The Only Desire

I still remember my Equestrian mother telling me that life will always bring big challenges to everypony, but if you really want, you can take over them; how difficult is to do so only depends on how much you want to win the battle. Telling my best friend about my discovery was only the first stage of the challenge. Deciding what to do was the hardest and also the most important stage.

After the movie was finished, Susan and I were going back to my house. I hoped my parents were not coming home earlier on that day so that I could show her the documents. Luckily, they weren't.

"We need to act quickly before my... parents come home. They don't like when I'm lurking between their stuff," I said and ran to the folder where the DNA analysis, as well as the other related documents, were located. After I had found all the documents, I showed them to Susan. "See? Perfect DNA. Inexplicable sign on the child's body. And all of these are from my birth."

"Absolutely amazing," she said and couldn't believe what she reads. "Omigosh! I'm talking to a pony... I mean... a human... pony from Equestria!" She was very excited. "I always thought ponies are not real."

"Well, we are," I said and giggled. "Long time ago, a woman called Bonnie Zacherle found a way to interact with us, but it wasn't the best way. She didn't see us, and she didn't even hear us correctly. She found out much information about us and wrote stories with us on a show for a Californian animation studio. The show was discontinued and later then, another woman called Lauren Faust was visited by Princess Celestia with a message. Her message was to do everything in order to spread more friendship in the life of humans. Lauren decided to make a new generation of the show started by Bonnie Zacherle, now with a deeper message: friendship is magic. At least, this was something we've learned about in the school."

"Wow. I never knew that it was done this way. Lauren's show has a huge reputation and audience. Even if the target was originally the  teen girls, the show is also watched by younger and older men," she replied.

"That means she did a fantastic job," I confirmed.

"Yes. But unfortunately, the second season was the last one she was working on. But the other writers are also doing a great job," she said.

"We haven't learned that. I'm proud of both Bonnie and Lauren for their work," I replied and remembered about the decision I have to make. "You know, I don't know what to do now," I said with a sad voice.

"Well, I guess you should continue your everyday life," Susan said and tried to cheer me up.

"But what if Equestria was destroyed? What would Twinkleshine and all my other friends think about me? I never wanted to leave them," I said and continued after a few seconds of silence. "You know, my parents from Equestria died when I was a filly. Here, I have now a new family and new friends, who I don't want to leave. But I would also like to stay with my friends from Equestria."

"Oh, I'm so sorry for your loss. I don't know what to say, seriously. You are my best friend, and I understand if you have to go," she replied and smiled.

"Even if I would decide to go home, I would need to find a way to do so. I don't even know how to go back," I said and looked down.

Suddenly, a car honk has been breaking the silence.

"Oh, no! My parents!" I said and placed back the documents I had as quicker as I could. I was lucky to get everything sorted before they came into the house.

"We're here!" My mother said, and I ran to hug my parents.

"I'm so happy that you are here for me... keeping an eye on me every day and doing whatever stays in your powers to make me satisfied. I love you so much!" I said and they looked at me with a weird look because of my sudden and unexpectedly different behavior.

"Are you okay, sweetie?" My mom asked and I was just smiling.

"Of course, I am! There are no problems." ...but I almost started to cry. Seriously, it hurt. Very much. Not knowing where to go because you have somebody you care about is the most painful situation one can ever live. At least, this is my opinion. I'm only telling this from my own experience.

After I finally left my parents to breathe, I went back to Susan, to continue our discussion. She was worried, and I've noticed that she cares about the whole situation and that she kept thinking just to suggest me a good solution. This wasn't the first time when I felt like I'm very lucky because I have such a friend as Susan. She was supporting me every time I needed a shoulder to cry on, just like Twinkleshine, Lemon Hearts, Moon Dancer, and Minuette did back in the time.

"Okay, I'm back now. So, I don't even know how to go back to Equestria. I have no idea what to do!" I said and sighed while I looked at my friend with a worried face.

"Look. We will find a way to go back to Equestria. Somehow we will. And no matter what will happen in the future, you will always remain my best friend and I will always think about you. I will never forget all those moments we've spent together, like the ones when we've helped each other or performed a song together." While she said this, I couldn't listen without shedding a single tear.

"If I will go back somehow and my memories will not vanish, I will never forget you. You are my best friend. You and Twinkleshine will always be," I replied.

"Can you tell me more about your pony self?" She asked, and I started to tell her more things about me.

"I was... am... I don't even know... A red colored unicorn from Canterlot. I've been studying at Celestia's School for Gifted Unicorns and I was good at many subjects. Although I was still unable to find my talent and destiny after that. I've tried many things, but none of them seemed to be my special talent. I was like another Cutie Mark Crusader. Speaking of the Crusaders, I've also asked them for some suggestions, but unfortunately, even if they've tried their best, they were unable to help me. After the death of my parents, I've found my happiness in my friends, who always supported me, just like you. Then Abomineigh came, the ray hit me and now I'm here, on the Earth. Shortly, this is my story."

"A very interesting one, I can tell. Don't you think that this was part of your destiny? Maybe this is something that will lead you to your special talent," she replied and then I was thinking. "Do I have a predestined role here, on the Earth? Will this affect Equestria in any way?" These were the thoughts in my mind at that moment.

"I don't know," I replied shortly after a few moments of silence.

"I think, you will also need to talk to your parents. They should also know about this," Susan said.

"They won't believe me, I'm sure."

"Why are you so sure? Those who don't believe in magic will never find it."

"Well, they don't believe in it."

"No matter what would they say, you need to talk to them," Susan tried to encourage me to tell my parents everything about my past life.

I sighed and said "Okay, I will give it a try."

"Great!" She replied and smiled. "I have to go now; it's quite late. See you tomorrow!"

"Goodbye!" I said and waved at my friend. After some minutes of thinking, I continued: "Susan, wait!" and I ran to her.

"What is it?" She asked astonishedly.

I hugged her and said "Thanks so much. For trusting me, for helping me, and for being my friend, in general."

"I'm glad to have such a friend!" She replied and I was fulfilled with emotions.

After Susan went home I was sitting on the couch, thinking about how could I tell my parents about everything. "They also told me that I'm special, and I have unnatural things on my body, my DNA, and brain, so it's possible that they will believe it." I thought and tried to find the perfect words to tell my parents. My mother came into the living room where I was and saw me as I'm thoughtful. She came to me and asked: "Are you alright? You were a bit weird today."

At that moment, I wasn't sure what to think. It was not as I planned and it came so suddenly that I didn't even know what should I tell her. I tried to tell her about my pony self.

"I'm a pony," I said shortly, directly and very cowardly. "Excellent. Good idea, Desire. The best way to tell her," I thought ironically.

"Oh, really?" My mother asked surprisedly.

"Yes, and I can prove you. You know that mark from my body? Well, that's my cutie mark," I replied with a monotone voice.

"Cutie mark?" She asked but was pretty confused.

"Yes. I will tell you everything. I'm a red unicorn pony from Canterlot and my name is Desire Redskein. When Abomineigh, a powerful villain has been fighting with the princesses, I was unlucky to be hit by a ray which teleported me to the Earth where I've been reborn as a child. Your child. At that moment, I remembered nothing about my home until I saw my friends on the My Little Pony movie."

My mother thought it was only my imagination that showed her presence in the wrong place at the wrong time. "So let me guess that the movie was great," she tried to change the subject.

"Yes, it was, but this isn't what I'm talking about," I replied. "Look, mom, I know it's hard to believe this, but it's true. We, ponies, do exist! And I am a pony. I was once," I continued with a sad look. "You know, my parents from Equestria are dead. I'm so happy to have parents again, but my friends from Equestria also need me. I need them. I need both of you. I don't know what to do. Even if I would choose not to stay in this world, I would need to find a way to go to Equestria."

"Is Equestria the town where ponies live?" She asked.

"Yeah, this is the name given to the world where we live and where I lived. I hope you trust me, mom; I'm talking very seriously."

"It's hard to believe, dearie."

"I know about the documents from my birth. Sorry for lurking between your documents, but I wanted to know more about my mark, and I thought I will find something between them. And I did. I have a DNA structure that's entirely different and more complex than human DNAs'. Isn't this enough proof?"

"I must say that the birth of a child with an entirely different DNA structure is not a usual thing. Doctors didn't have an explanation, either. But how does this make you a pony? Why are you so sure about that?"

"My memories. I recognized all my friends from the movie: Twinkleshine, Lemon Hearts, Moon Dancer, and Minuette. I remembered about everything from my past. I have a cutie mark on my body! This is why I'm so sure," I said and started to cry. "I'm in a such a difficult situation now. What should I do?"

"I love you, Heathy!" She said and held me between her arms. "I understand you. And I believe you, seriously."

"I love you too, mom. And thanks." After some seconds of silent crying, I continued. "Mom! Did you know that sometimes you say things that my Equestrian mother also said? And always when you did, I felt something inside of me."

"Really? Well, I guess I'm probably the perfect doppelgänger of your pony mother. I feel sorry for your loss."

"Thanks. My friends were always supporting me in the hard times, and even if I couldn't find my special talent, they kept encouraging me."

"Special talent?" My mother interrupted me.

"Yes. Each pony is gifted with a special talent, that is mostly reflected by their cutie mark. Despite the cutie marks are gathered after a pony finds their special talent, I've got mine when I was born, and unfortunately, my mark is not leading me to any clue. But how could it? It's a skein. But now, I'm here on another planet from another galaxy, and I don't even know if my beautiful world still exists, and even if it does, I'm not sure if it's still like how it was when I've seen it for the last time. I hope my friends are alright."

"I understand you. Look, I don't know what should I say... or what could I say after hearing all of these, but I'm sure that the only way to answer your questions is to go back to your home. You're my child, and I love you. And I want only the best for you, even if it means that I should let you go."

"You're the best second mother!" I said and wept on the shoulders of my mom. After some minutes, I continued to speak. "But even if I would like to go home, I don't know how. Besides this, I don't want to leave you and my friends from Earth. I care about all of you, but in the meantime, I also care about my friends from Equestria. I don't know what to do."

"You will know. I'm sure that you will make the right decision."

It was late, so I went to my bedroom to sleep, but I couldn't. There were so many thoughts in my head. I still couldn't believe that my mom believed me. It was as unexpected as my coming to the Earth. I wished to have an answer to all my questions. For a very little moment, I thought my mother still doesn't believe me entirely and still has some doubts.

After that, I was thinking about what my mother from the Earth has told me. "I need to take the right decision. The only way I can do this is to argue about both worlds so that I will find their advantages and disadvantages." I thought and turned on the light from my nightstand to write them down on paper.

Life puts many difficult situations in the life of everypony. And I'm not telling this only because my mother said so, but also because I've experienced it. But if these wouldn't come, life wouldn't be that simple and we would think it's adventureless or maybe even worthless.

On that night, I started to write down everything I thought about both worlds. I started with Equestria, my dear home. It's a stunning, glorious place where everypony lives in happiness, bliss, and joy. The fresh, unpolluted air, the crystal-like water, the clean, tasty and lustrous fruits, and vegetables — practically everything is marvelous. It's a place where true, long-lasting friendships are born. A place where everypony can find their true friends and enjoy the magic of the magnificent friendship. A place where I can see and live with my old great friends again; where I can continue searching for my talent. The only problem with Equestria is that I can't see my mother and father again, neither my friends from the Earth.

I've dealt with Equestria quickly. It was the turn of the Earth to analyze. It took me longer than I initially thought. But it was most probably because I had to analyze much more things than for Equestria. When I did these analyses, I was keeping in mind many qualities of the Earth, especially starting from New York and the other cities around me.

"Hmm... Where should I start? Earth is as beautiful as Equestria. It's the world where nature is absolutely gorgeous. Although it's also very noisy in the town. People are unable to rest for a single second. Not only that they are too busy to spend more time with others - like their family, friends or relatives, but they are also too busy to think. Day by day, things are getting more and more messy. I would like if people would pay more attention to what's around them, rather than only focusing on work and other duties. Sooner or later the entire nature will be replaced by buildings.

Nature is a necessary thing for every human, but they keep destroying the place that was given to them. They seem to be too blind to notice that by doing this, they are putting in danger the life of the next generations. Not only destroying the beautifulness of the world but polluting it makes the things look even worse. The air we breathe is not clean, and this is just another thing that will not let our life last longer.

What's the meaning of life anyway? People keep asking this question all the time, and I hope I will find be able to answer it after I finish this comparison. But seriously, what is it? And how could we find any explanation if things are going just in the wrong way?

When I was in Equestria, I didn't know the actual meaning of murdering and violence. Here I learned the notion of both of them. This is the only thing I see in the news. This man killed that man, this son killed his father, and vice versa. Seriously, is this the world we want to live in? The world where anybody can get killed easily even by the people who are the closest to their heart? What's going on with humans? There was a terrorist attack not so long time ago where hundreds of people died. Do we, ordinary people need to live in such a disaster?

Murdering isn't the only thing. Stealing is another. Why does one not feel pleased with everything they have? They were gifted with something that is more important than anything: life. Why do they need to feel envy on somebody just because they have something more? Others don't even have the things they already possess. Why do they take something from someone else? This can lead only to worse things, and people are unable to see this. And stealing is not only related to physical things. People also take the intellectual properties of other people. I have an artist friend who was pissed off because somebody stole her artwork. But these are not the only things that people steal. People also learned to steal people, their position, their feelings, their everything.

Why do all of these happen? Because of one thing that is useless: money. It's just a piece of paper. Nothing else. And there are some more valuable things that get destroyed for it: lives, properties, families, and friendships. These do have a value. A big one. But money doesn't.

I'm starting to realize that true friendship has estranged among the humans. They haven't learned anything from Lauren. Maybe because not everybody watches her show. It's not even about watching; it's more about seeing. There are people who watch and don't see, people who hear but don't listen. They always try to find something completely different than what are they supposed to notice.

This world is one with so many great things. Sometimes I'm wondering about how many beautiful things the humans have done. But unfortunately, they also created things which are not used for good reasons, but for destroying and murdering. I'm just unable to understand why. Therefore, I consider this world as a wrong place and I feel like I should do something to make a change. I just feel it inside of me, like it's something destined for me. I feel like I shouldn't just sit here and watch while people keep destroying our planet and every living thing on it.

But who would listen to me? Other people have done this already. How can I be different? I'm just a usual... almost usual... unusual human, but I'm still a human. Humans don't listen to humans. Humans don't listen to anything. They only listen to themselves and their wallet. Not all of them, but the majority."

"What should I do?" I sighed.

Every little thought I had made me feel sadder and sadder. I felt like there's no reason to smile, nor to live. It was the first time when I was depressed. I couldn't find my place in the world, so I tried to run from it.

I went back to my bed, but I was still unable to sleep. I had so many thoughts that made me feel upset.

"What would Princess Celestia suggest in this situation?" I kept asking myself, but couldn't find any answer. I was blocked - the events fromt the last day were way too much for me. "Isn't it enough that I have to make this huge decision in my life? Why is something just pushing me to do something... to make a change?"