Fluttering storms/ turmoil
She had faced down a dragon, and scolded a cockatrice, beating it at its staring game. All those times I had conquered my fear.
But it had been different with Discord.
When we changed him to stone, he screamed/ cried/ called out in pain / agony until his body was cemented, and he sought to fight it. To me, his awkward posture was anything but funny. He had terrorized Ponyville for the longest time that day, and Equestria before that, but who were we to decide his fate? I'd never thought to question the princess before this. I barely questioned her in this as it was, only, I felt that there could have been more for us to do. Wasn't friendship the answer to everything? Hadn't the elements returned Nightmare Moon back to her former glory as princess beside her sister once again?
It was tear wrenching the thought that we had made the wrong call, that I had been wrong. And then there were his cries. Yet, I couldn't do anything to help that wounded creature.
Besides, those other animals had been innocent compared to the self proclaimed "Lord of chaos". Right?
I kept trying to tell myself this, to convince myself and block out the guilt. But nothing was working, even Twilight couldn't understand why it bothered me so much.
"Discord is a villain Fluttershy, there's no need to pity him."
It didn't take me long to figure out I was the only one to feel regret, and even pity for this turn of events.
I hated what Discord did to me...to all of us, but did he really deserve his stone prison and the agony I heard in his voice as he loosed a desperate and shrill cry before his throat was converted to the inanimate rock he was soon to become. Again.
Instead of dwelling on it however, I pushed it out of my thoughts. It was pointless.
What was done was done. His fate had been sealed thanks to the elements. Thanks to us. Thanks to me.
And I'm going to live with this decision for the rest of my life.
It was pointless, I told myself, yet I never completely convinced myself of that.
And that is how I, Fluttershy, the embodiment of kindness, got the idea, and came to entreat the Princess of the sun, ruler of all Equestria, to let me reform this great enemy of ours.
It seemed that I was not alone in my belief that Discord could indeed be changed. I got my answer only a fortnight after my letter was sent, a couple days after it had been received. Celestia said she knew that if any of the elements could reach his stone heart, it would be me. I was flattered, and I let this blind me into trying to live up to her faith in my abilities. I must have done well to cover up that selfish reason behind my actions, because Discord hardly noticed. But by that point I was entirely genuine as I had been initially with my hope.
Then he went against his promise to me. The thing was, I still refused to break my part, I just couldn't even if it no longer mattered. It was not for the princess then, it was for the one I thought was my friend. I hadn't been lying, sure he broke my promise, but everypony makes mistakes, and he was new to friendship. he had come along way, I had seen it. My friends still hadn't though. I guess I should have been stricter with Discord, he had been testing the boundaries then, seen just how much he could get away with, just like he had been doing during our dinner party. He hadn't been causing any real trouble then, but Rainbow Dash was being rude. So I chose to let it go. He still didn't see me as a friend then, but when I declared that he was, and that I would stand with him, he started to take me more seriously.
Maybe I shouldn't have promised to never use my element against him. I thought maybe if I showed that I trusted him.. I had my doubts, and I am sad to say that he proved them right. I chose him over my friends' judgement. I still wouldn't break my promise though, even if there was no real point in keeping it anymore. He hadn't realized it then, but I had been really hurt by that small betrayal. I thought I could show him friendship, but he showed me that it would take a lot more than kindness to get through to him. He offered me skates to placate me. We were freinds after all, he just wanted to skate with me. If it had been some other location, for instance, some naturla occurign lake, and not Apple HJack' sThat's when he started bragging. but I suppose I reformed him when he finally saw all that I had done in an effort to befriend him.
I was the one they congratulated when really, Discord reformed himself. I wore him down and broke his heart, but in the end, it was his choice.
I regret my blindness at the start, though I can't complain, just as I can't go back and time to change any of this.
I am Fluttershy, the nearer of the element of kindness, I'm no longer sure I can call myself the embodiment of it anymore. Then again, I don't think the Princess would lie... well, at least I know I can trust the Tree of Harmony anyway.
I am Fluttershy, and I don't embody kindness anymore than any other pony in Equestria, and I didn't reform Discord, he reformed himself. I wouldn't have made such an impression of he had been unwilling to change. I believe that he had some part of him that secretly sought excrpted, thay wanted to have someone care about him. He struck out with his chaos, not that that was the answer, being a bully never accomplishes anything, but he was only hurt, and so he never learned to mind other ponies, because nopony told him any different. He thought his chaos magic wad good, and everypony just needed to get used to it because that was the way he wanted things to be. He was in control. He never truly hurt anypony upon his releasing, however, I'm not sure he could claim the same for the period before then. I don't think I want to know either, so he can keep his past behind him, I wont pry it from him. Especially because I'm not sure how much of it I could handle, and besides, all that is behind him now. If like to think so anyhow, only time will truly tell.
I only have him the chance to prove he could be kind. I only gave him a gentle push in the right direction. If the Tree of Harmony proclaims kindness as my element, then I guess I have no room to argue.
