she may have to bring somepony in.

Featherweight looks funny all covered in ink. He had to go home to clean up, but he stopped by to say he would be free for the rest of the afternoon.

I caught up with Featherweight again, he says there probably won't be an issue of the Foal Free Press for a couple of days, they have to get Tinker to come and look at the machine. Featherweight and a couple other ponies spent a couple of hours trying to fix the thing, and they couldn't figure it out.

Sweetie Belle and Pipsqueak went with us to the clubhouse. We played a few games and teased Featherweight about his birthday coming up. Apple Bloom and Ocean Breeze stopped by after a while and said Apple Jack invited us all over for dinner.

I love the Apple Family's cooking, it's always a delicious meal. I haven't had anything I didn't like from them.

I have to figure out what to get Featherweight, I've been trying to think of things for days now, but I just don't even know what he would want. He never seems to want anything. He's always happy with what he has. I'll think of something.

Entry 288:

A letter is tucked into this page, written in hasty script, angled forward, with narrow loops, and sharp points. The envelope is stamped "CANTERLOT POST" and has a return address:

Blazemane

5021 Starswirl Blvd.

Canterlot, Equestria 1R5 5F0

"Hey, buddy!

You're right, it has been a long time! Why haven't you sent anything, yourself? Hah! After I got the letter, I talked to my parents, I have next week off for a fall break, and my parents said we could visit Ponyville! Maybe we can hang out a bit? I'm ready for a rematch, how fast are you, now?

I hope this works on such short notice, it'd be really cool to see you again! Let me know as soon as you can!

Blazemane"

At school today, Miss Cheerilee said that the Foal Free Press is going to be missing for a couple of days. I already knew this, but the rest of the class didn't, of course. It figures that Diamond Tiara would run her mouth about how if she was still in charge, things like this wouldn't happen, as if she can control the printer.

I got an idea today at school, but I'm going to need Featherweight's dad's help. I'm going to try and get some pictures of Featherweight's friends and places he likes to be and make a picture book for him. It may not be much, but I'm running out of time, and I can't think of anything he would want.

Apple Bloom and Ocean Breeze offered take Featherweight to spend the day with them while I talked with his dad. Tomorrow is his birthday, I hope we have enough time!

Shutter Speed was really nice about everything and happy to help. He said he thought Featherweight would love it, and said he had extra albums I could use.

I had to take some of the pictures, because he can't reach Mom's house, and he can't get a picture of Ponyville from the sky. I hope my pictures are okay. I'm not really good at photography. It's fun, but not really my thing.

Shutter Speed told me that he would get everything in place and if I stopped by on my way to school, tommorow I could pick it up. He seemed in a hurry right before I left, and galloped off somewhere.

Featherweight asked where I went, and that he saw me around town with his dad. I told him that I was talking to his dad about helping with the next gallery, that I liked helping out. Featherweight smiled and said he enjoyed getting to help his dad out, too. He asked what took me so long, and I told him I had other things to do, too. He looked at me suspiciously. I think he knows I'm planning something for his birthday.

When I got home, Blazemane had already sent a letter back! She said she might be able to visit Ponyville next week! That'd be so cool! I wrote her back saying that we could hang out for sure!

Entry 289:

Miss Cheerilee gave Featherweight a book on leadership and a really nice pen that says "Foal Free Press" on it. She said that the team hasn't been happier with their Editor-in-Chief as long as she can remember. Everypony put some money together to get him a gift.

After class today, Pinkie Pie rushed all of us to Sugarcube Corner for Featherweight's party. I barely had time to grab my saddlebags.

Featherweight was really happy with my gift. I was glad he liked it, it's hard to get gifts for him! His dad got him a book of famous newspaper articles from the last century. He was reading it before the party even ended. Pipsqueak got him a neat pocket watch for his saddlebags. Ocean Breeze bought him a new lens case and a fancy journal for him to write his articles in. Sweetie Belle made him a dressy outfit, it will probably look nice on him. Apple Bloom got him ten jars of Zap Apple Jam and an apple wood keepsake chest. Twist and Dinky made a scrapbook of all of his articles since he began writing for the Foal Free Press. Featherweight seemed very happy with everypony's gifts.

After the party, we went to his house, and his dad had another small cake on the table. He took a picture of Featherweight with the cake, then showed me a photo album with pictures of Featherweight every year on his birthday. It's a cute little tradition. Featherweight looked so embarrassed, I don't even know why, I thought it was sweet.

Featherweight told me I didn't need to get him anything, but that he was very happy with his gift. He kept looking at the pictures, and asked if I took the pictures. I told him I only took a couple, but didn't tell him which ones. I'm pretty sure he knows which ones, but he didn't seem to say anything about them. He said the pictures were great, and that he thought it was a very special gift. I already knew he would say I didn't need to get him anything, that's just how he is. I think he knows that I couldn't NOT get him anything, too, though.

Entry 290:

I don't know when Blazemane is supposed to get here, but Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom are excited to meet Blazemane. I can't wait! I don't know that I'm ready to race her, again, though. I've been practicing, but since the camp, I've had quite a while where I wasn't able to fly.

The cold days are becoming more common, it's too early to snow yet, but it's definitely chilly. Featherweight and I stayed inside most of the day. I asked him how he felt about his birthday, he said he had a wonderful time, and enjoyed all the gifts. He has a lot of trouble receiving gifts, even when his dad gets him things he always seems upset that somepony spent money on him.

Dad made us some daffodil sandwiches and some ice cream. Mom and Dad said they would be happy to let Blazemane sleep here a couple days as long as I go to bed early enough that I'm not grumpy in the morning. She may be on vacation, but I still have to go to school. [A small drawing of an upset Scootaloo's face.]

Featherweight said that if I wanted to spend time just me and Blazemane, that he wouldn't be upset. I don't understand why he would think that. I want my friends to be his friends!

Entry 291:

Tucked into the page is a picture of a sunset shining across a craggy mountain chain.

Nopony is able to hang out today. I'm going to spend most of the day practicing my flying for Blazemane.

I'm feeling quick, but I definitely could be better. My wingspeed isn't anything like it used to be. It's not terrible, but I'm about 1.2 lower than I used to be.

I can still do all my tricks, though. I really love doing flips and spins.

This afternoon, Mom helped me out and gave me pointers on my form. We flew for a long time. She said it was nice to get to fly without having to push clouds around. With all the fall weather, she hasn't had much free time, lately.

I visited Featherweight for a bit this evening. He was off taking pictures with his dad all day. He had some really nice pictures of flowers and animals, as always. It's always fun to look at all the pictures he takes. They're always amazing. His dad's pictures were, too, of course. His dad takes a lot more pictures of the landscape. He has a really nice sunset picture he gave me. I really love it!

Crash and Burn (♫)

Entries 292-301

Entry 292:

This afternoon, Featherweight said he may not be able to hang out, because he has to write thank you letters to everypony who gave him a gift. He said he hasn't had to make so many thank you letters before, and that he thinks everypony gave him way too much. Silly colt, if I could give him more, I would, I am always happy to see him smile.

Blazemane stopped by the school when I got out! I introduced her to Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom, and the rest of my friends. We took her to Sugarcube Corner and Pinkie Pie suddenly created a "welcome to town" party for her. Should have figured. Featherweight didn't get to stay long, he said he wanted to make sure to get his thank you letters out of the way so he didn't make anypony wait. I don't think I've ever written thank you letters. I usually figure thanking them when they give me things is thank you enough, but he always writes thank yous for gifts on his birthday, and maybe other times.

Blazemane really wanted to race me, but I was pretty unsure about racing. I haven't been up to my regular training in a long time. I'm better than I have been, but I went for a pretty long time without flying. I told her maybe later, she seemed a bit upset.

Mom and Dad said Blazemane can hang out and stay this week, as long as I go to bed at a reasonable time to get to school. She gets to stay over all week!

Entry 293:

Blazemane came with me to school, today and I introduced her for show and tell. We talked about our experience at Flight Camp, and she stayed for the day. We hung out with my friends at recess. She's a bit uncomfortable around Ocean Breeze. She told me she's seen "the rich, snobby types, too many times in Canterlot." I tried to convince her that he's a nice guy, but she is still not so comfortable with him.

Diamond Tiara ran her mouth to the wrong pony! Blazemane wasn't having any of Diamond Tiara's mouth and told her she would be when Diamond Tiara was alone in Equestria because she had driven everypony else away. It didn't stop Diamond Tiara, so Blazemane pulled me over at recess and we got a couple buckets of frogs and slugs and dumped them all over her! It was so funny! I had to stay after class, but it was SO worth it!

Diamond Tiara had brought her dad to school to talk to me, thinking she could threaten me saying her dad would buy Dad's house out from under him, but when he heard about what happened, he said he actually found it kind of funny. He said he used to play pranks on his friends when he was a foal, and that she needed to laugh it off, that no harm was done. He said friends joke around and every once in a while it gets out of hand, and not to be so upset.

When Diamond Tiara stormed off, he called her his "little frog princess." He said I probably shouldn't do it again, because his filly was so upset, and he would stop it if he had to. I thought it was funny, but I wish he'd see how horrible she is. She really needs to grow up.

Blazemane said that she had never been happier to dump frogs on somepony. I asked her how many times she'd done something like this, and she said she's done it several times at school. She says it's a bet "fend for yourself" at her school, that it's really big and teachers aren't the best. She says Miss Cheerilee is a great teacher, and that she wishes any of her teachers were as good as Miss Cheerilee. I definitely agree that Miss Cheerilee is awesome!

Entry 294:

Apple Bloom wasn't able to hang out with the rest of us after class today. We were showing Blazemane around town. Blazemane said she figured Apple Bloom was with Ocean Breeze, that he might be trying to keep her away from us. I asked why she said that. She told me she had a friend in Canterlot named Hawkwing, who became friends with a richer pony, and after a little bit of time, she never saw Hawkwing again. How crummy is that? I don't think Ocean Breeze is that kind of pony, though.

Ocean Breeze caught up with us after a while, and said that he was helping Apple Bloom with chores at Sweet Apple Acres. He told us they're behind on chores, and Applejack is pretty worried about getting things finished before winter hits.

Blazemane says she really likes Ponyville. She says it's not so huge that the people are rude, but it's not so small that there's nothing to do. We went bowling again. I'm still not very good, but we had fun, at least.

Blazemane is sleeping on my bed, I'm sleeping on my couch. We spent a long time chatting about how things have been since we left flight camp. She said she's disappointed I haven't been flying as much. I told her it wasn't really my fault I got hurt, she said I could've been less careless. I guess that's true, but still, I didn't MAKE the rocks fall on me. I told her that I didn't fly when Featherweight was down because he was the pony I usually flew with. She said she flies alone all the time. Flying is fun, but I'd much rather be with somepony than all alone, even when flying.

Entry 295:

School went by so slowly, today. I just wanted to go hang out with Blazemane. Featherweight said he thinks Blazemane is pretty cool, but she seems a bit quick to assume things. Apparently she told him that I was being lazy and should have practiced flying more. Lazy? That actually upsets me.

I asked Blazemane why she called me lazy, and she said I should be much better than when I was at flight camp, not worse. I told her that my life isn't all flying. I love flying. I LOVE flying. I want to fly so well even Mom is amazed, but I have friends, and I can't just push them to the side to fly all the time. She seemed hurt when I told her I had friends. I wasn't saying she DIDN'T have friends, I was just defending myself! [Drawing of a sighing Scootaloo]

There was a brush fire at Sweet Apple Acres! Applejack said she was worried this would happen. She is rounding up anypony in town who can help. We're getting ready to go right now.

We just got back from taking Blazemane to the hospital. She had to have her burns cared for. We were trying to put out fire in part of the orchard when a burning branch fell on me and Blazemane. Ocean Breeze had to lift the branch off of us, but Blazemane was burned pretty bad on her leg. Everypony is okay. Mom said she told us not to go help, but we couldn't just watch the orchard burn! That's my friend's home! The damage is pretty bad. Applejack said she was afraid getting behind on he chores could cause a big problem. She said she just didn't have the time to pick up the leaves with such a big harvest. She said she lost track of time and before she knew it, there were big piles of leaves. She said she hopes there are enough trees to support them next year. I hope things are okay, this is terrible!

Ocean Breeze left town with Cherry Tart to tell his parents about what happened. He said he will try and get them to help the Apple Family if they can.

Entry 296:

Apple Bloom says Applejack is really upset. I can understand why. She also told me that her family in Appleoosa is going to grow trees to bring to Sweet Apple Acres and plant in the spring. Hopefully that will help.

Ocean Breeze came back to town at recess. He said his parents would help take care of Sweet Apple Acres if the Apple Family couldn't afford it. He said his parents are at Sweet Apple Acres right now talking with the Apple Family.

Twist and Pinkie Pie are running a Bake Sale at Sugarcube Corner to raise money to help the Apple Family. Mom and I bought some things and Dad donated some money. I wish I could do more, but I don't really know what I would be able to do. I don't know how to grow trees, and it's probably too cold to grow apple trees right now anyway, and besides, I don't have anywhere to grow trees. I don't have a job, so I can't give money.

Mom said the most important thing for me to do is to be a good friend and help cheer them up. I guess so, but it still doesn't feel like much good.

I went to visit Blazemane. She said she'd be up and ready to race as soon as she could. I didn't stay long. She said it was okay if I left. Featherweight visited her earlier and told her I hate hospitals. I still felt bad for only staying for such a short time.

Entry 297:

Blazemane got out of the hospital today. She said today we race. I don't know what good it's going to do.

She beat me by a mile. She said she was really disappointed I wasn't faster. I feel really silly. She said she would have understood if I had lost and it was close, but she said it was like I wasn't even trying.

Featherweight stepped in and said I was really good at trick flying. So I got an idea. Featherweight, Blazemane and I are going to make some posters to put around town this afternoon and have a trick flight show to raise money for the Apple Family. It's something I can do to help! Applejack and Apple Bloom are like sisters to me. I won't ever forget that they took me in when Auntie Raincloud passed away. They didn't have to, and they did it out of the goodness of their hearts.

Featherweight told me that he loved the idea. We made some posters and asked places in town if we could put the posters up. I'm kind of nervous. Mom said she's going to show off some tricks, too. She says she's totally excited.

I just finished visiting Apple Bloom. Ocean Breeze and her were talking at the gazebo. I stopped by. She said the damage isn't too bad, but that Applejack's pride hurts more than anything. She said the things people have done to help really mean a lot to her and her family. Ocean Breeze's parents are buying some apple trees from their wood farms and shipping them to Port Mane to plant. Maple Woods said if they get here in time, they should be able to survive the frost.

Apple Bloom said most of the money is going to one of the barns, because it completely burned down to the ground. There wasn't anything inside except crates of apples, but that was a lot of money they lost.

Entry 298:

Blazemane said she judged Ocean Breeze and his family too soon. She said they seem like really nice ponies.

The show is in a few minutes. I'm really nervous. A lot of people showed up. Featherweight said I'll do great, but what if I make a fool of myself? This isn't like my class or something, this is probably a fifth of Ponyville!

That was great! Blazemane said I was much better than she was. She also ran into a tree. She still had leaves in her mane when we finished. She is okay, but embarrassed. Mom stole the show, though. She is so amazing! Every time I watch her fly I feel even luckier that my Mom is Rainbow Dash!

We raised a lot of money for the Apple Family! I feel so proud of myself. I actually got to help my friends out in a way other than just giving hugs and listening! It feels great to get to help like this!

We saw Blazemane and her parents off at the train station. We were all sad to see her go. She said she'd definitely visit again! I can't wait!

Featherweight stayed over for a long time this evening. He said it's been a crazy week. I agree. Blazemane coming to town, a fire, an air show, dumping frogs and slugs on Diamond Tiara... it's been quite a week for sure. I am just happy I was able to help my friend.

Entry 299:

School seemed quieter today than it has been, until recess. Then Diamond Tiara got me sent home. At recess, she told Apple Bloom that she must feel horrible to have to take money from everyone. She said her family would never need to "beg everypony for money." After that I got very mad and attacked her. She needs to shut her mouth. I found Mom and told her what happened. She told me I might as well call it a day off. She wasn't mad, she said she would have done the same thing. I hope Diamond Tiara's black eye messes up her smug face for a long time.

I went to Fluttershy's house. She asked what I was doing there. I told her everypony else was in school, still, and told her why I was off so early. She seemed upset and told me I should never ever ever hurt anypony. Typical Fluttershy. She showed me her new animals. She has a brand new family of foxes, two new sparrows, a little squirrel, some hummingbirds, an eagle, and a bluejay. She said I should have visited more, recently. I helped her take care of the foxes and they made a nice little burrow under an oak tree near her cottage. She said a lot of animals are going to start hibernating soon. It's getting chillier every day.

Featherweight found me at Fluttershy's. He was wearing his sweater. He said it's really getting cold out. I told him he just needs to plump up a bit. That scrawny body doesn't stay warm too well.

Entry 300:

Mr. Rich came by our house today after school. He said he was very unhappy about what happened to his daughter and wanted to talk with me. I talked to him and explained what happened. He said he was still very upset at what I did, but that what Diamond Tiara said was "rude and inappropriate," and that he was going to go to Sweet Apple Acres and apologize to Apple Bloom. I don't see why he doesn't make her do it. She's the brat who said it!

Mom told me I needed to be careful with Diamond Tiara. She said even if she is a "big stinking brat who will probably be sad and lonely most of her life" that I can't make Mr. Rich too mad, because he has enough money to do just about anything he wants.

Mr. Rich wouldn't do anything, though, would he? He wouldn't, like... take over Dad's house like they talk about would he? I don't want to move. I love this house. I love Mom's house. I already lost MY house, I can't lose this, too!

I haven't slept well all night. I'm really worried about what could happen.

Entry 301:

Diamond Tiara was horrible to me today. She said her dad was really mad at me, and that I was going to regret ever messing with her. I didn't say anything. I'm still worried about what will happen. Silver Spoon didn't say much, but she seemed mad I hurt her friend. She stood by her side the whole time. I know Silver Spoon isn't quite as mean as Diamond Tiara, but she sure seemed to be on Diamond Tiara's side of this, even if Diamond Tiara was terrible to Apple Bloom.

I talked to Featherweight after school and he said I shouldn't worry. He said Mr. Rich isn't anything like Diamond Tiara. If that's so, why do Mom and Dad keep saying he has the money to do what he wants, and that I need to be careful around Diamond Tiara?

Featherweight told me I really need to relax. It's hard to relax when you feel like you could lose your home, especially when I've already lost my home, before. Last time it was my fault, too. If I hadn't run away, I could still be in that same house. I don't want to be the reason I lose this house, too! I should have never made Mr. Rich mad. I should have never attacked Diamond Tiara. I should have just shut up and been there for Apple Bloom.

I still can't sleep, I've been up for hours. Did Diamond Tiara mean it? I really hope not, but even after I talked to Mr. Rich, he still seemed pretty angry.

Without the Bitter (♫)

Entries 302-304

Entry 302:

Featherweight tried to calm me down at recess. He said I need to stop freaking out about Diamond Tiara. Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom said I didn't need to let her walk all over me just because she's rich. Featherweight says I'm overreacting. I just don't want to cause trouble for Mom and Dad. Diamond Tiara is loving it. She spent all recess making fun of me, and I felt like I couldn't do anything. Why does she even need to act like this anyway? What's her deal?

I felt crummy all afternoon. Featherweight couldn't cheer me up for a long time. Finally he started to get upset and I felt worse. I was almost in tears. Diamond Tiara went after me with everything she had. She made fun of me for losing my parents, for being a blank flank, for being with Featherweight, for not having as much money as her... it was a really difficult recess until Miss Cheerilee pulled Diamond Tiara aside and made her stay in for the rest of recess and for an hour after school.

Featherweight finally cheered me up by getting his picture book and looking through it with me. We just talked about how things have been since we met, and he told me how happy he was that I was with him. Nopony other then Mama, Papa, Auntie Raincloud or Mom and Dad could have done that. He's the closest thing to family besides my real family.

We went to his house for the evening. His dad wasn't home again. He said his dad hasn't been home as much recently. He said he doesn't know where his dad has been. He went to the store room and found some photos from when he was younger. We looked through a couple trips that he and his dad went on when he was little. He looked so cute! They have been from South Hoof all the way up to Maneapolis together. This is his home, but he's been to a few places. They don't have a lot other than pictures from these places, though. They couldn't afford to buy much. Featherweight said he has always found pictures to be the best souvenirs, because they're something everypony takes for themselves. I guess so. I understand his point, but sometimes there are just really cool things to get!

Entry 303:

The page is almost evenly dotted with tears, a couple of words are slightly smudged.

I feel horrible. I just had to give up today. I let Diamond Tiara win. I snuck back inside when Miss Cheerilee wasn't looking. She's just been terrible since I stopped fighting back. I wanted to spend recess with Featherweight, but I didn't want to let Diamond Tiara just keep picking on me, but I can't fight back. I don't want to make Mr. Rich mad.

I think I know why she's trying so hard to mess with me, but I will not let her ruin my birthday.

Miss Cheerilee found me inside before recess was over. She asked what was wrong. I told her what happened, and she said she would keep an eye on Diamond Tiara for me again. She told me she can only help me if she knows what's going on, but I don't want to make her foalsit me just because Diamond Tiara is a brat, she has a whole class of ponies to take care of.

Featherweight took me to his dad's new gallery. Pipsqueak and his mother were there with Sweetie Belle. Pipsqueak, Sweetie Belle, Featherweight and I walked around the gallery and eventually got to talking about Diamond Tiara. Pipsqueak said not to let her get to me, that she's nothing but "a big bag of air." I told him if I could I'd take a needle and pop her, because she's nothing but trouble for all of us. He said he would, too, but that ignoring her is the best thing to do. [The writing is darker, and a bit scratchier, as if the writer is forcing the pen quite hard into the paper] I don't know, I always hate ignoring, it's like letting the other pony win, and she doesn't deserve to win. She deserves to be dragged through the dirt. She deserves to be put on show and made fun of until she feels as lonely as I've felt. She deserves to see what it's like to feel worthless. She deserves to feels as lonely as I felt before I had my friends. She deserves to feel like she lost everyone important to her. I'd be surprised if she even had anypony important to her. Everypony is just a tool to her. I hate her, I hate her, I hate her. There is a tear coming off the letter R from too much pressure on the page.

The writing is normal again. I kind of lost control, I guess. She just makes me so mad. What did I ever do to her to have her treat me like this in the first place?

Featherweight and I spent the rest of the evening flying around with Mom. She said I seemed upset, and offered to stop the thunder out of some clouds with her. She needs to get rid of the stormy fall clouds to get ready for winter snow clouds. Breaking up those clouds was actually quite a bit of fun. I imagined a couple of them were Diamond Tiara. Mom had to stop me, she said I was going to fall through the clouds if I kept stomping while I was still on top of the clouds.

Mom and Featherweight had to sit down with me and ask me what had me so upset. I guess that Diamond Tiara got to me worse than usual. She hasn't picked on me for losing my parents in a long time. I thought by now I had toughened up when it came to that, but I guess not. I really do wish I could see them again. I know they would be happy to see the ponies who are taking care of me now. Dad and Papa would have got along great, and Mama would be happy to see that I had somepony like Rainbow Dash teaching me to fly, especially how excited I get when I get to spend time with Mom. I feel a bit better just thinking about how happy they'd be to know that I have loving parents, even if they can't be those parents, anymore. They would like Featherweight, too. Mom would see him like her colt. She'd probably be trying to feed him every time he came over, and telling him he needed to put on some weight, that he looked unhealthy. Papa would just be happy he makes me happy, and he does.

They'd both like my other friends, too. Everypony would have loved Mama and Papa. My house would have been the place to hang out. Papa would have food ready for everypony. Mama would have fresh cut flowers around the house, and the air would have smelled wonderful. We would have been able to walk just across the way to the park, and we could have had so much fun. I guess, sadly, it never could have happened. I could be okay with Mama and Papa and Auntie Raincloud, but none of my Ponyville friends, or okay with my friends, Mom and Dad, and just remember what I can about Mama, Papa and Auntie Raincloud.

I don't really know if I could choose between the two, but since this is the life I was given, I guess I'll take what I have. I still do miss them.

Entry 304:

Featherweight walked me to Sugarcube Corner this morning for a birthday breakfast. Pinkie Pie had made me her special "Super Sweet Choco-fun Pancakes" with Strawberry syrup and a scoop of vanilla ice cream. It was fantastic! After that, he took me to the clubhouse, where Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle had set up a little party with my friends. Apple Bloom made treats, and got me a really nice new saddlebag. Sweetie Belle made me a Wonderbolts scarf. It's not perfectly made, but it's perfect since she made it. Pipsqueak got me a set of teas from his hometown. His dad went back to Trottingham for a couple of weeks, and he brought them back with him. I'll have to try them sometime. Dinky got me a Wonderbolts notebook that is really really neat. It has the top wing speeds of all the Wonderbolts on the front cover, and a list of all the Wonderbolts' favorite tricks to do, and a couple of quotes from each of them on the back. Twist made a bunch of really delicious candy. Ocean Breeze bought me a real Wonderbolts patch that was really on Fleet Foot's jacket!

Featherweight gave me a photo album a lot like the one I have him. He said it wasn't the most original gift anymore, since I had the same idea, but he hoped I liked it. I love it so much. His pictures are as good as his dad's, and better than the ones I took. There's even a picture at the end with Mom and Dad, and all my friends that says "Never give up on your dreams, you're perfect just how you are." Everyone signed the back of the book with happy birthday notes, and it has a date on it. I'll never forget this. It's wonderful. My friends are great, and I really don't know what I would do without them.

After we had the party at the clubhouse, we went to Dad's house and had cake. It was vanilla cake with strawberry frosting. It was really really good! I have enough for snacks all week, too!

Of course Featherweight and I would run into Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon today. Today of all days. I can't even just have a good birthday. Silver Spoon didn't say much, but she didn't stop Diamond Tiara, either. I want to believe Silver Spoon can be nice, but she never lets me, since she never stops her friend. We left quickly enough, that nothing happened, but we were around Diamond Tiara long enough for her to pick on me about Mama and Papa. It almost ruined everything about today. Featherweight and I went to his house to look at pictures he had taken of me and my friends. It helped cheer me up, but I still just hate it that Diamond Tiara has to be in my life at all.

And The Sour (♫)

Entries 305-310

Entry 305

I woke up this morning and felt really bad, I'm all achy. I have a sore throat and my nose is all stuffed up. Featherweight and I were going to hang out, but I don't want to make him sick, too. I guess I'm staying in, today. The pages of this entry have several drawings across the pages.

Being sick is sooo boring. I don't get sick very much, but every time I do it's always crummy.

Dad made me some of the tea Pipsqueak got me, and some soup. Mom read me a couple of the Daring Do books. I may not be flying, but even spending time with Mom like this makes me happy. I see why she likes the books, too, they're really exciting!

Dad got me some medicine. It's gross, gross gross gross, and it makes me sleepy, but he said it is some of the best. I hope so, I wanted to have fun today, and I have to stay cooped up in my room. I'm too sore to get out of bed and walk around very much, let alone fly, which is really annoying.

Mom had to go bring in some of the winter clouds, so she isn't home right now, it's just Dad and me. He has been making sure I am okay, and trying to talk to me to cheer me up, but it's just sooo boring in here! I want to be outside with my friends! It's the weekend!

Ugh, I'm losing my mind. It's nice outside, and I'm stuck in here! I guess I'll just go to bed, because I hate this.

Entry 306:

Well, I'm missing school because of this stupid sickness. Mom and Dad both have to work, too. It's too quiet around here. At least I can get up, today. I still ache, but not as badly.

I've read through several books on Dad's bookshelves, not even because I was interested, but just to pass time, and it's not even lunch time yet.

Dad came home for lunch and made me some soup, again. He said he understands how I feel. He told me to get some rest if I am bored, because I'll feel better if I rest.

I slept through dinner, I guess I actually fell asleep after Dad gave me the medicine. Yesterday I was able to fight it off, I guess not, today.

I'm probably not going to have my cutie mark in patience, because I am tired of sitting around. This is boring, boring, boring!

Entry 307:

Dad took me to the doctor's today. I hate that place, but they said that I should be okay to go to school, today, that people can't catch what I have at this point, so that's good. I'm waiting for him so I can head to school.

Diamond Tiara was ready to make fun of me when I was too tired to fight back, but her fun was cut short when her dad came to pick her up. She was crying when she left. I don't know what happened, but at least she's out of my mane for the afternoon.

Silver Spoon ran off after class real quick. She seemed worried all afternoon. I wonder what's up. I don't even know why I care.

Featherweight and I spent the afternoon walking around town until I got tired. I just wanted to be out of the house. The weather has been nice for a couple days, and I know it's going to be cold really soon. We walked around for a while, but I just got too sore. We sat outside at a café and rested. He asked if I needed to go home. Of course not! If he had seen how boring it was the last couple of days, he probably wouldn't have asked. I know he was just worried about me, though.

Entry 308:

Diamond Tiara seems really quiet today. It's kind of weird. Not complaining, though.

I finally decided to ask Silver Spoon what was up, and found out that Diamond Tiara's cousin, and close friend, Ruby Red got very sick and passed away. She said they don't even know what caused it, yet, and Diamond Tiara is very upset. I hate to say this, but I actually feel sorry for her. I may have said before that I wish she knew what it was like, but I didn't mean it... Nopony should have to deal with stuff like this.

Part of me wants to make fun of her for all the times she has made fun of me, but I just cannot be that pony. I can't stoop that low. I know she has been horrible to me, but I guess I just can't be that way back. Maybe if I try and be helpful, she'll even be nicer to me? Not likely, but whatever.

Well, that went well. Diamond Tiara told me I had no idea what she was experiencing. It took a lot of talking to her for her to listen to my suggestions. I told her to try and remember the good things, and not worry about that she was gone. Remember what it was that Ruby Red did that made her happy. I told her I didn't know Ruby Red, but I bet she wouldn't have wanted Diamond Tiara to be sad. What am I doing?! Why am I helping her?

I went with Miss Cheerilee to drop off some sympathy things that some of the class made her after school. When we got there, she was home alone. Her parents had to leave on business, and she was all alone. She just lost a friend and she was left to deal with it on her own? I know that that happened to me, but that was my fault. She was pushed into this.

We stuck around for a little while and tried to keep her mind off things. What am I doing?

Diamond Tiara actually thanked me. Thanked me.  Not just Miss Cheerilee, but me! This is the weirdest day of my life.

We went to Silver Spoon's house, to see if she could go spend time with Diamond Tiara and cheer her up. Her mom answered the door and said she was not allowed to leave. Her mom seems like a really mean pony. She didn't even explain why Silver Spoon couldn't leave, and Silver Spoon argued with her for a couple of minutes. Miss Cheerilee tried to talk her mom into it, too. It was no good, though. It was tough to watch. Silver Spoon was sent upstairs without dinner, for what seemed like no reason at all.

Well, that didn't work. I really do feel sorry for Diamond Tiara. Diamond Tiara of all ponies! I told Miss Cheerilee goodbye, and she thanked me for helping her out. I think I have a plan.

I found Silver Spoon's room. She told me her mom wasn't going to come check on her, that her mom was probably off drinking cider at The Mare's Head while her dad was in Poneapolis trying to close a deal for a new warehouse. I snuck her out of her window to get over to Diamond Tiara's house. I told her to meet me by the library at nine and I would get her back in her window.

This has to be the weirdest day ever. I helped out Silver Spoon AND Diamond Tiara. What's really dumb is I don't even think either of them are going to be any nicer to me.

Entry 309:

Well, so far, it's been a pretty easy day. Diamond Tiara hasn't been all that mean to anypony. She still seems upset. Sweetie Belle, Featherweight and I all tried to talk to her at recess, but she told us to leave her alone and went and sat  under a tree alone.

Silver Spoon wasn't in class today. I really hope her mom didn't find out she snuck out of the house. I have a feeling that's what happened, though. I hope I didn't make things worse trying to help.

Featherweight and I spent the afternoon at his house, he told me he respected that I was willing to help somepony who had been so mean to me. He said he wanted to help, but he wasn't sure whether being there would have helped or hurt. I told him that me being there didn't really feel like it made any difference at all. I thought that since I had experience with this, being there would have given us something to talk about, and maybe she wouldn't be the same old Diamond Tiara, but she was really quiet the whole time we were there.

I'm kind of worried about Silver Spoon. Her mom seems like a real piece of work.

Silver Spoon was up in her room. Featherweight and I went to see how she was. She said she was okay, her mom just kept her home all day for sneaking out. I asked if she was really fine or not, I was kind of afraid her mom would have hit her or something, she was scary when I met her. Silver Spoon told me she is a really mean mare, but she never hits. I guess that's good, but it's still pretty upsetting that she would punish her filly for trying to help out a friend.

We had the window slammed on us by Silver Spoon's mom. I hope we didn't make things worse, again.

Entry 310:

Well, Silver Spoon was around town, today. I asked her what happened after we left last night. She said her mom yelled at her, but that was all. We were just trying to help...

Silver Spoon was with Diamond Tiara. Diamond Tiara still seems very upset. At least Silver Spoon was there to cheer her up. I decided to stay out of their way. Why am I so worried about this? It's stupid! They hate me! They're so mean! And I still am this worried about how they feel?

This afternoon, Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom and I decided to go try out a new idea for our cutie marks. We're going to try slingshots. We have an idea for setting up targets and everything. It's going to be fun!

Well, I have a couple bruises that will probably last a while. I didn't know it was so difficult to get a slingshot to fire. Sweetie Belle managed to hit a tree and the rock bounced back and popped her in the head. She looks like she has a second horn growing out of her forehead, now. It's a little funny. I still haven't been able to focus, though.

I don't want Diamond Tiara back to her mean self, but I really hope she isn't having as much trouble as I did. I haven't forgotten how difficult it was, how upset I was. I wouldn't wish that on anypony, not even Diamond Tiara, apparently. I'll just do my best not to make things worse, since she doesn't seem to want to talk to me, much. I still can't believe how worried about her, of all ponies I am. It just seems so ridiculous! Oh well, I guess that's just the kind of pony I am.

White Winter (♫)

Entries 316-320

Entry 316:

Sweetie Belle didn't realize how big the script was. She seems worried she won't have time. There may not be any crusading for a while. Sweetie Belle seems nervous, but I know she'll do great. She's good at performing in front of people.

She stayed in at recess reading over the lines. I offered to stay in and help her, but she said she needed to read, and she was afraid if her friends stayed in with her she'd get to talking. She seems to be worrying about this more than she needs to. I just hope she doesn't upset herself.

After school, Apple Bloom and I got all our friends together to plan on what to do for the night of the show. We're probably going to get her some flowers, but we want to do something cooler than that, too.

Mister Center Stage called all the Hearth's Warming Eve ponies to the Ponyville Community Center to discuss the schedule. Sweetie Belle is one of the youngest ponies on the team. We all hung around outside the meeting to see how she was doing. She seemed happy when she came out, but she still sounded nervous. She said there will be three actor's dinners she needs to attend to get to know her fellow cast this week and next week. She's going to be really busy. She said she could bring friends to the last one, so we may go with her if everything works out.

Pipsqueak says he's never seen Sweetie Belle so nervous. It is a big show, and she has a special part. She's the narrator, after all. We may go see if Spike has any words of encouragement for her. He did it a couple of years ago, after all.

Entry 317:

Pipsqueak, Featherweight and I went to see Spike. He said he'd be happy to help Sweetie Belle with the script. He said he didn't even know she was selected. He's pretty excited for her, so is Twilight. I asked Twilight how she didn't already know. Twilight says Rarity was so worried about getting the costumes "just so" that she didn't even really talk about anything. She thought Sweetie Belle was with us.

We took Spike to the Carousel Boutique, and after we dragged him away from Rarity, he helped Sweetie Belle with the script. I don't know whether it was worth it or not, though, because Spike just kind of hammed it up a lot. Sweetie Belle should do the part her way, not Spike's. He did help her work on memorizing the lines, though, so at least that was good.

This evening, Sweetie Belle has to go to the first of the actor's dinners, so Pipsqueak is hanging out with Featherweight and me. We decided to go to Sugarcube Corner. All three of us felt exhausted after listening to Spike ramble on about Rarity on the way back to the Library. He just won't shut up about her, it's really weird. Pipsqueak says Spike's a bit "daft," whatever that is.

We went to Featherweight's dad's house and hung out for a bit. His dad told us some stores about Trottingham back before Pipsqueak was born. They had a big struggle between the country's government and the Trotland Liberation Initiative. The Trotlandians didn't want to be part of the Bridligland Confederation, and fought to secede. He says he remembers fires, explosions, and foalnappings. It was a scary time.

He said he thought the way that the Trotlandians handled the situation was terrible, but that he understood why they wanted to break off. The BC taxed them unfairly, and forced all colts into the BC Armed Forces when they came of age. No other places in Bridligland had to deal with this. How awful!

When we left to head home, Pipsqueak says his dad was arrested around he was born for being a TLI sympathizer, and actually missed his birth. He says his dad has always regretted being unable to see his colt's birth, and has always taken Pipsqueak's birthday off to spend time with him.

Entry 318:

Sweetie Belle says the dinner was great, but that everypony else seems to have a lot more experience in stage shows. I told her she's going to do great, but she didn't seem to believe me. I just hope she uses her nervous energy to practice, and doesn't worry herself to the point she doesn't practice.

After school, Pipsqueak went with Sweetie Belle to do the other parts of the show, so Sweetie Belle could practice her cues. Featherweight and I went to visit Apple Bloom and Ocean Breeze at the clubhouse. We didn't stay around, long. It was too cold even with the blankets we had up there. We went to Apple Bloom's house, where Applejack was fixing apple baskets. Big Macintosh carried the rotten wood pieces in a wagon out to a barn. We helped him and Applejack unload it all into the barn. They said when it got nicer they'd break it up into mulch to place around the new saplings.

We got back to the house and helped stain the new wood for the baskets. It was a lot of fun, but the stain smells really bad. I have some matted spots on my front legs from the stain. Applejack said a bath should wash it out, so I guess that's okay.

Featherweight and I went to his house. His dad was gone again. Featherweight seemed really upset. It was getting dark, and I knew why. I offered to stay with him until his dad got back. He said I needed to get home before it got too dark. I basically forced him to come with me to Dad's house. He hates being alone. He can worry himself sick if he's alone too long. Dad said he could stay here for a while, and that he would walk Featherweight home. Featherweight still seemed upset. He kept asking me where his dad was, like I would know. I just tried to keep his mind off of it.

Shutter Speed came to the house and picked up Featherweight. He told Featherweight he was really sorry he was so late. He had gone to Port Mane and lost track of time, and even hurrying back, it took him longer than he expected. Featherweight seemed much happier when he left. I am really starting to wonder about Shutter Speed, he would never forget something like that, he's usually ahead of schedule. He always shows up to his galleries two hours ahead of time to straighten frames and set up snacks. He used to be at school to pick up Featherweight about a half hour before school ended, camera in hoof. He's acting really strange.

Entry 319:

Sweetie Belle stayed inside for recess, again. Pipsqueak and Cheerilee read lines with her. Apple Bloom and I decided that since we weren't going to be able to crusade for a while, we'd need to get some ideas together, soon, to have things ready for Sweetie Belle when we could get back to it. I have a feeling that after the show it'll be one of the first things she will want to do. We already have a small list: Snow fort building, ice skating and sledding. We're going to make use of the snowy weather while it's here.

Mom picked me up from school, today. She said she hasn't gotten to fly with me in a while, and with the cold wind, she figured it'd be good practice. She was right, flying in the cold wind is a lot harder. I've done it a bit with cold weather, but the gusts almost knocked me out of the air a few times. It's a good thing Mom's pretty good at catching. I haven't had so much trouble flying in ages. I haven't practiced as much as I used to, but I haven't ever felt so cold!

We went to Dad's house, where he and Featherweight had hot cocoa ready. Mine even had peppermint in it. It was fantastic. I'm still chilly, right now, but I feel a lot better than I did, earlier. Featherweight showed me his idea for Sweetie Belle. We're going to work together on it. He's going to take some pictures of places that look like scenes from the play (he better keep that sweater close, it's a cold winter so far this year, and it's not even officially winter, yet!) I'm going to draw the characters, and we're going to make a book of the story, for her. I think she'll really like it, especially since it's from us.

We went and told Apple Bloom our idea, and she said she would help. Applejack has her script from a couple of years ago, and she said she's write the story out under the pictures for us. She has better hoofwriting than I do. She probably has one of the best in the class. I think Sweetie Belle will find this really special.

Entry 320:

I'm starting to miss Sweetie Belle at recess. I understand why she's gone, but we could have had some awesome snowball fights, already. It isn't a lot of snow, but it's definitely enough! Featherweight and I made a little Snowpony. We used up enough snow that you could see the grass, again. We didn't really have anything for the face, though, so it kind of just looks like a few lumps of snow.

After class, Pipsqueak hung out with Featherweight and me again. He said Sweetie Belle had to work on her costume with Rarity, again. We went to the center of town and walked around, looking at ponies' holiday lights. I love all the lights in the winter. It looks so pretty. Golden Manchet is helping do the town's lights. The Mayor picked the team he works in to do it this year. It's a big honor.

We went to visit Jasmine Tea, and helped her decorate the house. It looks really nice. She said that it was a lot easier doing the lights with pegasi helping her. I can imagine! Pipsqueak stayed behind with his mom to help take care of the chores. She's been out of town for several days, and the house needed cleaning. We offered to help, but he said that we should go enjoy the sights.

We went to Feathereweight's house after that. It looked so out of place on the block, no decorations outside, yet. When we got inside, Shutter Speed was happy to see us, and was digging through boxes. He told us he was waiting on Featherweight to get started. Featherweight looked happier than I have seen him in days.

I got all wrapped up in garlands and tinsel after falling off the roof. I'm okay, but I'm still getting metal flakes out of my mane. Featherweight gave his dad a hug goodbye, and we went to Dad's house to see if we were ready to decorate. Dad's house is probably the last house in town to be decorated, this year. He said we needed to go buy lights, tomorrow, because the lights from last year got broken when he was taking them down, and it'll be easier (and probably cheaper) to just buy new lights instead of replacing all the old bulbs. We got wreaths and other things up, but it's dark compared to the rest of the houses. Featherweight says he wants to do some night photography sometime this week. He said I should take pictures, too. He said he'd show me how to take pictures when it's dark, when he gets his tripod out of his room. Dad and I walked Featherweight home, and headed back to the house.

Dad said Featherweight seemed happier today, too. I told him his dad has been gone a lot lately, and Shutter Speed being home to decorate the house with Featherweight seemed to pick him up a lot. He said he thought it seemed odd that he was so late the other day. It's still strange, but hopefully it has passed, now.

Stage Fright (♫)

Entries 321-323

Entry 321:

Featherweight and I hung out in the tree, today. Rumble was flying around and almost knocked me out of the tree! That colt is pretty reckless, sometimes. I was talking to Featherweight about how we were going to do these scenes from the show. We're going to take pictures (well, he is. I may, too, but that's specifically his part, so I'll let him do that. He'll probably have better shots, anyway.) Once we get the scenery, Featherweight is going to make a print of the scene, so I know the size, then I'm going to draw the characters, and we're going to take a Precizo knife and cut around the characters, and I'll color them into the scene.

We stopped by Sugarcube Corner, and found Shutter Speed talking with Pinkie Pie and Applejack. When he turned around and saw us, he seemed really nervous. He said hello, then ran (kind of strangely) out of the place with a bag. Featherweight seemed distracted and upset when his dad left. I asked Applejack and Pinkie Pie what was going on, and Pinkie Pie poked her forehead and walked off. She's so weird. Applejack said it was nothing to worry about, and left before I could ask her anything else. Something weird is going on here.

I asked Featherweight what was the deal, he said he didn't know, so I told him I meant he seemed more upset than he had been. He said he saw a plastic band on his dad's hoof. He said that, combined with the way he's been acting, he's really worried about his dad. He had to spell it out for me that he thought his dad was really sick, and hiding it.

I told him he was overthinking this and he flew off toward his house. I followed behind. I've never seen him fly so quickly. His dad wasn't there when we got there, though. We went inside and looked around just to make sure, and Featherweight gasped in the most frightening way I've ever heard. He found a hard to read yellow sheet from Ponyville Hospital with a note saying "Total time: 2 wk. Return immediately if situation worsens."

Featherweight was so freaked out it took me a half hour just to calm him down enough to even talk with him. He said that if the note was right, and accurate, that he had until the day before Hearth's Warming Eve. I told him he really needed to relax, that he didn't know what the note meant, because the rest of the mulemark was impossible to read (doctors, you know.) I hope for Featherweight's sake I'm right.

Featherweight sat at his house, worried for his dad, and I sat beside him, cuddled up, worried for him. We waited for his dad to come home. It got darker, and he finally walked in. He turned to look at us and seemed terrified. He asked Featherweight what was wrong, and Featherweight said he found the note. Shutter Speed listened to his idea of what was going on, and began to break into a strange laughter.

He told Featherweight the note was a prescription for pain medicine. He said he fell down a steep hill and hurt his leg. He said it hurt enough he thought he might have broke it, so he went to the hospital. The hospital did an x-ray and said it was fine, but gave him two weeks of pain medicine just in case he needed it. It still took a long time to calm Featherweight down to his normal self. I told Featherweight I was right, that he was just overthinking everything. Featherweight told his dad that he wanted to know what was going on. Shutter Speed told him that nothing was wrong, and that he just needed to relax.

Featherweight still seems unconvinced. I think he needs to just let it be. If something is up, Shutter Speed would tell him. Shutter Speed is a pretty honest guy, especially to Featherweight. On the way back to my house, Featherweight used his wing to keep me warm. He didn't seem to want to let me go, and, honestly I would have been fine staying right there, but we couldn't sit out in this weather all night. He gave me a kiss on the cheek, and I nuzzled his forehead. I told him to just relax, and think about Sweetie Belle's show, and our gift. I just hope I can keep him together until Hearth's Warming Eve, that way if he really is still worried about this, I can show him when his dad is still here. I just have to get through another fifteen days, and I get to one of my favorite holidays.

Entry 322:

Featherweight was still acting strange at school, today. I told him he really needs to chill. If something serious was wrong, I know his dad would tell him. He wouldn't hide anything serious, so it may be any number of things. I told him he may be worried about money. He hasn't had a gallery in a while, and he doesn't have money for a tent at the moment to sell pictures on weekends.

Featherweight told me that he usually worries about money around Hearth's Warming Day, because he always wants to buy Featherweight more than he can afford, even though Featherweight hates that he spends as much as he does. He said that Shutter Speed never gets as weird as he has been this year. I told Featherweight that his dad might have a special plan this year for him.

We went to the market with Twist, to help her carry sugar home. Usually her dad helps her, but he was busy helping sell holiday stuff. He took a seasonal job to make a bit of extra money for Twist. Twist loves to make holiday treats, she usually gives everypony a bag of them on the last day of school. I wonder what she'll have planned this year.

Once we got to Twist's house, she gave us each a gingerbread cookie. They were really good! One day Twist is probably going to be a famous baker and candy maker. From there, I went with Featherweight to take pictures. This weekend, we're going to take a picture of the cave below Canterlot for the big scene at the end. Dad is going with us so we have somepony in case the weather gets bad.

Entry 323:

Tucked into the page are two cutouts from a newspaper.

"Rising Starlet?

By Featherweight, Editor In Chief of the Foal Free Press

Ponyville Elementary's very own Sweetie Belle has been hard at work on the lines as the esteemed narrator of the Hearth's Warming Eve play this year at the Ponyville Community Center. 'I am pretty nervous, but I'm feeling a lot better, now that I've had more time with the actors and reading my lines.'  Continued on B2"

"Starlet, Continued from Page 1A

'The experience has been interesting. I wish I could spend more time with my friends, but I want everything to be perfect, so I have had to give up time with them to practice. They seem supportive, though.' And supportive they are. Fellow classmate Pipsqueak said 'She'll do right well; I imagine. She's good with speaking. I can't wait to see her at the show!' Numerous interviews yielded positive hopes and expectations. Apple Bloom (another fellow classmate) said 'She's the best speaker of my friends.... She knows her way around words like an ant around an anthill.' Be sure to show your support on the evening of Hearth's Warming Eve at 5:00 at the Ponyville Community Center in the Rich Community Theater."

Featherweight put a little story in the paper about Sweetie Belle. She seems to feel a lot better about herself, now. She's still nervous. I can tell in how she acts, but she's doing a lot better. She can say a lot of lines without looking at the paper, and it's only been a couple of days. She'll do great!

Featherweight and I went to take pictures, again. I wish we had known about her doing this before it got snowy. We can't find any places to do Equestria on Hearth's Warming Day. I mean, it was probably still snowy on Hearth's Warming Day, like it is nowadays. Maybe we'll just have to go with it.

Pipsqueak caught up to us when we were headed through town to Featherweight's house. I chatted with Pipsqueak while Featherweight developed the film. Pipsqueak said his mom was staying late in Port Mane, again. She may not even be home tonight. She's trying to do a double shift to get money for the holidays. She has told him many times that it's tougher to get money with one pony as opposed to two. He seems happy, still. It's really strange how well he takes talking about his parents' split. I think I would have trouble for years. He told me that he doesn't think about it in terms of himself. He said that if they're happy, he's happy. He feels like they would have been unhappy if they stayed together just for the sake of staying together. I guess that makes sense, but I still would have a lot of trouble with it.

Shutter Speed came home while we were waiting on Featherweight. He went to develop film, as well. Both of them came out after a little while, laughing about something. Featherweight put down two pictures on the table. He asked me to look at them. I asked him why he gave me two of the same picture, and he told me one was his dad's photo. His dad took a picture of the same icicles on a tree south of town. Great minds, I guess. It's pretty weird, though. After he told me they were different pictures, I could see small differences, but it was practically the same angle, same spot, same light, everything.

Winter Chill (♫)

Entries 324-327

Entry 324:

I asked Mom and Dad if I could invite Featherweight and Shutter Speed to our house for Hearth's Warming Day supper. They said they'd be happy to have him over. I have to think of a nice gift for him. I've been so busy thinking about Sweetie Belle's gift that I almost forgot! How embarrassing.

I met up with Featherweight and Pipsqueak at his house. Pipsqueak woke up when his dad left for market work. This is one of his dad's last two major work weeks. After this, the Hearth's Warming Day sales will have passed. Until then, he'll be working like crazy. A lot of ponies only open shops around the holidays, spending the rest of the year working on things (pillows, clothing, sculptures, etc. Stuff that takes a long time to make enough to sell at a marketplace.)

The three of us had a snowball fight. It was fun. I'm sure that Sweetie Belle would love to be here, but she still has practice. This weekend is her last dinner, the one we may all go to. They'll be doing a dress rehearsal in front of a small audience to see what everypony still needs to work on. Featherweight says he has most of the photos ready for the book, so I'm sure this afternoon I'll get to drawing up the characters for the booklet. I've already been practicing. I used pictures from the year Mom was in the Canterlot show to design the characters. I think they're looking pretty good!

We went to check on Apple Bloom, she was helping mix up some applesauce for holiday gifts. It has a nice smell of cinnamon, and it is probably delicious! After she finished with the batch, we went to the clubhouse with Featherweight's pictures and we all worked on decorating the pages. After a while, Ocean Breeze came to visit and designed the cover for us. Featherweight wanted to take a picture of us for the cover, but Ocean Breeze took his camera and said we should all be on the front. He used his magic to take the picture for us all. Featherweight told me he meant he would go get his tripod, but that that worked, too. Apple Bloom is going to keep it and wrap it for us. She's the best at wrapping gifts. She has had a lot of practice. She helps wrap gifts to go with the apples that Apple Jack and Big Mac give for Winter Warmth Day. Every year they take some apples from the last harvest and other gifts they collect from participants, and donate them to the less wealthy ponies in town.

I'm really happy with our book. I think she'll really like it. Pipsqueak, Featherweight and I went to his house and spent some time with his dad. Shutter Speed has a holiday photo gallery starting on Friday. All three of us are going to help (I don't know what Pipsqueak will do, yet, since he's shorter than where the bottom of most of the pictures hang, but we'll see.)

Entry 235:

Page is lightly dotted with tear stains.

I decided to spend some time at home, today. I hope Featherweight doesn't mind. I just had a kind of sad morning remembering all the fun I used to have with Mama, Papa, and Auntie Raincloud during the holidays. We would always be one of the first families at the Port Mane Performing Arts Center on Hearth's Warming Eve. Papa would always help with the actors' party after the show. We'd usually walk down to the store and get punch mix and cookies at least a couple of times. Dad would usually buy me some Jam and Jelly's Strawberry Cream Cookies while we were at the store.

On Hearth's Warming Day, we would always spend all day in the nice warm house. Mama would make homemade peppermint or orange zest cocoa, and peanut butter nutmeg cookies. Auntie Raincloud would come to visit in the afternoon, and bring me a gift. This diary was supposed to be a gift for the year I lost Mama and Papa, but when they got sick, Auntie Raincloud decided I should probably have it to write down my memories. Since then I haven't even done much of that. I don't even remember many things. I lost a good chance to remember my first parents better.

Featherweight came to the house and spent the afternoon with me, trying to cheer me up. He told me that I must still remember quite a few things if I could write so many details about Hearth's Warming Eve and Day more than a couple of years later. He said I should just write down the ideas if they come to mind. He also said he got a great idea for my Hearth's Warming Day gift, today. Great. Now he is ahead of me. What am I supposed to get the colt who never really wants anything?

I think I have an idea. I'm going to see if I can go with Dad sometime this week to Port Mane. There's a photography store there, Flashbulb's Photo Features. Maybe I can get him a gift card. It's nothing major, but it's personal to him, and I think he'd like that. I hate having to think of gifts for him. It's basically impossible.

The actor's dinner was really nice. Sweetie Belle did a great job! She's really nervous, now, because we found out Princess Luna is coming to see the Ponyville show. I could understand being nervous, but I know she'll do great! Pipsqueak told her she did great, and they went to Sugarcube Corner for a little extra treat to celebrate. I went to Dad's with Featherweight. We talked about the show. We both think she did a good job. He wasn't at the Canterlot show, but I personally thought that she did a lot better than Spike (since Spike kept overacting and tried to steal the show.) Featherweight said that Apple Bloom gave him Sweetie Belle's gift, and we all think that Pipsqueak should be the one to actually give it to her. It just makes the most sense.

Entry 236:

Today starts the first day of the last school week before holiday break! Lots of ponies are getting in trouble for talking while Miss Cheerilee is teaching. Everypony is really excited. Dinky and Twist are talking about going door to door to give out candy and baked treats. Snips and Snails are talking about sleeping in. Diamond Tiara is actually talking about spending time with her mom and dad. She invited Silver Spoon over for the holidays. I never thought I'd be happier to hear something from somepony I don't particularly like. That's what I like most about Hearth's Warming Eve. It really does bring everypony together, just like the story. Diamond Tiara still took her chance to pick on me when I got clobbered by snow while flying under the tree, but I just brushed it off. I didn't even feel like responding. I am so excited for the holiday!

Pipsqueak invited our little group to Port Mane for the official town lighting ceremony. His mom's ship had the lights for the year. They got delayed after a bad snowstorm in Port Salty Saddle. All shipments were delayed a couple weeks. We're all going to Port Mane tomorrow after school.

Pipsqueak took Sweetie Belle for an afternoon away from practice. He told her she deserved a break after how hard she has worked. They went to a nice sit down meal at Chef Red Grape's. Featherweight and I went to his house. Nopony was there, so we hung around for a while. I told him about Hearth's Warming Day. I totally forgot the other day after seeing Pipsqueak was at his house. I didn't want to invite him in front of somepony else, even if he is my coltfriend. He said he'd talk to his dad, and that he was excited about it. He said it'd be an interesting change from the typical time with just his dad.

Entry 237:

Miss Cheerilee decided that since everypony is so excited about the holiday, we'll probably spend the week doing more holiday related stuff. Today we wrote a list of our favorite memories from the holidays to send to our future selves. Featherweight sat next to me. He said he wanted to be able to cheer me up if I got upset. He also pulled Miss Cheerilee over to tell her about the other day. He's so sweet.

I wrote down the same things as the other day, plus some of the newer things: the Canterlot show, time with my newer friends and family, and time with Featherweight. I actually handled it pretty well. I did get a bit upset, but I felt pretty good. I did keep an eye on Diamond Tiara. She seemed a bit upset. She must remember spending holidays with Ruby Red, or something. I felt bad for her. I still think that's the strangest thing since coming to Ponyville. I feel bad for Diamond Tiara. The thing that hurt the most was hearing Miss Cheerilee whisper to Silver Spoon that she didn't seem like she was trying. I actually pulled Miss Cheerilee to the side and told her about when I went back to talk to Silver Spoon that night. She said she would talk with Silver Spoon. It's so hard to dislike somepony I know has real problems, but this just feels so weird.

When I got home, Tank was at the house. Rainbow Dash said that Fluttershy couldn't really keep Tank very well this winter. She had too many reptiles and not enough dens, so he's going to be at the house most of the winter. That's fine with me, but I have a feeling we may have to take his propellers, before he knocks over everything in the house.

Featherweight and I spent the afternoon inside. It was just too cold to go anywhere. That's the worst part about winter. Some days are just indoor days. I hate not getting to stretch my wings at all. Even though there's actually quite a bit of airspace in Dad's house, it's still not enough to get to flying quick. At Featherweight's house, I don't know what you'd do. Everywhere is pretty tiny and cramped.

Art Attack (♫)

Entries 328-332

Entry 328:

All week after school, Sweetie Belle has to go to the theater and practice with the crew. They're working on lighting, timing, and other things. It's going to be a long couple of weeks for her, I bet. She's in good spirits, though. She has definitely become more comfortable, again. She even came outside for recess. We talked about our ideas for crusading. She said she can't wait to get back to getting her cutie mark.

Apple Bloom and I walked Sweetie Belle to the Carousel Boutique to drop off her stuff and then I meant to take her to the Community Center. I was happy to hear Rarity saying that her sister was doing "a simply marvelous job" as the narrator. Sweetie Belle was even with me when she said it. However, Rarity yanked me inside and started taking my measurements. I asked her what the big idea was and she said something about missing filly pegasus outfit, and that she needed it fast. I told Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom to go on without me.

After I got done being wrapped in tape measures, cloth, and hearing "tsk tsk tsk, no, that just simply will not do," and "Ah! Marvelous! Rarity you are a genius!" I ran before she came up with any other things to put in my head or back and headed home. When I got there, I came into the funniest scene. Mom and Dad were all cuddled up until Mom saw me. She tried to deny it, but I know what I saw. It's no secret that Mom hates being seen as a softy. Dad thought it was hilarious. He even teased her for getting so embarrassed. I guess I get why she'd be so upset. I am always uncomfortable cuddling up with Featherweight in public. I have an image, too! (I still do, from time to time, though...)

I caught up with Apple Bloom downtown. She said she was having trouble thinking of what to get me and Sweetie Belle other than the usual things. I told her that she didn't need to get me anything. She said that wouldn't do. I helped her convince Rarity to go to the Crystal Empire and get Sweetie Belle one of the snow globes we saw. I still never let her know how we knew about them. Apple Bloom and I said we'd pay her back. I have a bit of money saved up, but now I don't know what to get Apple Bloom! I still have to get Featherweight his gift, too! I may have to talk to Applejack about what to get Apple Bloom. Why are all my friends so hard to shop for?

I lucked out. After Apple Bloom left with Ocean Breeze for dinner, I ran into Zecora, and told her what was on my mind.She told me to follow her to her hut. When we got there, she gave me a potion making kit for Apple Bloom. She said I could have it to give to her. I tried to offer her payment, but she said "A gift is not about money, like happiness, a gift is best free." I thanked her, and she led me back to town before it got dark. I just have to get to Port Mane, now.

Entry 329:

Tucked into the page is a Hearth's Warming Day card stamped with a CANTERLOT POST stamp, and two Canterlot postcards, one of the castle, and one labelled "The Famous Starswirl Boulevard" with a picture of a statue of an old pony with a long beard.

"Hey, you! Long time no chat! Life been busy?

I remember you saying that Hearth's Warming Day was your favorite holiday, so I figured I'd send you a little something! I know it's not much, but sending big packages costs a lot! A medium box is five bits! I could fly to Ponyville and eat for that! Anyway, no plans to return any time, soon. I will let you know if things change! Happy holidays, pal! Be ready to race next time!

See you!

Blazemane"

When I left this morning, Dad said he'd take me to Port Mane after school.

Miss Cheerilee gave everypony a Hearth's Warming Day gift today. She said we'd be able to make use of it next semester. We all got a really nice set of pens and stationery. I'm going to make use of it tonight. I am going to write all my friends out of town holiday letters.

Looks like Blazemane beat me to letter writing. Figures. I got a couple of nice postcards, too! I'll have to find something from town to send her. Man, this money thing is tough! If it really costs five bits to send a box in the mail, then I'll have to send something small, because that's a lot just to send something!

At least I have Featherweight's gift card. I hate to buy a gift card, but I can't ever tell what he wants! It's so frustrating. I'm sure he'll love it. He'd love it if I got him a goofy hat. He always takes gifts well. I just hope it's enough. I'd love to get him more, but I only saved up so much money this year. Dad said he'd take the card home with him.

I went to help out Featherweight and Pipsqueak work on setting up Shutter Speed's gallery. Pipsqueak wasn't able to put up pictures, but he did sweep up the building, and help move the tables for the snacks. He may be small, but he isn't weak (I mean, he's not super strong, either, but for his size, he's tough!)

Whew! That took a long time. I got letters for Wild Wisp, Blazemane, Babs, and Miss Winter Winds. All I could afford was a postcard from Ponyville for everypony, and I'm all out of money, now, but it's worth it! I got everypony a gift, all on my own! (Well, kind of.)

Entry 330:

I got Miss Cheerilee a "#1 Teacher" mug and a box of flavored hot chocolate. She said it was sweet, but that I didn't need to get her anything. I told her she has been so good to me (to all of us, really) that I didn't see why she didn't deserve a little something.

Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon were picking on Sweetie Belle, saying she would mess up the play. Sweetie Belle just responded by reciting the entire first part. I thought it was pretty funny. Apple Bloom and I said she did a good job, and the class cheered her on. Featherweight and I moved a cloud over everypony and made it snow. We played around in the new snow until recess was over. It was a lot of fun! I always forget that I can move around clouds.

Featherweight and I went to Shutter Speed's gallery. He put up more pictures after we left. I didn't know he had a picture of us! I'll hear about this if Diamond Tiara comes to the gallery. It's a nice picture, but I don't know how I feel about everypony seeing me cuddled up to Featherweight. Featherweight said he liked the picture, and like I said, I did, too. I just don't know about everypony seeing it! Mom was cracking up. I told her I'd let everypony know that I saw her cuddled up with Dad the other evening and she shut right up. I guess I'll just deal with it. It is a cute picture. (I hate being called cute.)

Featherweight told me he could talk to his dad about the picture if I wanted. I told him it was fine. He said he didn't want me to be uncomfortable. I'll get over it. I'm tough enough to deal with that. It's not like it was anything really embarrassing. The other pictures were amazing. I love the icicles and snow covered trees. There are a few others of ponies in town. Some I know, some I don't. Pipsqueak and Applejack were both in pictures, too. His picture of Pipsqueak is so cute, all wrapped up in a scarf, laying in the snow. Applejack's is a more traditional winter picture. I think she must have posed for it, since it's at Sweet Apple Acres. She's seated on some hay, next to a lantern, looking out of the barn at the snowy trees. It's a really peaceful looking picture.

The gallery went well, too! Shutter Speed already sold ten pictures! He said he has enough for groceries for a couple months, now. I was right that Diamond Tiara would pick on me. She tried to get her dad to buy the picture, but he bought one of a fence covered in snow, instead. Mr. Rich bought a really big print, he paid 100 bits for it!

I'm happy it's time for the holiday break. I like Miss Cheerilee, but school still bores me a lot.

Entry 331:

Tucked into the page are two letters, one stamped "FORT BURNING HOOF POST", and one stamped "MANEHATTAN POST"

"Hello, Scootaloo,

Happy holidays, to you, too! I am doing well. It's good I received this when I did, because my family and I leave tomorrow afternoon for a family reunion just outside of Fort Bridle. Dad is a third generation Sky Stallion, and he has been based here as a flight trainer. He hasn't actually been able to see his father in a couple of years, so he's very excited to go back home. I hope the cold weather treats you well. I will hopefully get to see you when Mom and Dad have vacation. I'd love to meet your friends!

Thank you for writing me!

Your friend,

Wild Wisp"

"Hey, Scoots!

You think it's cold down there, you should feel the weather up here! Somepony downstairs had to move out of their apartment, because ice froze in a crack in the window and broke the window open! They're living next door for now, until the landmare can take care of the window, but nopony wants to deliver in this weather. There's so much snow that some ponies can't open their doors!

We're doing fine though. Me and my big sis have been wrapped in blankets and snacking on winter treats. Ma and Pops are both out of the house. They are trying to get extra money to help out with their friend. They have a friend who just lost her job, and can't afford to pay for heat and groceries, so they're both doing double shifts. I can't imagine being stuck without heat! Poor mare. I don't know why she doesn't just move in with us for now (I mean, I guess it'd be really cramped, but we could make it work.)

Anyways, hope the weather is treating you better than that! Hope to see you soon!

Your pal,

Babs Seed"

I hung around at the gallery with Featherweight, today. We helped Shutter Speed by getting snacks for him whenever he ran out. It only happened a couple of times, but we figured as busy as the gallery has been, that he could use some extra help. Even with us there, he still has this forced smile like he's just a few seconds from losing his mind. On the bright side, he's made a lot of sales. We have a lot of ponies here from Canterlot, coming to meet Princess Luna after the show. It worked out well for Shutter Speed (except that he doesn't necessarily want this much attention.)

We actually had to close down the gallery for lunch so Shutter Speed could go get something to eat. We went to the Community Center and brought Sweetie Belle a piece of cheesecake from Sugarcube Corner. We had to keep an eye on the clock, so we could be back to help Shutter Speed open back up. Sweetie Belle was happy to see us, though. She introduced us to Hawkwing, who was playing Commander Hurricane. She is a mailmare who delivers between here and Phillydelphia in the summer, and during the winter she is part of several plays around here, Canterlot, and Port Mane. She's a bit older than Mom, and graduated from Flight Academy before Mom was in Cloudsdale. She seems nice, I just bet Mom did a better job. (She IS the coolest pony in the Equestria, after all!)

We had to wake Shutter Speed up, he was passed out on the couch at the house. We told him if it was too much, he could always take the day off. He said he couldn't. The gallery was too important. We may have to keep watch on him through the day of the show. Everypony leaves after that, and it should calm down. He took Hearth's Warming Eve and Day off, though, so that should be a nice break, too.

We talked with Apple Bloom after the gallery closed for the night. She said she'd see if Applejack could help. She has a lot of experience selling things, and Shutter Speed is too soft spoken to do something this busy on his own, I think. We went with her to talk with Applejack. Applejack said she'd be happy to. She was looking for a reason to get away from farm work for a couple of days. Big Mac said he could take care of the things on the farm for now. We went to Featherweight's house, but Shutter Speed wasn't there, so we'll have to see about talking with him, tomorrow.

Entry 332:

Tucked into the page is a letter postmarked "CLOUDSDALE POST"

"Hello, Scootaloo.

How's your technique coming along? I urge you not to push yourself too hard, this winter. It's scheduled to be very cold. We overstocked snowflakes, and need to clear out space. Expect it to be really cold.

Flying too much in cold weather can cause pretty bad aches. Even so, I do love to fly in the winter, myself.

How are you and Featherweight? I hope all is well. And Rainbow Dash and Lucky Buck? Your friends? Be sure to spend this special time with all of them. It is the meaning of the season, after all.

Be sure to visit if you are ever in Cloudsdale!

Sincerely,

Winter Winds"

I went home and passed out last night. It was a busy, busy day!

Shutter Speed was very happy that Applejack was helping. He told her the minimum prices for different pictures and she had it all down and ready in no time. It went a lot better, this morning. We still had to go get snacks more than once, but Applejack was helping handle sales instead of us having to distract ponies for long enough that Shutter Speed could actually talk. Shutter Speed said he is giving Applejack twenty percent of sales for helping out.

We took Sweetie Belle a treat again. Pipsqueak was watching the practice from the audience. We didn't know he was going to be there, or we would have got him something, too. Sweetie Belle didn't have long to talk, because Center Stage was going through lines with her. He changed the wording on her. I hope she can remember the changes. Pipsqueak says she's been doing pretty well with the changes, so far.

Applejack was on lunch when we got back, so we had to help Shutter Speed out, again. At least it was a lot slower, since most ponies went to eat, too. It's been crowded all over town. It may happen here more than other places, but it's still pretty special to have a princess in town. Especially for the Hearth's Warming Eve play. She actually comes into town tomorrow. She's staying in the library (which Twilight is closing off with a barrier.) I hope I get to meet her, again, but if she's busy, she's busy.

Featherweight and I took a break for the evening and sat in the clouds (until we got too cold) and watched the stars. We went to Dad's house and had some hot cocoa. Dad said I need to get a warmer coat. I don't know. I hate having something bulky on. It's hard to fly! We played with Tank for a while. He doesn't seem to mind not having his propeller. I know I'd hate not being able to fly, at all. I remember how embarrassed I used to be that I couldn't fly like Mom. I'm still not on her level, but I can at least do it!

During the holidays I seem to have a lot of memories. Mom says that's pretty common, but it's still strange, to me. I wish I could remember the fun times I've had with my friends like this, all the time. I guess I'll just enjoy it while it lasts.

Deus Ex Machina (♫)

Entries 333-337

Entry 333:

I never knew my holiday was going to be so much work! To the gallery to help, to the Community Center to visit Sweetie Belle, back to the gallery, jeeesh! Featherweight and I have checked in on the gallery a couple of times, but Shutter Speed said to go do other things now that Applejack is helping out. He also said Pinkie Pie would be getting snacks, so we didn't need to worry about that. We still decided we better check in, because if Pinkie Pie is there, we may need to help pick things up.

We went to the Community Center with Apple Bloom, Ocean Breeze, Pipsqueak, Twist, and Dinky. We all sat in the audience to cheer on Sweetie Belle. She's doing really well! She only fumbled a couple of times, and Pipsqueak said that they were lines that Center Stage changed, yesterday. I'd say she's going to be ready show night, with time to spare! She came down and hung out with us, and we went to Buttercup's Tea House for her break. I've never been here before, but Pipsqueak says it's the best tea in town.

I had a nectarine and orange zest tea. It was interesting. I figured I'd try something new out. It was pretty good, a bit sour, but that's not a bad thing! Sweetie Belle said she was happy to see us all. I told her about the gallery and when she heard "Pinkie Pie" and "art gallery" her eyes were as big as the tea saucers. I told her we would miss part of the third act, because we were going to check on the gallery for that exact reason.

Everything was actually fine at the gallery. Pinkie Pie was wearing a monocle and a mustache because she's Pinkie Pie. Shutter Speed said he is going to have to make extra prints and buy some more frames with the sales money, because he has sold more copies than he made. That's good, I guess. That means he may have to find frames at a bad time of year, though. They are going to be more expensive. Featherweight said he's worried about that, too. They shouldn't be crazy, but it will be more than if he had bought them a few months ago.

We got back to the show just as it was ending. I felt bad for missing Sweetie Belle's final part, but she wasn't upset. She was just happy I was able to see some of the practice. Princess Luna is going to be at the rehearsal the day before the actual show, meeting the actors. Nopony is allowed in without Princess Luna's permission, and there will be guards by all the doors. We may not be able to visit Sweetie Belle on that day, but we'll be sure to wish her luck before the big show.

Entry 334:

Princess Luna came to Shutter Speed's gallery. He almost passed out this morning. He's never been so close to the princesses like some of us. Between that and how soft spoken he is, Princess Luna seemed confused the whole time she tried talking to him. He wouldn't stop mumbling! Featherweight thought it was really funny, but stepped in to help his dad. I was kind of surprised, since Featherweight is definitely still shier than his dad. I asked him afterward how he did that. He said he sees everypony as another pony. Even famous ponies are just regular ponies. He said if he were famous (or even royalty) that he would rather be addressed the same way as anypony else instead of being pounced on by fans.

Princess Luna talked to me for a while before she left. She said she was happy to see me, again. She said Featherweight was a nice colt, and that his father was a great photographer. She was very happy to see pictures of the moon and stars. Shutter Speed pulled a picture of the moon over the Everfree Forest down and gave it to her, telling her it was free of charge. She still dropped him a nice tip on the way out. I think he's still starstruck.

We're staying for the whole show, today. Pinkie Pie seems to be behaving herself, so hopefully we can trust her not to bounce off the walls. She's still wearing the mustache, though. That pony.

Sweetie Belle did great! She's definitely ready for the show. Rarity's costumes are great as always. At least I thought so. She pulled several ponies off to the side and made remarks about things she needed to fix. Shady Daze lead photographer from the Foal Free Press is doing lighting for the show. Featherweight talked to Center Stage and was given permission to take photos backstage for the Foal Free Press, as long as he didn't get in the way of the performers. Featherweight said it'd be a good topic for the first paper when school started up again.

After the show, we went to Featherweight's house. He went upstairs to grab something. He came downstairs with a small bag of money. He was going to get his dad some frames and bring them to the gallery.

I've never been to Vivid Memory's scrap booking shop. He has a nice place. Featherweight explained what was going on, and Vivid Memory gave him a discount on the frames. Featherweight said he hoped it was enough for now. Vivid Memory told him if Featherweight needed anything else to let him know.

We got to the gallery just before closing. Shutter Speed looked exhausted again. He said Princess Luna showing up made for a busy day. He was happy to see Featherweight got more frames, but told Featherweight he shouldn't be "wasting money" on him. Featherweight seemed a bit offended by that. After we left, he told me that Shutter Speed took him in when his own parents abandoned him. As far as he sees it, he can't waste money if he's buying anything for his dad.

We went and visited Sweetie Belle at Rarity's. She says she's pretty nervous about tomorrow. I told her she'll do great. She said she has been reading the script since she got home to make sure. I told her she needs to relax. She always doubts herself too much. I think it has to do with her trying to please the most unpleasible pony in Equestria. Pipsqueak came into the room about that time, and said that he would be there to support her tomorrow. He said Princess Luna remembered him from Nightmare Night, and would be happy to have him there, especially if he was so close to one of the performers.

We headed to Featherweight's house for a little while before it got too dark. We could hear Shutter Speed fumbling around in the darkroom. Once he was done, he said he wanted to make sure he didn't have to ship any pictures, because the bigger ones could cost twenty bits or more. That's crazy. I guess if you have to figure out how to get a big frame that far, though, it's not that crazy. Shutter Speed says he's up to date with orders, and that starting tomorrow he's going to have to charge extra for orders of anypony leaving town, so he can afford the shipping prices. So much work! I always thought is job seemed pretty easy. I'd love to have a job where I just took pictures, but all these numbers and late night work, it's exhausting even watching!

Entry 335:

Today we're all going down to the Community Center to see if we can get in or not. Pipsqueak met us outside and told the guards we were with him. We all got to sit with Princess Luna! She said she's going to bed right after the show, and that it's been really exhausting working nights and days, but that she loves the Hearth's Warming Eve celebration. She told us a story before the show started, that she remembers over a thousand years ago, spending the late evenings with her sister every Hearth's Warming Eve and Day. She said it was one of the memories that gave her hope when she was stuck on the moon.

The show went perfectly! Princess Luna met with Sweetie Belle, Shady Daze, and the rest of the crew. Pipsqueak went up to talk to Sweetie Belle, but the rest of us left to get all our stuff ready for tomorrow. Twist made a bunch of candy canes. Dinky and Apple Bloom got her a fake Equestria Actor's Guild Award trophy. We all laughed, thinking it was pretty cute. Featherweight brought the book we made with him. Featherweight and I took all of the gifts to Pipsqueak's house. We waited for him to get back from the Community Center. After waiting for a long time, we realized we went to his mom's house, and he was still with his dad. So, we ran to his dad's house. He was sitting on his couch, reading a copy of the Foal Free Press, cutting out the bits of the article about Sweetie Belle. Featherweight read over his work, and seemed upset. I asked him what was wrong. He said he didn't know Shady Daze was going to do the lighting or he would have written him into the article. I told him he'll have a chance when he writes the next article.

We dropped off the gifts, and Pipsqueak said he'd be sure everything made it to the show. Then, we popped into the gallery to help him close down and lock up for the next couple of days. Shutter Speed looks exhausted. He went to give Applejack her share, and she refused it. She said helping ponies is what she does, and left. Shutter Speed seems upset. I told him that Applejack has always been that way as long as I've known her. He said he didn't get to thank Pinkie Pie, either. Apparently when he said that he wouldn't need any more snacks for the day, she bolted out the door before he could say anything else. I have a feeling she was either bored crazy of the quietness of an art gallery, or she is working on the Hearth's Warming Eve decorations for the party after the show.

After that, we stopped by Dad's house. Mom and Dad said they would be helping with the party after the show, so they'll be busy. We may go to Sugarcube Corner and celebrate away from the party after saying hello to a few folks. Sweetie Belle seems like she's excited, but also ready for all this to be over. I hope she's proud of herself, though. She's done a great job.

Entry 336:

Featherweight and I spent the morning relaxing on the couch. We're about as tired as Shutter Speed and Sweetie Belle. We've been running every which way between this and that. At least we don't have to worry about the gallery. Tonight, we just have the show, then celebrating with Sweetie Belle. It's pretty calm compared to the rest of the week. Hopefully after Hearth's Warming Day things will calm down. There are so many ponies in town for the show.

We are front row. Featherweight is buzzing around taking pictures of things. I saved a spot beside me just in case, but I have a feeling he'll be busy. He brought like ten rolls of film, and a big flash on his camera. Apparently there are so many ponies, that some are having to be turned away. I'd be so mad if I came from out of town to see a show and it was too full.

I had to give up Featherweight's spot. He said that it's fine, that he'll be too busy to sit anyway.

The show went pretty well. Sweetie Belle got tangled up in the curtains on her way off stage at the start of the second act. Featherweight says he thinks it was his fault, because he took a picture right before she left the stage, and the flash is really bright. Sweetie Belle doesn't seem upset, though. We just got downstairs though the back of the stage. Center Stage said all the people who worked on the show have to stick around for a while and talk to the ponies who came to see them. Princess Luna came in, looking very tired. Her guards look just as tired. They saved space by flying for the whole show. There was actually pretty much a second flying balcony of pegasi. I even decided to fly just so we could fit more ponies in here. I've never had to hover nonstop for that long, before. My wings are exhausted. This place apparently wasn't ready for Princess Luna. It was way too small.

Princess Luna congratulated the team for doing such a great job with the show, and left pretty quickly. She walked by me saying something about sleep. I think she's earned it.

After we stuck around long enough to satisfy Center Stage, we headed out and went to Sugarcube Corner. We gave Sweetie Belle her gifts. She almost teared up at the picture book. We did a good job. Sugarcube Corner was almost empty. Mrs. Cake gave us treats for free. She told us to consider it a Hearth's Warming Day gift, and a congratulations to Sweetie Belle and Shady Daze. I got some chocolate dipped strawberries and a chocolate milkshake. Afterward I kind of regretted the milkshake. It's so cold out!

Featherweight and I stopped by Dad's house. He and Mom just got home. She said there were a lot more ponies than they expected. I told her about what happened inside, and that my wings were still achy. She said that it goes away after a few times. She said she has to stay in flight for two or three hours at a time, sometimes for work, while pushing stuff around!

Featherweight and I sat on Dad's sofa and Mom and Dad went and grabbed a couple of boxes. I got a set of Wonderbolts pajamas, and Featherweight got a new shoulder strap for his camera. Dad said he saw that Featherweight's old one was starting to tear, and figured it'd be something he'd use. Featherweight thanked both of them, and apologized for not getting them anything. Mom and Dad told him not to be silly. I have a feeling he's going shopping tomorrow if anything is open, it's just how Featherweight is.

Entry 337:

I was the first one up, this morning. I sat on the sofa and looked out the window at the lights. I fell back asleep for a while. Mom woke me up when she dropped another box on me. She and Dad had Rarity make me a special outfit. It's the same color as mom, with rainbow lightning bolts on the sleeves, and a copy of her cutie mark on the chest. Mom said I was now the first and only Rainbolt in the world. I think it's super awesome. I put it on (under my coat) and went to catch my friends and drop off their gifts. I started with Apple Bloom, because she was the farthest away. It didn't work out well, because she gave me an apple pie, a jar of zap apple jam, and a Wonderbolts patch for my saddlebags. The pie was too strange to carry all day, so I had to head back home. I gave her the gift Zecora gave me, and she said it was wonderful. She was already reading the "101 Simple Potions" book that came with it when I left. Applejack said to tell Mom and Dad to stick around the house, because she was dropping off more treats later. We're going to gain 20 pounds before the break is over.

After that, I dropped by the Carousel Boutique to thank Rarity and drop off Sweetie Belle's gift. Rarity told me if I needed anything adjusted, that she would take care of it, and eyed the outfit. I ran off before she had time to poke and prod me with pins. I gave Sweetie Belle the snow globe Rarity bought for me to get her. She gave be a big hug and thanked me. She was pretty excited about it. She had made Cutie Mark Crusaders saddlebag patches. I'm going to have so many patches on my bag when school starts, again! I'll have the coolest saddlebags at school!

After that, I went to visit Dinky. I gave her a picture from me and Featherweight, that he took of all of us at the clubhouse this summer. She gave me a bag of muffins and a framed set of Wonderbolts collector stamps, and a framed set of Hearth's Warming Celebration collector stamps. After that I had to take another trip back home.

I went to Twist's and gave her a copy of the photo, as well. She loaded my saddlebags with candies she had made. So much candy! She said she made sure to make strawberry sugar straws just for me. From there I went just down the road to Pipsqueak's dad's house, where he was on his way out. He said he was going to visit his mom for the morning.

I have him a copy of The Littlest Wonderbolt, a biography about a tiny pegasus who was in the Wonderbolts before we were born. After I found it at the library, I knew it was perfect for Pipsqueak, so I checked Scrolls and Stories, and they ordered a copy for me. He said it looked like a great book, and ran back inside to get my gift. I'm waiting for him, right now. The lights are still so pretty out here, even though they've been up for weeks.

Pipsqueak got me a box of assorted chocolates from the World Famous Trottingham Chocolate Factory, and a handcrafted teapot his old neighbor back in Trottingham made. I had to go home one more time, because I really didn't want to break it!

When I got back home, Shutter Speed and Featherweight had already made it there, so I didn't need to stop by their house. Mom said she flew to their house and invited them over for lunch, too. Featherweight was sitting next to a giant box. He said it was for me and I almost clobbered him. Whatever was in there had to have cost a lot of money, or it was a big box with something smaller. I was almost in tears when I opened it. He said he went to Port Mane and bought it for me after I was talking to him about my memories the other day. He bought me a whole case of Jam and Jelly's Strawberry Cream Cookies. I opened a box and shared them with everypony. They're so good! They taste just as good as they did five years ago. Featherweight also gave me a framed picture of my friends, and a copy of the picture of us that was in the gallery. I gave him a huge hug and kissed him on the cheek. My little gift card feels really simple, now. I gave it to him, feeling pretty embarrassed.

He said it was a wonderful gift, and he was so happy. I don't know how after he gave me all this. I'd have been pretty disappointed. He said he was looking at a new lens, and didn't have enough for it, and that this would be exactly what he needed. I guess if I helped him, I helped him, but it still doesn't seem like much, to me. Shutter Speed gave me a gift, too. I didn't plan on getting him anything! He got me a camera of my own! He said he was happy to see how much I liked taking pictures, and decided I should have a camera, too. I can't take this, a camera costs a lot of money! But I can't turn down a gift. Hmm. I guess I'll just be sure to make it worth his cost. I'll definitely be taking pictures with Featherweight, huh?

The big event of the night was definitely Shutter Speed's news, though. He was so nervous. Featherweight is still processing it. Shutter Speed has been seeing Jasmine Tea ever since the last gallery. I think it'd be cute if they were together. Besides, if they get hitched, eventually, Pipsqueak and Featherweight would make fantastic brothers! They get along so well. Featherweight is still having trouble, though.

I pulled him into my room and asked him if he was okay. He said he just needed time to handle the situation. He's never had anyone to divide his dad's attention with him. He said he'll get over it, it's just a shock. He's also a bit disappointed his dad felt he needed to hide it for this long. I told him to look at how he was reacting. If he had told him when he was on his own, he may have freaked out. Besides, he's spent a lot of time with Pipsqueak lately, since both of their parents have been busy, and since apparently Shutter Speed has been spending time with Jasmine Tea. He eventually got over it. I think he's happy for his dad, he's just nervous about losing his dad. I can understand that, he's never had a situation like this that he has been old enough to remember. I told him if he needs to talk, I'm always here.

He gave his dad a hug, and we all talked about our favorite times during the holidays. Featherweight was right beside me when I talked about Port Mane, and about seeing the show every year, and about my friends, and I was there for him when he talked about his fears with his dad. I think he's dealing with it, better, now. He just needed time to understand what was going on. Shutter Speed told him he would always be there for Featherweight, and that he didn't need to worry. He said he hoped if he found somepony to help care for him, that he would be more likely to have somepony there for him all the time. Shutter Speed said his biggest concern was that he was away so much recently, between work, and dating, and dealing with his own worries, that he felt he was already doing exactly the opposite of what he wanted. Featherweight said that I had been there for him the whole time. It was a pretty touching discussion. It's really clear how much Shutter Speed thought about Featherweight throughout all of this.

Dinner was amazing. Dad made daffodil and oregano lasagna, with some garlic mashed potatoes. I ate myself sick. It was so good. He also made a strawberry pie for me, but I couldn't eat another bite after dinner, so I saved it for a nighttime snack. I walked Featherweight and Shutter Speed home, and congratulated Shutter Speed. I wonder if Pipsqueak knows yet, or if so, how he has been handling it.

Everything Changes (♫)

Entries 338-343

Entry 338:

The new year is here! I spent the night with Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom in the clubhouse. Several of our other friends were over until the new year began. Big Mac and Applejack walked everypony else home. Over the rest of the night we found out that we aren't drummers (although I still think I did a pretty good job. Sweetie Belle couldn't understand what I was saying afterwards, though. Maybe I was too loud?)

It's been a pretty slow couple of weeks. Class starts again, soon. I'm kind of ready to go back, but I still wish I could spend more time with Featherweight, he's still having troubles dealing with his dad's relationship. He's handling it better, but he's still nervous about becoming second colt. I've told him so many times that he's ridiculous, but he's just, well, Featherweight.

I sat next to Featherweight during class on the first day back. I didn't want him to think that things would be different just because class has started again. He seems a bit, I don't know, broken? I haven't seen him second guess himself like this in a long time.

I talked with Featherweight and his dad again. While I was there, Jasmine Tea and Pipsqueak came to visit. Pipsqueak and his mom talked with Featherweight for a while. We think we have him calming down a lot more, now. Shutter Speed told Featherweight that the weekends will be for him and work. Featherweight told his dad he doesn't need time specially set aside. He said he just needs to get used to his new life. Nothing's even set in stone yet, they've only been together for a few months. I'm not saying things are going to fall apart, but he's acting like Shutter Speed didn't tell him about this until they got married.

Entry 339:

School is the same old same old. Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon still tease (though they seem nicer compared to before). Sweetie Belle still knows all the answers. Everything's the same as before. At recess, Pipsqueak hung out with Featherweight, so Ocean Breeze helped Apple Bloom, Sweetie Belle and me come up with more ideas for our cutie marks. I don't even know how to be an invester investor. Whatever, we have a few ideas we'll have to try out sometime.

We're on our way to Poneapolis to visit Shooting Star. He got attacked by a tiger when he was helping rescue animals from an illegal pet black market. We don't know anything about how he's doing. His friend River Moss sent an overnight letter to Fluttershy. We got on the first train after we heard. Fluttershy is terrified. I'm worried to, I really hope he's alright, but it doesn't sound good.

We just got into Poneapolis. We're in the waiting room. As much as I hate being here, Fluttershy is a wreck, so I really think somepony should be here to be with her. Mom and Dad are talking to the receptionist. Featherweight and I have been sitting with Fluttershy, trying to keep her calm.

Shooting Star says he was lucky, and that he made a "rookie mistake." He looks rough, but he said it could have been far worse. He told us that he opened the cage for the tiger, and its roar startled him enough he let down his guard.

Entry 340:

Featherweight seems a bit shaken up by Shooting Star. He says that Fluttershy and Shooting Star have been wonderful friends, and seeing Shooting Star in this shape really upsets him. I have to admit, he has a lot of bandages, but I guess his attitude makes it easier for me to deal with. Shooting Star told me he's been through much worse. When Fluttershy told us he was hurt, I was pretty worried. I found out yesterday when I got home. Fluttershy was balled up on the couch next to Mom. Mom told me we were going out of town for the weekend, and explained what was going on. Featherweight told Mom to wait at the station for him, that he was going to tell his dad what happened.

I guess now that thing shave calmed down a bit I have time to process what happened. He really is lucky. Shooting Star said that he almost lost his back right leg freeing dragons once. He said that if he hadn't been in animal rescue for so long, he would have never started after meeting Fluttershy. Fluttershy and him talked about what happened, and she says his job is his job, if this is what he's happy doing, she'll be worried, but she's not going to stop him. I don't know, if this happened to Featherweight, he'd be out of a job the next day. Maybe that has something to do with growing up, but right now I don't see myself letting Featherweight put himself in danger to do a job.

We're on our way back to town so we can make it back to class. I feel a lot better now that I know Shooting Star is going to be fine. Fluttershy said she would coming back later, so we left her and Shooting Star at the hospital and got on a train back to town. I always hoped to visit Poneapolis, but I didn't want it to be for such a scary reason. Featherweight has been really close to me ever since we heard the news. Just what he needs, one more thing to worry him. He says he's okay, just a bit shaken up.

I told Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom what happened. Sweetie Belle was really freaked out, but they're both happy Shooting Star is okay. Dad says he's impressed with how well I handled the hospital. I guess I was just so surprised by how quickly everything was going on it didn't click. I mean, I remember getting upset a couple of times, but it wasn't all that bad.

Entry 341:

Pipsqueak and Featherweight invited us all to Sugar Cube Corner, but we all kind of agreed to give them time with each other, it's still a new situation for them. I mean, I don't know how I'd handle a new sister (not like Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom, but like, a sister sister). They do take to each other like brothers, though, now that Featherweight is feeling better about everything. I figured they would. Before we found out what was going on, they got along great.

Maybe not. We met up with them after a while. Our attempts at being wrestlers mainly ended up in us getting hurt, so we gave up on that. The four of us sat at a different table and let them chat. Ocean Breeze paid for our stuff again, one of these days I'm going to bop him, and I told Apple Bloom that just because he's her coltfriend doesn't mean I won't.

I was so busy over winter break I kind of forgot what it feels like on school days. I hate having to go home so early.

Entry 342:

I wonder how Shooting Star is doing, and how Fluttershy is dealing with what happened. It could have been worse, but still, a bit of my thoughts are still on the other day. I hope that we hear some good news, soon.

Entry 343:

Shooting Star and Fluttershy came home today. They said he was in good enough condition to be moved to Ponyville Hospital. He still has to stay in the hospital though. Fluttershy seems a bit shyer than usual (if that's possible). She says he's feeling better, but she still seems upset. He says this will be a "lesson hard learned". He says he should have had somepony else who could shield him in case he was stunned. He says he was reckless and feels guilty about scaring Fluttershy so bad.

I think it's sweet the way they are with each other. Fluttershy seems honestly worried, and he seems honestly guilty. Fluttershy went to feed the animals, and Shooting Star told me he feels terrible for upsetting her so much. He told me he was happy to see me dealing with the hospital so well, which reminded me of where I was, which got me nervous, but really, I don't feel nearly as upset as I used to. Maybe I'm growing up. I knew I was tough and cool, just like Mom! Nothing scares me!

Juggling Act (♫)

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Growing Up Is Optional (♫)

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Letters from the Past (♫)

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I Never Got To Say Goodbye (♫)

Entries 1-15

Scootaloo's Diary is a leather-bound "Forever Pages" enchanted diary with her name hoofwritten in smudged permanent ink. It is hoofwritten by what looks to be a fairly young pony. The edges of the pages are all warped as if it has been dropped in a puddle or left out in the rain. Various pages appear to have things tucked within.

Entry 1:

Auntie Raincloud said I should start writing a diary with my memories of my parents. She bought me this special notebook that has lots and lots of paper, even though it's not very big.

Mama and Papa have become very sick, she says, and I may want to see these someday, she tells me. I don't know what she means. They just seem sick from some food, it's nothing too odd, is it?

Anyway, I feel like I might give this a try. I do like to write. Mama and Papa are in the hospital right now. Mama said she'd be fine, she's just a little sick. Just like I was thinking, nothing strange there.

Whatever, I'll give this a shot, but I don't see myself being one of those girly girls who writes in her diary all the time. I hate to waste such a nice gift, especially from Auntie Raincloud.

Last week we were out at the park and Mama and Papa seemed fine. Papa and I were playing and he was holding me up like I was flying, telling me one day I would be a talented flyer like the Wonderbolts.

Mama was watching from under a tree. She was just resting. We had been walking around the town for a long time. She bought me strawberries. They're my favorite. There wasn't really anything that happened since then, except Mama and Papa going out to dinner last weekend. We think that's where they got sick, other ponies in the hospital went there, too. Some restaurant.

I can't really remember anything else right now. Maybe that's why Auntie Raincloud said I should do this. I know my parents have done a lot of fun things with me, but I can't remember them right now. Small drawing of a frowning pony

Oh, also, the strawberries were great! I hope that once Mama and Papa get better we'll be able to go get more!

Entry 2:

Auntie Raincloud moved into Mama and Papa's house the other day. She said she would have to take care of me from now on. I'm kind of nervous. We visit the hospital every day after school. Mama and Papa always look so tired when we go in there. They always make sure to give me a hug no matter how tired they are, though. They tell me they love me and ask me how school is going.

I don't really talk to anyone in my class except the teacher. I only talk to her because I have to answer questions sometimes. small drawing of an adult pony using a pointer to point at a chalkboard with the word "boring" scribbled underneath

I tell Mama and Papa it's good, though. I don't want them sad and sick. They really should get some sleep.

I showed Auntie Raincloud that I started writing a diary. She told me I should write down some of the simple things so I would remember them when I got older. I don't know why, I think I'd I remember them just fine! I guess I'll try, though.

Papa's name is Thunderclap and he works as a weatherpony with Auntie Raincloud. He gets to push around the clouds and cause the rain. I always thought that was pretty cool. If someone made me mad I could just stomp down rain on them. little "ha ha" written in the margins It's cooler than that, though. Without Papa and other weatherponies doing their jobs, we wouldn't have any food! a little scared face

Mama's name is Rosy Fields and she works in town as a florist. When I go to visit her it always smells so good, and all the flowers look so nice. My favorites are the tulips. They're so bright, and there's so many colors, any color you can name. little drawing of a tulip with a heart by it Maybe I'll bring Mama some tulips when we go visit tomorrow. I think she would like that.

Oh! And I remembered another story!

A couple of months ago we went to see the Wonderbolts in a town close by called Ponyville. They were so awesome! I wish I could do flips and stuff like that! I mean, I wish I could even fly. I hope Papa's right about me, I want to be able to do cool stuff like that! Everybody likes them, too! That must be so cool!

Papa bought me a poster of Fleetfoot. She's amazing, and so fast! Papa said I'll be able to fly soon, I just need to keep exercising my wings and when I'm old enough I will get lessons.

Entry 3:

I brought Mama tulips today. She and Papa looked very tired, so we didn't stay long. She was very happy about the flowers, though. She and Papa both gave me a hug and told me that they were sorry if they can't always give me a hug. I don't know why they couldn't. They'll be fine in a few days. Food sickness just feels terrible, but ponies deal with it and move on.

Auntie Raincloud and I left Port Mane earlier today to go for a hike. She told me that things aren't looking good for my parents. I don't know what she means. They're just sick. They've been sick before. I don't know if it's some kind of mean joke she's playing, but I won't fall for it.

Another story. When I was really little, I used to go to work with Mama. She used to tell me she always had to keep an eye on me or I'd eat all the flowers. I do love daffodils, they're tasty. Small drawing of a daffodil, with "Delicious!" written underneath

When I got a bit older, I used to help her cut the flowers. I usually cut them too short, but it's not so easy. I'm not a unicorn! They have it so easy, they can carry things without their hooves getting in the way. They don't have to taste the handles of tools and stuff. Not to mention everypony has to clean tools all the time so you're not chewing on someone else's spit. Gross.

When I went in to get the tulips yesterday, Miss Golden Posey was running the shop. When I told her my parents were looking tired she gave me a hug and started to cry. I don't understand what got her so upset.

Entry 4:

The page has a card that says "get well soon" tucked into it. Clearly drawn by a young pony. It shows two adult ponies and a little pegasus pony on the front inside a heart. Inside the card it says "I love you Mama and Papa, when you get better, we should go to the park. I've been exercising my wings and can't wait to start flying training! Love, Scootaloo". The back has another heart drawn on it.

Auntie Raincloud made me really mad. She said we couldn't go see Mama and Papa today. She said they weren't in any condition to see me. What could she mean? I'm their daughter! I should be able to see them whenever I want! I almost thought about sneaking out to see them myself.

I was going to give them a get well soon card. I drew it myself. I told them how I have been exercising my wings. I can move myself around on my scooter with my wings now. I think that means I should be able to fly any time now.

This afternoon Auntie Raincloud says we're going to Ponyville. She has a friend who lives there. Her friend, Granny Smith, works at an apple orchard. I do like to visit her because we always get fantastic apple pie! Small drawing of a pie

I can't wait to see Mama and Papa again. I hope they like my card. I worked really hard on it. It's hard to draw Mama's mane.

Entry 5:

An angry face drawn in the margins. We didn't get to see Mama and Papa again today! I'm so mad at Auntie Raincloud. What if they don't get better because I didn't get to see them? What if they feel bad because I didn't get to give them a hug? I don't want them to stay sick because of me! A frown is drawn beside the exclamation mark.

The pie was great, but I wish Mama and Papa could have had some of it. Papa loves apple pie. When I was younger, we'd go with Auntie Raincloud to visit Granny Smith, and Papa would eat half an apple pie while we were still there. Mama would always tell him he was rude, but I understand why he would eat the pie, it is so good!

While we were visiting Granny Smith she said she had a filly about the same age as me. She said that the filly, Apple Bloom, was out with her sister, Applejack, so I didn't get to meet her.

I'm thinking about running off and finding somewhere I can live on my own. Then I'll be able to visit my parents whenever I want. Nobody can tell me I can't.

Entry 6:

The pages are wrinkled from being wet. There are smudges on the pages and it looks tear-stained.

Mama and Papa are gone... they're not in the hospital anymore, but they're not home either. They're gone. Gone forever. Auntie Raincloud says that she has to take me to pick out a dress for the funeral... how could Mama and Papa leave me? Did I do this? Is it because I didn't go give them a hug? Auntie Raincloud wouldn't let me! I wanted to go see them! They didn't even get my card!

When Auntie Raincloud goes out to work later, I'm going to run away. I don't want to go to Mama and Papa's funeral! I can't! I can't see them... like that... I miss them so much. I can't stay here. Every time I walk into the house I feel like they're going to be home soon. I can't keep remembering them every time I walk in. I have to go somewhere else.

Entry 7:

Written on the same page as the previous entry.

I just made it into Ponyville. I hope Auntie Raincloud doesn't worry about me. I'll be okay. I can make it just fine on my own!

I really miss Papa. Who is going to teach me to fly, now? Mama can't. She's gone, too. Why did they have to go? I still feel like I should have given them another hug. I didn't get to tell them goodbye. I told them I would see them tomorrow the last time I saw them. Then I didn't go see them the next day. I basically lied to them. I didn't get to see them. It wasn't my fault, though! Auntie Raincloud wouldn't let me go. I didn't mean to lie. I didn't know!

I don't really have anywhere to live here... I've been walking around pretending I'm here visiting. Everyone keeps asking if I lost my parents. How did they know? I tell them I didn't. I don't want them to send me back to Auntie Raincloud. I can't go back home. I miss them too much.

I don't know where I'm going to sleep tonight. Maybe I'll go sleep at Granny Smith's gazebo.

Entry 8:

I finally stopped crying at night the other day. I still miss my parents a lot, but I just can't cry anymore. My face, eyes, and throat hurt too much. I also feel a bit sick in my stomach from crying. I wonder how Auntie Raincloud is doing.

I almost got caught at the gazebo yesterday. A big red pony came walking by around sunset. I ran to hide in the trees. I don't know if he saw me or not. He called out like he heard something, but after a minute he just kept going.

I may try to go to the schoolhouse today. Mama always said I should take school seriously so I can become a successful pony. I guess I'll start going to school here. I already have a plan on what to tell the teacher if she asks about my parents. I'll tell them that they're very busy ponies, but that we just moved to town. That should work just fine, I think.

I've been eating the apples that get left behind when the Apple family bucks the trees. I've seen them while I hide in the bushes. They leave all the bruised apples on the ground, but at least I get to eat something.

I hide from the Apple family because I don't want to get in trouble if they find me. I really don't know what I'm going to do.

Entry 9:

My teacher, Miss Cheerilee was very nice when I said I had just moved into town. She said she hoped to see my parents really soon. This may be a really big problem. I almost broke down when she told me that. I told her they were very busy, and it may be a while, maybe months. That will hopefully buy me some time. She wrote a note for my "parents" about when she was available.

I sit in the front row by a unicorn named Sweetie Belle. Her sister, Rarity, came in for show and tell today. She designs clothing. Some of the clothes she had in the pictures she brought were amazing. She draws so well. Some of them were like puffy and fluffy and fancy and ick, but others were really neat.

I don't know what I think about school so far. Sweetie Belle seems very nice, but I don't really feel like I want to talk to anypony else in the class. I really don't know what I'd say. I don't want to get caught, especially by these ponies who might make fun of me. I only kind of talked to Sweetie Belle because I think I'm really going to need a friend to get me through this, even if I don't talk to them about what happened with my parents.

I don't know what I am going to do about where I stay. It gets cold some nights but I don't have anything else to do. I may need to start looking for money to buy a blanket or something. I tend to look at the ground when I am walking around town, just in case I find some money. I've already found two or three bits.

Entry 10:

There are these two fillies in the class, Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon. They're brats! They send me these notes. Mean things. They'd tell me "Go home, new kid!" and "Go back to where you came from." They pick on me on the playground. Maybe they're right. Maybe I really am a stupid filly. I couldn't help my Mama and Papa. They don't have to be so mean, though.

I talked with Sweetie Belle today after school. She lives with her parents in town, but is usually with her sister during the day. She says she loves her sister, but feels like she's always in her sister's way. She tries to be helpful, but she always seems to cause problems. I asked her about her parents. She said they're nice, but didn't really say anything else. She kept saying how much she wants to be like her sister. She really has an obsession, too. She is ALWAYS talking about her sister. I guess that's okay, but why would you want to be just like somepony who always tells you you're doing things wrong?

Maybe that was my problem when I was at home. Maybe I just caused problems. At least now that I live by myself, I can't get in anypony's way. Maybe I'm the reason Mama and Papa got sick. I should have told them to stay home, or found somewhere else to go. Maybe if I had said something, they wouldn't have gone there and gotten sick.

I found some money on the ground today and bought a daffodil sandwich. It was so good. I haven't had good food like that since Papa used to make me them. It wasn't as good as Papa's, but it was way better than those disgusting bad apples.

I found a bush just behind the schoolhouse that is big enough for me to fit underneath without poking me. I think I am going to start sleeping there at night. Miss Cheerilee has been very nice to me, even though I've been late basically every day. I don't have anything to wake me up on time, though. Maybe if I sleep by the school, I'll be able to sneak around to the front door without being late.

Entry 11:

I met this cool pony named Rainbow Dash today. She's a weatherpony just like Papa is was. She's super fast and says one day she's going to be part of the Wonderbolts! That is so cool!

There was another pegasus I met, named Fluttershy, but she didn't say much. She squeaked out a hello, I think. I couldn't really tell. Rainbow Dash introduced me to her when I bumped into them by accident downtown. I told her I was new to town and didn't know many ponies. She asked me what my parents did. I told her the jobs they used to do, but I didn't tell her that they're gone.

Rainbow Dash asked me Papa's name when I said he worked as a weatherpony. I said that he didn't work here in town and decided to talk about something else. I didn't want her to find out I was here on my own. I don't think she bought it, though. She looked at me funny.

School is boring. I know Mama said I need to work hard and do well in school, but it's so boring! I never have anything to eat at lunch, so I just tell Sweetie Belle I'm not hungry. This nerdy pony named Twist sometimes gives me some candy. She's nice, but she's so... well, nerdy... I tell her thank you, but I don't really hang out with her.

Sweetie Belle says that the Summer Sun Celebration is happening in Ponyville this year! I haven't seen the Summer Sun Celebration since Mama and Papa took me when I was really little. That year it was in Fillydelphia. It was so exciting, and I got to stay up all night, partying with the other ponies.

Sweetie Belle tells me that Rarity is in charge of decorations for the Celebration! I'll be spending a lot of time with Sweetie Belle up until the big day. She said "My sister just thinks I'm a walking disaster. She wants me as far away from her work as I can get. It's like I can't do anything right." I feel bad for her, but at least she has a sister. At least she has a family.

I wonder how Auntie Raincloud is doing...

Entry 12:

I finally decided to write a note in as good of hoofwriting as I could to give to Miss Cheerilee saying that my parents are busy most of the day, and that none of the times provided worked. It was hard to write, not only because I wanted my writing to look like an adult pony's, but because it was painful pretending to be my parents.

Sweetie Belle and I went downtown today. I met Rarity again. She gave Sweetie Belle some money to go "stay out of her mane" as Sweetie Bell put it. We went to a place called Sugarcube Corner, it’s also the house of a couple ponies called the Cakes. I didn't know it was their house until they told me. Why would you want to live where you have to work?

I met this crazy pony named Pinkie Pie there. I've never met someone so hungry and so obsessed with partying in my life. She also just won't shut up! She talks so fast that I can't even understand what she says half the time, and the other half she's talking about absolute nonsense anyway. She's friendly, though.

At first I thought Rarity was a nice pony, but she is so mean to her sister. She basically said exactly what Sweetie Belle has been saying when we got back. Sweetie Belle didn't mean to knock down the banner Rarity was working on, but Rarity called her a "klutzy filly" and said that she always makes a mess. I told Sweetie Belle that it wasn't her fault, but she was almost crying.

We also ran into Fluttershy while we were downtown. She didn't say anything other than greeting Sweetie Belle. Does she not like me? What'd I do? Was it because I ran into her? Is she that stuck up?

I moved into a different bush today. The one I was staying in was too close to the school. I had to tell a colt named Snips that I was looking for my notebook. I blamed it being there on Diamond Tiara. He didn't ask any questions after that. I don't feel bad for blaming anything on her. She's so mean to me.

Entry 13:

Sweetie Belle and I ran into this pony named Applejack today. I wonder if that was the one Granny Smith mentioned a couple of months ago. I knew she was part of the Apple Family, because I'd seen her when I was hiding at Sweet Apple Acres a few times. She has a really twangy accent and sounds out of place from the other ponies in town. I wonder if the family isn't from around here.

She said she thought she had seen me before, and eyed me like I was in trouble. She asked if I had met her before when I was very young or if I had been to Sweet Apple Acres before. I lied and told her I had never seen her before. I don't know if she saw me by the gazebo or in the trees, but I don't want to get in trouble. I don't want to get sent back to Port Mane, and I don't want to get in trouble for taking the apples...

Applejack seems really nice. She said she had a sister about my age. She talked about her like they were very close. Sweetie Belle and I both said we wished we had sisters like that. I just wish I had anyone I could call family in town. I can't go back to Port Mane, though. I can't live in that house again.

When I got back to where I have been sleeping, I started to cry. I tried to stay really quiet, I didn't want anyone to hear me and find me. Hiding is really difficult, especially since I have these times where I can't stop crying! I wish I didn't care about anyone, then I wouldn't have this problem.

Entry 14:

We don't have class this week, because the Summer Sun Celebration is this week. Rarity has been really busy decorating the town for Princess Celestia, so I've been spending a lot of time with Sweetie Belle. Miss Cheerilee told me that my parents need to show up soon, because she needs to talk with them about my schooling back home. I am starting to worry Miss Cheerilee is going to figure out what's going on.

Sweetie Belle and I have been trying to get our cutie marks. We don't really know what we're good at, though. Sweetie Belle said she'll probably get her mark in "getting in the way" since she always seems to be causing problems with her sister.

I don't know what I'm good at. Is there a cutie mark for lying? Maybe one for stealing? I did take all those apples. They were the ones left on the ground, though! I am not a thief, am I? Am I really a bad pony? A small doodle of a Scootaloo with an arrow pointing to her saying "thief" and another one saying "liar" with a label above her saying "Scootaloo the Bad Pony"

The weather has been warming up in the day, but some nights have been fairly cold. It was really cold last night, so cold, I had trouble sleeping. I watched the stars for a while, and I thought I saw some stars moving straight toward the moon. It was really strange. Something weird is going on. It’s supposed to be summer, soon.

Entry 15:

Tomorrow's the day! The Summer Sun Celebration! I hope everything goes well. I can't wait to get some tasty treats. I haven't really had anything good to eat in a couple days. Small drawing of Scootaloo on her back with her hooves on her stomach labeled "Hungry Pony"

This really snooty purple unicorn came into town today. She seems really stuck up. She walks around like she's in charge of everything and she has this little purple dragon who doesn't always seem like he wants to be with her.

I saw Rainbow Dash clear the WHOLE sky today. She was super, super fast, and she did it like it was nothing! It must have been only a few seconds and the skies were totally clear! It was AMAZING! I hope one day I can fly like that! Maybe SHE can teach me!

Sweetie Belle was really upset this afternoon. Apparently, Rarity told her that she has done nothing but get in the way all week. She came to me telling me she was nothing but trouble. I sat with her on the playground and told her she's a sweet pony and that Rarity is just really stressed. I don't know if that was a lie or not. Rarity may just be a really mean pony.

There Goes My Hero and Some Literary Lunacy (♫)

Entries 68-83

Entry 68:

There was a huge snowstorm last night. Mom said she didn't organize it. She's not happy. She said as soon as she can get out of the house (the door is blocked,) she is going to see who caused this.

Big Mac came to shovel the snow out of the way of the doors in town. The moment he opened the door, Mom flew off. She didn't even thank Big Mac she was so mad. Lucky Buck and I thanked him and he said "eeyup" like he always does, and moved on down the street.

It turns out that a couple of pegasi were mad at somepony in Ponyville and decided they would create a surprise blizzard. I've never seen Mom so mad. The pegasi lost their jobs. They have to help clean up Ponyville and give an apology to the mayor.

I was thinking maybe my idea of making it rain on Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon isn't such a good idea after all. Mom said it's okay to do it as long as I don't cause the whole town to miss a day of work. (Did Mom really just tell me I could make it rain on somepony on purpose? That's so awesome! I think she's still mad at Diamond Tiara for getting me all upset that time. Maybe it's just from all the times I tell her she drives me crazy.)

Entry 69:

This year's Winter Wrap-Up went really well. Rainbow Dash even gave me a ponyback ride into the sky to help with the clouds. I got to buck away my first clouds. I hope Papa would be proud of me. I wasn't able to stay in the air very well, so Mom had to keep catching me, but we did it!

Mom letting me help with Winter Wrap-Up, even though I couldn't fly so well yet, was really cool. I felt really special getting to join in. I was the youngest pony up there this year!

Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom said they were sad I didn't get to help out with the animals, but they said when they found out why, they were both really excited for me!

[Small drawing of Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle with bells in their mouths. Beside them a baby rabbit is looking at them.]

The mayor says this is the fastest we've ever taken care of Winter Wrap-Up. Mom told me it was because I helped with the clouds. I don't know about that. She always had to stop what she was doing when I would help. It was really nice of her to say that, though.

Shooting Star helped Rarity with the nests. Lucky Buck helped Pinkie Pie cut up the ice. Fluttershy lead the animal wake up again. Applejack and Big Mac took care of the fields, of course. Twilight organized everypony this year again.

We finished in time for dinner. Applejack invited everypony to the farm. Granny Smith and the Cakes made a big feast for everyone. It was delicious. This was the best Winter Wrap-Up, ever!

Entry 70:

Sounds like Apple Bloom is helping Granny Smith make the Zap Apple Jam soon. She's been doing all kinds of silly things, but Granny Smith says everything has to be done just so.

Poor Apple Bloom has been picked on by Diamond Tiara all week. I wanted to buck that smirk right off her face after class yesterday. Granny Smith is supposed to come in for her Family Appreciation Day presentation.

We're going to figure out a way to stall her presentation until somepony else can go.

Nope.

We're going to try and make Apple Bloom seem sick so she doesn't have to go to school.

That didn't work, either. We weren't able to pick the apples early either. They wouldn't even come off the tree at all!

I totally caught Big Mac with that silly little stuffed toy again. He looks so silly with that thing. I don’t think he saw me. It was funny, though.

We're going to call Miss Cheerilee to the house and turn Granny Smith into a puppet during her nap. Maybe that'll work!

Granny Smith woke up from her nap and messed everything up! Now she's painting pink spots all over the kitchen. She's so weird.

We created a fake telegram calling Granny Smith to visit Apple Bloom's Uncle Apple Strudel. This has to work.

Well, nothing worked, but the presentation was still really cool! And of all the luck, Apple Strudel was actually coming to visit Granny Smith! What are the odds?I had no idea that Ponyville was founded by the Apple Family! Apple Bloom seems to feel much better now, and Diamond Tiara got all upset, so that was cool, too! Little drawing of Scootaloo laughing.

Apple Bloom is really good at making Zap Apple Jam. It was so delicious!

Entry 71:

Sweetie Belle and I helped with the next harvest. I hope we did it right. Diamond Tiara had to help, too! She looked so funny in those rabbit ears!

Drawing of a very upset looking Diamond Tiara with bunny ears on.

After we helped out with the watering cans, Apple Bloom, Sweetie Belle and I went down to Sugarcube Corner. Lucky Buck had given me a bit of money and I got all of us some cake.

We went from there to Rarity's. I haven't really said anything about it before, but Rarity has been nicer to Sweetie Belle lately. It's about time! I'm happy that Sweetie Belle is feeling better around her sister. I really didn't like seeing her get all upset like that.

We came up with a new idea for getting our cutie marks. Deep swimming wasn't a very good idea, but we never tried diving!

Diving isn't for us. I knocked the breath out of myself when I landed on my belly. I still hurt. Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom were all freaked out. They thought I was drowning. I kind of did, too, at first.

Entry 72:

Dad took me down to Sugarcube Corner again today. He said that since he was out of town the other day, he didn't get to see the new foals.

The Cakes have two new foals. They're so cute! I don't know how but one's a pegasus and the other is a unicorn. Both of the Cakes are Earth ponies. I don't get it.

Pinkie Pie was being silly and entertaining the foals. She would probably be good as a foalsitter or something.

On second thought, maybe she wouldn't. She is good at entertaining foals, but I definitely wouldn't want her to be keeping an eye on something for me, especially not a foal.

Entry 73:

We got to have a special send-off celebration for Applejack. She's going to compete in the Equestria Rodeo Competition. She's representing all of Ponyville at the competition! That is so cool! She promised to bring home money to fix Town Hall after the mailmare did something to it. It's in a million pieces now.

I hope one day I can be good at something so I can win medals. Applejack has so many! Little drawing of a prize ribbon I haven't even got my cutie mark yet, though. I guess I have that one talent show medal! Little drawing of the jester hat medal again.

Sadly, nopony is able to go cheer her on at the show. The Apple family is right in the middle of harvest, Mom has to take care of weather all week, and Rarity has a big dress order. I think Fluttershy and Shooting Star meant to go, but the pony who usually watches the animals while they're gone is out of town. Twilight meant to go, but she and Spike have to reorganize the library. They're behind on sorting books (I know, because it's ALL she would talk about.) Pinkie Pie also can't go, because she has to watch the Cakes' foals again (she actually did it! I can't believe it.)

I wish I could go, but Lucky Buck is out of town visiting family. I wish I could be there for Applejack. She's been so nice to me.

I haven't really said anything about him in here before, but there's this pegasus pony named Featherweight. He's really tall and really skinny. He's nice, but he doesn't say much. I saw him today around town and said "Hi." He just waved quietly and walked away. I wonder if he's just like Fluttershy and is just too nervous to talk, or what. He always looks kind of nervous. He has funny teeth, and while I don't really care, I think Diamond Tiara makes fun of him for it a lot.

Entry 74:

There is a welcome home party for Applejack today! Everypony is going to be there. Well, everypony but Sweetie Belle and me. We wanted to go until Rarity got upset with Sweetie Belle for messing up all her ribbons. She turned back into old Rarity and Sweetie Belle started to cry after Rarity left.

Instead of going to the party, Sweetie Belle and I are going to hang out at the clubhouse. Maybe we'll go visit after Sweetie Belle calms down.

Something happened. Applejack didn't come home! Apple Bloom is really worried. I am too! Sweetie Belle said she thinks everything will be okay, because Applejack always takes care of Ponyville and her family.

I know Applejack is reliable, but I am really worried. Is she mad because nopony came to cheer her on? I should've found a way to get in. Maybe if somepony had been there to cheer her on, she'd be here again.

Mom and her friends are going to find out what happened to Applejack. I hope she's okay. I'm still worried. I'm going to see if Apple Bloom is alright here in a few minutes.

Still no word from anypony. I'm really worried. I've been trying to cheer Apple Bloom up. She's pretty upset that Applejack is still gone.

Entry 75:

Applejack is back in town! It turns out she was upset she didn't win first place in any of the competitions, and wanted to raise money to send back to Ponyville for City Hall. She was up against some tough competition, I guess. I still feel like I should've been there. Maybe if I had been there to cheer her on, she would've been more confident and she could've done better.

Entry 76:

This morning Mom was gone when I woke up. I was kind of scared until I found out that cider goes on sale today. I forgot Mom's been planning all week to be first to get cider since Pinkie Pie always drinks it all before she can get any of it. Lucky Buck and I stayed behind. If the line is that long, I have better things to do.

Wow. I can't believe it. Most of the town tried to sell out the Apple family! Some stupid unicorn brothers came into town and tried to take over the farm! It wasn't even until everypony found out they made really crummy cider in some stupid competition that they left town. If I were the Apple family I wouldn't trust ANYPONY after that! They forgave everypony, though. I don't know why.

Mom finally got her cider, but it took her a long time. Even she almost sold out the Apple family after they ran out of cider on her. Once they started this competition that happened, she stayed loyal to her friend. I still don't know what to think about what happened. Who would do that to their friends?

I guess everything turned out alright, though. I'm just confused.

Entry 77:

The page has tears stained to it.

Mom said she's going to practice flying today. I wish I could go with her, but I have school. Little drawing of Scootaloo with her head on a desk, labeled "school is so boring"

Something happened. Mom is in the hospital. I really hope she's okay. Apparently something happened while she was flying and she got hurt. I'm sitting in the waiting room. I hope she's okay. What am I going to do?

I hate hospitals. I hate them, hate them, hate them!

Apparently she just messed up her wing. I went to visit her. I told her I wanted to stay (I kind of did, but I hated being in that place). She said she wishes I could, but that I had to go to school. I hate hospitals, but I really hate ponies I care about in hospitals, more.

I've decided not to go visit. Mom's just recovering. I hate hospitals, though. Every time I go to see somepony in a hospital, I lose them forever. I can't go back there. I'll probably make things worse, somehow.

Entry 78:

Lucky Buck just got back from visiting Mom and said that she's acting really weird. He said that he thinks it's because she is embarrassed about something. He said she was acting really nervous and kept looking at her pillow. How weird.

I hope she's okay. Maybe I should go visit her, after all. I hate hospitals, though. What if I just make things worse? I think I'll just stay away.

I really hope Mom is okay. I should have visited her this week. I really should have. What if I made things worse by not going and visiting? No matter what I do, it's wrong.

Dad saw how upset I was and told me that tomorrow she gets out of the hospital. She's supposed to be careful on her wing, but she can fly. That's good, I guess. I wonder why she was acting weird, though.

Entry 79:

Mom comes home today! I'm so excited. Dad said that she's in good shape, but still acting really strange. I don't know what that's about. Maybe she's upset I didn't come see her. I really should have visited her.

Mom said she was still hurt and went back to the hospital! I knew it! I should have been a better filly! I should've gone and visited her.

The hospital said Mom was fine. I don't get it. Why is she acting so weird? She's home now, but she keeps looking out the window toward the hospital. I don't know what's going on.

I still feel like this is my fault. She tells me both "there's nothing wrong" AND "it has nothing to do with me," which doesn't make any sense. She really is acting strange. I don't know what's going on, but it's really weird. Dad says he has no idea what's going on, either, but he also thinks that it has nothing to do with me. I don't know. I still feel like I should have visited her.

Entry 80:

Apparently Mom tried to steal a book from the hospital last night? Really weird. I don't get it. What's so special about some stupid book?

Apparently she was right at "the good part" in this book and wanted to finish it, but didn't want to be called "an egghead." Sometimes Mom does some really weird things. I like to read, as long as it's something I actually want to read.

Mom is going to Twilight Sparkle's house to get the book that she tried to steal. I still think that's so funny. Who steals a book? Who steals a book from a hospital? It just sounds so silly!

Who steals anything from a hospital? I justWhat the hay. Really.

Drawing of a pegasus pony dressed in a robber's outfit holding a book. The drawing is labelled "The great book thief."

Dad's also pretty embarrassed. He is a policepony, after all. The fact that she kind of committed a crime didn't sit well with him. He said he hopes all this is a lesson to her, and he's really confused why she didn't ask him to get the book if she was so embarrassed. He said he wouldn't judge her. Besides, it's a book. This really is the silliest thing Mom has done.

I'm going with Mom later this week to Twilight's house. She says there's more than one book to the series and she wants to check the others out. I'm gonna go and see if I can find ideas for how to get my cutie mark.

Dad kind of told Mom off for what she did this evening. He said he was just so upset that she would do that and possibly get him in trouble. I guess that makes sense. If they thought he had something to do with this (though really, it was a book, one book,) he could've gotten into trouble, I guess. He's calmed down, now. I guess he just had to get that out.

Entry 81:

[On the back of the previous page is a messy collection of ideas. Among them are "woodcarving (How cool would this be?)", "Painting", "Strongpony", "Juggling" and several others.]

Next week is Hearts and Hooves Day! Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom and I are going to make a big special card for Miss Cheerilee this year. We all agree she's the best teacher ever! I really hope she likes it. She's been so special to me. She really has been very nice, even though I'm not a very good student.

Part of the page is taken up with a drawing of Scootaloo pouting, with her ears drooping. The drawing says "worst student"

Sweetie Belle and I went around collecting ribbon and stuff from Rarity's. Rarity said we could take them if we brought them back and put them in the right place. She also said we better not get glue on everything. She also said we better not get glitter, or paint, or dirt, or really anything on them. She also said we shouldn't use too much. She also said we couldn't use the green because she needs it for a project. She also said to make sure the end is cut correctly before returning them, so they match the others. She also said not to make any marks on the spools, and that she wants them returned immediately after school, and that she would be counting, marking which colors were gone, and if we used too much, Sweetie Belle wouldn't have as much spending money next week. She always has all kinds of rules for what we can do with her stuff. It's just ribbon and paper. What's the big deal?

Apple Bloom found some leftover paint in the barn and told us Applejack said we could use it. We're going to make the best card ever!

We decided to wait until Hearts and Hooves Day to make the card, that way it's not taking up the clubhouse. (Which, of course, means we'll have to hear all about what we need to do if we borrow Rarity's stuff, again.)

Entry 82:

Sweetie Belle got in trouble today for not returning the ribbons and stuff. Apparently she just kept the stuff at the clubhouse. Rarity needs to lighten up. We need these things for the card. It has to be perfect! Apparently there is no such thing as "just forgot" with Rarity.

We made the card this afternoon and headed back to the school for the Hearts and Hooves Day party. (First we went to return the ribbons and make sure Rarity didn't freak out on us.) We think the card looks awesome! We worked really hard on it. It's huge!

There's a drawing of what the card looks like with a picture of Scootaloo and the others drawn to scale. Underneath the drawing it says "It's this big. Well, not this big, but this big compared to us."

We think Miss Cheerilee really liked the card, but she (of all ponies) doesn't have a very special somepony! I can't believe it! She's one of the greatest ponies ever! Sweetie Belle, Apple Bloom, and I are going to fix this. We're going to find somepony to be her somepony! Somepony perfect!

We've decided that Big Macintosh would be perfect for Miss Cheerilee! We have tried to get them together a couple of times. Finally, we got a book from Twilight Sparkle that has instructions for a love potion. This has to work!

Something definitely went wrong. Big Mac and Miss Cheerilee keep talking all weird and making kissy faces. They just won't stop! What'd we do wrong?

Apparently we gave them a thing called a love poison, not a love potion. This is bad. What are we going to do?

Sweetie Belle came up with an idea to get this all fixed. We think we can get it done pretty easily.

That was a disaster. Cheerilee and Big Macintosh are better now, but we got in big trouble. Now we have to do chores for Big Macintosh.

What? Miss Cheerilee went to the gazebo with Big Macintosh! Did we fix them or not? They seem like they're acting better than they were, but what gives?

Entry 83:

Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle came over today. We have some new ideas for how to get our cutie marks. We're going to try them out today!

We're not very good at pottery. Everything I made either went flying or ended up flat. Apple Bloom got hit in the face twice with the clay. It was kind of funny. Sweetie Belle almost had something, but she got all excited and accidentally smashed it.

I never knew it was difficult to pogo. Apple Bloom almost went through a window. Sweetie Belle couldn't even get the thing to bounce. I kept getting tossed around. If I didn't have wings I probably would've been pretty badly hurt a couple of times.

I don't know who had the idea to try woodcarving, but never again. I think I carved my hoof a lot more than I carved the wood. Apple Bloom managed to cut the side of her mane off. She looks really silly. Sweetie Belle got her knife stuck in the wood and couldn't get it back out.

It's Worse When She's Right (♫)

Entries 226-230

Entry 226:

I wonder how Featherweight's trip went. I hope it went well. Maybe things went well and he'll stay a couple extra days! I hope he lets me know if that happens. Meeting his parents was probably a big deal.

School isn't any more interesting today. I almost feel like Featherweight not being in class makes the day less fun. It may sound silly, but I like him just being there.

At recess, I just sat up in the tree and rested. I've felt sleepy, today. Maybe I'm not sleeping well. Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom got me down after a while, and we tried to think up new ideas for how to get our cutie marks. We have to get them soon! We don't want to be the oldest ponies in history with blank flanks! We have to have some sort of special talent! I'm starting to think I just don't. Diamond Tiara doesn't help matters, I want to pop her in the mouth again. She's been picking on me about Featherweight the whole time he's been gone. She tells me he wanted to get away from his "worthless blank flank filly toy." She also says that the only reason he's with me is because he doesn't want to be seen as a "colt kisser," whatever that is. Who does she think she is?

Still nothing from Featherweight. I hope he's okay. He's probably just busy. They should be on their way home, if plans haven't changed. If things are still on schedule, it should be a couple of days from now that they get back. I can't wait! I'm going to give him the biggest hug!

Mom and I practiced flying for a while. Nothing new. I'm still nowhere near as fast as mom, but she says I'm pretty quick for a filly my age. That's good!

Entry 227:

Only one day left until Featherweight gets home, if nothing has changed! I hope he is having a good time! I do miss him, but I hope that he is enjoying himself. If he feels like staying a while longer, I just hope he lets me know.

Featherweight made it to school at recess. Poor kid. He said his parents told him they never had a foal. When he showed them the picture of them, apparently they flew away. He is very upset. He said that Diamond Tiara was right all along, that they didn't want him. He said he flew back to his dad (his real dad, like his good dad,) and they headed home as fast as they could. He said he may have actually made his dad sick as fast as he was flying. He was pretty quiet the rest of recess. I just stayed with him, hugging him tightly. Sweetie Belle and Pipsqueak kept Diamond Tiara busy, I don't know if they knew something was wrong, or just felt like giving her a rough time, but Diamond Tiara was too busy yelling at them to bother us. Pipsqueak was laughing at her, which only made her angrier.

I went up to Miss Cheerilee and told her what happened, and she told Featherweight to go home and get some rest. Featherweight said he didn't want to be alone right now, so she told me to sit by him at the back of the class, that way if he got upset, hopefully nopony else would give him a hard time, or try to get into his business.

After school, I asked Featherweight if he wanted me to tell anypony about what happened when he went to Mare's Tail. He said it would be easier if I told our friends. He said he just wants to forget ever going.

This evening, Featherweight came home and we snuggled up on the couch. Once he cried himself to sleep, which was hard to watch, I couldn't help but feel a bunch of emotions, myself. How horrible are his parents? How awful can somepony be? This is your foal, and you push him away twice? I was just so angry. At the same time, I wondered how hard it had to be for him. He had been so curious it seemed like it hurt, at times. That curiosity, that not knowing, now is nothing but pain, maybe even loneliness. I hope he knows how much I care about him. I think I'll write a note and sneak it into his saddlebags. I also hope his dad, his only dad, knows how special he is. I really think Shutter Speed is an amazing pony. He didn't have to do anything, but he brought up the greatest colt, ever.

What would Featherweight have been like if he were stuck with those creeps? In a sad way, it's good that he's not with them. If they're going to treat their own foal like that, how can they treat everypony else? Featherweight is a much better pony than they could ever try to be.

Featherweight went home, but he still seemed very upset. I hope he gets to feeling better. I hate seeing him like this! Those stupid pegasi! They're probably the types of ponies who moved to a cloud town just so they wouldn't have to be around those other ponies. They probably think pegasi are the only ponies worth talking to. They're probably big headed featherbrains. I am just so mad at those stupid ponies!

Entry 228:

Today, Featherweight was still very upset. I really wish I could help him! I hate seeing his ears drooped down like that, and that big, heartbreaking frown. I wish I could just go back and stop all of this from happening.

Featherweight came up to me at recess and gave me a big hug, and said that the note I wrote him was the sweetest thing he had ever read. I think that's a bit crazy, but it was nice of him to say. He also said he really needed it. He said it helped him feel like he was wanted. It almost hurt more hearing that, than make me feel good. I hate knowing he felt that upset, that alone.

I got sent inside at recess, Featherweight followed me. Diamond Tiara had to open her big mouth. I got in a fight. Mom has to come pick me up. Miss Cheerilee said that she would keep an eye on Featherweight, and told him if he needs to leave early, he can. Featherweight looked at me with such an upset look. I am an idiot. Diamond Tiara should have kept her stupid mouth shut, but now I left Featherweight alone at school, when he's feeling like this!

Mom is not happy that I got in trouble, but she also called Diamond Tiara a "snobby little twerp with a big mouth" and said "if it weren't for her daddy's money, she'd be a lonely pony acting like that." Mom didn't punish me in any way. She said that I should already know not to do what I did. She told me that she would do something if it happened again, though.

I went to wait by the school once the day was done. I brought Featherweight to Fluttershy and Shooting Star's house. Fluttershy wasn't home, she was helping Rarity with Opalescence. I explained to Shooting Star what had happened. He told Featherweight he was very "sorry about the news," and asked how he could help. I told him I just brought him here to relax with the animals. He offered to make us tea. Featherweight actually spoke up and said it "would be wonderful, if it wasn't too much work." Even when he's upset, he's still so sweet.

He keeps staring off. I ask him how he is, and he says he'll "be okay." I feel so useless! I can't cheer him up. Poor colt.

I told Featherweight how much I cared for him. I told him not to think about Airborne and Fallstreak. I said that he has all the family he'd ever need here. He has a great dad, and good friends, and me, too! I told him that I was nervous when I didn't get a letter. He said he didn't feel like writing anything, he was so embarrassed about what happened.

Embarrassed? They should be embarrassed to be the kinds of ponies they are! Embarrassed! I told him not to be silly. Shooting Star agreed. He said that there was no reason to be embarrassed. He said that Featherweight is "a hundred, a thousand times the pony" they are. I said that wasn't enough. I said that "there isn't a number big enough" and Shooting Star laughed. I wish I could get Featherweight to smile, or at least not have that frown! It almost hurts just seeing it!

I walked Featherweight home tonight, and told him to cheer up. I said I knew it wouldn't be easy, but that his real family cared more about him than he could ever imagine.

Entry 229:

I left early to walk to school with Featherweight. I felt like he needed the company. I don't want him to feel alone one second more than I have to. I may even sneak a letter into his saddlebag every night until he cheers up.

It must be tough. He was stuck between not knowing his parents, ever, or finding out just what kinds of ponies they were. One day, when he's a successful pegasus, and far more successful than his fake parents ever were, they'll want to be around him, and it will be too late for them. Serves them right.

School was boring, again today, but I scooted my chair over as close as I could and put my hoof on Featherweight's. I want to keep reminding him how much we all care.

At recess, all our friends helped me try to cheer Featherweight up. He didn't lose that frown. Poor colt. I couldn't focus through the second half of class. I am starting to get upset. I just cannot help him! The worst part is, I know if I get upset, it'll just make him even more upset! I can't do anything right!

After class, Featherweight and I went to the gazebo at Sweet Apple Acres. I figured going somewhere different would be worth a try. I didn't let go of him the whole time. I snuck my note into his saddlebags when he was staring off, again.

I really didn't want to leave Featherweight. I kept trying to think of excuses why he couldn't go inside. I finally got him to stop frowning, he didn't quite smile, but he said I was being silly, and almost smiled. I think he wanted to, but he just can't right now. Maybe time is the only thing that can fix this. I hate that!

Entry 230:

Page is smudged with tear stains.

Featherweight came to visit really early. He almost tackled me when I opened the door. He was almost crying. He told me that the note I left him was wonderful. He said that he knows that his family, here, is better than anything his fake parents could have been. He said he loves his friends more than they could ever know, and then told me "and I love you even more than that!" He even smiled, after that. It was a short smile, but he smiled!

We rested on the couch, and he got upset a couple of times, and cried once. He said he had been fighting crying all week, because he didn't want to give Diamond Tiara more to pick on him about. I told him to let it out and cheer up. It still hurt to see him cry, but if it was going to help him feel better, then it is worth it.

"Dear Scootaloo,

You fell asleep while we were at your house. Don't worry! I'm actually kind of happy I get a chance to sneak this in here after the notes you wrote me.

You don't know how much I appreciate what you've done for me. Without you, I would have felt completely alone. Dad is a wonderful pony, but even he couldn't cheer me up. You have done so much. I wish I could show you how much I appreciate it.

I will get through this, especially if you help me. It's just a rough time.

I love you so much. I really hope you understand how important you are to me. I wouldn't be half the pony I am without you.

Love, always and forever, Featherweight"

I fell asleep! I am so pathetic. Featherweight, though, he's so great. I don't even know how I'm going to be able to sneak a note to him, today. He didn't bring his saddlebags.

I didn't try to sneak him the note. I just gave it to him when we got to his house. He read it right there and almost cried. I don't know why! I just wrote that I loved him and that all his friends know how wonderful he is. I didn't say anything fancy. He said it was "unbelievably sweet" and when I asked him why he was almost crying, he said that he's still upset enough that he gets "emotional very easily." He said it was so sweet, though, not because of what it said, but because I was trying so hard to keep him happy.

Recovery (♫)

Entries 242-247

Entry 242:

Page has tear stains on it.

I avoided Featherweight all day today. I don't know what he wants to tell me, since I didn't read his note until I got home. I don't want to know, though. I want to disappear, but I don't want to lose him! I don't know what I would do. At recess, I hid in the big tree until we were called inside. I'm so nervous, I'm almost sick.

I left school about an hour early, sick. I couldn't sit there anymore. I ran home. I hope Featherweight is okay. I didn't even check. I'm so awful. Maybe I do deserve to lose him. I've already lost three ponies who were special to me...

Featherweight came to visit... He asked Mom to get me, that we needed to talk, and asked if I would go for a walk with him... I am so worried...

Wow. I bet I look stupid, now. Featherweight wanted to talk to me about how I felt, and try to cheer me up. I opened my big mouth and asked if he didn't want to see me anymore, and he seemed more upset than I have seen him lately. He said he felt horrible that I would think he meant that. I just got worried! His note didn't explain a lot. How would I know?

He told me he was worried about how upset I was with myself and wanted to tell me that it wasn't my fault. He said he shouldn't have lost control. I don't feel any better about that, though.

I'm pretty embarrassed. Featherweight is such a sweetheart. The problem is, he cheered me up, yes, but now I feel bad for making this situation about me when he's the one who is in that clunky, annoying cast. I can't even be guilty right.

Entry 243:

Featherweight goes to get his wing checked again, this morning. I hope to hear good I told Featherweight that I would be with Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle while he was at the hospital. He said he'd catch up with me after his check up, then.

He wore his sweater, today. I'm glad, because it was chilly, even for me! I can only imagine how cold he would have been!

The Crusaders are not chess masters, and we're not cake decorators. I probably still have frosting in my mane. Featherweight found us at Sugarcube Corner. He, Sweetie Belle, and Apple Bloom helped me get most of the frosting out, but I need to have mom get me a cloud or something.

Good news, though! Featherweight's heavy cast has been replaced with a lighter wrap. He told them how uncomfortable it was, and they decided to try a lighter cast. It's still just as clunky, but at least it's not so heavy.

He and I went to Dad's house, after he found me. Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle went home after Rarity told Sweetie Belle she had to clean up a mess she made with Rarity's thread. Rarity did not seem happy. Poor Sweetie Belle.

Featherweight asked how I was feeling, today. I told him I was feeling better, but I still felt silly, and guilty. He told me that I have nothing to feel guilty about, and that he appreciated that I stopped him from getting in big trouble. He's just so wonderful!

Entry 244:

I feel better, now. Featherweight is much happier with this wrap. He said it's still tough to get comfortable, but at least it doesn't make his shoulder sore. He said he's almost halfway through the month, which is exciting. He'll be able to fly again, soon!

School today was boring as usual, but at least I'm doing better, now.

I always worry at recess, I never know if it's going to be fun with friends, or putting up with Diamond Tiara. I was very happy that she had other things on her mind besides us, today. We had a good time, which is a relief.

Featherweight wanted to see how I was doing with my flying. I felt weird flying in front of somepony who can, but is unable to do it right now. I felt like I was taunting him or something. He said he didn't want me to stop flying just because he couldn't. I still feel weird. I train with mom in the evenings before bed, but I feel strange flying in front of Featherweight right now.

Entry 245:

Mom had to leave with her friends to go to Canterlot, I wonder what's going on. I hope she'll be okay. She said she didn't know how long she'd be gone.

Featherweight and I played tag with our friends today at recess. We had to be careful, his wing is still healing. It was fun, though.

I think Featherweight knows I still don't feel so good about myself, because the whole walk home he kept asking if I was okay. I don't want to lie to him, but I don't want to worry or upset him, either.

I went to my room to put up my saddlebags, and when I came back out, Featherweight was looking at something, he looked upset. He hid whatever it was when he saw me. I asked him what it was, and he sighed and told me he was still upset about his parents.

I told him not to be so upset, because he had a wonderful dad, and good friends. That's more than some ponies have, right?

I woke up from a little nap, and Featherweight had tears in his eyes, but he didn't seem sad. He told me he felt so lucky to have the friends and family he did. He said before I told him what I said earlier, he hadn't even thought about how lucky he was. He said he felt bad for "taking real friends and family for granted." He gave me a big hug and told me that he was lucky everyday he had me, my friends, and his dad. He even told Dad that he was happy for how nicely Dad and Mom had treated him.

I didn't know he was still having this much trouble dealing with his fake parents. I feel bad for not helping him feel better earlier. Poor colt. I hope he gets to feeling better.

Entry 246:

School was boring as usual, but Ocean Breeze was gone, today. He went to visit his parents. They're opening a new shop on the west shore of Oxbow Lake. Ocean Breeze is going with his parents to the grand opening. My friends are all going to spend time with Apple Bloom, but I want to see if there's any news from Mom.

Mom just got home, She went to help rescue the ponies of The Crystal Empire! I don't know if they have anything to do with the monster we met before, but apparently they were all afraid of this King Sombra guy. Anyway, Mom and her friends saved the day, again!

I caught up with everypony after Mom got home. Apple Bloom says she's excited for Ocean Breeze and his family. She says it's a really big deal opening another store. She would know better than I would, her family has a few stores. She says she remembers visiting Apple Fritter's store when it first opened. She said Apple Fritter was really worried that it wouldn't work out. Applejack told her that she was "plum certain" things would work out, and now Apple Fritter has the most successful dessert shop in the Mt. Bridle area.

Apple Bloom says there is a lot to worry about, though. Some ponies lose their houses starting up shops that don't work out! How awful!

We all spent the evening at the clubhouse playing games. Sweetie Belle told me she's working on a new list of ways to get our Cutie Marks and that she can't wait to try some of them out. Maybe we'll finally get our cutie marks!

Featherweight walked me home on the way to his house. I'm happy to see him feeling better. I can't wait until he can fly again. I miss having somepony to fly with when mom is busy.

Entry 247:

Featherweight has to go to the hospital again after school. They have to see how he's doing with the softer wrap, since it doesn't protect his wing as well.

At recess, Featherweight and I swung on the swings with Apple Bloom. At one point I got up and went to help Snips and Snails because Diamond Tiara wouldn't leave them alone. She told me to mind my own business, but I wasn't going to let her pick on them like she picks on us. Snips and Snails thanked me and said Diamond Tiara is always treating them like that. She doesn't just constantly pick on us, it seems.

Featherweight's wing is looking really good, the doctor said! He's going to be able to fly by the end of the month, right on schedule! He gets his wrap taken off sometime next week. He said he can't wait to stretch his wings again.

He'll have to go to the hospital every day for a week after he gets his cast off, because he has to work out his wing to get himself ready to fly again.

Ocean Breeze is back in town. We (and Pinkie Pie) threw him a little welcome back party at the gazebo. He said he had a good time with his parents. He bought Apple Bloom a necklace from Oxbow Lake. He said the store looks really nice. It's not a very big town, but it was affordable, and people recently started moving to the area, so his dad hopes that they can beat the rush and start up a business before it gets too expensive.

We spent the rest of the evening at the gazebo. Ocean Breeze said he had never had friends like us. He told us nopony he knew other than his parents and Cherry Tart had ever been so happy to see him, before, especially since he was only gone about a day.

I decided I was going to walk Featherweight home, since he walked me home yesterday. He said I was being silly, since my house was closer. I said I didn't care. He gave me a big hug before he went inside and told me that he was very happy he built up the nerve to talk to me. He said without me he would still be all alone.

I don't think that's true, but it was really sweet of him to tell me how special he thought I was. He would've made friends with Pipsqueak and the others eventually, he's such a sweet colt, how could he not? It makes me sad, thinking about him being all lonely. If he really thinks I am the reason he's as happy as he is, I guess I feel really special, though.

The Sweet Would Never Taste So Sweet (♫)

Entries 311-315

Entry 311:

This morning the town was covered in posters for the Hearth's Warming Eve celebration, and there's auditions for parts. I'm not really interested, but Sweetie Belle was really excited. Sweetie Belle is going to auditions tomorrow after school. We are all going to go and support her.

The Cutie Mark Crusaders are not cellists. Octavia kicked us out after we almost broke a couple of her prize concert cellos. I felt really bad. I didn't mean to bump them! Why are the stored in those thin cases anyway? I'd make a box or something. Something strong.

We're not so good at horseshoes, either. We'd played it before, but never to get our cutie marks. I really hope that bunny is okay.

I'm really disappointed, we always seem to break something or hurt something when we try to get our cutie marks. We don't mean to, but why does this always happen?

Entry 312:

Pipsqueak was downtown, today. He said Sweetie Belle had to help Rarity move things for her upcoming clothing line. Fancy Pants bought several cases and they need to get down to the station. Last time I offered to help Rarity move things, I ended up stuck under fifty crates. I hope Sweetie Belle is okay, but Pipsqueak said she's probably already on the train to Canterlot.

I asked him what he was doing, today. He said he went to his mom's house, and she wasn't home. His dad is busy with the weekend marketplace tents, so he's just walking around, looking for things to do. I invited him to come with me to Featherweight's. He said he would be happy to visit with us. We passed Golden Manchet on the way to Featherweight's house, he was too busy to stay and chat. Berry Punch's tent needed fixing. When we got to Featherweight's house, he was brushing his teeth, and almost spat the toothpaste in my face, since he hadn't rinsed, yet.

We went to Apple Bloom's house to see what she was doing. She and Ocean Breeze were helping Applejack and Big Macintosh sort apples. We hung around for a while, and got some really tasty apples out of the deal. I'm sure Mom and Dad will like them. We left for the clubhouse where we played games for a while. Apple Bloom said she ran into Diamond Tiara downtown, and said she was really quiet, even though she was downtown with Granny Smith. I don't know why, but I almost feel bad she's not making fun of us? She doesn't have to be as mean as before, but I hate to think she's really upset, even as much as she drives me crazy, I know what loneliness feels like, what sadness and loss feel like.

I asked Featherweight where his dad was. He usually didn't leave the house as early as he did. I wondered if there was another gallery coming up, but he said he didn't know where his dad was. He said he figured his dad would let him know if there was a new gallery, since he usually helped. Pipsqueak, Featherweight and I went back to Featherweight's house. Ocean Breeze took Apple Bloom to eat, saying they'd had apples all day, and that he wanted something different. He invited us all to go, but we all hate having him spend money on us. I appreciate it, but I don't want to feel like I'm using him.

Shutter Speed got home sort of late. He went into the dark room after greeting us. Featherweight said he must have done a full day shoot. He said he hasn't done that in a while. Usually he only does it when he has a lot on his mind. Pipsqueak asked if he needed to leave and let Featherweight talk to his dad. Featherweight said he'd talk to his dad after school, tomorrow or later tonight.

The three of us played games for a while, and once it got dark, Featherweight walked both of us home. Pipsqueak's dad was already asleep when we got to his house. He said he usually sleeps early after weekend work, because it's really tough work. I imagine, he hauls boards and stuff around all day, it has to be exhausting.

Featherweight kissed me goodnight and headed home, I set my apples from earlier on the counter and curled up with Mom, who was reading the newest Daring Do. She didn't notice me at first. She said the story was so exciting she didn't really notice what was happening around her. She gets so funny when she's reading those books. She gets REALLY into them.

Entry 313:

Diamond Tiara was kind of herself, again. She wasn't afraid to pick on us, but she didn't seem quite as into it as usual. She definitely sounded like she was hiding some feelings. I guess I should be happy she's not being the same brat she usually is, but I just can't let it go.

I told Featherweight I'd catch up with him later, I may be playing with fire, but I feel like I need to talk to Diamond Tiara. She knows I know what happened, and that I know the feeling of losing somepony special to me. Here goes nothing.

Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon started by trying to pick on me, but when I explained why I was there, they actually both shut up. I told Diamond Tiara that if she needed somepony to talk to, she just needed to let me know. She looked around and then turned back to me when she was sure nopony else was around. She said she wouldn't ever make fun of me for losing my parents and aunt again. She said she never knew how bad it hurt, and she may not really like me or my friends, but she isn't going to be that mean (again, at least.) I don't know why, but something about that felt amazing. She must have really learned something from this. The feeling was short lived, though, because I asked about her parents being away and she told me to go away before she changed her mind. Oh well. I tried.

When I caught up to Featherweight, he was looking through his dad's new photos, and talking with his dad. He told me I could come in after I asked him if it was alright. His dad said he was alright, but Featherweight wasn't buying it. I found it kind of tough, myself, since he seemed softer spoken than usual, and that's saying something. He kept saying he was alright, though. Eventually we moved on to simple chatting and just looking through the pictures. I told him I really liked a picture he had of a butterfly on a dandelion, and he gave me a framed copy. I felt a bit bad taking it, I know that he could make at least forty bits off it, since that's what he usually makes off the pictures this size. He said that it was fine, but I still had trouble. I'll put it on my windowsill when I get home.

On the walk home, Featherweight seemed nervous. He said his dad usually tells him when something's up, so today was pretty strange for him. I told him not to worry about it, sometimes it just takes a while to get to talking about things. I do wonder what's up, though.

Entry 314:

Sweetie Belle is both excited and nervous, because she was selected for the Hearth's Warming Eve narrator. On the playground Diamond Tiara told her not to screw it up or she'd never be able to show her face, again. We told Sweetie Belle not to worry, that she'd do great. She has to practice a lot, for a while, so we may help some, but she said she may not be up for doing much with the Crusaders for a while.

After class, Sweetie Belle ran home to work on the script, I just hope Rarity doesn't give her too much trouble. Sweetie Belle will be great for the show. I'm really excited for her! A drawing of Sweetie Belle bowing, with roses at her feet, fills the middle of the page.

Featherweight and I got to fly around for a bit, but it got too cold, even I had trouble staying in the air, and Featherweight is a twig! We went to Mom's and rested before heading back down to the ground. It didn't help much, but it is cloud, so I guess that's no surprise. We went to Featherweight's. The house was empty, again. He made some hot cocoa for us and we talked. He said he's more and more nervous about his dad. He said he didn't know if it was a good or bad thing on his dad's mind, but that he knew something was up. At least it could be something good, I guess?

He said he was going to try and talk with his dad again, soon. We left and walked around town. Featherweight had his sweater, now. We went and I grabbed a vest. I guess it's cold enough I should start taking this to school. We caught up with Pipsqueak, Apple Bloom and Ocean Breeze at Ocean Breeze's house. Ocean Breeze saw us and called us inside. Cherry Tart made us some wonderful cherry tarts (go figure.) We all talked about getting something for Sweetie Belle to give her after the show. We have about a month to figure out what we're doing, so we should have plenty of time to do something.

Entry 315:

Sweetie Belle said that she spent most of the evening trying on things for Rarity and didn't get any time to practice reading. Rarity is in charge of costumes for the show, and decided that Sweetie Belle would be her filly mannequin. I have a feeling Sweetie Belle will end up at the clubhouse before this is over.

At recess, I suggested the clubhouse to her, and she said Rarity would come looking for her if she needed a pony, so it was pointless. I guess, so, but she needs to get time to practice. She said Rarity will have to give her time, because Rarity wouldn't want to be the reason the play was a flop. I guess, so, but I'd hate to be Sweetie Belle.

Pipsqueak, Featherweight and I went to check on Sweetie Belle. When we got to the Carousel Boutique, Twilight was half dressed in a shiny costume I am guessing was for Princess Platinum. We could hear Sweetie Belle squeaking out lines of the script from the stairs. We didn't go in right away. She's really into the part. She screwed up some lines, but she sounds good.

She seemed embarrassed when we got into her room, but was happy to have a little break. We chatted for a little while, but left to give her more time to practice. Pipsqueak said he was going to have to find ways to pass the time like he used to with Sweetie Belle so busy, because his dad and mom both work late hours during the week, most days. We stopped by his dad's house, where he was staying, and it was empty. He made us some tea and we hung out there, it was too cold to go to the clubhouse. Featherweight and I talked and decided if Pipsqueak didn't have anything else to do, he could hang out with us, instead of being alone. Pipsqueak seemed pretty happy to be invited.

We stopped by Fluttershy and Shooting Star's for a while. The three of us helped feed the animals, and get the dens ready for winter. Fluttershy said she was very happy to have somepony else to help, because she and Shooting Star were behind schedule, and had a lot of animals to take care of. It was a lot of fun, and the bunnies and foxes were pretty happy with the work we did. We helped break up bedding and Fluttershy got us blankets for them. It really doesn't surprise me that Fluttershy would have blankets for all her animals, but I found it funny, still.

This evening was a lot of fun, I hope Sweetie Belle got some practice in. I'm sure we'll hear about it, tomorrow, if she had to play dress up with Rarity all evening, again. Maybe Twilight kept Rarity busy enough Sweetie Belle had the evening free. I just hope our visiting her didn't waste her practice time.