When Spike had begun to contemplate on his own life he had found himself to be unmotivated and rather sad when confronting daily activities, everytime he felt like things would go right or that he had acomplished something he would inminently fail, he began to wonder if the world hates him, not just the world but the people in it. He wondered if he was never meant to succeed...And while overthinking it he began to realize the implications of being a dragon.