Am I Still A Monster?

by Mister Phoenix

Rating: teen
Tags: Slice of Life, Alternate Universe, Sad
Length: 1596

After the events of the past Scootaloo begins to questions the only thing that matters "Am I still a monster?"

Sequel: The Mare In The Woods

"I feel it deep within,
It's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become
The nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster" - Skillet

Scootaloo watched the world spin as she get kicked around because of one small thing. Freak, monster, beast. Every name they called her was true as she begins to question it herself.

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2015-11-22 03:00:02 UTC

Am I Still A Monster?

The sky darken with the black clouds looming in the sky as the rain poured heavily onto the now cold and wet grass. As thunder rumbled though the sky to send a warning at lighting was on it way. As Scootaloo stood in place in the middle of the terrible storm as she ether doesn't notice or doesn't care. Red hot flame surround the pegasus filly as she kept her eyes closed with a small but terrifying grin on her face.

Scootaloo open her eyes lids as she looked around the empty field with her yellow eyes. There she stood alone in the cold rain pouring onto her coat as her eyes drifted to her left seeing a cold and lifeless body.

"It weird I almost feel sorry for you" Scootaloo said as she looked at the non-moving body "But. Now I see your nothing but a pointless fangirl" she said as she rolled her eyes moving away from the body on the ground.

"Now. It time for Equestria to meet the end. With me running the show" she said as she let out a sinner laugh.

Scootaloo shot awake as she saw the moon only at 11:30pm as she sighed seeing her refection. Seeing her normal purple eyes looking back at her.

"It looks like another sleepless night" Scootaloo said as she lay back down and watch the night sky. "Why am I still having nightmare? It makes no sense I'm no longer connected to Inspiration Manifestation so why does this happen?" She asked knowing her answer would come.

The sun rose as it alerted everypony for a brand new day. As Scootaloo looked outside with her tired eyes as she fought to keep them open. Knocking on the front door of her house woke the pegasus filly with a start.

Scootaloo open the door to see her best friends standing there. On the right side was Sweetie Belle while on the left side was Apple Bloom.

"Scoots ya look terr..." she said before before Sweetie Belle bummed her to say something else "...Great, ya look great!"

"You don't have to lie to me I couldn't get to sleep last night" Scootaloo said as Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle remained silent "Is everypony still afraid...Are they still afraid of me?" She said as Sweetie and Apple Bloom looked over at each other.

"Don't worry Scootaloo. I'm 99.9% sure that everypony has forgotten" Sweetie Belle said proudly

"Oh yeah what about that 1% I'm not sure that I like it" Scootaloo said making the other let out a small laugh.

"Please. Trust me, I know what I'm doing" Sweetie Belle said as the Cutie Mark Crusaders open the door to the class room.

Silent fell the room as everypony looked at them. As Scootaloo knew that they was all looking at her, dropping her head in disappointment with a sign if disappear.

"I'll sit at the back" she said as she made her way to the back of the class room as one voice broke the silent room.

"Miss Cheerilee, but I thought this was a class for fillies and colt. Not monsters?" Diamond Tiara asked as Scootaloo watched Miss Cheerilee as she answered the question

"That true. I'm sorry Scootaloo but..." she said as Scootaloo walked back to the door.

"Yeah, I know no monsters" she said before leaving the class room with the door slamming to alert the entire class that somepony has left.

Scootaloo walked though Ponyville as she watched them looking at her. Mocking her, afraid to say what they thought out loud. She didn't and couldn't blame them she would be doing the same thing in they hooves.

"Oh, does poor Scootaloo feel all sad and bad for herself?"A voice asked as the orange pegasus looked around to see no pony around her or talking.

"Show yourself!" She ordered

"Turn to your right I'm right there" the voice said as Scootaloo did what the voice said just to look into a mirror. With one thing off her yellow eyes looked into her purple ones.

"Who are you?" She asked as her reflection laughed

"I'm you, well half of you anyway. Your evil side the best side in my own right but whatever" Empress Scootaloo said as Scootaloo looked at her in confusion

"What do you mean? I been disconnected from  Inspiration Manifestation. I no longer have anymore powers"

"Oh, how wrong you are. Do you really think The Monster Handbook would locks us away in limbo if we didn't have any powers?" Empress Scootaloo asked

"Well no...But" Scootaloo said to be cut off by her reflection

"Search yourself and find what's hidden. Scootaloo and use it. Don't be afraid use it to complete our plan to burn Equestria in flames" Empress Scootaloo said

"NO!!" Scootaloo yelled in rage as she punched the mirror as it broke into a million piece. With blood falling out of her hooves.

"See your rage is growing. Soon our plan will start back up again" Empress Scootaloo said before disappearing.

Sweetie Belle walked though Ponyville as she passed a broken mirror with blood on the ground. Piece's of glass around the ground blocked off of other ponies safety. Sweetie Belle looked at the ground as the blood connected to the glass.

"Scootaloo" she whispered as she ran from the ruin mirror.

The wind blewed the leaf's off the tree's as other leaf's stayed on as it blewed right. The blue ocean hit the side of cliff with sharp rocks closed to the cliff side.

Scootaloo watched the wave's hits the side of the cliff over and over again. Scootaloo watched the tides come in over and over. Thinking, waiting on what might happen if she tries to do what she thinking of doing.

"Hey Scootaloo!" Sweetie Belle cried as she ran over to the flightless pegasus as the unicorn filly sat next to her on the grassy field "What's going on?" She asked

"Seven days. It been one whole week since that day. You know Sweetie you have some bad idea's in the past. But your biggest one was you should have kept me locked in limbo" Scootaloo said as Sweetie Belle looked over at her shocked.

"Come on Scootaloo I'm your friend..."

"That it! Every time you say that my heart brake's even more. I know I don't deserve you but..." Scootaloo said as Sweetie Belle covered her mouth with her hoof.

"Stop talking. Alright I still love you but I'm waiting into you stop being an idiot and see that you're no longer a monster" Sweetie Belle said re-moving her hoof from Scootaloo mouth.

"Then why can I still do this?" She said as she created flames, shooting out of her hoof. Scootaloo turned to Sweetie Belle with her yellow eyes there for a few seconds and then gone. "I still have my yellow eyes"

"Maybe you can control it? Like use your powers for good, or do what Looker does and use it to get free pizza and make Rarity not anger at him anymore" Sweetie Belle said

"I would love too but what if I can't control it, I don't want to hurt you anymore Sweetie." Scootaloo said as Sweetie Belle nodded

"So you don't want to hurt to me?" She asked in a tone that doesn't need to be answered "So teaching me how to dance under the stars bad, setting up a whole two minute date to fit in with my busy weekend bad"

"That not I'm saying I'm saying that..."

"No your not saying anything, your letting others say it for you. You let them call you a monster the real question is do you still so?" Sweetie asked as Scootaloo looked away from her to think.

"Am I still a monster?" She question out loud "No, I'm not sure I tried to hurt my sister and burn Equestria and then hurt you...Who am I kidding I am still a monster. I forever will be a monster. I just be forever broken" Scootaloo said as Sweetie Belle wrapped her in a hug.

"I must confess that I feel like a monster"

"What? No, no, no, no. Scootaloo don't think about yourself that way" Sweetie Belle said to her to try and calm her down.

"You know why I'm here?" Scootaloo asked the unicorn as Sweetie Belle didn't answer but just shook her head to say 'no.' "Look down"

Sweetie Belle heard those words. Afraid to see why her pegasus friend real reason on being here was. Sweetie Belle looked down at the bottom of the cliff side to see the sharp and dangerous rocks as she turned to Scootaloo slowly.

"Why?" She question as Scootaloo looked her in the eyes

"To make Ponyville safe again. Equestria would be a better place without me in it anymore"

"But...That not true think you said that you didn't want to hurt me anymore but what your thinking is killing me" Sweetie Belle said.

"What do you think I should do? I'm scared Sweetie. I'm scared of my other half"

"I don't know Scootaloo. I don't know, all I know is that this take's time. Don't give up yet Scootaloo"

"Why?" Scootaloo question

"Because I love you" Sweetie Belle said as she leaned on her watching the Equestria by the edge of the cliff side.

"I'll think it would be better for everypony if we stayed strangers" Scootaloo said as she began walking away from Sweetie Belle "Don't Follow me" she spoke walking into the Everfree Forest.