First Journal Entry, 20th of Augustum.
Introduction(s)
"Hello, I am Princess Celestia."
"And I'm Nightmare Moon!"
"... No, no you are not, Trollestia."
"Oh, okay fine, just spoil it all why don't ya."
"This is quite serious, you understand?"
"Only if you make it serious. Life is a joke, and yours is the most basic of all jokes!"
"I'm afraid my humor has abandoned me after you caused the treaty between us and Yakistan to become void."
"They need to develop a sense of comedic respect."
"You need to undevelop your existence."
"Ooh, that burns as bad as the sun. Hehe, get it?"
"Hey, who are we talking to? Are they cute? Sexy? Raunchy?"
"That isn't appropriate-"
"Eh, not really."
"..."
"What?"
"Please, do not interrupt me again, either of you."
"Sure..."
"As you wish, your highness..."
"Thank you. Now back to you. As you can tell, it isn't just myself in here. I have two... Passengers-"
"-Sister!"
"-Lover..."
"..."
"Sorry."
"Apologies..."
"... Right. So this all started when, well... When I had to banish my sister, Luna."
"She is still depressed about it."
"Well, not so much depressed as anguished, writhing in a pit of pain and despair for her most heinous act ever committed."
"... Thank you, that is very helpful. In fact, I am going to ask you both to not help out anymore because I want to grow up and do things myself like a big filly. Okay?"
"Oh, so you want to be a big filly? Well you do know what big fillies do, don't you?"
"... They don't attempt to seduce their guards for one..."
"~Oh, yes they do...~"
"Prove it."
"Then let me take over."
"... No. Absolutely not."
"Why?"
"Because you are a menace, much like Trollestia."
"Aw, come on Celly, you know that we're the sunshine of your life..."
"Please, don't start with the puns."
"I must agree. But you did get me a bit... Excited when you said "come"..."
"Can I please finish this? We have to raise the sun soon."
"Okay."
"By all means..."
"So. When I, banished her, I entered a state of sorrow and pain as I have never experienced before. I wasn't even this torn when mother and father... Well, I found that after a few days of only moving to raise and lower the celestial bodies, and to relieve myself of nature's duties, there was another presence next to my thoughts. The closest that I can describe it is, you know when you are in a room and you can "sense" others? Well it was similar to that, but in my head, in my mind.
After a couple more days, it spoke."
"Really? I'm an it? Well how would you feel if I called you an it, Celly?"
"Fine, she spoke. At first, it was simply feelings, emotions that held no definitive meaning. But as the days wore on, and my sanity thinned, thoughts that weren't my own began to invade. Mostly, they were just immature and cheesy jokes. However, soon she developed into her own consciousness, her own being without a body."
"I have a body! You are just in the way!"
"... And then, she asked me if I wanted to escape, to hide. I relented and was swallowed into the dark confines of my consciousness. I stayed that way for twenty years, lost in the darkness of myself."
"Huh, sounds like an emo band or something."
"And then I woke from my rest, my prison. And I found that she, who had assumed the title of Trollestia had broken our agreement and had, well for lack of a more apt description, trolled the entirety of my empire."
"It was glorious."
"It was inexcusable. That period of my rule is why I am thought of as a tyrant by many. And since then, I have never allowed another to control my body."
"Yeah, you are no fun at all."
"Oh, are we coming close to my creation? Yes, I love this part of my life..."
"Quiet, both of you. Now, centuries passed with me rebuilding my empire and ensuring it's prosperity and happiness. And throughout that long span of time, I had foregone searching, or even accepting a romantic partner."
"Such a shame..."
"It's because she is self conscious of her fat plot that bounces even when she is standing still!"
"..."
"Oh, or her flank is so big, that it is what causes an eclipse, not the moon!"
"Done..."
"No.."
"It wasn't a question."
"Oh.."
"So, my... Urges, began to get to unbearable heights. I found myself often fantasizing, lascivious encounters with my little ponies. While I had taken partners before, I generally kept the number of lovers at a minimum per century. I couldn't deal with anymore heartache than that."
"Oh honey, it isn't about the heart at all..."
"It isn't for you. So, when such lecherous imaginings began to manifest themselves into lucid and vivid fantasies and even hallucinations, I experimented with a spell. I attempted to, stop my heat from coming on. But, it was like I had just put up a dam to temporarily hold back the ocean. As it built over the next two centuries, it burst in a most unexpected and unannounced manner.
I had gone to sleep the night before, perfectly normal and unbothered. But, when I awoke, I found that I had been absent for a week as somepony seduced and took advantage of every pony she ran into."
"Well, most were happy to be asked."
"And what of the unwilling subjects?"
"I won them over eventually. They were happy with the endings..."
"It is still wrong."
"If you say so."
"I do. So then, I had to deal with maids, guards, and even nobles blushing and becoming attached to me in ways they shouldn't have. And I even had to go to court because a noble tried to sue for sexual harassment and rape! I compensated and kept him quiet by promoting him to the status of a prince."
"He was rather dull, and inexperienced..."
"That is no reason to tie him up and use your... Toys on him."
"It is every reason to punish him. Besides, he did have quite the tolerance for pain."
"... That was the very first time that I had ever been taken over without my knowledge or consent. And I was worried, I was terrified. I decided that it was best for me to see a therapist. I made a private appointment with a griffon who had studied ponies' psychology his entire life. This allowed for me to be open and honest to one who was not my charge."
"For a while, everything went well. I was improving and even Trollestia was bothering me less and less. But then one day when I was in session with Psyche, the griffin therapist, I began to go off into depraved fantasies. I was still conscious, I was still me, but I was somepony else as well. I remember approaching him, sauntering and swaying my hips in a degrading manner. Then, as I pressed my body against his, I kissed him. My tongue drove into his beak, he didn't even move or resist. When I pulled back, he asked if I was Celestia or the other one. I smiled lovingly at the cute, edgy avian, who currently had the beginnings of his arousal poking through his sheath."
"I leaned in close, taking the tips of his ear in between my teeth as my tongue flicked against the trapped ridge. I pulled back, my teeth still clamped, gently grazing the delicate anatomy. Staying close, I whispered "Why, I'm Molestia. And today, I was thinking of doing a little, physical therapy..."
"And I will stop you there. Do not assume control of me again, not without my expressed permission."
"Oh, my dear. Your arousal is all the permission I need..."
"I was not aroused."
"Then how did I take over?"
"..."
"That is what I thought."
"After that... Incident, I cancelled my appointments with Psyche, and I gave my royal duties over to the nobles and royalty. I went into isolation and solitude, to combat my internal foes."
"So dramatic..."
"I'm a lover, not a fighter."
"And I eventually came to terms with them. If they would cease to be such nuisances, then I would allow them each a certain amount of supervised control over my body. I trained to be able to lock them away and force them into submission, should I need to."
"It was awful-"
"It was awesome!"
"..."
"..."
"What? I like to be dominated at times..."
"And then I returned to my duties, albeit with less control and power than before, due to the nobles' thirst for power. But at least I could protect my little ponies from myself.
Then, I shortly found a young unicorn by the name of Twilight Sparkle."
"Isn't her father Nightlight?"
"Yes."
"Didn't Molly, well you know..."
"Oh, I did. He was a wild one-"
"-And her magical talent piqued my curiosity, and fascination. So I took her under my proverbial wing. And her apprenticeship to me gave me a positive focus in my life. But then came the time for her to depart, and with her absence returned a familiar chasm. But Luna's return made me the happiest pony in all of Equestria. I remember that I followed her everywhere for the first week, toting and mothering my little moon baby. I slept with her every night, (No Molestia, don't even think about perverting that.) (Aw.)"
"And when Luna would fall asleep, I softly cried myself to sleep as I held her close to me again. I had waited so long... So long..."
"But then we had to deal with her depression. She was new to this age and customs, and she was very much alone. My company was not enough, and I accepted that. So I arranged a therapy appointment for her with a unicorn, Serenity. It was Serenity who convinced Luna to go to Ponyville on nightmare night, and expose herself. It all worked out in the end."
"Then Serenity requested that I see her with Luna, for family sessions. It started only as one visit a week, then two, three, four. Soon, I was visiting Serenity alone. I questioned her about this one day, and she said that I "was hiding something that should be brought into the sunlight." and that I "needed help with my issues as well." I was baffled and denied everything, at first. Then I began to open up."
"Yay."
"She has an amazing body..."
"And that is why I am writing this journal entry. She recommended that I document my relationship with my alter egos and our daily life."
"This will be great."
"I agree."
"And this is the end of my first entry. I will add more tomorrow."
"Bye bye!"
"*Wink* (But not with my eye...)"
"I might banish you both to the sun..."
