The Chronicles of Moonshade part 3

  As I make my way towards the outermost balcony I hear sixteen different voices calling my name, pleading for me to stop. Just before I break through the doors Rainbow bursts in front of me in an attempt to block my exit. “Hey, calm down. We just wanna.....”

  ‘Now I understand why most ponies fear me. Blueblood was right all along, I'm a monster who as born to monsters.’ With an angry flare wings automatically form and in a few more strides I take to the air.

  As I struggle to get up to speed I’m surrounded by both alicorn sisters, Twilight and Rainbow quickly. “Plea.....”

  “HOW MANY MORE DARK SECRETS ARE YOU HIDING FROM ME HUH? WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?!” Without waiting for an answer I gather my magic and push with as much anger and strength I have, covering the entire area with darkness and make good my distraction. Forgoing the wings once I clear the ball I take to my mist form and head north. ‘Why.....’

  By the time I make it to where the nearest mountain is in sight I'm exhausted, hungry, extremely depressed and suprised to see that the sun is getting lower to the horizon. Apparently I traveled all day without noticing the passage of time. Once I get close to the mountain I shift back to my normal form with wings as I'm unable to maintain my gaseous form.

  Luckily a cave is just ahead and weakly I struggle to make it there safely. Once inside I construct a solid wall to cover the entrance with shadows and even more to craft a thick blanket to warm myself up. Miserably I settle in to get some much needed rest. ‘What do I now? I..... I can't return home.’

  By the time I wake up its already well past noon judging by the sun's position. Hunger forces me to drop my magical hold on the shadows and I head out in search of something that is hopefully edible. As I finally locate some food and begin to eat I notice two things. First the remnant’s presence is noticeably stronger than it was a few days ago and second a herd of spectral horses of pure ice are following me around.

‘Well, seems I missed something interesting. I told you that they were all afraid of you.’ It sneers as it circles the periphery of my mind, only the head formed. ‘I know a little bit of what happened, but not everything.’

  ‘Just..... Shut the buck up. I don't want to deal with you now. I got enough on my mind as it is to be dealing with another headache like you.’

'Hey, didn't the good doctor say its good for you to talk about what is bugging you? I'll listen.’

  ‘You will, but then you'll try to twist it to serve your own purpose.’ With a snarl I look up at the wendigos. “BOTH OF YOU LEAVE ME ALONE NOW.”

‘Oh they like that, keep feeding them your anger.’ The herd only moves closer as I notice they get bigger and stronger.

  Letting out an angry snort and a stomp of my hooves I walk further north, not knowing what I'm going to end up doing or if I'm even going to live.For the next week I get closer to the border of Yakyakistan and eventually my so called friends catch up to me.

  Nova and Lily try to talk some sense into me and get me to calm down, but all it does is awaken the Nightmare. As the darkness nearly consumes me I only have one last thought. ‘I failed.’

  It was Nova's words that helps give me the strength to break free and regain control of my body in time to stop what could have killed everypony that I care about. As I pass out one thought enters my mind and continues to bounce around inside my skull. ‘I..... I need to spend some time away from Equestria. There are to many distractions and to many ponies I can hurt. I need to lean better contol and staying here won’t help. Of coarse that is if I live.’

  “Hey Lily, she's waking up.” The voice comes from somewhere to my left as the senses of hearing and touch start to come online. I can tell there is another body laying against me and I am only guess who it is as it begins to shift around.

  “MOON! Are..... Are you..... Ok?”

  ‘Yep, its Lily. She sounds..... Relieved I'm awake. But why should she? I nearly killed her. I..... I don't deserve her love.’ I keep silent and my eyes closed as I just stretch out as my nose begins to work, taking in the chemical smells. ‘And I bet I’m stuck in some hospital bed.’

  “Please Moon, answer us.” This voice comes from my right and sounds like mom. Her words are heavily filled with her stress and concern. With a groan I blink my eyes open rapidly, trying to clear my vision while at the same time motioning for some water.

  “Thank goodness you’re alive, how are you feeling?” Celestia asks as both her and mom surround and hug me gently.

  “Ye.... Yeah, I’m..... Ok I guess.” I look directly at my hind hooves to avoid everyponies gaze once I finish the water. However my voice is still raspy and weak. “I..... I’ve been..... Thinking and.....”

“AndyouwantaHHHHHUUUGGGEcakeandmadeofchocolateforyourgetwellpartyandooooohhh......” Pinkie starts but is cut off by Applejack. “Sugarcube, Ah don’ think shes wantin a party right now. She jus needs her rest.

  “Actually not true Applejack. I..... I’ve been thinking it over and..... I need to spend time outside of Equestria. I..... I need to learn how to control myself better and being here..... There's just to many distractions.” My words stuns the entire room to silence for a few minutes until it erupts into a chaos of overflowing questions. Only mom and auntie are silent and give me a nod of approval.

  The commotion gets even louder and more hectic as I get out of bed, looking at Lily and Midnight. “I..... I need you two to come with me.” Before she gets a chance to react I envelope her in my magic and the three of us dissapear towards Ponyville.