Staring at a star

Where was I? I couldn’t open my eyes, it was like they were being forced shut. I had a taste of blood in my mouth and used my tongue to find the source. I didn’t find a source of blood, but my whole mouth felt strange and unknown to me, as did my tongue, it felt swollen. To be honest my whole body felt unknown to me, it was like I had a new different body . I started to panic and sweat heavily, happened to me? What was the last thing I could remember? I remember a dark room, loneliness, fear and pain, lots of pain. I tried to move my hand and discovered that I couldn’t use my fingers in both my hands, I also couldn’t use my toes when I tried to use my feet. When I suddenly heard an echoed sound of what sounded like, hoof steps? The steps came closer and closer, until they suddenly stopped followed by a sound of an opening door.

‘’Hello mister? Can you hear me? a gentle female voice asked softly.

I lay as still as possible, trying to look like I was dead. I didn’t know why I didn’t respond, but it seemed the best thing to do.

‘’Are you sure he is awake?’’ the gentle voice said again, followed by a somewhat deeper male voice ‘’Pretty sure, a few moment ago he was moving his hooves. But I have other patients to tend to so I’ll be of’’.

Hooves, they said I have Hooves. What happened to me, ‘’come on think what is the last thing you can remember’’ I asked myself in my mind.

’’Okay, by the way can I remove the bandages from his head that cover his eyes?’’ the female voice asked followed again by a male voice, ‘’sure, as long as you leave it on his wounds I think there is no harm in it’’.

One of them walked away, and the other one closed in to me. I started to sweat and panic even more as I felt something touch me, and breathe very shallow panicked gasps. ‘’Well there goes my cover’’ I thought.

I started to see white through my eyelids, by kept them firmly shut, afraid of what stood next to me. But my curiosity took the best over me, as I opened my eyes slowly and looked towards whatever would be next to me.

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‘’Hello, my name is Twilight Sparkle’’ horse said to me with a smile, ‘’what is your name?

‘’You are a talking horse…’’ I responded dumbfounded. ‘’I am not a horse! I am a pony, just like you’’ said the purple pony.

‘’You are a talking animal, and I am a human not a pony’’ I said still finding this whole conversations unreal. ‘’I am not an animal! I am a pony, just like everypony else… and what are humans? She said now spontaneously curious.

‘’I am not a horse or pony or whatever! I am human’’ I said receiving a questioning look from the purple pony.

Suddenly the horn of the pony started to glow and a mirror started floating through the room, I gasped at the sight of the flying mirror, and shocked as soon as it was in front of me.

‘’Fuck this shit!’’ I jumped out of the bed I was laying, planning to make a run for it, but as soon as I reached the floor I felt a sharp pain shoot over the front of my body, from my chest all the way to my lower insistence. I landed hard on the floor and moaned in pain, but tried to make my way there by crawling towards it, which proved to be really hard with hooves.

‘’No, please come back, you are in a really bad shape!’’ Twilight yelled. I continued in panic, but my front hurt too much and I tried flip to my back to check what the damage was. But I couldn’t roll over, something was blocking my way, as I looked I saw two feathered wings, and in the back ground a track of blood from where I had crawled. I eventually struggled to get on my back and saw my front, a cut from my stomach up to my chest now covered in blood.

Twilight stepped over me and pinned me down, she had tears in her eyes. ‘’Please STOP!’’ she asked while releasing some tears, ‘’you are killing yourself!’’

The pain, the blood lost, the talking ponies and the fact that I was a pony to, it was all too much. I lost consciousness and passed out.

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I woke up again, my whole front was bandaged. I looked out of a small window in the room and saw the moon, ‘’am I still on earth?’’ I said very silent.

Under the window stood a small couch with a pile of blankets on it, it was moving up and down slowly. At the end of the blankets I saw a purple mane and a horn, ‘’Brightlight?’’ I asked.

The pile shifted and a head popped out, ‘’It’s Twilight, Twilight Sparkle’’ she mumbled and yawned.

‘’Oh sorry… and sorry for the extreme reaction from later this day’’, I said ashamed, ‘’ I was a bit overwhelming, being another species and such’’.

‘’What that, that was a week ago. You went in shock and were in coma for around 6 days now.’’ She said nonchalant, ‘’so now tell me what are you’’ she demanded and jumped up with a bright glowing horn.

‘’You heal ten times as fast as a normal pony, you emit a strong magical aura that isn’t common on this planet and what the hay are humans’’ she said while glaring at me, ‘’normally I would have performed a mind reading spell on you, but you resisted it. So let’s do it again and let me in!’’

‘’w-what do you mean, I mean no harm’’ I said in shock, ‘’I’ll explain everything I remember to you, but the only thing I remember is that this is not my original body and that ponies aren’t able to talk… no offense’’

Twilight squeezed her eyes a bit and looked me in my face for several moments ‘’fine, but I will perform the spell on you, don’t worry it will not hurt a bit, it will only help you to get some memories back’’ she said and started to close in with her horn towards my forehead.

‘’But you have some sort of mind block I can’t enter on my own, you have to allow me to enter your mind and memories. Okay?’’ she asked me with a suspicious look, ‘’how do I do that?’’ I asked in reply. ‘’just don’t resist me entering your mind and everything will be fine’’

Her horn connected with my forehead and flashes of memory shot through my head, flashes of blood, pain, suffering and killing. I remembered the things that had happened to me, where I came from, my former profession, the fact of me being the last of my species, the loss of my family and all of the emotional pain I once had that came back to me together with the memories... I remembered.

Twilight shot back and fell on her haunches and gasped with a terrified expression on her face, not even close to resembling mine, as mine was a face of pain and sadness.

‘’W-what happened to you’’ Twilight said with a concerned look, ‘’I was kind of glad, not having those memories…’’ I mumbled with a blank face in response.

‘’But I cannot detect any sort of evil within you, even though you have murdered many of your own kind, is that what a war is about on your planet? Killing each other?’’ she said in disgust, while I was still in shock by me returned memory, ‘’you are not dangerous, right?’’ she stepped back even more.

Tears started to roll over my cheeks and looked towards Twilight, she understood what I have been trough she knew my pain. She walked towards me and embraced me, ‘’you poor soul’’ she whispered as a tear rolled down her face as well.

I broke the embrace and looked Twilight in her eyes, ‘’Please let me stay here. I am not dangerous. Even if it means I have to be a pony I can live with it, just don’t send me back there!’’ I said between sobs.

‘’Even if I wanted to, I couldn’t. The portal you came through closed right behind you and sealed the doorway between our universes. So yes you can stay here as long as you are no danger to others’’

‘’thank you’’ I said with a wide smile as I hugged her tightly again, almost squeezing the air out of her lungs. ‘’Are you okay?’’ she asked with a gasp.

‘’I am finally free’’