Discord's Depression

I had never really been inside of Fluttershy's home. He took a look around the new place he was residing in. It all seems very... natural, to put it lightly. Very neat as well. Very... unchaotic. His mood dropped a little, but he kept his demeanour to act like he didn't care. Or notice. He walked towards the couch, and began stretching his limbs again. Being in stone for another year... He grunted. Really does things that it... He shuddered, not wanting to finish that thought. Slowly, he planted himself on the couch, noticing how soft it was. He noticed that this didn't feel uncomfortable. He was free to move his limbs, after all. Why does this seem all new to me? I mean, I know what a couch is. I've sat in one before... He mind went blank, trying to find a memory where he sat on a couch, or anything as soft as this. Nothing came to mind. He felt a little depressed at this. He gave out a sigh, resting his head on his lion paw. Deep in thought, trying to find something resembling this soft... had it been so long?

Twilight noticed his behaviour, but didn't say anything. She figured he would be as he usually was, chaotic, ignoring any sort of respect towards... anypony really, and having fun in his own odd way... but this? This didn't seem like him. She noticed how he slowly sat down on the couch, and looked surprised. Maybe even happy. But any smile he had quickly faltered, as he turned into a state of deep thought. What could he be thinking about? Ways to escape out of here? No... he would be look around for any sort of opportunity... then what? She wanted to inquire, but decided against it. Knowing this is Discord, he won't be as cooperative as he should be. But then again... he doesn't seem like the 'chaotic-type' right now. Possibly acting really well. Possibly...

Fluttershy, however, didn't notice Discord's behaviour. Instead, she saw her pet bunny, Angel, eyeing Discord intently. "Oh, you don't mind giving up your favourite spot on the couch, now do you, Angel bunny?" Quickly jumping in shock at the question, Angel immediately disagreed with her, shaking his head viciously. He dashed over to Discord, pulling on his dragon leg, wanting to remove him from the couch.

Discord didn't notice him at first, but then looked towards the source of the poking. He observed the annoyed bunny. For a moment, he had the urge to merely give a smile at the struggle that the bunny is having. Wants me to move from his spot, I presume. But then, he had a second thought. But this must be Fluttershy's pet... and if I get in good with her... she might be the closest thing I have to a friend... but she'll hate me in the end anyways, so what's the point? He looked at the bunny again. "I'm sorry, do you want to sit here?" The bunny sent back a glare, before nodding in a demanding fashion. Discord sighed. Getting bullied by a bunny. This must be a new low... He went back to thinking. No. No it isn't. Close. But... He sighed. There isn't any point in the end. They're all going to die, and I'll live on in my own loneliness. Not even Celestia will ever take me back, or Luna ever forgiving me... like that it's even possible after I got imprisoned again a year ago. He shuffled over on the couch, acting irritated. "There, happy now?" His only response was the bunny sitting on his spot, and falling asleep. Discord just groaned.

"Oh, I'm sorry about Angel. Are you alright?" Fluttershy asked him, in a concerning manner.

"How considerate. Thank you, Fluttershy, I am fine." He then looked away from her gaze. If only your friends could be as considerate... A wish that won't ever happen. So what's the point of trying to change it. Remember, don't piss them off in any way, and you... won't be locked up again.

Rainbow Dash still, quite obviously, was still very sceptical. "I don't know about you. Do you really want him to live here, Fluttershy? I mean, he's only going to drive a wedge between us like he always does!" I am aware of your hatred towards me, Rainbow. Trust me when I don't say, I have no intention of that again. In fact, I want the opposite... if that'll ever happen. Which right now, is an impossibility. You won't give me a chance, not right now, so I'm not going to bother. It would be better if you could please leave me Rainbow, to my... myself.

It would be even better if I could say this to you. "Yeah, sure. Keep believing that. Trust..." He cut himself off, realising that wouldn't work. He remained quiet, staring at the floor once more as Rainbow kept her eyes on him, intently, along with the others, observing from the entrance area.

"We'll be outside." Twilight assured Fluttershy, before they had their private conversation, one so tempting to listen into. But it wouldn't matter in the endgame, anyways I'm still going to perish... in stone. Maybe death, though I highly doubt the Elements have that amount of power... He shuddering thinking about it. Maybe they do... Twilight then have her final goodbye, giving another look at the now-fearful Discord, who was hiding it well, as she and the rest of them walked out of the house, leaving a chaotic figure and a buttery pegasi to themselves, in the comfort of her animal home. He still wasn't sure what to think of it. So he didn't. And became bored again... followed by mild-depression, with dark thoughts to ponder.

They both remained silent for a number of moments, hearing the chattering from among the other animals. She analysed him, trying to find the right way to proceed things. Also, to figure out why... why he hasn't acted as... what he would say in his own words, 'chaotic' as usual. Maybe he feels bad about... it. About something, perhaps... But she decided not to enquire, seeing how it wouldn't be the way to get off to a good start. Or really anything resembling a positive start.

"So, um, Discord..." She started off meekly, shuddering in slight fear of what he might say or do. He didn't acknowledge her. "How does the p-place feel?"

He shrugged. "Alright..." And went back to being silent again. She pondered what he could be thinking about again, but nothing came to mind. Maybe he is hiding something... something we don't want to know...

Staring off into oblivion, he started to wonder about the future, about what might happen. Will they come back for him? Well, he left them, but it wasn't out of the question. He highly doubt they would come back. He wondered if he was going to get trapped into stone again... what might happen. I might be driven insane again, though aren't I insane now? There was no chuckle. I guess not... thinking about it, what's the point of this 'reformation' ritual again? He blinked. Oh yeah... so they will get off my case of being the any bit suspicious... if I wasn't before.

"Discord? Oh, are you there? Listen, Discord, I just want to make sure you know that if there's anything I can do to– uh, umm, are you eating... paper?" He froze at her words, realizing that in fact, he was eating paper. Where did this come from? Did I... maybe this... I have no clue. Does it even matter?

"Yes, I suppose I am." Teleporting whatever was left away, he suddenly stood up from his position, cracking his spine back into place. I might as well go for a walk... in a hostile land. There really isn't anything to do while... sitting on a couch with... nothing going on. But, what if I do something wrong, and I et screwed over... and I'm going back into stone... Feeling fear again, he sat back down. But not without hearing the conversation from outside, even if a little faintly. Obviously I'm not welcomed here, yet I assume I'm not allowed to go anywhere else. Go figure. Maybe I should talk with Fluttershy... to stay on her good side. Her 'bad' side, entirely the stare, is terrifying. But nothing to bad to deal with. At least she isn't trying to be intimidating in any way. Not like the others...

Here's something to think about. The others. First off, Twilight. I think all she wants to know is what my intentions are. Or if she just wants to order me around to do her bidding. Whatever the case may be, I don't think she wants me turned back, but only if necessary. She doesn't hate me, necessarily... she doesn't exactly like me either. Considering 'order' isn't in my nature, or something I told them. Keep believing that...

Rarity and Pinkie are unknown cases of mine, but I think the latter can tolerate me more than the former, but I do not know. Nor do I really care. All she is going to do is criticize me about the way I look, or about the cleaning supplies that I might one day prank her... or something about that rock. Pinkie... would probably only want to party all the time... with everypony but me. I need to hang around them a bit more to find out.

And yet, the last two... there isn't any doubt that they both hate my guts. They both want me dead, more than they want me gone. Even if it's basically the same thing. They won't be the least forgiving... any time soon. Not that I can foresee, anyway. They'll always insult me whenever they get the chance (or just one of them), they'll probably also force me to be a servant, catering to their every whim. Like a slave... like a slave... is that how I'm going to be treated here? No. No, that can't be true. It can't. I-I mean, I can take Fluttershy for instance... she doesn't want to treat me like a slave... she's been nice, for the most part. Maybe it's all a mask, all a ploy, so that they can lure me in when it's too late to back out... is that how I'm going to be treated... like a slave...

These ponies aren't the chaotic type, by the stretch of their imagination (which really isn't that far, to be honest). They can't be that cruel to me... unlike those in the far, far past, long ago... no no no, I refuse to believe that this will ever happen... but while I'm denying it's existence, I'm being forced around to commit acts I don't want to commit...

But I'll always be alone, afraid in my own little, insignificant world... these ponies completely oblivious to what I have to go through... lonely, friendless... never having any friends in the future... never having anyone to talk to about my problems... never getting her back... I wish many thing that won't ever happen...

How did I fall this far?