Bonbon's exploration

by Drowning in cider

Rating: mature
Tags: My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Bon-Bon, Sex, Slice of Life, Lyra
Length: 4556

Bonbon explores the feelings she has about diapers.

Bonbon explores the feelings she has about diapers.
Which is a risky project, considering that she does not live alone.

Disclaimer: Please note that this is a diaper fetish clopfic. If that's not your type of thing you should consider turning back now.

Anyways have fun reading.

Published 2016-01-12 06:50:02 UTC
Last updated 2016-01-16 21:37:48 UTC

Chapter 1

Chapter 1

Our story starts in Ponyville in a small cozy cottage that is the home of two mares. Both are artists although one of them doesn’t like being referred to as artist.
She always insists that she is just making candy and nearly anypony could pick that up. But the three bonbons on her flank told otherwise the other mare was a minty green Unicorn was very gifted with the Lyre, a rather unusual instrument for a pony to play.
Their names are Lyra and Bonbon. They both started to room together ever since they came to Ponyville. With Bonbon starting up her candy store and Lyra trying to start out as a professional musician it was very welcomed by both of them, that they could split the rent.

Just Bonbon wished sometimes, to have a space for herself. Not because she didn’t like it to room with Lyra, but because she had a secret she wanted nopony to find out about.

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Bonbon shut the door behind her looking through the window trying to make sure nopony magically saw what she was hiding in her saddlebags.
Her heart beating so hard she could hear it and feel it hammer in her chest.
She had planned this for quite some time now. She had built a secret drawer in her closet a while ago and when she heard her roommate was going to be out of the town for the weekend she knew this was the perfect time to execute her plan.

She didn’t understand completely why she was so fascinated by it but she had to admit that she felt drawn to diapers ever since she was a filly.
She couldn’t help to wonder what they must feel, whenever she saw a diaper at the store or a mother walk by with her baby.
She just never had the opportunity to try it because she never lived alone and was too scared to get busted.

This was until today. To pull this off she made an extensive plan.
The first step was, obviously getting the diapers. She was sure she could not get them in Ponyville, this town was way too small and everypony know each other. While this could be pleasant for most of the time it made it impossible to be stealthy for once. So she had to head to the big city of Canterlot to get some diapers.
Also she was well aware, that she won’t get diapers her size in a normal store. She looked up a sanitary store in Canterlot and headed straight towards it, as soon Lyra left the house for the Weekend.

Once in the store she got really nervous. She quickly sped through the aisles until she found the incontinence supply section. Swiftly scanning trough it she found a package she thought would fit her needs. “Extra thick for extra absorbency” it read. Standard size, which should fit her well, grown up ponies didn’t vary much in size anyways.
With burning cheeks she approached the cashier with her package of diapers. Was the mare behind the counter looking judgemental at her? Or was it just her imagination? Bonbon didn’t know, but she quickly stashed away the diapers in her saddlebags as soon as she had paid and sped to the train heading back to Ponyville.

So here she was, with diapers in her bag and ~~nervous~~ ~~excited~~ nervouscited like never before.
It has gotten kind of late. The trip to Canterlot sure had taken its time. Luckily she was able to get something for diner on her way home.
"Maybe brew a relaxing cup of tea just before I get started?" she thought "No! No hesitating and no turning back now!" she thought, stomping a hoof on the floor.

She had been at this point before but she had gotten cold hooves, just before she really did it she thought to herself that this was just wrong and she didn’t need diapers like a stupid little foal.
She wasn’t some kind of freak after all, was she?

She tried to collect herself, taking a deep breath and started to make her way upstairs.
Upon arriving in her room she locked her door, closed the curtains and made sure her door was locked again. Lyra was out, but one could never be sure enough.

Then she opened her saddlebags to slide out the package and examine it closer. Back at the store she was in such a hurry, that there had been no time admiring the package. It had a clear part, where one could look at its contents. It held plain white diapers, of course they were white, diapers for her size were for sick ponies, which needed to be diapered. Ponies who weren’t weird and wanted to wear them, like she was. These ponies didn’t need the cute designs diapers for foals had. Although Bonbon wished she could have gotten some of these for herself.

Slowly she ripped the package open at the dotted line and pulled one of the diapers out.
When folding it open carefully she was welcomed by scents that came from the diaper
She started to nuzzle it while pressing it close to her face to take in both, its softness and more of the smell. It smelled like foal powder.
She realized how this calmed her down a bit, but her heart was still racing.
After some time of snuggling with her first diaper ever since Bonbon was a little foal she decided that it was time to take things further.

"Ok, let’s do this" she said to herself while laying the diaper out flat on her bed.
Hesitating for just a moment, "It’s not like anypony will ever know about this" she tried to reassure herself, while positioning her butt on the cushiony undergarment.

She laid back, pulling the front of her diaper over her sensitive marehood. It wasn’t until now that she realized that she got kind of aroused while playing around with the diaper.
She fastened the tapes of her diaper and readjusted them a few times until it just seemed to fit right.
"Finally, why didn’t I do this earlier? It feels soo nice." Bonbon wondered, while shifting around in her diaper to enjoy the way it hugged her like a soft, warm pillow. She felt safe and more comfortable now.

All worries from before seemed to have been washed away by the new sensations that where coming over her.
Speaking of new sensations, the 'kind of aroused' state she was in earlier turned into a strong 'itch' that begged to be scratched.
She lowered a hoof to the place where her most sensitive part must be hidden underneath the thick padding and started pushing into it. A moan escaped her mouth while a shiver ran down her spine. She hadn’t expected that the touch would feel so intense through the thick diaper.

Bonbon was starting to rub herself in small circular motions. Soon her other hoof found its way down south and she was rubbing the front of the diaper with both of them.
Her motions got faster as her hooves dug deeper into the padding and her now throbbing marehood concealed by it. The diaper crinkling and shifting around with every move, while it absorbed the juices escaping the horny mare.
Her heart rate rose again and her breath became shallow, while she was getting closer to her relief with every move.

Shifting around she started to mount her pillow, like a stallion would mount a mare.
Her climax was getting closer, while she pleasured herself by thrusting her hips forward into the pillow and pushing it into herself with both hooves. Her face was buried in her blankets, so she didn’t fall over with both her forehooves being busy.
She was so close to cumming now and her last few thrusts send her over the edge. "Oh my celest...” she moaned, her voice muffled by the blanked.
She grid her teeth, while she felt her vagina convulsing and gushing out waves of her mare juices into the diaper, making it sticky and clinging to her fur. After what seemed to be an eternity the stream of bodily fluids leaving her started to die down. "Oh my" Bonbon voiced trying to catch her breath. Her whole marehood and part of her butt covered in her sticky juice. If it wasn't for her diaper she would have made a huge mess.
"That...was...amazing", Bonbon panted. Still in her afterglow she put the warm pillow back to the upper side of the bed and crashed down on it.

Taking a deep breath she felt her lids getting heavy. After her exciting and exhausting journey today and her bedtime fun afterwards she felt really worn out.

She fell asleep with a big smile on her face, feeling relieved, to finally having worked up the courage to pull this through.

Author's Note

So this was my first take on writing a fetish clopfic.
I just had this in my head and felt like writing it down.
I'm sure there is room for improvements, so don't be shy and leave me a comment if you notice stuff I can improve in the upcoming chapters.

Chapter 2

The next morning…

Bonbon woke up feeling really relaxed and well rested.
The light shining through the curtains told her, that she had slept in. But since it was a Sunday this was no trouble.

While yawning and stretching herself the memories of the previous evening came to her mind.
The faint crinkling she heard did remind her, that she was still wearing the diaper. Which did a great job sucking up her bodily fluids but she could still feel the dried up remains of it clinging to her fur.

Soon another feeling became noticeable. Her bladder had gotten pretty full over the course of the night, so bonbon decided it was time to get up and visit the little fillies room.
"On the other hoof..." she thought while pulling away the blanked, admiring her diaper "I could put this to use, I’m about to shower anyway."
A blush appeared on her face for having such a kinky thought.

Wearing the diaper was one thing but really using it? She hadn't had planned to take it this far. But curiosity seemed to get the better of her.

Slowly shoving her blankets under her butt to reduce the trouble she would get into if her diaper leaked, she tried to start peeing. But nothing happened. Years of potty training were seemingly hard to overcome. She pushed harder but her bladder still refused to let loose, even though she really had to let it go.
After a few minutes of bonbon trying to push her morning urine out of herself she decided to try another way.

She stood up on her bed and squatted down like she would do while using the bathroom like a civilized pony.
Then she closed her eyes and imagined herself squatting over her toilet. Trying to let it all just flow out, without putting too much strain on her bladder.

Finally a small dribble started to escape her marehood, growing stronger, into a steady stream.
Her diaper was sucking in the pee escaping her and got warm, really warm.
Bonbon hadn't expected it to feel so warm on her. She tilted her head back while enjoying the feeling of pee escaping her and the warmth spreading around her crotch and let out a relieved sigh.
The diaper started to droop down a bit, while it got continuously heavier.

Her stream seemed to die down eventually and bonbon curiously poked the soggy padding, feeling it squish underneath her hoof, sending shivers down her spine. Her crotch, already glistening wet with pee, got even wetter from the feeling of her drenched diaper. Her hoof stared to wander down south again, just like the night before.

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At the same time somewhere else in ponyville:

"Hi Pinkie Pie!" Lyra just had entered the sugar cube corner.

"Hay Lyra!" a pink mare, with a mane like pink cotton candy exclaimed.
"Are you here to pick up the super-secret surprise cake?" Pinkie whispered, her face nearly touching Lyra’s.
This pony really needed to learn about the concept of personal space.

"Yes I sure am, and don't worry bonbon can't hear you. In fact I think she is still asleep, judging by her closed curtains."
Lyra just had walked past their home on her way to the Sugarcube Corner and had taken a glance at her friends window.

"Nothing like sleeping in on a Sunday huh? I'll go get your order" and with that pinkie disappeared in a little pink cloud, just to reappear a moment later with a plate of delicious chocolate, caramel cake, topped with some minty frosting.
"There you go, that'll be eight bits"

"Alright, thanks pinkie." Lyra said while bits and a plate of cake were exchanged.

"Oh hi Lyra" came a voice behind her, startling the minty green unicorn a bit.
After turning around she saw, that the voice belonged to her childhood friend Twilight.

"Hey Twilight, getting some cupcakes for breakfast?" Lyra asked, pointing on the plate that was floating next to Twilight.

"Exactly! And what are you getting?" the studious mare asked.

"Bonbons favorite cake, I want to surprise her!" Lyra exclaimed, with a big smile on her face.
Lyra had deliberately told Bonbon that she wouldn’t be home before sundown, to make sure her surprise was really a surprise.

"Aww that's really nice of you, I hope she enjoys the surprise."

"So do I..." Lyra seemed to be lost in thought for a moment. "Hey Twilight I don't suppose you can teleport me right into her room, could you? That would be a really cool surprise!"

"Well eerm actually I am not supposed to use my power for such things" Twilight said rubbing her foreleg.

"Oh pleeease Twilight, help two friends out, your'e the princess of friendship after all." Lyra pressed on blinking her eyes, putting extra emphasis on the word friendship.

Twilight goaned "Finee, but don't tell anypony I did this, I don't really plan on opening up a transportation enterprise." Twilight joked

"My lips are sealed Twilight." Lyra agreed happily.

“Where exactly do you want to end up?” Twilight asked.

“Just in Bonbon’s bedroom, do you know where it is? When you look at our house, it’s the second floor, right window.” Lyra tried to explain.

“Ok, I think I got it, are you ready Lyra?” Twilight said while lighting up her horn.

Lyra just nodded, grinning wide.

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With a flash and a pop Lyra was gone and appeared just a moment later in Bonbon's bedroom.

"Suuurpriii....." *clatter* the plate with the cake was dropped to the floor.

There was Bonbon, sitting on her bed in front of Lyra, wearing a soggy diaper which was tainted slightly yellow by her pee. Bonbon's hooves were frozen on her crotch, staring a Lyra in shock.
Lyra also stood there like paralyzed wide eyed, her mouth still hanging open.

Bonbon was the first to react. "What are you doing here?" Bonbon whispered barely audible.

"WHAT...ARE...YOU...DOING...HERE!!??" Bonbon's voice was getting louder with each word.

"I was just..." Lyra started, but was cut of by bonbon, her eyes burning with rage

"GET OUUUT" Bonbon screamed at her, her eyes starting to tear up.

Lyra was starting to feel scared, she had never seen Bonbon this mad. Quickly she ran over to the door, bumping into it because it was still locked. She looked down, to find the key still sticking in the keyhole, turning it around fast and running out of the door, down the stairs and out on the street. Tears starting to form in her eyes. She never got yelled at by a friend like this. And her crush being this mad at her especially hurt. So much for a pleasant surprise.

Bonbon collapsed on her bed sobbing into her pillow, her initial rage fading into pure desperation. "What now?" She thought, getting mad again. "Stupid Lyra!” How could she even pop up my room like this? Bonbon believed the only pony to pull off this trick was the local allicorn.
"Stupid diaper" she yelled, ripping it away and throwing it to her wall, leaving a wet mark on it.
"But most of all, stupid me." Bonbon lowered her head back into her pillow and continued crying.

She was sure she would have to move out, find a new town, that she'd be the laughing stock of Ponyville.

Bonbon felt dirty now that she was caught, she imagined just how disgusting she must have looked to Lyra.

“Lyra… I shouldn’t have snapped at her like this. What did she even drop after she appeared?” Bonbon wondered. She looked over the edge of her bed to find a plate that once bore a delicious cake. Part of the cake had fallen down from it but part of it still had remained on the plate. Getting out of her bed and trotting up to the plate, she realized that Lyra got her favorite cake for her.

Great, now she felt even worse for yelling at her friend. She didn't want to make her cry. Hanging her head, a few tears still running down her face Bonbon began to make her way to the bathroom to take a shower. To try to wash away the feeling of pee sticking to her fur and her memories of how nice the diaper had felt before she was caught by Lyra.

At the same time Lyra galloped to the park her eyes still looking watery. Lyra felt guilty, she knew that she shouldn't have invaded Bonbon's privacy like this.
And questions started to pop up in her mind. Why was Bonbon wearing a diaper? Was she sick? Did she have bed wetting problems? Had she always been wearing diapers at night? And why did it look like she had been touching herself at the moment she had dropped in on her?

"Whoa Lyra, what happened to you? You look pretty shaken." She looked around and saw the bright red irises of the resident DJ. Her shades held afloat by her magic and wearing a worried look in her eyes.

Vinyl may seem like a pretty rough party pony but she can be really caring for her friends. And Lyra was a close friend of her for quite some time now.
Lyra was relieved to run into Vinyl and not somepony else, she didn't want too much ponies to see her crying like this.

"Oh, hey Vinyl. I am afraid I messed up with Bonbon pretty bad." Lyra said, ears drooping low.

"Oh, why is that? Did you tell her about your feelings for her?" Vinyl asked tilting her head. She was one of the few ponies whom Lyra had told about her feelings for Bonbon.

"Wha..? No. Lets just say I invaded her privacy pretty badly. But I didn't mean to, I just wanted to surprise her. It all just went pretty wrong. Then she got mad, screamed at me and send me out." Lyra said sniffling, new tears forming in her eyes at the memories.

"Oh boy that sounds pretty bad. But maybe she wasn't so mad at you personally and just got defensive because she did not want you to find out something you saw?" Vinyl offered for consideration, pulling Lyra into a friendly hug.

"Hmm, I suppose you could be right. It seemed like she had put pretty much effort into keeping anypony from finding out what I saw." Lyra rested her head on Vinyl for a moment.

"Well she did not kill anypony did she?" Vinyl asked jokingly, trying to cheer her friend up.

"Vinyl I feel like I should not discuss this with anypony before I get a chance to talk with Bonbon about this... But I would appreciate some company, until I head back home. I want to give Bonbon a bit time to calm down." Lyra said looking at her friend.

"Sure thing." Vinyl said.

They settled down, chatting about the music business for a while. With Vinyl sharing some stories from the Canterlot nightlife. Helping Lyra to relax and not to worry too much about what would happen when she returned home.

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After her shower Bonbon returned to her bedroom. First she saw her used diaper still lying on the floor, reminding her how stupid and weird she was. Gritting her teeth she picked it up and threw it in the trashcan.

Then she tried to scoop up the remains of the cake that did not drop down from the plate earlier. She wanted to try and make it up for yelling at Lyra, starting with fixing the cake she got for her.

Bonbon was quick to mix up some icing for the cake. After working her magic on it, it looked just like freshly bought from the sugarcube corner. Working on this also helped Bonbon to calm down her down and distract herself a bit.
She was just finished and admired her work, when she heard the front door open.

"H..hello? Bonbon are you home?" Lyra called out shyly, worried how Bonbon might react.

"Hey Lyra" Bonbon said coming out of the kitchen, ears drooping low. "Sorry I snapped at you like this."

"It’s alright I suppose. In retrospective I maybe should have knocked on your door" Lyra said blushing a bit.

An awkward silence started to build up between them, two pairs of eyes darting around the room.

"Sooo uhm, whats that smell?" Lyra asked sniffing the air. "Did you bake something?"

Bonbon's ears started to flop up a bit "Yes...well kind of, I fixed up the cake you got me. That was really nice from you by the way."

"Oh great, I got it to celebrate our first year of rooming together. I hadn't even noticed that I dropped it when I saw you in..." Lyra's voice trailed off, while Bonbon started to blush furiously, her eyes darting towards the door, like she was wishing to run away from the awkward situation.

Lyra cleared her throat "Look Bonbon it’s alright, I don't care if you need...well need protection at night. And I am sure your'e not the only grown mare that is having bladder problems." Lyra tried to ensure her friend, laying a hoof on her shoulder.

Bonbon thought about telling Lyra that she was right and she needed diapers due to medical reasons. It would be so easy, just agree with Lyra and never talk about this again.
But Bonbon felt bad about the thought of lying to Lyra about this, especially after how she treated her before. She had seen her like this anyway and lying would only make things more complicated in the long run.

"Well Lyra I.....uhm I don't exactly need diapers." Bonbon said, biting her lip.

"You don't?" Lyra asked puzzled.

Bonbon took a deep breath. "I wanted to wear it because I...I don't even know, I guess I was curious. I know that must sound weird and stupid but I just..." Bonbon started to tremble. She was on the verge of crying again.

"Ssshhh, its alright Bonnie." Lyra couldn’t stand seeing Bonbon shaken up like this anymore and pulled her friend close. She felt Bonbon lean against her.

"I never wanted anypony to find out about this" Bonbon said in a shaky voice.

"Don't worry your secret is safe with me" Lyra reassured Bonbon, while stroking her mane gently.

They stood there like this for a while, until Bonbon pulled away from her friend.
"Thank you Lyra. For always being there for me." she paused "Do you want to try the cake?"

"Sure, let’s have some cake!" Lyra said relived to see Bonbon loosening up again.

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They sat in the kitchen, enjoying the cake just as Lyra bluntly said "Bonbon, can I ask you something about this diaper thing?"

Bonbon shifted around on her chair uncomfortably, considering if she felt comfortable enough to talk about this with Lyra. "Well...alright go ahead."

"You said you where curious and wanted to try diapers again." Lyra asked.

Bonbon nodded.

"Well did you like it?"

Ouch, well Lyra definitely did not dance around the subject.

Bonbon's cheeks flared up again, "Well y..yes I guess I did" Bonbon stuttered.

"That’s alright for me Bonbon, no worries. I must admit I am really curious what did you like about it?" Lyra pressed on.

"I..I liked how they hugged my waist, much like a soft and warm pillow. It kind of made me feel really comfortable." Bonbons gaze dropped to the floor.

Lyra didn't know a ponies head could get this red.

"Lyra can we please switch the subject?" Bonbon pleaded.

"Sure, sorry I didn't want to get so nosy. How about we move over to the living room and light up the fireplace?" Lyra offered Bonbon which nodded thankfully and started to get over to the fireplace.

It had gotten pretty late by now, and a chilly breeze blew outside.

Lyra got herself comfortable on the couch and watched Bonbon lighting up the fire. Her thoughts trailed off.
She wanted to talk to Bonbon about a certain subject for quite some time now, but never managed to work up the courage to do so. But today, she thought, was the day. Bonbon had opened herself up to her and revealed her well kept secret to her and now it was her turn to reveal a secret. But Lyra was scared, that Bonbon might not share her feelings, she wasn't even sure if Bonbon was into mares. After all, Bonbon had never brought home anypony for the night or ever talked about the subject of sex.

"Lyra are you alright?" Lyra had been so lost in thoughts, watching the now crackling fire that she hadn't realized, that Bonbon stood next to her.
"Oh yea, sure, sorry. Why don't you hop up?" Lyra said patting the spot on the couch next to her. Bonbon climbed up close to Lyra. Both enjoyed the warmth radiating from the fire and each other.

Lyra couldn’t quite enjoy this as much as she wanted to because she tried to work up the courage to confess her feelings for Bonbon.

"Bonbon?" Lyra cautiously asked.

"Hmm?" Bonbon hummed.

"I think it’s my turn now to tell you a secret now. I feel like this for a while now and I never had the guts to tell you, but I really, really like you. Like, more than a friend, you know?" Lyra confessed.
There was a moment of silence, fear of rejection building up inside Lyra.

"Oh wow. Lyra, I always thought you are pretty sweet but I never thought about us being more than just friends.” Bonbon said laying a hoof around Lyra. “Although I could imagine you as my marefriend." She said with a wink "Lets just take it slow for the moment, ok?"

"Everything you say Bonnie" Lyra whispered, scooting closer to Bonbon.
She was relieved, that Bonbon didn’t reject her right away and more than willing to give Bonbon all the time she needed.

They both spend the evening snuggling together and agreed to share a bed for the night, just for cuddles.