To whoever finds this, if you're reading this i'm no longer in this world. Some people may say I died a coward and took the easy way out but I don't think so should I feel like I did. My name is Applejack Apple and these are are my final words to the Earth in which I was once part of. It all started when Ma and Pa died that took one large toll on everybody in the family but it took its toll on me the hardest, I never really did give much thought just thinking that I need to stay strong and accept it I thought I finally managed too after all these years.
Nope I haven't if I did I wouldn't be writing this final farewell to everyone I know. I know how this will effect everyone I know all in very very different ways, everyone grieves differently or so I've heard. I just hope that none of my friends think they need to follow in my footsteps and do the same thing i'm preparing to do, the most likely one to do that would be Rainbow shes headstrong, confident, has a head on her shoulders but she doesn't use to often, she also has a hard time accepting things but that's who she is. I feel terrible leaving my friends like this but there's just no other way they too will understand the pain i'm currently experiencing at this very moment as I write this letter, we'll all lose our parents one day that's just the cycle of life.
I know how many people i'll be leaving behind so many that I can’t even think about it without becoming sick to my stomach.
Apple Bloom will be the most affected by this I want someone to tell her I'm sorry for leaving her in this way and that I wont be able to see my little sister grow up, graduate,start a family. It's taking me quite a few years to come to this final decision of mine though some may say its a drastic one, some may say I wasn't in my right mind I have to agree with both this is a very drastic decision and no i'm not in my right mind, who would be after they've been battling depression for many years and have had lost their goddamn parents at a young age.
If they had experience what I did growing up they might make the same decision i'm making, either way we'll die someday my time has come come early, I had quite a bit to look forward too in life but the depression I fought every day wouldn't have none of it. I lost against it it's very hard to beat and overcome but it’s quite possible just ask my good friend Pinkie, believe it or not she used to be considered Clinically Depressed which is worse than what I have, what I have is only a mild form of depression but I just couldn't cope with the loss of my parents at that young of an age, that's why I'm doing this.
Pinkie on the other hand has managed to overcome it and i'm proud of her to say the least that's why she goes around throwing parties and making people smile because she doesn't want to see anyone go through what she did, the reason I know this me and her were chatting a couple days ago over at her house and she opened up about all of this about herself I was surprised to say the least. I understand her a lot better now after she opened up I asked her why she hasn't opened up to our friends about it and the reason why is shes scared how'll they'll react to hearing it, I told her that we'll always be there for her, or any of our friends.
If she were here right now I know what would happen she'd try to talk me out of doing this, but i'm afraid that my mind's made up I hope they will remember me as a stubborn but hardworking friend because that's exactly what I was and will always will be we Apples are some stubborn sons of bitches. Even when we are near our end we stay the same through and through. I will hold my name honorably and proud till the final curtain of the play known as my life that's what I feel my life is like anyway a play, with a sad ending but there's nothing that could be done to stop it from happening even if there was it wasn't done in time.
I'm slowly running out of space to write on this paper of mine here but i'm trying to fit as much as I can on here, I feel though even when this paper is full I will feel like I didn't say enough, but the though will be only there for a second as in that time period I will end my story. When my body is found please don't do a large funeral because I know it would cost us quite a bit so please keep it simple and just bury me in the apple orchard and plant a tree in the spot I get buried in those are my final wishes that I hope will be commended in my memory.
I wish I could say one last goodbye to everyone and be able to see them one last time, but it would only make the pain on them that much worse in my eyes and I couldn't bring myself to do that to my friends and family. Well here it is this is my goodbye to everyone, I loved all of my friends and family with all my heart and i'm sorry for putting you all through this distress and great pain. Goodbye
The Element of Honesty,
Applejack Apple
With a trembling hand Applejack signed the tear stained letter of hers and set it on the small table she'd brought out to the barn. She then eyed the shotgun resting against the wall, it was her fathers which she'd inherited when he passed. She made sure to keep it in the same condition she'd received it in.
With a shaking hand Applejack grabbed the shotgun from the wall and grabbed the lone shell on the table, with a skilled hand she loaded and pumped it all she had to do was finish the job. She sat on the small wooden stool present and grabbed the open bottle of her family's hard apple cider and took a large swig, as the alcohol coursed it self through her veins she took a moment to enjoy the buzz of it before leveling the shotgun with her head and putting the end of the barrel in her mouth.''It's now or never'' she thought, a small smile played on her lips,''I'll be seeing you soon Ma and Pa.'' she thought as she pulled the trigger.****