Fractured Hope

by Honeypelt945

Rating: mature
Tags: Dark, Sad
Length: 4201

A important, though tragic part of Nadine`s past is revealed.

Life has been good ever since Nadine moved into the castle, but a particular piece of her past has been bothering her, making her lose sleep. One night, she gathers her family and tells them about a scarring event that really changed her heart.

(All characters are de-aged in flashback)

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2015-11-09 01:40:02 UTC

Fractured Hope

It wasnt exactly the same every time. You would think it would be, but it wasnt. Sometimes Nadine would wake up sweating, with terror in her eyes, and look around the room as if she expected her attackers to step out of shadows. And then some nights, she would slowly come too, sobbing her heart out, thinking she`d been raped a second time.

However she woke up, it was ALWAYS the same nightmare. Or was it a dream? In Nadine`s mind, dreams were supposed to be beautiful and happy. Dreams were supposed to be little pieces of heaven that ponies could escape to from their every-day lives. Who would call a memory of the most horrible experience in her entire life a dream?

Ah, yes, the nightmare. It seemed as if fate had chosen to torture her, not only by letting her be assulted, but by playing back the event over and over in her head. The nightmares had gone away for a period of time. But that had been when hate was still staining her heart black and she had just taken over the Royal Castle. She had not had enough time to dream about it, being too busy with battle plans and whatnot.

But now, Nadine was living in the castle with her family; something she never would`ve imagined in a million years would happen. The servants made her food, made her bed, opened doors for her, and had even tried to bathe her. Nadine had kindly, but firmly declined, somewhat still sensitive about her body.

Now that everypony basically did everything for her, and she really didn`t have anything to do, Nadine found more time to comtemplate and think about her life.

And that`s when the nightmares came rushing back.

This time Nadine woke up a different way. Struggling with all her being to get out of the dream, she shrieked and flailed her legs around. Nadine frantically kicked a pillow off the bed, and found herself on the ground. Immediately, the two guards who were standing outside her room, and three maids burst into her room. "Princess, are you okay?!"

Nadine blushed, embarrassed. "I-I`m fine." she muttered.

Two of the maids helped her up, and the third one asked, "A nightmare, your highness?"

"Yes, I....I don`t...." she muttered, staring at her hooves. If she told them about her dream, it would be all over the castle by the time she woke. If she told them...A sudden idea hit her. One that made her stomach churn and her knees shake. But, it needed to be done.

"Do you want some hot milk with honey, Princess? It`ll soothe you back to sleep." One of the maids recommended.

"Yes, Id like that," Nadine said straightening up into her dominant posture. "but I wont be going back to sleep. Please fetch and rouse my two sisters. And my-and Prince Blueblood. Tell them to meet me in the dining room."

The servants and the guards all nodded, and trotted out of the room to fulfill their tasks. For a moment, Nadine had thought about saying "my son" instead of just "Prince Blueblood" but she knew that if she said those words, she might not keep it together, and it wouldn`t be very professional to openly cry in front of the staff. As soon as everypony had left, Nadine sighed, and let her ears and wings droop. How am I going to do this?

After washing her face, Nadine descended down the stairs and into the living room. The servants had already lit several candles around the area, softly illuminating the room. Since the dining area was huge, and could easily accommodate 20+ ponies, four chairs had been pushed to the far end of the table in a ragged circle near the entrance. A cup of warm milk mixed with honey was placed in front of each chair. She was the first one there.

Nadine walked over to her chair and sat. She idly blew on her cup, anxiously glancing at the entrance to the dining room from time to time. After a few minutes of sitting alone, a sleepy-looking Celestia in a puffy pink robe, and an irritated Luna walked through the entrance.

"Thank you for coming." Nadine said as the sisters settled down to the left of her. "I have some-"

"This better be important!" Luna snapped, glaring at Nadine. "I was just about to fight the first boss in my new video game!"

Celestia yawned, and then gave Luna a scolding look. "Our sister needs us. Surely that is more important than a video game?"

Luna huffed disagreeably, but stayed quiet. Celestia turned to Nadine with concerned eyes. "Is everything okay?"

"No," Nadine answered, and stared at her mug, forcing herself to swallow the lump in her throat. "Let`s just wait till Blueblood gets here-"

"I`m here!" The Prince sauntered into the dining room with a frown adorning his face. "This better be worth my time. You know I need my beauty rest, Mother." Prince Blueblood drawled out the last word  as he climbed into his chair. He fixed Nadine with a cold, icy stare as he daintily sipped his milk.

"So whats all this about? I dont have all night!" Luna demanded after a few moments of silence.

"Speak whenever you`re ready, Nadine." Celestia said, giving Luna another look.

"No, its okay." Nadine coughed and began. "The story Im about to tell you is about is about me, the changeling hive, and well, how Blueblood came to be. Nadine took a deep breath, and looked into the eyes of all the ponies at the table. "What I`m about to tell you will shock you."

Blueblood snorted. "I highly doubt that."

Nadine chose to ignore her son, and began: "It started out as just another ordinary day...."

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Nadine sighed as she sifted through the garbage for what seemed like the 50th time that week.

Since she wasnt a changeling and couldnt just feed off of emotions, she needed real food, like any regular pony. Her caretaker half of the time wouldn`t even bother to consider getting some food for her, and that was why Nadine visited the garbage outpost almost every day, feeding on what little food the changelings sometimes brought in.

Her hoof struck something, and she quickly pulled it out.  A sugared apple?! This day was definitely looking up for her.

Nadine whirled around at the sound of hoofsteps. Had the teacher come to fetch her? She couldn`t get in trouble again-

She frowned. No, the hoofsteps belonged to her nemeses. Out of all the changeling hive, they hated her the most.

Maybe it was because she was a "pitiful pony" and an alicorn at that. The changelings hated the alicorns most of all, especially the ones that were said to raise the sun and the moon.

Or maybe because the three colts` kin were said to have been killed in a skirmish by her kind.

Whatever the reason was, they loved to bully her, call her names, and even at times, beat her up. The teacher neither the other fillies or colts ever tried to stop them, or stand up for her. Apparently, they hated her too.

"What do you want?" Nadine growled, putting the sugared apple in her knapsack with her magic. If it came to a fight, she would probably get beat up bad. At least she had persuaded her caretaker into teaching her a few moves to defend herself last week.

"You know what we want, bitch!" spat the leader of the gang, Texus. He advanced a few steps, and so did the other two.

Nadine flinched at the curse word. "No, I don`t,"

"Oh, you naive little thing!" Corbin cooed. "It`s mating season."

"And you know what that means..." Jai hissed. For the first time, Nadine noticed something dangling between each of the colts' legs.

She took a step back. "What the Tartarus are you talking about ?!" she exclaimed, trying to disguise the fear in her voice. "put your things away!"

"Oh, were not going to put our cocks away until weve explored. Every. Single. Hole." Texus said, emphasizing the last three words.

Nadine whimpered, backing up again. She froze as she felt her butt hit the alley wall. No, no, no! "G-go away!" she yelled.

Suddenly, they all jumped on her, and Nadine had the breath knocked out of her. One of their penises brushed across her face; fear bolted through her, and caused her to think.

The sudden realization that Nadine could fly struck her. Winded, but determined, she flapped her wings a few times, and quickly found herself a good ten hooves above the pile of bewildered colts.

Her new-found triumph didn`t last long, as Texus quickly shot her down with a beam from his horn, determined not to let his prize get away that easily. Her wings instantly stopped working at the shock of the pain, and she fell to the ground, banging her head against the hard ground. "Ow...."

The three colts quickly composed themselves, and trotted over to Nadine, grinning wickedly. Corbin punched her in the cheek. "That`s for trying to get away!" All he got in return was a whimper from Nadine, who was still waiting for the pain to ebb.

"So, who wants which hole?" Texus asked as if he was asking what part of a cake they wanted, and not which part of the poor filly they wanted to rape first.

"I call shit-hole!" Jai said.

"I call mouth!" Corbin said, already imagining his penis in Nadine`s mouth.

"And I get the pussy," Texus growled, his eyes full of lust.

"This isnt happening. This isnt happening. This isnt happening." she whispered to herself. "This cant be happening. This cant be happening. Im dreaming, yeah, I`m dreaming- GASP!"

The sharp slap on the butt Jai gave her informed her otherwise. "Sit up!" Corbin commanded and Nadine did as he said.

"Open your mouth!" Her jaw swung open revealing two rows of rather white teeth. Corbin stood up, and balanced his forehooves on her head, which made his penis appear in front of her mouth.

Please don`t make me put it in my mouth! she thought, knowing that was exactly what he was going to force her to do.

Ever since her caretaker had told her about sex, and all the things that could happen in sex, she had found the whole penis-in-mouth thing completely revolting. When she had learned about it, she had promised herself she would never do it, or let it be done to her. And yet, that was exactly what was about to happen.

"Suck it!" he snapped, clearly impatient.

Trying not to cry, she tentatively flicked her tongue across the tip. A sharp gasp emitted from Corbin. Deciding it was better to get it over with, she took more of it in her mouth. Nadine wrinkled her nose; it tasted awful.

Corbin again gasped but it was quickly overwhelmed by a loud moan. "More!" he snapped again.

She kept on stuffing more into her mouth, until the tip tickled her throat. Nadine almost gagged, but she bravely composed herself, and swallowed it, determined not to get herself beat up more. Her mouth was almost overcome with disgusting tastes.

Nadine started to swirl her tongue around the penis, and bob her head up and down, remembering that stallions liked that. Indeed, another low moan escaped Corbin`s lips.

As she sucked Corbins penis, she realized that Jai and Texus were now occupied with roughly fondling her butt and teats. Really, Nadine didnt even care. The way she saw it, the more sexual fun they had the sooner it would be over. Nadine just had to do a top-rate job at pleasuring them, and then it would be over. And then she could sit and cry for as long as she wanted without somepony violating her.

Corbin started to thrust his penis in and out of her mouth in rhythm with the bobbing of her head. His moans filled the small space, and she winced every time they seemed to get louder.

Corbin started going faster and faster so much that his penis was uncomfortably hitting the back of the throat. Suddenly, Nadine felt something explode out of his penis and into her mouth. Ewww, semen! she thought, almost gagging again. Nadine couldn`t see how anybody could enjoy the icky, salty, taste.

Once her mouth was full, he took his penis out and spread the rest of the semen on her face and chest fur. He stood there panting for a moment, and then turned his attention back to her. "Now swallow." he commanded.

Nadine stubbornly shook her head no, and then thought of spitting the disgusting stuff on the ground. Texus and Jai had stopped groping her and now they were raptly watching the spectacle.

Corbin growled, and slammed one of his hooves forcefully on her nose. "I said swallow!"

Not having a choice unless she wanted to suffocate, Nadine reluctantly swallowed the semen. "Good girl!" Corbin said condescendingly, and removed his hoof from her now bleeding nose. He turned to his friends. "Who wants to go next?"

"I will," Texus growled darkly before Jai could say anything. "I really want to pop the cherry."

His friends laughed harshly, and lustfully started eyeing Nadines vagina. Nadines legs started to tremble, and she collapsed to her knees, Oh, if only her family were here. They would protect her. But no, nopony in the whole hive cared for her. No changeling would dash in and rescue her. No, if they saw what was going on, they`d probably sit and enjoy the free show.

She was all on her own.

"Stand up!" Texus barked, and she quickly obeyed. "Now before we begin, Ill transform into a pony. You know so when our foals are born"- he sent a dirty wink towards Nadine-"itll be an outcast too. Maybe we`ll even kill just for fun."

Nadine tried to block out their vulgar comments and quickly thought back to what Texus had said. They`re going to impregnate me?!

Texus suddenly vanished in a flash of green flame, and reappeared as a young stallion. His avatar was a pure white steed with cold, glinting eyes and a rich blonde mane. Nadine also noticed that his penis had grown at least three more inches in the transformation, and it was already long.

Texus stalked over to Nadine and circled her one time, showing off his impressive length that would soon be ramming into her. He then walked to the back of her, and pulled the lips of her vagina apart so he could see inside. "Just as I suspected: Pink as a piece of cotton candy!"

Nadine blushed as the other two colts laughed, and gasped as Texus roughly dragged his tongue over her lips. Her vagina quivered oddly at his touch, and for a moment, she hated herself, but for a moment she faintly enjoyed the feeling his tongue sent her.

"Alright, enough messing around. Let`s get to business." Texus said and easily mounted her. He leaned forward and whispered in her ear. "You should be honored, this is my first time too. Enjoy....."

Nadine shivered, chilled by his words. She suddenly froze as she felt the tip of his penis brush against her lips. The reality of the situation hit her with the force of one hundred magical beams. This was it. Her virginity was about to be taken by somepony she didn`t even love.

Tears popped up in her eyes, blurring her vision. "Please, don`t." she whispered almost inaudibly.

Without warning, Texus suddenly plunged his penis in and stole her virginity in one swift move. Blood started to trickle from her wounded vagina, and she let out a pain-filled screech.

At that particular moment, something changed in Nadine. Something snapped. Something terrible happened to her heart, and if any of the colts had been paying any attention during that sliver of a second, they would have noticed something dangerous sparkle in her eyes.

"Shes mine!" Texus howled victoriously, and his friends laughed and stomped their hooves. Texus quickly pulled his penis out and rammed it back in. Nadine gasped as he built a fast, steady rhythm. In and out, in and out. Texus was going so fast and so deep, her body started to rock back and forth too. The sound of their hips slapping together was loud, and Nadines cheeks flushed at the thought of anypony finding her in such a state.

Nadine let out a moan as Texus hit her sensitive spot, and her vagina started to quiver again. Texus took his penis out for the last time, and then rammed it back in deep, releasing his seed deep inside of her. Letting out a sharp gasp, she too came, and their semen swirled together, spilling out her vagina. When Texus was sure he had released every last drop of semen in Nadine, he grunted and his penis slipped out with a wet "POP!". Nadine collapsed to the ground, her head dizzy with the forced orgasm. She panted and shakily got to her hooves.

"Hey did you enjoy that?" Texus asked, rubbing the tip of his penis blissfully. "Because I did!"

"I hate you." Nadine said with quiet fury.

Texus looked a bit surprised and a bit intimidated for a moment. He then just shrugged and nodded to Corbin and Jai. "Clean her up."

They eagerly trotted to the back of Nadine, and started to hungrily lick up the semen. Will this ever end? she thought mournfully, trying her hardest not to start crying again. Nadine started to squirm uncomfortably, and Texus slapped her across the face. "Stand still and let them do their job!"

With a slight whimper, Nadine stopped moving and endured the treatment, blushing all the way. When they had finished, Jai mounted her this time. He positioned his penis over her butt-hole and slowly pushed it in. This hurt a thousand times worse than somepony slamming into her vagina.

It was already bleeding, adding even more pain to Nadines suffering. She wouldve preferred him just slamming it in, but she knew Jai was the cruelest and enjoyed her pain. Jai kept on pushing and grunting, stretching her anus to accommodate  his length. When he had gotten all he could into her without completely ripping her wide open, he stopped.

Jai leaned forward, and spit in her face. "You like the feeling of my cock in your shit-hole, ay?"

She just glared at him through tears of pain. He then pulled it out and back in again, starting rather slow and then going faster as he got more comfortable. Nadine on the other hoof, was crying loudly out of pain. She felt like she was literally being ripped apart. And she wanted it to stop. Jai bucked her for way longer than Nadine could tolerate, jeering and throwing insults at her. Immensely enjoying her pain, he then ejaculated, filling her butt with semen. He then stepped back, removing his blood-and-semen-stained penis from her butt-crack."You were delightful, darling!" Jai said, slapping her on the hind-quarters.

Nadine panted too weak to reply. The worse was finally over. Maybe they would leave her alone now? No, that didnt happen. The colts just switched places and resumed raping her again. Seconds turned into minutes, minutes turned in to hours, and hours turned into days for the poor filly. Nadine didnt know how long her time of torment lasted, she just knew when it was all over she felt as if she had been to Tartarus and back.

"I think our work here is done gentlecolts," Texus purred softly to his friends as they stood over the broken and battered Nadine. They turned to leave, and Texus called over his shoulder, "Goodbye my little slut! We`ll be back to fuck you again tommorow!"

As their harsh cries of laughter and hoofsteps faded away, Nadine whimpered softly, and curled up into a ball. Where is my family? Didnt they hear my cries? Why wont they come and rescue their princess? These thoughts raced through her head as she sobbed. Then a terrible idea suddenly struck her.

"They dont care," she whispered bitterly, and then louder. "They dont care!"

If her family really cared for her, she would`ve already been found. If her family really cared for her she would not have been in the changeling hive anyway. If her family really cared for her, she would not have been raped today.

It was their fault!

"It`s their fault! They should have protected me! It is their fault this happened to me!" she chanted through her tears.

"I have no home. I have no family," Hearing those words come out of her own mouth broke her heart completely, and she sobbed even harder.

"I am all alone."

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"After Blueblood was born, I gave him to a traitor changeling guard. She dropped him off at the castle gates in a box with a note from me. I never saw my baby again. Until now."

Silence engulfed the room for what felt like hours, threatening to suffocate everypony within its walls. Nadine searched the faces of her kin: Celestia was crying, tears pooling up in her eyes, and spilling down her cheeks, looking at Nadine with sorrow, pain, and regret in her eyes; Luna`s chest was heaving, and she looked as if she wanted to throw something across the room; And Blueblood, oh poor Prince Blueblood. His eyes reflected too many emotions to count, and he had a confused, almost pained expression on his face. Nadine bit her lip, determined to keep her own tears in check.

Luna was the first to react. She jumped out of her chair, and faced Nadine with an angry glare. "Getting raped doesn`t justify trying to take over Equestria!" she yelled. A pang of hurt ran through Nadine like a spear, as she watched her sister gallop out the door.

"I`m a-a rape baby?" Blueblood looked up at his mother, his face suddenly innocent, suddenly identical to the baby she had born all those years ago.

Nadine winced at the vulgar term. "No-"

"LIAR!" Blueblood screamed at Nadine. "I am a rape baby, aren`t I? Definitely not the son born of royal blood?! And here I go parading around, and calling myself a prince! My father is a filthy changeling!"

Blueblood turned to Celestia. "You told me my father was dead!"

Celestia opened her mouth to answer, and choked on a sob. "We-"

"Forget it, it, it`s not your fault!" Blueblood snapped. He turned towards Nadine again. "What ever happened to those filthy creatures?"

"I murdered them." Nadine said, steadily meeting her son`s eyes.

"I hate you." Blueblood growled, and Nadine could see the intense anger and hurt in his eyes. He then ran out of the room. As soon as his hoofsteps faded Nadine broke down crying, and laid her head on the table.

Celestia quickly walked over to her sister, and embraced her in a hug, letting Nadine cry into her shoulder. 'Its okay." Celestia murmured as she stroked her back soothingly. "Its not your fault. Luna didn`t mean those things she said, she is just really upset about what happened to you. And Blueblood will come around soon."

"Im so sorry. I shouldve been more careful." Nadine managed to hiccup out.

"It is NOT your fault. Nopony can blame you for getting raped." Celestia said firmly. "I`m so sorry this had to happen to you! If only I had watched you more closely-"

"What?" Nadine said sharply, and pushed Celestia away from her. "What did you say?"

Celestia flinched at her tone. "I was there when they took. I turned my back for a second, and then they were there. I tried to stop them, but I-I couldnt....Nadine Im so s-"

Nadine held out a hoof to silence her. "It`s okay, you have nothing to be sorry about. The damage has already been done."

Celestia flinched at her tone. "I was there when they took you. I turned my back for one second, and then they were there. I tried to stop them, but I-I couldnt...Nadine, Im so s-"

Nadine held out a hoof to silence her. "It`s okay, you have nothing to be sorry about. The damage has already been done."

Celestia looked as if she wanted to say something more, but just said, "Okay. Let`s go to bed."

They blew out the candles, and the two sisters slowly made their way through the castle and up the stairs, leaning on each other for support. One at Celestias bedroom door, they paused. "Ill see you in the morning?" Celestia asked, wiping away the remains of tears in her eyes.

"I was thinking......" Nadine muttered, pawing nervously at the floor. "C-could I sleep with you? I`ve been having nightmares, and-"

Celestia`s face instantly softened. "Of course, Nadine."

Nadine looked up at her big sister with gratitude in her eyes. "Thanks, Celly."

Both with gentle smiles on her face, the pair of sisters disappeared into the room, the door closing with a soft click. The castle was at peace once more.