The Lost is Found.

"What do you mean we have to use power of more primal nature?" Twilight asks in deep worry. However, judging from the look that Luna is currently giving to me tells me that she may, at least have a terrible idea. But for the others they seem to know not as they seem to have lost looks, as if the concept of anger and hatred is a completely foreign concept.

"I mean Twilight you need to be more...evil like and devious to use this power but yet at the same time balance this evil with the good you intend to use it for."

"But will that cause issue if we are pure of heart?"

"Twilight....nopony is pure of heart no matter how they seem. We are all born sinners and thus so not clean. Even when God, the maker cleanses us of everything then we can still because we are, in one sense of the word not perfect." I sigh as they were truly not getting it, but I can't blame them one bit.

"You speak of God...what do you mean by "God"? Rainbow is the one to ask me this question, but I can see it is a sentiment that is shared by my other company. Even Celestia and Luna seem to be still confused on this subject and I find blame in myself for not trying to explain this complex idea to them. It would have been done earlier, minus the fact we have been apart and then with the Trixie incident it was the last thing I was thinking of talking about. But now it is clear to me, I was not going to be able to go any further until I explained to them why it is that one must use these evil emotions and only way to do that, is to explain it all so they understand.

"Okay....I need for you all to sit back first and clear mind. This concept is not easy to understand." I say in a soft teacher like voice, regaining my composure for this complex lesson. A few minutes pass of stunning silence, all of them are calm, which is a miracle in of itself. But eventually I break the silence with a soft clear of my throat. "Is everypony ready to listen to the tail?" I ask in a relaxed way, in a way opposite of what I am gonna do next. None of them even speak, they all softly nod their heads and then, it begins. "Okay so lets go way back!" I say in my oracle like voice that I am know for when I tell stories. "First you must understand, that God in of himself has always been and will never end." The puzzling looks that I get from most of the group, save for Celestia and Luna tell me that I have got alone way to go in telling this story. "You two seem to get this concept, care to share with us why?" I ask in a soft smile, both of them smile and shrug.

"With age comes much wisdom my little ponies, me and Luna are immortal Alicorns and have lived for thousands of years."

"That is right. This concept of never ending makes complete sense to us, however..." Luna stops herself as I sigh.

"The concept of always being is not know to any besides God and that is what makes him special. He always has been." I sigh, but unbelievably Twilight seems to have started to form proof that must sound sheer madness to her mind, as scientific as it is.

"I think I understand this concept. Like how even when there is supposedly nothing there is always something, a void in the nature theory is not possible." Twilight says as she smiles, that one where she has just maybe gotten the basis of something.

"How in tha hell is that possible?" AJ pipes up, as she and Pinkie looked like they were ready to explode.

"I think you have gone mad darling!" Rairty giggles, but this is serious shit we are dealing with right now and so I sigh and then sit back.

"No listen okay....lets make this easier...."

"Your way of being easy is not always easy." Rainbow sighs.

"Hey come on now! I am autistic give me a break!" I sigh. "Anyway...what matters is the fact that you all know the feeling. The feeling of a warm guiding light even in the total absence of light. The feeling of love that you seem to feel radiating from all things. Do you know what I mean?" I say with a hopeful smile. But once again, I find my hopes Dashed.

"You mean the light that comes from when Twilight blows up a potion?" Dash starts laughing, but I have no time for this.

"Just ignore! Now listen." I sigh, seeing the others were now starting to laugh or arguing and so I sigh and sit down. However, 20 minutes goes by, and my mind cannot take anymore drama and so I break it up.

"Fus Honaat Shar!" This sends out a pulsing wave of sound that gets everyponies attention, not just here but I imagine I would have the attention of those ponies within a 5 mile radius of my shout. "What has gotten into you guys?" I sigh with a shake of my head, looking more towards my gold watch than them. "Look how can you all be the Elements of Harmony and then argue so much? I thought you were all very best friends maybe sometimes, even more so."

"Whoa now! What are you saying?" Rainbow Dash is the first to go on the defensive, telling me that I may have some validity in my statement. But this is once again where I realize my autistic mind is not only going off course, but even if they are my marefriends getting to an area that maybe they do not want to share. "Look...aww hey Shy come here." I trail off in a bit of worry, this whole thing has shaken the scared mare and now, she maybe needs some soft affection. Fluttershy is shaking and whimpering, but she does manage to slowly get up, albeit with help from her friends and come up to me. "Okay everypony, just lets take a break for a second and then we can come back." I sigh and then see that there is no argument from the others, actually many of them take this as a time to eat, but all of this is made small by suddenly getting a nice warm kiss on my cheek from Celestia, making me blush deeply. "Why the kiss?" I ask in a voice somewhere between happy and a bit embarrassed.

"Cause your doing well. I can't give my coltfriend a kiss?" Celestia giggles and this takes me aback for a second.

"Tia I think that...maybe he does not want our affection right now." Luna says, now lowering her head in a bit of admonishment. However, for myself, all the words in the world would not be able to console me on what I should do, so I turn to the one who always has the answers by closing my eyes and softly blocking out the world.

"In Nomine Patris et Fillie et Spirictu Sancti." I softly sigh and take in deep relaxing breaths, my chest rising and falling with the beating of my now slowing heart rhythm. "Divine father, heavenly aboding one, I know that it has been awhile since I have broken words with you, and even longer since the last confession I addressed to you. I want to take this time now, to humbly confess my sins and ask for your forgiveness." I start to softly feel a force surround my body, it was a soft and warm feeling and difference from the dark cold of the Thuum. "I confess that I have sinned against you, in thought, word and deed, by what I have done and by what I have left undone. I have not loved you with my whole heart and for that I am truly sorry and humbly repent.

"Hey Chris you okay?" Celestia softly speaks, but to her voice alas I do not break, for it was with God I was wanting to commune with.

"Please help me here Divine Father, show me the way to teach the ways of the Thuum to these ponies so that the Deadra Xana will not swallow them up. Please unto you though I have many of Demons and The Prince within me I stay forever faithful to your word. In Nomine Patris et Fillie et Spiricu Sancti amen!" I finish my statement and then sigh, remaining silent to wait and ponder the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. But, then once again I feel nothing, nothing but swirling black and pure darkness. The only thing bright my heart, the soft beating telling me that I am still alive within my own being. That and the almost maddening sound of my ticking watch, which by now only serves to make me even more angry. "Why do you never answer to me!"

"Hey...heads up!" This time, suddenly I am thrown from my comfy meditative perch and crash hard into the ground, the face of a cyan colored pegasus to greet me when I open my eyes. Her look spells it all, the feeling of certain sheepishness that I am not used to seeing.

"Um sorry bro, see we are kinda in an argument with one another and..." She trails off as I look at her in a mad way, or the way a parent gives when mad with a child.

"And why the fuck are you not controlling yourself?!" I ask in a mad growl, making her get up and the others, even the princesses to snap to attention. "You all don't take me serious now do you?! Well let me get one thing straight, I am a very sweet guy and all, but this shit is no laughing matter!" I say as I sit up, wincing as I had wacked my head. "Do you all really want to know the downhome way of learning to be as strong as me in the Thuum?" I say as I manage to get my breathing under control. "I am sorry for sounding so mean but, this is not easy to do!" I sigh as I get up, rubbing my head with gritted teeth.

"What is the issue honey I mean you have to give time we can't do this overnight!" Luna says, very ironically seeing as she is the calm one normally.

"Look, I think your pushing us too hard we just can't learn something that is in a way, almost polar opposite of what the Elements of Harmony and FIM teaches." Twilight speaks up with a rather uncanny amount of disappointment.

"FIM! That shit is a joke!" I think to myself in a rage that I had not felt since Trixie. I don't know why, but recently my anger has been quick to rise and bad thing is, with it so does the Thuum power in my body. "That...concept, does it mean Friendship is Magic?" I ask as I start to laugh a bit, albeit from complete amazement that it is an actual concept.

"Yes. It is the concept that is the pinnacle of all magic. Without it, then magic becomes dark and unstable, like Sombra's magic is." Celestia says, now looking into the midday sun.

"Without it we would have never made it through are adventures." Applejack chimes in with her normal cheerful self and for some reason that made me feel okay with at least the explanation.

"Yea." Fluttershy chirps up in a much happier voice than normal telling me she seems to like this concept. However, it was long time to break this to them, they need to hear this.

"Well, that is a good concept." I start, but then I see that most of them seem to catch on to something else that I am gonna say. "But...this concept relies on something that maybe the opposite, this is more a form of anarchy, or disharmony." Almost instantly, most of them go stone frozen, minus Pinkie who drops her jaw down to the ground, literally. "I told you this power is evil and relies on darker things than probably what you all are used to. Of course though, you all still know the feeling if I am right." This makes me grow a more serious face, looking off to the horizon. "We all have been touched by evil, all of us. Not only that but your reaction surprises me since I am only repeating this."

"But we nearly thought, myself included it was a...." Celestia now starts, but I quickly cut off.

"A joke? No Celestia. It is no joke this is serious. Serious as the day is long. Like...what you all saw, or what Fluttershy saw me do to Trixie is only the tip of the iceberg." I say seriously with a very plain look on my face.

"B-but why would we need that?! Why evil power?" Luna states this, because of all of us here, she knows the most of what happens when you are corrupted with evil power.

"This goes against everything that Princess Celestia taught me, and from what I have learned from my friends." Twilight says in disbelief.

"All of us! Every single one of us." AJ chimes back in, now sitting back down before I then take off my watch and lay it on the soft warm grass.

"There is still one thing, that regardless is never going to be on our side ladies."

"And this would be what exactly." Fluttershy enquires from her position on my lap.

"The fact that, without unleashing your inner hate and darkness, the entire world of Equis will burn."