Dear Mr Diary....
By derpyhooves15
Dear Mr Diary
The doctors gave you to me today, they told me they need a record of my condition and personal life so they can compare them and figure out whats wrong with me. In truth, i think they have no idea, and just want to use this to study me, like I'm some strange creature. But i shall humor them. Today i went to the hospital, to have my eyes checked out. Ever since i was little filly they've been not quite right, but recently they've been getting worse, half the time i cant even fly or walk straight, and recently, I've been getting real bad pains in my head then after i get all dizzy and cant think properly. The good thing is my daughter, Dinky, has been looking after me when my eyes go all bad. Other good news is that i got enough money to buy the shop near the town hall, I'm going to call it "Derpy's Muffin Emporium".
From Derpy Hooves
Dear Mr Diary
I finally bought the shop. I bought it from Filthy Rich, he told me its in good a location. It is across the street from the town hall, an there is a lot of light and Dinky likes that, she was real happy when we moved in cos she got a real good view and her friends live real close by. I've got to make a load of muffins for when we open in a few weeks, an Pinkie is real excited, and I am real excited to cos i can get a lot of money which i can spend on Dinky, and by a pet. an i can put money towards finding out what is wrong with me. Now i come to it, i have bin feelin slightly better than normal cos my head don't hurt as much when i do more complicated stuff now, but i still fall over sometimes.
From Derpy Hooves
Dear Mr Diary
Today has been really good! Me an Dinky opened the store up for the first time today, we had a really lot of customers. I counted how many muffins we sold and we sold more than 600, although Pinkie Pie bought loads of them, she even asked me to leave all the bad ones for her muffin fight in a few moon's time. I've been feeling better today, my eyes aint as bad and the hurt in my head don't come as often, ain't even felt dizzy once. Dinky even says i look better, she getting pretty good at most things now, i might see if i can get her into the gifted class at Ponyville school. She would real like that, she likes a challenge, and it will make her happy, and when she is happy, I feel happy, and then things are good an i don't feel bad as much and the hurt stops sometimes.
From Derpy Hooves
Dear Mr Diary
Today has been fantastic, not only did Dinky get into the gifted class after me begging them for weeks, but Princess Cadence and Shining Armour are comin to Ponyville with their little Filly, Honey Drop. I think they might come in my shop so I'm gunna make the place look properly good for them. I been feeling much better now. My eyes are so much straighter that some ponies don't even recognize me., I also don't have my head hurtin any more. I think I'm nearly a normal Pony now, but i like this diary stuff, so I will keep writing. I think Dinky was keepin her own diary to, but when i try an look at it, she wouldn't let me see, an she said it was a surprise for me when i was real all better.
From Derpy Hooves
Dear Mr Diary
What Have I Done! The Princess and her husband came into my shop and i was properly nice to them and everything, and i was talking to them and all, and when i looked at Honey Drop, she was on the floor holdin her belly and making really nasty faces and she was hurtin pretty bad. She had eaten one of the bad muffins i left out for Pinkie. Then Twilight sparkle came from nowhere and used her magic to send the filly and the princess and her husband to the hospital. She gave me a real bad look and the ponies outside started shouting at me for being stupid and leavin them muffins out. She didnt look to good but i hope she get better. Although my head dont hurt and my eyes are straight, i still feel awful.
From Derpy Hooves
Dear Mr Diary
Not a good day today. I went to see Honey Drop in the hospital, and give her a card and a good muffin, but when i got there the Princess hit me really hard with her hoof, and told me to go away. I looked at Honey Drop and she was in a real bad way, she looked really pale and her eyes were hardly open. I tried to say sorry and that it was an accident but then Shining Armour shouted at me real loud and made to kick me. Then i ran real fast out the hospital and loads of ponies were shouting at me, and some even throw stuff, they kept calling me "The Filly Killer", but i didn't really understand cos honey drop weren't dead. When i got outside more ponies kept shouting at me, and i got real confused cos of the noise, I don't like noise. I think my eyes went all funny again cos a ran into a wall real hard and hurt my nose. I hope she gets better and they leave me alone.
From Derpy Hooves
Dear Mr Diary
I don't like myself. Last night Honey Drop was dead when they came to check on her, and her parents were real sad and there was a special news paper article to remember her. I was really sad to and i cried alot, cos i think it was my fault, even though dinky says "Don't worry mum, it was an accident" but i don't listen to her. Some ponies throwed a brick into my shop window and started shouting things at me, like retard and nag. And i shouted back telling them to go away, but all the ponies outside started throwing stuff at me, and started calling me names to, so I ran inside and hid under the counter and go'ed to sleep cos i was real sad and i didn't feel to good. Dinky woke me up when she came back from school but then my head hurted real bad like it used to, and then dinky said my eyes were all funny again. I got up to try and clean up the mess the brick did, but then my head went all funny and i fell over, and Dinky got real worried cos i couldn't get back up for ages. In the end she had to try and use her magic to get me up, then she got annoyed cos she didn't do her magic to good. But i told her it was ok, cos she is just a filly, an then I had to stay on the floor with the class until i could stand again, and it was real cold so Dinky got up close to me an made me warm and i felt happier.
From Derpy Hooves
Dear Mr Diary
I don't think Dinky loves me anymore. She shouted at me when she come home from school today cos some foals were real mean to her cos it was her mommy's fault Honey Drop was dead. And now they put her back in normal class, cos her teacher hates her mommy. I don't care how Ponies think of me, but i got real real sad when Dinky started shoutin at me cos she was being treated bad cos of me an what i did, an this made me sad, and so i started cryin. And then she shouted at me again for cryin, i cried some more, then she just walked out the shop, but ran inside crying. I asked her what was wrong, and she said a pony throwed a rock at her, an then i went outside and shouted, sayin to leave my Dinky alone, cos it weren't her fault, an she was a good filly, but they just chucked rocks at me, and it real hurt bad, an i started crying again cos it hurt bad and they were mean to Dinky, so they started laughin, and i tried to stop crying, but i couldn't, but then my head real hurt, real bad, an i fell over and every thing went all black. When i started see'in things again, it was night time and i was real cold, so i got's up and every thing started hurtin, an there was blood comin out my mouth. and then i went inside, and Dinky was shoutin for me, so i went upstairs, and i slept in her bed with her that night, and we was both real sad, but we couldnt cry no more cos we had cried loads during the day.
From Derpy Hooves
Dear Mr Diary
I am very scared. I woke up with dinky this mornin and there was a bad smell that i didn't like that was in the house and it smelled like burned muffin, so i went downstairs an it was on fire and there was some ponies running away outside. So i run back upstairs and shouted at Dinky and told her get up, cos there is a fire. And she woke up and started to scream and i grabbed her and ran out of the shop with her and put her down, and then i was stupid and i ran back inside and grabbed you of my desk in my room. So i grabs you and i run's back to the stairs and there is fire on them so i run back to my room and i jump out the window and open my wings, but my wings didnt work good and i hit the ground real hard and my leg was hurtin a lot but i then ran round the front of the shop to get my Dinky, but i got there and she was gone and there was loads of ponies. So i run up to one and said where is my dinky but he just gave me a bad look and then he walked of and all other ponies did same thing when i asked them bout her. The fire Ponies didn't turn up to put out the fire cos no Pony cares about Derpy anymore, but i cared about Dinky and i wanted to find her but my leg was hurtin and i tried to walk but my head then started hurtin and i had to sit down. Then everything started going Grey and then everything went black and i was real scared but then i went to sleep. When i woke up it was night time and i had slept the whole day an Dinky was still missing and my house was all burnt down, but i was cold, but i couldn't walk so i had to drag myself over to my burnt house and i stayed under some planks in the rubble. It was still cold an my coat was covered in all black soot which went in my eyes and it hurt real bad, an i wanted Dinky to be there, cos she would have helped me out a lot, an then i cried loads cos i wanted My Dinky back, i wanted her real bad, an i don't know where she is.
From Derpy Hooves
Dear Mr Diary
I am bad. I am bad cos Honey Drop is dead cos of me, I am bad cos i lost My Dinky and I am bad cos i feel bad. When I woke up this mornin my head was thumpin at me and it hurt, and i couldnt stand cos my eyes were real bad and my leg still hurt, but i was real worried cos i couldn't see no colours and everything was grey. and then i got more worried cos i couldn't even move my wings, an everything hurt so bad. so i got up as best I could and went to the hospital, an every Pony was laughin at me, but i didn't care cos i was in to much pain, and a Pony tripped me up, but then i couldn't get up. One Pony came to help me up and he started to walk me to the hospital, and every pony got angry cos he was helping me, and they all started shouting, and i cried, cos i didn't like the noise, and i missed Dinky, and everything hurt. when i got to the hospital the Pony who had helped me had to leave me cos some ponies chased him of, but i couldn't tell what was happining cos everything was just looking like a grey blur. the ponies wouldn't let me in the hospital and they told me to go away. But I couldn't move cos everything hurt so bad and i was feeling so sad. I kept blacking out, an they still wouldn't let me in so i went back to my home but i kept falling over, and this time no pony helped me up so i rested at town hall, even though my burnt home was just across the street, but i was so sad, and hurt, and i couldn't keep going. then i cried, and i cried lots, and everything kept getting more without colours. My life ain't no god anymore, an no pony likes me now Dinky is gone, cos she was my only friend after i made that filly dead. I don't want to be alive no more, it hurts me to bad.
From Derpy
Dear Mr Diary and Everypony else
If your reading this then you probably found out i was gone, i don't know where, but i wont be bad for you no more. I didn't want Honey Drop to die, it was my fault, but it was an accident i swear. I don't care how you remember me, or if you do at all, but please find my little Dinky, and tell her mommy went away to somewhere far,cos a good clever little filly like her, don't need a mommy like me, cos mommy was a bad Pony, and make sure she gets properly looked after please. I didn't want to see any of this happen, an i really wanted to make it good again, but i couldn't cos you always stopped me. It was your fault, it was everyponies fault, you turned my life grey.
Goodbye, from Derpy Hooves.
