(Please note I am not a good writer. I only do this to sometimes get feelings or help me with problems I am facing. If you are easily ‘triggered’ do not read this. It may not be finished either, or it is a work in progress and only a vent thing.)
Her hooves touched the soft wood of her small cottage, it made a small creak as she put her weight down onto it. She stood in front of a giant mirror, looking herself up and down. Her brown coat and pink mane all worn and tattered, her fur looked as if it was hanging on a rack of bones. Her ribs and hips poking out through her own skin, she slowly put her front hooves against the mirror lifting herself onto her back legs giving a full view of her skeleton like body. She looked again into the mirror seeing a fat, flabby, awkwardly shaped body. She shivered in disgust, seeing her fat body.
She backed away from the mirror her hooves shaking as she ran up her cottage stairs, barging into the bathroom and slamming the door shut. She parted the curtains slowly with her tiny hoof before grasping the icy cold faucet in her teeth and turning it. The water spewed out almost immediately, only stopping for a short few seconds as the water pressure adjusted.
She clumsily stepped into the shower, her hooves slipping on the smooth surface. She fell onto her hind quarters at first, making her groan in pain. She slowly slid her hooves under herself, lying under the cold shower. Her body shivering violently as the current soaked her fur, her teeth chattered as she tried to take deep breaths, feeling them sit together uncomfortably during each aching breath.
Juno soon felt her weak body starting to drift under the cold showers current, her body swayed as she struggled to keep her eyes open. Forcing herself to her hooves, she climbed out of her shower, struggling to turn it off as she put a pink robe over herself. It felt heavy, and unnecessarily fluffy. “Just get to bed…” She muttered through her still chattering teeth, her lips had turned a soft blue along with the tips of her ears.
Pretty much crawling across the floor, Juno had finally made it to bed. Her body hurt just from wearing the heavy robe, she gave a heavy sigh as she finally was able to slip it off and instead crawl under her white sheets. She curled her back hooves into herself feeling herself warm up, slowly drifting to sleep.
Juno awoke the next morning to a glimmer of sunlight coming through her black shades. She made a soft groan as she rolled over in bed, slowly making her way out of bed. Hitting the floor of a hard thump as she finally managed to roll out. She felt weaker than ever, her hair was so thick and long it even made her head droop as she walked down her stairs and into her living space. Filled with dark posters, decorations, and various other things. She slowly turned towards a desk, walking to it, she opened it.
It was filled with razors, notes, and pictures. She slowly picked up one of the notes, reading it, ‘
‘-Take cold showers to burn calories.
-Do not eat whatsoever.
-Drink at least three glasses of water a day.’
She continued through the list of tips, and put it down. Slowly picking up one of the small shiny razors, its sharp edge stained with a dark rust. She looked at for a long while before finally squeezing her eyes shut and slicing it across her flank. Blood almost immediately trickled down her leg, making tears seep through her eyelids.
Juno slowly got up, her legs shaking as she struggled to even get up on her own. She let out a cough as she dropped the razor back into her drawer and shut it, her foreleg shaking just from the small shut. She then headed towards a hanger, it had a pink dress hanging on it, it was made of silk and lace. She slowly tugged it down, slipping it over her frail body. It made her look healthier than what she was, she only wore it so others would not question her health and or weight.
She slowly pushed her door open, shakily walking out and pushing the door shut. She made a grunt as she started towards the middle of pony ville, where all of the shops and vendors where located.
Her hooves dragged along the ground as she found the flower vendor, paying 10 bits for 6 different flowers that where pink. She carried them in her mouth, enjoying the scent they gave as she started to walk back to her cottage. She didn't feel like being around other ponies, especially in this mood. She let out a whimper before she broke into a small weak trot back to her house, feeling tears suddenly spill down her cheeks.
Once to her house, she quickly bashed the door open and slammed it shut once inside. She felt horrid, she ran to her counter and smashed a pill container open, taking as many pills she could fit in her hooves. Her fur and skin went pale as the time passed, she slowly slipped into a dark abyss.
When her eyes had opened, all she could hear was a the soft beeping of a machine and the soft hiss of oxygen. She weakly moved her front hooves, using them to push herself up in the white sheets that covered her. "Wh-where am I?" She felt afraid, and started pushing buttons randomly on her remote, finally one lit up the light on her door and a white pony with pinkish red hair walked in.
"Oh good your awake, the Doctors where afraid you wouldn't wake up." She looked a bit happy yet sad, she softly placed her hooves onto my front leg as she spoke softly, "I'm sorry but we are going to have to commit you to a mental hospital. You are dangerously under weight and all those pills you took worry us. We can't trust you to go home." Juno's eyes widened as she heard the words, breaking into tears. She didn't want to be forced into some hospital for a long time, she wanted to sleep in her OWN bed, in her OWN house.
The nurse softly rubbed her hoof down Juno's back, her back shaking as she sobbed into her own hooves.
