Penance

I watched tia release the last snowflake we had and the first one my best and only friend made. yet deep inside my sadness i felt guilt knowing what truly happened to snowdrop all those years ago……..1000 years ago “shut up!” i screamed ,snowdrop was giving me one of her talks about how much she loved and heard my night “you can't even see it” i yelled at the shivering teenage pegasus in front of me then nothing but pain ,when it ended my sadness was gone but replaced with a deep blistering rage and deep burning desire to conquer and rule equestria, i looked around at the room i was in and saw celestia and a crying snowdrop, my eyes narrowed at celestia as i shot beam of magic at her she immediately flew through the hole i made in the roof but i gave chase. right as i had her cornered and was shooting a beam that would lead to her death snowdrop grabbed my wing ,instead i unleashed the power in my charged up horn towards her and she screamed then fell down down down into the ruins that were my home, then i hit celestia with a beam sending her crashing against the pedestal that the elements rested on. i smirked and charged at her preparing to end her once and for all the last things i saw was her grabbing the elements blasting me and seeing her pink mane turn tri colored ,end of flashback Celestia smiled at me are you okay? she asked I'm fine just remembering what happened 1000 years ago i sighed ,hey none of that was your fault now how about you go relax or sleep i'll wake you up to raise the moon and lower it and cancel night court she offered, kay thanks tia i said walking into my room i carefully locked the door and frowned at the state my new room was in i still didn't have the time to fix it up after tia added a balcony and fixed the tile and got a nice bathroom for me .none of it was decorated though so i decided to start decorating 3 hours later the room was nice and perfectly to my taste ,but i was still bored then i heard a quick knock at my door i yelled out i know it's time for the sunset out to the pony who was surely my sister i opened the door to my balcony and proceeded to raise the moon then i had an idea i never properly said goodbye to my late friend so i gathered a few letters i wrote to her while the nightmare left me alone while on the moon and proceeded to walk down to celestia's memorial gardens and say goodbye and slowly i approached the glass magic enhanced casket i proceeded to beg for forgiveness and cry at her grave my teardrops staining my letters to her i left the letters in her hands while enhancing the spell that hid her wounds from the outside world eventually i lowered the moon but decided to stay with my best friend a little longer then i felt a hand on my sholder thinking it was celestia i batted it away but then i looked up and saw snowdrop she smiled at me and after i begged her forgiveness she just laughed saying it was no big deal and she forgave me long ago we proceeded to have a good time until she gave me a parting gift of sorts it was a glass alicorn with a snowflake trapped in the middle she told me she carved the snowflake to help me get over my sadness she then said goodbye and said she had to go but before she left she took a photo of us together and gave it to me she then flew away into the sky. when i left the memorial gardens it was time to raise the moon but i felt something hard under me  it was the alicorn figure! i then looked at the coffin and there was the photo! i was astonished how could she have contacted me through death but then i realized i didn't care i was just happy she forgave me. that night i raised the moon with a light heart and smile on my muzzle for the first time since i returned.