Author's Note

So after months of planning, writing, rewriting, I finally have the final and probably unexpected last chapter for this story. I'd also like to thank Mckayla for being my rock through all of this. She really held me true when I got sicker and sicker by the days, away from thoughts of suicide, and so much more that she'll never know. I'm so happy to be able to call her mine, and hope everyone has an amazing Valentine because I know I am.

Day Ten

I hear screaming and cheering come from above me as I stand here in the darkness. Screaming? From whom I wonder, until I realize that I've heard these types of screams before. Screams of joy and for blood. I'm here again. The same place I want to burn down to the ground. The same place where I realized that my fate has been changed forever. The place where I realized that my life was about to get a lot more complicated without my consent.

And now here I am. At that complicated point of no return. It's a shame really... I thought I had a good while before I ever thought I'd pay the price for everything I've had to do to make it to this point, but it's just the hand that fate deals us isn't it? You can predict the cards, but fate ultimately finds a way to cheat even the best players of this game of life. I would rub my hair back, but I can't as of right now.

Light pours in as the top of the little wait room they placed me inside of rises up slowly above the ground and reveal me and all my no longer glory to the crowd. Chains that hold my legs and arms together restrict easy movement and scars that run up and down my body are in full view. They decided not to give me any type of armor and sent me up here with just pants. No. That doesn't include underwear. Just pants.

Celestia, Luna, and Twilight all stand on their high perch above us all. Their balcony that shines like gold and is so far up and that even the top of the stands Ponies have to look up to focus their attention on them. Just like gods they act... Twilight doesn't even look in my direction. She's too focused on Celestia and her words that none but them can hear. I see her lips move followed by Twilight's, then Luna's.

It's amazing how much you can learn when you're locked up for a while. I've spent the last four days of my life in jail, starving, and listening and keep as much information as I could. Despite the bombardment of beatings from guards, Twilight herself when she became sober enough to actually visit me, and the beating of Rainbowdash for killing her friend; I've been fairly fine. Stronger if I think about it. Smarter probably in the right light.

I look around the environment to find that I'm in a sealed arena with dirt grounding. No ponies or guards are in here with me, but the stands that are usually open have chains and what looks to be a magical barrier around it to protect them. That's a big first. They're actually concerned about the citizens and everything. I turn around slowly as to not want to fall from the chains holding my legs closer than I would like them to be. I strain a bit at the chains holding my arms behind my back to find them still enchanted and tight as ever.

The place behind me shows a giant gate with humans armed to the teeth behind it. All of them are equipped with armor, weapons, and different powers. Some of them I can guess, but others I'll just have to find out for myself. Oh joy... I shuffle back around and look up towards the higher power as the great and powerful Celestia raises a hoof to silence the crowd around me. Twilight and Luna look forward as Celestia begins to address the crowd for this special event they like to call an execution. Basically, I'm here because I decided to kill Applejack after I went crazy when she drugged me. Of course it's entirely her fault for not asking Twilight if she could or not, but oh well. Turns out I killed a lot more than just Applejack though. There was blood all throughout the house. I'd say it was redder than the barn they have... or at least had outside.

Of course I can't plead innocent of my actions, because I r-eally wanted to kill her. Not like I never had the idea of murdering her, but I didn't get to have fun doing it because it wasn't entirely me that killed her. It sucks too, but maybe I can keep a cool head if I get the chance to kill the others as well... Yea right... as if that would ever happen.

This might be the end of the road for me and my sins. What a shame too. I was really starting to have fun and think better of everything.

I look up towards the ceiling of the building. I wish I could see the sky one last time. The clouds that live such peaceful days, only to be disturbed every so often by the Pegasi. They live such gentle and lazy lives. Something I haven't had in... man... It's been some years hasn't it? Since I've been home with everyone I knew. I wonder how they're doing.

I feel weight drop off of my arms and legs. I look down to find my arms by my side and the two chains unlocked and on the ground. I turn around as I hear what sounds like a crank being moved. The gate slowly rises as the Humans become antsy. They're all ready for blood. More specifically my blood. I'm surprised they didn't kill themselves behind the gate, but... than again... this is Celestia's Human army I'm looking at.

I raise up my arms to fight. Cheers and screams for blood rock the arena as they see me about to fight and the other Humans run forward. Their hooves stomp the stands as the first Human, clad in armor and a mace in his hand, swings at me. I move forward and connect my fist with the stomach area of his armor, and soon his stomach as the armor gives way for my fist. I lift him off the ground and yank my arm back and duck under a blade. I tackle forward and take the man to the ground before rolling forward and shooting up connecting my head to the chest of someone else. I hear bones crack and feel something solid give way before disappearing. I turn and catch a fist to my face that sends me out of the group.

Jeez that smarts... it burns too... I look down to see blood dripping from my face. I look up to see the group of Humans back away for a man with one hand glowing red and the other blue. I can only assume what each hand means by the burning sensation. The left glows red for fire and the right for water. Together they probably make a scolding steam that could melt me to the bone. I get up slowly and spit on the ground. Tastes like metal.

"Hahaha! That's the fighting spirit I don't see from many!" He says shaking his head and laughing, "Too bad you have to die... Bet ya would've made a great soldier."

I hadn't noticed how quiet the arena had gotten until the man before me started speaking. Ha... I'd be so happy to have another man talk to me if I wasn't so sure I was going to die by him as well. He starts running as both hand start glowing brighter.

"Don't disappoint me!" He yells as his fist goes over my head to only have the right one blast me back with the force of water.

I roll across the ground a bit before digging my finger into the ground to stop. I rise up quickly and start to dodge his blast from afar until he's on top of me. My foot comes out and connects with his stomach sending him backwards a bit clutching it. He grins and coughs up a bit of blood.

"Oh boy... they weren't wrong about you. You are stubborn."

He holds up his left hand and I wait. Nothing comes at me and I relax a bit.

"Look up bud."

I do as he says and my eyes probably shrink a bit as I look up to water spikes poised above me. I jump back as they slam into the ground where I was. They raise out and come straight at me with deadly intentions. I weave and run around them as I try to get a hold of myself. When I do, I start running for him.

"Who who who~ Clever aren't you!" He says dropping his hand and getting ready for a fight.

"And fast too!" I say as I dig my right foot hard into the ground and blast forward with my right fist raised.

I may be fast, but his reaction time is on point as he takes the majority of the blow that was aimed at his head into his left arm. It falls limp by his side, broken and unusable. Even the glow dies as his right hand glows brighter. His finger tips grow blades as he start to run for me. His legs has a faint wet trail behind them as well. Before I know it, he's sinking those blades a bit in my left arm as my right fist goes for his head. A hand stops it dead in its track before the man before me disappears completely in a white flash.

The crowd gasps as I look up to see who stopped my fist. A man. White skin, shirt, everything. His eyes give off a faint yellow glow and his wings are radiant and wide behind him. He lifts me up by my fist and slams his fist into my gut making blood shoot out of my mouth. Blackness attacks my vision fast, but those days in jail has really taught me a lot.

He throws me by my fist to my back and I feel a foot slam against my chest before a hand comes towards my face glowing white with an orb. I can only laugh as this warrior goes for the killing blow. As it fires, it gets knocked to the right hitting the barrier and making the whole thing quiver under the power. Even Celestia flinches back as the barrier does so.

From the ground beside me is a black hand that has knocked it to the side. I stare into his yellow eyes as he frown at me hard. More hands shoots up and reach around him, but they grasp nothing as he takes to the air fast. I get up and wipe blood from the corner of my mouth as I look up at him smiling. I cock my head and spread my arms open as if to invite him back.

"Don't you wanna face your sins buddy~? You'll feel better when you do. I know I did." I say as mutilated bodies rise from the ground that only I can see.

Or until at least until I see his eyes widen followed by him motioning for the others to move forward. I look forward to see them charging with weapons and magic. I close my eyes and lets my sins grow along my back. I open my eyes and moves faster than what I was trained to move. When you don't want to have your sins catch up with you, you learn to move a little bit faster.

Shadows grow from my finger tips as I rip through armor and bodies. They fall to their sides and on their backs as I rip their lives away from them. Something hits me in the back followed by two more that bring me to my knees in the middle of a surrounding of Humans. I look back to see mister radiant himself flying with what seems to be a ethereal bow notched with another arrow. I rise up and catch a fist to the face sending me back toppling a few others with me. I get up and shake my head.

The whispers grow louder in my head as I feel my sins slither across my back. It's a cold feeling. A cold feeling of excitement and danger.

Another fist comes. I dodge it and grow my claws bigger and rip through her completely. Top half away from bottom half. The show of power and blood lust is enough to bring the others back. I can hear her voice whisper in my ear now as well. I look up to mister radiant to see him holding a giant arrow pointed at me.

It lets loose with a deafening howl. The wind from such power blows most around while some dig their bodies to the ground. I roar and bring my hands up. A wall of darkness comes before me that blocks the arrow but nearly shatters before the arrow is sucked away into darkness. Mister radiant comes flying through the wall and tackles me to the ground.

"Who are you!" He yells as he grabs my throat and starts flying while dragging me across the ground and into a wall before flying up into the air.

As he does, a giant hand comes from below him and slams into him. He hits the barrier which shocks him before the hand wraps around him and slams him into the ground. It leaves a crater but a beam shreds the hand away. He gets up from his crater as I come out of the wall.

"I'm nothing but a shell that is damned... I'm also a home for the damned." I say in barely a whisper.

He gets up and a sword made of pure light grows forth from his hand that he wields and points at me immediately as he rises from ground slowly.

"Than let me break this shell so I can find out what's in it!" He yells as he blasts towards me.

Kill. Die. KIll. Die. KIll. Die. KILL DIE KILL DIE KILL DIE!

"Death becomes us..." I say as I start to understand these past few days, "Just as it will become everything else!"

Darkness and brightness clash and in a burst of both light and dark, everything fell. The ground trembled, humans and ponies a like died, and the gods were stood flabbergasted with what they saw.
Day Seven

My head hits the wall as I'm thrown in by some of the biggest guards I have ever seen. I turn around and growl at them as they point their spears at me. I almost detest them as much as my treatment on the way here. Luckily for me, this is only just a bit of roughhousing compared to what I had to go through when they got me out of that house.

I've never seen Twilight so mad before. It was like she was a whole different person right than. She made me flinch too. I feel so pathetic and defeated right now. I've worked so hard to only throw it all away when I couldn't get control of myself. I'm completely worthless. From beginning to end. Worthless.

The guard's part to reveal the entrance to the little cell room I'll be holding up inside of to reveal the nightmare I never wanted to face until I was ready. The nightmare that haunts me in the mornings instead of the night.

The great and god-like Celestia. The fake god to a hate inspired world. The inspiration to my ponies and the one who took care of me. The one that started this cruel game oh so long ago to my understanding.

I sneer and clench my fists. The guards make a move to stop me, but a wing from Celestia stops them. She holds a stoic face that shows confidence and calm. Calm that can't penetrate the hurricane of emotions I have going on inside of me at this moment. I will fight for my life right now if I have to. Where I would go, I have no idea. But I don't want to die to the likes of her. Unless she's dying as well.

She moves towards me with slow determined hooves and I rise with my back pressed against the wall. I could use the wall as a push off and charge her if it comes down to it. I've never been hit with Alicorn magic, but I'm sure it can't be any different than unicorn magic... Right?

"So... you're what my student has been protecting. Crafting. Molding to be the undying warrior I wanted. So why do I find you here? Was pulling you away from your tragic fate not good enough for you? Why do you persist in fighting and doing as you please despite this? I know you're an Alpha, so speak." Celestia says flaying her wings a bit for a show to show who's in control here.

The thing about control, is that it requires more than just power and soft words. You need to know when to prove it and when to hold back. Power plays are always a thing that happens between two being that hold power so great. I've learned and seen this for myself in that blasted place. When two are on an even plating, you have to look for an edge. When you wish to become an equal, you need to look for even footing.

I straighten myself and spit a bit of blood at her hooves and stare her dead in the eyes. I hold my scowl as her glare grows deeper.

"Oh? I wasn't aware that being saved means to be made a slave for the righteous. I believe my fate would've been better than having some "rightoues" horse take me away to some god forsaken land that wants me dead and or experimented on. Undying warrior you say?" I ask as I start walking closer to her with a bit of a limp, "How about we find out if that's true or not. Cause I'm so ready to die! But I'm going to be defiant till the very end, and bring someone with me. Someone like dear Celestia."

Now I think that sets the even footing as we stare each other dead in the eyes. She knows I'm not going to back down or ask for forgiveness for what I've done. She knows that I still have fight and will, and will use it up to the very end. If she thinks she can back me in a corner by making me feel bad, she's got another thing coming. The guards are at the ready to fight if the time comes. And I'm ready to slam their heads into the wall if they do.

Silence rules the air around us as we stare into each other's eyes. Here comes the final part. The back down. Who will back out first, who will throw the first strike, or who will decide this a draw. It's all here written in stone. What will this event hold between Human and Alicorn hold. My mind is racing at a million miles per hour and... and... dear god... Where is all of this stuff coming from? I... I knew this? When? Is it because the moment calls upon it. Or is it something else?

"Ahem." Celestia turns and looks as I lean over to see who would interrupt the power play.

A black and bluish Alicorn stands looking disapprovingly at me and the white Alicorn in front of me. Celestia backs up and so do I. A draw it would seems. For now of course. I have my own thoughts I need to look over during this break for the next confrontation between us. Celestia leaves out with guards in tow. The two Alicorn leave speaking in hushed tones as I take my seat up against the back wall and underneath the single window that allows fresh air and my only source of light in.

Silence reins with the lost of clopping hooves soon after their leave. I'm not sure if I'm the only one here, or if I'm the first one to be here. But I can tell I'm not alone. There's my thought of all that has happened so far and what everything has meant up to now. It all comes back to me with a single answer.

Nothing.

It's all meant nothing up to this point. The fighting, the testing, the trust, the work. Nothing. I've done something for nothing. Every thought I've had up to this point has been completely worthless seeing as these are my final days on this planet. I wonder where I'll go once my life is snuffed out here. Probably this Tartarus I keep hearing about from the guards and other ponies I've walked past. Of course, I don't believe in anything a pony says so. And these are god forsaken lands. So no Heaven or Hell for me.

I give a heavy sigh as stare up in the ceiling. I never thought I'd feel so completely worthless in less than five seconds. But here I am. Worthless, beaten, and tired. I could really go for a nap, but knowing that I'm going to be under watch here... I can only wonder what they'll do to me in my sleep.

Oh well... reap what you sow right?

Speaking of reaping... The sound of hooves break the peace of silence and I see the one I didn't want to see. Twilight. A bored expression masking her true feeling. The cell door opens and a dresser is set down behind her by magic. A needle of blue liquid comes from behind her, and she makes her way towards me.

I can only chuckle at how familiar this all seems. It's so funny isn't it? It all ends where it first began....

Night Seven

I hit the floor face first. The sound of her horn dies and I pick myself up slowly. I continue breathing heavily as I feel something slide out of my back followed by more of it. My head is yanked up and smashed into the wall several time before the grip lets go and lets me fall to my side. I roll to my back and stare at her with my good right eye. My blood is over most of her fur and all over her hooves. The cell is no better as it slowly turns into a pool.

I feel darkness creeping in my vision, but another jab of the needle into my arm lets me know that this isn't over yet. She hasn't been this vicious in years. She pries my stomach open with her bear hooves and I let out a yowl of pain.

It's too much. I can't keep focused. The pain is too real. I can't catch my breath. She's lifting part of me out with her bare hooves and magic. I reach out to stop her but a magic shoves my arm down, twists it, and yank it out of it's socket causing more screams from me.

All the while she wears that same bored expression. That same damnable expression of such calm and relaxation as she basically murders me. And to think...

That might be hurting me the most. I've done so much for her. I've suffered so much. And this is the thanks I get? No escape plan, no redemption, no excuse... It hurts so bad Twilight. I want to go home...

But this is home. This is the home for all sinners. This is the new home you've made for yourself. Ravel in your sin. Reap what you sow.

Reap what you sow

Reap what you sow!

Reap what you sow...

The words echo through my mind as I start to lose it. Voices in my head tell me this is my punishment. My damnation.... They let me know the reason for why this is such a God forsaken land. God can't control what happens in Hell.

Twilight sighs as he lets my body organs drop in their wrong place. I gargle blood in my mouth and breath only small amounts of air through my broken nose. I can only hope I die.

You'll never die. You'll pay for your sins with blood and bone.

Skin and bones.

Blood and guts!

Pain and torture...

The voices are loud and clear. I've truly lost it haven't I? My whole body hurts ye... I can't feel anything anymore. My right eye slowly closes as Twilight sighs and walks out to only walk back it with something. She pours it on me and lights a match. I close my eye as she drops it on me.

Burn in hell...

Burn in hell! Burn in hell! Burn in hell!

I begin laughing as I burn there. The chanting in my head continues as the fire cracks and pops. I continue laughing anyway as I raise a hand to my face and hold it. It's so FUCKING hilarious! They want me to go to a place that I'm already at! Even in the end, everyone is still stupid!

Day eight

The outside world brings about bright light and noises of ponies below and birds in the air. Though the sound is only dwarfed by the sound of the voices that I try to drown out by slamming my head against the wall repeatedly. The wet slapping and the slow thrum of numbness really help keep me down here where I can actually feel like I'm normal in a world that is anything but. Though if I really think about it, everything here is crazy. So even if I do lose myself again, I won't be any different than the others here.

Embrace it...

My head hits the wall hard and I let it rest there as the thrum of the numbness increases to a dull beat of a drum. It almost reminds me of a psychotic song I've heard oh so long ago. I can't name the tune, but I know it reminds me of a simpler times of when such events like this would only be joked about and not taken seriously about. A time of friends and peace...

We're your new friends!

The thrum continues as I sit down on my legs and stare up at the bar covered window that connects the outside world to mine. The bars remind me that I'm trapped in here, or that the world outside is trapped away from me. The constant repetition of the song birds outside and the cheerful chuckles and giggles of the fillies and colts sicken me to the core as I try to reach out to a darker part of my well being. That dark portion I wish to drown in that beckons me with the word, friend.

A term I'm oh so familiar with and yet foreign to.

I start to chuckle low and dark. My throat cracks and the laughter comes unsteady and tired. I clean my fists in front of me around the invisible throat that isn't there. Not there yet at least. In time I suppose. In time I'll find the power and the strength to claim the life that should've been mine to control. To be able to snuff out the life of the one who took it from me and replace it with my own. Such thing would be a wonder. A beautiful wonder that none will ever be able to take from me ever again, for they would know I am supreme. I would be all they would fear, for every other problem with be meaningless.

We can offer such power...

The darkness speaks, yet I do not listen. I feel a part of me twinge at the idea, but to succumb to darkness would merely mean giving up on my own free will even more. Yes I would have power, but at what cost? To simply lose myself more? To go against the plan of being free to use my own will and power at my disposal without having one to answer to?

No... I won't fall prey again to the entity that tells me false words with honey enraptured around them.

And yet you long for us. Your heart beats for us to come and hold you. Look around you. The darkness is already following you.

I look up and notice no light pierces in through the bars. Hardly any sounds come through and the darkness around me... wiggles as if insect on top each other looking for a new place to nest and eat. That thing would be me as I find myself reach out towards it. The need for something to feel that torn hole inside of me that Twilight decided to make.

The feeling of having someone rule my life... That's why I feel so incomplete here. That's why it felt just so natural to let Twilight have full control over me with a little resistance. Because that's what I was destined for the entire time. To let others control how I live.

Now you see how your life is meant to be played. Now embrace us. Hold us in that hole you need to be filled.

Day Ten

My foot stomps into the "angel's" back as I grip both of his wings tight in my hands. I stare down at his bloodied body. The darkness surrounding us both has his arms locked to the ground. While my arms start yanking back making a blood curdling scream echo around the Arena. The other Alpha Humans start freaking out as they back up and drop their weapons.

"Fly away angel, if you can." My arms pull back harder as the bones connecting the wings and body begin to pop apart, "Or else the devil will rob you of your joy."

My hard yank back fully separating the angel from it's gift. It's gift of flight and reign over others. It's screams of pain and terror ring out like a song in my head. Shadows reach around the Human's neck and silences it's wonderful song.

I turn and look at the three powers of this world. Or at least the three I've gotten to know as the power of this world. The three false prophets that started this shit of a life I've been living. But know, I can shape it. No. I can't let someone else shape it.

Darkness wraps around my legs and shoot me towards the shield. I see Celestia say something, but it seems to go unheard as the two others do nothing. Or perhaps they didn't know what to do. I don't blame them either.

I break through the barrier and cause the might Celestia to rock back against the wall. My arm revs back and shoots forward as I come face to face with Luna. My fist collides with the side of her head and send her tumbling through ponies and stands. I quickly swirl to my right to see Celestia regaining her senses. She looks at me with surprise and nothing more. For that's all she can show as I move fast and grab her throat in my hands. Darkness forms out around my hand and around her neck. I yank it to the side and let the princesses' head roll off the balcony and onto the field. The first pony scream ignites the entire crowd as they start running for their lives. The other humans can only stand and watch in shock.

Twilight is the first to react with violence as she charge me and knocks me in my side hard. I felt her horn penetrate, but I'm so riled up with adrenaline that I don't really register it much.

I land on my feet and looks up towards Twilights with hatred and disgust to only catch a dark blue hoof to my face sending me out on the field. I roll head of over heels till something blasts me from the top deep into the ground. I crack my eyes open and growl as I sit up in the hole. I stare up and wait till I see a head. When I see the night pony's head, I shoot up and catch the top of my head up against her jaw. I locate her quickly as I land on my feet outside of the hole. I raise my hand towards her body as she lands on her back. A dark orb glows in my palm before firing a beam that makes her top portion disappear.

It feels so right.

Congrats. You've taken their lives.

A singular voice says clearly in my head unlike all the others. It even sounds like a voice I remember... but... why would that be? It's not like the voices in my head have ever taken a liking to any particular voice. They just speak and... I do.

Someone lands behind me and I turn around. Darkness rises around me and covers my hands and feet. The only one I have to worry about right now. After her, everyone will free to do whatever they want. To follow or not, will be their own choice. A beautiful world of freedom and glory. All started by me.

But you really mean me.

"Or I guess me would be better to understand." Twilight says walking closer to me with little threat to my life. The darkness playing at my arms and legs die out and disappear in the wind. I stumble back at a loss for a moment before trying to grow them back out.

"You really are an idiot. Though I guess a useful tool is better than a broken one. Though I guess you're kind of both at this point aren't you? It took me so long, but I'm really happy you came along when you did. You don't know how long I've been planning something like this! The perfect day to really rule Equestria! Celestia and Luna were always the old type that didn't really know what the world needed. But I'm a new generation. With the fall of them and the killing of the "Most powerful creature" they'll be none to rival why I should lead our nation down a different path.

I was right all along you know. Your destiny is to be used by others. You're lucky that it was happily used by me. You should be happy, our combined dream has come true."

I'm not sure when, but I've dropped to my knees and let tears run down my face. I reach up and feel them running down my face. I smiles sadly and look down at the ground until a dark shadow takes of the light that was in front of me. I look up with a frown on my face.

"You look so sad. I know something that'll make you real happy!~" Her horn glows and my body turns cold, followed by darkness overtaking me.

Have I mentioned how much I hate ponies?