Ostracized

A massive anomaly has been spotted in the U Continuum.

I've often thought a lot about my life. So much so that others would instantly assume that I am very lonely. Or... things that are much worse. But about my life... I wonder where I went wrong. I mean, my birth wasn't an accident. That much I know. I truly believe that. I was planned from the start... but after my conception... things went off the rails... slowly, but surely.

I mean, my primary schools seemed to be a blur in my mind. It all went by so fast, I can't really remember much. Other than I hanged out by myself on the bench all day. No one really bothered me, but that necessarily wasn't a bad thing. Sure, I was lonely, and had no friends. But at least the risk of be being... the complete opposite of happy never really existed. Maybe it had, and I just forgot. I don't know. I don't care either. Nothing bad happened then, and that was a good thing.

I think... arguably... the best thing about my life.

But before I delve into my 'school' years further, I've been trying to analyse other things as well. Mainly... where I am right now. And what's happened around me. I mean... getting fired from your only possible job... feeling like your life has been ruined... definitely takes a toll on your mind. But... really, I didn't expect anything to come out of that, in my favour, that is. And I was right, as I most often am, sadly. No pony really cared, though... Fluttershy, on the other... erm, hoof...

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"SHE DID WHAT?!" She screamed at the top of her lungs in shock. I even had to take a few steps back in fear, as the animals around her jumped from where they were. I... didn't expect this reaction.

"Umm..." I went silent again, looking away for a moment. "Rainbow..." I hesitate again. I mean, why am I hesitating? It's not like Fluttershy can do anything to make a difference. That helps me, anyways... "Rainbow kinda... got me fired." I scratched the back of my head.

There was a deadly silence in the air, where I heard nothing, as I refused to look at her. For some odd reason, I eventually did, and... she was staring at me... with some expression I wasn't familiar with... is she... angry at me? "Er-er... Flu-Fluttershy...?" I stammered, taking a few steps back. "Are y-you al-alright?"

I couldn't react to what she did next. "Oh, I'm so sorry!" She... cried into my neck? She's... hugging me... "I'm sorry you had to go through with that..." I didn't return the hug... I was too frozen in shock to do anything.

I know she's kind and all, but I didn't expect she'd actually believe me. Maybe these ponies really have been nasty for a long time... forever in their lives, perhaps. "Umm..." Think of something, idiot! Don't ruin your only chance left... "There there... It's going to be fine..."

She gave me a look. A stern one that made me flinch. "Leo, you know that your lying! It's not fine. Not at all! She can't just treat you like that!" She growled, looking off to the side. "When I find her..."

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...she had an interesting outlook, to say the least. But not even her could ease my mind. Not for a while.

One that was more positive than the others. I get the feeling the word spread pretty quickly throughout the town. As such, I've heard the three fillies wanted to find me, but were... I think banned from seeing me. I didn't really mind. They wouldn't have done anything to make a difference. I've seen them attempt diplomatic resolutions... hasn't ended well.

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"But Applejack-

"But nothin'! I've already made mah' decision!"

"But he didn't do anything wrong..."

"Yes he did! He was speaking with you! And how many times have I told you to not go near him!"

"Why won't you give him a chance?"

"Don't you know how dangerous he could be?"

"He hasn't done anything wrong! He's not dangerous!"

"How do you know that? He just appears from out of nowhere, apparently bein' an alien, and we are supposed to believe he's nice? Nah, I don't think that for a second! We are just lucky he don't have any communication 'devices' to help him call his own race-

"What?!"

"-for an alien invasion!"

"That's... that's absurd! How do you know that?"

"I know!" She paused for a second. "Now... go to your room!"

There was a defeated sigh after many seconds of intense glaring between the two siblings. "You haven't been the same since-

"I said go to your room now!" She yelled again, Applebloom silently making her way up the staircase. "And I better not ever catch you bein' around him!" There wasn't any response after that.

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Okay, so Applebloom isn't as incompentent as she seems. She's actually quite smart, it's a little shameful that her friends really aren't as bright as her. Sweetie Belle is not dumb, but Scootaloo is arrogant, but kind at the same time. Just... not really as bright.

And I think Applebloom took the words right out of my mouth. This whole opinion of me they have is absurd. I wanted to barge in there and give her a piece of my mind... but she wouldn't have whooped my ass, again, and her stubbornness was, for sure, not going to change her mind any time soon. If the CMC, as they like to call themselves, don't want to be treated like this to their own 'family', they should probably just side with them, and treat me just as nasty as...

They're too kind to do so, I guess. Reminds me of my young sister... when I was still with her.

Maybe another day, I'll send in an entry. Because, right now, I'm in no mind set to do so. I'm not angry, frustrated and sad perhaps... just not feeling up to it.