Fallout: Equestria - Red, White and Blue

I prayed before her, my sleeping mother goddess. And I situated my forehooves beneath my jawline. What else had I missed. Where else had I been blindex. The nervous mess I'd become was deconstructing me. My faith was all aflame.

I had to drown out yesterday from breeding in my heart, cawing like a raven squawking 'nevermore' and 'dead.' Cleaning little trails of blood, forgetting Mother stayed home, stained with cruor that made a bloodbath look like home, a burning in my coat I scrubbed with hot disdain. A trounce of hate is all I held for me, a nervous tension in my brain.

And would she never say that she loved me just to keep me in good grace.

And would she never wake to tell me it is she that wanted space.

She'd hate me that day. She'd leave me tomorrow, leave me so she could finally see the beast I was.

I was spell-less then for once in life, one addendum that she'd helped me reach. The one thing that cut us apart was one thing I wouldn't dive within. In my sick way I wanted to kiss her for holding my heart close late last night.

I was waging wars myself when she was holding me tight all night. She never doubted my horrid relations with sex and love and mates. She made me complement my flesh when it was far too hard to think. So I'd cried my fucking hate away so she'd never see it bloom and do whatever it took inside to leave me aloof.

"Hate me, madre... Hate me in sorrow. Hate me for all the things I couldn't be for you."

I watched her then wake, her tears loose, not burrowed. My mother said 'not today, no not even tomorrow.'

"Hate is a feeling I could never have for you."

And with a warm heart she said 'my star' and gave me an embrace to absolve my sins, all the mistakes that I had made.

And like a foalish colt I never was a man. So I saw her blue eyes cry and I held her hooves as my own.

And I fell down sobbing 'never go away, just run miles with me to shine like you deserve to see.'

So she whimpered 'how could you do this to me?'

"Save me today. Save me tomorrow... Save me for all the things I couldn't do alone. Hold me in rays, your rays made to hallow; raze me so you can finally mold me out of clay."