Entry log 1-1 (August 14th, 2015)
Nothing really interesting happened today. Other than the fact that I’ve been doing nothing but stare out the window. I live very close to the everfree forest and I can have a view of it out the window. All the tall trees and the darkness that envelops inside it. Ever since I was a little filly, I would go inside of the forest naturally with no fear, but I didn’t get too far away from my home either. My parents would warn me of not going into there. I don’t know, I’ve never found any of those “giant spooky creatures” as other ponies would describe, probably because I haven’t went deep enough. Since it's dark inside there, I would use a flashlight, but eventually learned the spell that shines my horn and can act as one. The furthest I got into the forest was when I would go visit a zebra named “Zecora”. I found her one day wondering out in the woods and my curiosity got the best of me, and I went after her. She seemed pretty creepy at first, but as I walked up to her, I noticed she’s just a normal zebra who lives here. Eventually I started visiting her to have a chat, or if one of my siblings or parents were sick, I would get Zecora to help me. Yea… anyways enough of boring old details of my fillyhood, back to the present. So I’ve done nothing but stare out into the forest through my window. Can’t remember why I did it at first. Something about it seemed odd. As mentioned before, I wasn’t scared of the forest, never was. But I would find the forest itself, especially when inside it, eerie and a bit spooky. After what seemed like minutes, I step away from the window and noticing the time. Three whole hours has passed. I thought it was just a few minutes… I went to the kitchen and got myself some snacks. Was going to cook something but really wasn’t that hungry. My appetite has been decreasing after certain events has been occurring. It’s hard for me to explain right now… probably will explain better in another entry. If something weird happens, I will write it here.
Entry log 1-2 (August 15th, 2015)
I slept great last night. What a miracle. It is not often I get good sleep like these. So today nothing spooky or out of place happened. I went over to the grocery store to buy some more food since my fridge was nearly empty, and the remaining stuff are already expired. Nothing out of the ordinary happened. How great that feels! After getting the grocery items organized at home, I decide to go out to the park. I arrive, and sit down underneath the shade of a tree by the hills. It’s my favorite place to be. Relaxing, especially with the soft fresh breeze blowing through. I look up at the sky, there were two Pegasus ponies taking out the clouds. They cleared the skies in seconds and they flew off for a race. Those two ponies are really competitive against each other. Heh… it’s funny. A did a small walk around and eventually as the sun was setting I went back home. For some odd reason, I felt like somepony was watching me while I was leaving the park. Meh, I’ve been feeling like this since a few weeks ago. Probably just my paranoia. Go figure. It’s pretty late now, I stayed up watching some television and checking my feed on twitter through my computer. I’m going to rest now. Got to work tomorrow.
Entry log 1-3 (August 16th, 2015)
So the weirdness couldn’t stop right. Yesterday was great, nothing strange. But today, the weird, non-logical events returned. Probably bad luck I guess. Of course, each event is different than the others. So I went to work at 8 am, as my usual schedule. I work at a book store with a fellow friend of mine, Silver. I’ve worked with her for quite a while, and we’ve known each other since middle school. I’m in-charge of attending the customers and other times organizing and making sure the stocks are in place. As I was working normally, I started feeling dizzy and Silver went up to me.
“You alright Emy?” she asked. Emy is a nickname she gave me back when we first met.
“H-huh? Yea I’m alright. Just a bit dizzy…” I responded, I did felt dizzy, but I didn’t wanted to stop working. I needed to work some extra hours to get bits, my rent bills are pretty high.
“Your nose is bleeding.” She pointed out. As she did, my eyes widen and I was frozen for a second.
I gently put my hoof on my nose and pull it away a bit. Indeed I was bleeding. Some drops of it fell on the floor. I went running towards the restroom and washed my hands and face. After drying off, I picked up a tissue and hold it up against my nose. The bleeding wasn’t fucking stopping… After some discussion with Silver, she sent me home. She said to not worry about me not working and that I can come back tomorrow and do the extra hours. A ten minutes walk to home, I arrived, bleeding hasn’t stopped. My tissue was filled completely with the blood and I went to the bathroom and washed my face again. Pointing this out now, I literally can’t remember anything after that. I spent about an hour in the bathroom and then I got out of there. My bleeding stopped at least… But I can’t remember that specific hour. I put my hoof on my chest and could feel my heart pounding. Something crazy must have gone there… I don’t even want to think about it. I could have sworn that at the very corner of my eye at that moment, I saw a shadow move out the window. A fucking shadow in the middle of the night. I turned and ran towards the window and nothing was there. As paranoid as I was, I stayed in the living room with a knife close to me for a few hours, in case it was some kind of burglar trying to sneak in. Nothing happened, no noise, no shadows, and the feeling of being watched even wasn’t present in there. Sweet Celestia I hope nothing happens while I sleep. Going to get some rest now… goodnight.
Entry log 1-4 (August 19th, 2015)
So I promised myself to write in here each day, but I guess I broke my promise. Guess I forgot to write. Nothing strange happened during these three days… except for one thing. Yesterday, I was walking around my house. A bit of a fast pace, as I’ve been going through some thinking and feeling a bit paranoid as usual. I decided to let my anxiety out and go walk outside, instead of inside the small house. I did that. As I walk around the streets I would every once in a while wave at some ponies I know. Or they would greet me right towards me. About 3 ponies greeted me, and I would literally get startled and jump a bit. After walking for about two hours, I decide to go back to the house and probably go watch some television and eat something. My stomach growled thinking about food. Me hungry, must go eat. As soon as I start walking, I stop in my tracks. The feeling of being watched returns, but this time, from not one, but multiple sides. Like multiple ponies are watching over me. I’m very sensitive when it comes to these things. I look around and the only weird thing I notice is a pony in a hoodie, dark brown hoodie, standing behind the wall and could only see half of them. Two details, I couldn’t see its face because of the hoodie, and it was wearing a black bracelet on his front left hoof. It looked like it had a symbol or something written in it, but I couldn’t tell what it was. I stay staring at them and in a few seconds it walks away. I walk towards the wall the pony was at and go behind it. Nothing. Nopony was there. It left before I could even see who the hell it was. And the feeling vanished. Even if it was multiple who were watching. Multiple as in, probably 2 or 3. Couldn’t tell. This is getting weirder and weirder. I just hope is all just a stupid prank by somepony. And if it is… their doing a great fucking job. Its sunset right now, but I decided to write now. Feeling really tired and probably wouldn’t make it by night to write.
Entry log 1-5 (August 21st, 2015)
How?! How did I ended here?! And yesterday is completely missing from my memory. I can’t remember anything about yesterday. So where did it go? I can’t even remember myself waking up in the morning as usual and doing my usual routines. The only thing I can remember is that, right after writing entry log 1-4, I fell asleep. And the dream was weird. All I dreamt was nothingness. I was standing on nothing apparently. Everything was white, and the feelings I had was of loneliness. Cause literally there wasn’t anypony or anything for that matter in there. The only sound I could hear was of my breathing and heartbeat. Then I heard the sounds of my hoofsteps as I continued walking. Expecting to find something or at least for something to change in the “scenery”. I walked and walked, and nothing changed. I wasn’t even sure where I was walking to. After what seemed a few minutes in the dream, there was a hole in the “ceiling” and it was leaking some black liquid. I looked at it, then the liquid spread everywhere slowly, when it touched me, it didn’t felt wet. It was just as if it was a shadow engulfing the whole scene. After it did so, it went dark, I couldn’t even see myself. I was stuck in the dark for the rest of my dream, then I wake up right beside the everfree forest, at the back of my house. How? I’m not even so fucking sure anymore. I slowly stand up and the first thing I noticed is how weak I felt and my hooves hurt a lot. What happened? I walked limply towards my house. After going inside, I took a look at my hooves to see for any bruises or maybe something that was causing the pain but nothing. To make the pain go away, I went and took some pain pills and rest for a bit. Going towards the living room and laid on the couch, I checked the date. August 21st. Past day missing from my head. My mind was so messed up now as I flood of thoughts and questions arose. I can’t even explain how confused I feel right now. I’m going to take a break from these entries. If this gets worse, I might have to go see a psychologist or something… I’m not fucking crazy.
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you cant never hide.
the truth
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Entry log 1-7 (August 22nd, 2015)
Okay.. what the hell happened last night? To me, nothing happened. I slept normally, with the occasional wake ups every 2 or 3 hours in the middle of the night. Still paranoid and a headache hit me. But.. what scares me now is that, entry 1-6, I did NOT wrote that. Someone had got access to the journal which puts me into thinking. Who the hell did it and why? Trying to scare me? A chill back of my spine came by as I read what it said. “it controls. you can’t never hide. the truth.” Stopping right here. The truth? What truth? After this is some sort of… encrypted sentence or phrase. Is it supposed to mean anything? Or just gibberish to mess with my brain. I’ll have to look it up later. “soon.” Soon? What’s coming soon… “he who watches” written with some scribbles and symbols in it. What’s that all about? This is literally scaring me right now. My paranoia couldn’t get any worse. Now anxiety is hitting me. I don’t want my mental health to get worse than it is now.. I’m closing the journal right now, and going to the pharmacy to buy some medications. I’ll be back.
*Continue* I’m back now. Was a bit hard to find the medications, and the cost was more than I expected. I went and took some pills to help reduce my anxiety a bit. Supposedly it also helped with the paranoia. Not much effect on that. I couldn’t help but look all around when I was going towards the pharmacy and back to my house. There were moments where I would feel something on my back, get startled and look over the back of my shoulder. One pony, a pegasus, even came up to me and asked if I was alright. Nothing came up to my mind to lie as a response. I just said that I was alright and awkwardly walk away from him. What really impacted me though, is that when I walked away from him, he just stayed and looked at me, concerned. One more detail, as I looked back at him, I noticed something that shocked me for a moment. He was wearing the same bracelet as the pony I saw in the hoodie back in entry log 1-4. Black bracelet as I recalled, in the same hoof the pony in the hoodie was wearing. Front left hoof. After a lot of thought processing, before I could even turn back again and go towards him, he was already gone. I looked up and no traces of him. He must of flew off or walked and didn’t noticed? I mean pegasus ponies are pretty light and when they walk, you can barely hear their hoofsteps. Anyways, while walking, I haven’t noticed any other strange thing. For some reason, the time seems slow today. Meh, probably just the pills I took. It sure is giving me some side-effects. im getting sleepyyy-- goodnight
Entry log 1-8 (August 23rd, 2015)
Normal morning today… I guess. I woke up and my anxiety was gone, but paranoia was still there. As I woke up I went to the bathroom, doing my daily routines. Wash my teeth, take a quick shower and brush my mane after drying. The showering today was not really quick. I stayed inside there for like… half an hour. My thoughts were stuck between reality and fantasy. As I looked down, the water streaming across my mane, coat and falling down in front of me, I then noticed some red drops coming from me. *sighs* Nosebleed again. Didn’t lasted that long at least, but it’s really strange how I keep bleeding off my nose. I’ve never had a nosebleed before, except for that one time when I was 15 years old, I fought with another pony and she punched me in the nose. Probably has something to do with that...yeah. I stepped out of the bathroom, thinking about doing breakfast, but I really wasn’t in the mood for eating something. I just went towards my computer. As the monitor turned on and revealed my desktop, I just stared at it for a few minutes. Didn’t knew what to do. Mostly when I go into the computer, I just browse the internet for something interesting or have a chat with some friends over Skype. Browse...something interesting. A thought came to my mind, it was crazy but it could lead to at least some answers. Two things came to my head to search for. “Sudden nosebleeds” and “Mysterious hooded pony”. I searched for the first one. Typing the words in the search engine, a few links popped up. I wanted to look up for as much information as possible, so I just clicked the first 5 links and opened each one in a new tab.
“Nosebleeding for no reason… Types, Causes…” I read through the title then the contents.
“Causes include trauma to the nose from an injury, deformities inside the nose, inflammation in the nose, or in rare cases, intranasal tumors. Any of these conditions can cause the surface blood vessels in the nose to bleed.” I read outloud.
Yeah, I knew it. It’s probably some kind of injury that has to do with that fight from a few years ago. Next search. Mostly news articles about homicides and serial killers who wore hoodies… that’s scary. I went for a more specific search: “Hoodie pony with black bracelet”. Probably not going to find anything relevant… wait. Most links were just towards movie references or news, just like before. But one of the first links was titled “Mysterious hooded pony spotted over the city” It’s the local news report. So I’m not the only one who’ve seen him… Reading through the contents, two ponies has spotted this pony. Mostly at night. Well I’ve spotted him during the day… could it be the same? The rest of the article was just bullshit, how ponies are speculating it could be from a religious cult or something like that. Bleh. I shut off the window, revealing my desktop. Since my desktop’s background is dark, I could see my reflection… but… I saw somepony else behind me. I jumped startled and looked back. Nopony there… I think I’m going insane… hopefully not. The rest of the day was just me doing nothing in the house and getting startled every 15 minutes by nothing apparently. To calm myself down, I’m listening to some music right now, headphones on. It’s working a bit. Feeling less startled now. If anything “interesting” happens, I’ll write it here.
*continue* Okay… so crazy thing happening right now. It’s nighttime, and I’m just sitting here on my bed. I received an email from an unknown source. The address seemed like not from a real email site. “blackMoonDecoder_@.com” It was a short creepy message:
You will see it
soon
you’ll know when
Followed by a video link:
I felt a chill run down my spine watching that video. The static on both video and audio is enough to set my nerves off. These cryptic messages are nothing logical. Either it’s just random nouns and verbs or I’m just losing my mind. Apparently I will see “IT” soon. I’ll also know when. Which I’m scared cause I actually don’t know… and whoever or whatever it is, I don’t want to see it. As for the video itself, no comment on that. Probably the sequence is mixed but the one I understand was "watch behind". So basically, warning to watch my back. Sweet Celestia please help me. For all encoded messages, If I can't crack them successfully I’ll have to contact a dear cousin of mine. He’s studied on cryptology and other sorts of interesting fields. Hopefully I can make some sense into this soon.
That symbol though…
Why does it look so familiar…
....
Author's Note
Hello! Hope you enjoyed this first chapter, or entry. This is my first story fan-fiction I've written and taken my time to publish. I've made a few others before but were too short or bland to even consider publishing. This story is inspired by the amazing indie web-series "Marble Hornets" as well as other slenderverse series/stories. Sorry if this is a bit short, the next entries will be a lot longer and detailed. More secrets will be revealed soon. Mainly this chapter I just wanted to show out the concept to where I'm trying to push this story into. From now on, the other chapter will be more detailed, and the logs will be written in real time. Basically, the date in each log will be the actual date I wrote it. Please, if you note any errors or think I can improve on some parts, do notify me. Recommended if you contact me through Skype. My Skype name is: psp3000nerd. You can even send suggestions over there.
Entry log 2-1 (September 8th, 2015)
I was going to apologize for a whole week of inactivity since entry log 1-8, but then I realized how I’m going to be doing that from now on. But I do try my best to keep up-to-date with everything. The reason behind this is that I’m losing track of time right now. It’s so weird like, I’m in my room, and in a blink of an eye it’s been 2 days already. What the hell happened there?! Like I can’t remember anything from a certain day. I’ll explain in more detail in a bit but let’s start from beginning. After I finished entry 1-8 I’ve been trying to contact my cousin but haven’t been able to. I thought he might be still here in Ponyville last time I saw him, but according to some ponies he moved to Canterlot. Canterlot isn’t really far away, just about an hour on train, but with almost no information regarding of where he is I can’t go there. I’ll either be a full month looking house by house or waiting in somewhere specific. I never hung out with my cousin much, mostly in family reunions and such. So I can’t say what he does exactly or what schedule he runs on. Since he studies cryptology I guess I should mention that the reason he studies that is because he’s a detective… sort of. I heard he’s gotten into a lot of trouble trying to tackle clues or even intervening with other detectives without the permission or license. Eh… he’s like that so it’s his fault. He should be thankful he isn’t in jail or anything. Well at least that was last time I saw him and that was about 8 months ago. I wouldn’t be surprised if I found him stuck in a jail cell for interrupting an investigative or detective work. So yea now you know my cousin.
So on last entry I mentioned about the video and how the symbol in the end was familiar. That circle… and the x in the middle. Like I’m pretty sure I’ve seen that before. But I can’t remember and what does it mean? Literally that’s the only thing that’s been on my mind this whole time. I’m overthinking it too much and the anxiety isn’t helping. The medications wasn’t doing much effect so I doubled my dosage than the instructions said. Hopefully I don’t go too off-hoof or I might damage my body. It’s working now… and I’ve been feeling less paranoid and no more shadow smoke from the corner of my eye. Oh, I didn’t mentioned that did I? Okay… well recently I’ve been experiencing these weird “shadows”. Like I see them move by at the corner of my eye everyonce in a while. It doesn’t matter where I am is there. I feel it following me sometimes. Most frequent that I’ve seen these are in my house. I thought maybe is just hallucinations and that I need to spend more time outside. But no, it’s still. There. I really don’t know what it is, and I’m too scared to go look for it on the internet. It could be something really bad that I’m better off not knowing. One detail is that it looks smoky, and it is ALWAYS at the corner of my eye, not in front. When I try to look at it, the smoke moves away and disappears from my sight. One time I could have sworn I saw tentacles coming out of that shit. I hate tentacles… they freak me out. So those were my first 3 days after entry 1-8. I continued to work normally over at the bookstore with Silver. I needed money to continue living on and I didn’t want to be without electricity in my house, or internet for that matter. Plus I needed food, fridge was getting empty. These days Silver has been really cheerful with me like she always is… but… on August 31st… she was acting weird. As if she was hiding something. As I was organizing the new stocks that arrived, I looked over her and noticed she was being… paranoid. I went to her, tapped on shoulder and she got startled. She doesn’t get startled easily, trust me. I tried pranking her before and only one time I actually scared her out of like 30 times or so that I’ve tried. I loss count. She then continued working normally but I still noticed the odd behavior in her. It was just that day though, the next few days she was normal. The next day after that, I asked her if she was alright. She said yes, she just barely slept last night due to insomnia. I shrug it off and go along with it. If something else weird happens to her, I’m going to have to get a better look. Anyways these days of working, I sometimes had the urge to take my medication whenever I had an anxiety attack. Silver went up to me and asked why I was taking medication. I lied, I told her that I had migraine and that it had gotten worse recently. Herself being the usual happy self, she smiled and told me to get well soon. She hugged me. It felt great… the anxiety disappeared for that moment.
Speaking of work, each time when I went to work, or went back home I would do the routine of looking around while on the way in case I spotted that pony in a hoodie. I had a will to talk to him. It felt like they would know something of what’s happening to me. No luck. That was until September 4th. As I was on my way home, the sun was setting, and then I noticed a “shadow” moving around in the trees nearby. I saw what I thought was tentacles, as I turned to see, the shadow smoke of course disappeared. I turned back to in front of me and I saw the pony in the hoodie. A few feet away. We stared for what seemed like hours. More losing track of time. I could never see his face. For a moment I wondered if it was the same pony. They weren’t wearing the bracelet, and the coat color seemed different. I tried walking to it slowly.
-”H-hey! What are you doing here?” I asked. No response from him. Or her. Whoever the fuck it was. “I can call the cops in any moment if you don’t give me answers.” I continued slowly walking to it. It just stayed there and that’s what scared me for a moment. Then it startled me, as it started talking. A she. I stopped in my tracks as the pony talked:
-”Through the grid and passages of the realms. It seek its prey. The great god of the fourth world. You already saw him. Now he will follow you.” She said in a deep voice. It was a mare, but that voice… sweet Celestia.
-”Who? Why is it doing this? Who is he?!” No response from her. She starts walking away from me, slowly. “Hey wait! I’m not done talking yet!” She opens up her wings, her right one is broken a bit and has some metal things to it. As I observe her wings she takes off and flies away. It was a pretty fast take off. I lose track of her as all I saw was a blur and she’s off.
I just went back home thinking about what she said. Goddamnit! I wanted answers. No more cryptic bullshit. This is getting annoying and frustrating. My head hurts from thinking about it too much. So certainly she was no help. She was wearing a hoodie so I assumed it was the stallion I spotted last time with the bracelet. He, on exchange, he walked up to me and asked if I was alright. But no, this bitch just talked to me about some “god” and walked away. So I’m guessing at this point is, I’m dealing with a cult. She really looked like it. I even noticed a necklace with a symbol on it. I can’t recall what it was but my “sixth sense” was telling me this was not right. Ugh… I hate religion. Why always the religious ponies? I mean I don’t hate them in general, but whenever I get involved in something of them is just... ugh. I hate it. Whatever it was that she was doing, I’m hoping she didn’t summoned the devil himself right in front of me or invoking spiritual entities or whatever other crap there is about cults.
The next few days nothing interesting happened. That is UNTIL yesterday (September 7th). So here’s the thing. I had the strangest urge to go to the park. At night. Why would I go to the park at night? Why not day? It was so strange. Hell I barely go to the park anyways. I felt relieved that day because I finally managed to pay the bills and such. Anyways, the only thing I did was just wasting my time over here at my house. I tried to relieve my thoughts from everything that’s been going on to see if my paranoia vanishes. So nothing interesting happened during the time I spent at home. Just watching some TV or using the computer. I managed to not think about the park or the “shadows”, but everyonce in a while, something in the computer or TV would remind me and it just fucked me right there. So, skipping to 9 pm. It was dark outside. I took a peek out the window and the town was empty. At this time, all the ponies are in their houses tucked up in their beds getting ready to sleep or doing something else, by themselves, with their couple or family. Who cares? As I stepped out of the window, I went and took a pocket knife just in case anything freaky happens. I was going out. I don’t care if my senses were telling me to stay but I had to go. Whatever this urge is, it must be important. I put on my small saddle bag, along with the pocket knife in an easy place to access and a flashlight. I got out. It was quiet. Very quiet. It was calm. Soothing. It managed to calm my nerves. I walk towards the park, it was a few blocks away so I had to pass through some houses and stores nearby. Walking along the road I looked around. Only saw one pony walking around. But it was somepony I already knew so I ignored him. Plus I was strangely calm right now. Extremely calm. I guess I just needed some fresh air eh? As I made my way towards the park, I could start seeing it in the distance. The small green hills, the benches, and the swings where the fillies play. When it’s night time, the only lights are from the lamps in the roads. The park is away from it so it’s kind of dark, except for the moonlight. Thank Luna for that. I went towards the swings, slowly walking towards them. I can still remember the time I went in here with my mom. My dad was off to work but I managed to be with him later that night. I just loved the swing back then. And…. “Wait. What the?” I said as I lean forward into a tree that’s close by the swings. I start walking towards it and stop right in front of it. The symbol. Is there. That wasn’t there before. I moved my hoof towards the symbol, touching it. The texture was weird too. Staring at it for a moment then I hear some noise coming from my back. I turn around quickly. Nothing was there… but the swings were moving… on their own. Remember how I said I felt extremely calm earlier? Yea, it’s gone now. Screw this! I haven’t felt this scared in a long time. I just ran, and ran. I ran as fast as I could from that park. I’m never going back there at night. I don’t mind during the day but… at night. NOPE. As I was almost reaching home, I stopped trying to catch my breath. I was about to collapse but I managed to hold myself. I stayed still for about a minute or so, breathing heavily, my heart pounding quickly. I felt the blood flow all over my body with great force. Most of what I could hear was all of those details. My vision blurred for a moment but I recovered myself. I walked normally to my house. As I was about to go to the door, I noticed some movement on the bushes to my right. I stopped and looked for a second. A pony in a hoodie came out of it. Looking at it, I knew who it was. It had the bracelet. As I looked down at his hoof with the bracelet, he moved the top part of his hoodie revealing his face. We both looked at each other. We just stayed there, from a distance, awkwardly...
-“Wha… what are you doing here?” I asked. He stayed quiet for a moment as he looked around.
-“You know the symbol don’t you?” He replied. At that moment, I knew what symbol he was talking about. But out of curiosity and to be sure we’re on the same page, I asked.
-“What symbol?”
-“You know. The circle. And the cross on it.” Yep. He knows. Probably knows about it too.
-“Yea… but what does it mean?” He sighed. He lowered his voice as he felt scared for that moment.
-“You’re still too early to know about it. Have you seen a… tall pony? With a suit?” He asked. What the hell does he mean by that?
-“N-no? Why-” I got interrupted
-“Tentacles? Shadows? Hallucinations?” Okay, now he was creeping me out.
-“Well… I’ve seen some shadows but… that’s about it.”
-“Okay… yea… It’s still too early to explain, I don’t have the time right now plus, you wouldn’t believe what I’d say until you see it yourself. Oh! And well I’m actually supposed to be careful. Don’t want to get caught or anything.” He looks around and his back as if somepony was following him. “Look. I don’t know when, time will tell, but soon we will meet up again. Once we do, I’ll try to explain most of the information you need.” He starts trotting away.
-“Most of it?” I ask but as I look over, he already trotted away. That was a strange conversation.
Okay. Well that’s all of it for this entry. Once something starts coming up, I’ll continue writing. I don’t know who will actually read this or believe this is true. But, I just feel the need to write it. Have a goodnight. Bluebell out.
Entry log 2-2 (September 22nd, 2015)
2 weeks… since I’ve made my entry… I honestly have no memory of what happened. I remember fragments of it. How the hell, could I forget 2 fucking whole weeks! Ever since those strange events around mid-summer, nothing is making sense. I… I went to visit Silver today. I couldn’t find her. Which was odd cause, she works at the shop everyday. I thought maybe she was sick, so I went to visit her house and she wasn’t there either. And the door wasn’t locked either. I turned the knob after waiting for her to answer and it was open, but everything was dark and empty. Leaving her house I went to the ponies who knows her or that I know at least and asked them about Silver. Each rumor is different. Some say she took a whole month off for vacation. Other said that Silver was having personal issues and that she had to leave the house. None of this is right. I know Silver and she isn’t the kind where she would have problems to this level. I mean I’m not saying that the possibility of her having such problem is ridiculous but, she would have talked to me about it. Last time I saw her suffer a lot was 4 years ago. She was crying her eyes out after hearing her mother passed away. That’s something really heart breaking and of course if you love your mother a lot, her death would be really affecting for your health. At that moment Silver didn’t have any interest to work or do something outside her house for about 2 weeks. I stayed with her until she recovered and she did well. Now she was living a normal life… or at least I thought she was. If she’s having a problem now then she never told me about it. Or perhaps it could be those 2 weeks of my memory lost… Like I said, I only remember fragments of it, but out of those fragments there wasn’t any moment where Silver looked out of the ordinary or talked to me about personal issues. I’m worried. Both for her and for me. I’m having memory issues now. Probably those god damn pills I’ve been taking for my paranoia and anxiety. I’ll stop taking them temporarily to see if my memory issues fix. I don’t trust much on medication stuffs. Those things can be harmful sometimes. Besides the memory issues, my anxiety has almost completely disappeared. One thing fixes and another problem ensues… great. Just great. So this log isn’t that long and I’m sorry for that –even though not sure who the hell would read this--, but I need a rest and recover my memory. Everything is so blurry to me in my mind. If I keep continuing having memory issues, I might consider buying like a camera or something. I’m not sure. Also I’ve really been thinking of doing a new twitter page. My old one for some reason got hacked or something. I can’t access it anymore, it says it’s been shut down or something. I need to think about it. If I do, I’ll announce it in my next blog. Maybe that way I can write out more quick updates. I can keep it as a record too in case something happens. Anyways I really need some rest now. Barely got any sleep and I really need it if I want to get my memory back. Goodnight~
Entry log 2-3 (September 29th, 2015)
Memory has been recovering, slowly… there’s quite a few things that it’s hard to believe from what I remember. After last entry, it didn’t took long for me to think and I went ahead and made a twitter account. I haven’t posted much updates on it yet, my mind has been really messed up trying to get my memory back. Twitter is @nexusOfTheBlue by the way. So recap on my twitter, something that I don’t remember happening. 6 days ago, the lack of medication was driving me insane, I knew that I was becoming an addict to those. In my last tweet that day, I had less grammar and weird upper case letters on where it isn’t supposed to be. I stopped taking the pills, my urges to take more has gotten to the point where I had to throw the pills down the toilet and flush them. I was about to burn them somehow, my mind was literally going nuts. One more thing to add, is that another video has been uploaded to YouTube a few days ago.
The title is an omega symbol and it had more of those cryptic spooky messages. Again, why so cryptic if you want me to watch it. Actually I’m not even sure if these messages are for me. Maybe is been sent to me by mistake. But either ways, I’m curious to see what those videos mean and everything else that’s been going on. Silver’s missing, weird video and two weeks’ worth of memory loss. Oh yea, and that pony in the hoodie that I talked to last time, haven’t seen him again. Probably dead. Fuck him… well now that I think about it, he probably would of helped me. I mean seriously, obviously he knew something about this!
Okay… calming down now. Answers should be revealed soon… right? Hopefully, cause I can’t stand this. Yesterday I was starting to have suicidal thoughts. Something that really is the first time I have. I’m practically losing it. Anyways about my memories… as I mentioned they’re slowly recovering. Sometimes I remember during the day, but last night I… it came as a vision during my “dream”. I had a déjà vu at that moment, and it felt so goddamn vivid and real so… I’m assuming is a past memory, because I never ever have vivid dreams. Anyways… the dream started off weird. Let me explain. I opened my eyes and I was suddenly in the woods, the everfree forest to be exact, because it’s literally right besides my house as you should know. But it was all different. Everything was white and foggy, empty, but the trees and plants were all… shadowy looking. I walked really slowly for some reason. I looked around and nopony was around, not even the forest creatures. Then I hear a low frequency hum, it started shaking my body a bit as it grew louder and louder, and at that moment… the… fucking trees started growing tentacles, all trying to slowly slither towards me. I tried to run, only to fall, everything went dark, and then… there starts the fragment of my memory missing. Around September 15th, I believe, I was going down the park, looking for the tree that I went to last time on entry 2-1. I bowed to never go back there, but I did, and daytime (just to be safe). The kids were all cheering and playing around and I went to the tree, after looking closely… the symbol is still there. A circle and an X on it. It wasn’t that visible now though… probably fading or is just the sunlight. The soft breeze passed through and for a moment, I got startled by one of the fillies passing by cheerfully playing. As my sight followed her for a bit, I noticed a black figure close by in the fields. It was blurry… I couldn’t make it out. One of the fillies slowly walks up to it, completely stopping when she was close to it. She looked… up at… whatever the thing was and then the filly started shaking. Her body shaking as she then starts crying. At the same moment a soft white flash comes to my vision and I high pitched wave hit me, my brain hurting for a few seconds. I laid low as the pain got the strength out of my body for that brief moment. I managed to get back on my hooves and look to where the filly is, still in front of the figure. She backs away a few steps and then turns around running at full speed away from it as she got scared. Passing by close to me I take a look at her and noticed… her nose was bleeding. I… I got scared at that moment, I looked back as the filly already ran off far from me. Standing frozen where I was I just… got worried. I hope that she was fine. Looking back, the “figure” disappeared from sight. I had the urgency to go look for it but part of me was just telling not to. If I do… consequences might occur. After staying for a few minutes trying to let my mind figure what just happened I left the park and walked around town. The headache was still there but not really that strong. Now… what happens now it’s confusing. I don’t know if my memory skipped something but… this is what happened. I went to my house, it was daytime, afternoon, but as soon as I entered the door to my house and went inside… I could of sworn the world “distorted” for a split second and then it was night time. Boom! Just like that. It was dark of course, I went for the light switch. No electricity. Welp... just great. I gently growl.
-“You kidding me aren’t ya?” I said softly and I slowly concentrated my magic on my horn, doing the glowing spell. It illuminated the room I was at of course, but the other rooms were still dark. I’m not afraid of the dark but… at the corner of my eye at that moment, I could have sworn I saw a black shadow move across the hallway… I looked across it from where I was standing. Slowly walking in, I go and quietly pick up a knife with my magic. Somepony was here and I was going to risk stabbing whoever that was in here right now.
-“Show yourself!! I’m not playing games with ya’!” I shout. I take it back that shouting wasn’t the best idea. If the “pony” didn’t knew I was here… it probably did now. I walked down the hallway, opening the first door leading to the bathroom. Nothing. I continued opening the second door leading to an empty bedroom. What’s there? Nothing. Now… onto the last door. I’m guessing nothing, it could of just magically fucking teleported right? If it’s a unicorn with knowledge on the teleporting spell then yes. I opened the third door at the end of the hallway, leading to my basement. As I shine the light down, I see nothing. I decide to go down either way. The pony’s most likely hiding. I take one small step down the stairs and a pony from behind kicks me really hard from the back. I loose balance and fall down the stairs. Reaching to my “good old friend” the ground. My whole body was in pain and my vision was blurry. I look around and I see the “pony” standing up the stairs at the door. They close it. I couldn’t tell who it was. They were wearing a mask. A skull drawn on it. Everything was dark. Quiet. Too quiet. I stay laid down on the floor as I wait for the pain to go away and recover my energy. I couldn’t do magic like this. So I had no light source and the only thing I could see was pitch fucking black. Now I don’t remember what happens after that. The vision ends and I wake up at 11 am. All sweaty and my hooves hurting. So far that’s what I can tell. I need to work on my time to write these stuffs or else I’ll forget it again. My head is starting to hurt now too. Bluebell out.
Entry log 2-4 (October 2nd, 2015)
This headache just comes and goes. Ever since having a small fraction of my missing memory back, the headache doesn’t go away. It goes for a few minutes (hours if lucky) but then it comes back. The shadow… is back. I haven’t seen it in a while and it seems that it continues to haunt me. Not only in actual world, it haunts me even in my dream. What does it mean though?! The only thing that comes to my mind is those so called “shadow ponies”. I don’t believe in them but literally is the first idea that comes to mind. Stories all over the internet say they are past spirits of ponies. There have been witnesses and description of what it looks. Dark, shadowy mass, in form of a pony. But that’s one thing I should debunk from what I’m seeing. In contrast, the “shadow ponies” can be seen directly and have the most noticeable shape of an actual pony, like an actual spirit. Plus it’s seen in the real world only… I think. But mine, it’s always at the corner of my eye and from as far as I could tell, it’s just a blob, sometimes with tentacles. I’ve been thinking recently of buying a recorder for audio, due to me hearing weird noises at night. Or, a better option, an actual camera. Because I can hear and see, hope to capture whatever or whoever it is that’s fucking around in my place at night.
So um… yesterday, I broke into Silver’s house. I know, I’m a bad friend I shouldn’t sneak into her house. But I couldn’t shake the feeling off that there was something wrong… So what I did yesterday, at around 8 pm, I putted on a jacket since it was getting cold out, took my pocket knife and a key copy of Silver’s house that I managed to get from the book store. Something I didn’t noticed before going out the door and into the roads of Ponyville, is that it was foggy. I could only see around 5 meters in front of me, longer then that I couldn’t. I guess I should be hearing the news more. I started walking the trail towards Silver’s house, at a slow pace. I wasn’t in a hurry, plus paranoia started hitting me once again. Looking around me as I made my way through, the only sound I could hear was of the wind and my hoofsteps on the gravel. I wasn’t only looking around because of paranoia, I was looking around to see if the pony in the hoodie (or stallion I should say) was around. At this point, I just wanted answers. *sighs* I just hope everything was alright… I eventually reached her house. As I stand in front, I could see my reflection in on the windows. Something about the reflection seemed… off. I stay staring for a few seconds and I noticed a “shadow” moving in the fog. I look back, startled and… nothing. I’m officially going insane. I still have the feeling of being followed and is probably my dreams and hallucinations. At this point… I really don’t know what is real and what is not. Is like if reality and fantasy are “glitching” and merging in together. At least in my point of view.
I went to the front door, taking the key out of my pocket in my jacket and I unlock the door. Opening it, of course everything is dark. I walk around in the darkness as I reach towards one of the light switches. I do so and it illuminates the living room. Phew. What a relief. With all this shit happening, I think I developed a fear of the dark. I looked around and actually everything seemed normal. I mean everything was well organized, there wasn’t anything out of place except for some headphones and a glass of water. She probably forgot before leaving. I went looking more around the house. I was about to give up on my break in because… everything seemed perfectly fine. Until… I went to the living room again, and spotted a paper down underneath a couch. It was sticking out a bit. I went to it and took it out, flipping it over, my anxiety just attacked. The same goddamn symbol. Was… was Silver involved in this? Or am I just going crazy. Speaking of crazy, I started hearing some noises upstairs in one of the rooms. Taking out the knife from my pocket that I always keep with me, I start walking slowly and quietly up the stairs. The top of the stairs was dark, I couldn’t see anything. But as I continue to walk, I can notice a tall figure standing at the top of it. My magic holding onto the knife with more force as I’m ready to strike.
-“HEY!! Who are you?! What are you doing in Silver’s house?!” I yelled at it and… it didn’t respond. Just standing there. My vision was getting a bit blurry for some reason, I wasn’t feeling good at that moment. Without thinking twice I launched forward towards it. It was gone… what? Where the hell did it go?! I turned on my horn’s light and started to look around for it, I notice one of the room’s door moving on its own slowly. I stay there frozen, staring at it. I was regretting coming here. Something was probably is Silver’s house. Something that’s most likely the same thing that’s following me. Unless is just my hallucinations. I expect something to pop out from the room, but a whole minute passes and… nothing. I decide to walk towards it, entering the room. The room was actually well organized. Nothing out of the ordinary. Let’s recap. The only thing I found out of the ordinary is the paper I found a few minutes ago with the symbol on it. As I walk around the room a bit, I hear some scratching noises coming from the closet. The scratching continues, lightly at first. As I got closer to it, the scratches became harder and louder, along with some moaning and squealing noises. I got scared, and just ran out of the room. Here’s the thing; I don’t know what happened then. All I remember is getting out of the room, I saw the shadow from my dreams, and then I somehow woke up in a grass field. The one in the park. It was morning too so I must of passed out during the time, or memory loss so to say. God damnit… I move my hoof into my pockets and check if I still have my stuffs. I still have the paper with the symbol, but the knife is gone. So is the keys. *sighs* I need to buy another tool to defend myself. Probably stay with the knife or buy a gun… I stood up slowly and walked back to my house. Nothing happened on the way. I’m still worried about Silver though… I hope she gets back. I miss her… Bluebell out.
Entry log 2-5 (October 9th, 2015)
I definitely need help… You wanna know what happened? Okay. So… today Silver returned. I felt relieved when I received the news. I was planning on visiting her in a bit but turns out I didn’t need to do so. A knock on my door was heard around 1 or 2 pm. I went to open it and it was Silver.
-“Hi Emmy!” She cheers and hugs me. Oh how I missed that… cheerful Silver is back. I hug her back.
-“H-hey! You’re alright!”
-“Of course I’m alright! Why wouldn’t I be?”
-“Well… I mean… you left without notifying me… so I assumed something happened…”
-“Oh... yea. Well sorry for scaring you there. But I was just visiting the hospital in Canterlot. My mother was in an accident and I went over to check her. She was in critical state when I got there but now she’s recovering pretty good.” I sigh in relief. Silver was fine. Her mother… well she’s doing fine too. At least she’s recovering from the accident. Whatever the accident was. I didn’t mind to ask her since I was just lost for words that she’s finally back. Safe and sound.
-“Can I come in?”
-“O-oh sure. Come on” I step aside and let her enter. I close the door after she does and we go to the living room.
-“Sooo how are things going on in here?”
-“Eh… there alright.”
-“How’s that headache doing?”
-“It’s gone. Hopefully it doesn’t return. If it does I might need to go see a doctor”
-“You should have at least gone to the doctor. The sooner the better. We don’t want any surprises of having a serious condition or something for that matter.” I went to the doctor once. Everything seemed fine so I just went with it. Plus with all this shit going on with me, I doubt that the symptoms are anything from my health, but rather from another source.
-“I guess… I just didn’t felt like the symptoms were that bad”
-“You should have gone either ways. I mean, I’m just saying. I get worried for you.”
-“Thanks…” Silence fill the room for a few seconds. I try to my best to think of something. But Silver already started.
-“Oh, question. Did you happened to have my keys? The copy I mean. I couldn’t find it in the store…” Aw shit… I lost it along with the knife! How was I supposed to tell her?
-“Um… n-no.” She tilts her head a bit.
-“You sure? I mean… no pony else has access to the storage room in my store.” I stay frozen, some sweat start rolling down my head. Silver looks at me, a bit concerned.
-“Emmy… if you have it give it to me.”
-“W-why would I have the key?!”
-“Like I said before, you’re the only pony that had access to my storage room and the locker that had my keys in it. Give it back.”
-“I didn’t took it! I swear!” Uh oh. She knows. She gave me a serious look that I haven’t seen from her before.
-“YOU STOLE MY KEYS! I heard one of the ponies say that they spotted you, taking my keys and entering my house! Why did you broke into my house?!”
-“W-who… the fuck… told you that” I started shaking a bit. I was nervous, I didn’t want her to find out.
-“My neighbor. She’s a friend of mine and she goes to the store every so often. She said she spotted you 9 nights ago entering my house. I’ve been told that there were noises when you entered. I just hope you didn’t stole anything…” She looks away. “I trusted you! And you do this!”
-“S-silver! Is not what you think! I WAS WORRIED! You know why I broke into your house?! Because I wanted to know if you were alright and not involved in… uh… any cult or this shadow figure or something.” She looks at me, tilting her head.
-“Cult? Shadow figure? What are you talking about?” Oooh here it goes. I stand up and go to my room, coming back with the paper I found in her living room. The one with the symbol on it.
-“Then explain me this!” I give it to her and she looks at it confused.
-“What do you want me to explain?”
-“I found that in your living room.”
-“So you DID broke into my house! I had this because I found it in the front door outside, somepony must have left it or lost it. I thought it looked cool.” I was shocked… I couldn’t believe the fact that she brought THAT into her house. It might start consuming her. Just like it is doing now to me.
-“You what?! You think that’s cool?! That’s the symbol that’s been hunting my life these past couple of months!”
-“Hunting you? Emmy. Please tell me you aren’t believing in those stories about the cults or anything… I thought you were skeptical about that.”
-“Silver. I wish I was still skeptical. But recently, my whole life has gone to shit. Nosebleeds for no reason, memory loss, I see fucking shadow ponies in my dreams and now in reality. I’ve encountered with these cult ponies. This symbol in the paper, it might be representing it. I’ve seen it a couple of times during my incidents!” She started feeling a bit scared by what I was telling.
-“Esmeralda. You. Need. Help.” My eyes widen as I look at her.
-“I. Don’t. Need. Help! Okay, if what you’re trying to say is, go to a fucking mental hospital. Then I do probably need it. But I don’t want it! I want help from somepony that knows whatever the hell is going on! You don’t know what I’ve been through this couple of days. I was worried that you we’re involved in it too!”
-“I was just visiting my mom in the hospital. Like I said. What gave you the idea that I was being part of a cult or like seeing some “shadow ponies” of some sort. Emmy, please. I’m worried for you. Just find help.”
-“Are you not, going to help me then?!”
-“I don’t know how to help in this. I don’t even know if I should believe you. You’re probably going through some trauma of some sort. Or paranoia. Emmy. I’m sorry I have to go. I can’t take this. We’ll talk some other time.” She starts walking towards the door.
-“Silver! Wait! You have to believe me! I’m your friend! Please! You can’t just walk away from me like that!” She stops right at the door.
-“Emmy… I’m sorry. But, I’m really stressed out right now. I need some time by myself and relax. I can’t take any of these… weird… cult things today. Maybe some other day. I might try, but you gotta do your part too. Sometimes, the only ones who can help you is yourself.” She leaves. I could not believe that. I… I think I do need help. Like I should go to a mental hospital or something. A treatment maybe. But I don’t think I’m crazy. This all feels too real to feel like I’m going crazy. Probably… it could be consuming me and driving me to insanity. Everyday I’ve felt less and less hope to… do anything with my life. I’m going to think about getting treatment for this. But for now… I need to rest too. Hopefully if I can. I need to find the stallion in the hoodie too… he knows more than I do about all this. Anyways… hope to talk to ya’ll later. Bluebell out.
