Trilogy of Tears (+ Bonus part)

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...

For many times that I say "I'm sorry" it never seems to be enough, but...

What else can I say? What else can I do? I can only ask for forgiveness again and again for all whom I hurted... Especially to you, sister, because I give you no chance... I took all from you, your family, your friends... and now you see that everything you knew, except me, has turned to dust...

When everything began? When does Nightmare Moon begin to be created? I couldn´t say... and although it was a part of you, this dark side that all we have, it became more and more stronger with each accumulated rancor, with each reproach that you remained silent... I should have realized before it became too big.

I should have spoken with you, sister, placate those reproaches and rancors rather than ignore them... so it would not have been accumulated to become that darkness that engulfed you completely.

I know that you blamed me for a long time... surely that you even hated me... but you need to undestand that at that time I didn't have another option... my negligence made that I another choice.

Because I haven't told it to you yet, but, durint your exile, there were moments where the pain and grief were so large that I even wished that you had killed me, so I would not have to suffer... The hardest thing I've done in my life, sister, is to bring the night and day without you by my side.

In those moments, in which I missed you so much, I wished that you were by my side, nestled next to me, like when as a filly you had a bad dream and came to me looking for comfort.

I know that all this hate that was accumulating during your exile was responsible of breaking the spell that held you there... but believe me however much you will blame and hate me, I blame and hate myself even more.

And you must know that I don't blame you... I'm sure that although Nightmare Moon was much stronger, you did all that you could for stopping her.

And then Twilight and her friends came, the Bearers of the Elements of Harmony... and, Oh! how I wanted that nightmare to fade and you'll return by my side.

And then it happened... Nightmare Moon disappeared... and I couldn't stop looking at you... there you were, as I had not seen you in a long time. And then, barely containing tears, I asked you to return with me and you cried and ran to me, telling me how much you regretted it. And I could not retain my tears anymore.

I know that you have forgiven me, my dear sister, but I still have to forgive myself. And, frankly, I don't know if someday I will be able to do it.

So, until that day, in which I will be able finally to forgive myself, I will continue coming to this place every dawn, I will think about what I did, for more tears than these toughts bring to my eyes and I will keep repeating this words to myself:

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...