Sweetie Belle Get You!

After I picked up and opened the letter I sighed and got into bed. I hoped there isn't going to be anything in here to cause me to lose sleep. I pulled out the paper and unfolded it. It was decorated with glitter and sparkly hearts that were glued to the page. Not all of it was glued securely and spilled out onto my shirt. Wow this really looked like a letter from a young girl or teen on valentine's day. I had never had a valentine in real life. Only online. The safety of being behind the keyboard made rejection much easier to handle and I could always come across as being more confident and charming when I wasn't face to face.

I started to read the letter imagining Sweetie Belle's sweet voice in my head, emphasizing those cute little moments when her voice would seem to crack. This seemed strange as a good singer would have to have a very consistent voice and be able to reach all pitches without any mistakes. This is why, as I learned Sweetie Belle is actually voiced by Applebloom's voice actress when she sings. This really makes me start to think more, about this just being an extremely long and vivid dream. So much doesn't seem to add up about it all.

The letter read.

To my wonderful colt-friend
I miss you more then I can describe. I have been so bored at home on my own doing so many extra chores. But the good news is I only have a few more days of being grounded and then I can come and see you again. I managed to calm my sister down by telling her I was out late on a date and fell asleep, but don't worry, I made up that I was dating a colt from school my age. It was quite a difficult thing to do. I had to use all the allowance I had saved to convince Featherweight to go on a pretend date with me, he was very excited when he thought I was asking him out for real. I do feel kind of bad for getting his hopes up but I will just never be interested in anyone other then you. Anyway he had dinner with me and my sister and she seemed to buy it. So I'm free soon, YAY! I just really hope I don't have to keep this ruse up and keep bringing him home for pretend dates. I won't be able to afford it either.

Oh I know, I could just tell her later that he broke up with me and I can pretend to cry. I'm quite good at that, Rarity has taught me well about being dramatic. I'm also finally able to control a quill with my magic, my writing is still a bit messy, but it's much better then when I was writing with my teeth.

So anyway, can you please write back and give the letter to Applebloom to give to me at school, I am going crazy with not hearing from you.

Lots of kisses, your mare-friend forever and ever.
Sweetie Belle XXXOOO

I folded the letter back up. I wasn't sure what to feel. I was tired and felt conflicted. I had never had anyone express such strong feelings for me before, especially not someone I genuinely felt was out of my league in beauty. I really did want her, but I shouldn't want her.

I got up and sat at a desk with my own quill and paper and began to write a response. I was going to respond in a guarded way to not get her hopes up too much but let her know there was a possibility. I also decided it would be a good idea to let her know I'm still visiting Fluttershy and gauge her reaction.

Dear Sweetie Belle

I am very flattered that you have such strong feelings for me and that I am on your mind a lot. I am glad that I will get to see you again soon too. I do think you are jumping the gun a bit though in assuming we are a couple. You have tempted me very much with the offer and I think you are a very beautiful, fun and interesting filly, but I'd like to know you a bit deeper then that. I am definitely up for another date once you get out, so we can see how it goes.

In the meantime I hope you don't mind that I am still visiting Fluttershy to see if she is interested in a date. I haven't managed to ask her for one yet. She has a lot of anxious barriers I need to get through. If this makes you feel angry, please don't do anything rash. What you did to me before to get our date was very wrong Sweetie. It is called blackmail and if you are going to keep threatening me to be with you, then I am never going to be able to truly love you should we ever get into a relationship. I think you would rather convince me to be with you rather then another mare, without resorting to threatening me.

Finally I think your best option is to tell Rarity after you a back at school that Featherweight broke up with you. There is nothing worse then having to cover up a lie with more lies. Which if we do date there is going to be enough of them to deal with. I know you are a very kind and compassionate pony Sweetie and am very impressed with how carefully you considered poor Featherweight's feelings and didn't lead him on.

Anyway I wish you the best Sweetie Belle and hope I haven't upset you.

Mr. Human. Looking forward to seeing you again.

After finishing, I read back over it to make sure I was satisfied and folded it up. I will give it to Applebloom in the morning when I get a moment alone with her. If I go through with dating Sweetie Belle I will have to be careful not to do anything suspicious. I got back into bed and felt restless about the day when Sweetie would re-emerge as a potential cause of stress soon.

The next night there was another letter on my bed, ready to be opened and I felt dread in my stomach. I was worried that what I was going to read would be Sweetie telling me that she was mad and was going to tell everyone at her school I raped her or something. The letter this time looked a lot more plain and lacked the signs of being a lovey dovey letter as much as the last one. I was worried how much anger this would mean it would contain. I took a deep breath and opened it. There was no glitter this time and I quickly unfolded it and began to read, exhaling as I began.

To my soon to be colt-friend

I had a dream about you last night. I don't remember much, all I know is that you were there and I felt happier then I ever have in my life, even happier then the day I got my cutie mark.

Anyway, I understand that what I did was wrong and I will not do it again. I do not want to force you to love me, I just want the chance to prove to you that you already love me back. I know it's real and it's just the world that is mean and doesn't want to let us be together. When I made those threats I was devastated and was not thinking clearly. I felt guilty about it soon after, but it will work out best in the long run for both of us, you will see. I just could not let you walk away that day. I am sad that you are still trying to get Fluttershy to be your mare-friend, but I won't stand in your way. I will just have to prove to you once I have my chance with you again that I am the better pony. I am willing to do anything to prove it, anything.

Rarity has been lending me some of her romance novels and it just keeps making me think about you. It makes me jealous that we aren't already kissing and feeling each other's warmth in bed together. I really want to do that as soon as we are back together, can I try it please. Even if we never get to do more, I've never been kissed and I want my first time to be with you.

Ha ha Scootaloo would be calling me so sappy right now. Anyway I miss you heaps and I am counting down the days until my grounding is over.

Also, what is a gun?

With lots of Love.

Sweetie Belle. XXXOOO

I took a deep breath and exhale of relief. Not just that she wasn't mad, but that she doesn't appear to be the obsessive psychotic I feared. Obsessive yeah. But maybe rejecting her would be an option. Although, feeling so loved made me less and less resistant to the idea of just going through with it. I felt a bit sick that I was considering it. But it really would be my ultimate sexual fantasy come true. Sexual though... I would still need to make sure I could enjoy Sweetie Belle's company long term as a girlfriend... Plus consider if I really wanted a life of hiding away from being seen in public until she came of age. How would that even be possible?

I sat down again to write a letter back.

Dear Sweetie Belle.

I had a dream about you too on the night of our date after we fell asleep. You were in it too and I too felt happier then I ever had in my whole life.

A gun is something from my world, I still get mixed up about words that have no meaning in this world. Jump the gun is an expression. It means to just assume something is for sure when you can't be sure. Like how you are so sure we will end up together. I suppose you are right that I would really like that to happen. But we need more time to get to know each other, beyond just physical attraction. So when you get out we should talk more, I can tell you more about my world and you can tell me more about you.

As for you question about having a kiss. Yes I would like that very much. I have been thinking a lot about how nice it will feel too.

Oh and please do me a favor and destroy these letters. It would be very bad for both of us if these get into the wrong hands. Our dates must be in secret, that is very important to remember.

Mr. Human, Looking forward to that kiss. XXX

I wrote the comment about destroying the letters in small print just above my sign out as it occurred to me. I was already starting to feel paranoid about what I was doing and it was no doubt going to get worse as I would start taking greater and greater risks in the future. I grabbed both of Sweetie Belle's letters and started to rip them into shreds and then stuff the shreds into my pockets. The next time the Apple family lit their fireplace, I was going to dispose of them. It would be a shame, they already had sentimental value and if I could I would love to frame them and put them on my wall.

Tomorrow I was going to see Fluttershy again, would be my last chance before Sweetie Belle would be back. But for some odd reason I was finding my interest in Fluttershy was waning a bit. I really was having the cute little white filly enter my thoughts a lot more more in general. This could be bad I thought, I might be falling in love... But surely it's too early to know... I dunno...