Bottled emotions

by Angerangel

Rating: teen
Tags: Slice of Life, Twilight Sparkle, Sad, Main 6, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Spike, Rainbow Dash, Rarity, Romance
Length: 4464

Spike bottled up his emotions for long enough...no more,as he unleashes his feelings to rarity and his emotions to everypony

These past months had been absolutely terrible for spike...
Spike has bottled up his emotions for long enough.. As a storm hits ponyville, spike is stuck with rarity alone and that's where spike decides to release them...

Published 2015-12-19 19:30:02 UTC
Last updated 2016-03-17 22:37:35 UTC

Let it go

Spike was lying on his bed, buried under his thoughts..

''Spike,....!'' Twilight's voice made spike snap out,

Spike sighed and opened his eyes ''What twilight..?''

Twilight poked her head into spike's room ''You ready to go?''

Spike raised an eyebrow and looked at twilight ''Ready to go where,...?''

''Uhh to Carousel boutique..Rarity said last night that the dress will be ready for today, don't you remember?,''

Spike got off his bed, hunched his back stretched his arms and walked out of his room without saying anything.

''Spike,..are you still angry about last night.?...you know we can talk about it,''

Spike stopped walking, he grinding his teeth in anger and looked back at twilight ''AS A MATTER OF FACT TWILIGHT, I AM ANGRY. AND NO THANKS, I AIN'T GONNA TALK ABOUT IT WITH YOU,... SO JUST DROP IT!'' spike turned back and walked away,

Spike slammed the castle's door and leaned on it, he looked at the sky, big black and gray clouds were getting to surround ponyville ''Well you don't see this every day...'' spike took a deep breath in and exhaled and began to walk.

On his way spike thought to him self ''Since this will be the last time,i better get her something sweet,..flowers...Flowers would be nice,She'll like that.'' spike went and bought some flowers on his way.

after a few minutes of walking, spike got to Rarity's boutique.

''Here we go,...'' spike whisperd to him self.

*KNOCK!* *KNOCK!* *KNOCK!*

''Come in,..'' rarity's voice came from inside the house.

Spike opened the door and walked in ''He,...Hey rarity it's me spike.''

Rarity came down from the stairs ''Oh,Darling you don't have to knock, you're always welcome in here.''

spike smiled and got closer to rarity, he handed her the flowers ''Uh rarity, i brought you these,..Hope you like them.''

''Oh spikey,...you didn't have to,...These are beautiful,'' Rarity levitated the flowers and smelled them.

''Well, they can't be compared to your beauty.''

Rarity blushed ''Oh spikey wikey, you always know the right thing to say.''

spike scratched back of his head ''So ummm.., is the dress ready?''

''Oh right darling,let me go get it.'' Rarity went to her room and got the dress,

''So what do you think?'' rarity showed the sparkly purple dress with golden lines she made, to spike

''It's beautiful rarity,your works are great as always,im sure twilight will love it..'' rarity smiled and got the dress into a cover and gave it to spike,

''Well, Rarity i better head off now, i know you are busy and got better things to do than chatter with me..''

''Oh no darling i'm not that busy, if you want you can stay..''

''Thanks rarity, maybe another time,..'' spike went to open the door, as soon as he opened it the wind blew so hard it pushed both of them back , rarity closed the door with her magic.

rarity got up and looked out of the window,''Well darling i think you're going to stay here for a while, it's a storm outside!''

''Well,good thing it didnt happen while i was getting back...'' Spike rolled his eyes.

''Umm darling, im going to make some tea would you like some?''

Spike nodded ''Sure,that would be nice,..''

Rarity went to the kitchen ''So,....how's things going for you darling?''

Spike sighed ''Well just like last night rarity.same old same old..nothing special, doing daily chores and works for twilight as always...'' rarity nodded.

the house went silent, while they both were drinking their tea. only wind and raindrops echoed through the boutique,Spike was thinking about to tell her, but he couldn't...it wasn't the right time.

''Ummm spikey darling, if you don't mind im going upstairs to work on my dresses, and since you don't get bored, i'll get you one of favorite books for you to read.''

''Okay rarity,...'' as spike sat on the couch rarity went up stairs to her room, she opened her drawers to find the book.

''now where's that book,...'' she whispered to her self, as she began to open the drawers, she saw something that she haven't seen for a long time... the necklace that she carved out from spike's fire ruby

''Oh my...'' rarity paused,she just stood there for a while thinking about all the memories of spike rushing to her,

''Uhhh, rarity you ok,?'' spike asked rarity confused.

rarity snapped out, and closed the drawer as she saw the dragon in her room ''YES...,every things fine darling,.. why do you ask?...'' rarity looked nervous.

''Nothing,.. you just stopped making sound for a while, so i came to check if every thing was alright,...so did you find the book?'' rarity opened the other drawer,

''Ahhhh, here it is.'' she levitated the book and gave it to spike.

'', seems cool,...'' spike began to look at the pages,

''I Liked it pretty much, i don't know what your tastes are in books, but i sure hope you like it darling.''

''Ok thanks rarity,...and by the way, if you need help with any thing just tell me.''

rarity smiled ''Sure thing darling,''

spike went down stairs sat on the couch and began to read the book.

Hours passed and night came, the storm outside had gotten easier,

Rarity came down from the stairs ''Spikey darling, you hungry?''

spike lowered the booked ''Wow,rarity i gotta say this book isn't bad at all.. i mean it has a strong interesting storyline and solid characters,i just lost the track of time...And yes rarity, i am abit hungry.''

Rarity smiled ''Glad you like it, so let me make us some dinner.''

spike got off the couch ''Hey,.. let me come and help.''

Rarity replied ''No no no,you are my guest, and as a guest you shall not interfere!''

''But,...'' Rarity shushed the dragon,

''No buts spike,....'' she went to the kitchen and began to cook, spike went back sitting on the couch and red the book,

''Dinner is ready spikey,..'' spike walked to the kitchen as he saw rarity sat up an great dinner with candles on the table, she brought spike a dish of gems and rubies ..

Spike gasped ''Oh, wow rarity...you didn't have to,...This is so great,thanks!''

''My pleasure spikey wikey'' rarity smiled.

The two of them sat and began to eat.

''So...rarity how's things going for you?'' spike asked rarity,

''Well darling it's not going bad at all.. i'm not expecting much, but it's going very well...'' spike nodded.

The room went silent again as rarity broke it ''So spike last night wasn't that bad, right...??''

spike chuckled ''Yeah right,...''

rarity looked at spike ''Spike you know rainbow dash didn't actually mean any of that,..you know her, she always jokes around '' spikes face turned frowny

Spike sighed ''Rarity,...i am thinking of leaving Ponyville,tomorrow. and get far away from all of you..''

Rarity got surprised and gasped ''Wha..what?...Why spikey ? only for a simple ridiculous thing, that rainbow dash and the others said? Don't be silly darling...''

spike tried to control him self.. but he couldn't any more, he had to let it go now, he has bottled these emotions for long enough... now it was the time to release them...

''A SIMPLE RIDICULOUS THING?...rarity you don't know how miserable i am,...you don't know how it feels to be left out,...you don't know how it feels like when everypony looks at you that you are some kind of monster....FOR CRYING OUT LOUD, i saved the crystal empire and i don't even get invited to places, no pony even gives a crap about me,...you know what's funny? even my friends see me as a stupid baby dragon,what should i expect from everypony else,. i'm LIKE A SLAVE to you all....'' rarity was left wordless and sad looking at the dragon

''Spike....I,..'' rarity tried to say something, but nothing came out.

''Spike i what rarity?,...You know last night, when rainbow dash told me that i am a stupid baby dragon who can't love and i dont understand alot of things,..no pony disagreed except you,...i mean even twilight was agreeing and laughing to that. I was so ANGRY THA...I SWEAR TO CELESTIA if it wasn't for you rarity, i would've punched rainbow dash right in the face....And yet,i am worthless to you rarity, i mean i did every thing for you... still you wont notice my feelings,...you are just a blind high expecting little pony who's living in a dream of fantasy. you only are looking for dumb stupid stallions that are actual idi...''

Rarity got off from her chair angry, and slapped spike on the face.

''GET OUT OF MY HOUSE SPIKE!'' rarity yelled while tears coming out of her eyes.

spike got out from the kitchen,

Spike turned back and looked at rarity ''You can yell at me, hit me, break my stupid worthless heart rarity,...but all i ever wanted for you was to be happy..Rarity i love so much that i sacrificed my body for you, i would give my life for you, i know i am a young dragon but the things i've done for you, no pony will ever do. Still i am a piece of trash to you,..BUT still i will love you'' spike grabbed the dress and got out of the boutique, Rarity fell down on the floor crying.

the storm was over, only a cold windy breeze blew outside, spike stopped walking, kneeled downed and yelled loud as he could,...he fell over and laid on the grass, looking at the mid cloudy night sky for minutes, he felt like he lost a heavy weight on his back,unbottling his emotions...,still he needed to tell everypony how he felt spike wanted to leave ponyville,...spike got up and walked to the castle.

Spike opened the door and walked in.

''Spike,..? is that you?..'' twilight's voice came,

''Yeah,..and i brought your stupid dress,..'' spike threw the dress on the floor.

''Hey,easy spike,.... so where were you?,..'' twilight looked confused and annoyed.

''What do you think?,...i was at rarity's, storm came i had to stay there...And i'm in no mood to talk, so good night...!'' Spike went to his room and closed his door.

''Good night spike,...'' twilight whispered as he levitated the dress off the ground.

Spike lied on his bed,he rubbed his face where rarity slapped ''DARN IT rarity,...you do have a strong hoof...''

Spike sighed ''One down, Five more to go...'' he whispered to him self and went to sleep.

'

Good bye

Spike opened his eyes slowly,his room was still dark but the sun was rising. he rolled over and looked at the clock, it was 5 am. Part of him didn't want to leave the bed and go back to sleep but it was time for him to go now. spike yawned and got up,he rubbed his eyes and went to the corner of his room and picked up his backpack, he opened his drawer and picked all of his gems and coins he earned through all of these years and told him self ''These are enough for me to get all around,..''

Spike threw all of them into his back pack, he then picked up the quill and paper and began to write,

''Twilight,...

From the moment i was hatched, you took care of me,you were the one who gave me a shelter and taught me every thing...

For that, i always will be greatful to such had an amazing caretaker.you were, and you are the only family that i have,but it's time for me to go now.

these past months i came to realize the emptyness within me,all of you are finding your place and achieving stuff..but as for me,there isn't any to be achieved just same old thing over and over again,what's the point of it,So i decided to leave and go find the purpose of my life.

From the begining i was a mistake,and i was born a mistake...i think it's better off without a dragon living among you all.

Twilight,i wish you from the bottom of my heart the best of luck and a happy life.

-Good bye!

Your number one assistant and brotherlike dragon,Spike.''

Spike got the piece the of paper and put it on his table,he walked out of his room and closed his door.spike went to the kitchen and made a delicious breakfast for twilight with a note on the plate beside the breakfast
''Twilight i'm going out, i have some stuff to do. dont get worried...''

Spike opened twilight's room and put the plate on her table,she was sleeping..Spike got closer and went to look at her for the last time.

Spike whispered ''Sorry twilight,..but this has to be done. i know it'll be hard for you, but you will get over it.'' spike took a last glance at the alicorn and got out her room

Spike went to the library and picked up two books and shoved them into his backpack,he sighed and went to castle's door.as spike got to the door, he turned back and looked at the castle for one last time.he gave a look at the clock it was 7 am, he had to leave now before twilight woke up.

Spike got out of the castle and headed to sugarcube corner to eat pinkie's cakes for breakfast..

Spike walked in and saw pinkie baking,pinkie turned back and saw the dragon in her bakery ''Hey spike! whats up?''

spike sat on a booth and looked at pinkie coldly and replied ''Nothing,..just came here to eat some pie for breakfast.''

Pinkie got closer and looked at spike ''Hmmmm..alot of negativity coming out of you,..looks like somebody's ship sunk.''

Spike sighed ''Well you got that right,..''

Pinkie smiled ''Well i know just the right cake for you to turn that frown into a smile!'' spike smiled.

Pinkie brought her creamy chocolate cake for spike ''Here you go!,..and its on me'' she winked

''Thanks pinkie..'' and spike began to dug in

''Did you see the storm last day?,...it was harsh...!''

Spike nodded ''Yea it was...'' as spike ate the last piece of cake

''So spike you liked it?''

Spike smiled and replied ''Ofcourse i liked it, and it did turn my frown into smile.thanks pinkie,''

Pinkie saw spike's backpack and asked him ''No probs spike, by the way whats with the backpack?''

Spike got of the booth and told her ''Well i will tell you all about it today,meet me in the park at 6 pm.it's very important pinkie.. ''

Pinkie looked abit confused ''Ok,..''

Spike walked to the door and replied ''See you there.''

Spike got out of Sugarcube corner and headed to sweet apple acres. on his way, the two fillies Sweetie belle and scootaloo saw the dragon and headed towards him

''Hey,spike.''

Spike turned back and saw the two fillies ''Hey,...'' spike greeted coldly

''Are you going to apple acres? Did applebloom invite you too?'' sweetie asked excited

Spike gave sweetie a blank stare ''Yes i am going to apple acres and no applebloom didn't invite me, i have some stuff to do there.''

''Oh,..ok. any ways, we should hang out more.'' sweetie replied

''Well that wont happen sweetie because im leaving ponyville today.''

Scootaloo and sweetie belle got surprised ''You're kidding right?,..You and twilight are leaving ponyville?..Why?''

Spike rolled his eyes ''No im not kidding, and not twilight and me...it's just me,i am leaving ponyville alone..and you wont understand the reason why im leaving.''

''Is it because of rarity?'' scootaloo asked

''Hey,.....!'' sweetie looked at scootaloo angry

spike sighed ''That's one of the reasons im leaving...''

The three of them got to the apple acres, Spike saw Applejack carrying apples

''Okay girls,..i guess this is a good bye.''

Sweeite and scootaloo wasn't sure if spike was actually kidding or not,

''Spike if you're actually leaving,well...i wish you the best luck and take care.''

Spike gave a smile at sweetie ''I wish for you the same,...''

the fillies said their good bye to spike and went to find applebloom

Applejack saw the dragon and walked towards him ''Hey ya spike,What brings ya here?

''Applejack we have to talk about something important, meet me in the park at 6 pm.'' Spike replied

''Is everything alright Spike?,..'' applejack asked while raising an eyebrow

''Yeah,every things fine.just be there at 6 pm.''

''Alright,...Ah see ya at the park then.''

spike got out of the apple acres and started head for Fluttershy's house.

It's over

As spike left the Sweet apple acres, he once again was walking through the middle of ponyville. He looked at the Clock tower it was 3 pm.

''I'm actually going through this,There's no turning back now...only four hours remains till my destination..Just a little more of extra walking and it'll be all over.'' spike mumbled

Spike began to power walk, some ponies greeted him but spike just walked pass by ignoring them,A couple of minutes of power walking spike passed the bridge and was almost at Fluttershy's cottage. Spike saw fluttershy in a distance getting out of her house, as he saw the mare leaving her house,he began to run towards her.

''Fluttershy!,..'' Spike shouted

Fluttershy turned around and saw the dragon running at her,

''Spike?'' Fluttershy asked confused

Spike got to her and catch his breath

''Oh my goodness,..Is every thing all right? Did something bad happen?'' She worriedly asked

Spike shook his head ''No,..every things okay,i just saw you getting out of the house so i ran before u left.''

''Oh thank goodness,i thought something tribble happend.i was going to Rainbow dash's,So what was the hurry about any ways?'' Fluttershy replied

''Well great,now i dont have to tell her now since you're going to see her.Fluttershy meet me at 6 pm at the park i have something important to tell you and rainbow dash.''

''ummm,Okay. we'll be there,See you spike.'' fluttershy began to fly and head to rainbow dash and spike turned back and walked to the park

Spike looked at the clock tower it was 4 pm, while sitting on one of the benches of the park.

''Now to kill time.'' spike opened his backpack and sliped out one of the books and began to read

............................................................................................................

Sweetie opened the Boutique's door and shouted ''Rarity im back.'' no replies came

Sweetie went up stairs into Rarity's room,sweetie saw tissues on the floor and rarity was lying on her bed.

''Sis you okay?''

Rarity turned around and saw her sister in her room ''Oh,Sorry Sweetie i was so deep into my thoughts i didn't notice you darling..''

Sweetie got closer to her sister and asked her ''Whats wrong?''

Rarity got up and sighed ''Sweetie darling sorry but i gotta go, i have something important to do.''

Sweetie asked ''Is there any thing i can help with sis?''

Rarity shook her head ''No sweetie i have to go tell spike, something important.''

Sweetie rolled her eyes ''Okay,...oh by the way today i saw spike, as scootaloo and i were going to catch up with applebloom at sweet apple acres. Spike said he's leaving ponyville alone today,i think he was fooling around.''

Rarity got shocked and looked at sweetie ''HE SAID WHAT?'' rarity got off her bed and ran out of the boutique

Sweetie was at a loss ''What just happend?''

Rarity ran fast as she could to Twilight's castle,She opened the castle's door and shouted ''TWILIGHT!''

Twilight panickly came down from castles stairs and saw rarity ''RARITY,Spik..spike Left a note for me,He left ponyville.''

''I know twilight,...thats why im here,i dont think he has left ponyville yet Sweetie saw him earlier today at sweet apple acres Lets go find him fast before he leaves..'' the two ponies panickly left the castle

''Rarity lets split up, im going to check if Applejack has seen him and you go where ever you think that spike will got to'' Twilight exclaimed as they both seperated from eachother and ran into diffrent directions

It was 6 pm and everypony was on their way to the park,Pinkie saw fluttershy and applejack and she approached them

''Hi girls!'' She greeted them cheerfully

Fluttershy and Applejack looked back and saw the pink mare ''Hey pinkie'' they both replied

''Did spike invite ya too?'' Applejack asked pinkie pie

Pinkie smiled ''Yep,what do you girls think spike is gonna tell us? MAYBE HE HAS A SUPERDUPER SECRECT MISSION FOR US!'' Pinkie excitedly replied while hopping around

Spike saw the the three ponies approaching, he shoved his book into his backpack and got off the bench

''Hey girls you made it,..Hey fluttershy where's rainbow dash? you know what nevermind her, i dont even care..''Spike rolled his eyes

''Umm Spike she said she'll come,im sure rainbow dash will come.we can wait for her, i mean twilight and rarity arent here also.'' fluttershy replied

Spike sighed ''I've already told twilight and rarity that's why they aren't here and i dont have the time to wait for rainbow dash.''

''So this impotant thing you were gonna tell us isn't a SUPERDUPER secret misson?'' Pinkie pie got a abit disappointed

Spike face palmed ''No pinkie, it isn't a superduper secret mission...''

''So whats the important thing ya wanted to tell us spike?'' Applejack asked the dragon

Spike cleared his throat ''Okay,...you see the reason i brought you all here today is im leaving ponyville forever in 1 hour alone,this is why i brought you all here to day,..''

The three mares got shocked and surprised ''Spike ya can't just leave....What about twilight? ya can't handle living alone.'' Applejack told spike

Spike got angry ''You see this is exactly why i am leaving,i have no rights for my own.you all make the decisions for me,you all see me as a stupid little dragon who's the assistant or in other words a worker for twilight...I AM ABSOLUTELY MISERABLE IN HERE..... you know i can't live here any more....i just cant...It's time for me to find a place that i really belong to a place that i will be appreciated for the things i've do.''

The three of them was left wordless Applejack got closer to spike sad ''Spike,...ah didn't know how ya felt,we can talk this over.if you just,..''

Spike shushed applejack and sighed ''Sorry,but it's too late. you only appreciate things when you lose them...i've already made my decision im leaving.''

Spike gathred the three mares and hugged them while tears were falling ''Who knows,maybe our paths will cross once again'' spike said while hugging the mares tight

As the they were hugging rainbow dash landed beside them ''Whoa whoa whoa whoa....Whats with the water works and the hugging business'' rainbow dash asked confused

The hug broke and fluttershy spoke up ''Spik..spike's leaving ponyville forever''

Rainbow dash gave a little giggle out ''Pffff,...you are kidding right spike? you barely can live alone by your self without twilight in a week how can you manage your self to live alone for ever?....Oh snap,dont tell me you are leaving ponyville because of the things i said that night?''

Spike didnt want to interact with rainbow dash so he didn't say any thing he just turned back and walked away

''Oh...did my little words hurt little spikey wikey again? hahahaha...''

Spike turned back and got closer to rainbow dash and chuckled ''Huh..Very classic rainbow dash.you know through all of these years i came to an understanding, it's hard to take you serious since you are the dumbest among us all.you know, i found the reason why you're only good at one thing which is flying fast because you are too stupid and scared to try new things because you know you cant do them because of your stupidness.that's why you always have that cocky attitude of yours,to hide the truth inside. you think you are somekind of a badass but face the truth you are just a stupid annoying pony rainbow dash...It's sad but true...you know i woul've have gave you a hug just like the others but nope i rather leave your dumbass here and give you the finger.'' as spike flipped rainbow dash off

''WHY YOU STUPID LITTLE...'' Rainbow dash furiously went face to face with spike

''Oh,...Did my little words hurt stupid rainbow dash?.'' spike chuckled

Rainbow dash pushed spike,Spike got angry and grinded his teeth and went face to face with rain bowdash ''Do that again and i swear, i make you regret what you've done'' Spike spat out fire

Fluttershy began to back away as pinkie and applejack went to hold back spike and rainbow dash

''Oh really what are you going to do about it?'' rainbow dash replied

''Stop it..'' Applejack told rainbow dash

''Try me...'' Spike informed rainbow dash

Rainbow dash got out of applejack's grip and pushed spike as spike hit the ground he felt the anger he couldnt think straight any more, he only had one thing in mind. Punch rainbow dash. he got up quickly and Punched rainbow dash so hard on the face, it knocked her out.The three mares gasped and was in shock just what spike done.

Spike came to his senses ''I..I...I'm sorry i dont know what came over me,..'' the three off them began to back away from him terrified

Spike knew he messed up bad he ran to his bench picked up his backpack and got away as fast he could,Spike looked at the clock tower it was 7:13 pm

Spike though to him self ''What have i done?...sure it felt good,but what have i done...i truly don't belong here anymore.'' as spike began to run to the trainstation,he saw Rarity sitting on the bench. it looked like she was waiting for him,Rarity saw the dragon and ran towards him.

Rarity gave spike a tight hug ''Oh thank celestia, you didn't leave.'' spike broke the hug and pushed rarity aside and walked away from her

''Spikey?...'' she said in a sad tone

Spike looked back at ''What ?'' he replied in a serious voice

Rarity walked infront of spike and placed her hoofs on his shoulders ''Spikey,..you can't leave and i wont let you,you've opened my eyes. spikey darling you are the one specialpony for me...please stay,we'll get over this.''

Spike got rarity's hoofs off his shoulder's ''You gave me the cold shoulder last night rarity,it broke my heart.the old spike woul've done anyhthing for you but this spike doesn't care at all..So yeh IT'S OVER rarity,Besides there are plenty of stallions out there who risk going to moon for you.maybe we'll see eachother under different circumstances,Till then good bye rarity.''

Spike got into the train and left ponyville while rarity stood there crying...

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