Becoming Whole

by pertelote345

Rating: mature
Tags: Twilight Sparkle, Applejack, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Romance, Sex, Slice of Life
Length: 3447

Applejack and Twilight are madly in love, and want to make their relationship physical, but Applejack fears that her trans status will ruin everything. Can Twilight help her feel whole? A side story to Excuses... Excuses...

Applejack and Twilight are madly in love (even if they haven't said the word yet), and want to make their relationship physical. Unfortunately Applejack fears that her trans status will ruin everything. Can Twilight help her feel whole?

A side story to Excuses... Excuses...

This story will contain all of the chapters that require a Mature tag.

Published 2015-10-24 17:40:02 UTC
Last updated 2015-12-09 05:10:29 UTC

Examinations (Follows "Dark Thoughts")

I let Applejack inside. She was much more composed than before, but I could sense her tightened nerves...

Still, she was looking at me with genuine affection. "Twi... I'm so sorry for running off."

She was sorry? I waved my hooves frantically. "Applejack no! I'm the one who should be apologizing! I grabbed your flank! I have half a mind to march myself down to the guard station..."

She put a hoof on my shoulder, shaking her head. "Sugarcube, no. That's not it at all..." She raised an eyebrow. "You seriously thought touching someone's butt while you were makin' out with that someone was grounds for you gettin' locked up?"

I blushed... I mean. It sounded a little silly, but I really didn't know what I was doing when it came to physical affection. Besides, I didn't want to hurt her...

I gulped. That was the real problem. I'd hurt her and terrified her and I'd made her cry... I didn't want to, but I did.

She did the last thing I expected. She kissed me. It wasn't as passionate as the one from earlier, but it was loving... Caring.

I finally understood the term 'weak in the knees'.

When we parted she was trying really hard to smile. "Sugarcube, me bein' nervous about you touching me ain't got nothin' to do with you. I want you to touch my rump. I want you to touch all of me... It's just." She looked down. "I'm scared."

I reeled. There was a portion of my brain that was still fogged by lust and another portion that had ground to a halt due to conflicting data. "Wait, what? I thought you said you weren't scared of me."

She shook her head again. "No, no, no... I'm not scared of you, I'm scared of me." She looked around for a moment, as though making sure we were alone.

"Spike's out for the night." I confirmed.

She let out a breath. "Thank Celestia... Well, do you remember that time I told him 'Discord was in the details' when it came to my body?"

I blinked, finally getting the hint. Was... Was there something wrong with her genitalia? I had seen her vulva of course (Don't look at me like that, we were naked 90% of the time!) and I'd never noticed anything strange about it.

I was about to tell her just that when she held up a hoof. "It's not something obvious, I mean all the nurses said I was fine, it's just... The doctor didn't make it from mare parts... I... I ain't never been intimate with no pony before. I've been attracted of course and Celestia knows I have the desire... It's just... I'm scared."

Well... That wouldn't do. I lifted up Applejack's Chin. "Applejack! You are assuming I wouldn't like your genitals if I saw them up close, but I am my own mare and I'd ask that you let me make my own decisions."

My expression softened. "I care about you and I want you to feel safe around me. So if you never want me to go there I won't." I let out a breath. "But... If you want it... To be intimate with me that is... I'm not going to judge you. And I guarantee that nothing I see down there will make me feel any different about you."

There was a glimmer of hope in her eyes... But it didn't last long.

She turned away. "I mean, are y'all sure about that? I mean, it's really mostly fine and a hay of a lot better than..."

I rolled my eyes. I was not going to let her roll herself up in fears. "Applejack, I'm well aware of what ponies can and cannot do surgically with modern medical technology. With the standards of care in Equestria being what they are, I'm certain that your genitals are practically indistinguishable from my..."

Inspiration hit me. "That's it! I know just what we'll do!" I clopped my hooves together with glee.

Applejack looked lost. "Uh... Beg your pardon sugarcube?"

I put a hoof on her shoulder. "You're worried that your vagina is different from a cis vagina right? Well it just so happens I have a cis vagina! All we have to do is a thorough comparison! After that, if we've spotted any parts you still don't like, then as a magical prodigy and learned scientist I will research whatever I need to help... you..."

Okay, saying it out loud it sounded a bit... Off.

Applejack stared at me. "Let me get this straight... Y'all want to spend a huge heap of time taking extensive notes comparing our cooches for the sake of making me feel better?"

I looked away. "Um..."

I spread my legs out on my marefriend's bed. "You all set sugarcube?"

Twilight nodded, levitating a note-pad and quill along with what looked like a small mirror. She was thorough, I'll give her that.

I bit my lip, wondering if I should back out. I still had my tail tucked... Maybe if I just walked away she'd never have to see...

I shook that thought away. Darn it, I was tired of runnin'. A beautiful mare was going to help me get over my fears and that was that.

Twilight, blushed, climbing onto the bed next to me. "Okay... So... I guess we'll have to face opposite directions to see each other. Is... Is that okay?"

I nodded. Twi climbed on top of me, her rear hanging over me and her head by... By my vulva.

She looked down at me, levitating over the mirror. "Applejack? Are you ready?"

I nodded.

"Uh... Applejack? Are you okay?" Twi asked.

I blushed. Right, she couldn't see my head from here. "Y-yeah sugarcube. Just give me a sec..." This was it. Now or never...

I pulled back my tail.

Twilight gasped. "It's pretty!"

I almost snorted. That had not been the response I was expecting.

Twilight giggled with glee. "Oh my gosh your teats are bigger than mine, I'm jealous!"

The praise was doing wonders for my self confidence, but she was starting to do her little excited dance on top of me and the fibers in my face weren't exactly gentle.

Still, I chuckled... "Good to hear sugarcube... Would you mind gettin' this tail out of my eyes though?"

She stopped, embarrassed. "Oh! Of course! Sorry I'd forgotten..."

That said, she flagged her tail sky high.

I blushed crimson. This... This had not been what I meant.

But sweet Luna was I not complaining.

Twi's teats hung down from her crotch in perfect little half globes. She wasn't lying, mine were bigger... But dang hers were perfect.

Eventually I worked up the courage to look further back. Twilight's rear was something to write poetry about. It wasn't massive like Pinkie's or toned like Dash's, but there there was just this incredible unassuming sexiness about it.

Her vulva... pussy... cherry bush... dangit, there weren't no good words for it. It was a treasure to behold.

It struck me just how floral it looked. Her lips were just like two little purple petals wrapping around a thin pink rose...

It shimmered in the light... She was wet.

I felt a churning feeling in my stomach.

"Applejack? Are you okay?" Twi asked.

I bit my lip. "Yeah sugar cube... I already found a difference though. You're wet. I can't do that."

She ducked her head down, looking back at me. How in the hay did she manage to look so nice upside down? "Applejack, you're wet too."

I blinked at her. "Uh... Twi, the surgeon tried to do some stuff to encourage all that, but I don't feel no chill on my lips."

Twi looked frustrated. "But... But look!" She floated over her mirror and I got a good look at my vulva. It was a little different from Twi's on the outside, but it was mostly a matter of degree. Her lips were slight, elegant things, mine were... meatier.

That didn't bother me though. What did bother me is that while her lips glistened, mine were dry as a bone. I'd give Twilight that they'd puffed up a little bit and I felt a little looser than normal... but I definitely wasn't wet.

"Uh... Twi?" I asked.

She stuttered. "Just give me a second. I know you're lubricating, I can smell you..." Somehow she managed to blush harder. "Um... Applejack. Do I have your permission to... Spread you?"

I felt ice run down my spine. "Oh... Okay..."

I felt a surge of pleasure as a purple glow enveloped my privates. Twilight spread my lips delicately... Slowly... Maybe a little too slowly to be honest... But what I saw inside was a miracle.

My clit was out, even throbbing a little, and the rest of my lips... My labia minora were soaked. So was my meatus, my vagina... everything.

I stared at the mirror. This... This hadn't happened to me before. It...

It had never felt real before.

I felt tears pouring down my cheeks. "I... I have a vagina."

Twilight turned back around, smiling. "Yes, yes you do."

She kissed me, right through the tears. I was still crying, but it wasn't like before.

I knew the doctors said I could heal up... That maybe if I was really aroused it might happen... But I thought they'd just been tryin' to make me feel better.

Now I knew what I needed, I knew.

"I love you so much!" I cried.

She stared down at me.

Suddenly I was scared... We hadn't said that yet and it had just slipped out. Would she think I was-

She kissed me again. "I love you too Applejack..."

I stared at her... And all my doubts flew right out the window.

I pulled her to me, hugging her tight. Kissing her and touching her and having her touch me wherever she wanted.

We rubbed against each other... I felt my lower lips part on her thigh and hers did the same on mine as we slipped our legs between and embraced. I felt moisture build up, coating our legs with heady liquid. I felt my clit and my lips slide against her again and again...

Finally I felt a rolling wave of thunder pour through my being.

I'd had orgasms before, female orgasms even, but this was something different. I'm not going to lie and say it was the best I'd ever had, but I didn't care! I knew down in my soul we'd be having more... Together....

I don't know how many times I came. I think Twilight lost track too... Finally we just kind of petered out... falling against each other in a lump.

We were messy, panting as the sweat cooled.

I could actually feel a wet spot beneath us... But at that point neither of us cared too much about the laundry.

She took me in her hooves, brushing my mane... For a moment everything was perfect.

"I love you." She whispered.

I smiled. "I love you too..."

What is Natural (takes place after 'What Dreams May Come')

I woke up, before Applejack to an annoying, somewhat crampy feeling and sighed.

Well, I knew it was coming and it's not like I even had it that bad if the stories my friends mentioned were true. I pulled up my mental checklist.

Remind yourself that everything's okay
Cast the lovely analgesic spell they taught you in health class
Supplement analgesic spell with a small dose of acetaminophin
Insert a tampon and double check the extras in your saddle bag
Re-remind yourself that everything's okay and carry on with your life unfazed

Satisfied I had everything under control, I slipped away to the bathroom to take care of things. A spell, a pill, a tampon and some cleanup later I couldn't say I was back to 100%, but I'd say I was at least at 88.5%.

I slipped gently back into bed. AJ promplty curled herself around me. It was enough to get me to a 95.2%.

Oh hush, I like measuring things, don't make me break out the algorithm.

Applejack let out a warm, tingly breath on the back of my neck and nuzzled me. "Hey beautiful... Ah don't suppose I could interest you in an... 'extended study session' could I?"

I blushed... And then frowned when I realized that wasn't going to happen. I let out a sigh and gave AJ an applogetic hug. "I'm sorry Applejack... I just started my period."

My marefriend tensed. "Oh... Okay..."

Something was off... I rustled the covers turning to her. "AJ are you okay? I mean, if you really want to, I wouldn't mind..."

My marefriend shook her head. "No, no... It ain't like that Twi it's just..." She looked away, "It ain't important. Why don't we double check your checklist for all the things we need to do before Cadence and Shining show up?"

Okay, now I knew something was wrong. She hadn't even mentioned breakfast. I pulled her in close. "AJ, I love you. Whatever is bothering you I care about it."

She bit her lip. "It's nothin' just..." She tried to look anywhere but at me.

"I'm... I'm a little jealous." She said finally.

I blinked at her. "Of what?"

She blinked back. "Uh... You know, your period. I don't get to have those."

I stared at her. "What?" My mind was firing in all directions. That didn't make any sense! Periods sucked! The only positive thing that could be said about them was that they were a necessary part of the mamalian reproductive cyc...

And then I had it. I squeezed her with all my might. "AJ, I... I..."

My marefriend chuckled ruefully, gently stroking my back. "It's alright sugar cube. If I was in a wheelchair I wouldn't be complainin' every time I saw someone walking by. The whole gettin' pregnant thing, that's just something awesome that you can do."

She kissed me, warmly and happily on the forehead. Sometimes I liked those better than the ones on my mouth. "And for the record, if y'all are one of those girls who feel gross instead of doing that whole 'orgasmic relief of symptoms' thing I ain't never gonna force you."

I tilted my head. "Huh? What 'orgasmic relief of symptoms' thing?"

AJ looked lost. "Y'all don't know about that? When a pony with a uterus is on their period some find that orgasms are a good way to relieve the pain and stress. It makes sense when you think about it what with all the endorphins being released and all. On the flip side, some ponies get extra cramping due to the musculature rippling, but it's one of those 'your mileage may vary' deals."

I stared at her. Coming from anypony else I would have taken it as a transparent ploy to get me into bed, but with AJ..."That... That's actually kind of fascinating. Where did you learn about that?"

My marefriend blushed. "Ah... Ah may have read a few gynecology textbooks back in the day... Ya' know, dreaming of what could be?"

I will admit that was an area of my studies I hadn't given much thought. It was definitely interesting to see Applejack's scholarly side though, even if the motivation for learning came from a dark place. I nuzzled her neck, "You'll have to show me those sometime."

She snorted. "Ironically they're probably piled in with all those other books in the shed."

I smiled... Celestia she was warm against my fur. "Fascinating, all the more reason to keep digging into those books... Although, I think in this case experimentation would be more appropriate."

AJ's face lit up... But after a moment she frowned and gave me a more serious look. "Twi, the whole 'sex during your period' thing is just something I read about years back. Ah have no idea if it'll actually do any good."

I raised an eyebrow. "Did your research indicate any chance of serious complications?"

She shook her head. "No... They emphasized it was safe, but it hurt for some mares." She looked grim. "Twi I really don't want to hurt you."

I chuckled. "AJ, if you hurt me by accident while we're trying something I asked to do, then it's my fault, seriously aren't you curious?"

I could practically see the gears turning in her head for a moment. Finally Applejack blushed. "Okay sugarcube... but I'm gonna take this slow."

I nodded... And then I spread my legs.

The sudden musk that filled the room finally got AJ going. Without any further pretense she slid herself down my barrel, rubbing me gently with her hooves. She stopped at one of my teats and gave it a tentative lick.

A surprising jolt of pleasure shot through me, and I let out a gasp. Applejack looked up concerned. "Are you okay sugarcube?"

I nodded. "Sorry... I guess the whole cycle thing has made them a bit... Tender. Just be gentle okay?"

She nodded, eyeing the pink nipples poking out of my fur warily. She slid out her tongue and gave one a tiny touch.

Which I couldn't feel. At all.

I sighed. "Okay... This is going to take some calibrations."

My marefriend blinked... Sweet Celestia she was super adorable with her hair down draping over my legs... but I couldn't let that distract me! "Try increasing the force of your licks slowly okay?" I said more clearly. "I'll let you know when you hit the optimal tongue intensity."

AJ snorted.

I raised an eyebrow. "What?"

She snickered. "Sorry, that was just so 'you' a way of saying it. Hang on." She started licking, tenderly, slowly sliding her tongue over my nipple. I Iet out a quiet gasp from the pleasure as as started sucking on my teats. I felt tiny bits of milk start to flow out of me and Applejack wasn't even phased.

My breathing was heavy, my vulva was burning. "C-can you go lower?"

The farm pony nodded, giving me a wink in that cute little freckly way. She slid down to my vulva. It was practically steaming.

She touched the tampon string hanging out of me lightly with her hoof. "I'm guessin' I should avoid your vagina for now?"

I imagined for a moment what Applejack would look like after doing that and shook my head. "W-why don't you stick to the rest of me okay?"

She nodded, understanding instantly. Sometimes there were serious advantages to dating another mare.

She traced her tongue over my lips and I felt myself clamping down on my tampon. I'd braced myself for some kind of pain, but there was... nothing. Nothing but pleasure.

She touched my clitoris with her tongue, ever so lightly...

A spike of pleasure shot into me. Celestia I needed more!

She looked up at me, giving me a playful smirk. "Calibrations sugar cube?"

"Oh goddess yes!"

She started licking me harder, then changed to sucking. she was sucking my clitoris.

I let out a full on moan as she drew me out, the pleasure rolling off me in waves. Her tongue rubbed against my nub while while she sucked, giving me just that bit of texture I needed.

I didn't last long. My vagina spasmed and I nearly screamed as wave after wave of ecstasy rolled over me like a tidal wave.

I collapsed, wrapping my legs around my lover.

Sure enough, my cramps felt a heck of a lot better.

That warm, apple scented mare slid up to me and we kissed, long and lovingly. "You feelin' alright sugar cube?" she asked.

I hugged her tight. "I'm at like 102% right now. That really works! Thank you." I gave her another kiss, wondering what I could do to make it up to her... Then I felt a devious smile slide up my face. I could smell my girlfriend's arousal clear as day after all. "You know... I still haven't helped you with your period."

She blinked. "Uh Twi, we just went over this I can't have-"

I put a hoof to her lips, giving her a wink. "Now now Applejack there's nothing to be ashamed of. With all the time we've spent together it's only natural for our cycles to sync up." I slid down my marefriend's belly and snuggled myself into her ample, pillowy teats.

Applejack let out a little moan, a little smile finally curling onto her lips. "We-well, I suppose if you insist. Lord knows I'm uh... crampin' somethin' awful?"

I gave her teat a playful, teasing lick. "Don't worry dear. I know just the cure..."