DarkHeart Diary

by JeffHasTurnedIntoAPonyRF

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DarkHeart Diary

September 21st 2008

Dear Diary....

I sit alone in my room with my hooves against my gloomy window looking out at the darkness, pain, all I feel is pain, I am so alone, nopony cares, not even Twilight Sparkle, kindest of all ponies in Equestria.

When I was three years old, my parents left me on Celestia's door step. She saw me and screamed, ugly, ugly is all she said, and she's right, she was right, I'm the only pony in Equestria that isn't beautiful. I'm different to all those stupid ponies, I like different things...... They just laugh and call me names, especially Rainbow Dash. Rainbow Dash is always bragging about how much “cooler” she is, but one day I'll show them all. I'm the coolest pony. I may not be pretty and I may not be as smart but I am the coolest of them all and I have the coolest name, not a baby one like Fluttershy, or Rarity, my name is Dreamy DarkHeart!

For many years I have been left alone in the darkness just singing dark depressing songs in my room and every now and then ponies come around to laugh at me, and call me names, I don't go outside, if I did they would see, my secret, my darkest secret, I don't tell anyone except you diary, I shall now tell you my biggest secret of all, this is my very first time writing in you but I feel you need to know this, even though your just dumb paper, ok so really I'm just writing in you because I have no friends and I'm so alone...

I cut my hooves when I'm all alone in my room, every second I feel pain but I don't care because the cutting is relieving and makes me feel a bit better and then when I don't feel anything anymore I do it again and again so blood flows out of me.

September 22nd 2008

Dear Diary

Hey I buckin hate this life, I'm so sick of it, nopony gives a buck about me. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, this sucks, I just wanna die. I'm gonna cut. Cutting. Pain. Help. Self hate. I have nothing to say today. I feel NOTHING except pain, pain, pain.

My parents didn't even care enough to help me live and just left me on Celestias GOD DAMN DOORSTEP, I hardly knew them!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can I just die? I had no food for three bucking weeks and survived, how is this possible? Why do I even exist? I'm a mistake, that's what my parents put in the note they left with me on Celestias doorstep!

September 30th 2008

Today I woke up and had an idea, and I wonder why I never had it before. Why don't I kill myself, nopony would care, I can just cut till I die, 300 cuts should do. Goodbye cruel world. Goodbye. I hope all other ponies die!

October 1st 2008

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I survived my suicide attempt. BUCK. BUCK. BUCK. Can I just die already!? Cutting didn't work! Ever heard of death by blood loss you stupid bucking world!?????? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

All cutting did was make me uglier and relieve me! AHHHHHHHHHHH. But now I feel worse! I can't even kill myself right!

October 13th 2008

Dear Diary

Today was actually a good day, finally! So a new pony came to town and she's actually nice. She is a lot like me, and she also got bullied by Rainbow Dash, Twilight, Fluttershy, AppleJack, Rarity and Spike.

Everypony brags about how nice the six are but in reality they are horrible, This new pony's name is Suika, and she told me what she does if she's mad or sad. Ok so Suika, well she tortures ponies, ok so she uses her magic to keep them alive and conscious and also sometimes just to cause them even more pain.

She doesn't do stuff like burning or anything. She uses an extremely blunt knife with slices through it to stab them. She sometimes kills, well actually mostly kills by pinning them to the ground and pushing down on their front hoof until their skull cracks and the shards of their puny little skull cut into their brain. She can spin the blades on her wings separately just like drills, and also her magic can cause to much pain to think, and that's when she's in a good mood.

October 14th 2008

Dear Diary

Today I had a thought, Suika is so great, when she was telling me about torturing other ponies I didn't think of doing it myself, but now, OMG it's such a great idea. Instead of taking all this shit out on myself I can kill ponies.

I called Suika and she thought I would be great at it, so we creeped all the way over to Fluttershy's house and I was wearing a dress made of flesh. And we brang Fluttershy back to Suika's house and tortured her for hours and then Suika did the honours of killing her, put her lights out and then I put her back in her own house, we made it look like it was suicide.

All the other ponies are going to be so shocked mwahahahahaaaaaaaaaa.

October 18th 2008

Dear Diary

This is not my diary <^.^>

It's me Suika and I am writing in Dreamy's diary, well, because I found it and I can.

Dreamy seems to like killing, I guess it kinda works with her as my friend. I don't know why, but she seems to also wanna hurt herself... Oh well, I guess she's kinda like my sister Skyweb.

I hope Sky doesn't read this or she'll be reminded...

Well anyway, I think Dreamy is a good friend. I should see how she does working in the Rainbow Factory. It'd be good to try and get her working there. I mean, she seems to enjoy hurting ponies, so why not? I'll see though... And if she fails me... Let's just say she'll still get to see torture, but this time she won't be enjoying it.. Heh...

Dreamy will never even see this

How often does she write in her Diary anyway? It's not like she'll care, as this is just a warning anyway. I'm helping, kinda. I mean now she knows not to do anything stupid. Hey Dreamy, if you've been reading this, take the warning to heart!

Because I mean it, and you know how I am. I guess you shouldn't have too much trouble though, I mean, I don't think you're gonna mess up. But making sure you know what'll happen if you do is a good way of ensuring another pony to help with my torture. As long as you don't kill yourself before that... Oh well, I'll try and put up with you 'till then. Bye Dreamy!

Suika Sora

October 20th 2008

Dear Diary

I see Suika found my diary hmm and wrote in it. I guess it's sorta ok cuz she was talking about torturing ponies, but what is this Rainbow Factory I most ask her, or maybe she'll read my diary again!

I know I said it's ok that she did but it's really not! This is my private property and she has gone through it, why was she even in my house? It's sorta weird. I don't get it. I have lots of questions to ask her but she's really busy, and anyway she's immortal so I can ask her anytime in my life.

It's sorta awesome having a friend but she's immortal and can't feel pain, whereas I can so if a pony tries to attack us while we are torturing them I could get hurt... It's just so complicated...

But at least no pony will find out and if they do, well, we can kill them, mwahaha. I luv this, torturing other ponies is so great. DEATH. We kill them and I make it look like death by suicide so all ponies are so shocked and the newspapers have shocking articles. Ah this is way better then taking out all my problems on myself, and since I didn't die from my attempt to, the ponies that teased Suika and I shall die themselves!!!

October 25th 2008

Dear Diary

Huh, so I guessed you read this Dreamy? Hell, I knew you was gonna. The Rainbow Factory is something you might like. Also, the way you make it look like suicide all the time... No pony's gonna be scared. I want to make sure they know it's me, but it's difficult when you do that. Although I guess I shouldn't blame you. You're not immortal like me, and you probably don't wanna end up in jail.

But Dreamy you've GOT to see the Rainbow Factory sometime. It's just gonna be one of those things you'll enjoy. Rainbows are not made how you'd expect. Ponies contain something called Spectra that gives them their colours. Fear also makes the Spectra brighter. We kill them painfully, and keep them conscious, and it produces the best Spectra. No pony ever guessed how the rainbows were made! Sun and water? Pfft, that's just them trying to hold back their curiosity.

Also, I wasn't in your house. You dropped your Diary outside your doorstep so when I came to see you, I saw it, and wrote in it. <^.^>   Also I want you to meet Pinkamena. Pinkie may of been mean to you, but that was public. She was acting. She's actually my friend. She tortures ponies to make cupcakes out of them. She even did it to her best friend Rainbow Dash!

I just wanted to make sure you knew this Darky, and plus, since when do you leave your house unless you're coming to see me? How could I even be in your house without you there?

Also I can rewind time and I was actually here way before you, but I wanted to torture and kill everypony again so I came back.

October 27th 2008

Dear Diary

Suika and I were talking about the Rainbow Factory today because of her previous entry in here, and I also told her not to write in my diary ever again, but knowing her she probably will.

Now back to talking about the Rainbow Factory. We were talking about it and I really liked the idea of killing ponies for their Spectra, so we could create rainbows. Suika introduced me to Pinkamena and gave me one of the cupcakes made out of Rainbow Dash, yummy.  And then we all went to The Rainbow Factory. Rainbow Dash's lil' sis, Scootaloo, was there and she was my first victim in The Rainbow Factory.

I'm now a worker there with Suika and it is so great, I'm gonna go there everyday if I can.

I'm really getting into this torturing buisness with Suika and it's lots of fun. I'll see you later diary, Suika and I are gonna go murder some dumb innocent ponies. MWAHAHAHA